non-lucid

1983/82
Non-lucid/partial lucidness Dream
Memorable
Vivid
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After my Grandma passed away, I was very disturbed by her leaving this world. One night, I lay in bed and tried to imagine what she might be feeling - how would it feel to be 'dead'. With these thoughts in my mind, I fell asleep. As the dream began, I found myself swimming. It was probably a typical swimming pool. I tried to come up for air and found a see-through barrier preventing me from getting to the surface. I swam left and right to no avail.

The dream shifted. I believe I became conscious. I wondered how would one feel if they were dead? I began shutting down each of my senses. I figured one wouldn't be able to hear and then I could not hear. One would not be able to see and then I could not see anything but black. One would not be able to feel....and this is where it changed again. I felt cut off and isolated. I was floating (seemingly) in this blackness - all alone - without sight, without hearing, without feeling. I did not exist. No one worried about me. I had no worries but I had no joys either. And then...I became terrified. I wanted to mean something to someone. I wanted to be remembered. I wanted to feel and see and hear. I woke up.

*Afterthought: Looking back on this dream, I often wonder if I had not just gone to the void that I found after years of meditating? To a child, the void might seem terrifying especially if you don't know what it is. But when I found the void as an adult, it was peaceful. And because you are meditating and your focus is internal - not external - I don't hear anything, or feel anything, or think anything. I could have, if I'd wanted to. But the goal was to focus and clear the mind - clear them mind of all that is. Only after clearing the mind can one be able to hear other things and see other things. Before that you only hear what is yours to hear. ... your own noise. And if someone/something else was talking to you, you would never hear them above your own chatter. So, as a child, the void, if that is what I entered, was a nightmare. The unknown can be terrifying...

I'm driving in my car in my school's parking lot. There was a lot more to it but I can't remember ><

I'm walking around in an anime convention looking at stuff. This particular convention has shown up in my dreams repeatedly, but I've never been there irl. I don't even know if it's a real con.
I don't remember much except that one of my irl friends was actually being all happy and stuff towards me like she used to be, even though in real life she really doesn't like me ._.

Dream fragment: I was looking at 8 of the apollo astronaughts in their space suits during the year 1967.

Next dream I was searching the rooms in my house trying to find a woodpecker. It was making noise, pecking on something. I finally find it in this one room, but I can't get to it. It flies to a couple different rooms and I follow. It finally goes into a smaller room, almost like a closet. I'm thinking I can trap it there, only there is no door. I reach for a large towel to block its escape, only the woodpecker flies out of the room before I can put up the towel. The bird is flying toward me, and I drop the towel and flail my hands at it as it comes toward my head.

I wake up and actually hear a woodpecker outside beating on a telephone pole.

Although the vividness of my recall isn't getting massively better, I think my consistency is improving. Though I didn't remember anything after 4 1/2 hours of sleep when I woke myself up, I did remember this after falling asleep again (maybe it was the apple juice I drank).

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12/4/12

I'm watching a televised run, in which only 5 or 6 people are left. The losers of the pack, they're all extremely tired and struggling to stand, and it's quite painful to watch. In the lead is a man dressed as Sonic, while someone in a Robotnik costume trails a few people behind.

Towards the end of the track, Robotnik gains a sudden burst of pace and overtakes everyone in front of him, much to the excitement of the commentators. However, while approaching the final straight, Sonic whips it out the bag to regain his position in first place and win (though dozens have already finished long before him). While celebrating, a wall falls on Sonic, causing the commentators to go berzerk. Fortunately, it later turns out to be a couple of fans that have jumped the barrier to congratulate their favourite hedgehog.

I know I haven't updated in about a week. I've been almost too lazy to record my dreams. :/

The Past
I remember only parts of this dream. I was upstairs in a small library. This room seemed familiar for some reason. I found a cupboard full of past drawings I had drawn when I was little, and other scraps of paper.

I decided to move all these somewhere else. I took each stack inside the cupboard to a table. I think I was going to sort them or something.

By now, someone was with me. I don’t really know why they were there, though. I just remember them running downstairs and coming back up to tell me something important.

Fragment 2
This dream took place in what looked like a mixture of my two parents’ houses. This dream was blurry and fragmented, so I don’t really know what everything looked like. I remember going up to my little brother and asking him something in an upstairs room.

Had this dream this morning. I got up and started writing it down immediately after waking up because I didn't want to forget it. I didn't go lucid during this dream.

The first thing I remembered was being in outer space looking at the Earth. The Earth had three huge logos on it, one of which I remembered. The one I remembered looked like a skull in my dream but it wasn't. It was the face of a grey. Its eyes were bigger than normal human eyes, but no where near as big as the eyes of the typical grey we all hear about; it had two slits for nostrils; its mouth was open; and it didn't have any hair. This logo of the grey was in the northern hemisphere of Earth. The second logo intersected the equator, and the third logo was in the southern hemisphere.

These logos represented three groups that were either fighting to take over Earth , take over humanity, or both. These were very, very, large logos that covered something like 1/5 of the Earth's surface each. There was definitely one out in the middle of an ocean. The other two where over some land and ocean. Although this was is to be fought between three groups, I don't think any of these groups were going to fight alone. I knew that each of them had help from some ET civilization.

The next thing I remembered was being at these ancient ruins that was so high up, I was able to look down on forests. I was near the very large entrance of an ancient building / temple / palace / something, but looking out into the world. I was talking to the leader of these people who, I am pretty sure, were humans--perhaps some kind of ancient tribe of people based on what they wore. I think I am the same guy with black hair and the short black beard from a previous dream. I look human but I am an ET and I am going to help these people, although, this war has nothing to do with me.

I recall seeing one of the enemies, a messenger (human, I think), walk into the ruins. And the guy who I was talking to got angry, pointed at this guy, and started shouting stuff in another language. Then his people started getting rowdy and I don't remember what they did with the messenger. They did not let him go. That I know for sure.

I turned towards the horizon. It looked as though the sun was just now coming up. I remember staring at the beautiful orange sky and the trees. I raised my right arm and said "Behold. My army." Then the sky above the trees and in front of the horizon tore open. Inside of it was an endless army of something and the sky above them was red but had clouds. These things I couldn't make out. I suppose they had human forms but they were dark and carried weapons. The very first creature to come out was this dark, super giant. It bent over, stuck one leg out, an arm, then the other arm and leg.... It had a beard and the forest it was stepping on did not even reach its knees. Wow..... And my dream ended right there.

First

I'm in a school, trying to talk with a girl who seems depressed. I guess I'm a counselor or something. She keeps evading me, seems like she doesn't want to talk, but I seem to think it's very important. There is a point where she's hiding behind some other kids. She tries to look like she's talking with them but it seems pretty clear the others are not interacting with her. When I catch up with her she says she doesn't want to talk about it. I don't really have any idea what to do.

Second

I'm in a complex that might be military or just recreational, hard to say. Some group attacks it and people run around defending according to a preplanned setup. There are planes and airships. I'm really just watching, not participating, but giving hints and ideas. When it's over we notice that one of the pilots is missing. She has apparently just left during the hassle. She was a flight risk anyway, but we all liked her and are hoping for her to come back.

Last nights dream

I remember a Woman and I was racing something but can't remember what. I've just had a flash from another dream..there was a family and there was something about the little girl in this family.

Last nights dream

Myself and some other people are in a club or some place and we have to dance. There is a certain dance that we have to do and if we don't do it properly we are going to die or someone in the club is going to murder us.

I am in my back garden with my hubby, a dog who is ours and a young girl. It's night time and there are alien robot things out the front and we can see them through the gully and hear the noise from them. We are all really scared and trying to hide in the garden from them. We cower down by the coal bunker, my hubby points and says "how do we get over there?" I look and say "that's our garden" and I'm a little confused as to why he didn't realise that. We hear a loud noise above us and we cower down more as we hide from whatever it is. I look up and see bright lights and suddenly a UFO flys over us, I'm so afraid and panick incase we have been seen. I hear the robots out the front, they are getting louder and are coming for us because they know where we are. I'm now in a blind panick and wake up, my heart is pounding and I'm so scared that I can't go straight back to sleep lol.

I dreamt i was hanging out with my ex best friend and everything was back to the way it used to be. She's the only part of my dreams that i remember..

Last nights dream

I am in the swimming baths but I don't go into the water. I meet a woman in there, this woman used to be a man and still looks like a man but has had a sex change, I am a man in my dream and I have sex with this man/woman. We have sex in the changing rooms and by the pool and everywhere we can lol.
We are now lying by the side of the pool, I hook my hand over the side of the pool and a man suddenly comes towards my hand while he is swimming with his noisy mat, it startled me and sounded like a very noisy engine, we decide to move and go and have sex somewhere else. ((dream skip))
I am at my moms house, I see my Dad and he looks sad, he says "I'm going to bed" and I give him a kiss and a hug goodnight. I am with the he/she again and we go into the other room. I see things moving about and realise there are ghosts in here. I am sitting on the sofa with the he/she and the ghosts keep touching me and my hair. I rub 2 dummies into my hair lol ((babies dummies)). I have a horrible scared feeling go through me, I'm really scared and the ghosts do the same frantics to the he/she that I am with. We both get up and rush off into the other room, I bump into my Mom and she is pissed up, she says "I'm going to bed" and I whisper to her "I'll help you up and tell you about something" she says "ok".
We stumble upstairs and I see my kids all going to sleep on different beds. I tell my Mom the girls are going to sleep and my Mom then goes to bed. I go back to the room with the ghosts in and the ghosts start scaring me again and I get an awfull feeling again. My hubby suddenly comes and says "I've got you an ice-cream" I say "what kind?" he says "a feast" I say "I don't like them" he then calls the ice-cream man on the phone who then comes back and lets me choose another one and I choose a mint one and it's huge but very cheap for the size of it.
Me and the he/she now go back into the ghostly room and the ghosts are scaring us again, I say "come on...let's go and tell my Mom" we go up to her room and when we go in I see my Mom lying on her front in bed and she is talking to someone on the phone, her new boyfriend is on top of her having sex with her, I think to myself "ohhh my god, this is too much...this is fuckin weird!!!!" I think about my Dad being in the room above them and feel sick to my stomache about all of this, I can't get my head round it all. ((dream skip))
I am now in the car with my Moms boyfriend ((not sure why)) I decide to roll myself a fag and I realise that I have rolled loads of filter tips instead of the baccy, I laugh and say "sorry" and tip all the filter tips onto the seat. The filter tips have now all changed into matches and they set alight, we go round the corner by my house now and I try to blow them out and eventually manage to. Another car now goes round the corner just infront of us, the car is on fire and suddenly explodes and I shit myself, I then see that my sister-in-laws house is on fire. A fire engine comes towards us and it's also on fire, it's glowing orange with the flames, we swerve as we try not to hit it and we spin. We are now stuck on the path on the corner, another fire engine comes towards us, this is very scary and it's also on fire, it hits my side of the car and I feel the heat and the burn off it, I think "ohh god, it's my time to die" the most horrific feeling rushes through me, a feeling of doom and death. I shout to my Moms boyfriend "pull me over to your side" I'm in slow motion so can't get over to him to escape the fire. He pulls me over and I am now safe. I'm scared and we get out of the car, everywhere and everything is on fire. I now wake up and I'm sweating, my heart is pounding and I'm absolutely shitting myself lol.

I had a dream I was was in a Spider Man costume and I was in the USSR in the cold war. I was in a snowy part of the USSR, I suspected Siberia, but I saw train carts, they were rusting and had a red star on them, and one was open. I entered the cart and saw a door way to somewhere. I used my web to open the door, and I walked in and it was a hallway leading to my grandparents house in Spain. Weird, I know. But I thought it was normal. Another dream I had was one where I was walking to my History class, it was extremely bright that day, and when I walked into the class room, the format was all switched up, of the room. The room colour was different and I went to sit down in my seat. A few minutes after I sit, I see these crudely drawn cat looking things and they kept saying "We will never go outside again." once again, I didn't question it. The last dream I remember is one where I was in the parking lot near my old school, and I met up with my friend, Joshua. It was extremely busy that day, and it never is that busy. I went up to him, he led me to a car and opened it. He handed me a wide tinfoil bag. I shook his hand, then left. I later went to inspect what was in the bag, I opened it and there was one full sheet of blotter paper, dipped in LSD. They graphic was like the cover of the Animal Collective album Merry Weather Post Pavilion. I put the sheet into my backpack then walked along. I took a small little tab from the sheet and put in on my tongue. I remembered LSD corrodes in light, so I quickly put it in my mouth then put the sheet back into my backpack. After half an hour I felt nothing. I took two more hits. Time passed, nothing. I was trying to contact Joshua and telling him they weren't working for me. I didn't think he scammed me, but I couldn't be too sure. In the process of trying to contact him, I woke up.

Dream 1

I am at a house and we are looking around it. Suddenly we realise there is a build-up of gas in there. I grab a tape recorder which has proof on it that the man who lives there is cheating. The house has now changed into a dolls house and I am playing with it, I take out the lady that I don't like ((she is now a Barbie doll)). I now go to take out a man but a smaller me is in the house and it shouts "no, that's the wrong one" so I put him back. There is now a big explosion in the house, it's all normal size again now and I'm standing by the side of the house. I slowly go inside and check the house, it's dark with a little light like candle light but without the candles. Everything is everywhere and I say to a bloke "help me or I'll go flying, I can't see and there's stuff everywhere". There are animals inside, lots of birds too..loads of them actually. I see a big brown owl and I say "you need to free these, you can't keep them locked up. I walk through, I'm all dusty and dirty, the people I am with are now Barbie dolls again lol but life sized ones. I open a gate and check on the animals and there is straw everywhere.

Dream 2

I am trying on brahs for a man..I think he has made them, other people are watching. We are in a big PE gym. I look at the brahs and they have gel in them but it's not right and I can't get it right.

So do to having to finish and edit a speech project by the next day i skipped a night of sleep, needless to say I fell asleep fast the next night and had a pretty interesting dream.

It starts out with me getting off the bus. Apparently I'm on a class field trip. I'm amazed by my surrounding. I'm standing in a huge city only there is something off about it. Everything looks new and bright. The street is wide ans is brick rather than paved. Looking straight forward you can't see the horizon because the buildings are to tall. You can only see the sky if you look up. There are what seem to be two moons but it's daytime, yet you can see stars, it's like the world paused at twilight. The buildings a huge making my seem very small. Everything is close together. I also see rows and rows of fast flying hover cars going past. To top everything off there if a snake like train that is following the track thought the sky, much like a roller coaster only the track doesn't seem to touch the ground anywhere. I say snake like because was corkscrewing around the track like a snake climbing up a pole. It was all breath taking and I was taking pictures and almost crying joy.

I'm with my class and they all seem just as happy. The teacher starts explaining that we are on another planet. I look at the people who are walking down the street. They look human but no one has any emotions. They walk on with blank faces. I start to get a unsettling feeling. It was odd to see that we were the only ones talking or showing emotion. Another odd thing is I only saw alien men. There were girls in my class other than me but all the native people were guys, all in suits holding brief-cases. It was a bit scary really. I just shrug this off though and a small group of my friends in my class go off on our own to explore. We go to this really cool looking restaurant. It's inside but when you walk in it looks like your going outside into nighttime. It's really epic. The scenery looks like France or Paris.

Some stuff happens that I really don't remember well. Then I meet the first Alien women. She is some kind of leader or queen. At first she seems good and shows us around but slowly I start to see there is something wrong with her. There are moments when she does something crazy or mean. Finally I find out that on this planet there are about 5% women and 95% men. The women are like the Leaders and boss the men around who don't seem to have any emotions or thoughts for themselves. And way this women is the leader of leaders and she hates men. She kidnaps on of my guy friends and the only way to get him back is back fighting in this big arena. The arena is like you stereotypical arena by with a future twist. There are future like weapons and you can see hover cars flying over head.

I woke up before any real fighting. Dang you alarm clock