non-lucid

04-07-11 Fragments. I remember being involved with Kiersti from my study, started out with just saying Hi to her as she was sat on a sofa. Then progrssed to a kiss and after that we had a walk where we agreed that we needed to talk. We ended up doing some major petting in her hallway, but nothing more than that. I remember the various ways I tried to kiss her all felt a little different and I was trying to get the right balance of tounge.

Duki wanted to know how it went with her the day after that (note: he has played an awful big part in a lot of my dreams recently).
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Something about watching a football match at a mates house. We are watching on the small telly at first, but decide to switch it over to the big one. However the owner of the TVs is being a cock and make the image roll up behind the screen as we are watching. For some reason I actually find this football match interesting although normally I wouldn't.
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Something about kaiser on the phone talking to me that we should meet up at our destination and I should try to bring beers, or maybe he was going to try bringing beers.
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I am in a house with a lot of funny angles and shapes and for some reason I have keys to all the rooms so I walk around opening pretty much any door I come across. At one point I bump into Daniel's little brother fully dressed in the shower. He asks me what I think of the house and I tell him that it is a bit weird with all the funny angles, he said that he likes that and was struggling for words and I finished the sentence “it is what gives it it's charm” for him.

Two people (me?) fighting each other. One is named Finishing, and the other is named Ending. Didn't know the ending.

I tried to read some Japanese names. When I checked again, they changed. I just got annoyed.

I was in Bacolod, near the Luxur place where there is a wide field, where public transportation don't pass by. I saw a hidden barbecue-han (place where people cook and sell barbecue), but no one is around.

Non-Dream/Lucid/Non-Lucid

I dreamed I was entering a pyramid. I saw a chest near me as I entered from where 4 cats showed up. A strange unknown voice was telling me to choose one cat before entering the next room. I've chosen the siemese cat.
The next room was one of my mom's friend's house. I was with my mom. We entered into her friend's house and made ourselves comfortable on the couches.
I was talking with my mom about a drink that I like. (in the real life I don't even know that drink...its name was strange...I don't remember it exactly, but it was some kinda like Polygramm or something like that).
I asked her if she has one anymore and she said no. I screamed out loud: "POLYGRAMM!!!" and Lili came to bring me a glass of it.
She came back and was like "Why did you had to scream out loud like this? You could had just please me to bring you one! ". She looked very upset at me.

Hello. After a long time I'm finally back. I have now vacation until October I now have more time to get this lucid dreaming thing back to work

Hours of sleep: 10
Recall: 2/5
Vividness: 4/5

- I'm playing basket in my old team as I used to do it 5 or 6 years ago. We were playing a few games, it was really fun. After this we go to the changing room. We speak about some stuff and than I realize there is something wrong. That I don't play basket anymore But the dream changes.

- I'm outside on an hill. There are a few friends from university. A guy is reading loudly the newspaper:

DC: It's time again to learn stupid random quotes to get good results in the exam. Everyone knows that it's pointless to know such quotes, but nobody wants to admit it.
Me: Yeah you are right, this reminds me of last exam. I learned so randomly things that I never gonna use in my life
Nathalie: Yeah you're right! I did this too. How stupid this thing is!
DC cites some verse from Goethe's Faust .
Nathalie: Wow that's impressive!
Me: No it's not. I can also cite some lines.

I do it, but there is something not right. It appears that I'm citing some obscene lines, which happen to be in Faust. Everybody starts to laughs.
My old mathteacher from high-school appears and gives us test. We don't want to write the exam.

DC: She's a witch! Let's destroy her!

He starts running towards her and pushes her down the hill. Everyone (me included) starts to laugh and we throw the test down hills.

A bit weird for a first dream, but it tells me that I'm gonna have some awesome dreams in future.

Keep it up!

*I live somewhere in Zelezny Brod and I am going home. It looks like winter night. Suddenly there are some people trying to stop me. First there is some man in a black winter jacket, then some gipsy guy. As I am passing by him he punches me lightly to my stomach and says something from which I assume he knows me. Then some other person comes to me and starts talking to me. I don't understand him. Then another group of some gipsy people tries to stop me and try to take some of my stuff, such as keys and volute. I realize that they know my name and where I live and so on. Twice I get in a fight with them and fight back my stuff. When I get home I chat with my mum about it. The whole dream is happening at night. I asked someone to check on CCTV how I have been attacked. It all looks too unreal and it makes me thing whether I don't have some mental illness such as paranoia or schizophrenia. I read an article in the new scientist about those mental disorders.

**I am at some swimming pool area. I feel like I have been here before. Then I notice a big water slide made of metal. There is some instructor saying how old it is and how people used it in the past. He says that for some time water was thrown down the slide as it slid better, but later on they stopped with it.

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July 3, 2011
Type: Regular Dreams.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10


Through out the night I had about 5 different dreams, none of which were little more than wandering around. Before these dreams I had something I have never encountered before, there were these extremely real and detailed still images of people. I saw these visions or images and waited for something to happen, for them to move or maybe start a dream or something but they just stood there. A dream started afterward but it had nothing to do with the images.

Pakistani Policeman
The first one was a Pakistani policeman. I looked intently at him for at least 30 seconds examining him but he never moved or blinked even.



Super Girl
Later was Super Girl. She seemed to be laughing otherwise this picture is a good copy.



Short Haired Woman
The third one was a short haired woman with blond hair. She looked a lot like this but was standing and was also laughing. I do have a reoccurring short haired girl but she is always brunette or black haired. She also seems more girlish but this blond seems older perhaps, at least mentally.


I have no clue why or what this means, if anything. To anyone who thinks they have an idea, leave a comment.

First Dream
I was in my house and found a secret door that led to a side of the house I have never been at (like a 5th side). There was a porch and there were neighbors that I had never met. During this dream I remember there was something after me but I didn't know what it was and it made me feel really uneasy when I awoke. I became partially lucid and tried flying but failed. Then while I was running away from whatever was after me I was taking extremely long strides like I was running on the moon.

This dream occurred after taking 2 Tylenol PMs (I was really not expecting to remember my dreams because of this) and falling asleep at around 1:30 AM.

Second Dream
I was going on a school field trip and had to get on a plane. I had weed in my backpack and I took it out and buried it right before we walked in the airport, which was a very small building. After waiting in line I was pulled aside with some other kids and put in some kind of jail cell / holding cell until everyone boarded the plane. I was released and was told that they had found weed in my backpack and had pictures to prove it. I spent the rest of the dream arguing with the chaperones.

This dream occurred sometime between 6 and 8 AM.

Third Dream
I was walking to Walgreen's through the parking lot like I do in waking life. When I turned around to see where I had been walking, everything was covered in snow. I figured that it was summer and there cant be snow and I must be dreaming (confirmed with reality check.) I became pretty damn lucid and vividly remember the coldness of the snow while I trudged through it. I tried thinking of crazy smells and tastes to experience so I could have good stabilization but I soon woke up.

This dream occurred during a nap between 5 and 6 PM.

Bed @ 10:15pm
Wake @ 5am
Bed @ 6:30am
Wake @ 8:50 am

(before wbtb)
400mcg Huperzine-a
4mg Nicotine gum
2 tabs Theanine Serene
1 Natra Sleep

When I woke up the first time I realized waking up so late was a mistake, but it was worth a try, and I'm surprised I had the success I did. It just took so loooong to get back to sleep, hence the extra supps to get to sleep.

I don't remember the first part when I first became aware, just that there were a lot of people around and I realized it was a waste of my dream time so I flew out through the ceiling. My intended task was to dialog w/my inner self about the pattern/habit of punishing and abusing myself for perceived mistakes, for being in pain, for being weak, etc. I was flew through the ceiling, asked the dream, "hey, dream, what's beyond this dream?" and
next I was in room with my dad. My dad was lying on a mattress on the floor to my left, head away from me. He seemed young, and we were talking really comfortably, with an affinity that I usually don't feel IWL (due to an abusive past). It seemed to me that he and I were "on assignment", and I was trying to wake him up to help him remember his true self. I felt so tender and loving toward him, it was a little awkward in the dream. I said something to him, and he said something like he was remembering, it was coming back to him.

He then held up his right hand and a green light was blinking from inside his wrist.."There's a transmitter" he said. I looked at his left hand, and saw a digital "10:44" shining through his wrist. I lifted his hand, surprised, and remarked on it, there was some kind of device under his hand that now showed a different time. (In the dream, it wasn't a clock or a watch.). Then I moved up by his head, and he turned on his right side and I asked myself, "What does he need?" and then I held him very tenderly. That also felt kind of weird to me, to be so close and so tender toward my father, but I knew I was dreaming and went with it.

There were some non-lucid snippets of being in a room lying on air mattresses with my ex, "T". I was unconsciously moving toward him to have sex with him and some other part of me kept reining myself in, saying "noo nooooo nooo, that's not what I want, remember? I don't want to have sex with him."

I became lucid again and flew again through the ceiling, and said, "Hey, dream, I want you to take me to a beautiful healing temple where I can be alone in a room and collect my thoughts." I began moving at warp speed through a light tunnel, I heard a chorus of beautiful voices that sounded like angels and I felt ecstatic and a little uneasy because I heard the voices singing, "Righteous.....righteous....righteous....righteous ....". It was beautiful and not like a taunt, it still made me wonder, though. I emerged in a plain beige room (yah, thanks so much subconscious) with a nerdy-looking older man wearing a beige suit, glasses, with brown hair and a brown beard.

His back was to me at first, I approached him and asked him, "What do you know about "righteous"?", thinking, my subC dumped me there so he could help. He said, "I can't say I "know" anything about it..."
Me: "Okay, what can you tell me about it?"
Him: "Well, it's complicated. It's a paradox."
I hear someone approaching, and he gives me a look like I better get out of there. I'm thinking, it's a dream, maybe I should face this...but the guy is directing me with his eyes to get out so I left.
There was a gap, next thing I know, I was kneeling by a window on the floor (like one of those basement windows, only it was inside) and a woman in a blue "prison" shirt with dark hair is trying to pull me in where she is, and a long line of women behind here are all holding each other like a conga line, all trying to pull me in together.
I'm pulling back, holding my own, and asking, "WHAT DO YOU NEEEEED????"
I don't remember if she said anything, I was a little frantic, and I said, "I send every one of you one hundred pieces of love..." (totally ganked from Robert Waggoner, lol).
They were still pulling on me, and I yelled out, "God give these women what they need!"

Not sure of the sequence of this part - I walked into a room, and had some big some kind of being stuck to my back. I thought of "monkey on my back", and also think I noticed there was a small hand and also thought it might be related to an experience from the past I'm not quite over yet. As soon as I walked into the room, I saw something that looked like a metallic red hair dryer (come to think of it, it would be more in function like a creme brulee torch) and I walked over to it, pressed the top that I knew would make a flame come out, and turned my back on it so the thing on my back would catch the heat from it. (I guess I was thinking it was like a tick...if you put a flame close to a tick it will detach itself and crawl away). I think it did come off but I'm not sure.

The scene changed, I was flying again, and I said, in a voice that surprised me by how lyrical and strong and confident I sounded, "I want to experience being FREE!". Suddenly I was immersed in and swimming through ocean water that was deep blue and so beautiful. I was somehow in a building that reminded me of a church because it had dark wood frames and stained glass, yet I was still in the water. The building shrank and got smaller, while I was still in water, until I felt as if I were in a coffin. I felt slightly claustrophobic, and reached for a wall, wondering if I should try to break out, or try to wake up.

I reasoned that, I'm dreaming, I can breathe in the water, and I'm not going to die, so let's just see what happens.
I noticed the texture of the 'coffin' changing, to leathery, and a crack appearing above me. I thought "reptilian egg', and saw black filigree spine plates like a stegosaurus pass by the crack, and heard a roar. I was frightened at first, then wondered if I was one of them, if I was a dinosaur about to hatch, in which case I was one of them and belonged and it would be ok to hatch. I pecked at another part of the 'egg', and saw a hand reach through to pull a chunk off.

I thought, "oh, wow, I'm getting help!"
More pieces came off, and I found myself face to face with a muppet, who reminded me of one of the "yip-yips", only he was bright red, and was wearing a viking helmet. He had great big plastic saucer eyes.

I was like, "wtf? a muppet? whut tha wha?" and struggled to stay in the dream, but woke up. I was too awake to get back into it.

*I am at some construction place. It seems like there is some supermarket being build or so. At one point I can see thick metal wires going up from the ground and it could be some 30 meters high. Around each of them are spined two plastic, orange pipes with holes as if some DNA model. I return to the place later and those pipes are already drowned in concrete. The construction must have progressed greatly. I am there with someone else. I am not sure who it is, feels as an old friend. I am on the top of the concrete block and I can see the pairs of holes to the concrete where the pipes were. I think it must be some kind of ventilation system. We are thinking of throwing something in, but because we don’t know what is it for we don’t do it.
**I walk down a long street, and there are many small houses along the street. I don’t think I live in the house where I am going, but I go there because of some pictures or painting. I remember that I have been there once or twice before. There are two girls waiting for me there. It’s a nice modern house but for some reason it feels like it has been build really quickly. I walk up the stairs made of light wood which are turning 180 degrees. There is a huge sliding glass door leading to a kitchen. The kitchen is nice and bright with a wooden floor. I look right and see a small room at the end, some 15m away... so I walk towards it, I fell thats where I need to go. I enter the room, its small room looking like an atelier or so. There are the two girls. I always bring a few canvases and these two girls paint some painting on it for my flat. One of the girls is my sister. There is also some Brazilian girl living next door and she is making eyes on me, but my sister and the other girl say that she is pretty easy. She asks me to go for a coffee with her. She also says that she lives somewhere near Sheffield, which is near German borders. She says she will call me.
Then **I walk down a long street, and there are many small houses around the street. I don’t think I live in the house where I am going, but I go there because of some pictures or painting. I remember I have been there once or twice before. There are two girls waiting for me there. It’s a nice modern house. I walk up the stairs made of light wood which are turning 180 degrees. There is a huge sliding glass door leading to a kitchen. Then I turn right, which leads to a small room. The kitchen is nicely bright with wooden floor. Then I entre the small room and I always bring few canvases and these two girls paint some painting for my flat. One of the girls is my sister. There is some Brazilian girl living next door and she is making eyes on me, but my sister and the other girl say that she is pretty easy. She asks me to go for a coffee with her. She also says that she lives somewhere near Sheffield, which is near German borders. She says she will call me.
Then I am in my sister’s room in Zasada, but it is mine now. I think I am ill and my sister offers that she paints a picture for me. Then I go to sleep and when I wake up I see that she painted on the wall. I admire those paintings because it looks really well. On the left of the Window that faces our green house, there is a really good painting of a stylistic giraffe. It is partially like robot; with its head down as if through the window and its head is in between the window and radiator. I really admire how good it is. On the opposite wall there is some abstract painting. It is very colourful, yellow, orange, blue, and green. But then I think I go to sleep again or walk out of the room. When I wake up or come back to the room it’s all different and it surprises me greatly. So I do reality check, just in case, I look at my hands and both thumbs are to the right. So I realise it is a dream!!! And my mom walks in the room. And I am so excited that I tell my mum “Mom I am dreaming, I am dreaming!” ( I am very excited about it). I tell me sister to continue painting....and I wake up.
***I am at some area that reminds me of Berany. It’s a hill with a road running in serpentines up the hill and a running and cycling race is taking place there. There is my brother and my father with me. We tease each other about the race and my father suggests that one of us will race. We have to let the bike tune up and it takes approximately 30 min. When I come back, it looks like my dad is going to race as he already has a number on him. I say that I want to go too, so he says I need to go to register in the office. I walk there but the lady says that it’s too late now even for the run.
Next I am running up the hill so I can see the race, but there I see two men in some Viking suit running up and down the hill in a kind of fight. The one that is at the bottom of the slope throws his wide, undecorated sword at the other one but misses. Then the one high on the slope throws his sword at the bottom one and hits him in his ankle. I don’t think they notice me. As I run I pick up one of the swords but drop it a few meters later. The two warriors notice and run after me. I keep running and because I know the place I lose them. I am running very fast. As I run I also pick up a green blanket (???) but also drop it. When I return to the bottom of the hill, there is my dad without the number and he tells me that he raced already. He says that it was very difficult. We are going home, we live in a little house nearby and there are two huge stones in front of the house. I still have a feeling that those warriors are hunting me. I slide between the stones. I am wearing jeans and jacket and as I slide through there is something that looks like pea & ham and it messes my trousers. But I think its ok and it washes away easily.

Ok so I know there was more to this dream but this is really all I completely remember.

I was going to someone's house in a zombie apocalypse. It was our family friends house. I got inside and talked to them and kinda relaxed for a bit. I think my friend Cole was there. We were there and I remember that there was another zombie outbreak, it was near this house. (This house was actually a ground level apartment). We all ran into the back room and were gonna hide. My friend Cole and I grabbed blankets and hid behind the bed. The others seemed to hide behind doors and in closets. My friend seemed mad at me.


So here is a minor side note. In this dream (it was actually pretty lengthy) It felt like it was really long. I wanted desperately for this to be a dream and just for me to wake up and be having a normal life. Because literally this felt like real life. It was a long dream. I had never wanted to wake up so much in my life, the constant horror of my worst fear made this a pretty bad nightmare.

Class and Securing the Hill

I was in a class, but don't know what I was learning. We all chose net-books for the day. They were all unique.
One computer had a problem.

Dream skip?

I went to a grassy hill and was going to fight some machines. Everyone in my unit or on my team had a vehicle
that served as protection. I chose a place on the hill that offered protection from ahead and from behind.

These dreams repeated. When I went to class again, I knew one of the computers had a problem. I got the same
computer I had had before because I knew that one worked.

I saw some meat that had been flattened and salted. It was raw. I ate some and realized some how, not by the taste,
that the meat had been poisoned. I started to spit out the meat. Every time I spit, I had a lot more spit to spit out. I
spit enough to fill a baggie half way. I left the class.

I was on the hill again. Someone had a boa constrictor--possibly a red tail boa. It was about 8 feet long. They were letting it get very close to me. It was trying to bite me. Eventually I was trying to hold it anyway. I tried to get it behind the head, but being tired in waking life (I guess), I couldn't focus on it much. I ended up holding it by the tail and letting it crawl on the ground.

Then I was positioned on the hill again. My spot was now vulnerable from the rear. I didn't like that at all. I had a premonition that we would be attacked from the rear. I ended up in some kind of a room that was walled by tough, nylon strapping material. I had a machine gun. It was like a cross between an AK-47 and an AR-15. I liked having it. I shot about 15 bullets and then thought I should stop in case I hit someone. I wanted to get out of the room, so I started pulling the strapping and it was coming loose. Eventually I guess I did get loose with someone else who was in the room with me.

Then I was in a military aircraft. I was never in the military. We were preparing for something. I was trying to get my machine gun it a case because I didn't want to leave it, and I didn't want to walk around wherever I was going with an open machine gun.

One of the other guys with me, a superior I think, threw a jacket out of the plane. I was upset because I think it was my jacket. It was as though I wasn't supposed to keep the military property (including the gun). I quickly put on another jacket so as to claim it. That meant the jacket thrown out was someone elses.

OGF

I met a girl who looked like someone I used to date. I was my current age--she was the age I met her. I approached her nervous of how she would respond to what I wanted to tell her. I told her that I know I am much older, but I just wanted to tell her that she looked like an ogf. She looked exactly like her. I was in love.

Later, she responded more to my liking, and I became semi lucid, or at least controlled my dream. I started holding her. I was taking my time to go up her shirt because I was enjoying being with her, but I realized I may wake up soon, so I started going further up her shirt. I got so far as to feel where her breast started. I didn't go further because I wanted to save some of the enjoyment. I never got to feel her breast, but I was enjoying looking at her face too much.

Went to bed 1230
Goals teleport
Woke up at 4:30 and could not sleep again until 6-630
7:OO I rem considering what i would be like for words to suddenly appear in my first person view about my progress, like in a game. When i consider this it makes me think of what a great way it would be to go lucid.

*I rem being at an amusemnt park and we with jessica, possibly others, and we are riding a ride like the scream. I rem there was no seatbelts or anything to strap you in though. At one point jessica gets off the ride but she stilll waits in the general area, not having to get out of the way. I rem thinking about how i had been riding the ride over and over again without stopping. I considered whether i would get sick as well as whether or not i was annoying jessica. I rem one time when it starts again, i half leaned outside of it and for a moment felt like i was gonna fall all of the way down. It was quite scary and prevented me from doing that again.

*I vaguely rem being at school and getting ready to go to a class i hadnt been to in a long time.

*Vaguely rem some kind of battle or conflict, outdoors and sunny, stone walkways and buildings.

*I vaguely rem being at a friends house, im thinkink with alexis cause i kind of rem seeing his dad. They are not in the room and i am looking at their dog. It looks like a golden retriever but for some reason in the dream i think of it as a donkee. I rem noticing it had like a saddle strapped to its back but it was very small and fluffy, i think pink in color. It looked like it was for a smaller animal to sit on the dog/
donkeys back.

8:49 I rem being at school in a classroom. I cant rem what class it was specifically but i rem my creative writ teacher teaching it. At first he is talking to the entire class, but more on the other side of the room, about some politics; i rem he mentions hawaii. I rem talking to some dude who works at gamestop about what classes he signed up for next semester. He tells me all of his classes, names four of them i think spanish was one, and then reveals he only plans to take the finals for them. He talks about one class he is signing up for a second time, he didnt finish the first time and complains he never got a chance to meet his classmates.

At one point i think he changes into a girl but not sure. I almost forgot, he had a lady with him who was like doing his finances or something. I rem at one point he is standing and she next to him, they both say something at the same time like they planned it and they make a hand gesture like throwing away money. I rem thinking it was pretty cheesy in the dream but he seemed proud of himself.

MY cre writ teacher comes over to my side of the room and now im sitting in the front row of class with a few people on each side but its like he is talking to a select group from the class. He starts talking about fox news, it was really funny. He starts by saying something like its that time again, when the one party is ready to cause trouble or something like that. He describes them as the ones who... and then he acts out what he is saying. I cant rem exactly what he said but i know in the dream he was making fun of glenn beck and others on fox news. I rem him mocking one of the women, he turned around and started shaking his ass, it was funny but wierd becasuse he kind of shifted into a woman when he did this. I rem all of a sudden he had a womens lower body and was wearing a green skirt. Cant rem much else.

10:44 Had a dream, cant rem how it gets to this point but, i rem walking with a long white stick with black writing on it. In the dream i know it has something to do with the police. Im in like a mall or something and there is a huge crowd of people. I walk into the group with my stick and the dream shifts into like a highschool graduation. The stick is now like my diploma and the line turns into just me and a few others. We are walking through a room with a bunch of people in suits and dresses.

The diploma is now like a military baton and everyone is holding theres like the military holds the rifle at their side. I rem walking in this way, or marching and being really sillly with it. I was over acting my march until i realized so many people in the room were watching. It seems like people on the left of the line were sitting and standing on the right. As i leave this room i see my dad and i think some of his family standing there in a suit and he is holding up a camera like it is on record.

We move into the next room and all head to our seats. Before i sit down i pass rachelle. When i do she says that she ran for first place or something like that, i make a really strange face, but im meaning to congratulate her, then i walk off. The room we are in has all of the graduating class and its poorly lit. the whole dream feels grey. They were calling us up just a few at a time, as my group sits down this black dude from my group says something llike, man i only got six. He said something else and in the dream i knew he was complaining about how many people cheered for him. He pulled out a plastic bag with a number written on it with a black sharpie. I do the same and say something similar, but i got even less cheers. A couple people around me see this and start laughing, i sit down at first a little self conscious but then stop caring. Cant rem much else. (I didnt go to my real hs graduation, so this is an interesting dream...)

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I, with my friend, was riding the subway back to Finch station, from somewhere around Union (or past). In this subway, each car was 10-15 feet across, and had two sets of doors, one set to let people in/out, and one set inside the car. The doors opened, and my friend said we should go inside the inner doors, in case of a flood. The doors opened again, and two cute girls walked in, as I slipped into the inner compartment with my friend. A moment later, one of the girls (a blonde) came in, looked at us a little weird, and leaned against the opposite wall; I gave her a smile and nod, and returned to talking to my friend, who promptly told me that after prom, he'd missed the subway (or it could've been plane) home, and so he'd been gone for two days instead of one. I followed up with "Yeah, I've had that. Whenever I miss the buses, I just stay at your place." The girl looked at us somewhat mockingly again, and I continued (in a voice implying really-are-you-an-idiot) "Oh, not like that."

At this point, we exited the subway and boarded the streetcar. I can only surmise that my subconscious has no idea what a streetcar is, because this was a chain of little erasers on rails. We rode for a while, and I made smalltalk with the blonde, and could tell she was somewhat interested. At this point, I did something stupid and my "streetcar" came off the rails. I had to jog as quickly as the streetcar and try and get it back on the rails, to void holding up the people in cars behind me. No use, I couldn't get it back on, and eventually, the streetcar sped to be much quicker than myself.

Fragments

I remember being in my bedroom with my sister, my brother, and my brother's friend, playing some kind of block game. I noticed that my laundry basket (which, in reality, I'd placed in front of my door, so I'd remember to do laundry in the morning) was askew, as though I'd opened the door and walked right by it.

I woke up at about 6am this morning..2 hours earlier than I planned to, so I figured it was too early to have passed an REM cycle. I got up, browsed some sites on the computer for a while, then went back to try a WILD at about 7am.

Green = non-lucid
Red = moment before lucidity
Sky Blue = lucid

First Attempt:

I knew I had nearly done it when I felt a huge tingle all over my body, which at some point just broke. It kind of feels like your body "disconnecting" if you were to describe it. Behind my lids, I was seeing some flashes of pictures in the distance, and I was attempting to focus on them. However, I feel like I got too excited at this new sensation, and the pictures soon went away and simply turned into blackness. I opened my eyes to find myself lying in bed.

Second Attempt:

Not willing to give up, I decided to try one more time. It was a strange mix of non-lucidity and brief lucidity, but I am getting there. I once again felt the telltale sign of that "disconnecting" feeling, and this time let it overtake me without trying to focus too hard. Unfortunately, I believe this thought of completely letting go caused me to lose consciousness and I fell into a non-lucid dream...

I was in some type of either spaceship with narrow corridors. I knew I was in danger, I believe I was also with my girlfriend. There were howling noises in the background like wolves, and we were hiding in this dark room, but still light enough to faintly see each other...we were on a chair and I remember hugging her..but for some reason we didn't care about the danger and well it was starting to become "feely."

At this point that dream fades out, and I open my eyes to find my room...or so I thought.

I "woke up" and lay in bed for a few seconds just looking out my window. But something didn't feel right. Outside the window was another building..with a gated fence in front of it. It was also at ground level, when I live on the top floor of an apartment building. At this moment I realized it was a dream.

It felt incredibly stable at first. I walked to the window and looked outside. The sky was dark, everything was shaded in gray, and I was at ground level, inside a black fenced enclosure that looks like one of those city parks with all cement. I felt scared like there was a sense this would be a nightmare, but realizing that I was dreaming, I braved it and stepped outside my window. I believe this is the moment I got ahead of myself: I walked for a bit, then immediately wanted to test the ability to create things. I looked at a spot on cement lot and imagined Holo(anime) standing there. It worked and it didn't. As I did this, it felt like I was focusing on my body lying in bed to work the imagination, rather than my dream body. I became aware of myself lying in bed and try as I might to get the dream to come back, it was too late.

I am definitely going to try more tomorrow however. Now that I know more or less what sleep paralysis feels like to me, I know what to expect and will be able to take things slower.