non-lucid

[This is a catch-up post. These dreams are from the nights of June 12-13 and 14-15, 2011.]

Night of June 12-13

There is a murder investigation taking place in a house that looks a lot like my grandparents' house. I am directly involved, and the investigation is highly elaborate and has a detailed plot, with lots of dialog. [Of course, I can't remember any of the specifics now.] Partway through, the dream morphs from live-action into a Tim Burton stop-motion movie featuring the Grim Reaper, who “kills” me. I somehow know I'm not really dead, though. I fall over backwards from the force of the scythe-blow and land in a sling, suspended from a moving, overhead track; it's part of a theme park ride. The ride takes me through “heaven” and ends with me exchanging salutes with Weird Al, who is standing in for Jesus on the ride.

Night of June 14-15

[Bizarre, Disneyland-related dreams FTW! This time,] I'm with a vivacious traveling companion, and we have time-traveled to the year 2011. [Whether backward or forward, I do not know.] We wonder how we know what year it is, until we come up with the obvious answer: “Because that's the year we set the time machine for?”

The entrance to the new version of Star Tours is in a rotating building with revolving doors. [This dream was in anticipation of the upcoming weekend; I was planning to go to Disneyland to ride the new Star Tours the following Sunday, June 19th, and I did.] Inside, there is a loading/staging area for the ride with circular staging zones.

“Abilene!” I say to a 1-year-old girl who is in the staging area with me. “You know you can't be on the end [of the row of seats]!” I take her spot in the staging area, making her and the other little kids move over along the row, toward the outside of the circle.

[This is a catch-up post. This dream is from the night of June 10-11, 2011.]

I'm in the car with my mom. We're driving along dirt roads, checking our location against photos we have of landmarks along the way. We're on our way to JJ's party. [This dream was in anticipation of what I was going to do that evening – exactly the same thing, only without the photos or my mom.]

I'm in the parking lot outside the old Pomona First Federal branch in Ontario. It's a sunny day. I'm picking up many coins (quarters, dimes, and pennies) from the parking lot. I think, It's a bank, so it makes sense that there would be coins in the parking lot. Some real-life friends of mine [I think they may have been T and G, but I'm not sure] walk past me. There are many other people there.

I enter the building. The entryway is a high-ceilinged, airy room with tall windows and a grand, sweeping staircase. There is a freestanding sign at the bottom of the stairs saying that the Joy Laow [I think] room, the meeting room at the top of the stairs, is available for rent for meetings.

I go further into the building. The main part of the building is a large, long, rectangular, carpeted room with a high ceiling. It is a Marie Callender's restaurant. There is another part of the restaurant floor with a lower ceiling. This area has a small stage, where a loud rock band is playing. My family is sitting around a table near the stage, next to the sound-mixing board, which is sitting on another table. I join them at their table. P. orders another Pepsi from our server, and I order a glass of water. Shortly after I arrive at the table, the band takes a break. I'm relieved that I won't have their music blasting my ears out throughout dinner.

I wander off from the table and through the large, carpeted room. There's a lot of empty space in it for a restaurant seating area; there are only a few rectangular tables, arranged in a line. I enter a train-station-like lobby area off to one side of the room, where I see an ad [?] for the Scott Pilgrim video game, in mirror image. I know RD wants to play it. I see a group of people there discussing video games, and I join in.

Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
Last night was filled with different fragments, and nothing else. Maybe I should stop going to bed at 4:00 AM.

I was at school, standing in the restroom. The room was about thirty by fifteen feet, with paler, turquoise laminate flooring that had a bunch of little bumps for texture - it's a slightly better-than-average looking room. There was an open doorway, with no door, on one of the longer walls. Next to this doorway was a basic cream, rectangular countertop with sharp edges, going to the end of the wall. The counter had three white sinks. Above it was one long mirror, divided into three even segments that were directly touching each other. On the other long wall, there were five or six cubicles that were smoothly painted this color. They were all closed.

The lighting wasn't coming from harsh, bright white fluorescent lights. The atmosphere of the room was fairly dim; the lighting was steady but probably only a bit more than half the brightness caused by fluorescent bulbs.

I was standing in front of the sink on the right, the closest one to the entrance. To my left, in front of the other two sinks were two of my friends; I can't remember who they were exactly, though. The only thing regarding these two people that I distinctly remember is that one of them was wearing a pullover, maroon-colored hoodie. I was in the bathroom with them because we had fifteen minutes before our AP Chemistry test, and I was just totally freaking out because of this.

Turning towards my friends, I said rather nervously, "I didn't study at all!"

One of them replied, "well, that's too bad..." and trailed off. Both of them left the restroom and left me there.

WILD Attempt 3


I didn't get the vibrations this time, but I did feel my heart pounding and whatnot. I was a lot more aware this time, I was trying to notice what was going on in my body, and I was doing my best to remember everything. I started out seeing a lot of blue, like last time (that was reassuring), and then I lost a little bit of awareness. I brought it all back and stuff, and then throughout the rest of my attempt, I started seeing stuff again, a lot more vividly than my first time. There were all of highways and cars and such, and I wanted to see if I could change it, so I tried to see a dojo, and it came out. I thought to myself "I must be close" and then it turned into a mountain with a huge roller coaster on it. I also heard some people in the imagery talking. My stepdad's voice said to me "just like that, you know?" I felt something crawling on my leg, but I was like "lol, that's not real" and it went away.

It was really weird, I felt like my perspective was changing a lot. You know how you can feel that your mind's in your head and you know where you are? I felt like my "mind" was flying around in figure-eights. Also, my eyes were darting around like CRAZY!

My air conditioner started up, and it made a loud noise, bringing me out of it. It was 5:30 here when I got up, and I need to go somewhere soon, so I'm not too upset, but I'm a little pissed that I didn't make too much progress.

I only remember two men (maybe they were delivery men) they were wearing orange and holding a huge rectangle object in carboard in my living room.

Then I'm outside my house and theres loads of people rushing past and theres some famous person, everyone is pushing,press,fans I didn't even get to see who it was.

After I left the dream I was still sleeping and then it dawned on me that I was dreaming so I woke up and wrote down my dream here.

Had a DILD yesterday.....flying around at supersonic speeds. Maybe to prove to myself I could.


Also had my first fight dream in a while today. Some guy kept talking crap and wanted his friends to jump in, and one of mine said they would jump in too. The first thing i did was knock the guy who he was talking to out, and then I proceeded to work on him. He couldn't do anything and his punches were coming at me in slow motion. Also, his friends never jumped in.


I also made some kind of profound statement in the dream about life, love, and the world in general. ugg I wish i could remember it.

Went to bed 11:30
Goals teleport
3:45 Just rem being in a parking lot from previous dreams

5:24 Was in the living room at my parents house watching a movie while my parents are in the next room with the door open trying to sleep. I cant rem the movie i was watching but in the dream i rem my mom being bothered by it like she cant sleep. I just rem her saying something and my dad says, hey im trying to sleep. She says sorry and that she is just bothered by the movie im watching, i think she calls it a guy movie or something

6:37 With my sister at a water park. I rem walking over to a pool thats pretty shallow with some kidss playing in it. I go towards the back where the water is barely a few feet deep when i realize that its a wave pool. The waves start coming and they are so high they burry me under water evertime. The first couple times im resistant to it but later i just let it happen and the wave take my back gently pushing me against the back wall.

Soon i notice my sister in the water too and a lot of people form a huge group up ahead of me. All of a sudden there is a pillow in the water, or something shaped like one. I rem starting to throw it as far up ahead as i could and somehow it would end up back to me. I rem once throwing it and seeig that girl bumi up ahead. I rem her turning around and throwing it back to me, she was wearing red and had a big grin on her face.

9:11 Im at a big river with a bunch of people from school like its a field trip or somthing. THe sides of the river are covered in trees and bushes, i think i rem a dirt path, i rem the water being brown and murky. I rem us all coming around the curve of the river getting ready to leave. We look back and see some people windsurfing heading in the other direction. One person falls off into the water, i dont see it but figure thats what happened based on peoples reactions. The guy who fell floats down river a bit and i see him. This makes me wonder how i would do on one of those windsurfs things. I imagine riding one and then think about what it would be like to fall off at high speeds and hit the water really hard.

We all continue moving in the other direction. We are in the water and it gets to a point where we cannot stand anymore and everyone starts swimming. The river seems to connect to the ocean or to a very big lake because we swim out of the river and into a huge body of water where i can see land very far away. As we leave the river we pass under a bridge, there is some dude standing on the side of the bridge. IN the dream i know he is with the class too but he doesnt want to swim. In the dream i am carrying something with me the whole time, cant rem what, When everyone starts swimming out into the body of water i realize this will make it difficult for me. The dude on the side of the bridge offers to hold it as i pass by. I try to hand it to him but the water is deep and i sink under just kind of leaving it on the surface. He grabs it and i say thanks, water spilling into my mouth.

I take off swimming after some people, i rem being behind this girl, but they seem to swim a lot faster. I start to swim as best as i can to keep up but in the dream know i will be ok even if i begin to lose them. Dont rem much else.

I was in some large field. It was some sort of trail. The field was absolutely huge because it would eventually change to different types of landscapes.

I had somehow gotten ahold of a horse and was mounted on it. It was a big black horse. I squeezed with my heels and urged it into a canter, and I was off.

We ran through the trail. It eventually became a forest, then a desert, and back to a grassy field with some buildings. The dream ended somewhere there.

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I was at school. It was my old school. I had some old class for some reason. When I had gotten out of that I went to Mrs. G's class to collect all my stuff. Apparently someone had won a TV. A MASSIVE samsung tv was just sitting in the hallway. When I say massive I mean massive; it was almost as wide as the hallway. It was taller than us.

I went inside the classroom, which was remarkably different. It resembled some sort of living room (sort of like my sister's living room I guess). The walls were painted concrete, all white, as was the ceiling. It was a very tall and narrow place. I think there was a black leather couch with a mauve blanket on it. JO and some others were sitting there watching a movie.

I apparently had to go somewhere, so I just went in and grabbed my stuff. They asked me which movie I would prefer to watch but I told them that I had to leave anyways. They ended up picking some Harry Potter movie; I remember the familiar theme song playing.

With my stuff, I picked up a can of grape fanta and my red water bottle. I refilled my water bottle with the water fountain and gulped down the fanta. It tasted odd; wasn't very flavorful. I randomly decided to look at the nutritional chart and noticed it had 330 calories. "More than a usual can of pop," I thought.

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I was at some random convenience store. As usual, the staff (presumably the owners) were asian, probably korean or vietnamese. I was there with AM, KR, and KE.

AM was trying to steal some breath mints or something. KE had bought a pack, but there was also a tub of them. She ended up getting caught. I panicked, thinking she was going to go to jail or something, but the old asian woman just yelled at her and nothing else happened.

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At first I was at church. For some reason I was sitting beside AD. We were near the front row. We were holding hands or something. I remember him rubbing my hand or holding me or something.

We eventually got out of the church. We were going home. We went to some random place that had multiple busses stopping in it. I had no idea which bus to take, but I remember seeing one that went to YD stn and WE stn.

Suddenly I was now at a different stop, but I was with AD, TE, CH, and CLB now. We boarded the bus which took us to what was apparently a station.

The station was really random. There was a platform, and then stairs everywhere that led below the platform. The platform was above a massive dug out area, filled with random rocks, sand, and some sort of water source.

I was only with CH now. Apparently the stairs led to some playground that led to SS. We both decided it would be quicker since there was a massive lineup now. I followed her down the stairs.

As I was going down I spotted my mother on the other side with BI. She had her guitar. She jumped onto one of the rocks and started playing. Then she somehow fell down the rocks, across the sand, and into one of the pools of water. I was really worried. I called out to her and said, "Don't do that! I still need you!"

We traversed the massive jungle gym. It felt like being in a video game; there were so many random obstacles. Eventually we got to the end.

Near the end I saw Mrs. W. and some other student with her. We talked for a bit. She was saying something about someone being a virgin and how she couldn't blame her for wanting to be one. Then the dream ended.

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Had a FA where I was writing down that last dream on my phone, but I kept misspelling words. I got the hint that it was a FA but the dream felt too unstable for me to do anything else.

So, I'm trying to MILD using Steven Laberge's method. Every day I am doing excercises to improve my prospective memory. When possible with scedule I try to wake up in the night first, then use a mantra of "the next time I'm dreaming I want to remember its a dream" or something like that. Really understanding the meaning though, not just an empty mantra. Then Visualizing myself becoming lucid using dreamsigns from the previous dream. I plan to record my progress on here. Tried doing it twice last night but fell asleep first at 3 am, and couldnt get back to sleep at 930.

DREAM
I am at my old elementary school and am walking outside the doors to the soccer field with the entire highschool rugby team. We're going to a tournament. Its winter, and the snow is very deep, and we are all wearing heavy warm clothing. My snowpants are orange and I have some sort of parka on. Its like were a military unit in arctic exercise. Its difficult to walk but I have my legs kindof spread out and Im moving without really doing anything. Suddenly its not winter anymore and there is grass that has been cut with patches left behind from not overlapping the lawn mower, and its about a meter high. Jesse from middleschool jumps out of the tall grass and tries to run away, but our coach runs him down and catches him. I am walking with him now at the front of the group, and more people from middle/highschool are behind us. We are talking about something that I can't remember, but I remember he pulls a gun on me. Its a toy gun, but I still disarm him and am about to flip him but decide not to because its obviously fake. He talks about bullying Jaime, and how he kicked him in the face. He kicks high in the air to demonstrate. We get to a school and we are on the side of it on some grass. There are other teams wearing soccer jerseys waiting there on the grass. We do a chant like the Hakka. Left leg forward and place it out on an angle. Same with right leg. Same with Left leg. Scoop up your guts from the ground and try to sell them for a decent price. Something about defeating your enemy? Or was it scoop up your guts and keep going? I wish I remembered for sure it was pretty messed up hahaha.

I am talking to James about how I haven't played rugby in two years. I say that I don't have my mouthguard and don't know what to do and he replies "I don't know man." Hes not likely to play rugby so its odd that he is here. I am very nervous to play and don't have my mouthguard but I line up anyway because a big part of me wants to do it, and I think it will be a great time if I don't lose any teeth or anything.

Wake up
At the same time at 930 I tried doing a WILD with the MILD but gave up because I often go for 45 mins without noticing any sleep paralysis or anything at all. I usually can't sleep after trying WILD so probably reduced my chances of MILD because you need to sleep for that! No lucids, but interesting dream at least.

This dream was short (I need to work on my recall), and frustrating --I accomplished the beginner TOTM but it was non-lucid.

I was in my house, sitting on the couch, when my cousins dropped by. Given that they live roughly 90 minutes away, this was a little odd. One of my youngest cousins proclaimed that he needed to do a trick--pen spinning, and promptly searched the house for suitable pen, long and heavy. After finally settling on a black pen from the local UPS store, he showcased a repertoire of tricks which was quite impressive.

Not to be outdone, an older cousin started spinning ten objects at once. His props looked somewhat like 6-inch tapered cylinders, about 1/2 inch thick, of shiny dark metal. After failing, this older cousin decided to try his hand at cup-stacking, and produced a mind-boggling display with about 20 cups (and no table to set the cups on ).

Going down to the basement, which houses my piano, I decided to try to learn by ear some wedding music of a friend who is getting married. The music turned out to be an odd compilation of Audio Adrenaline, but in the punk-rock style. I played it on my piano, and, being a musician, it sounded like a normal piano--nothing out of the ordinary (except that it was in tune). This was the beginning TOTM, but I wasn't lucid.

The dream skipped to the wedding, where apparently I was supposed to play, and did not have any music (I had forgotten it at home). After getting extremely worried, and talking to the groom, who was lounging about with no apparent concern, I woke up.

07-07-11 I am at a bridge somewhere, it is raining heavilly and I am with a couple of people. One of them is a black man who apparently likes to play football. At the bridge he is greeted by the coach of one of the teams, it comes to my attention that one of his personality traits is ”luck” (like the sims) and for that he is prone to fortuitious events occuring to him. In the rain and darkness he slowly turns his head to one side. I am expecting to find a tatoo that will indicate that he has been in the same army unit as the coach greeting us. I don't find it, but due to his personality trait the coach påerceives it and asks him to join the game, not as in watching it but actually playing it. We somehow communicate with one of our white mates (Not that skincolour is important to the plot of the dream, though I am trying to identify if I have any colturally inherited biases from my parrents, who would be described as borderline racists, hence I try and pay attention to these clues when I can) who is a mixture of happy and pissed off that this particular guy always get these opportunities.
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I am in Hornslet, in the street where the baker and old bar is. I am with my parrents and agin it is raining. We are packing up tents. I have a silent battle with my dad about who is better at this particular task, though I sense no hostility.

Notes: Though I don't remember how I turn lucid in the latter dream it is possible that it is a further development from one of the above. They all share the dark rainy atmosphere, though I don't remember which occured first. I do however remember a period of wakefulness in the morning, where I think about how long I have to sleep before I have to wake up to go traveling. It is possible that I have done a DEILD without really trying it, though I did repeat my MILD mantra in the morning wqhile awake. I also did this prior to falling asleep, though not with much ferocity.

08-07-11 I am lying in the bed, much as I am in waking life. I am moving slightly closer to ida until she starts laughing at me. The reason she starts laughing is because I apparently am making hand movements playing with my erect penis. It take me a while to wake up from this seing as I have dreamt about her and I tell her this and the fact that I haven't actually know I have been doing it. She laughs a bit more. And tells me I am doing it again. I have no idea and asks her if she is sure. She is. She decides that it is better to just come closer to me and lie in a spoon, which I am really happy about, I start stroking her body all over and notice that she is really soft, also I wonder why she isn't wearing a top, cause I am sure she weant to bed without one. I am happy cause I dared not ask this, due to ilness and was not sure I would be coming on too strong.
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I am in the same room and there is a brunette next to me, I believe it is ida, though as soon as we precede with the rather rough intercourse I believe it to be Anna from my study.
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I am with a blonde in a bed, she doesn't really wanna fool around, but end up wanting to give me a blowjob. She does so while the door to the room is open. I am not really feeling anything and wonder if I can get time to ”help her out” while she is not around. She ends up goong over to the door to close it a bit or at least look out and see if there is any immediate danger of us getting noticed. She thinks not. I notice it is Per Engholm standing outside and he is discussing with my granddad on the mothers side, who appears to be the hotel manager. I see him later fully dressed in a referee's outfit and he is gonna brandish out a couple of yellow cards to my gran as he has done something super illegal. This gives me time to get my blow job resumed, though as it turns out I aint all that up for it anymore.

Hours of sleep: 8
Vividness: 3/5
Recall: 1/5

Background: The dreams take place in France, Brittany in a small sea-town. I go there on holiday since I'm 6.


1. I'm on the beach. It's summer and I'm in my holiday. I don't remember if it was hot outsides, but there was bue sky. I walked a bt on the beach and stopped in front of some rocks. There is water trapped between them and I look at it to see if there were animals trapped inside. I do this everytime when I' on a beach . I saw some snails and two little fish, nothing spectacular. After a minute or so something appeard. It started to pray on the snails. At first I thought it was a crab or something like that. An DC appeared next to me.

Me: Have you seen that thing in the water?
DC: I don't know what you are referring to...
Me: look there under the rock

There were a few crabs walking toward the minicave under the rock but the something appeared. Now it looked like a snake, but it has feet too.

DC: What the hell?
Me: I think I know what this is. In the sea live some worm-like animals. They usually live in seaweed and pray o small animals. But his exemplar here is one of the bigger species.
DC: Quite impressing! We should catch it to sow some scientist. Maybe it's rare
Me: I wouldn't touch it, it's maybe poisonous.

2. I'm in the same region but now I'm in the port of the city. Surprisingly there is a friend of mine here and some other people. I don't remember who it was and t seems to me there was another friend too. We take a boat and there is a coach also there. We drive to a small bay which is very close to the port. There are a lot of waves. I walk around the boat without falling or something, I just walk naturally. All the other characters are in trouble and they can't walk without slipping or hurting. I manage to drive a bit the boot away from the cliffs we were slowly approaching.

Coach: You are terrific sir! It seems that we have a natural navigator here!
Me: I'm very used to this sea, so it wasn't difficult for me. In addition I'm seriously thinking of making the driver licence for boat!

Boat.... There was something with boat.... I remember that I was talking somewhere else about boats and such stuff.I think about it a bit and I remember a sentence: "You can drive drunk a boat, but it's not allowed for cars!" I get a flashback and I remember talking to a classmate during a party. He told he did the licence and that he went a lot to South France to drive there and to party on the boat. I'm a bit confused. I'0m certain that this memory has something to do with this scene. Wait a minute... How did I manage to get on a boat?

I awake. Well close to get lucid

I haven't been posting again. Haven't been getting much sleep as usual but I slept a bit earlier this afternoon and had an odd dream.

I don't remember much from it but I remember I was being lead somewhere for doing something awful. A woman was leading me through a facility and the entire time I was thinking of how to escape. There was a moment when I knew I could try to escape but for some reason I just couldn't bring my self to try. There were steel walled rooms all around, it felt as if we were moving underneath a complex of some kind. We went down several ladders and the last one had a skull on it. When I reached the bottom I saw a lot of people, they were wearing those full body bathing suit things (They all looked pretty good). The woman leading me then told me that she was going to dispose of me by pushing me in to the shark tank, I immediately grabbed on to one of the sides of the tank and resisted as much as I could. Then something happened I'm not sure what but she stopped trying to push me and went to talk to one of the guys when for some reason every one got down and laid sort of in a praising fashion towards something so I instinctively got down. The woman left me and I was free to move around. It was a very nice place and I saw a lot of it. Beautiful architecture. Seems to be something that is common in my dreams.

I think that should be enough for the dream. It was very strange. I can normally go between being several different people in my dreams, I suppose that's when my dreams transition. I'm fully conscious when I become another person but I never pay any mind to it. I've also not been lucid dreaming. Dunno what's wrong.

1. I'm playing Unknown Armies with the usual suspects in a bedroom at my old college. As the session draws to a close, people are getting ready for bed. I unfortunately have to share a bed with K.R., who is quite a large fellow, while everyone else has separate sleeping arrangements. He has a scar on his back, and when I touch it in curiosity he screams out from sleep. M.G. and V.W. walk in to say goodnight; V. looks particularly attractive in a one-piece nightie. I can't sleep, so I go out into the night. I end up in a dorm that seems to be having a Homecoming party.

However, everything is in 19tth century military style, almost Napoleonic. H.B. is dressed in epaulets, playing odd military boardgames with people I don't recognize. The bathrooms are also odd, and I really need to use them. I end up avoiding the matter entirely and pissing on an inconspicuous wall looking out into a courtyard. Of course, a group of other friends, (Q., N.H., M.T.) take this opportunity to walk by (dressed in regular clothing). They look and laugh at me, and I turn away in shame.

I start to almost float, bouncing off the walls as I move down a different hallway (everyone is back to normal). There's a bunch of rowdy old alums making too much noise, and I get past them to a proper bathroom at the end of the hall. There are posters hanging across from the sinks for odd metal bands, including the real-life band "Bigelf." The venue, however, is the fictional "Redneck Mountain." As I look in the mirror, I realize that I look like another student, a Jacob E. I do a double take, and recognize that it's a reality check to go lucid. I start washing my hands, expecting the activity to stabilize me, and I do feel the sensations of running water and friction. However, at this point I've been dreaming for over 10 minutes and I can't hold on any longer.

2. Fragment of a dinner with my future grad school mentor and family. He stays quiet throughout the meal until we ask about his work. When he talks about genes that manage magnetic particles, I stand up in amazement.

1) Collectible card game.

2) Watching porn at work.