non-lucid

I'm back, and hopefully for a while! With the difficulties of school and busy schedules, I think I lost interest in lucid dreaming last year, but I was thinking the summer would be the perfect opportunity to build up recall and maybe start having lucid dreams again! Anyhow, I read through my dream journal last night, and did a sorta WBTB, and ended up having a couple fairly vivid dreams, the latter of which SHOULD have been lucid, had I been paying enough attention. Also, I failed to write my first dream down, so now I barely remember any of it. Oh well, you win some and lose some.

Alaska Cruise (Fragment)

At 6:00 AM, I'm pretty sure I could have gotten a good couple of paragraphs out of this one, but by now... not so much. Basically, I was on a cruise from Vancouver up the coast of Canada and to Alaska with my family. I think I was looking for someone, or exploring the ship for some reason quite a bit, but other than that, I don't recall much.

Pulled Over

This one was a little more bizarre in some ways, and I really should have realized it was a dream. I was at a party, and decided to go ahead and go home early. After saying goodbye to my parents, I started to drive back. After leaving the house, which now that I think about it was more like a small mansion, I began to drive past a small suburb in a valley. The road was one way only (or at least without any yellow lines) and was built into the side of a steep hill. To the left was a decently sized group of houses, small stores, and other assorted buildings. As I drove, I was talking to my dad on the phone (talking on the phone while driving being something I'm sort of uncomfortable with still) who was telling me to come back to the party and help clean up. I told him I needed to pay attention to the road and would call him back, before I broke through a fence into a small industrial/factory area.

This is where it gets a little weird. It's a decent drop, maybe 6 feet or so, but it feels longer, and a lot bumpier. I try to regain control after landing, swerving a few times and dropping down some other small hills, before finally turning myself around and pulling the car back onto the road. At the same time, I find a gun in my car and decide to reload it (???), and when I notice a lever outside the factory I pull that too. No idea what it actually did, though. Anyways, as I pull up onto the road, a cop is driving by, and I accidentally run into them. Predictably, they pull me over, but somehow the scene shifts back to my bedroom.

At this point, the cop is interrogating me about why I had a gun (no idea), why I was driving so crazily (talking on the phone), and why I would decide to pull a random lever on the side of the road. At this point, I express the thought that I might even be dreaming, and ask the cop to hit me to make sure. He does, and then I slap my own hand, but I think I feel pain so I decide it isn't a dream. (Stupid stupid reality test! I know better than that! >_<). My dad walks into the room at this point, and says something along the lines of, "What have you done?" I explain that I was pulled over, then the scene shifts again.

Finally, we end up in the hallway outside of my bedroom. The cop is testing me to see if I've learned my lesson. He places a red, then a green lever in front of me. When I refuse to pull them, he seems satisfied, because I shouldn't pull a lever unless I know what it does. He turns the green lever around, and tells me that if I had pulled it I would have contracted a deadly Elephant STD. (Crazy brain. ) At this point, the dream ends.

I woke up, and was all, "See, I knew it was a dream!" I was more relieved that it wasn't real than disappointed in myself for not realizing that it wasn't.

Last night I was a sort of vigilante private investigator that could shift between states of reality (ie, there was reality, then there was this second state where things in that state were semi transparent and could only interact with objects/people in the same state. When I was in that state I could also cause other objects/people to shift into that state as well). My partner (who has the same shifting skill) and I were in an early 1900s city trying to figure out who ruined a certain scientist's groundbreaking medical research. His lab (on the 9th floor of a 12-story building) had been totally burned and the fire had severely damaged the surrounding floors. My first place I checked out was the building itself.

The dream actually started when I went in with a team of four other investigators. Turns out there were a bunch of assassins or something trying to torch the rest of the building, and they would stop the elevator at every floor as and we'd have to get out and fight them hand-to-hand. It was intense. At one point these assassins started using Halo-style plasma swords. That was one heck of a fight. It was crazy vivid.

Once my team and I made it to the scientist's floor, we discovered there wasn't much to see. The floor had collapsed, and the floors above and below it were so badly burned we were afraid the rest of the building would come down, so we left.

The dream became somewhat disconnected after that, and I just remember me and my partner checking out potential suspects at dinner parties in fancy hotel lobbies and walking through some underground walkway (kind of like a subway) discussing the case. We would use our shifting abilities to hide inside walls and listen in on conversations, get inside locked rooms, tail suspects, etc.

The dream returned to maximum realism for the climax. My partner and I, having made only disconnected discoveries, were in a small auditorium watching this scientist and his assistants give their much-delayed presentation on his groundbreaking discovery. Halfway through the presentation, I noticed my partner was quite uneasy. I had asked the scientist a question, and he had kind of freaked out when he saw my partner. At this point, the scientist totally lost it, started throwing things at my partner, and the clues assembled themselves and I realized my partner had committed the crime. Right then and there he tried to pull a knife. I ran, and at the doors one of his minions burst through and tried to kill me. A second guy locked the door behind him. I actually remember blocking the attack, then grabbing him around the neck from behind and stabbing him in the gut out of desperation with a pen lying close by on a table.

While my partner and I had been successful at hiding our shifting ability from others up to that point, I was forced to shift into the alternate state and escape by running right through the locked door. My partner shifted as well and tried to follow, but I shifted the door and he smashed into it totally cartoon style. From then I only remember sprinting down the stairs and bursting out into the street. Night had fallen. Police were coming.

Then I woke up all like "duuuuuude."

I just took an hour and a half nap and can remember the dream, but only part of it.

T and I were at her friends house, and there were like 10 people there. We were hanging out with them and at some point I started not feeling well. So I'm in the bathroom feeling dizzy/sick. I hide it for awhile, then later I go into a separate bedroom with T and tell her I'm not feeling well. She didn't seem too concerned and I was a bit hurt by that. I think some other things happened but I can't remember what. I leave the room and end up falling asleep on the couch, when I wake up there are like 3 different couples having sex on the couches. So I go back into the separate room again, can't really remember what happened after this except at some point T was talking to someone else. So then this local drag queen, F, comes to talk to T to watch a movie or something and she leaves with him. I got upset at the lack of time spent with her and she picked up on that so she came back a few minutes later, telling me that she paid for me so we could split the ticket.

Then she apologizes and tells me I wasn't invited, and I start crying and saying I felt like a bad person. Then she tells me it's because we're a lesbian couple, which I already knew in the dream but was feeling like a bad person anyway.

So I go do this "movie" thing; turns out it's really a contest. They give me a scenario and ask me to pick between some other state and Connecticut. I picked Connecticut and ended up winning a free trip to four star hotel with Tara.

At this point the owner of the house reminds us it's getting late, and everyone starts to clear out. Somehow I end up locked outside without my stuff. I tell T and she's like, "which bag of things do you want back least?" I wasn't happy with this answer and it turned into a mini-argument.

Fragments: At some point I noticed the time was 6am
I had a few moments of eating candies, some of them being oversized starburst, out of my purse.

Completely forgot to mention this, but I had a dream earlier today where I told my Mom I was a lesbian and she said she was one too. A lot of other things happened after that but I can't remember them, just reminded myself of that part.

I was standing by the pool in my yard. I decided to go for a swim. So I took off my cloths, to my horrer I had a spare tire stomach that extended out further than my under wear. The dream ended.

DJ Log: July 1, 2011 – 7:45AM (USA Eastern)
Text color legend: · NON-DREAM · NOTES · DREAM · LUCID ·

I am at a house party, hanging out and talking with several DV members. Some of the members I recognize from the Post photos of yourself forum, others have name tags on. SaMaster14, Jeff777, Ninja, Auron, Zhaylin, Keresztanya, Dannon, Moongrass, Tara, Slash, buriedmonsters, no-Name, limitless, Oneironaut, and many others are here, hanging out in several small groups, talking and such. There is a huge banner hanging on the side of the deck that has the top banner image from the DV site on it.

Everybody brought some kind of food to put on the tables on the deck, but there is snow on the steps. It seems odd that there is snow on the ground when the weather is so warm, but I grab a leaf blower and start to blow the snow off the steps and sidewalk. After blowing snow for a bit, someone I don't recognize comes up to me and starts talking to me. I turn off the leaf blower and she asks, “Can you hear me?” I reply, “Of course not.”

I put down the leaf blower and run up the steps with a few people following me. There are no tables on the deck, but there is a huge hot tub. I turn around and say, “No chemical bath for me!” then I jump off the deck and run off into the woods. As I am running, I wake up.

When I fist fell asleep, I had a dream that I was eating a warm tuna pasta pot and me and my friend Beth were sitting on the windowsill of some big room with only about 10 people in. Suddenly my teacher was at the window and was calling me for no reason!? After that my alarm went off because I was testing the W.I.L.D technique but it didn't work because I didn't get the patterns. When I was awake I read about lucid dreams for like 30 mins then went back to sleep. The start of this dream was CREEPY! I watched a video with Beth about this weird creepy fat pink dancing thing exactly like this:

Then, the guy that showed us the video gave us some chocolates and told us to give them away on the street. We did but this lady said "GET LOST!" so we ran somewhere else. Suddenly Beth's math teacher was there! I offered him a chocolate but he just ignored me. Anyway, then me and Beth went to school but when we walked home, I threw a ball at this lady's car and it just literally flattened like a cardboard box! It also flattened with the girl in it which is kinda freaky... I ran back home and when I went to school the next day, EVERYONE was on about it so I tried to talk to the headmaster but I couldn't find him so I used Google Earth to zoom in but it just came up with a weird blond guy with hair just below his shoulders but the weirdest thing is he was conducting a pyramid of singing cheerleaders!!!?? I was creeped out so I went home and found out that crushed girl was there and when I said sorry she screamed at me & when I tried to hold her hand she said it hurt before I even touched her!! These weird security people took my ball and crushed it. Suddenly, I was holding a new one! I ran away with it. I remember going back to the first scene after this which I have no idea where it is... Some guy was mixing blue and purple potions. Purple was Lucid. Blue was Dreams! (Could this be a sign?) After that, I was driving around my primary/elementary school when I saw Matt Lucas and David Walliams dressed as old Chinese ladies LMAO! Then the dream was finished.

During my two-hour nap today I dreamt that I went over to the girlfriend's house to spend some time with her. It was completely different from what her actual house looks like, and we were making out on this queen sized bed with a thick red blanket with a gold pattern. Shortly after this I realize that I have two hours to submit a paper for my summer class. I log onto her xbox 360, which looks completely different from how they actually look. It's quite large and shaped like a 3D X. Still black though. The controllers looked exactly like mini gamecubes; one was black and one was red. I pick the red one and go online, then realize I forgot to e-mail myself the part of the paper I'd already completed. By this point I'm upset and thinking I'll get a 0 on the assignment, but not wanting to go back to try to finish it because I wanted to hang out with her.

So I give up on it and start playing this weird game on T's 360. It was a choose your own adventure game with completely normal choices, but the cover art of every menu screen pictured topless characters. I played through it once, got a bad ending, then T and I decided to switch games because we couldn't figure out how to get out of the menu screens. We manage to switch to a game that's set in this strange world with misplaced sexual things. For example, the doorknobs would be breasts. We were playing through it and laughing at it when T's Mom walks in, asks her a question then shakes her head at the game. We got a laugh out of that.

I somehow notice the time, not sure where, and realize that I'd misread the time earlier and that I really had around five hours to complete my paper. T decides it's best to take me home, although I wasn't happy about this, so we inform her Mom we're leaving.

I can't remember when this happened, but somewhere in there T mentioned to her Mom that her friend J had suggested a roadtrip to California. Her Mom said something like, "Yeah, and how would her parents feel about that?" in a kind of "you know they wouldn't approve" way.

1. Metal Gear Solid was taking place in my old high school. Since, having played the game about a billion times, I knew one of the major sad parts was coming up, I took the opportunity to sit Snake and Gray Fox down at a cafeteria table, have a conversation, and make friends with Fox (who for some reason was missing the upper half of his Cyborg Ninja suit, was wearing Otacon's glasses, and was carrying a plastic bag full of fake roses). Before everyone went their separate ways, I took a petal from one of Fox's fake roses so that I'd remember everything that happened.

2. Still in my high school, it was time for Home Ec, where we were making pancakes that we could either top with sweet things or with refried beans. Before class started, I checked my pocket to make sure the rose petal I "borrowed" from Gray Fox was still there. Cooking was mayhem. There wasn't enough griddle space for everyone, the classroom itself had sort of a maze layout, and when I finally got my pancakes poured, I came back to discover that a huge guy was sitting on them. Bastard.

3. I was at an anime convention, petal still in pocket. I found a light-up figure of Motoko Kusanagi from Ghost in the Shell, but it was too expensive. There were also a bunch of weird jawbreakers.

4. I'm wearing my orange-red-yellow stripey nightgown. I check desperately for pants pockets, but eventually resign myself to the fact that I didn't really meet Solid Snake and Gray Fox. Bummer.

5. I'm a servant in a family of dogs who have to go into hiding under the protection of the wolf king. During a war with some lions, the pups and the wolf king go missing, so I put on a wolf mask and go into the forest to rescue them. I get killed, but it turns out the whole thing was just a play, and the plot repeats itself a couple times.

6. I'm in a mall where some highly advanced robotic llamas and ferrets are being exhibited. I play with the ferrets.

July 1st, 2:51

Yesterday I have dreamed about a cloud. A cloud that was black and thick, and looked like it was about to explode with water. I heard rain, yet I did not see any water from that cloud. The whole sky was clear, except for that just black cloud. I could sense I was in a house I was before, but not sure which one. I could hear the roof getting wet, but still no rain. This dream made me very depressed, so depressed I almost cried. I woke up at day feeling like shit, like there is nothing to do to save me from my misery. It was dark also, I remember that, but it was just a fragment. Nothing else I can remember.

So there was no real definite start to the dream, so I'll just record what I remember.

I remember being in a room where there was a guy who I thought was evil, really wasn't. He showed me how to make a helmet that would help me fight in combat.

I remember coming to the town with my family, we walked into the visitor's center and talked to some people there. They were unfriendly and I regretted coming to this town. But randomly they all left. So we were alone and I asked my mom why they did and she said that they only come to places like these for a short time and then move on. I then remember a big hotel and we were talking about it and how it was going to save the town from going out of buisness.

Went to bed 1245-130
Goals: Teleport
No memories the first time i wake up around 6
9:04 Watching my sister play a video game like oblivion. She walks through a picture and is now in the place in the picture. In the background i see a large castle with green roof and many mountains and streams. I tell her that this looks very similar to a place i dreamed about, i was remembering a dream i had that took place in africa but still looked a bit similar.

*I rem camping with my family and we are staying in a really big cabin. Ther are random blankets and beds throughout and i rem it being dark in there somethimes and better lit up at others. I rem at one point telling everyone to be careful with my cat in the morning, not to let him outside because he could get lost in the woods. Everyone just kind of looked at me smirking not taking it seriously, so i said how bad would you feel if the cat got lost in the wild over something so careless. I also rem at one point i see a shadow moving across the floor. ITs not that big but when i look up there is a huge spider walking across the roof. We all freak out about it for a moment. I rem vaguely seeing someone outside of the cabin window wearing white.

*Have a flash of my bro trying to get me to buy candy to split with him. Im pretty sure he was talking about starburst but cant rem specifically what he asked for.

*Have a flash of being at some very fancy event or meeting. I rem chairs in a circle around a nice fountain where someone is giving some kind of speech. I look to my left and jason bateman is talking on the phone. All of a sudden some dude, who i think in the dream is his dad, comes over and starts trying to take the phone out of his hand. In the dream i know he is talking to some chick who his family dissaproves of.

11:09 I rem being in some house with another family and my own. The head of the other family is bob saget. Everyone had brough candy and its all set out on the floor for us to look through. I rem jumping; like in between rocks, even though im indoors, to get the candy. All of the little kids are doing this too, except for one a bit further up, he is a little blonde boy with a bowl cut and his mom is watching him and being overprotective.

I start eating some while im looking at others. I rem it tasted pretty sweet, i rem looking at a bucket full of caramel and peanuts. I said something about getting it and one of the little kids says, your mad because you cant have caramel or something. There is a girl there too, and at this point she gets up and randomly starts dancing, like shes really into it, as she talks to someone. In the dream i could tell she was interested in me, and she was pretty cute. I rem bob saget asking my dad to go out for a drink and my dad said yeah. I just rem thinking, ok you go drink, i just want to smoke some weed. dont rem much else.

First Dream
I was at a Flaming Lips concert at a local venue with a whole bunch of my friends who were being too crazy and were on the verge of being kicked out. These 2 girls came in and one sat next to me while the other sat on my lap. I thought to myself fuck my friends I'm not getting kicked out of this place. So I behaved (even though you can usually do anything at a concert) while I watched all of my friends get kicked out.

This dream occurred between 1 AM and 5:30 AM.

Second Dream
I was running away from a tornado with a group of people (tornados are one of my worst fears) and thought it would be a good idea to take cover next to a steep hill. The group of people I was with just kept running while I crouched down behind the slope. The tornado ran right over me and I have to grasp the grass to keep myself from flying into it. After the tornado was gone, I ran to a jeep in a parking lot to tell Peggy Hill about my story. I didn't actually see her but I knew she was in the jeep. I later went to a bar to see a special showing of the first Simpsons episode. Me and a few friends snuck into this place without getting charged. The bar was showing the episode on the TV but they were using some strange device to change the channels involving a projector and cups filled with water. Some guy int he bar was being a dick and one of my buddies (who would do this in real life) yelled out to the guy while smoking a cigarette. The 2 proceeded to get into an insult comeback battle consisting of content from 5th grade.

Third Dream
I was in New Orleans (I have never been before but I just knew) jumping from building to building. I stopped on one building and looked at the ground and realized that I had never been to New Orleans and that I was probably dreaming. I did the nose breathing reality check and proceeded to try and stabilize the dream. I then hovered down from the building to the ground but the northern hemisphere of my vision was blocked by what looked like a blanket. I tried stabilizing more but I ended up awake.

This dream occurred somewhere between 9 AM and 10 AM.

Fourth Dream
I was in a coastal town built into a hillside in Cape Cod with my family. Me and one of my brothers met this stranger who was showing us around the town. We had to cross a bridge that was really just a plank of wood and my brother fell in the water trying to cross it. I crossed it with ease and sat at a small food stand. I was very hungry but I didn't have any money. It turned out my parents were sitting just a few seats down from me and bought me the special meal, which was a cheeseburger with a large pretzel in the middle. When I got my meal, it was really a bowl of soup with broccoli and bits of hamburger meat. Some girl I had never met come and sat next to me and we began talking but I woke up shortly after.

This dream occurred between 10 AM and 11:30 AM.

Dream - Lucid

I was with someone, I can't quite remember who, but we were outside in the middle of this swarm of little white wispy things.

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I was in my car with the guy who was apparently my boyfriend. I think he was Asian. I was sitting in the back seat, and my boyfriend was sitting in the driver's seat. I'm not sure where we were going.

A police officer came and sat in the passenger's side seat, and started asking us questions. It was about some safety thing or something, I'm not sure. I was nervous, though, because in the compartment in the arm rest in between the driver's and passenger's side seat, I had a bag with the end of a joint in it, and I also had my pipe in a box.

When the officer finished talking to us, he seemed satisfied. I thought we were home free. Then, he opened the arm rest compartment and started digging around. Fuck. I'm screwed. He dug through it, pulling out some trash and some odds and ends. When he got to the bag, before he had fully examined it, I leaned up and told him it was weed. I wasn't about to deny it and get in more trouble. He didn't say much of anything, but kept the bag with the joint. He kept digging around, but never pulled out my pipe. It was in there in its box, but he never got it out. He left the car with the joint. I was relieved that I didn't get in trouble.

Then, I remember seeing an old car with the engine exposed. The engine had caught on fire. The girl driving it didn't seem to notice. The flames got bigger and bigger as she drove away. I was worried her car would explode and she'd get killed.

I was then with my boyfriend in some room. I think we had just gotten some weed and were about to smoke. I remember holding my pipe. The room we were in was really interesting. There was a huge movie screen, and we were sitting on the other side of a railing. It was almost kind of outside and inside at the same time. I feel like it was really late at night. I remember we were sitting on some cushions or pillows, and there was a huge rack of pretty dressed next to us. I remember being flirty with my boyfriend, laughing and having a good time, but he seemed distracted. It was not a good sign. I could tell that he was having second thoughts about me, and it was only a matter of time before he broke it off.

There were also some cats there, 3 I believe. They were as fluffy as my cat, Belle, but they were a chocolatey, smoky color instead of white. I petted one of them as he came over to me. At that time, I also found out the girl in the flaming car was ok. Her car had exploded, but she had gotten out of the car before it happened.

I then saw Patsy from the show Absolutely Fabulous. She was standing by the rack of clothes and mocking me, telling me that she had planned for my boyfriend to not want to be with me. I was pissed.

I then remember going through the rack of dresses. Some of them fell off the hangers. I picked them up and put them back on the hangers one by one. Some of them were kind of wrinkled from falling onto the floor. I picked up a bright green silky dress. It was very pretty, but not really my style. I said something to my boyfriend about it. I don't think he said anything back. We sat there for awhile in silence as I let my mind wander until I woke up.

dreamed that i was hanging out with friends in manhatan and i met a woman who looked like a young Eva Herzigová with longer blonde hair. it was a perfect dream; almost, all my friends were there to watch this beautiful woman persue me. stayed with her for the weekend in the city, had a ton of great sex then she told me she had to go back to her job but she would call me when she was back in-town. something seemed odd about the end of the dream and the next day i felt the need to go back and look for her to make sure she was telling the truth, but i could not find her. i had a piece of paper with her number on it but i did not call her.