non-lucid

remembered I was doing something in what seems to be a storage room in my house (which house I don't know).

Then I had another unrelated dream where I am Blossoms from Powerpuff Girls, and the Mayor asked us to cause damage to the neighborhood for some reason. We were in my first house that I lived until I was 7. We had a giant oversized orange frisbee. The other girls threw them at the satellite dishes on the roofs of the houses and missed. I couldn't throw at all. I never learned how to pitch IRL, so I'm like a girl

I didn't go to bed until 6 a.m. I figured my sister would wake me up, but that didn't happen, so I only woke up about 15 minutes ago. I don't remember anything.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

The Unmeritable Unmutable Organization of Vagueness:
Me and some other person are driving up the driveway of my house at night. We pull up and there's this weird old man standing there. We get out and give this old man some pictures we found, they were painted by this old lady ( who i assume was also weird because her paintings were weird ). The old man sits down and goes through all sorts of pictures, he seems very sad and focused, i believe this lady was someone he knew but died and these pictures were the only thing that was left. Either way, next thing i remember, i'm in my room staying the night at the house of this old man ( which is my house irl)

Now, you might be asking why i pulled up to my house in the first place or why i decided to stay the night there with that old man. Well, i vaguely remember something about me being the savior of the universe last night so i'm just going to assume this has something to do with that.

Now, it's night and i'm in my room and the creepy old man is in his room. I walk out into the hallway and i see a basket full of possum skeletons and intestines, that is absolutely disgusting. I somehow figure that this basket is a chinese shrine to his cat and he plans to put shrimp on top of the skeletons and have his cat eat them. Okay, well that was messed up. Stupid old man.

After that, i see an advertisement or something on my tv and it basically tells me that if i kill this old guy, then one of my friends will have to give me a video game. Now, i'm not sure if i killed him but i remember the old man dying.

After that, i find myself standing on a highway at night in an urban area talking to some other people, we're part of some rpg game and i'm picking my class and then there was also probably some other weird dream concepts involved with that but i don't remember. Next thing i see is this guy making his way to rescue me. The guy is in some rank nasty looking water, now imagine an ocean full of that nasty water. That's what he's in right now, and behind him is a settlement on the water, there's a couple of people on the dock next to him and an abandoned battleship, it's also night here.

The guy is in the water connecting boats every two feet. The guy just wants to get to his destination so he asks the people on the dock why he has to tie the boats and the people tell him that its because the water rises 3 feet. As the man said that, i instantly become the guy i'm spectating and the water starts rising fast, and before i know it, the darn water sinks that old battleship fast and it creates a big wave and it drags me under the water. Before i went under, i looked at the big wave coming and my face was like ' -_- really, the water has to rise now".

I eventually come up and i'm there laughing with a bunch of friends. I get out of the water onto the dock area. There this guy invites me to some organization with a funny name, but i forgot the name so i just named it The Unmeritable Unmutable Organization of Vagueness.

Once i join, i got to move over to the other side of the dock and hang out with the members. There was a bunch of people i know and it was really fun, then one of my friends takes me down a corridor into a room. As he does this, i start to focus on my sleeping body and start to lose the dream but as i'm doing this, i also gain lucidity and as that happens. I yell in the dream really fast "Are you lucid?" at my friend, The idea was to focus my mind more on lucidity and the dream and well it worked.

I then found myself looking at the floor, i looked up and my friend had turned into a child. Then i notice something written on the floor, it says "Valve: 91% happy". I thought this was hilarious and started laughing but it woke me up.

Deal Breaker:
I had remembered a lot of this dream and was going to log it last night but i fell asleep. The basic concept was me making some deal with this person but then he betrays me and starts trying to kill me.

Vampires - Survivors:
I'm a vampire and i'm in a group with other vampires. We are in this suburban area, the settings appears to be 1930's ish , the buildings are no more than 2 stories high and it's mostly residential.

However, almost all of the residents are gathered not too far off in the town square for some big party. What the residents don't know is that the government are slowly approaching the town square and are going to kill everyone.

Our vampire group is a little ways off from the town square, we are running fast, we're trying to escape the government. But first off, we need outfits to blend in with the current population. So we go into an alley in which i find some people, my group goes on ahead of us and i kill the people and take their clothes. i meet up with our group outside a hotel. Me and a girl in our group go into the bathroom and start changing into the clothes i picked up. The other members went into different rooms.

Next thing i remember. It's about 12 years later and i'm in an area in the northern part of the town. I walk into this dark hotel place. I'm there with just a couple of other members. They stay in the lobby room and i head down a hallway lighting up various rooms, i get to the end of the hallway and see a very creepy looking room, i decide not to look into that room and head back to the lobby. As i get there, one guy says he will join and we should head down the hallway.

Well, with him here, i suppose we can investigate the room. We find the room and once it's lit up, it's apparently the room of a beautiful vampire princess. After that, we check out the two remaining rooms, one room is a secret garden that contains magical properties that we must protect from the werewolves. As i meet back up with the remaining members in the lobby, the girls decide to go into the room of the vampire princess and start changing clothes in her shower.

I try to explain that the princess can see them changing in plain sight but they take their clothes off anyway. After that, i go to the airport where some members are waiting there for me. I find out that they got a plane taking us to vail colorado, nice!. As we get on the plane, this cute girl walks up to me and i grab her hand. Next thing i remember, the plane crashed into a mansion with an outside garden. As we crash, i receive objectives to complete. One objective was to collect some objects and i start doing that, one of the other objectives was to kiss something. For the kissing objective, i immediately start trying to find that girl that got on the plane with us.

I was in my room and there was a little girl (she was 5 or 6) with me. I don't know if she was my daughter, niece or some other relation but I was watching over her. We were playing and I dressed up in some extra clothes she brought to make her laugh. I looked ridicules with her tiny pink shirt on. She seemed entertained though.

I heard people talking in my living room so I went to close the door because I was embarrassed and wanted to quickly change back into a normal shirt before someone saw me. I slowly walked to the door so I wouldn't be detected and just as I put my hand on the door the girl started screaming and crying because I was wearing her clothes! Everyone looked up and saw me... I was so embarrassed.




The dream then shifted and later that day I was walking with the little girl in a store and she was walking next to me trying to suck up and get my attention but I wouldn't even look at her because I was still so mad at her for doing that to me. I felt she did it on purpose to bust me out and get attention for herself.




I was still embarrassed and upset when I woke up lol.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Train of leadership:
I remember the dream starting out with me on a bed surrounded by a group of other people, and then one of my friends calls me and i answer my phone and start talking to them. After that, i see a small town out in the middle of a desert like place, the town is being watched by one of those titans from 'attack on titan' but the titan is waiting for me because the town is controlled by a rebel group and i'm their leader. I then see myself standing in a suburban area at night, debating what i should do. Then i decided i should face the titan head on, so i get on a train with other people of the group and start heading out that way. ( this dream had a lot more to it but since i was really tired, i didn't attempt to wake up when i should have and etc. )

July 6th

Dream 1

I was at a pool party, I was watching something on the internet, then from a balcony I seen someone from my school flexing their muscles on the outside of the pool.

Dream 2

Somebody storms into a room and changes something, then carries on what they were doing.

Dream 3

MistaJams son died. The whole nation was very sad for him. He had lead poisoning, but when they went to the doctors nobody knew what was wrong with him and said he was fine.

Dream 4

I was sitting round a table with my family. Recently in real life I have to wear a mouth guard to sleep because I grind my teeth in my sleep and its starting to wear away my front teeth. So in thee dream I went to look at my tooth in the mirror see if they looked ok. I noticed my front tooth on the left had a round gap in the middle of it. I couldn't believe it! I went back to the table and showed everyone. They were saying stuff like, 'I don't think the mouth guards doing any good' and 'you need to go back to the dentist'. I then put in tounge in this gap and a little bit of it fell off, it fell into my hand. I put my tounge on it again then half of the tooth fell out! I spat it into my hand. My mouth felt horrible. I went back to the mirror to have a look. I had half a front tooth. It looked better than the massive gap, but I went back to the table and said when I go back to the dentist hopefully they will put something over the front of it. Then I was woke up.

Dream 5

I had to go and investigate this house with what was my work partner in this dream. I was in this street and I seen this house what I was investigating. It had a tank go through one end of the house and out the other. It was huge, we then looked down the whole street and all the house were like this. I walked into this houses back garden, it was one big patio and two girls were sitting on one of them swinging benches, emotionless. One had a green dress on and was staring into open space. The other had a bright yellow dress on, staring into open space with a cup of tea.

I grabbed the tea off the yellow dress girl and threw it away, I turned around then looked back and the tea had appeared again. I was so confused, I went to have a look inside and they both got up and walked inside. they said they were trying to help. However they were not, I took some photos and they started attacking. I ran out the house. Shut the door and put a plank of wood across the door, I looked through the window and they were walking round like zombies. I try calling the police. it ends.

Dream 6

I was in a town somewhere and it was night time, these people owned a record shop and they had a table set outside with a microphone. I walk round it and everyone is going 'Ryan, spray some bars.' I was embarrassed but I thought why not? I pick up the mic, the beat is running, I'm thinking of some lyrics. I decide to use Skeptas lyrics. I do a quick 16 and put the mic down. Then music starts playing randomly and Jaykae is on a bride preforming to the town.

Dream 7

Me and my brother had made it to the semi final of X Factor. We were known as Jedward (former X Factor people), everyone loved us. I was preforming and going mental in front of these thousands of people who were also loving the energy. After preforming I go backstage everyone tells me how good we were. I progress to the final somehow.

I'm then on the day of the final show, I was climbing up the scaffolding inside of a building sorting out something to do with the show. While I'm climbing I remember it dosen't matter how good we do we come 3rd. I seen it on tv, Jedward came 3rd! As we are climbing up this scaffolding it collapses, I fall under the rubble in pain. I climb out and the man who cause the collapse said he done it so he could get his friend out of jail.

July 7

Dream 1

I was in GTA and I was riding on a yellow bus.

Dream 2

I was at school in assembly and my teacher said to me 'You need to get rid of those spots, especially that one' He pointed to on my temple, i could feel it.

I was then in my bedroom. I had a spot on my forehead, it had puss in it. I popped that fine. I moved onto the one on my temple. I pushed my fingers together on it and it enlarged, it turned as big as an eyeball, it was white and spotty and had black round the outside. It was very disgusting. I became very scared. I thought a tumor was growing on the outside of my face. I ran and showed my brother. He didn't have much of a reaction, I showed my dad then my mum. My mum didn't care, then after a while she began too.

We ran to the computer, she was on it searching on google for what it was. She was searching on google images, I was telling her to look on search but she was not listening. I couldn't deal anymore and had to pop it. I ran to my bedroom and went to pop it. It was gone. I started feeling round my face, I could feel it under my skin by my mouth, I tried pushing it back up to my temple then I woke up.

Dream 3

I was playing battlefield in real life, I was trying to persuade my friend battlefield was better than cod. There was a sniper on the other roof and I could see his laser shining just outside our building. I say to my friend 'Watch this'. I smash the door run out behind this block. Shoot one guy down. it took me about ten shots, then I killed the sniper. The dream was in more detail but I'm getting tired typing now haha.

July 6-7
To bed around 10:30pm
Woke 5:20am

Fragment: I dreamed that something had happened to make me single again ( my marriage failed somehow), and I sought out a young man who had declared that he loved me when we were both 18, and at that time I did not reciprocate.

Fragment: I was staying in a hotel suite, and my mom was too. I needed to figure out where my mom would sleep: would she share my bed but the mattress was not big enough for two, on the couch but it was not comfortable enough, there was another bed but it belonged to another patron who was absent but might return any time. At some point my mom left a note for that other patron, but I pointed out that the note was in Polish and they were unlikely to understand it.

Dream: I was looking for a job, and due to the impending war I was looking in the US and not abroad. I was looking somewhere on the other coast though. There was one executive who interviewed me who seemed like he had ulterior motives. When he asked me to go change into other clothes, I refused, but then he said that we would pretend I was an executive, and showed me a name tag with a title for me, and for some reason I wanted that. In the room I was changing, another woman was changing too. She warned me that this guy had ulterior motives, and I said I knew that.

Fragment: in pet store, measuring cups, aquarium, what's the default measure

Dream recall from today's nap.

Dream 1:

I was playing warcraft 2 with K and SilentEternity, we ahd bases grouped together on the southern part of the map, enemies had few bases on the southern part as well, and more bases on northern part, separated from us by the lake. Our main buildings apparently could produce any air units right from the start, i started making basic buildings and a dragon, K was making helicopters for scouting but they were taking way too long for some reason, so i said to not worry about scouting, i then build two zeppelins really quick as well as two mini-flying soldiers apparently, then another dragon. My zeppelins and flying soldiers scout the map and since fog of war was turned off soon the whole map got revealed, zeppelins had weird teleporting ability. I send dragons at nearest enemy.

Dream 2:

There was an AI War update(in dream) apparently that added some weird map types and a bunch of new stuff as well as changing some bits of interface and fixing some things. I started the game and the galaxy map... looked like it was ground map of some city. There were 'buildings' controlled by AI that could be accessed from certain wormholes, also they had effects when captured as well as when under AI control, some building was adding AIP of all things.
Next change i noticed was that all scouts had same max cap of 24, and also building interface was different, the mk1 units were on the top and mk3 on the bottom. I started scouting planets and remembered about another part of an update, AI owned planets right next to starting homeworld started 'disabled', meaning not having guard posts and even AI fleet, until station on any of them would be destroyed, then they would start building guard posts and getting reinforcements.
I was trying to scout through but i remembered the part of update that added mini-exo waves that were spawned if any unit goes through further than 'disabled' planets without capturing at least one. I send my fleet to capture it then made more scouts and sent them to scout more planets, but their pathfinding failed and i had to retarget them a few times.

Dream 3:

I was reading some forum game with images, which was about some man who got lost in city, when then everyone disappeared and it got dark. He was trying to search for everyone but then some woman appears and tries to kill him with hammer.
That's as far as forum game updates went, then i got distracted for a bit with some other page, but as i returned there were more posts, man managed to get out of situation and was exploring some basement, two other players were allowed to join as some kind of ghosts to help him< sending actions through PM, one of users was named 'moomoo' or something like that.
Finishing reading, i look around and notice lots various chocolate foods on the bed in bags. I realize that i must be dreaming and decide to try one of foods because why not, i try to get one from bag but bag gets empty and foods teleport into another one. Then some voice distracts me and i lose lucidity, but i still have strange feeling. I go to the door and open it. Some person walks straight out of the door itself after i open it, making me go 'Huh' and reminding me that i am dreaming. He goes away, i say 'Wait' and then dream fades out and i wake up.

1. [non-lucid]
I visited my friend (Alex) at his house. I was telling his mum how to put my harness on in the kitchen, she found it really easy and didn't struggle at all.
Now I'm in Alex's room, the room layout had changed, Alex retreated into his bathroom so i waited, as I waited I noticed on the desk to the right of where the door is there is a PC on it with a mouse and keyboard...anyway, on the screen theirs a Dog/Wolf like creature (It was dark grey with white tufts of fur around its neck) so I moved the mouse to get a better look, Its in a game probably an MMO of some sort.

Alex came out of the bathroom and was using the 2nd desk which was half blocking his bathroom for some reason so I went over and I think I started a conversation about something.

Fragments:
I'm in an old minibus that used to take me to school with the same bus driver.

Notable Items & People:
Black square PC monitor, Wheelchair battery, Alex's Mum.

Today i dreamt that i was seeing breaking news: "A baby dinossaur was found in girantina" (I have no idea why it had a pokemon name, but it was just written there).
They were recording on a helicopter, then i saw a guy's hand getting out of the helicopter and caressing the dinossaur.
Suddenly i teleport to the local and i see the dinossaur is huddled and it's scared.
I see some men climbing the dinossaur's body and when all men are on his body, a guy counts
"3,2,1, stretch!" they stretch the poor animal and broke their ribs, i start to get in panic and upset at the same time.
The animal becomes little i don't know why. I get it and give it a hug, i take it with me and then i teleport to a mystical garden at night.
My brother appears next to me (i don't know why) and i start talking to him about that little dinossaur.
I said to my brother: "hey, it could be hatching eggs if it was a female, how do we know if it is a female?"
He stood quiet, and suddenly we started to get attacked by shining red-eyed bats. I wanted to protect that animal
so bad, so i ran off the forest and my brother came with me. After we got out of that forest, the dinossaur
got off of my arms and ran away, i was screaming for the name i was thinking giving it to him sadly.
"Dino, Dino, come here!! don't run away!" <-- i said that.

(not a very original name i know, but my dreams are very random).

Date: July 6, 2013
Bedtime routine: MILD & WBTB (WILD attempt, but kept falling asleep)
Total sleep time: 6-7 hours

Dream

I was this person's every meaning for existence. He held me close in his arms as if my life depended on his touch, he cradled my head and looked deeply into my eyes as he rocked me to sleep in his arms like a baby. My skin felt every bit of his exhalation on my face as he leaned in close to me to make sure I was resting. My eyes were close as I listened to his heartbeat as my head pressed against his strong, broad chest. Even though my eyes were closed, I still could feel his stare upon my body as he refused to take his eyes off of me. I squinted my eyes as my thoughts were confirmed as I could see him follow my breathing pattern with his gaze. He would watch my breast rise up and down with each breath, slowly moving my long straight hair off of my chest with his hand...his hands shaking slightly but ever so gently. He treated my body like I was fragile as glass as he carefully shifted positions to make sure I was comfortable. Being as quiet as a whisper, he cautiously rubbed my arms (still rocking me) and told me how special I was. Oh, how loved I felt by him! Never wanting that feeling to end, I cried for what seemed a lifetime, for I somehow knew that it had to end because he was not mine to love...he was someone else's husband.

Note: I woke up totally confused after this dream...but, I never felt so loved and cared for in my real waking life. No doubt.

I was at my school. Which school, I have no bloody idea. I think it was my current school, but everyone here is speaking Thai. We were in a PE class, even though I don't have them anymore IRL, and we were playing some kind of bizarre combination of tennis and five, where you play tennis with your hands. The court is divided into either four or five smaller courts, with a pair playing at each of them. I was playing pretty badly and the tennis ball rolled off. When I went to get it, somebody told us to line up. My friend said it's the military recruitment programme.

We went into a bus, and the annoying drill sergeant doesn't let us use your electronics. When we were finally at the headquarter, he went off somewhere and we all kind of faffed around. Then I found out later the students are supposed to report for examination according to their number. I do not know my number, but I decided I would be told later and didn't worry about it.

I then tried to have a shower. After I'm done, I was putting my clothes on when one of my friend, naked, snatched my pants. I was annoyed and tried to get it back, and even though IRL I think he's attractive, I don't really care about his nude body and his flaccid penis though I saw it. He soon got bored and gave me back my pants. Note that it was a pajama pant, and I don't wear boxers to bed.

I grew worried about my number, and I went and asked around about it to no avail. I got frustrated and went on a rant to my friend about how the military is full of conservative pigheaded old philistines who would rather stick to old, obsolete customs even though they have new technologies and the world is moving on. They would rather use their brawn than brain, and would smash obstacles rather than using tactics.

My friend, the other one, who is a thai, said that he'd smash obstacles too, and that is what he do in his games. He would cheat and one-hit-kill annoying bosses.

Then later we walked down some street, me apparently not caring about the military examination anymore. I started to talk to him about stupid conspiracy theories and how I think they're all bullshit. I think I told him what if what you do in dreams actually affect some distant alternate dimension, he laughed. I remembered that I was about to talk to him about the theory where the Anunnaki rules the Earth and manipulate the media when I woke up.

06.07.2013

Eating Cake with DeadDollKitty & Shoulder Workout of Death with the Grim Reaper (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I expected to have shorter dream recall than usual, but it seems even when I'm not even trying to recall my dreams to the best of my abilities with WBTB and such, I guess being over-analytical of things in life helps a lot in dreams. Guess that's a good thing, seeing how I'm getting better with hypnosis, and because I haven't made a hypnosis script to just have better recall with my dreams, these are just mini-novels compared to what I can potentially do with hypnosis.

It's truly amazing, and I'm always finding more ways to apply hypnosis to create triggers for other sensations unconsciously. It's unfortunate that some people never marvel or even want to revel in the thought of seeing hypnosis in a completely different way beyond their spectrum of misconceptions behind it. Anyway...

I'm with a dream character that has a mix of looking like DeadDollKitty and probably the Angela Varona that had the ABC interview of how she became an Internet sex symbol. One part of me wanted to believe that this dream character was more like DDK though, so I decided to just go with that instead. Seems we became close friends somehow, seeing how she asked me if we wanted to work out in the gym.

We're both outside, and it looks like it rained recently or it felt like it was going to rain. It mostly felt like the first presumption, seeing how the concrete below us was saturated with a darker gray color that's very wet as we're walking together. The grass to the right of us looked pretty wet itself, even though I didn't bother looking for mud-holes or anything where the soil is. You know how you can get the feeling that the grass is wet or not before you actually step into it? That you can notice the difference even if the area you're at is completely new to you and you didn't have a mental map of it in advance? That's exactly how it felt, and even though the analysis of just being aware of the grass itself would be trivial and petty, it felt pretty interesting for me to recall something like that, or to even be aware of that in the dream.

The sky around us, it had a calm and relaxing atmosphere around us, and is mostly a medium tone gray color with blue thrown in to make it less monotone and dull. I can recall some white specks here and there as well, and it felt like the sun within the dream wasn't going to show up at all. All of this was processed within a few seconds, seeing how most of my attention at the moment was on the dream character replica of DeadDollKitty,

DDK, she had a completely different vibe to her, at least how I interpreted her on chat when she comes on rarely. She didn't seem as cheerful in this dream, or at least even wanting to be gregarious with me. It was a weird persona this dream character was expressing to me, she wanted me to follow her, and I kept up at a reasonable pace. It's almost as if she became stoic and combined with her body gesture of showing that she wants to walk faster to whatever location we're going so that I would just follow her and not get myself saturated on trying to analyze her persona too much.

She didn't seem to show any signs of lacking interest in me having company with her, it seemed something was heavily going on within her head. You know how you can tell a person essentially goes into a trance with themselves when speculating about something and still manages to walk just fine to their destination? It felt like something bad was going to happen within her mind, and because I couldn't really go into her mind so easily and was more disheartened by her slight depression, it just made things seem much worse than they should be.

It got to the point where I had to know what it was she was thinking within her mind, what exactly was she thinking at that time? She gave off an impression that she was calm, collected, and at ease and yet it's as if her body language was telling me that she either wanted to find solace in some way but was too distracted with anxiety to hopefully come to terms with me and talk things out. She's wearing a black leather jacket of some kind that extends down to upper waist region, and she's wearing a white blouse underneath, the type of blouse that has folded sections and then wrapped with a strap in the middle.

The top of the blouse has nice spacing that makes her breasts the center of attention with how the black leather jacket makes a huge contrast for her Apricot colored skin. Although, with the hue this atmosphere outside in the dream gives, her skin is a bit more pale than usual, being a little bluer, as if the reflection from the sky truly made an impact in how I conceptualized her changing skin tone later on in the dream.

Her hair is dark brown, smooth, silky, and almost feels as if it was attached to her hair, it was too perfect in fact. Then she had long tight leather pants, or maybe even in the category of being between latex and leather. My recall of her pants in particular is kind of patchy, but I think that on the outer regions of her ankles, there were a few rectangular holes on the tight black leather-latex pants she wore that were aligned horizontally. Combine that with her black Motorcycle Biker Slouch Double Buckle Mid Calf flat boots (that had a top that was mid-way in reaching her knee), she was the classic biker chick.

That impression alone with her outfit, and her seemingly being in a hypnotic state of being with possibly speculating about things going on in her life that she probably felt she didn't have control over only added on to my curiosity for her. We continue walking in a moderately fast pace of walking, and whatever our destination ended up being, all I could recall for this moment while walking with her is blurry batches of green, gray, red, blue, violet, and a small streaks of yellow.

I believe the DeadDollKity dream character informed me that we're going to the gym to workout together, but with the clothes she was wearing, and what I was wearing, it felt kind of odd going to the gym. What I wore exactly is hard to recall, at most, I was probably having a similar vibe with the persona she had as this biker chick. I remember wearing a black shirt, black belt, and a black dress pants that had smooth creases along with black lace less shoes most likely, or just regular black biker men boots.

So maybe based from the clothes we were wearing, we came off a motorcycle or something, seeing how we found ourselves still moving reasonably fast as we're walking. The sensation was like this, you know how you walk or run on a treadmill for a good bit, and then when you come off and go on a different surface, you notice your mind still has the predisposition that you're still engaged with using the treadmill? That your legs are still slightly vibrating and you feel the very same ground you're now on moving a bit?



Of course, I'm not trying to make mind vs. body with skewed dualism, but hopefully you'll get the idea of how it felt. Also, another thing that I noticed with the DeadDollKitty dream character is how she had her whole left arm down vertically while she uses her right arm to make an L-shape across her stomach to hold onto the elbow of her left arm. It didn't come as a realization in the dream, but maybe she was hurt in some way, seeing how with her fast pace of walking, she probably wanted to find help right away.

The dream shifts, or my dream recall of what happened before we reached our destination occurs. We're now in a building that is pretty interesting in its composition. It seems that it's always changing, or maybe it's due to my growing awareness of the surroundings that makes it interesting.

DeadDollKitty had a completely different vibe to her, her countenance was alluring, it was impossible for me NOT to gravitate towards her visage frequently as I tried to socialize a bit with the dream characters within the building. I ended up making smooth by quick jerks to gaze at her visage a bit more while being occupied and confused on what to do next in this building.

I expected that we were going to work out, but that didn't seem to be the case. What was now a dark environment within a building was now filled with lighting and the realism of the dream was augmenting, but it still left that subtle hint that this all was a fantasy.

I could say that I was lucid in this dream, but it's one of those dreams where you don't even care about your level of lucidity, you just let it happen. You just let yourself become confused by the dream logic, of how the very same girl I was walking with that had this persona of feeling rushed, desperate to find support to heal her presumably injured arm into someone who comes down-to-earth, relaxed, and care-free.

The dream characters started to come together, and I had a sense that we would all end up eating together. I noticed long tables facing horizontally in my direction (as you're looking into the screen), and I can hear a few food carts rolling in. I get an automatic thought that it was going to be dessert coming in, but that could be DeadDollKitty along with the random set of dream character's chattering in the background of looking forward to eating cake.

For a moment, I found myself in a trance just like DeadDollKitty was when we were walking towards this destination. I found myself easily embracing my confusion and how I unconsciously built predispositions to prepare myself of being gregarious with the dream characters.

You know how we tend to have less conscious critical awareness of our actions and let them ebb and flow? And how we tend to be more suggestive and in agreement with others once we eased ourselves in their perception of looking at us? It's almost as if that despite of the fact that I was only fixated on DeadDollKitty's existence in the dream, even with my peripheral vision, the dream characters surrounding me had an augmenting aura of trying to reach out to me.

Because of this, because I can feel how they're naturally kind and sociable to me, my body becomes loose, I noticed my muscles becoming loose, my whole posture in general was relaxed and prepared to just get into the experience. I think I recall an elderly female touching my shoulder. Just one touch and I started to expand my 360 vision within the dream and noticed she had glasses on and a slightly buzzed short hair style.

The type where the ends are curly, loose, and in all directions. Her visage had small variations of creases, but they weren't that bothering to see. Her outfit in general consisted of a slightly diluted swamp green mixed with brown colored dress jacket and dress pants. I believe she wore a dark red shirt as well, and her skin tone was surprisingly full of life with its apricot-like hue.

I believe her touching my right shoulder was for me to unconsciously receive that as a cue to feel free to find a seat. So as I find myself realizing my conscious critical awareness in this dream, and the lucidity that naturally finds its way into my schema of this dream, I paused for a moment and looked around and everything seems to been made in a nice and fit package of just one of many things I think anyone would want in a dream.

Unconditional love.

And I started embracing the unconditional love and genuine nature of the dream characters that were enjoying each others' company and my company as well. They welcomed me with open arms, but they didn't need to express that directly. Their body language, their tonalities, the aura they gave out of having something within them forming into some kind of phantom hand pouring out its positivity and slowly trickling its fingers on my body.

I decided to take a random seat, and realized I'm not sitting near DeadDollKitty, the same person I was so attached to just a few moments ago was now considered someone equal to me. Her visage, her beauty, her youthful composition was just as equal as the elderly woman that touched my shoulder a few moments ago as well. But I still paid more attention to DeadDollKitty, mostly because I still held my attraction of her just a bit more.

I noticed for a fleeting moment, a moment that intensified as my awareness augmented, she was exhuming more confidence towards me. Her visage was flirting at me, practically just waiting for me as she folds her arms and raises her eyebrow at me in curiosity. It's almost as if this time, she's probably wondering what was on my mind just like I had the same curiosity before when she was talking in hypnotic gesture.

She's wearing a white sweater, only making myself having more presumptions of how she's sustaining her down-to-earth demeanor towards me and everyone else in the dream. For that moment, we both had the type of sentience and sapience where all that really matters was that we were going through this mental dance of teasing each other by distracting our awareness of ourselves with the other dream characters, and them coming back to just us paying attention to our awareness again.

I wanted to get closer to her, but our distance didn't really matter, I already felt her aura surrounding me even when she's just there patiently waiting for me to make a move to sit next to her. For a moment, the dream characters were seemingly non-existent, and her existence continued to become more lively. I started to look into her eyes a bit more, couldn't make a good distinction of the color, but I'm presuming it's between hazel, brown, or just pure green. I guess when her more saturated colored brown hair, green eyes would be more appealing to make her brighter.

Her cheeks were defined on the outer regions of her face, it was weird, it was fluctuating between being defined and not as apparent to me. You know how in video games where if you're close up to a character, you can see the sharpness of their whole body composition while the people in the background are literally just blobs and blurs? And this isn't just talking about our peripheral vision, it's when the developers create this system to imply peripheral vision for the character in the game viewing this.

It was exactly like that. My perception became a narrow tunnel, and I noticed my breathing is fluctuating as well. Mixing in with short breaths of lust over her figure and longer breathes that wanted to ease my libido. Breathing in lust, breathing out intentions of only seeing her as a friend in the dream. Imagine for a moment that in order to conceptualize what I just experienced looking at her, you know how when you're meditating, when you have that sense of silence after all those distracting thoughts become less intimidating for you?

When you get into a hypnotic state, or a trance of embracing the silence more? Where you start thinking unconsciously, and you're actually being aware of yourself thinking unconsciously? Where your primal instincts that you usually leave not being as developed as our more refined judgment now takes cover completely? Where we're this close from becoming animals wanting to fuck each other brains out, but then something within us restricts us from doing so?

I started becoming the unconscious, I started diving myself into this ocean where I let my unconscious govern everything that's happening to me. Almost salivating from her figure but closing my mouth to gulp it all down. And she knows this is happening, she continues smiling at me because of it, she keeps her position, as if she suddenly was like a person that models themselves so people can draw them in an art studio.

Then it became too much for me and I eventually came back to being consciously aware of the environment around me again. The dream characters that were blobs and blurs to me are now back again to their sharpness. DeadDollKity is still there, but with my 360 vision, she's not going to become a blur to me because I don't want her to be.

Sadly, this is the point where the dream recall goes down to crap again.

Losing my awareness, and not really caring that I did, the dream shifted into a completely different setting that now had a Point A to Point B to it. And it was because my emotions were the driving force in making things linear now. I'm completely out of the building where me and DeadDollKitty were looking at each other. She didn't exist anymore, the dream characters didn't exist anymore, it's just me again.

Then I started to get unconscious responses that the same DeadDollKitty character wanted to do a shoulder workout with me in the gym. I found my unconscious creating another model of her, only this time in a white sports tank top and very short blue shorts. She starts stretching her arms out, and it's just too much for me. As she's stretching, it's as if I'm purposefully finding my unconscious focusing on her breasts popping out more. Then she starts stretching her legs.


I shake my head, and she continues to say that we should meet at the gym again. Things started to become in-cohesive, and as I'm LITERALLY letting my emotions control my actions, I go into a "hands-off" approach to let things happen. I arrive at my destination, but it's clearly not a gym. More like going into an abandoned shed with a yellow light lamp above me conveniently (sarcasm) placed in front of me while the darkness is so apparent that something bad is going to happen.

And I knew something bad was going to happen, but again, I'm in a "hand-off" control in this dream. I noticed I was taking form of a female, one that resembles Ada, specifically the Resident Evil 4 version of her. I possessed her body for a moment with ease, and as I'm doing this, I can feel those tingly sensations and vibrations as I mold my consciousness into her form.

It was as like a stinging sensation, but it was completely pleasant to experience. I go back into caring less about the lucidity and seeing what Ada would do in this situation. I was in her body (of course I know it's an implication), and she quickly dodges some elderly man that was trying to stab her in the chest. He's wearing skin tight blue gloves, is bald, wearing circular glasses, and just suddenly became the enemy of this dream. He was in the process of wearing a blue grim reaper mask as he tries to stab Ada.

There were many moments where Ada was going to die, very, very, very close moments where just an inch off with the reflexes, and good bye to her dream body (unless I wanted to just bring it back to life). The old man becomes more irritated with her just moving too fast for him, and from there, I can't remember much after that.

The only thing that comes to mind as I'm fading away from the dream is seeing the back of Ada's body.

06.07.2013

Brushing My Teeth (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

So after the dream above, I woke up, had a false awakening basically. I was so into the thought of posting the dream eventually, and everything looked real to me. The sink, the toothbrush, everything, and then I think I went back to sleep.

Lol, missed a chance for lucidity, but oh well.

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Pretty fragmented recall, but that's alot of recall anyways, haha.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some FPS game that i really liked, coop with SilentEternity, at some point we were is some semi-destroyed building fighting some big insectoid thing. Then game suddenly glitched out and turned into something like half-life. One of weapons then gave ability to literally punch the enemy using a headcrab.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was watching an let's play of game that looked like KKND2, player was talking about some mission, telling that it's hard and failing horribly. Then i decided to try same mission and it was pretty easy, i was talking with SilentEternity and we just came to conclusion that that player was just really bad at it. Map was pretty open and i apparently could control units of different colors, red and purple, there were superadvanced mechanics as an bonus unit and i was placing alot of turrets. Enemies were trying to attack the base but failed and then i proceed to attack their huge base and won.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing Left 4 Dead, unlike IWL, it was solo game, i was progressing through some dark city and at some point i was in some small building, there was alot of broken glass and wood and there were melee weapons and each time i aimed at one, character was doing funny animation like thumbs up. I notice game having weird ambient sounds, which sounded like something from old Resident Evil games.

Dream 4(fragment):

I was playing some FPS game with SilentEternity and at one point we were searching for something in a dark maze of some kind. There was something about robots.

Dream 5:

I was watching some old XCOM let's play, the player took out alien base and then was doing fairly well on one crash site, then it turned out to be multiplayer and second player took control of the alien side and there was last one sectoid left, which killed off whole XCOM squad, then game glitched out almost completely with sectoid walking off in the glitchy distance.
I went to chat about it with SilentEternity and was suggesting some different XCOM game, then we were talking about TTS and he mentioned some new XCOM game. We decided to try it.
The XCOM base in it looked weird, like some kind of huge 3D underground rocket control center, then something broke and one of constructions collapsed. Then there was a mission in forest, i was controlling XCOM squad and had to clear the place of aliens, they were various and there was some aspect of bases, some of my troops could build barriers and turrets and aliens had some structures too. Eventually i won that battle and we decided to switch the sides.
On alien side there was alot of stuff and then we were doing similar mission. I had wide variety of units including some kind of bulky flying drones and an alien black dragon-looking thing that was very powerful and had ability to increase amount of time units for a turn and ability to get over barricades. I rushed XCOM craft location with all units i got so his forces had to retreat, victory.
Then there was some cutscene in space and it was giving some numbers about something, related to mass or gravity or something like that, SilentEternity says that numbers are totally wrong because they are simply too small for anything like that.

Hmm when is it called a fragment and when is it a full dream? I'd say when there is only one particular scene or situation then its a fragment, and if there is more I'll call it a dream. Here are 6 from last night, not sure if they are generally considered fragments or dreams. This is actually relevant for getting points in a DV-Academy competition that I'm currently in.

• I find myself on a big terrace on the first floor. It is made of concrete and there are concrete pillars all around it to hold the roof. There are ~10 people from my university, one is talking. He is very enthusiastic and he tells about his big and awesome plan and he shows a paper with notes. He explains that he created a treasure hunt with challenges on the way, but they are not easy. Everyone listens carefully and they ask questions about any hints. He promises that it will be very challenging but also very fun, and that the price is worth the effort.
  
  Never saw this place before. The guy who is talking is very quiet and not enthusiastic at all IWL.
  
  
• I drive on small paths through nature on a small tricycle for kids. It is very fast and requires almost no effort. It is fun and refreshing, the surroundings are densely overgrown with plants and small trees. I come to an open bedroom between some trees, my stepfather is sleeping in a bed and my sister is lying awake in another bed, the third one must be mine. As I lay down, I become aware that I'm not tired at all and I convince my stepfather and my sister to join me on a tricycle ride. At first they don't want to, but they enjoy it as soon as we get going.
  
  I like my subconscious idea about an open bedroom in nature. The situation must have been from a few years ago, because my sister was still a child in the dream, while she is older IWL.
  
  
• I am with a guy from my secondary school. We are at some kind of meeting and we have to present something. The projector is directed onto a small family house, so that the wall becomes the screen. There is a lot of text projected on the wall and my friend tries to correct the position of the text so that it is readable and does not overlap with the windows of the house. The content of the text seems irrelevant, it is all about the position and layout. So my friend talks while editing the text. Finally it is all arranged and readable for everyone, the text is concentrated on the outer wooden balks of the house and between the windows.
  Suddenly the projector swings around and makes all neighboring houses to one big screen. Now there is weird text projected on their walls, containing nonsensical and even insulting phrases.
  
  Haven't seen that guy for some years and suddenly we make a presentation on a house wall. Dream world, you can be very inventive...
  
  
• I am working in a big warehouse. I have a cigarette pause outside behind the warehouse and as I go back inside, I see all my stuff from my pockets lying on the ground. There is chewing gum, my phone, my wallet and my keys. I wonder how it came to lie there, but I don't worry about it and just pick it up again. Then I see one of my colleagues coming towards me and I hold the door for him. He seems to be in a very good mood and then he asks 'hey, have you ever called an ambulance?'. I say 'yes, why?' and he says 'hey you gotta try it, please call an ambulance now, just for the fun of it!', he smiles. I find it is a very stupid idea and I explain that I don't want to and I try to convince him that he shouldn't do it either. His mood drops as he realizes that there is nothing funny about it.
  I am in a little room, right beside the big hall of the warehouse. There are several black garbage bins. As I open the lids, I see that they are all sealed with an extra wooden lid, which cannot be opened.
  
  I used to have a job in the warehouse four years ago and have not been there since then. So this situation must be from some years in the past, but it didn't seem nonsensical for my dream logic at all. I guess time works differently in dreams and they can span many years into the past and are not particularly bound to the current life situation.
  
  
• There is a big footrace. Many people I know are around, they are from all kinds of friend groups and cliques I know, all mixed up. I want to participate in the race and I try to convince all the others to join me. Most of them don't really want to, but some of them are already among the runners and the race starts. I say screw it and begin to run after them, even though they already have a head start. I run past some friends who don't want to participate and I show them my middle finger while smiling. The route has many small curves and is wound around small flower beds. At one point it goes like an 8-shape, and the runners paths cross each other. When I come to the crossing point, I almost crash frontally and with full speed into one of my friends. We go aside the running track and laugh about it, 'imagine if we had really run into each other'. We laugh so hard that we can barely breathe. Then we slowly start running after the others again, while still laughing.
  
  Hmm many dreams about running recently... Maybe I should do more of it? Maybe it can become a dream sign?
  
  
• I sit at a table in a small room together with 5 other people. I know the guy to the right of me, he is a friend, but I have never seen the others. It is some kind of secret club or organisation and apparently I'm the new one. My dream memory tells me that I have been in the rival group previously, but that I am happy to be in this one now. We drink beer and wait for the 'leader'. As he arrives, he welcomes us all and gives free beer for everyone. I take a sip of it, but then one of the others whispers that we should wait with that a bit. Then my bottle falls to the ground by my friends accident, the others look irritated at us. The 'leader' explains something on a blackboard. Suddenly I see a flash of lightning on the blackboard, it is more like a chalk drawing of lightning, but it is dynamical like a normal lightning bolt. I try to explain to the others what I just saw and they smile, saying 'yeah, you will see more awesome things like that from here on!'
  
  Dunno what to say about this one. Well, didn't see that one coming at least.

My dream recall is quite good now, considering that I had zero recall of any dreams only a couple of months ago. Quitting regular cannabis consumption does indeed enrich the dream world very much. I'm still lacking a suitable LD induction technique, but I'm working on that.