non-lucid

Title: My Family Vacation Date: 9/20/2010
Category: Vision Lucidity: No Lucidity

Keywords: Imagery, Lightness


Description: Today I got up at 02:00. I did not go back to sleep, instead I did Silvia Mind Control for about 40 min. I learned about focusing on a screen that's 20 degrees above your eyes and a few inches above your eyelids. Almost immediately I was watching TV reruns (Giligans Island), in the theater of my mind, with full color and with amazing clarity. I was also taught to pinch together my thumb and first finger on both hands for focusing.
I then did my relaxation exercises, but there was no heavy lead feeling, I felt extremely light. There was no buzzing in my ears, no vibrations. Although my feet and legs felt like they were falling asleep (pins and needles). My leg jerked a few times and I felt itchy on my nose, then a pain feeling on the arch of my left foot, then itchy on my right leg. I didn't budge, but relaxed thru it.
I had imagery of a vacation I had taken with my family. My sister looked like she was 7 yrs old, which means I was 5. She had a white top with a flannel dress with red,yellow, green, scotch design. My grandmother was sitting between us in the back of the car making sandwiches. Even back then she had white hair. My mother looked young...around 30. My father looked like a geek, his eyeglasses were black with a little diamond design on either side, no real styling, maybe from the 60's. This vision lasted a few minutes.
I then saw different vacations I had been on, they didn't last long just quick flashes.
Although I am seeing things now....I still am not lucid. There is no dream state, just visions of places I have already been to. Then I woke up.


Mental or Emotional State: Happy - I got to see my mother again. It's been 27 years since I last saw her.


Interpretation or Meaning: My mom, sister and grandmother are communicating with me, through the vision. Letting me know everything is ok.

Title: I Woke Up Date: 9/19/2010
Category: N/A Lucidity: No Lucidity

Keywords: N/A


Description: Today I got up at 06:00. I did my relaxation exercises and put myself into waking sleep paralysis. I was extremely relaxed doing my visualizations (me walking thru the house from memory), when all of the sudden the timer went off. I accidentally turned the timer all the way up, so went it went off, I nearly jumped out of my skin. I tried to go back to sleep, but just couldn't seem to do it.


Mental or Emotional State: N/A


Interpretation or Meaning: N/A

I had a long dream spent mostly just in dreamview and not lucid. The central characture was friend of my mothers named "Betty" I grew up going to her house where my parents would play dominoes and drink wine, she was always kind to me. The last time I saw her was at my wedding, she and her husband drove four hours from Denver and he took a million pictures for us. We accidently lost their thank you so I wrote her a nice involved long thank you note on Facebook because I had misplaced their address. I think she never got over being offended. When I saw her in my dream I felt that vibe from her, she spent time cleaning my house and helping me with laundry. Finally when she was fixing up my bathroom I decided to become fully lucid and tell her that I knew she wasn't the real"Betty." I said to the DC I know you aren't the real Betty, so which part of me do you represent? The DC was irritated, "which part of you" it asked? "What do you mean, I am not any part of you." "Yes" I replied "I have heard that dream people are representations of parts of ourselves so tell me now, what part are you? What important news do you have to tell me? " She kept saying she wasn't part of my psyche and with each rebufff she grew a few inches taller until she was crowding the bathroom. I felt she was trying to bully me into leaving her alone, like a puffer fish! I consentrated on growing as well but only grew a few inches and kept asking her my question. The DC grew bigger filling up the space and towering over me, I felt a little bit threatened and began to lose stability- so I stuck my finger through my palm to regain my stability. It worked for a moment but as soon as I saw how big the DC had become I fully lost control of my dream and I was kicked out and woke up. I am tired of my DC's giving me a hard time, why won't they just answer my questions!?

Title: It's Loud in Here Date: 9/17/2010
Category: Heavy Vibration Lucidity: No Lucidity

Keywords: Heavy Vibration, Tinnitus, Lightness, Relaxed


Description: Today I got up at 02:00. I did my relaxation exercises and put my body into waking sleep paralysis. My breathing was slow rhythmic and steady. My Tinnitus was extremely loud. During the day it's low and annoying, but now I can't believe how loud it is. My head and shins seemed to be resonating at the same frequency as my tinnitus. I then opened my mouth and breathed deeply thereby effectively ruining my trance

While in trace - I saw pictures of 2 little girls around the age of 4 - 6 yrs old, they had golden hair, and white dresses with pink ribbon. They were both dressed the same, like twins. I don't remember what their eye color was...I have no idea who they are. I also saw a pair of cartoon eyes staring at me.

Later on I discussed my dream with my wife. She said she had a vision and saw 2 little girls. She said she spoke to me the night before while we were in bed. I don't remember her talking to me, I must have been asleep, or in a very receptive state.


Mental or Emotional State: Disappointed


Interpretation or Meaning: The eyes are frequently given spiritual significance. In some Eastern traditions, it is believed the eyes produce potent life energy. The eyes represent our sense of visual perception and, therefore, our perception on higher levels as well. They are often referred to as the "windows to the soul". In your dream, they may represent the soul looking outward, or may represent your desire or need to look inward. The eyes may symbolize insight. They may also represent the need to seek information or to see something for its true value.

Title: Cosmic Roller Coaster Date: 9/16/2010
Category: Deep Relaxation Lucidity: Not Lucid

Keywords: Lightness, Light, Relaxed, Shocked, Coldness


Description: Today I got up at 06:00. I did my relaxation exercises putting my body into waking sleep paralysis - No more heavy lead feeling - Instead I felt light and totally relaxed. My breathing was slow, deep, and deliberate. I did my affirmations - "I will remember everything and I will not be afraid", Also "everyday I am getting better, and better, and better". At one point I could see the ceiling with my eyes closed. I could only hold on to the vision for a few seconds. I then tried to visualize the room with me sitting in the chair looking at the computer screen. It was easy to visualize the room but difficult to imagine myself. Maybe if I stare at myself in a mirror I'll be able to remember what I look like.
I felt my body going thru cycles...relaxation...then the timer went off and shocked my system...over and over again. Anytime I heard a noise while being deeply relaxed, my mind would jump to a new location and my body felt an electric surge.
Something else happened to me while I was in that meditative state. My eyes fluttered, a feeling similar to the beginning of an epileptic seizure. I felt energy building up in my spine, and then their was a bolt of energy shooting thru my arms and legs followed by a deep and powerful coldness. I then saw what looked like a tunnel with lights flashing all around me. The tunnel effect only lasted a few seconds, but it felt like being on a cosmic roller coaster.


Mental or Emotional State: Excited


Interpretation or Meaning: Light represents illumination, enlightenment, and knowledge, and may also have spiritual connotations. It may represent the attainment of higher levels of consciousness, or may represent your higher Self. It is a powerful dream symbol that almost always has positive connotations.

I'm walking around with some friends. They're old friends of mine, one of them is actually dead. They're all being really obnoxious and we're all laughing. We keep going into stores and just running around and making loud noises.

I leave them to go to what I think is my house. There is a feeling of impending doom as I walk through this very strange cookie-cutter neighborhood. Boots comes walking towards me. He's going on and on about, what I think is his upcoming trip to Greece. Then he starts saying things like, "google garble gluck gar gar grrr god damn god damn gluck google, gratch." Which honestly, isn't something he would only do in one of my dreams. I started laughing, he smiled and then we parted ways.

A girl ran out and greeted me. I don't know her, but I pretended like I did. She told me that I was crazy to be walking around without a purse. I mean honestly, what was I thinking? The war of the worlds was upon us and... wait, what? Yeah, the war of the worlds, possible looming apocalypse. I had to have a purse, at least.

To my dismay, all of the girls many purses were very large pairs of womens underwear. When I say very large, I mean that they stretched from my waist to the floor and I was very uncomfortable with this. "Um," I started, trying to pick my words carefully and not be rude, "why do you have so many large pairs of underwear?"
"Oh, well they're totally stylish."
"I see," I said. I began thinking about how utterly stupid fashion trends are. I left the house without a "purse."

Somewhere around this point I began singing Kimya Dawson songs, particularly Loose Lips. I felts as though it were looping through the dream.


It made me think about being lost in San Francisco with a car full of friends looking for a show and blasting this song and all singing along. As I was walking it started going up hill and I was in San Francisco. The pavement was wet and it was dark outside.

Somehow I managed to get to the battle. I'm still very confused about what it actually was. There was a huge gigantic tower-thing-contraption, that had a huge platform on the top of it. There were people standing on it and there were millions and millions of people surrounding it for miles. There were space ships omitting red and green sparks that were smashing into each other. Everyone was panicking.

Hello again This morning, I had no time to post my dreams (first day of university!!). Anyway, I post now my 3 dreams.

1. I'm in my home town. For one unknown reason, I have to go to the town-centre, which is located in a valley (my home town is surrounded with hills, obviously). But the road is covered with ice. It's nearly impossible for me to make one step after another, I'm gliding over the ice. I decide to take another way (gliding down the hill seems to me too dangerous) and glide along a road away from the principle road.
In normal life, this roads leads to my old primary school, not far away from the city centre.
But suddenly there is no ice and I'm at a complete different place! This place looks like the region around my town, which is definitely not the place I want to be... The only difference is, that there is a river or lac in front of me, which I have to pass. ... AND I walk simply over the water and wave with my arms like if I tried to fly I'm asking myself how this is possible, don't find any explanation, but I keep on waving my arms and after 5 minutes, I'm on the other side.
I'm totally amazed. Suddenly, there is a pick-up truck in front of me. I simply jump in wait that the truck starts driving away
2. I'm in a shop. I have the urge need to.... buy something. Although there are just hammers, nails etc., I look for computergames. I find a few, but there aren't interesting at all. So I decide to continue my "quest" and look at different places in the shop. But after a few minutes I'm exhausted, so I decide to leave the shop.
3. I'm outsides, sitting in a comfortable chair and I'm smoking a cigarette (and I'm a convinced non-smoker). Alternatively, a few DC show up and disappear. Every time I see a DC, my cigarette disappears gone, and when a DC disappears, my cigarette is there again. I'm also wondering why I'm smoking a cigarette, but just keep on smoking...


To sum up, I missed every opportunity to become lucid

All I remember from last night's dreams were the feeling of being lost and slight flashes of scenery.

This morning I could remember the dreams in full, but a few hours passed and I completely forgot my intention to write them down here. Usually I remember my dreams through the whole day and sometimes a few days after but for some reason or another they seemed to have slipped my mind. Figures, I would forget my dreams after the night before declaring that I was going to start posting in my dream journal more often.

If you are reading this wondering why I'm talking about my dream recall and nothing really about my dreams, it's because usually when I start to talk about my dreaming experiences I start to recall the dreams I forgot previously. My mind works in that kind of funny way, but I enjoy it.

Unfortunately my technique is failing to work on this attempt, but I have confidence that I will remember a lot more from tonight's dreams. If I remember anything later on in the day I'll be sure to document, because that also happens. Crazy trains of thought that end up in sudden recall.

Till next time!

21.09.2010

High School Dream, Again! (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Setting:
- Saint Louis School of Mandaue

Time Occured:
- around 7:30 - 8:30, i guess it was my last dream during the whole sleep

Dream Characters:
- Joshua
- Moi
- Elbao


It all started in a very weird way, like a manga was infront of me and I'm reading it. Moi and the girl he courts is in the gym. Moi was kneeling down and offered flowers to this girl, but gets rejected again. End of the scene.

After a while, I heard people shouting, coming from the theater. I didn't see what's happening but I knew that there's a play going on. Moi is one of the cast, but I didn't have interest in this kind of stuff so I went on my way. I went inside the main building and continued walking. As I was approaching the room of the Glee Club, I noticed the girl Moi was courting, entering the room. I thought it was weird seeing her enter that room (since she isn't a member), and she was bringing a bottle of Coca-Cola. I instantly thought she changed her mind about Moi. The ring bells, and it was lunch time.

I headed to my room in the fourth floor of the building, and met Moi and Joshua. We walked along the corridor, which was filled with students everywhere. We stopped by a girl and I told her something (I totally forgot who she was and what I told her) and went on our way. We went down the stairs, and suddenly I was in the gym, and I was alone.

I continued to walk and saw someone in the bleachers, Elbao. As I tried to approached him, darkness began to appear. Bam! End of the dream.

09/20/10



We're taking our lunch break. A bottle of Starbucks Frappuccino appears in my hand. It's delicious; the taste is replicated perfectly.

"Are you ready to go?" My dad asks, from the couch. He's asking if I'm ready to go back to work.

"I haven't even eaten yet!" I say, exasperated.

Scare Factor: 1/10
Rating: 1/10

It seems like I cant have ONE lucid dream. They come in packs of two. It's the third time now that I get two LDs in two nights. Awesum. However, when it comes to Control, I am just chasing my tail. Like I get lucid and go: Yay! Now what?

Dream 1: This was the smoothest transition so far. I just walked in my living room and did an RC for no reason, while not being lucid at all. Then I went: Wait, this is a dream. Well thats convenient! This time I tried summoning Meghan Fox, for practical purposes. All I got was my cat, for real. Epic fail. But something weird did happen. As I got in my room to desperatly practice my DC, the light is low. I want the lights to be on, so I turn on my lamp. And it worked. I thought lights werent supposed to work in dreams. Im gonna post about this in the forum later. Im tired of reading other people's DJs saying they had epic control in their second dream. FUCK YOU

Dream 2: When I LD, for some reason I keep getting minimal non-ld recall. But this one goes from scene to scene, all related to school. Im in class, but I forget my music book. I go get it and get a manquement. Multiple times, I see Ana and Samuel, who arent in our school anymore. I talk around. When I go up the stairs with another guy, and Alice grabs me, saying shes jealous because Laure has tons of guys that like her and shes got none. In another scene, I play some kind of Dieu Merci with Justine, along with other ppl. But what I remember very clearly is when I went to play Mario Kart with dudes, but then they all left so I started playing alone and kept trying the last level. It is a big bowser face. Then in a hidden spot, I see the Badass Hog from the game Monster Dash.

Two dreams about my job last night. Both of them were actually AT my job too. These dreams were a rarity, wherein they were normal. :O The only thing that set them of was in dream number two as i was dealing with a very nasty customer, 'Margaritaville' started playing on the speaker system. I instantly knew i was dreaming, but all i did was relax, and i lost everything. Arg i hate my job.. I've never had dreams where my brain actually used the layout of that unholy departments store. I guess i need to boost my RC's, and cross my finger they work next time...Assuming this wasn't a fluke lol.



Wasting away again in Margaritaville,
Searching for my lost shaker of salt,
Some people claim that there's a woman to blame,
But I know it's nobody's fault.

Short fragment and a slightly longer fragment tonight. The short fragment was that I was walking down a long isle in a grocery store, shopping with my wife. She was asking me if we should get some juice, but I was like, "Eh, nah." This, of course, would never happen in real life; my wife absolutely refuses to take me grocery shopping.

In the second sequence I was walking down the street with a black woman. We were about to get on a subway. She was telling me about how she was looking forward to riding the IM subway for the first time, only she pronounced it like the "im" in "him". A white woman near us who overheard was annoyed and corrected her that it was pronounced like initials. As we walked down the stairs into the subway, the black woman had her subway pass on some kind of wood or plastic board; she didn't know she was supposed to hold it at a certain angle as she passed through the scanner, but it was hanging at the right angle anyways. As we proceeded she asked me why I didn't need a pass, I told her it was because I had already picked up a special permit which required two forms of ID and that when you show them they only give back one (which I then thought was kind of counterintuitive). As I was telling her this, we were passing by the special permit area where I could remember earlier (possibly even in the same dream here) standing in line to get the permit. The subway looked more like an airport terminal.

There was some dark place I was in, with Lanna and some other person. Some girl who was quite thin, and about our age. She had a dark, mysterious look about her.
Lanna had some mini-djungelvrål lollies, and I was like "woah where did you get them?" And then she had green, mint flavoured ones. I think mine had arrived and I was about to go get them.

There were some people doing cosplay.

I fell asleep again, waking up remembering the following:

There was some bike race and I was standing there watching it with Daniel. He was saying how it was the Japanese bike race or something. I worked out that it was in Tokyo and all of a sudden was riding in it. I said "Tour de Tokyo", lol. Daniel said to look out for the guy that was a really good cyclist. I caught up to him and the back of his cyclist clothing there was a logo and it said "That Guy" xD
I can't remember much from here, but I think there was a part where one of those tandem bikes overtook me. They had a blue bike and were wearing blue clothing.

Memory blank. Next thing I remember I was playing guitar and Kattknopp was there with me. We both played some stuff on guitar that was being recorded on video. No wait, actually we were both recording videos of ourselves playing guitar.

Then this guy that was watching us was all like "hey, you should sing at the same time!" but I really didn't want to. Firstly because I suck at singing (especially while playing guitar at the same time), and secondly because this guy seemed like a total pervert and I really didn't like him. Kattknopp recorded her playing with singing anyway and it was really good. I was about to but somehow got delayed and never did.

There was another part where I wanted to show Lanna the song New Zealand by Eric Stoltz, and I was searching for it on my computer but I could only find these other songs by him (I don't have any other songs by him) that weren't as good and Lanna was getting impatient because I couldn't find the songs.

I was expecting to dream chain this morning and I even woke up from a dream and stayed still with my eyes closed, but I waited for over 5 minutes with no indication of SP or anything, so I gave up. I don't think I was tired enough. I do have two dreams to share with you!

Dream 1: Who wants some pizza?
I was at school, and I can picture exactly where I was standing and exactly the way everything looked because it looked exactly like my school actually looks, down to every detail. I won't sit here describing my school for you though. I was standing at a table with my really close friend and two senior girls I've never really spoken to. We had about 6 pizzas from California Pizza Kitchen, 5 of them were cheese and one was veggie. We were trying to sell them for some cause. We also had a ton of candy we were selling. All of a sudden I ate 4 pieces of cheese pizza, and I paid a quarter for each one. Then I tried to buy a veggie one but as I reached for the piece I wanted, an African-American lady that seemed like she was a parent or teacher walked up and took the piece I wanted. The only one left barely had any toppings on it. I remember taking a mushroom that had fallen off another slice and putting it on mine and eating it. That was the whole dream. I find it odd considering I can only eat about 2 slices of pizza at once.

Dream 2: Project Runway/Top Chef
I was in a show that was a combination of Top Chef and Project Runway. That is, it was a show where there were designers who designed things based on food. I wasn't actually a contestant, it was as if I was just watching it, but in person. The challenge was to create a pair of shoes (why would clothing designers be making shoes?) based on button candy. One of the designers were making these really ugly shoes in this shade of purple which I find really ugly (and isn't related to button candy at all).