non-lucid

There was some dream before this, but I don't quite remember what it was anymore.

I was preparing to walk down a long beach path towards some building which I was registering as some sort of resort. I was following this guy, AB, who I knew back in high school. He was walking exactly where the land met the water and I was under the impression that that was the only way to get there, but after taking only a single step in the water I slipped and fell and almost got my phone wet. I was a little anxious, but then AB looked back at me and gestured over to the side, where it was clear that you could just walk along the rest of the beach to get there no problem. Oh, silly me.

There was a small balcony outside two different doors leading into the resort that I could see, and standing on it was this girl with pretty tan skin. She kind of caught me off guard because I could have sworn that upon first glance from the front she appeared to be wearing a green bathing suit with a bikini top, but from the back there was suddenly an extra design that covered the rest of her back from the bikini down, and it was mostly diamonds and ties an looked like a club or bar outfit of some kind. It actually kind of reminded me of the front of Shakira's outfit in the Dare music video, now that I think about it. Honestly I was mainly looking at her because I found her very attractive, but I did notice that she seemed to be shouting some kind of promotion for the resort. I figured they must have just hired her to stand out there and attract customers.

I decided to walk into the door on my left and ended up at some kind of Earthbound-like store, just lots of mostly female hippie outfits and jewelry and weird stones and the like. My friend N was there and was just kind of browsing, and I just watched him sift through the products for a minute until I saw that they were selling cards for some new trading card game. I don't really remember what the card game was about anymore, but the cards were pretty vividly detailed at the time as I recall. I ended up grabbing just a couple of cards to take with me (I honestly don't remember paying for them at all) and walked out of the store, to a pretty dull hallway with a staircase and some military guy in it. I decided to follow the stairs and see where they took me.

I end up in a small room with only one table to sit at, and my old friends D, C, and possibly O (most likely, but he never really said anything so it's kind of hard to remember now) were all just there eating some food that appeared to come from a cafeteria. There was another military guy just kind of standing their in the background, kind of watching them I think but just because they happened to be there. They were having a conversation that I could actually hear, but it escapes me now. I ended up chiming in about the trading cards I bought and showing them off because if I have any friends who would appreciate them it would be them, and then the military guy walks over to us. He basically just points to the cards and starts talking about how addictive the card game is, because apparently he's gotten into it (and I think he said it related to how he was really into sci-fi or something). He said he just couldn't stop collecting them. Once he walked away, C and I made a lame but simultaneous (and therefore awesome) "Gotta catch 'em all!" joke.

I ended up looking down at my cards again for a moment, and then when I looked back up the scene had changed slightly. We were now in what appeared to be a first floor room with a little bit of view outside to an open field, and I'm not sure if the military guy was there anymore. There was also a TV playing to the left of my in the corner of the room, and I was no longer sitting at the same table as the rest of the group, but instead was just one table back. D and C were now having a heated discussion about some faux pas that D had apparently made some time in the recent past that I believe was related to race, and then we all turned to the TV to see an episode of It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia playing. Dee happens to make an excuse which relates to the exact situation that D and C are discussion, and D says "There, you see!" as if to solve the argument. However, upon reflection, I think it's actually kind of sad if you have to use something that a character from that show said to justify your actions.

After that I woke up, at first remembering nothing, but then this all started coming back to me.

Standing in my kitchen, I start to hear music in my head. Really good drumming and guitar. I'm actually thinking it, but hearing it simultaneously, and enjoying it too. My unconscious mind starts getting fancy with the drumming, and I really like it. I first start to worry that it won't stop, but since it's so good, I'd be okay with that. Then, I worry that it will stop. But it just changes a bit every now and then, sometimes with a drum solo, sometimes a guitar solo. So, I just stand there and enjoy it for a while. I listen to see what instruments I'm playing. Just the drums, electric guitar, and bass guitar, although I don't hear the bass guitar very clearly.

On the kitchen counter is my laptop, right next to my MP3 player, and the laptop has a bunch of music I lost about 5 years ago that I really enjoyed. Now's my chance to transfer it over! I plug it in, and wake up.

Inside a large indoor pool area, there is an extravagant show being performed with several attractive female divers, all dressed up with large winged costumes, and lots of sparkles, but definitely in just bathing suits underneath the fancy stuff. I sit down next to a glass table, mildly interested in the show, an announcer barely heard in the background. A cardboard box flap pokes me annoyingly in the arm, sort of stuck between my arm and the table. I lift my arm up to free the flap and move the box, just exactly as the announcer asks if there are any volunteers from the audience. He looks right at me as my arm is in the air, and waves me forward.

Panic stricken, I slowly stand up and wave at everyone. Some assistants escort me to the stage near the pool, below the 8 or so attractive divers. I guess I wasn't really paying attention at all. It turns out that there are other volunteers as well, and we are going to take part in some sort of competition against each other with the help of the women above. One volunteer per diver. We are lead up to their platforms with very little instruction as the announcer excites the audience for what's about to happen. The diver I'm standing with is just about my height, and very tan, like she comes from a country where it's just normal to be very tan. Actually, even more beautiful up close. I try not to get too distracted. Our eyes meet, and we smile at each other. Basically everything she's wearing is sparkling at this point.

She informs me that we are doing a trick-dive competition, and I am to go just ahead of her, and support her from below the water, while upside down as she stands on my feet. If she weren't so pretty, I would normally hesitate a bit, but don't even think twice. We get the signal, and I jump off the 100 ft tall platform, face first, and dive deep into the pool. Holding my breath, I feel her land gently on my feet, and dance or something, I can't really see. Then she tugs me up to the surface. Relieved, I take a huge breath at the surface as we swim to the edge of the pool.

Round two is basically the same. Apparently, one team was eliminated that first time, and we are to do that again. This time, my shorts ride up too far for this kind of show, and quickly get everything back inside before exiting the pool. A few more rounds pass like that, with me just thrilled to be with this girl.

Now, standing atop the platform, I notice we're the only team. It is the final challenge. We must do something difficult to win a worthy prize. I don't really know what to do. I'm lucky enough not to die upon impact when I hit the water, let alone do anything fancy. The girl up there with me just tells me to hold my breath for a while, and she'll do the work up top.

We jump, and it seems like I'm falling in slow motion this time. I take a huge breath of air, but realize I was a bit too early, so I let it out fast and take another huge breath immediately before I hit the water. For some reason, I am immediately out of breath, despite the huge breath I just took. It's not that big a deal though, just uncomfortable, and I can push through it for some time. It gets more uncomfortable, but still bearable.

The pressure on my feet from her standing on me is lifted, and I see her dive down next to me. I return right side up, but no longer need to breathe under water. We can talk underwater now as well, but that's just normal. She tells me that we've won, and has a huge smile on her face. She gives me a big hug, and then we both look over at a giant treasure chest that is sinking to the bottom, together with a large ornate crown and a really fancy looking decorative bow. I put the crown on her head and tell her she deserves it because she did all the work. It makes her look even more beautiful.

Picking up the bow, I draw it back to full power and tell her something about it being a really cool bow. Probably endows the user with some sort of power or something like that. A look of terror quickly comes over her face as she reaches out to stop me from dry firing it (wet firing it?), yelling something like it's going to kill me. But too late, I let go of the cord, and the two of us watch the pressure wave float toward the treasure chest. It hits it, and breaks the lock open. That wasn't supposed to be able to happen That treasure chest was magically sealed, and only certain people were to be able to open it. Plus, the bow was cursed, and was supposed to harm the user. I wasn't even aiming at the treasure chest at all, I was more focused on showing off the bow than anything.

Inside this treasure chest, amidst the gold lining, and shiny gold plated walls of the box, all glowing radiantly, is true love. Sweet, I've found true love! I look over at the girl, and kind of doubt it's her. She's not really my type, but what the hell, if it's true love, that's good enough for me. We hug again and look into each others' eyes, still speechless in amazement of what just happened.

Spoiler for Random Intro:

Wandering through gated back yards, jumping over fences, and looking for a bathroom, I find a downstairs apartment with the door wide open. I go inside, and shake the snow off my jacket before going any further and dripping it on the floor. But I shook it right into someone's shoes... That doesn't look so nice, so I leave, abandoning my search for the bathroom. There are an assortment of little beings that are all around me now, and no longer any snow on the ground. A few small children, two cats, and a goat are all in a circle on some green grass. They all appear to be trapped, and in danger if they stay inside this backyard maze of fences. I carry all of them over a fence except one cat. This cat is huge! I try to coax it to walk over on its own, but it is also a lazy cat. So, I pick it up, weighing well over 100 lbs, and carry it over the fence. There is another small animal, maybe a sheep, that also wants to escape. I lift the fence in the air slightly, and crawl underneath, motioning for the sheep to follow. It does, and pushes me out of the way, crawling through swiftly.

On the other side of the fence, I am face to face with a giant bat. At least I think it's a bat. Looking right at me, drooling profusely, a nasty looking orange drool. It has small flexible fangs. It also has a very powerful venom. Not very good. Biting onto my arm, I feel that none of the fangs pierces my flesh, but I don't want to take any chances, so I wrestle it away, pushing its porcelain smooth beak away. Now holding it back by the beak, we stare at each other, both still pushing at the other. The beak is so smooth, I actually rather enjoy touching it. Kind of cold to the touch as well, and very colorful with swirls of reds, browns, and oranges all throughout the beak.



The animal's owner comes by, and pulls him back by the shoulders. She tells me, "He's just hungry, sorry about that" Being sort of like a bat, I assume he eats bugs, so I tell them to hang on for a bit, while I find some food for him inside my house. There are no bugs... I go downstairs and ask my room mate if he has any bugs.

"Of course I do buddy, here ya go." and he hands me a plastic bin. 'Great! Now I can feed this thing.' I dash upstairs, but looking inside the bin I just see a loaded gun, some batteries, loose change, a few lint balls, and random other odds and ends. I take all the bullets out of the gun and toss them separately into the bin, then ditch the gun as well. 'There's gotta be bugs around here somewhere'

I go outside, and find a large group of rather juicy looking bugs on the window sill. They all look dead, but still meaty. I pick one up by the wings, a large green bug, and it starts to wiggle around a bit. 'Not quite dead yet!' so I put it back down on the window's edge. The rest of the bugs all have rigor mortis, so I know they are dead. I pile them all into my left hand and go back over to the bat creature. Somewhat human, but definitely more animal than person. I hold out my hand and he ravenously slurps them into his beak and chews them for a bit before swallowing them, followed by more drool around the edges of his beak. Quite gross.

Seeing where I got the bugs from, he walks over and looks for more. Seeing the one I left behind because it was still alive, he goes in to eat it. I pray that the bug either is spared death, or dies well, whatever is meant to be... To my surprise, the previously lifeless but twitching bug now flies off, just out of reach of the bat creature, then shoots rapidly into the sky at what I assume is maximum bug speed.

I help the bat-man (more bat than man) find more dead bugs to eat. Mostly dead moths that are stuck to loose boards on the side of the house, or in abandoned spider webs. The creature eats more of the wood than the bugs, just chewing on it, as he holds it like an ear of corn.

Walking back to the front yard, his friend/caretaker person tells him it costs too much to feed him and he has to make some money himself if this is going to work. Bat-guy sits down on a bench looking rather dejected, as he stares down at his feet with his hands in his lap. I go up to him, pat him on the back and encourage him, "You'll be able to do something to make money, don't worry."

He looks up to me as if saying, "Like what?" but with just his eyes.

I answer, "You could always give massages to people" and we both start laughing. I see a smile return to his beak and hope in his eyes. "I didn't know you could understand me" I say, amidst more laughter, just thinking about this bat-guy giving people massages... He nods understandingly.

Not that I gathered many points - but I gathered lucid time, for my meagre standards quite a lot of time, even.
Did a WBTB, but again a short one, and not like planned...

LD #1: I was standing in the atrium of a house, maybe 3 stories high, looked like an office-building, I don't know how I got there. But looking down the hall - it just simply struck me, that it was a dream. Forgot to RC, but did that later on. What was on my mind first, was that Maxis had lucid dared me to die and survive it like a proper cat should be able to do. But what I did first wasn't trying something fancy, nor going after my 5 senses, since I ended up in the void by interrupting what I was doing before and especially upon lacking input from a sense, I search. So I slowly walked out of the building, as if nothing had happened. And that was a good idea, when I came out, the dream had nicely stabilized.

The idea had been to transform into a cat and then let myself get hit by a lightning strike. Somehow I had the feeling that I'm not up to full transformation, didn't dare try - and since I could also die and survive something as a human - I started weather-witching instead and conjured up rain and storm and darkness - but lightning eluded me. I was a bit afraid then if I'd get anything done and went flying - by jumping from a high cliff into something like a canyon. The plan was my 3-stepper super flight, into which I wanted to switch while in the sky, and maybe catch a deadly lightning strike under way. But - soo stupid - I suddenly had such an urge for the toilet, that it disturbed my air-swimming. Soo - what now, I think in mid-flight, and wanting to get something out of this LD in the last seconds, I grab my right eye, see if I can rip it out for the TOTM. Well I do - but not really - it stays on it's optic nerve, I get it out maybe 20 cm and then it bounces back in. No pain - no spectacular visual effects, either - but it feels slimy. Now reading back - I should have examined it further - what I can say, is that I saw it with my other eye, as a dark ball. Before I could go on and land somewhere and maybe cut it off with something, I felt I had to go so urgently, I woke myself up. And of course - nope - I didn't need a toilet irl - this happened several times before. Need to remember that once and for all - maybe stop moving my dream-body or just letting it go...

Dream #1: It's back - the old house. This time, though, it had been ripped down except for a small part, and all the place around it had been sold and integrated into city-buildings on one side, on the other was some garden left. I was very happy to be there, to know it exists, but later on I found out that even that last bastion had been sold, and there was a party with the new owners moving in suddenly appearing in my and a friend's living there. We were just living there, and they came in all dressed fancily and with champagne glasses, we had to first find out what they wanted, I couldn't believe it nor accept it, but I had to in the end...

Fragment #1: A woman stands at a table and wants to demonstrate something, takes her fingers and does as if it was a touch-screen and she would make the picture bigger. It screeched like hell, but that supposedly belonged to the new technology, where you could use anything as a monitor.

I guess I know exactly where this is coming from - Sivason and the wet oil painting thing, which I mentioned yesterday...

Fragment #2: Washing dishes...

Fragment #3: A kid with a sick guinea pig, and I don't want to check it, because I'm afraid it bites, looking somewhat sinister

Fragment #4: In a coffee shop, looking at the lots of cakes


Again didn't dictate something - hence the fragmentation...
And I try to keep that up - just pretending nothing would have happened upon lucidity, taking it slowly - that was good.

Stayed up late watching "The Purge" movies

00:00 Tuesday 2014-08-05

02:00 bedtime

no wbtb, no middle of the night recording, but I did wake during the night for recall, the dreams came in across 2-3 wakings and I managed to remember at least some of them, there were more but they degenerated into fragments or I forgot them entirely

10:30

+ playing space video game, frag ship following close with phasers. The screen fills my vision, there are lots of ship on screen I'm firing torpedoes and trying to detonate enemy torpedoes, I'm changing course drastically and setting full speed to dodge. I'm not sure what team I'm on (orion or klingon?) but figure later I'm klingon, I see a romulan ship at one point and maybe a federation. At one point I have a fed ship close on my tail I'm moving from left to right, he's right on my tail not quite at 9 o-clock but close enough, I fire several phaser bursts straight to the left and he disappears, I guess I got him.

+ in a prison/hospital, one guy wants to move to the special room. I'm walking/talking with one patient (young male short blonde hair) he wants to go to the room. It's behind bars, the room is large-ish but I'm warning him if he goes in there he'll be spending his entire sentence in there.

+(f) wife is at checkout counter

+(f) downtown B, lots of gourmet restaurants, but they're empty and advertising for chefs

+ in old house, we only have room for the A family or someone else, walking around over sleeping guests. The A's could stay in a hotel, but could also stay with us, there's someone else who wants to stay with us.

+ picking flowers at the childhood playground. I start at the middle level where the clubhouse was, I want to pick flowers for a girl I like, I'm holding a large-ish tall crystal vase in my left hand, I pick a few flowers but they're too short and they fall down inside. I'm looking at one flower that looks like a black tulip with a green stem sticking up out of the flower. Starting to walk down to the lower/basketball level, someone with me stops to lean over the clubhouse railing to take a drink from the drinking fountain. I put down the crystal vase and it almost falls over, I catch it before it does and steady it. Down on the lower level I decide I want some white daisy flowers, I see them growing on the hillside between the levels, I walk over to the hill and jump up on two concrete benches near the hillside and jump onto the hill. I'm picking one daisy flower, I'm trying to reach down all the way to its base so that I get a long enough stem so that the flower will come out of the top of the vase and not just fall down inside. I'm a bit concerned about bugs as I reach down into the clump of green plant stuff where the stem emerges from. I pick several flowers. Some flowers come wrapped in brown paper wrapping with clear plastic windows like rolls from the bakery, one flower is a double-headed flower. I see that my wife has brought the procession of people down to this level so I don't have to climb back up.

11:37 a.m.

I was walking a lot. The place has a lot of trees. I kept walking on a path that winds down various areas. They're supposed to be familiar. While walking down the path, I kept thinking about where it led if I followed a particular path.

I took a jeepney, and I worried it might not turn to the place I was thinking, but at the last corner, the driver asked aloud. I answered in the affirmative, and he turned right. I got off and entered a mall.

NOTES:

- Slept at around 3:12 a.m.
- Took one tablet (3mg) melatonin
- I had clear images running through my mind while I had my eyes closed.
- No techniques, although I tried to tell myself to remember my dream
- The dream was no different than the others except it has a lot of feeling of familiarity to it.
- It was kinda rainy.

August 04, 2014

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All I remember was that I was going to my grandpa's old mansion (he sold it a few years ago) for a grand party of some sort. I was with my mom and dad and brothers, in the car on the way there. We had been staying at my grandpa's other house on the edge of town because it was less crowded. I remember that I had this gorgeous red dress, and my makeup was perfect, but when I looked at my reflection in the car-door window, I noticed that my hair was a fracking NEST. It was so messy. I frantically tried to fix it, but nothing was working.

My mom told me it was fine and that no one would be looking at my hair, but it was SO noticeable. It's not like I'd worn the wrong shoes, which people really wouldn't have seen, because my dress was floor-length. It was right there on top of my face, which people would be looking at. I was mortified as I walked through the front doors, and then I woke up.

1. I was outside, at some kind of air force base. I was standing near a building/hangar next to some military guy. I looked up at the sky and noticed it was deep yellow/ dark orange in color. I had been talking to the military officer for a few minutes about something, but I dont remember what.
Just then, I head the sound of many aircraft engines high above me. The sound was extremely loud and startled me. I looked up into the sky and saw 4 or 5 giant planes flying over. 3 of which had an odd shape to them. These 3 aircraft had only 1 wing and had to shape of a regular airplane, but cut in half. It looked perfectly fine however, like it was some type of new design. The other 2 planes were regular cargo planes, but huge in size still. At this point, I thought something was wrong, and I thought that maybe a war was starting or that we were being invaded. I looked around and thought everything too vivid to be a dream(Dang, just missed it!).
I thought about the situation that I was in, but I still thought that it was all real. The officer I was standing next to told me to go inside. The sound of the plane's engines above still roaring in my ears. As I went inside, I recall going into some sort of commercial waiting area, it was like an indoor hangar, but commercial. The place was filled with people, some of which I knew. I walked around for a minute and my dad appeared. We chilled around inside. We both walked over to a small jellyfish tank inside. As we stood next to it, we noticed something inside of the tank that my dad said we should take out (I dont recall what it was). I then picked up a very small white rod/string, and it was really thick and had the shape of a carrot. It was really thick on one end, and thin on the other. I stuck this in the tank in order to distract the jellyfish and attract them to my rod. The plan was for my dad to get whatever was inside of the tank while the jellyfish came to my rod. As expected, the small light purple jellyfish swam over to my rod. When the got right up on it I accidentally dropped the rod into the water. The jellyfish got into a group and picked up the small rod and dragged it to the bottom.
At this point, me and my dad didn't care about what was inside the tank anymore, and we just watched the jellyfish with curiosity. I noticed there were many small red roses inside of the tank, and they were a little smaller than each jellyfish, which were already the size of the tip of a thumb. All of a sudden, everything inside of the tank started disintegrating, the roses and everything, just crumbling to dust before our eyes. The only things not disintegrating were the jellyfish, just going on about their way. I left the tank in fear, not knowing what had just happened and continued walking around.
I walked into a big, almost empty hanger, which had an interior of all black. I found my english teacher Mrs. Bay standing in a corner next to what seemed like a black roller coaster type of ride. The ride started from inside the hangar and continued inside of a tunnel. I walked up to Mrs. Bay and she told me that I needed to pay for the tickets. I remembered that I had bought weed earlier and knew that I wouldnt be able to buy anymore for a long time because of the expense of these 2 tickets I was about to buy. I bought the tickets and continued on my way.

2.(This might have been an earlier part of the previous dream ^^^^, and Im pretty sure it is, but I dont feel like putting it into the right order anyways so Im putting it down here.)
I was inside the big commercial hangar still, and I came across some type of food table/make you own type of thing. This table had on top of it all sorts of boxed foods. To the left of this table was a cart, which had many boxes that each contained a flavor- just a flavor of something. I remember seeing the flavor blueberry in the cart on one of the lower levels. The employees of this hangar told us that we had to mix a drink of our choice with one of these flavors(wtf). I picked out Sprite as my drink, and I wanted to mix it with the flavor Sprite as well(lol) but I knew that wasn't an option. I decided was going to lock in my choice with the blueberry flavoring.
After this I went to some sort of academic part of this building. I went upstairs and saw that there were lockers everywhere. There were also windows at the end of every hall. The sky was still a deep yellow'dark orange and it shined through these windows giving an the same color of tint to everything it shined on. To me it felt like it was late in the after noon, but I wasn't for sure. Somebody had been following me upstairs into this school like area, and for some reason other than that, I decided to hide somewhere in the hall I had just walked into. I told the guy that was following me soon after that he could hide with me, because I knew some pretty good spots. He followed closely behind me. As I walked deeper into the hallway and was nearing the end of it, I decided to hide behind a small pillar that was on the hall(like a part of the wall).
To my surprise, a girl was already hiding there, and she was really cute. I looked around and all the other students that had been hiding in this hallway popped out. There must have been at least 15 students hiding in places in this hall. I said hi to everyone and with there being no other places to hide, I suggested to my friend that we hide inside of the lockers. Some other students had already done that, but there were still plenty of lockers that we could hide in. These lockers were huge, maybe 3 to 4 feet wide, and a few feet deep. I opened one up(<<< lol One Up), and as I was about to get inside and close the locker door, a really angry man came into the hallway -who Im assuming was a teacher- and saw all of us.
He told us, "Those who feel that the shouldn't be a part of this- leave now!". I got out of the locker and started making my way back down and out of the hallway. As I walked past the angry teacher I saw him yelling directly into the face of a student next to him. I wondered why no one else left when he basically gave us a, "get out of jail free" pass, because only I, and maybe 3 or 4 other students left when he did.

3. I was inside of my house, and in my downstairs living room. Only the kitchen lights were on. As I walked down my hallway about to enter the kitchen, a GIANT pile of weed blocked my way. Im talking pounds of weed. I looked ahead of me and, sitting in a chair, was my old friend Chase Carr. I realized it was him who had brought all of this good stuff over, and he also gave me a bag the size of 1.5 grams for me personally. As I was about to talk to him I heard my dad start opening the back door from outside. I knew I was about to be in big trouble.
I grabbed as much as I could carry from the huge pile of weed in the middle of the floor and hurried it upstairs. There was still alot of the weed all over the floor, but I ran upstairs regardless and decided to let Chase deal with my dad. As I ran upstairs and into my room I looked at the small 1.5 gram bag. The strain inside of the bag was "Sky Cannabis" and it was written on the bag. I took this as "Sky OG' because "Sky cannabis" doesn't exist as a strain name.
I started packing all of the weed that I had brought up into my room into my drawers. I think I recall hearing my dad yelling downstairs because he saw the rest of it that I didn't pick up.

4. I was in a grocery store, casually walking around. I came over to the bakery section and there were 2 or 3 bakers out in buyer section, in the middle of the floor, making giant donuts in these blue tubs. Each donut was the size of each tub it was made in, so only one donut fit inside of each tub. I continued watching these bakers, all of who were girls wearing hair nets. I got up close to see exactly how they were making these donuts.
They would fill each giant tub full of dough, and then they would make a decent size hole in the middle of it. Then they would pour the filling of the donut into this hole. I assumed that after they baked these giant tubs of dough, that they would cut them into smaller donuts, regular size. The baker to the left of the one I was watching up front, had a slightly smaller tub, filled with all blue dough. This dough was deep blue in color, and the baker preparing the tub to be baked was having some problems. Right before she would pour in the filling, her dough would pop up from the bottom of the tub, and the dough was supposed to be at the very bottom before you could put in the filling. Eventually the baker got the dough to stay at the bottom of the stub and she poured in the filling.

Dream fragment:
1. Holly's bf pushing her daughter on billy cart.

2. I'm with Dad at the parkway shops and we are loading stuff into the back of our car. I see Dean's ute park near by. Dean and GGrant walk over and GG says something to me.

3. I can hear eminems music. Myself and brother are In a room.

I decided to start reading Stephen Laberge's book, 'Exploring the world of lucid dreaming' because I think it might contain some interesting things about MILD and auto-suggestion. Also, as I just saw the 100th anniversary of WW1 outside my window on the old WW1 cemetery. Don't know why I wanted to say that but I think it's quiet weird to think so many people died back then at this place.

1. Fragment

I really don't remember anything of this dream other than the bits I wrote down this morning. It had something to do with drugs, me wearing blue clothing and being both awake and asleep

2. Largest cake in the world

I'm in my garage and I have to transport a cake to a certain location, I know it's for the royal family of Belgium because I start seeing the King in some flashbacks. I use my bike but there's one problem, the cake is 15 meters wide and so heavy it nearly crushes my bike as I somehow put it on the back. I have a lot of trouble keeping my balance as I'm driving down the street and after some time the cake falls of. When I put it back on the bike the cake has gotten smaller, it's now 2 meters wide and I can actually transport it now. When I get to the party I don't really know what happens but when the party ends 2 biker/gothic women take some people hostage (including me) and we have to dance on weird music while also wearing these weird clothes... Oh yeah, the house is suddenly filled with nails so walking away would be painfull.

3. Cats on the loose

I'm standing infront of my house and see 5 cats sitting on a row on the sidewalk. 2 of them are my pets and the others I don't know. I quickly grab the two and put them inside but then I notice how most of the lower part of the house is missing. I see it as renovation and think it's normal but then I notice holes in the door I entered through with the cats must've gone through. And a weird man comes to me and says something but I don't remember what.

EDIT: Looks like something weird happened during posting this entry, it doesn't register the comments which I would've liked cause I appreciate the interest of others but it tells me "Acces denied" when I try to like.

Dream one:
Trying to get into a large house that I'm sure is a location I've been to in previous dreams. There's no spare key, mum explains that it's a special key that would cost over a hundred pounds to duplicate.

My big brother is behind me also trying to get into the house. I manage to find a different door and get in, but I lock the door behind me and run around closing a variety of other doors and windows. I don't recall why I wanted to lock him out...

Dream two:
A seemingly endless cycle of trying to get to work on time (or at least no later than I already am!)

Fixing my bike, putting my shoes on only to find the shoelaces need replacing, waking up at midday, desperately needing the loo just as I'm about to leave, not being able to find my keys, getting lost as I run the whole way to work (it's about 25 miles) getting to work and finding it's locked. Really the whole repertoire of rubbish anxiety dream nonsense!

Fragment:
For some reason I'm in a somewhat erotic tryst with a girl who seems to be quite keen on trying to fit me in anywhere except the most obvious option. Not the most unpleasant dream I've ever had, but still a little frustrating

Shame I start only now, when most of it is forgotten. But the lucid was just a mini-moment again - since I RCed - I count it for the comp, but not for my LD-count.

LD #1: Getting lucid at the end of a dream, in a garden, doing a nose-pinch afterwards. Sorry for the unspectacularness of it all...

Going to do a longer WBTB tonight, and really think about how to DEILD.

Dream #1: Also with a garden, but that was not the same dream, it was behind a building I worked in and I went exploring it. I was in search for the cafeteria, and chanced upon it. With some of my beloved ruins to climb through...
The story was about a huge building-complex and me new there to work. But the garden was good!

Fragment #1: At a party with some people I didn't see in ages.

I always seemed to dream more about people from the past - even in that past - like not of my boyfriend, but of before ones, but going on - so not because of me wanting somebody old back or something. Same with friends.
Anyway - I had so much more upon waking - but was frustrated by again just a hunch of an LD - very...

Non-lucid, Lucid

.../The further memory I have, I'm in an abandoned farm where its owner is a little nasty guy who didn't take a shower for months, he looks dirty and covered in sweat. His partner gets in place and takes off a sort of leather necklace he's wearing. It's like he hasn't take that thing off for months. I don't like what I see. He goes out where all the vegetation has grown without control. I remember it used to be a beautiful place, I'm sort of disappointed. There are three big dogs out there, when I see a lion hunting down one of them. It takes the dog from the neck and takes it away. I follow the lion until my hand becomes its mouth and now I'm holding the dying dog. I let it on the floor, but it's too late. I put it where the cubs can start to eat it/...

.../Now I'm in a car, with a friend of mine who recently I got to know he loved a Japanese TV series form the early 80's named Sankuokai. He's obsessed with the series and pretends this car is a space ship, although he's driving it backwards. I get concerned we can have an accident because of he's driving too fast. Finally I got to turn the car by changing the position I'm sitting on it. It's better to see things the right way. We get to the end of the road. We get out the car and see some hills in front of us. I remember this city was build upon what was going to be a huge burial ground in ancient times. I tell him, this place is a huge burial ground. Then I turn and see a known cemetery from WL which uses to be in my dreams. I point it and tell him that some disgusting things use to happen in that place when I'm dreaming it. It hits my head all of the sudden, what about if it's actually one of those dreams!? I look at my hand and I confirm it. I tell him laughing, actually it's a god damn dream. He doesn't seem to care. Another pal gets in, and they both start talking. I leave them and go to the cemetery, thinking about my sex drive that uses to screw things up. I walk next to the main gate, when it turns into a window and I see a couple sitting on a table. They don't look interesting, although I think perhaps I should force them to have sex in front of me, I'm sick of my sex drive. I ask them to do it, they don't seem to react. I take their clothes off and put the woman on the man. They start doing something although it's not enough. I'm starting to find the scene more disgusting than exiting. Another woman gets into the room. She looks like she has some sort of skin infection. It's getting worse, but I don't care. I want them to play dirty things in front of me. I lift her skirt, and the spectacle is too disgusting, because she seems to have a serious STI. I give up, I cannot see more of it. I go to the next room. There's a couple of friends from school times, they look better, at least they were the classic lovely picture. I'm not excited at all, I just one to fulfill what I wanted to do at the beginning, so I command them again to have sex in front of me. I help them to take their clothes off, it gets better although I don't feel excited, it's just fun to see that I can control it. I leave them in their game when an ex girlfriend, who appeared somewhere in a previous dream, gets into the scene. She start doing her hotter stuff, but what she says is disturbing me. I try to stop her but she's in ecstasy covered with slobber on a table next to a window. I'm surprised I didn't wake up with all the sex stuff happening around. I'm pleased I didn't wake up trying to control the dream, although I'm disturbed with all the disgusting stuff/...

* Woke up before the alarm clock went off. And couldn't go back to sleep.

3/4 August
Illegal Weapons Dream
Me and a bunch of my friends were down at the beach/harbor. two of my friends were trying to chat up some girls that were there. I was showing my friends my arsenal of weapons I had purchased illegally online. we walked up some stairs right beside the beach and walked for a bit. we arrived at a skyscraper apartment building. My friend grabbed a lock-pick blowtorch combination thing and started trying to get in the locked front door. Everyone was cheering him on apart from me and another of my friends. I did not want to get arrested for possession of the weapons, so my friend offered to get them taken to his uncle who would have them destroyed for me. we started walking down a hill, away from the rest of our friends. I was concerned because his other uncle is a supreme court judge in Glasgow, so i thought he was going to get me in trouble, but he promised he wasn't. There is a blank here and i cannot remember what happened. Then we were both in small cars driving down the road. We reached the bottom of the hill and my friend started driving up another uphill road. I was following just behind but before i started going uphill some idiot crashed into me side on which broke my car. I had to run up the hill. Then i woke up.

School Trip Dream
We were on a school trip to some wilderness trail course. we were about to walk across a bridge. Mr.Coward (teacher at my school) was talking to someone with the same name as me who had an English accent. They were standing just to the side of the bridge start. As I walked past he said to me "how is your hay fever, Cameron without the English accent?" But I thought he was talking to someone else so i kept walking. A little onto the bridge my friend informed me I had completely ignored him and we both laughed. To the left of the bridge the school football (soccer) team was playing. I looked to the right of the bridge and when I looked back my friend Declan who was previously there was not and in his place was some kid a year below me called Jack. he was holding a bib, the ones you wear in PE to tell who is on your team. I don't know which colour it was. Walking along the bridge was Mr.Hughes (another teacher at my school) handing out these bibs to everyone . Before he could get to me i suddenly found myself on the ground below the bridge, while everyone else was doing a "treetop trail". They all had earphones in, which were plugged into the rail that their harnesses were clipped into. When they noticed I was on the ground they threw a rope down so i could pull myself up. Before I climbed up, I took out a plug/socket which was battery powered and plugged some earphones into them somehow. I put the earphones in even though they were not playing any music or making any sounds. When I got to the top somebody asked how I was supposed to plug my earphones. I showed her the socket and we kept on going on the trail. Then I woke up.

I also have a dream fragment of a stone archway.