non-lucid

04.13.2012

I love you Mother, Eighty-Two (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I thought I didn't remember any dreams, but I remember two vivid ones....one kind of scared me, the other was............I don't know.


Dream 1: I love you, mother

My parents came to my apartment, though that really shouldn't be the case, it seems I still went along with the flow.

The apartment is a little weird in its structure. Instead of having my bedroom at the end of the small hallway, there's one on the right side. There was a fairly bigger bed than the one I have in waking life.

It's covered in white sheets, and I believe the bed head and bed ends were composed of metal. The overall color of the bedroom itself had different shades of blue.

My mother comes in, and I'm half-naked from the top, but I still didn't get a good image of my dream body. I'm standing up and watching something from my Zune, and it seems to be some inappropriate things.

I didn't want my mother to see what I had, so I tried tilting it from her view, and the fact that there was lotion to the right of me on top of a drawer chest made things even more awkward.

She told me,

"Let me see what you're watching.."

"No....." I said with an awkward tone.

I think she smiles and leaves the room. I get out of the bedroom as well after a few seconds had passed.

I see my father is going to sit on a white fold-able chair, and he's most likely waiting for my mother so they can leave. I think I see him doing this while peaking out from the bathroom, but I don't know why I would have to hide and try to peek at him.

My mother eventually comes out somewhere, and I said good-bye to them. I shut the door completely, quickly turning the locks to go about doing what I want to do.

I take one or two steps before stopping completely, and then I had thoughts feeling how my mother would feel sad having to leave so quickly for a few moments with her son.

I started to get depressed a little, and then I realized I should quickly open part of the blinds near the entrance of my apartment, and I see my mother is still in the process of leaving.

Before she does, I tell her,

"Mom? Hey Mom?"

She turns around and looks at me.

I declare, "I love you, Mother."

"I love you too," she declared.

I take my hands away from the blinds, and turn around, feeling even more depressed because I only said that to her to make her feel better, and it still left me speculating if I really love her in waking life.

Dream 2: Eighty-Two

I'm inside a building, probably at my University, and I see my current professor for Biology 112. She's wearing a brown shirt, and probably a long black dress with some high heels.

I talk to her about something, but I forget most of them. As the conversation is coming to a close, she declares something about my grade for the class overall.

She tells me,

"You're going to get an 82 in total."

(Something along those lines)...

I'm a little surprised for an exact value that she's giving me, but I take it into consideration, and said good-bye to her while I'm walking my way to another class most likely.

Dream 3: Where's the Hamster?

It seems I'm in a warehouse, and there were some random things that were so unique, that it's kind of difficult to remember all of them.

The warehouse, if you looked above to see the ceiling, it was pure black, and it was kind of spacious too because you can just hear the sound of air moving in and out, kind of like small echos of air that cover a huge surface area.

I remembering holding a small hamster on my hand, or at least seeing one on top of something. I think I grab it and threw it somewhere randomly. Then I started to get worried, and tried to find it.

Its fur was light brown, and its pupils were pure black, with some light glaring on it.

My perspective shifts to where I'm looking at some kind of mini-map, and it's showing locations of where other small hamsters like the one I threw were. The landmarks on the mini-map where kind of confusing.

I believe one was a white castle with pink roofs??? It showed a picture of the hamsters zooming in and out, and had a little alert sound like you would hear from a radar.

(Not the submarine radars that make the deep and slow sound, kind of like a GPS system).

I know someone else was there with me, but I can't remember exactly who. I believe I saw someone in a red outfit, but that's just pushing it before I start becoming too suggestible with the possibilities.

This time my 'alarm' (my friend texting me) didn't go off so I didn't get to try to WILD last night so I guess I'll try one more time. I did however have regular dreams. They both very short to my knowledge, the first was of my girlfriend proving to me that she didn't cheat on me (I don't have a girlfriend by the way) and the second was of my brother calling me and telling me that my mechanic gave me three hundred and thirty three dollars for being a loyal customer.

Well, I kind of screwed myself over last night as far as recall goes. I got the kids to bed early and all, but then ended up staying up until 2 am playing that Hakuoki game... I played all the way to the end, and couldn't help tearing up because it was so sweet but so sad! Then of course I had to wait for my brain to settle down before I could fall asleep, and my kids woke up early because they had gotten a good 4 hours head start on sleeping. I usually get around 10 hrs of sleep, last night I got maybe 6? I still have a full dream, and some fragments though so here goes

Dream One: I'm flying through the air with someone. I don't know if I was flying in a plane or just like dream flying myself. We're following what we're calling a plane but looks more like a spaceship (of the nasa variety, not the alien variety) The side parts of the space ship fall off (I know they're supposed to, they're like the boosters to help it out of the atmosphere in real life. Anyways, those parts fall off, and they start spiraling out of control like some kind of missiles. Then, the space ship turns and starts heading towards an airport for a landing. Suddenly I'm worried that those boosters are going to hurt someone, so me and the guy (I'm pretty sure the person with me was male all night, but my memory is fuzzy.) make a big lazy circle, then head down towards the airport to warn everyone about the space ships broken boosters. But, before we can get there, the boosters crash into the building and there's a big explosion. We're blown back by the blast, and then we decide to just go home and check on my family since there's nothing we can do now for the people we wanted to warn. When we get home, my grandma is getting ready for some sort of appointment, and she told us we had a family get together to attend. The person with me and myself go to the family get together. I remember there being snowmen decorations there. The next thing I know, I'm playing Hokuoki and I'm choosing the path I completed last night, but instead of getting a happily ever after ending I get a "They never saw each other again" ending. The first part of the dream was easy to remember because flying was awesome, the end of the dream, no so cool and I barely remember. Thank goodness for my notes!

Dream Two: I'm trying to get somewhere, but I have to follow this stone path that is up high in the air, like on top of aqueducts or something. I reach a point where I can see a city, but the bridge in front of me is made of what I can only describe as ghost stones. You can see them, but you can't touch them and I would fall right through if I tried to walk over them. There's someone with me, maybe the same person from the first dream, I don't know because the dreams were both so hazy. Some guy flies around and then lands beside me. He's cocky and stuck up, but he knows how to fix the bridge. He tells me he'll repair it for me, but he wants something in return but I can't remember what it is now. The person with me doesn't think it's worth it and tells me not to accept his offer, that we will figure something else out. I really need to get on the other side though, and I trust this arrogant guy for some reason, and I agree. He flies up into the air, the quickly flies through the ghost stones, and they glow green for a moment then they solidify. I start across the bridge, and wake up.

Dream Three (Fragment): I'm in a cave like place, and there's a cavern that's blocked off by iron bars like a dungeon cell. There's someone inside the cell, and I want to rescue him. In fact, I'm down right desperate to rescue him. He keeps telling me to go back, escape before I'm caught, and he's nearly in tears trying to get me to leave him, but I refuse. That's all I can really remember. I *THINK* I rescued him, but I don't remember how. I'm pretty sure I remember flying with him around the cave at some point, but maybe I'm just getting the first dream mixed up with this one, lol.

1983/82
Non-lucid/partial lucidness Dream
Memorable
Vivid
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After my Grandma passed away, I was very disturbed by her leaving this world. One night, I lay in bed and tried to imagine what she might be feeling - how would it feel to be 'dead'. With these thoughts in my mind, I fell asleep. As the dream began, I found myself swimming. It was probably a typical swimming pool. I tried to come up for air and found a see-through barrier preventing me from getting to the surface. I swam left and right to no avail.

The dream shifted. I believe I became conscious. I wondered how would one feel if they were dead? I began shutting down each of my senses. I figured one wouldn't be able to hear and then I could not hear. One would not be able to see and then I could not see anything but black. One would not be able to feel....and this is where it changed again. I felt cut off and isolated. I was floating (seemingly) in this blackness - all alone - without sight, without hearing, without feeling. I did not exist. No one worried about me. I had no worries but I had no joys either. And then...I became terrified. I wanted to mean something to someone. I wanted to be remembered. I wanted to feel and see and hear. I woke up.

*Afterthought: Looking back on this dream, I often wonder if I had not just gone to the void that I found after years of meditating? To a child, the void might seem terrifying especially if you don't know what it is. But when I found the void as an adult, it was peaceful. And because you are meditating and your focus is internal - not external - I don't hear anything, or feel anything, or think anything. I could have, if I'd wanted to. But the goal was to focus and clear the mind - clear them mind of all that is. Only after clearing the mind can one be able to hear other things and see other things. Before that you only hear what is yours to hear. ... your own noise. And if someone/something else was talking to you, you would never hear them above your own chatter. So, as a child, the void, if that is what I entered, was a nightmare. The unknown can be terrifying...

I'm driving in my car in my school's parking lot. There was a lot more to it but I can't remember ><

I'm walking around in an anime convention looking at stuff. This particular convention has shown up in my dreams repeatedly, but I've never been there irl. I don't even know if it's a real con.
I don't remember much except that one of my irl friends was actually being all happy and stuff towards me like she used to be, even though in real life she really doesn't like me ._.

Dream fragment: I was looking at 8 of the apollo astronaughts in their space suits during the year 1967.

Next dream I was searching the rooms in my house trying to find a woodpecker. It was making noise, pecking on something. I finally find it in this one room, but I can't get to it. It flies to a couple different rooms and I follow. It finally goes into a smaller room, almost like a closet. I'm thinking I can trap it there, only there is no door. I reach for a large towel to block its escape, only the woodpecker flies out of the room before I can put up the towel. The bird is flying toward me, and I drop the towel and flail my hands at it as it comes toward my head.

I wake up and actually hear a woodpecker outside beating on a telephone pole.

Although the vividness of my recall isn't getting massively better, I think my consistency is improving. Though I didn't remember anything after 4 1/2 hours of sleep when I woke myself up, I did remember this after falling asleep again (maybe it was the apple juice I drank).

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12/4/12

I'm watching a televised run, in which only 5 or 6 people are left. The losers of the pack, they're all extremely tired and struggling to stand, and it's quite painful to watch. In the lead is a man dressed as Sonic, while someone in a Robotnik costume trails a few people behind.

Towards the end of the track, Robotnik gains a sudden burst of pace and overtakes everyone in front of him, much to the excitement of the commentators. However, while approaching the final straight, Sonic whips it out the bag to regain his position in first place and win (though dozens have already finished long before him). While celebrating, a wall falls on Sonic, causing the commentators to go berzerk. Fortunately, it later turns out to be a couple of fans that have jumped the barrier to congratulate their favourite hedgehog.

I know I haven't updated in about a week. I've been almost too lazy to record my dreams. :/

The Past
I remember only parts of this dream. I was upstairs in a small library. This room seemed familiar for some reason. I found a cupboard full of past drawings I had drawn when I was little, and other scraps of paper.

I decided to move all these somewhere else. I took each stack inside the cupboard to a table. I think I was going to sort them or something.

By now, someone was with me. I don’t really know why they were there, though. I just remember them running downstairs and coming back up to tell me something important.

Fragment 2
This dream took place in what looked like a mixture of my two parents’ houses. This dream was blurry and fragmented, so I don’t really know what everything looked like. I remember going up to my little brother and asking him something in an upstairs room.

Had this dream this morning. I got up and started writing it down immediately after waking up because I didn't want to forget it. I didn't go lucid during this dream.

The first thing I remembered was being in outer space looking at the Earth. The Earth had three huge logos on it, one of which I remembered. The one I remembered looked like a skull in my dream but it wasn't. It was the face of a grey. Its eyes were bigger than normal human eyes, but no where near as big as the eyes of the typical grey we all hear about; it had two slits for nostrils; its mouth was open; and it didn't have any hair. This logo of the grey was in the northern hemisphere of Earth. The second logo intersected the equator, and the third logo was in the southern hemisphere.

These logos represented three groups that were either fighting to take over Earth , take over humanity, or both. These were very, very, large logos that covered something like 1/5 of the Earth's surface each. There was definitely one out in the middle of an ocean. The other two where over some land and ocean. Although this was is to be fought between three groups, I don't think any of these groups were going to fight alone. I knew that each of them had help from some ET civilization.

The next thing I remembered was being at these ancient ruins that was so high up, I was able to look down on forests. I was near the very large entrance of an ancient building / temple / palace / something, but looking out into the world. I was talking to the leader of these people who, I am pretty sure, were humans--perhaps some kind of ancient tribe of people based on what they wore. I think I am the same guy with black hair and the short black beard from a previous dream. I look human but I am an ET and I am going to help these people, although, this war has nothing to do with me.

I recall seeing one of the enemies, a messenger (human, I think), walk into the ruins. And the guy who I was talking to got angry, pointed at this guy, and started shouting stuff in another language. Then his people started getting rowdy and I don't remember what they did with the messenger. They did not let him go. That I know for sure.

I turned towards the horizon. It looked as though the sun was just now coming up. I remember staring at the beautiful orange sky and the trees. I raised my right arm and said "Behold. My army." Then the sky above the trees and in front of the horizon tore open. Inside of it was an endless army of something and the sky above them was red but had clouds. These things I couldn't make out. I suppose they had human forms but they were dark and carried weapons. The very first creature to come out was this dark, super giant. It bent over, stuck one leg out, an arm, then the other arm and leg.... It had a beard and the forest it was stepping on did not even reach its knees. Wow..... And my dream ended right there.

First

I'm in a school, trying to talk with a girl who seems depressed. I guess I'm a counselor or something. She keeps evading me, seems like she doesn't want to talk, but I seem to think it's very important. There is a point where she's hiding behind some other kids. She tries to look like she's talking with them but it seems pretty clear the others are not interacting with her. When I catch up with her she says she doesn't want to talk about it. I don't really have any idea what to do.

Second

I'm in a complex that might be military or just recreational, hard to say. Some group attacks it and people run around defending according to a preplanned setup. There are planes and airships. I'm really just watching, not participating, but giving hints and ideas. When it's over we notice that one of the pilots is missing. She has apparently just left during the hassle. She was a flight risk anyway, but we all liked her and are hoping for her to come back.

Last nights dream

I remember a Woman and I was racing something but can't remember what. I've just had a flash from another dream..there was a family and there was something about the little girl in this family.

Last nights dream

Myself and some other people are in a club or some place and we have to dance. There is a certain dance that we have to do and if we don't do it properly we are going to die or someone in the club is going to murder us.

I am in my back garden with my hubby, a dog who is ours and a young girl. It's night time and there are alien robot things out the front and we can see them through the gully and hear the noise from them. We are all really scared and trying to hide in the garden from them. We cower down by the coal bunker, my hubby points and says "how do we get over there?" I look and say "that's our garden" and I'm a little confused as to why he didn't realise that. We hear a loud noise above us and we cower down more as we hide from whatever it is. I look up and see bright lights and suddenly a UFO flys over us, I'm so afraid and panick incase we have been seen. I hear the robots out the front, they are getting louder and are coming for us because they know where we are. I'm now in a blind panick and wake up, my heart is pounding and I'm so scared that I can't go straight back to sleep lol.

I dreamt i was hanging out with my ex best friend and everything was back to the way it used to be. She's the only part of my dreams that i remember..

Last nights dream

I am in the swimming baths but I don't go into the water. I meet a woman in there, this woman used to be a man and still looks like a man but has had a sex change, I am a man in my dream and I have sex with this man/woman. We have sex in the changing rooms and by the pool and everywhere we can lol.
We are now lying by the side of the pool, I hook my hand over the side of the pool and a man suddenly comes towards my hand while he is swimming with his noisy mat, it startled me and sounded like a very noisy engine, we decide to move and go and have sex somewhere else. ((dream skip))
I am at my moms house, I see my Dad and he looks sad, he says "I'm going to bed" and I give him a kiss and a hug goodnight. I am with the he/she again and we go into the other room. I see things moving about and realise there are ghosts in here. I am sitting on the sofa with the he/she and the ghosts keep touching me and my hair. I rub 2 dummies into my hair lol ((babies dummies)). I have a horrible scared feeling go through me, I'm really scared and the ghosts do the same frantics to the he/she that I am with. We both get up and rush off into the other room, I bump into my Mom and she is pissed up, she says "I'm going to bed" and I whisper to her "I'll help you up and tell you about something" she says "ok".
We stumble upstairs and I see my kids all going to sleep on different beds. I tell my Mom the girls are going to sleep and my Mom then goes to bed. I go back to the room with the ghosts in and the ghosts start scaring me again and I get an awfull feeling again. My hubby suddenly comes and says "I've got you an ice-cream" I say "what kind?" he says "a feast" I say "I don't like them" he then calls the ice-cream man on the phone who then comes back and lets me choose another one and I choose a mint one and it's huge but very cheap for the size of it.
Me and the he/she now go back into the ghostly room and the ghosts are scaring us again, I say "come on...let's go and tell my Mom" we go up to her room and when we go in I see my Mom lying on her front in bed and she is talking to someone on the phone, her new boyfriend is on top of her having sex with her, I think to myself "ohhh my god, this is too much...this is fuckin weird!!!!" I think about my Dad being in the room above them and feel sick to my stomache about all of this, I can't get my head round it all. ((dream skip))
I am now in the car with my Moms boyfriend ((not sure why)) I decide to roll myself a fag and I realise that I have rolled loads of filter tips instead of the baccy, I laugh and say "sorry" and tip all the filter tips onto the seat. The filter tips have now all changed into matches and they set alight, we go round the corner by my house now and I try to blow them out and eventually manage to. Another car now goes round the corner just infront of us, the car is on fire and suddenly explodes and I shit myself, I then see that my sister-in-laws house is on fire. A fire engine comes towards us and it's also on fire, it's glowing orange with the flames, we swerve as we try not to hit it and we spin. We are now stuck on the path on the corner, another fire engine comes towards us, this is very scary and it's also on fire, it hits my side of the car and I feel the heat and the burn off it, I think "ohh god, it's my time to die" the most horrific feeling rushes through me, a feeling of doom and death. I shout to my Moms boyfriend "pull me over to your side" I'm in slow motion so can't get over to him to escape the fire. He pulls me over and I am now safe. I'm scared and we get out of the car, everywhere and everything is on fire. I now wake up and I'm sweating, my heart is pounding and I'm absolutely shitting myself lol.