non-lucid

I was out on the lake in a small motorboat. There was also a large party boat with roughly ten people on it. Everyone was dancing and talking.
The guy driving the party boat decided to do this maneuver that was like a skid where he was going really fast and he turned the boat sideways. He started to do that, when without warning, we heard a gunshot, and a girl fell of the boat.
I went over and saw that she was floating in a pool of blood. Everyone on the party boat stopped partying and could only stare at the corpse floating in the water.
"She shot herself in the head" One of the people on the boat said.

I was in the office of some investigator, and they were trying to figure out why the girl had committed suicide. The investigator showed me an "expert diagram"
It was a cartoony drawing of a woman holding a shot glass and waving around a gun. I tried to explain to the investigator, It was quite obvious; the girl was flat out drunk and waving a gun around as a joke. When the man driving the boat tried a difficult maneuver, her finger slipped and she shot herself.

I'm at a University. The building is huge and complex, but I seem to know my way. I'm leaving but remember that I have no coffee at home and decide to find a place to by some. There's one inside the university building, so I turn back and try to find it. I take stairs up and they turn out to be winding stairs that go to the top of a tower. No coffee there, but I find myself at the reception of a doctors office.

I'm at the doctors office, a nurse is checking my knees. There is some blood on them, but I think it's actually about the joints wearing down. She wants to run some tests and needs to take some blood. I'm not worried but there is a change I might need surgery.

This should have clued me win that I was dreaming, but it didn't. I was watching an episode of Supernatural during the morning. It was one I hadn't seen before, so I was confused as to why I was seeing it at this time (as new ones always run on the the network during prime time, and not on syndication.) For a small time, I seemed a part of the episode. Dean had a bunch of cash, and I think he might have been gambling. There was this creature who took the form of a corgi. We shooed it off, but at the end of that episode it was revealed that the corgi was actually the key to defeating the main boss creature.

Another dream was where I was to be some sort of donor or host to a vampire couple. Something to do with that I had not consumed blood or what not, and I guess that made me viable. I was then riding an ATV to this town. My group and I found this healer, and she was going to teach me to remote view. She attached this blue stone to an RC airplane and told me to tell her where it went. My first shot didn't work that well; I said it flew into some power lines. Later, as the sun was setting, it was a beautiful sunset with all sorts of colors. A rainbow assortment of clouds. I asked the lady about my piece of orgonite that I had, and I don't think she approved highly of it. I got the feeling she preferred crystals. The orgonite mentioned is one I actually have.

Ok last night I had a nonlucid dream about zombies. I was at my parents house in Sunnyvale, and we were all stationed in different rooms, fighting them off. They were coming pretty slowly, I guess because it's such a small town. Like one or two an hour. I was stationed in my old bedroom with the bay window. I had the curtain up only on the left pane (closest to the front door). I also had that same window open. Reason being, when they came stumbling toward me (quite quickly, may I add), I could impale them immediately. I had the stool from mom's kitchen, painted sky blue instead of brown oddly, and I would jab the zombie with all four legs when they came to the window. Cool thing about this dream, you can stab them anywhere, like a human. Doesn't have to be the head. However, some of the zombies were starting to adapt. They could talk and carry on fairly normal conversations, even with humans. We still knew that they were zombies mind you, it's just that they were getting good at trying to talk their way out of us killing them. So one lady came to my window and was telling me something, I can't remember. I hesitated and she got in the house, as far as the utility room. I knocked her down by the washer and dryer, and stabbed her straight in her heart. She seemed upset by this, as black blood spilled from her chest. I think I would have felt bad about it except I didn't have time. I heard noises from the front door of the house. I ran to the living room, and saw by the front door (which was all glass, with 2 large glass side panes, stupid parents!!) gobs of zombies trying to bust through the stained glass. I froze, realizing I had forgotten my impaling-stool in the utility room! As I could see the zombies growling and pounding and trying to push through the glass, I was oddly rational. I asked myself, "What is the nearest thing to me that could double as a zombie-killer?" Then I looked to my right, toward the livingroom fireplace: FIREPLACE POKERS. 2 sets even. I always wondered why mom insisted on 2 sets, now I know why (or at least, I thought so in the dream. I mean, in real life she always had 2 sets of fireplace tools by each fireplace in our house. In real life I still don't know why, but in the dream, it was like providence. I w2as meant to use them to kill zombies). Anyway, I picked up both pokers, and ran to the kitchen. Only 3 zombies were able to get in, and they followed me into the kitchen. The leader was a male, and he could talk too. He was trying to engage me in a conversation. I started to falter at first; it was hard to kill something that seemed so human and docile. I was getting entranced by the conversation, and I thought of the woman in the laundry room. But the talking zombie said something about my son.. like, some comment he had read from Chris on facebook or something. Then I lost it, I shoved one of the pokers straight into his lifeless heart, twisting it as such to make him buckle to the floor. The other 2 zombies behind him vanished, along with the remaining outside.

The doorbell rang, and I rushed to the front door, expecting more god damn sentient zombies. But it was two older chinese people. They looked worried, because they were looking for their daughter. When they described her, I asked them if they were referring to Elsy, a girl that works in the sushi department where I work. They said yes, that's her. Which is odd in retrospect. because Elsy is Mexican. I told her parents that I would tell her that they were looking for her when I saw her at work the next day.

Weird thing number 1: I was just reading on dreamviews the last 2 days about a post where people were asking if they had ever killed in a lucid dream. I never killed anyone in a lucid or nonlucid until last night.

Weird thing number 2: Elsy is Mexican, in my dream her parents are Chinese, in real life she makes Japanese sushi. Hehe, my crazy head

I had a regular non-lucid dream about some people. I can't remember if they were close to me or strangers. I can't remember anything at all, to be honest. Just that my dream may have been about people. And I tried to WILD again but I wasn't patient enough and gave in to the sleep.

I was taking a nap today and I had a pretty cool dream. I don't remember all of it but a few portions of it.

First I remember being in the room with the three stooges and they where in color, but they seemed to change to black and white once in a while. I think Moe once had a small black and white head and a big colored body. They just kept walking around my house. I remember being in this big garage and there was a big red dog. (Like Clifford from the books) While thinking about this, I know this big parking garage. It is the same garage that has been in a few other dreams of mine. Shortly after this, there was a party for the dog. I think it linked to the garage somehow.

My family members where in it, making fun of it and it looked sad. So I got angry and punched my uncle int he stomach a little bit and told them "I wish he would grow bigger and eat all of you!" they just laughed about it. After that was done I went to a certain closet and there was a big mutated like wolf. It looked like the extinct Dire Wolf. It growled something terrible like I never heard before and was on the verge of attacking. I was moving around it some but it never did anything and I escaped from it.

I don't remember the rest right at this moment.

I remembered another one.

I'm at this dorm-like place and I'm walking from one section to the other with other students. We're on the outside walking on this really narrow walkway heading towards a door which leads to the next section. I'll never forget that walkway because it was surrounded by water! Like it was constructed over a pond or something.

Now I'm inside the other section and I'm walking down the hallway. There are students, boys and girls, going in and coming out of their dorm rooms but this doesn't feel like an ordinary college / school / whatever. And that's I remember.

Normal Dream
Lucid Dream

Night 33

I. I was in the school parking lot waiting at my brothers truck for him to come out so we can go home, as I was waiting when some people I knew came up to talk to me. I remember one of them telling the other how I won like $2,000 on a $20 bet. I then got into the truck and started driving around the parking lot while I waited for my brother. As I was driving, something woke me up, and I tried doing a DEILD. It worked and I was back in the dream driving around, I became lucid as well and did a RC to make sure, it worked. I remember I started driving really fast, and I hit another car head on and pushed him to the side, and I continued to speed to the end of the lot. I spun out at the end and the truck was going to go into the ditch but I made it stop in mid air, I wanted to make it go back onto the lot, but I couldn't do it. Instead I was like floating as the truck fell into the ditch, my body went through the truck. I fell to the ground and started to walk back to where all the people were at. The environment around me changed and I was on a road going through a forest that leads back to the parking lot. I was yelling out to stabilize the dream and increase the vividness, I was looking up at the sky, it was blue with some feather clouds. There were a lot of cars driving on the road, and I decided I will try to stop one and use it to get back faster, but they were all going like 80mph and I could not stop any. Then the dream changed again and the road turned into train tracks, I started running to get back fast. The dream ended here.

II. I was at my friends house, it was a dark room and they were playing Super Smash Bros when their mothers came in and asked us if we had seen any cats, they were missing, we said no and they left the room. I looked around and found one of the cats sleeping in the corner behind a chair. The cat woke up and I was petting him, I remember the car started being playful by scratching my hands and biting it, and my hands were like ice cold for some reason so it hurt really really bad. The moms came in again and I told them I found one of the cats, and then the dream ended.

Again, I have to add this to my "crazy dream" collection.I'm starting to wonder if my nasty headaches have something to do with opening up a barrier in my spiritual receptivity. I know that's out there, but I've noticed I'm more inclined to pick up on such when I have a migraine. Maybe I have a migraine because I'm receiving that information....Whatever.....

Anyway, I had a dream last night that I was sitting in a restaurant in Asia somewhere, I think Japan or one of the Koreas. I was wearing a white formal suit with the tie/bow. I was seated at a table next to a four/five foot wall, and was only several seats away from the entrance and the big front windows (which were to my left). To my right was a long walkway and it went back into the kitchen's behind large metal swinging doors.

I was there with a colleague/friend who was Chinese and apparently worked for Chinese intelligence. We were talking about something important; about our mission, and how "they wouldn't see it coming".

One of the cooks came out to us and was talking to us. He was an older man. He asked me if my soup was okay and I told him that I thought it smelled funny. He freaked out and offered to taste it for me to see what was wrong. He took it with him back to the kitchens where he tasted it and almost immediately began gagging and reacting badly to the poison that he had ingested. I looked at my counterpart wearily, before we got up and left, with nervous smiles on our faces.

The dream faded out there and then back in.

We were in a near empty office in a tall building in a large city. To my right was a window that looked out into the rest of the exterior office cubicals. It was dark, and there was a screen on that had green on it and what looked like codes for something. In the office, I was hacking into a locked computer (you know how you put a password on the computer user? It was like that, only military/government grade encryption). My Chinese colleague burst in saying that we were running out of time and I was getting anxious that the files wouldn't download to my external hard-drive fast enough.

The numbers 666 7109 came up, and I jumped in excitement saying that these were the codes we needed.

Somewhere in there, someone mentioned a plot of something (assassination?) against Hu Jintao and at some point I was also viewing a lot of this from the 1st person perspective of the Russian Prime Minister and president elect Vladimir Putin, as if he had something to do with all of this.


And then I woke up. Those numbers are going to bug me. Big time. All I know is that those codes were really important for some reason and that whatever was going on was a time bomb waiting to go off.

I also marked this as both lucid and non-lucid. I was lucid and had some control over my actions, but at the same time the plot and conflict seemed predetermined by something else.

Dream One (fragment): I woke from this dream after only being in bed about an hour and a half, so I'm surprised I remembered anything at all. I'm standing outside the headquarters from this Hakuoki game I've been reading. I'm looking at myself in third person though. K is there, and he's got the white hair and red eyes of the fury creatures that the game characters become (they're like vampires, kind of) and he's wearing the shinsengumi blues. He's bending slightly, with one hand on the hilt of his sword and the other under my chin, kissing me softly.

Dream Two: I'm sitting at the computer playing the Sims 3. I'm trying to build a lot, but it keeps going wrong. For some reason there's a big crater in the middle of the lot, and I can't get it back to level. The grid is also screwing up, and placing random grid squares in mid air at different heights. I know in the dream I'm supposed to go somewhere, but I want to finish this sim house first. My little boy is saying, "Mommy! Lets go!" but the computer is driving me NUTS and I don't want to go until I've defeated it. Suddenly the doorbell rings, and I realize I'm in the house we used to live in years and years ago. I look out the window and see that the person at the front door is my husbands ex-fiance, the girl he was engaged to before we met. (She and I talk on Facebook because we have a lot in common, so it's only a little weird that we'd be hanging out) I grab my phone, realizing my husbands not here yet and he was supposed to be here before she arrived so we could go. I call him, and he says he's leaving now and on his way. I ask him if he remembered to grab out Daughter's Hello Kitty something or another (She has so much Kitty crap, I couldn't even begin to imagine what it was) Then I woke up.

Dream Three: The dream starts off with me being in a house that I somehow know as my own but I've never seen before in my life. My friend is there, and she's telling me that since my husband and I have split, and I have all this empty space, she has a friend who needs a place to stay. I think that if it's a friend of hers, then they're probably easy to get along with and I could use help with my rent, so I agree to take them in as a room mate. When my new room mate arrives, it's actually a guy who's a friend of both my husbands and this friends. At first I think this is going to be really awkward because he's very christian and I'm uh, NOT, lol. But it seems to be working out ok as religion doesn't come up. Then I get this wild notion to go somewhere, and dress up in a mini skirt and tank top and start to head out the door. The room mate then grabbed my arm really tightly and asks me where I'm going. I'm kind of shocked that he's touching me when we barely know each other, and really pissed that he's acting like he has some sort of right to know where I'm going or what I'm doing. I Glare at him and tell him I'm going out and he needs to let go of me. He tells me he's not going to let me leave, I need to stay there with him. I tell him to let go of me again and that I'm an adult and I can go wherever I want and do whatever I want, and if he's going to act like a parent he can get the fuck out. He refuses to let go of me, saying that he couldn't let me go out tramping about. I get really pissed and pull my arm as I kick out at him hoping to throw him off guard. But, he's a lot bigger than me and instead I get thrown off balance and he smacks me in the face. I'm REALLY pissed then, so I do some sort of awesome karate like roundhouse kick to his head and knock him back on to floor. He grabs my foot and trips me. I struggle free and grab the telephone, and call 911. I tell them I don't want to have to cause trouble but I have this crazy room mate that won't let me leave the house and things are getting violent. I briefly wonder if because I kicked him first, I will be the one charged, but at this point I'm actually scared this guys going to crush me and don't care. He starts crying telling me I shouldn't have called the cops, and I'm crying myself because I'm scared and I feel a bit guilty, if I'd never let the guy stay here this never would have happened! I make it outside crying, and my husband shows up, and gives me a hug and asks whats wrong. I tell him what happened, and the cops are showing up arresting his friend and I'm begging my husband to come back, telling him I can't take care of myself without him, all I do is get in trouble by myself (legit fear here, lol. One that rarely works its way into my dreams, but one I actually have in waking life) My husband agrees to come back, but he wants to leave the kids with my mom and grandma until we work things out. I agree, and we go inside the house. Inside, there are suddenly three people (two men, one woman) lounging in the living room. One of the guys, a thin and grungy looking guy nods his head in acknowledgement that we're there and then says to my husband, "Dude, I hear your wife's a bitch!" then starts laughing. I'm pretty sure these are friends of my husbands, who probably know the guy who just went to jail, and I don't want to face them knowing they must hate me, so I run back to the bedroom and lock myself in. I can hear the conversation through the door though, and the guy asking my husband why he puts up with me. I get mad again, and storm back into the living room. I tell them they can hate me all they want, but they're in my house and they won't talk about me like that there! They start snickering, and they tell me they're just giving me a hard time. Then they ask what really happened. I tell them, and then they're still laughing and saying, "Yeah, that sounds like something he'd do! That dude's crazy. Good for you, your not so bad!" I feel like things have been smoothed over now, but I'm so tired, I just want to go to bed. My husband and I start to go back to the bedroom again, but then out the bedroom window I see an old building in the back yard with a hole in the stone walls and desks inside. I go outside to investigate. As I look inside I see the desks look old and abandoned. I turn to my husband who followed me out and say, "Doesn't this look like something out of that anime Another?" My husband agrees. Then there's some noise from inside, and I almost scream before I realize it's my husbands friend doing the worm on the floor in the abandoned classroom. I think that's silly, and then wake up!

So, there was a few dreams, but I remember this one the most.

My brother and I had already been jogging throughout my dream for some reason. We'd jog here, jog there, awkward right? So we had a weekend to kill and somehow got it in our heads to jog to Yosemite (a three hour car drive) and back home. I -being the smart one- grabbed a backpack full of some supplies in case anything happened. We start jogging. We don't make it all the way because I think it took us a while to realize that it wouldn't be three hours jogging cuz we're not jogging at 60+ mph XD

We somehow managed to get to this store we always pass along the way but I've never been inside. It's this old, Native American type deal; privately owned, looks like a house converted into a store. We go inside and you know, I expect to see a bunch of Native American things, right? No. Wood and rope to make sleds, and magnets. Oh, and there was a room full of ice sculptures in the back. Not exactly what I expected.

I then woke up due to sunlight shining through my window.. gotta fix that.

Dream # 1:

I am in a helicopter with several students, one of my professors, and Juan, a nature guide I had met while in Belize (IRL). I am not sure of what country we are in, but I know we are in Central America. We are flying over a river in a valley, and there are many large rock formations jutting out of the river like tall islands. We fly quickly, and I can feel the wind on my face as it flows in through an open window. We fly over the rock formations and I hold onto the seat in front of me. It is exhilerating, and the valley below is so beautiful.

We land and have the opportunity to look around. The leaves on the trees are a dark green, and the folliage is very thick. We walk on one of the rock islands, and the sun shines brightly in a cloudless sky. Now, we have to leave, and return to the helicopter. We fly over a water park that combines a natural river and waterfalls with water slides and pools. I watch as children go down the slides and people jump into the pools. I remember being here before, but at a time when no one was there. I am surprised at how many people are here now.

We land, and are going to go to our final destination on land. However, I need to use the restroom. So I walk into a restaurant at the edge of the park and go into the restroom. I have a strange feeling in my left breast, so I lift my shirt and look. A snake is slowing coming out, like a parasite. It doesn't hurt, but I am afraid that the snake ispoisonous. As it got longer, it starts to bite me, and now it does hurt.

I hurry out of the restroom, but I am intercepted by a coworker. She is waiting tables a the restaurant. I do not question why she is a waitress in Central America, but I am annoyed with her because she called off from work over the weekend and now I find her working another job. She starts talking to me, but I don't have time, and I run out the door.

Everyone is gone, but I know that they took the train. So I walk along the train tracks, and they lead into the forest. Eventually, they lead to a hotel, and I find the train outside of it. I enter the building, and everyone is inside at a table, waiting for dinner. I see Juan at the end of the table, and I tell him that I need to see him in private immediately. At this point, I wake up. I look at the clock, and it is only 8:00 AM, so I close my eyes and will myself to return to the dream.

I return, but I have gone back in time and have not asked Juan to come with me yet. This time, I ask both Juan and my professor to come to the restroom with me. As we walk to restroom, I have difficulty staying in the dream. I keep fading in and out of sleep. We get to the restroom, and I show them the snake. I then wake up again, and give up on trying to continue the dream.

Dream # 2:

I am driving somewhere in my car, a red Pontiac G5. I am supposed to be on streets that I know, but they look nothing like they do in real life. I want to get downtown. I pull up next to some parked cars, and they are all red convertables. The drivers are all playing some sort of video game, although there are no screens. They all have Atari controllers in their hands.

I climb into the backseat of one of the convertibles and pick up a controller. I am transported into the game. It is a driving game, and I am in a red convertible. I begin to drive. The road is long and winding, and to the left is a large lake or perhaps the ocean. The road is lined with trees, and I notice how all of the leaves have finally come out for summer. I drive faster and faster, and I am almost to the end and will win soon. Then, I come to a one-lane bridge and someone is coming from the other direction. I hit the brakes and the car goes sideways. I come to a stop in the middle of the bridge. I did not hit anything, but I lost the game because I stopped.

I leave the game and am returned to the car. The driver of the convertible has also left his game and is looking at me. I throw down my controller and say, "F--- this!" and he laughs. I get out of the car and back into mine. I start to drive away and I wake up.

dream 1 - my mom brought our new sister (not in IRL). She was half blooded from Caucasian, wtf?! her hair was blond and her eyes were green. She had similar features from my mom. I tried to hug her. She went to my school building, and she spoke in broken English. I told my mom not to teach her wrong English (I was kinda frustrated)...

dream 2 - I was at the school...the atmosphere was gloomy. There were my friends from hometown and some from american high school. suddenly bunch of my friends and I were at some kind of castle-like balcony or the top of a tower. My brother said 'look!' pointing to the background. There was beautiful sunny golden cloud covering the Washington bridge of Manhattan. Everything was shiny. There were people on the bridge waving their hands to the sky. We started to shout and waved hands, but suddenly the tower started to tremble - the balcony shifted and it felt like it was gonna crash down to the ground. I thought 'uh-oh' and the balcony started to fall!!! my brother said 'this is not happening!!' and this was really vivid. I felt adrenaline going inside my stomach when it was falling. the feeling of balcony falling per se was sooooo vivid. and then it crashed down - it was so painful. Blacked out. Then I woke up again on the balcony. I thanked god that I was still alive. Some of my friends were awake too. We tried to lift the rocks that crashed on to us by counting 3. We did.

The scene changed and I walking to school again with my 2 friends. I had some business at my house with my family so I thought I was gonna take only first period in the school. I handed the note to the staff at the main entrance, and I waited for my mom. There she came and we went to home.
The next day, I only took the first period and went home.
And the next day, again, I took first period and I was waiting for my mom at the entrance to pick me up. Suddenly my old friend in New Jersey came to pick me up. It was very strange that she had 13 toes.....wtf?

I don't know when I dreamed this but I was in the hall way and asked a boy out lol. I said "hey you wanna go out with me?" and he hesitated. "umm...I don't know. I don't think I want to." and I was like ugh...I asked him too early and he's gonna talk about me to his friends, I felt embarrassed :/

Scene jump. I was doing computer and there was no Park voted on the top 5 list for pre-presidential election.

Dream 3- I was in the living room watching DVD cases I burrowed from library. The cover contained sexuality and I was like wtf -.-


Shared Dream attempt
Dream 4 - I did WILD and went out to the veranda. The sky was dark. I could feel the grass under my bare feet. I flew a little. I shouted "clarity!" and the dream scene got more vivid. The sky turned into blue. I shouted "to Desert Claw!" and the dream scene slowly changed, felt a little weird. I was in a room with bunch of middle school kids. There was one kid I remember - his hair was black and long. I wanted to find Desert Claw but it seemed he wasn't there. anyway, I said
"Hey guys!!! you guys are dreaming! Do RC!!"
and the kids jumped on their feet, getting excited.
"Hey are you from Dreamviews? Are you a Dreamviews member?" I said, and this one kid said yes.
There was a laptop in the corner of the room, and the kid tried to go to Dreamviews. But he typed 'dreapview' in the address bar.
"No, it's Dreamviews." I said.
"What? dreambiews?"
"Jeez, I said D-R-E-A-M-V-I-E-W-S." I tried to type it up myself but I gave up.
"You guys don't even know about dreamviews....you guys are just DCs!"
and I shouted "to Nightspy!" then the scene changed.
I was in the hall way of a house. The floor was covered with soft greyish white carpet. There were 2 room doors closely together down the stairs. I went down and opened the right one. The walls were white. There was a bed on the right side and someone was sleeping. I immediately recognized him as Nightspy. I shook him to wake him up.
"Hey!! wake up you're dreaming!!! let's have shared dream! "
But he just moaned as if it was really troublesome. He wouldn't wake up. I saw his blue t-shirt. Couldnt see his face though...
"You wanna sleep 'in dream'? Oh come on....." I said, looking in the mirror. I was wearing a white cap and a red sweater-jacket.
I found a sketchbook on a cabinet near the bed. The drawings were mine.

Woke up.

Dream 1:

I often have dreams that I am in a dormitory (even though I never lived in one in college) or staying in a hostel. In this case it was a dorm and the room that I was in was actually the home ec room from my old high school, only redecorated/repurposed (I didn't know this during the dream.)

I was there with a woman that I used to work with and there were some people SCUBA diving, including her husband. He was going to go into some underwater cavern with another guy to retrieve something and she was worried. I was annoyed with her. I told her I'd been there and that it was nothing to worry about and started talking about all the cool things to see there, and while I was doing this we started watching a video someone had taken of the area. I remember distinctly that there were some really cool looking tortoises-not like sea turtles but more like giant Galapagos turtles that lived underwater. They were eating from the ocean floor.

We were all sitting on beds on the floor and the room was mostly decorated in red, with a shag carpet and white clothes dressers. It seemed like afternoon by the light coming in through the curtains but it felt later.

The ex-coworker put on her gear and went to wait for or meet her husband near the entrance of the cave. There was a small pool on one end of the dorm room where everyone went into the water and she was just going to go down there and wait. I thought it was stupid of her to do it but I didn't try to stop her.

I really missed diving and I wasn't sure I could remember how to use a dive computer so I thought I may as well go down too under the pretense of keeping her company so I could get used to having the gear on again and reading my gauges. I put my gear on and headed towards a bedroom to get the rest of my things, thinking that I might need to borrow a mask from someone. When I hooked on my bc some girl in the main room said 'You can't go down now, we're going to be leaving in a few minutes' and I covered by saying I hadn't been planning on it and that I was just getting my things around to leave.

As I loaded up my backpack I noticed a red gift bag with a card inside. I remembered that I had bought it for a friend for Valentine's day but never given it to her and I wondered if I could re-gift it and give it to the bf for V-day, since it was coming up. The bag was a little dusty but otherwise in good shape. There were dice in the bottom of the bag. I took out the card (white with red lettering) and it said 'Thinking of You' so I decided I couldn't use it.

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Dream fragment:

I dreamed about kissing a woman with strawberry blond hair, I remember distinctly commenting on her hair and playing with it. I got the distinct feeling in the dream that she'd never kissed another woman and I was afraid to kiss her at first because I thought she was straight. It was a lovely kiss. It seemed to be in the parking lot of a store not far from the house I lived in way back in high school. As I was walking away I started to feel a little bad, though, because I figured it would probably never amount to anything.

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Woke up with Ozzy Osbourne's "Road to Nowhere" stuck in my head.

2010 (approx)

I fell asleep without doing my affirmations in my journal.

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My husband was flirting with me, and he touched my left side, below my ribcage. I cringed and pulled away because it hurt there. It felt like a really bad bruise. He placed his hand on my ribcage again, I said, no, don't that really hurts. He grabbed me by the arm and held me in place then forcefully began rubbing the tender spot beneath my ribs. As he rubbed harder his face contorted into this demonic face and he smiled an evil, malicious smile. I couldn't pull away and he continued rubbing, knowing it was causing me terrible pain.

I woke abruptly IRL and noticed my left side, below my ribcage was very sore. When I felt there, I noticed a lump - for real. I ended up seeing the doctor and found it was a Lipoma. Six months later, I had it removed.
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Afterthought: I am thinking that the activation of my chakras either sensitized the nerves here so that I felt it or it simply brought my attention to that area. Because during meditation my chakras (base, sacral, solar plexus, heart) were all throbbing away. I actually checked my pulse rate several times believing that my heart rate had increased, but it had not. My pulse was steady even though the beating inside me was very strong and insistent. The solar plexus centered chakra and the heart chakra are the ones that thundered away. Did this have an effect on my side? I don't know. Perhaps just coincidence.