non-lucid

October 1, 2010

Asleep by 2:00-ish

WBTB around 7am. Didn't really do a proper one.

Coffee
I'm making coffee for myself and Mike. I used the same cream for mine and his, but for some reason, his has little white floaters in it, and mine doesn't. Upset, I ditch our coffees and start over.

Another work dream
I was at the house, and my parents were holding a birthday party for me. I got a call on my cell, and it was from one of our security sites. Dream plot told me I'm working from home, it seems, and handling dispatch issues, here. Dad gets upset that I'm handling work calls on my birthday, and asks me to pass the buck to one of my employees for today. I call my co-worker, and ask her if she wouldn't mind taking it for the rest of the night, and she says she's cool with it.

I went into the kitchen and started mixing up some whip cream for my cake. I take a taste of it, and it seems a little off. But I keep mixing.

These two were some late-morning dream chains, as I tried to DEILD for about 30 minutes. Total fail.

Dinner (Dream chain)
I'm at the old apartment, sitting at my computer and contemplating this slab of raw roast sitting on my computer desk. Jack and his parents are now in the room, and his mother suggests that someone make dinner. I'm unhappy, because I work a lot, so it shouldn't be up to me to cook, so I voice this opinion. His mother says she won't do it either. Jack remains silent and his dad says if no one is going to cook, we'll just go out then.

Concert (Dream chain)
I'm in a crowd, and I see a familiar blonde come on the big screen. What's her name again? She kind of looks like Lindsay. The announcer confirms that she's Lindsay Ell, and she bursts into a pop song, which confuses me, because that isn't really Lindsay's style of music.

September 30, 2010

Asleep by 1:30am

Some fragment about me talking to feist about Darren's hair. Don't remember why.

WBTB 6:30am. Tried to MILD, but I was feeling rather awake all night... Anyways, didn't work out so well.

Some work dream
There was a dude who worked for my security company (as a driver) who had a desk in my office site. Dunno why. I had a crush on him and we started kissing. Then, I remembered I'm still with Jack... I either just totally led this guy on, or I need to break up with Jack. Neither was looking very awesome.

Some other scene where I saw one of my co-workers get jumped (on camera). I actually radio'd him to watch out, so at least he was prepared. I called 911, but they weren't answering. My co-worker made it out alright. In fact, the guys who jumped him shook his hand and congratulated him on a good fight

I am at my school. I have art homework due in- a collage and I haven't done it (this was actually a real homework that I had a couple of weeks ago). I ask my friend, Lizzie, if I can borrow hers. She obviously says no. Then the bell rings for us to go to lessons. I see my fruit bowl and my old hamster (R.I.P. Charlie) is running around in it. I realise that there is something in my hand. It is a collage! I don't know if I stole it from someone or made it myself (honestly!) but I still take it to the teacher. I get an 8A for it.

Stove Fire
0424: C. This was early in the night and my notes aren't clear. Talking to a family of Italians in a kitchen. We're talking about food. One guy is sitting on the edge of the stove even while all four gas burners are lit, each cooking a small pizza. I try to warn him that he should move to another seat. Sister walks away very upset. He brags that a 9-inch pizza is 5 pounds of food. His clothes catch fire. Everyone is yelling at him to move but he seems paralyzed. Father puts out the fire with a fire extinguisher. Sister comes back with an "I told you so" attitude.

Backyard Ninjas
1100: A! Last sleep cycle of the night after 30 minute WBTB with MILD auto-suggestion. This might have been an unintentional WILD because of how the dream started. My plan was to practice teleporting, but I went off the script.

I start in bed, trying to fall asleep. I don't really know if I was really awake or dreaming INRA. Either way, I open my eyes and can see something through my sleep mask. I can still feel it around my head but it's like a hole is cut in it and I can see a blurry scene of what looks like a grand piano from far away. Now I know I must be dreaming but I still feel like I'm in my physical body. I'm not in the scene, I'm just seeing it without a dream body. So I just stay calm and don't try to move or control anything. I just watch what's happening in the scene and gently suggest that the "camera" move and zoom in. Gradually, the scene starts to look like a room with sunlight coming in a sliding glass door. This reminds me of the Daisetta house.

Then, WHAM!, I'm in the scene with my dream body. I'm not sure if this was a sudden change or a gap in my memory. It's the most vivid lucid I've had in a while. I phase through the glass door and out into the backyard which is a fairly faithful recreation of my true memory. There's a swimming pool, a concrete patio, a patio table with a giant umbrella and steep incline of dirt. The yard is surrounded by a tall fence and trees. I just look around a appreciate the vividness for about a minute. It's so calm and peaceful that the dream starts to destabilize and I wake up.

I remain still in bed to DEILD back. I imagine myself spinning in the same scene. And I'm back in the same spot. Phew. I figure I'd better do something but I forgot my plan so I think of any random task from my list. First task, I run and skip across the surface of the pool water with ease. I'm thinking of what to do next but my memory and vividness aren't as good as before. I figure I should stabilize a bit. I see a long garden rake laying on the patio table. I reach to grab the handle but I can't move my arms! I don't panic. I spin and recover my arms. I rub my hand and then grab the rake. All this improves the stability and I decided I'll just do something silly and fun.

I hold the rake like a bowstaff and assume a fighting posture. I suggest to myself, "Uh-oh... ninjas!" I look around and see four ninjas perched on the tress and fence around the yard. They are all in black with hoods and black sunglasses. The pounce off their perches to attack me with short swords. I fend them off with my rake and fight back for a few minutes. Eventually, all four are beaten and laying on the ground. I walk up to one, and snap his neck. Blood flows from his nostrils.

I walk up to another and realize it's a woman. I instinctively tear off her clothes. But I realize that I'm losing control and this will end the dream. I stop myself, stand up, and turn away. I'm now in the side yard and I can see a glimpse of the rest of the neighborhood toward the street. I think of all the houses with their doors and I'm reminded of the lucid dream from the night before. I begin to remember that my plan for today was to practice teleporting through doors. But before I can move, the dream fades away.

I just recalled a dream where I became a father, not many other details other than that are coming back though. I'm pretty sure it was just me and there was no mother around for whatever reason and I was surprisingly okay with the situation.
Before I had gotten with my girlfriend irl, I had wanted to someday be a father, but since being with her and now afterwards, I'm not as interested.
I'm wondering if this means I actually am.

The first thing i am amble to recall is being over at taylor baseball field across the street with two friends and my grandma for some reason. At first we were with teh 10 and 12 year old team asking there the 15 16 year olds played he pointed to a coach siting by himself on a bucket in the out field. I told my grandma she did not need to come with me but she insisted. We walked over and i told him i would be joining the team, he pointed me over to the dug out. Most of the poeple on the team were unfamliar but my friend carlos was on the team so it was okay. I was still a lil timid at first like i am in real life and felt uncomfortable meeting new people. Then we had a big team dinner and there was tons of food. I figured it would b e a fun season cuz the team looked stoner ish and i figured we cuold smoke before the games and then play and eat all this food how chill. after that i cant really remember how i owke up but it wasnt to far after that.

Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

I was standing in an Italian-style alley. There were a few nondescript people walking down it.

Overhead, ten feet above my head, was a thick stucco bridge that joined the second floors of the two sides together. I looked up at the bridge, then down the alleyway, and saw a train coming at me. It was a red one, fairly boxy. However, it wasn't coming at me head-on; it was perpendicular to me, facing the wall. Because of this, there were only two cars that would fit in the alley. It started to accelerate towards me and I ran at it, punching the train a bit closer to the right-hand side. The metal sheared and broke where I impacted it, and the two sides of the train flew past me.

Had a number of fragmentoid dreams that seemed to mostly have to do with Dead Rising 2, which I finally got around to installing and playing extensively yesterday. I also remember a sequence where I went out to best buy to buy some expensive, $2000 computer hardware. When I brought it home, took off the plastic wrapping, and opened the box to find a set of elaborate-looking gun gaming peripherals. Realizing this purchase was a terrible idea, I ask my wife if it's too late to return it and she tells me that they won't without the plastic wrapping.

Hello :/ Yesterday, I had such an unrealistic dream, that I ask myself why I didn't see that it was an dream

Well the dream starts very logical: I'm walking through a forest. Everything is so peaceful and quite. A few birds are twittering and all this stuff.
But suddenly, out of nowhere, I have a bag with a football (soccer) a towel and stuff to take a sunbath on the beach. In one hand I have an parasol, in the other hand a surfboard. Apparently I'm going to sunbath on a beach... My parents and my brother show up, we all are going together on the beach. I'm wondering why we go through a forest, when we go to the sea? I try to remember how I got there. I'm wondering why I'm not so exhausted, when we just arrived on the beach? (for information, we go to France in our holidays and we have to drive 10 hours or so in the car). I want to develop my thoughts but something unexpected happens.
Suddenly a bird sh*ts on me! It's disgusting! But it just wasn't one bird, but ten birds were making it! I have the feeling that I'm sort of target. I try to avoid the sh*t but I fail every time! Finally I'm out of this f***ing forest. (I don't want to describe the feeling of having bird-poop running down my shoulders an my neck) In front of us is the sea, but it's so different from reality: it reminds me of the lac I used to go swimming this summer). In Addition, there were everywhere seaweed. A woman was swimming in it and it looked really disgusting. I just couldn't stop thinking of all these disgusting things and didn't realize that it's a dream.
The scenario changes. I'm wearing the same clothes as previously, the poop hasn't gone. But now I'm in a sort of garage. An old man is working on a car. It turns out that's my grand-uncle from Illinois, although he doesn't look like him. He speaks but I don't understand what he's saying. I have the feeling that I have to help to repair his car. He wants to know, what happened to me, that my t-shirt is so smelly and disgusting. I explain to him the episode with the birds. He believes me and he want to take a close look on my T-shirt. I take it off an suddenly I'm standing in a white room. It's a consultation room and a doctor is there. He says: Yes, there's no doubt it's bird-shit!
He gives me a ticket and I open the door to leave. I'm suddenly at a train station. My brother is there and he he's smoking a cigarette (by the way, he's 11). My parents show up and shout at him, because he's smoking. "It's unacceptable!" says my dad. He puts it out and they leave.
I'm alone now, I'm really nervous, look if my parents aren't there and I take a cigarette-box out of my pocket and take a cigarette. (as non-smoker) I think: " Yeah he's to little to smoke, but I'm the master of my own decision" (very ironic). I put it in my mouth but I have no lighter. I want to ask someone for a light, but there's no smoker. I suddenly realize that I've got some matches in my pocket. I take them out and it turns out that they are matches to put the BBQ on. I wonder how I have to use it. I find in my pockets some kind of chewing-gum, that burns by friction I manage to light the match, without burning my-self. But I don't manage to light it. So I put the match out and throw it on the rails and put the cigarette out of my mouth. It has transformed into a cokkie (aha sure) and I eat it.
I walk down the station and meet a friend. He takes my ticket and we arrive in a room, where a lot of seats are. It's some kind of plane, the people who are there are excited to take off. I sit down next to another friend, who gives me popcorn.

I awake HOLY CRAP! WHY didn't I realize that this was a dream? ARRRRRRRRRR

30.09.2010

Lucid Chat (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I grabbed a few dreams this night. I am super busy so I did not have time to upload them. I upload this one so it counts for the ToTM. This is the first ToTM I only do the basic, I lost lucidity during the dream.

I was in home and I could not see my cats. I searched for my cats and I could not find them. I realized I was dreaming. I remembered the ToTM so I saw that my computer was on the table, as in waking life.

I opened the computer and I saw the DV chat. It looked kind of odd but I saw it was working fine.
I saw the #DV room and there were a few people. Weird people instead of the regular people.

I wrote something I cannot recall well, but I remember to see in the screen what I wrote. I saw someone replied to my message, so I realized I just had a short IM and completed the basic tast.

I realized I had to see the Death harvesting a soul. I lost lucidity for some reason and I do not remember well what happened.

Missed dream signs:
- None.

Spotted dream signs:
- I had no cats.

Reality check performed:
- None. Turned lucid from DS.

I have two fragments from last night and one dream. I know the dream was really long and vivid, but when I woke up I forgot it all. I only remembered it a little while ago when I was making cupcakes for my school bake sale (you'll see how it is related).

Fragment:
I was with some other girl who was wearing the same shirt as me (which happened to be the shirt I had worn yesterday).

Fragment:
I was flirting with some cute new guy at school. Then I walked to my class and my friend pointed out I was wearing my retainer. I was embarrassed.

Dream 1: A new form of Geocaching?
I had this dream that I went to the library and there was this whole section of stuff this girl in my math class was giving away. There were folders full of things, a naked barbie doll, and an easy bake oven computer game (I had it when I was little and loved it, this is why the baking reminded me of the dream) among other things. I took a couple of things. Then my other friend was in the dream. The library turned out to be the one near my house, though it looked like a library I went to in Michigan from the inside. I remember going back to the library all of the time, getting more things, writing notes, etc. I really wish I remembered more from this dream because it was really interesting.

So i was boarded up in a safehouse with a bunch of other survivors, me and another were preparing to go out for a supply run, but when we got outside we realised we didnt bring any sort of weapon for protection against the zombie hordes, and the front porch light was left blaring. I started to panic, looking around there were zombies fairly close on the street and there was a light in the neighbours window with a silhouette, it turned and looked at me and looked as if it was trying to focus on us to make sure we were human.
we turned around and tried knocking on the safehouse window softly to try get the door open, noone answered, we tried again a bit harder as we paniced more, someone came to the window, but we couldnt see them, they looked at us and left.
the door opened and we rushed inside, as i closed the door, i tried locking it but it wouldnt seem to click, it finaly locked and as soon as i let go the handle rattled really violently and there was a bang on the door, then nothing. I actually felt terror here was great.
i remember then asking around for someones spare handgun for protection next time, noone would give me one so i went into the storage and stole one from a box that had 20 or so in it.

dont remember too much inbetween here but there was something about someone killing a boss and getting a minigun, and at the end we found some massive crop harvest and there were cars and stuff driving around.

★☆☆☆☆

09/30/10



I'm sitting at a table in a fancy cafe. The fancy cafe is next to the walkway of a mall. There's a lot of orange in the colour scheme.

My mom is sitting across from me, trying to order drinks from the waiter. He's looking at her skeptically.

"...the water and flour, please." she finishes.

The waiter doesn't write anything down. He's giving me a look, Is she serious?

I put my elbows on the table and rub my temples with two fingers. "We'll get a caramel macchiato and a chai latte."

The waiter nods and flees before my mom can say anything else.

"Why did you do that?" She demands. "Everyone knows the flour is a code for getting all the components of the drink separately. I want to mix it myself."

"Do you want the latte or the macchiato?" I say flatly.

Scare Factor: 1/10

Dream Non-Dream Lucid Setting

Only dream I remembered from last night. The senses I noticed in my dream were sight, sound, and touch.

(It is summer time. I am a bit younger than I am now, but not by much.) I was moving speedily through my neighborhood (so I assume I was on my bike, but I don't recall). I went to my friend Y's house to remember old times. After staring at his house for awhile I decided to go back home. On the way, I passed what became my friend J' house but J didn't live there. Instead, T, a girl who lived in the cul-de-sac across from J did. She came outside and we talked for a minute or 2 until she decided to go back inside, this disappointed me. She typically never did stay outside very long whenever she lived here. She's at the college I went to last year, but I couldn't return. Her parents tell her to come back outside and finish talking to me because we didn't spend enough time together (I knew this without using my physical senses. I don't know how I knew it other than it was my dream I guess.). While she is walking back to talk to me, I venture into my neighbor's driveway and break down a limb that is hanging over it. My neighbors are happy that I did so and don't mind me hanging outside of their house because of this. However, they want me to finish the job and dispose of the limb. (In reality, I have never met this neighbor.) T and I talk about something, but I can't remember the conversation. As we are hugging good-bye, she asks me if I still like her. (I've liked her for 10 years now.) I had a hard time getting the word "yes" out. (It was like I was a goober in a movie who has trouble telling the girl of his dreams he likes her, pun intended ;]) She then leans in to kiss me. (This was the first time I sensed the feeling of touch in my dream, from then on it remained.) After we kissed, we stayed hugging and chatted some more up close. She asked me why I liked her and I told her it was because she was spontaneous, a fun person, and beautiful. This answer appeased her and we didn't talk anymore after that. E, her sister, then materializes from somewhere. (It made sense to me at the time that she had always been there, but she had not. Kinda wish I had become lucid then :\. I know she said something to me but I can't remember what it was. She was also present age (unlike T and I), but still had braces, which she no longer has. After this interchange I woke up and did the finger-thru-hand and breathing test... I was really awake; it was lame.)

Right after I woke up I didn't remember any dreams, but after I walked into the bathroom disappointed that I didn't remember any since I did a mantra before going to bed that I would remember at least my last dream, all of the sudden I remembered the end of it and worked my way backwards.

very strange this one. i was in this slightly crowded wooden hallway in a museum and some one covered head to to in what looked like a stillsuit from the 80's movIe dune throws this yellow mist all over the room. people start reacting like it's acid and then a guy in a samurai outfit starts fighting him. he saves the day and all of a sudden it rewinds and he fails.

and then the entire building gets bombed. i can see that it's friendly fire bombs going of in the city. the street is covered in pebble sized rubble. 3 soldiers pop up from the debris and they call of the strike. i'm utterly angry at them and we fight but soon all the rubble we are standing on turns into a bunch of used kitty litter and we all start laughing for some reason...then i woke up