non-lucid

(Note: These dreams were from yesterday, but I spent most of the day on the road antiquing, so I only had the time to write it up on my iPhone, so pretend the date is the 22nd here!)
Cory and I were sitting next to each other on an airplane at night. Most of the people on board were asleep, so the lights were dimmed. I was clutching a big puffy pillow and crying because I'd heard that a bunch of angels had died, but Cory didn't believe in angels so he thought I was being dumb and crying over nothing, which made me feel even worse. When we landed I decided to get my mind off it by working on a project, so I bought some supplies and started to build a model city. I remember sitting on the bed in the guest room of my grandmother's old trailer and fiddling with the parts. Then Cory came in with these cool mini lanterns that I realized I could put inside my model skyscrapers to make it look like their windows were lit up. It made me all excited and I told him my idea but he got mad at me because that was the reason he bought them and he thought I was taking credit for his idea. So I got stressed and started crying again. Soon after, mom came in the room with a computer and sat down next to me. She asked if I wanted to rent a movie so we looked at the Target website, which strangely enough had movies to rent, to find a movie since I knew that would cheer me up. I saw a list of old Disney animated movies like Alice in Wonderland and Sleeping Beauty, as well as DVD sets of Cartoon Network shows from ten-ish years ago like Dexter's Laboratory and Cow & Chicken. There was also a random DVD in the list called 'The Alabama Voices' that I recalled seeing at the store earlier that day when I went to buy my supplies. For some reason, whenever someone said the name of the movie, they had to sing it to the tune of 'The Neverending Story'. As we browsed the DVDs, I found out more angels had died so I had to excuse myself to go mourn some more, but Cory got pissed again thinking I was crying over nothing, which made things worse so I don't understand why he kept getting mad over it. Mom seemed to believe me though.

I was on a large college campus and classes had just let out, but it was raining too hard for me to walk to my car since I'd parked way up the road. I tried walking the distance at first, but as soon as I got to a fork in the road where I had to turn right to get to my car, the wind started to pick up so I ran to take shelter in the nearest building. I remember feeling scared that the building would blow away easily if a tornado came through, because it was such a small building. While I stood there watching the rain out of the hallway windows, a teacher walked by and said hello, but then went right outside and braved the winds. I thought he was crazy. Then I noticed that all the skin around my jawline where I normally shave felt really tight, so I felt it and realized it was all peely and gross like a super bad sunburn. I reasoned it must have been due to me getting rained on and not wiping the rain off before it dried, because the rain was very toxic in this area. I started freaking out and felt the need to get to a bathroom to fix my face. Unfortunately, there was no bathroom in that building so I ran out and made a mad dash for the next closest building (which was one of the main student halls that had lots of lockers everywhere). There was a bathroom there so I felt incredibly relieved.

I remember being in a cinema watching a film, I wasn't paying much attention to the film and I kept making the screen minimize smaller with my mind, I did it a few times accidentally then realized I was doing it after a while the screen kind of messed up so we left. We were driving home and there was this huge ramp going up to a stairs on the motorway, we drove up it and went flying in the air but didn't move and just fell to the ground we were all unharmed. We did it again and this time drove the car forward and went flying into the sea but we landed on a boat, I think we then fell off because I remember falling deep into the sea and kept trying to boost myself up.

(22/08/2013)

I had to go out and it was raining heavily outside, I waited until it stopped to leave my house and bumped into a friend who was waiting outside, he asked me how to go online to get the results but I replied that I wasn't sure how to do it. I then remember being in a lesson and I was sleeping, the teacher told me off and I just remember getting up from my bed that I was sleeping in, in the lesson. Near the end of the lesson someone was giving out these snacks which was a plastic plate with a milky looking food in it with a drink. When I left the lesson I noticed how different everything looked outside.

WBTB 4.5, mantra, Calea, NLD.
We are at a party with people I went to school with. It's my party, but is at one of the school mates' place. I go for a pee in a big bathroom with two doors. Afterwards some people from a later school show up and start making trouble. I tell one of them that he has to leave and the mood gets gloomy, but he leaves. The girl who lives there starts to go around talking about clearing up. I tell her that she doesn't have to worry because we will help her in the morning. She starts sorting out washing.
The next morning my girlfriend's parent's cars are gone. They must have been stolen. We tell her parents. I go around the house following a cord from some cameras outside. I can't find the videos.
Suddenly I have one of the thieves' perspective. We are boys, clearly trouble makers. We are parked at the side of the road. We hear the owners of the car coming and we run into the forest. I can hear the others getting caught behind me. I end up at a school where I meet "my big brother". He is disappointed in me.

I was on the side line watching the local football team, go up against a Chinese team.

The Chinese team were up by 8 points. The local team clawed its way back into the game. I was watching someone I used to play with. He lined up from a fair distance away from goal and launched it for goal. It looked like it was going to miss but crept in for 6 points. The local team now hit the front by kicking yet another goal. I saw a friend from high school (Jordan C). He was running the typical hair style these days (Long top, short back and sides).

As the game continued, I noticed the younger age groups started rocking up.

Someone had made a comment suggesting to go and watch the reserves play, as they were up by 6 goals or so.

[Scene Changed]

I was now watching Collingwood v Hawks in 3rd person. Maxwell did a massive tackle on Franklin and really gave it to him. Franklin didn't like the treatment one bit and grabbed onto Maxwell, as he was about to run off. I was now Maxwell, as he (I) went to the ground. I was grinding my elbow into Franklin's face as we were wrestling, but was careful not to make it too obvious, as the video ref may see it and suspend me for my next match. I had noticed Franklin had now changed into my Mum.

I was now back in 3rd person. I saw a medical team crowded around where Franklin was. They had put up covers/sheets so no one could see what was going on, and I assumed it was a serious injury.

Dream ended.

I was either on a bus or a train.

I was sitting with people I knew, however, Jessie L was the only one I could remember.

3 thugs sat down and want to start trouble with us. I tried to defuse the situation but they really didn't give a shit about what I had to say.
Jessie was sitting to be left, and I figured if things went down, he could hold his own (he's a muay thai fighter). I now had a knife in my hand. I sat behind 1 of the thugs and he was getting paranoid about my actions. I wasn't going to do anything to the thug.

[Scene Changed]

I was on a bus with some people (maybe the same group as above?, +Jamie S)

We arrived at a swimming pool place. We all headed straight to the toilets (outdoor toilet). While I was having a piss (at a piss tray), I noticed a friend from school DJ Mike, and Jamie A, doing the same thing. I was pissing for what felt like 2 mins. As I was waiting to finish, I was leaning forward, with my head rested on top of the tray. I had a look to my right while still pissing and saw a house. The house's front yard was flooded from our toilet. Every time we flushed, it would run through a crack and straight into the garden. The garden had 3 garden bed levels. Once I finished pissing, I went to wash my hands, and the tap was an automatic one.

Dream ended.

I was in some sort of a bookstore. I was reading a book. It's inside a Catholic school (DBTI?). The lady cashier (librarian) asked if I have a book like it, and clarified if it's mine. Not, it's not. I returned it, and she said it's overdue. I have to pay 21 pesos. I imagined it was already two weeks since I borrowed it, and I thought I was renewing it all this time. I gave her money, but she said, 'Only four [pesos]?' I took more money out of my pocket, and counted two 5 pesos and two 10 pesos, and decided it's a total of 21 pesos.

I looked around for more books, and found a lot of colorful, hard-bound books, but decided not to borrow.

I was watching a story before my eyes. An alien. I transformed into a creature. I howled.

I was in a house. B showed up and we did something like a one-arm embrace or pat, then he went somewhere in the house. R was writing and signing something on the table. He said something about ignoring B. I wondered how can I do that if we're in his house.

August 23rd, 2013

Dream 1 (fragments): I was in a tropical city walking strolling around the roads, I come by a remote control helicopter, I try making it fly to the other side of the road but for some reasone it can't manage to do so. I grab at it and fly myself over some building. Something happened because I'm being chased by cops, I steal a car and run away, I'm now seeing myself from a top-down view, I drive up to a island crammed with soldiers and cops, I can't escape because I'm surrounded by water, buildings and very angry people. I ditch the car and run toward an apache elicopter with which I barely manage to escape.

Dream 2: I've been in vacation in a resort hotel with a group of people. I'm packing things up because we'll be leaving soon to go home. I spend some time chilling with the other people sitting on a low lawnchair, a girl sits on me, glares at me and then goes away, leaving me a little puzzled.
It's time to go and I go back to my luggages, I find out there's one missing so I walk around the place looking for it and asking around. I reach a room with two sofas and a few girls chattering, I notice that there are portable conditioners somehow crammed inside the sofas, I approach to look closer and see if my luggage is here. I turn around and see one girl igniting something. Flames start to spread and blaze around the room!

Lucid: I find my self inside a big mansion and realize I'm dreaming I'm following a group of people walking toward a room, I steel myself to remain calm and unemotional and resolve to try enduring something distracting to see how far I can keep myself in the dream. We reach a huge room with a big mahogany table. The DCs take their seats while I look around. I notice that there are some pretty girls around the lot, so I decide to try the most distracting thing I can do here is sex, I jump on the table and start inviting a couple of girls to join me, I'm still concentrated, I invite one more, still ok, I look around, the DCs sitting on the chairs have an incredible completely-bored look on them and staring glassily ahead, I notice another pretty girl that wasn't there before, I invite her too and her mother makes some complaint about her never listening to what she says, still with a bored look on her (god I hope to never have to play poker with these DCs). The girl comes, but it seems I can't handle four girls at the same time, the dream collapses.

I'm not completely awake but I have to breath manually so I can't just DEILD, I keep breathing as I was just before and attempt to WILD. I get sucked up in the "wave", I see a luminous gray-green ribbon of light flashing in different shapes while a loud electrical sound grinds my brain, I endure and relax. I'm again in the big mansion in a different room, there's a boy sitting on a chair I ask him where the girl from before are, he points toward another room, I follow. I find the girls crouched on a carpet, they're naked and crying, I notice they are covered with ugly gray scars all around their body, I try to heal them, it seems to be working at first but no, I try again and again, failing. The dream collapse, I'm too hungry to keep dreaming and I wake up.

LD induction attempt:

MILD, then WBTB/WILD

Thursday, August 22 3:30 am

I am part of an IRC class on lucid dreaming. I can't remember exactly what we were discussing though. I'm trying to show everyone in the class something that I feel is super important, though in my dream I don't really know WHY it is important. I just know it is a perfect example for our lucid dreaming discussion. While at the IRC, I am also at a LD forum (not DreamViews, some other forum I've never seen before), and there is a member who's name isn't right. There is a letter that doesn't match any letter at all in the alphabet! I realllly want to share this with the class, but just as I am about to submit a screenshot, I lose my internet connection. This seriously irritates me, because I feel like I HAVE to send this in, it is SUPER important to me, and I am frantic trying to refresh the chat and get it to connect again. Why I'm doing this, I don't know because I lost my connection, meaning I *should* wait for it to come back, instead of trying to refresh the webpage. But, I keep trying until my alarm finally wakes me up.


A note I want to make on this dream. I feel I was really close to lucidity for two reasons. One, I noticed something odd about that user name, and though I didn't understand why, I felt it of VITAL importance to share with the rest of the LD class. Had I managed to reconnect, I wonder if I wouldn't have told them it was an example of a dream sign....TWO, I kept trying to get my laptop to refresh the webpage. I lost the internet connection, therefore I should have just waited for it to come back, refreshing the page would do no good--yet I did it anyway. I wonder if some small part of me understood that it would eventually work if I kept trying, because of the odd way electronics behave in dreams. THEN there's the sheer frantic nature, the NEED to reconnect and show what I discovered to the LD class. It was such a strong feeling, I felt it even upon waking

Gotta catch up on my dream journal again! On the bright side, I think I just hit my dream goal of 7 days straight with remembering at least a dream fragment every night! YAY!

Wed, Aug 21 8:26 am

LD attempt: WBTB/Wild

I'm in a restaurant with two people I don't know, a man and a woman. I don't remember what they look like. The place I am in though is almost like a resort or casino or something. There is one floor, but it's split into 3 levels. The first level, there are slot machines to the right and a bar to the left. Then, up a small flight of stairs, overlooking the bar/slots is the area where the restaurant takes reservations. To the left on that overlook is an arcade. The two people I'm with and myself, we head up the small flight of steps to give the people our reservations. They give their names, and the employee lets them through; however, when I step forward, the woman taking reservations pushes me back, telling me I'm not on the list. I tell her that I'm with them, and they back me up on that. So, we go up yet another small flight of stairs to the restaurant itself that overlooks the entire place.

Now, as we go to our table (they are long banquet like tables with white table-cloths) a guy that looks just like Senator Marko Rubio approaches us, and starts to ask us if we are tired of people giving us such a hard time, just because of a slight change in reservation. He said that he wanted us to sign a petition to provide more oversight in reservations, so that when someone does want to change something, they don't get yelled at (strange, I know, I know). I don't sign it, and neither does the guy I'm with, but the woman does (I get the feeling her and the guy are a couple, even though they are just random DC, people I've never met IRL). We sit down at the table, and they start to argue with one another about the petition, her saying how some oversight is needed because of how annoying the situation is, and him saying it's not the governments place to get involved with something so trivial. We are about to order our food, when my alarm wakes me up.

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Pre bed: nada

Dream quality and recall: average vividness, deep sleep and challenging recall

Comment: there was an increase in emotions during daytime, which is evident in the dream as well.

Early fragment: some story about dreaming and accounting for lds

Dream: I am waiting for the train, then get on it. A friend of mine is supposed to sit next to me but goes in the other carriage instead. I am taking my shoes off, white socks. The guy next to me is already asleep. Then the perspective changes and I see four of them - friends dining together (without me). I become enraged and show them the finger. They raise their glasses and so do I. My shirt now has wine stain that I try to clean with a cloth, but the cloth is dirty so it gets worse. Then I remember that I can use bread and ham to clean it, just like my dad did. I also take a bite out of my "detergent".

Fragment: A girl from my class is attracted to me and is kissing me. Later the class meets and I have some concerns about her kissing me in front of others. (I don't even like her irl)

WBTB (+had some anxiety thoughts initially)

Mini-ld: I have a FA at home with the person I was thinking about in the beginning of the WBTB. He irritates me and I become angry shouting at him. I realize this is a dream (I read something about karma and emotions during dreams yesterday). My anger vanishes and I make a remark about this. I go on to leave the building. Unfortunately, I don't remember if I phased or how I got outside, just that I was trying to fly down. So I am on a balcony or window and want to fly down the way the girl does in the end of Crouching tiger Hidden dragon, slowly. I succeed in controlling the speed of the flying till I reach the ground, then I go up again. I think I woke up soon after that.

No notes, went back to sleep.

Mini-ld fragment: I am in an unfamiliar room and there is a man in front of me and suddenly I shout at him my anxiety thoughts. Again, I realize this is a dream, I am quite happy I was able to catch this again. I apologize, the man smiles. Unfortunately, I can't recall anything else, the dream ends with the void. I shortly try to summon Angel Falls, but the position which I am imagining myself is making me feel uncomfortable. The images fade away.

Mini-ld: I am on the street but feel like my dream control is not working very well because everybody is walking towards me daringly. A dog charges at me and I start some sort of thought/control manipulation to stop it, but in the end grab it and put it on my shoulder/head and neutralize it. Three female DCs are bothering me, I have no idea what they want. I remember I can escape from them by flying, so I fly just a bit above them. However, they can still reach me and I am coming down against my will. I only know one other way to deal with them and ask them if this is what they want. They say yes and I rip one of the girls' clothes off. I wake up before any censure is necessary.

Fragment: Thus guy I know is giving an interview for the newspaper

I think recall is getting better.

Dream 1(fragment):

There was some vehicle warfare and tanks.

Dream 2:

Some factions were fighting for something and i was kinda in between, not belonging to any, i've had some powerful abilities and i was watching a few battles.
Then later at one point i was on some small island and i was talking to someone about the forces coming, and they indeed came, from one side a huge amount of futuristic ships/spaceships including one really big one that barely fit in the entire view. Then from the other side just as huge another armada appeared, made in more steampunk-ish style with airships. I've made a boat and left the area before forces collided.
I've had planned stuff to do, so i went to one of nearest cities, it looked huge and futuristic and it was kinda split between people with different ideals, so each section of it was having different main color and was made in slightly different style. Majority of city was section with buildings decorated with cyan lines, they were pretty glowy and it was getting nighttime, so it was a pretty view. that part of the city was controlled by some people who believed into some kind of scientific god or something like that and there were tons of labs and other science related buildings.
There i started with my plan, i secretly gotten into one of the labs, found some person that was really important and kidnapped him and he was unconscious. On the way out i used ability that drained his life force, for some kind of important experiment related to awaking some sort of power in specific people, then i was stealthing through the streets while carrying him and moving very quickly. A bit later i figured that experiment failed since person was nearly dying, so it's probably not who i was searching for. Then out of nowhere some old man in black suit appeared, which apparently was the leader of this faction. He had some abilities as well, but he didn't used them, we talked for a bit, before i used my powers and literally teleported his heart out of his body. The leader didn't died and said that he has nine more hearts, and that in fact he lets me take that for that person and that his abilities were linked to his hearts, which suddenly interested me more, i used powers to scan the heart and figured that the ability it had was some kind of energy burst. The leader disappeared shortly and i ended up transferring life energy from that heart to that person, so in the end he survived.

#1: Helping mom load some meat into a big black bag on the back of a truck. I find a bag of roast she missed and hand it to her and she put it in as well.

Possible inspiration: We bought a lot of meat to eat recently and we use black bags for trash. I was thinking about my vehicular dream sign before bed so maybe that’s where the truck came from (we don't own one).

#2: Grandma’s house. Don’t remember much, but I think I flew (grr I missed out on it). And something about hiding from grandpa?

Notes: Woke three times in all. Had a bit of trouble getting to sleep (thank you cat, but I’m not a big fluffy pillow), and was too tired to check the time and such. Really need to get to bed sooner, apparently 9+ hours ain’t enough. Also need to get more sleeping pills. Using the laptop is working out really great though. With my notebook, I couldn't understand my handwriting, but even if I mistype on the laptop, I can still read it. So used to deciphering typos by now. =P

3rd person. Tradition dictates the pharaohs of this dynasty marry on the first day of the new year for symbolic purposes, but his intended bride is tired of waiting. She cuts her leg with a knife and lets the blood run down into the dirt, a ritual attempt to soothe the drought the land is going through with her own life; since she isn't yet royalty, this is all she can do. Her intended husband watches this and decides to break with tradition and hurry the wedding. However, there's an incident where the couple goes on a voyage with their servants and attendants, and a woman is seen waiting outside at night to meet a lover in secret - it may have been one of the servant girls, but a rumor starts that it was the intended queen.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'm a student in a small class of maybe 10 undergrads, taught by Mr. G., a favorite IRL high school teacher, in a room based on the chapel building at that high school. We're giving presentations, and as I go back to my seat afterwards, I manage to knock over the display that holds up the TV monitor. I catch it and try to put it back to rights while the next person is talking but fail miserably, I think I broke something. One of the other students comes to help, this short geeky guy who does something very complex with the display, and I just stand back to watch. Turns out he's really, really good with his hands, I'm kind of into it. That was unexpected. I start talking to him and he mentions that he's got some hobby that involves building things, which seems pretty cool to me since I'm pretty much useless at anything practical, but he looks like I'm making him nervous so I back off.

But when the scene changes to show me back at my apartment (doesn't resemble anywhere I've lived IRL - colorful and cluttered, deep blue walls, hanging plants and vines in every corner), he's come along with me and my friends, or roommates, I don't know who these DCs are meant to be but we're close. As we walk in the door, the short/geeky/unexpectedly hot DC is saying to one of them, this blonde girl with all these little braids in her hair, "You're not on the drain, are you?" which is apparently some kind of drug. "I would never," she says, acting all offended - waking me can't tell if she's serious or not, either way dream me thinks it's funny. We came back here to get high anyway.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

I'd been flying down through the levels of some mansion and heading outside, planning my night, weighing the appeal of being alone vs being seen, but when I fly out the door, True Blood's Ginger is at the gate. She wants to come back to work at the club. She'd taken maternity leave but lost the kid, and tried to come back to the club pretty much immediately afterward, but the boss told her to take the paid time off anyway - I don't know why she's so desperate to come back, she doesn't work for tips so the money's the same. But she convinces me to let her in, and she tells me where to find the key to the gate. I go get it, but it's got some kind of trap - when I uncover the key, a dart shoots out and hits Ginger.

Flashback. First time I'd met Ginger, she'd been hysterical, claiming someone, a priest, had been kidnapped by these two guys I knew well and was being held in their barn. The guys tell me the priest was there, but perfectly fine. Giving a sermon, in fact.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

3rd person, following Julia. She's waiting by a statue at the gate to a city park, sometime around the turn of the 19th/20th century, and she works in a country estate as a maid or a nanny or a governess or something - anyway, she's just come into the city for the day. She's meant to be meeting one of the other servants there, but the woman she's meeting is late. Julia doesn't really mind, it's helped her make a decision actually. She's been thinking about how much fun she had on an earlier outing with me, just watching (??? something involving birds, seemed like a very ordinary everyday event for most people but something she hadn't done before), and thinking about the drab grey dress she's wearing, and always wears, covering her ankles, and generally thinking about taking chances and breaking out of her shell and so on. She stops waiting for her friend and, thinking about how much she's got to do and counting up how much money she has with her, she first goes to buy postage and mail a letter she'd already written but hadn't decided whether or not to send until now.

Her thoughts about money derail the storyline - a guy at the door of a restaurant convinces her to step inside and she finds unexpected fees piling up on her.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

Just a fragment of dialogue (phone call woke me up): "-chance to take hold. Valerian root," in a male voice, possibly mine.

August 23 2013 - Dream Fragment #1 - I was in a large mansion with my family and I remember walking out and seeing people that were neighbors. I walked out and remember something happening and then them trying to kill me. I walked outside and saw a file cabinet that said a room used to be inside that had pictures of dead bodies and I got kind of freaked out.

Dream Fragment #2 - I see Army members playing cards at a table, and they say that people inside are playing Dungeons and Dragons. I look in and they all look older than I am, so I ask if there is an age limit. They say that I have to be “considerably older”. I remember seeing one guy that apparently wasn’t in the army but had a Call of Duty MLG series shirt on.

Dream Fragment #3 - The house at the start of the dream burned down but yet everyone survived. There was also some kind of monster there. I remember a flashback to me in this chaotic, multidimensional complex with five different directions of gravitational pull. Each room held a Pokemon (weird, I haven’t played it or watched the anime for like a year now :p).

Dream Fragment #4 (This came chronologically before Dream Fragment #1) - My dad and I are shopping at a department store somewhere within 100 miles of my house (can’t remember the town name) for cat treats. They say that are are anti-something to do with electricity, so your cat doesn’t shock everybody it meets (I guess in dreams cats have interesting superpowers ) but another couple grabs it out of my hands and they buy it. We then travel on the road to the house that burned down.

June 02 2013 - Dream Fragment #1 - I am on stage in front of a huge auditorium more or less directing a concert type thing but from the back. The section I am directing consists of percussion instruments that sort of look like this: bit.ly/13xI5AN. They make cymbal crash noises when hit together. They sound pretty good with the song. I see an old man walk up on stage and start to yell. I said that I am directing and he screams that they’re not cymbals but cymbal covers and that they sound terrible. I feel hurt. I walk backstage and still the man continues to berate me. I run out of there and get in a car to drive away. I can’t remember the rest but there is something about my friend and something else about Nyan Cat. I wake up at an unknown time and perform a RC. I am not in the dream world.