non-lucid

Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
This dream immediately preceded the previous entry, Harmonica and Minor MDP Activities. It consists of more false awakenings and in-dream "fake sleep paralysis" crap.

I woke up in my bed, the lights in the room on like normal. Okay, I didn't really wake up - I had actually entered my first false awakening in months.

I was on my back, with my duvet cover half pulled onto me, up to my stomach. I wasn't thinking about the lucid dream that I just had; instead, I was focused on just trying to get my vision to work. I was looking up at the ceiling, slightly down and to the right, almost at the wall. My eyes didn't seem to be functioning properly; I was seeing slightly in double vision. Outlines of objects were shimmering and rippling. I moved slightly in my bed, lifting my arm up and feeling the air move over it as I did. My bed must have been warm for me to notice the cooler air in the room when I moved.

I breathed out and my gaze shifted to the right, almost to my door. The door was on the wall right-adjacent to the one that the head of my bed was up against. As my eyes looked further and further to the right, a black, almost fully-transparent silhouette shaped like a CD case came into the left corner of my vision. When I looked less to the right and more to the left, the square would also move to the left and go further from the center of my vision, and obstruct less of my view. I got frustrated and thought, briefly, that this might just be a dream, but it didn't go anywhere.

I decided to try WILDing and ignore this 'square'. I closed my eyes; when I did, they didn't actually close, and I could still see everything around me. As with practically all of my dream sleep paralysis episodes, in a few moments I felt shaking, and saw the covers being pulled off of me. For some reason, I was looking up with my head resting normally against my pillow, but I could see the foot of my bed as if my head was actually up. My covers in real life pretty much consist of a down duvet with a rainbow-striped cover, with alternating colors of sky blue, red, orange, yellow, pale purple and green (the stripes themselves also vary in thickness). This was the case in the dream, too. I saw the duvet getting pulled towards the foot of my bed, and then underneath, as if something was sitting under the end there, just reeling it all in.

I then suddenly fell through my bed and smacked the floor on my back, which hurt the top part of my spine, in between my shoulders, a bit. Realistic pain isn't uncommon in my SP dreams either. It was now pretty dark in the room, as if all the lights were off but moonlight was pouring in from the windows - lots of moonlight. The floor was dusty, but I couldn't move anything but my head and eyes. I was facing upwards, looking up at the underside of my bed which now had a hole burned through it; there were broken wood pieces and splinters around the edges of this hole, which was probably twice the size of a dinner plate. Past the hole, up at the ceiling, it was really dark.

I then looked to the left, a bit nervous because of how intense this sleep paralysis was getting, and saw a monster - it was a very disfigured, pale, pale blue-green person with their mouth half-open, missing teeth, and dry, torn skin. They weren't wearing anything but I could only recognize their legs and arms, and not their stomach or anything else besides their facial features - maybe not even that! They had holes where their eyes should've been, a triangular hole where the nose should be (like on a skull), and only a few thin strands of lighter, pale hair.

I started to feel intense vibrations, which were also similar to real life ones.

Then I woke up for real.

Lucidity <0-1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10>
Horrid Nightmare <10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1-0-1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10> Lovely Sweet Dream

[[Double brackets means that a part of the dream is cloudy, and I cannot remember it well.]]

I was at my friend J's house. He was just about to head to this bible-school thing that his church does, with his family. I agreed to ride along since I was already there. I didn't really want to go, but I certainly didn't want to be rude. As we began to get in the car with his mother and two sisters, his mother stopped us.

She addressed the two of us, saying, "The class only needs one guy of your age."
J replied happily, "Okay!" and hopped out of the car, waving to me, rubbing in the fact that I was now stuck going to the class with his sisters and mother by myself.

Secretly, I didn't mind all that much, as I had a crush on his sister. However, we simply rode around in the car for a good while and hopped out in a parking lot. I balanced, walking on the parking lot cement stoppers, and as I stepped off of one, I woke up.

I was walking along Lacson street at night, with my lover. We went into Starbucks. I bought Coke, although I always wanted to buy some bread. I kissed my lover on the back of the neck.

Me and someone else (a girl) talked about our current president, and about corruption. The corruption involved something about table napkin.

We are driving home. I was with two people. Both looked Caucasian. The area looks more like America than our own country. A friend is driving. We were talking about something.

We arrived "home." Again, an American-type housing. We argued about something. Something about talking to a girl I like. Actually, the two of them argued. I just watched. Then the long-haired friend lent me his mobile sofa. There are controls like a wheelchair.

I drove it out, and we saw our "parents" outside on the lawn, with concerned looks. I drove out on the street, and then realized it's very hard to control. I went back.

We were in a dormitory in school. There is strong rain. Then we realized it is flooding. The things on the floor are floating. There are a lot of people.

The color mood is stormy.

We need to move to another building. We needed to go up the stairs, on what looked like branches. The buildings are connected to the trees. We are on the trees.

There were arguments. Not sure about what, but I sensed that the place was divided into factions. Some want to do something else.

It keeps on raining.

Non-Dream/Lucid/Non-Lucid/Dream Counter

DREAM 1: There was a new event on Grand Chase (A game I play. I would like to call it GC from now ). It had some good rewards and I really wanted to participate, but there was no computer there. Luckily I found a weird device that was running GC that was hanging on the wall. I cut the wire that was hanging it and I turned it on. Lili came in and said: "Why are you playing with that old crap device? I will bring you some good ones. "
She came back with 2 devices like this. One was red and the other one white (Yep... just like wine! ^_^) and she was letting me choose if I want the red one or the white one, through she was totally recommending me to choose the white one.
Those devices seemed like GameBoy platforms. As I was thinking what to choose, the GameBoy platforms turned into digital cameras (they kept their colors).
I took the white one.
DREAM 2: I was at my home. My sis was there with her boyfriend and suddenly she started singing the T.N.T song by AC/DC and I started singing along.
She wanted me to take a photo of her and her boyfriend. I remembered about the digital camera Lili just gave me and I was desperately searching it. I didn't find it.
DREAM 3: My mom had bring me to KFC. There were a lot of people so I had to wait a bit. I saw on the door a ticket with a weird kid (looking like he was 5....can't tell for sure) and the word stink on it (kinda like STINK!!). It seemed weird so I smelt it. It was HORRIBLE!!! It was stinking so bad!
Despite that shit, when I closed the door someone appeared out of nowhere.
He let his puddle dog sit on me and after presenting ourselves, we started playing Super Mario 64 at that haunted house. I ended up collecting red coins with my foot. O_O
He left me alone and after searching him I found Tony. Everything just turned into a party and I totally forgot about KFC.

So I went to bed late last night and got very little REM. Plus there was a lot on my mind.

I remember the plot was I was training for being in the Navy seals. But it was a camp for kids or something and I really didn't want to go. I recalled a past dream similar to this and thought I could escape not going but I didn't.

It's not a very detailed post but it's better than not posting at all.

1) At school. It's half way between my high school, and my future college in set up. Pick up K and drive to gym.

2) Cafeteria. Fried chicken strips.

This dream is very old (and long)...

I once dreamt that I was in a fishing competition at a giant swimming pool that was so deep that you couldn't see the bottom of the pool, only blackness. While I was fishing I caught a decent sized fish but the person beside me was jealous and bumped me so the fish fell of my rod so I had to try again. The second time I cast out my line I noticed something coming from the depths of the pool, and it was very long and black. It appeared to had gotten my fishing line and as it got closer I saw that it was a giant eel. The announcer then announced on the speakers that I was the winner of the competition, but I wasn't thinking about that. As the eel got closer I noticed how large it was and began to get scared, I dropped my rod and started to run away. I ran through the tunnel that was behind me which had old wooden planks for the floor. The tunnel was dark and you could see water underneath the planks. As I was running I tripped and my foot broke through one of the boards, and then I blacked out.

When I awoke again I was sliding down the throat of the eel. The eel's throat and stomach were disgusting. There were bits of dead flesh and bone floating in the water and also something very strange. Near the back of the eels stomach was a pale, naked man crouched down in the water and debris. He seemed almost inhuman and for some reason reminded me of the pale man from pan's labyrinth, except that he didn't have a weird face like them or eyes in their hands. He looked and me and smiled, but it wasn't a friendly smile. I then decided that I was going to escape. I turned around and started to crawl up the throat of the eel.

When I reached the mouth of the eel I noticed another thing that was very strange. From the eel's mouth I could also see their nostrils and their eyes, which were clear like windows. I looked out of one of the eyes and saw that we were flying through a city. After looking out the eel’s eyes I prepared myself and leaped out of their right eye. I floated slowly to the ground, turned back to glance at the eel, and then started to run and sometimes levitate or jump. As I was trying to escape from the eel I saw the man who was in the eel’s stomach climb out of its mouth and onto the eel’s head. He appeared to be controlling the eel and he kept pointing his finger in my direction and yelling stuff to the eel.

While I was running from the eel I came across some train tracks and I noticed a train coming so I flew up over the train, hoping that the eel might not be able to get me since it appeared to only be able to fly close to the ground. The eel tried to follow me and sort of jumped over the train, but then it went down again and I was able to escape. I flew high into the sky and saw the city spread out below me. I then flew towards one tall building that had a swimming pool on it. I dived into the pool and went straight to the bottom. At the bottom of the pool was a little tunnel. I went through the tunnel and then came out of a pool of water in a different area.

The new area was a building for scientific research. For some reason my clothes were gone now and I appeared to have the ability to create life. I made a pool of water in the middle of the floor and made plants grow around it and salamanders in water. The scientists were very interested in me and appeared to be studying me. Soon after that I woke up.

Dream Lucid Me DC

Dream 1:
I was walking to school, but it didn't start till a lot later, so I decided to go to my friends house instead. It might have been 7am (In the dream.) My friends door was open a little and I could see light coming from the left side of the room, indicating that he was awake but his parents weren't. (This wasn't his real home.) I opened the door expecting to see him, but instead saw some girl. My friend walked behind her. I can´t remember much after that, but I think we played some game.

Dream2:
I saw some kind of games title. It said "Chrono god Trigger" After that I was in a room with some people. The room seemed like a some sort of crypt, because there were lots of sarcophagus near the walls. Suddenly a big guy (Maybe skinless.) came in with a black sword. I summoned two keyblades and blocked most of his attacks, but then he started to get past my defense. I got angry, grabbed his sword and striked his back so many times that he started praying me to stop, so I did. Next there was me and possibly that guy trying to get a balloon to a exit without popping it.

Fragment:
Something about 3 characters from Friends talking. (Ross, Joey and someone, probably a woman.)

Lucid:
I can't remember where I were, but I took out a laptop and ordered two tickets to the pyramid. Then I traveled in a train while rubbing my hands to stay in the dream. (Which was quickly fading.) The guy next to me started rubbing his hands too and asked me to give him a couple of high-fives. Woke up before getting to the pyramid. (If the train even was going there.)

Dream3:
I was once again with my friend, playing the same game as last time. We were two characters with katanas that could change powers in a jungle. First we saw some small enemy and attacked it. Soon we lost sight of it and wondered if it was hiding or dead. Then two other enemies attacked us. One big guy and one that was maybe 18 years old. We mostly fought the big guy as the other guy didn't really do anything. I changed my powers to fire and shot couple fireballs at him. They missed and almost hitted another guard. My friend told me not to draw anymore attention. We finished the big guy, but as a last resort he disembodied his hands, which grabbed me and started slowly dragging me to the direction of the other guard. I pushed my legs against a stone block to prevent me from moving. (The hands themself didn't move me, there was more like a invisible bond between them and the body, so that they were attached to the body, but were a little further away from it.) Finaly the enemy died and left behind a yellow heart. (Like heart containers in the legend of zelda, only slightly different design and color.)

2 Natra Sleep before bed

I remember having dreams about "soul" and "angels" through the night but couldn't remember them when I woke up during the night.

Upon waking:
I was a cashier at a tiny, old convenience store. There was an old black man standing next to me, watching the tools in my register multiply - the 'register' was a drawer with a kitchen utensil drawer inside of it (like the one I just bought) and the tools looked like kitchen tools, peeler, bottle opener). A guy came up and handed me a $5 bill, and I wondered if I had change because there was no money in it before.

I opened the drawer to give him change, and in the 2nd slot from the right there was a stack of cash, which surprised me, and I pulled out some $1's, and noticed a $20 in the middle, I thought the guy was trying to trick me into giving him the twenty.

The end.

Tuesday, July 5th

I. "Mostly Harmless"

I dreamed that several people I go to music school with and my cousins on my mother’s side were living in my hometown with me. S.A was in a play at Doherty Middle School, and I made a plan to go there with D.L that Thursday night. (We talked about how there was a dinner after the Thursday one and it ended Friday. In the dream I believe it was a Wednesday.) P.J was at somebody’s house that lived across the street from W.P Church. S.B was singing songs about weed in front of my mother, which were later heartily imitated by my cousin A.B.

First dream:
im at home living with my parents again, its night-time, pretty late and my parents are in bed. I have andrew, soph and some other DC round my house and we are watching tv, i am under my quilt cover its black on one side and silver underneath. I am sat on one of the reclining chairs my parents have, andrew is sat on the one next to me, soph is on my lap and the other DC is over on the sofa, i dont really get a good look at him/her.
(soph is my ex)

Soph keeps kissing and teasing me, trying to get me to make the others leave but for some reason im really into the tv program we are watching, she doesnt give in though. At one point she gets under the covers and Gives me some sneaky oral. I remember looking at her, shrugging and thinking "sweet!" (lol).
She is hiding it from the other Dc's.

Eventually i cave and decide its time andrew and the mystery DC leave so i can get down to it, i lead them to the door and they leave. My dad comes down the stairs and asks me what im up to. "Just had some friends over and they've left now" I tell him - there is a noise from the living room. "who is still here?" he asks, "oh thats soph, shes here too" i reply. He looks at me and says "thats not good ben, shes bad for you - she shouldnt be here" i sigh, "i know." dad goes back upstairs and soph comes rushing out of the living room, now she has to go. And she leaves.


Second Dream.
I am living with some of the cast from how i met your mother, Ted, Barney and lily. For some reason i am very close with Lily. We live in an apartment that is alot bigger than it seems, we are in a front room theres is a sofa, a couple of arm chairs and a tv. We are just lounging around and my mum comes round for a while. We are in a deep discussion about something but i cant remember what.

We decide to go outside and help a neighbour with her washing, This DC appears to be an elderly lady that i used to work with. The rest of the crew are helping her and i am standing in the road, i kick some litter about until they tell me she is my neighbour and i must help her out. So i do.

Third Dream:

I am at school, in the line for the dinner queue, im starving and planning what im going to have. there is a second queue over the other side of the hall, which doesnt seem to make sense, as i am wandering about this, a teacher walks over and tells me in this queue i can only buy one item. I begin to argue with her. "thats bullshit! I'm starving" she just repeats herself to me. I try to argue my case and tell her thats just ludicrous and nobody told me before i got into the queue. Eventually i just say to her "fuck this anyway, ill go over to the college cafeteria, there i can just push in the queue." She smiles and says "yeah, thats right."

I leave the queue and exit the hall, walk across the tennis courts with a random DC, i remember turning to her and saying "i can't believe that, i stayed in the queue with you all the way to the end even though i couldnt get anything!!" we both laugh.
I walk out onto the tennis courts and start to get really confused as to where i want to go or what i want to do.

I head over to a class room, enter and realise im late, i walk up to the teacher and he says something to me, that i cannot hear - i am suddenly aware that i am listening to my ipod. i take out one earphone and ask him to repeat what he said, he does and i still have no idea what he says. I take out the other earphone and say "im really sorry i couldnt hear you, got my deathmetal on full blast" and smile. He looks at me and says "thats cool, take a seat" and offers me his fist... I bump it and find a place to sit down.

Someone has saved a seat for me, i sit next to them but never really look at him/her.
After a while it seems we are cooking some sort of pudding, i find £15 in the bottom of the tray when we take the pudding out. a £10 note and a £5 note. i take the £5 note and offer the £10 note to my partner, who declines and says "thats not fair, theres only £10 there!" i am about to argue and draw the £5 note out of my pocket and its disappeared, and somehow a ripped up £5 note is in the bottom of the tray. "we could just split the £10?" my partner agrees.


Fragment of a 4th dream.

I see a school-friend Aimi come running out of some girls toilets in a bikini, her body was smokin'... I watch her until she is out of sight. We are in a club or something.

I dreamed I was driving to my last destination in trucking.
Along the way I ended up at a house I was looking at buying
or it was my father's second wife's house. She was somehow
in the dream.

All of the above comes straight from what is
happening in my waking life.

I've averaged about 5 hours of sleep the past few weeks which is obviously not very good for lucid dreaming, and I kind of stopped trying because it felt like a hopeless endeavor until I have more time.
I still occasionally try to WILD during naps, which works sometimes, but nap dreams are always quite short.
This is the first day where I could sleep for as long as I wanted in a long time.
I went to bed wishing for a nice lucid.

1. I'm at Uni. Someone tells me that they have seen wolves around here at night.
   They suggest that I close my windows at night because apparently wolves come and kill you in your sleep if you leave them open.
   I don't really believe any of it though.
   __
2. I wake up in my bed and I am startled by a bright wolf right next to me.
   I check my windows. Yep, they're open, but why? I never leave them open.
   I quickly notice that the wolf isn't hostile at all, in fact he looks kind of cute.
   I pet him and he's clearly enjoying it...
   __
3. Dancing with the wolves
   I wake up again. Well, that's not right, how can I wake up twice in a row?
   Oh. I'm dreaming, of course! How exciting! It's been some time since my last DILD.
   I immediately start contemplating doing all kinds of things when I notice that the dream is about to fall apart.
   I feel the buzzing vibrations all over my skin and my vision is fading to black. Shit!
   
   My first reflex is to spin wildly, even though I usually try to DEILD in these situations.
   Lucky for me, the spinning stabilizes the dream and the vibrations stop.
   That was close. I try to remain calm and take a walk in my apartment trying to get my emotions under control.
   I end up next to my bathroom and I hear someone singing in my bathroom.
   
   It's a female voice humming a melody. I can also hear water drops.
   Is someone in my bathtub? I walk inside my bathroom and I find Olivia Wilde in my bathtub.
   This is a huge surprise. Fortunately I've calmed down and I'm able to control myself and keep the dream stable.
   She's wearing clothes in the bathtub for some reason. Blue jeans and a grey shirt.
   
   
   "Why don't you join me?"
   
   The bathtub is wider than in waking life, there's easily enough place for the both of us.
   Why not? I enter the bathtub. The water feels nice and warm.
   
   
   "So, what is Olivia Wilde doing in my bathtub?"
   "Why don't you ask your subconscious?"
   
   Clearly a reference to this dream: Experimenting with Dream Control - Creating Worlds & Meeting Olivia Wilde
   
   
   "Am I not technically asking my subconscious already?"
   "Haha, you're good."
   
   I wonder where this is going.
   Suddenly Olivia imitates the howling of a wolf.
   
   
   "Okay?"
   "I want to run. I want to run aimlessly through the forest and enjoy this wonderful night."
   "Will you come with me?"
   "Sure"
   
   She stares deeply into my eyes.
   I can see the reflection in her eyes changing, it looks very interesting and she has very beautiful eyes.
   Suddenly I can feel the air brushing over my skin.
   We're outside now, in front of a forest I do not know.
   I understand that she just teleported the both of us here.
   
   It's the middle of the night, but everything is lit rather well by the full moon, which is bigger than usual.
   The lighting gives everything a rather mysterious but beautiful look.
   
   
   "Let's run!"
   
   Olivia turns into a big wolf right in front of me.
   
   
   It's bigger than a wolf in waking life, but that doesn't prevent it from looking absolutely adorable.
   She howls again, very loudly.
   Then she takes off into the forest. After a few meters she stops and looks at me.
   She's waiting for me.
   
   I feel like I'm supposed to turn into a wolf, and even though I know that I suck horribly at transforming into other beings, I give it a try.
   And oddly enough, it works perfectly.
   As soon as I have transformed myself into a white wolf, I can feel the urge to run through the forest.
   I howl loudly before entering the forest, and Olivia mimics it.
   
   We're running through the forest as fast as we can. We're ridiculously fast, I'm guessing that we're going about 100km/h.
   It's quite hard navigating the forest at these speeds, but oh my god, it feels SO GOOD.
   I can feel every single hair in my fur moving with the wind and I can see so clearly in the dark with my wolves eyes.
   This must be what WakingNomad feels like all the time.
   It's such a wonderful feeling to experience the world as a different being.
   
   We stop on a high hill where we can overlook the whole forest and we howl into the night.
   
   __
4. Dragon at Stonehenge
   I open my eyes and quickly realize that I am waking up.
   I try to avoid moving in order to DEILD.
   Even though I have moved a bit, I'm still confident that I can enter a dream.
   I feel a sort of "click", like something has changed.
   For some reason I look to my left, even though there's nothing of interest there in my room in waking life.
   
   Olivia is lying right in front of me, our bodies are nearly touching.
   This startles me, I totally wasn't expecting this and my vision instantly blacks out.
   
   But then I feel myself falling and I hit the ground.
   I'm in the middle of the city.
   I get up and notice that everyone is looking at me.
   Right, I'm wearing nothing but shorts.
   
   
   "Move along."
   
   Everyone starts going back to their normal business.
   Haha, DCs are so easy to manipulate.
   I summon my dragon wings and take off into the sky.
   I pick a direction and fly towards is as fast as I can just a few meters over the ground.
   
   
   "Faster, FASTER!!!"
   
   I can feel the shock of breaking the sound barrier, and suddenly everything feels sort of calm.
   Except for the pressure on my skin which becomes greater the faster I go.
   I'm not really sure what I'm doing, but this feels great.
   I haven't flown for too long, I missed it.
   
   Mid-flight I decide I want to teleport to Teraluna.
   But I can't summon my phoenix wings whilst I have my dragon wings out... or something?
   I simply unsummon my dragon wings and then attempt to teleport which works.
   
   SHIT! I'm still going just as fast as before.
   My feat touch the ground and I try to break as hard as I can by quickly spreading my wings again.
   I'm sliding over Yuya's terrace at abnormal speeds, and I manage to stop just centimeters before hitting something.
   
   
   "Quite a dramatic entrance, I'll give you that."
   "Yuya!"
   
   I give her a big hug.
   
   
   "You're in a good mood!"
   "Of course I am!"
   
   I notice I still have my dragon wings out.
   
   
   "I will turn into a dragon!"
   "Okay?"
   "I turned into a wolf before, I can do it!"
   "Of course you can. Hey, let's go fly together!"
   
   Yuya opens a portal hovering over the ground.
   We both jump in. I come out on the other side transformed into a dragon.
   This is earth! We're just above the clouds.
   Yuya comes out of the portal, she has many watery wings, they look beautiful.
   We both dive through the clouds, flying straight down to catch speed and break off the free fall just before hitting the ground.
   We fly over open fields and I occasionally roar deeply to make it known that a dragon is flying in the skies.
   
   We slow down when I see a familiar object.
   
   
   Stonehenge! I don't think I've ever been here before.
   We land on one of the pillars, there doesn't seem to be anyone else here.
   For some reason I have to think of WakingNomad. I remember reading that he's been here a few times.
   It feels appropriate to let him know that I was here, so I roar as loudly as I can up into the sky.
   
   I put so much pressure into roaring that I am accidentally spitting quite a bit of fire.
   The sound is deep and so loud it causes the ground to vibrate.
   As I stop I see that flames are still travelling towards the clouds.
   I think I overdid it "a bit".
   I look at Yuya.
   
   
   "Oops?"
   
   We both start laughing and I loose my transformation and fall off the pillar to the ground back in human form.
   Yuya drops to the ground right next to me, she probably lost her balance as well.
   We keep laughing like little children. Life is good.