non-lucid

Fragment 1:
Whizzing around in boats


Dream 1:
A loop about lucid dreaming. I am trying to pull off some kind of lucid challenge and keep going back to sleep after not quite managing it.

I manage to avert a nasty violent argument on the final attempt, a bystander appears to remember the argument that happened in the previous loop and is scared when I turn up but is relieved when I manage to change the story this time around

Fragment 2:
Dancing on the sofa to the band outside

1:12 p.m.

I was in a small community. It's unfamiliar.

I decided to hide in a store, a place that I somehow thought they'd never look. People looking for me. I'm not from there. I don't know what they want to do. I think I was female, and the owner of the store (also female) said that one day, someone needs to take care of the store and marry her son (who is still a boy).

A storm or a fight. I/We have to hide.

I was in a building. Yellowish color theme. The floors are fooling around. The elevators disappeared. Good thing I ended up in floor 27, so I just took the stairs to go down. I/We ended up in the basement. White theme. Some things to explore. I felt excited, although I think the place is prohibited.

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NOTES:

- Went to sleep several times, last being around 11:56 a.m.
- Last was with 26-minute meditation (Sam Harris)

Dream 1
6:54am

I'm at some kind of venue which has a dark feel to it. A night club feel. I'm with Daryl.

I see a TV in front of me and someone is about to get interviewed. I hear my name and think it's me that is going to be getting interviewed. I freak out cause I don't know what to say in the interview. I soon realise they're talking about a the Dean off X Factor. I see his face come up on the TV and they mention about him practicing the art of BJJ. I start to day dream about what I would do in the interview if I was him, which was to start pretending to choke people out with my BJJ skills. The interviewers also mention about another BJJ practitioner who is high level.

I see people using the punching machines which give you a score once you hit it. I look towards Daryl and happily tell him about it as I know he has a strong punch and hoping he would show them how it's really done.

Daryl is sitting on something and Ali comes up and jumps on him. Daryl isn't too happy about it and calls Ali fat. Daryl is playing a game with a man who is using a medicine ball, where he's throwing it over the back of his head.

I see a man using another punching machine where you had to throw the punching gloves at the punching gloves that were connected to the machine, which was weird.

Dave Clork is here but I don't see him, I think his on the dance floor and must have hurt himself a little. I see a sign on the wall which says something about going hard and won't be in for work tomorrow.

Dream 2
8:05am

My brother and I are at the kitchen table and we're trying to set up a plasma TV. It's suppose to slot into the holder, but it keeps swaying either forwards or backward as we adjust it. We try to improvise and use props to hold it. I see a TV antenna and something else to use and try that out. It works but only for a small amount of time. I see Bruce and he comes over to us and he tries to help us out with the TV. Bruce starts talking about Kindles and I mention about a the format I use and can't seem to think of if for a bit. Eventually I remember and tell him it's Java format. He tells me he uses just the normal PDF. I tell him I don't use that format due to having to zoom and etc which is annoying. He tells me he knows a trick where you press a button which is called something along the lines of "over the mountain". I run to my room and grab my kindle so he could show me. I walk back out and meet him at the cream coloured couch. He opens it up and starts watching old auditions of Australian Idol or X Factor.

The scene changes and I'm on the battlefield. I have an assault rifle and start carving up the enemies that approach. I seem to be on my game today.

Dream 3
8:40am

I think I get out of bed which may have been a false awakening that I missed out on. I'm at my old house in the kitchen making my breakfast. I see a couple whole oat clusters which looked like weetbix, which was left on the bench. I thought they may have been Dads or he just tried them and left the rest for me. I decide to eat them and not worry. I hear Dad talking to the TV, while watching a game show. He's yelling out the answer to the questions. I hear him say trumpet, which is correct answer.

Dream Fragments:

1. I'm sitting in a lounge room with a family member and Bruce and Rita. We're talking about something.

2. I'm on the computer and log into Dream Views IRC. Someone says hi to me but calls me hillen

So i was driving home from a two week vacation and it was a 14 hour ride I only remembered one dream from that ride so here it goes.

I was in prison with two guys from a tv serie called Prison Break it was Micheal scofield and his brother Lincoln I am watching this show as we speak and we saw a dark tunnel in the prison so we ran in and at the end of the tunnel there was a couch and somehow this was very usual in this prison prisoners like to run and jump on the couch but we were there first than we can hear the intercom and we hear 'We almost forget to jump the COUCH!!' and the three of us now that we are in trouble but we see a hallway we can run into but also there are alot of couches when the prisoners run towards the couch we run into the hallway and micheal hides in a corner next to the couches so that he won't be run over and I suggest that as soon as the prisoners run towars the first couch we go back into the hallway and run back in the prison Micheal says '' Do what you gotta do' and i decide to stay and hide between two other couches all the time this happens I fear for being stabbed by a prisoner than the prisoners come running towards us we survive but a bold scarry guy lies on the ground behind me and starts talking to me that I should come and fight him I say 'No thank you' and he does a weird flip and is on his feet again I react and hit him but in this dream I have no power he still goes down but when i try to finish him but kicking his face in he doesn't feel anything there is another bold guy who is also trying to kill me but than lincoln and michael jump on top of them and lincoln has a gun and he tells the guy that he has to leave me alone or he will shoot him he doesn't listen and tries to kill lincoln than lincoln and micheal both put the guys in a armbar and than I woke up. It was a really weird dream.

Ps. I'm new to this site so I hope I understand the concept of this forum if not please tell me I'm also new to lucid dreaming en dream recall.

1.
I was inside of a school. I had just entered a classroom and knew almost no one inside of it. I saw one friend of mine and went to his table to sit down. I told him, "hey", and he replied with, "What's up?". I sat down and saw that there was a mexican guy across from me who didn't look very happy about me sitting at the table. We looked at each other. He said something along the lines of, "I don't like you sitting here" basically. I told him that that was a shame because I wasn't moving.
After that the situation pretty much dissipated and we chilled. Class ended minutes later and I walked out. I went down a hallway and saw my crush, Alexandria, sitting on the floor talking to some other students. Because it seemed like every time I try talking to her I get cock blocked by one of my friends, I decided to avoid doing so. I remember a teacher giving me instructions to give a piece of paper to Alexandria and tell her that a teacher wanted to see her. This was after I walked into another class. I walked back out of that class I was only momentarily in and looked around in the hallway for Alexandria. She wasn't there, she had left.
I decided I wasn't going to walk around the entire school to look for her so I went up to one of her friends that was still standing where she was and gave him the paper and told him what was going on. Just as I did so Alexandria came back and I basically just re-stated everything I had just told her friend. She said ok and did what I told her(sounds pretty rude lol but it really wasn't). I started going down another hallway, not sure about what I was doing. All of a sudden, a group of ROTC dudes came around the corner running.
I was going to beat them, I have no idea why I had this urge. I started running as well and ran with them. They ran around the entire school. As I followed them I would have short, super speed bursts that would put me in front of the group. However, we all stopped because some guy got in our way. This guy was no ordinary guy, but a giant. He was around 6-7 times my size and about 8-9 feet tall, maybe even 10. He reminded me of hellboy because of his face but there wasn't much similarity.
Somehow he got mad at me and I started to run from him. I ran around the school again but eventually left it. I ended up in some parking garage. Here, me and the giant both stopped running. He told me, "Ill make this a fair game, but once you fall off, your dead meat." I noticed that we were standing next to 4 or 5 super bikes. The giant got on one and waited for me. I picked out a green bike. I didn't have the keys so I didn't know how i was going to start it. Just then, I turned around and saw a chinese dude, in his 30's or so. He was afraid, and he gave me his keys. The giant got his keys the same way.
With this I started up my bike and rode off. It was pretty easy to control, and I wasn't expecting that. About a minute into riding my bike, my bike turned into a completely different bike. It was now silver and blue and had what looked like stainless steel handlebars. I drove into a mall. My handlebars had never been completely extended so I extended them once I got in. I heard the giant closing in behind me, so I sped up and continued on. As I did so, I went to fast and crashed into a plant. I fell off of my bike, but quickly got up and got back on.
Once I got on my bike I started riding again, but my bike wasn't going fast at all. It was only going about 3 miles an hour and was smoking really bad. I tried my best to get it going but no luck. At this point the giant was only 50 feet behind me. I got off my bike and started running, but the giant was catching up fast. Soon he caught up to me and grabbed me. This is where the dream ended.

2.
I was in math class in school again, but in a classroom I had never been in before. I was sitting down in the far back side of the room when the teacher moved me for some reason. She moved me to the middle part of the classroom in between a group of girls(niceee). The desks were all arranged into groups were 4 or 5 desks were connected together to form one big giant desk. I sat in one of the middle seats and started working on some kind of quiz/test. I looked up from my work and noticed Lisbeth was sitting right in front of me, facing me(Lisbeth is a girl from my sophomore math class last year). She looked beautiful! She was wearing a yellow shirt and I think some skinny jeans. I remembered that she always dressed really nice, but it her outfits were at the same time extremely attractive.
We started talking and ended up working on the quiz or whatever it was together. We shared our answers and what not. While we did this, I noticed another girl sitting to the left of me that was also in my math class before. She had brownish-reddish hair; its hard to describe. Her name was Cassidy, and she was also very pretty as well. I talked to both girls during the class.
One thing I noticed about the class, was that the lights were dimmed and the room seemed rather yellow. There were a few lamps around as well. I forgot who the teacher was.

3. I was in a big open room that had a stage in it. I was with one other friend, who had brought a friend of his along as well. I didn't know the guy and I didn't care to either. When I met him I could tell immediately that he was a jerk. We all sat down in the rows of chairs that surrounded us. "This place is pretty spacious" I thought. All of a sudden, some man emerged out of the stage and started talking to us about what we were here for. Apparently this room was a class, but Im not sure what for.
Not long into his speech, me and the jerk guy started arguing. He tried making fun of me- pretty pathetic. We got so loud that the teacher told us to stop arguing and made ME leave the room. I did, but as soon as I got far enough so the teacher couldn't see me, I hid behind a wall. Looking at the wall I saw that it had alot of faces on it. I regained focus and listened to what that jerk was saying, he was still talking behind my back, and making fun of me. As he made fun of me and now all of a sudden my friend, our faces appeared on the wall in front of me. We each looked a little different on the wall. The entire wall was covered with other peoples faces, but me and my friend's was bright, and they stood out.
Later I went back into the class and stood up the jerk dude. I asked my friend, "How is this guy your friend, he's a complete douche-bag!". My friend agreed, but not out loud. Apparently the jerk dude thought I was his friend(what a joke). I didn't care about that guy anymore, he was only killing my vibes. I stopped talking to him and I think I also left the class.


4. I was in my room, sitting on my carpet floor. Out of no where, a small bug crawled onto my foot and onto one of my toenails. I thought this was gross, so, after a while of trying to catch him, I finally got him and killed him. The bug looked like a small brownish-greenish bean that was a little transparent. I stood up off of the ground and went to my mirror. I started combing my hair and as I did so, loads of dandruff came falling out(WTF, hella gross! btw no I dont have dandruff in real life, my hair is clean). I kept combing it and it would still keep coming out. It was everywhere.
I dont remember anything else of this dream really.

I was hanging out with my uncle, helping him fix a car. These two people appeared and were supposed to do some kind of maintenance work, I don't remember. I just remember that I looked up and there were tremendous, red clouds that were swirling around each other. After a few seconds they turned dark blue, then red again. I heard a loud rumbling and the earth shook. Water came pouring down from the sky and waves rolled down all the streets and everybody ran into the garage for some reason. Cars were floating around me, I just stood there in disbelief. I was all alone at that point when a neighbor boy ran up to me and yelled something that I could barely hear over the torrent. All I made out was that I could come with him if I wanted to. I asked him what happened. He said that it was a combination of secret, advanced weaponry and inter-country trading. I felt disappointed, then I realized that it was just a dream.

I told the boy to not worry because it wasn't real, then i started walking over to the garage. I noticed a giant chocolate shake in my hand, I took a drink from it. It tasted like...an imagined taste that I made up when I was a little kid, reading some book about a giant. A combination of sweet flavors and magic. I wanted to make sure it was really a dream and I hadn't just snapped under the madness of what was going on, so I tried to make a glove fly into the air, didn't work, tried to make paper fly into the air. The piece of paper jumped off a table in the garage and someone caught it really quickly. I took another drink of the chocolate shake, yum. Then I decided to manipulate some of this water for fun. There was a stream of it that was falling from the roof. I made that stream fly into the air, forming a spiral pattern, then I froze it like that. I then looked at a DC of a neighbor lady that was with us and tried to make her slow down, didn't work until I got really close to her but even then I could only slow her down for a couple seconds. I put my hands on her boobs and she got really angry in slow motion. I really wanted to make time stop completely, so I asked myself, "how do I do that?" a voice responded, "you just do it". I made time freeze and I laid the neighbor lady and her daughter on their backs so I could do naughty things to them >: D. I thought for a second about what would really happen if I were able to make time stop and then move things around. I came to the conclusion that either the kinetic energy would destroy the universe or there would be no net energy from the action at all. The dream started to end, time went back to normal. I said out loud, "noooooooo, not yet". Then tried to think of something else to do to switch up my dream control skills. I made a miniature, young Jerry Lewis as the Nutty Professor appear on the shoulder of someone that was in front of me. He was in the full costume with a white lab coat, glasses, and a messed up face. The miniature Jerry Lewis just cross his eyes and said, "OYyyyYyyyyyeeeee". Dream ended, woke up.

False awakening. I hear a loud whistling sound and something explode. I don't even bother to roll over in bed or open my eyes. Some idiot just lighting off a firework in august.
Just as I am drifting back off to sleep, I hear another whistling sound. Then the explosion. It sounds closer this time. My eyes open just in time to catch the flash of light shining in my window. I hear what sounds like a bunch of men laughing. One more I just try to shrug it off and go back to "sleep".
Three times the charm. I hear a third rocket and turn over in bed. I see it go shooting up from somewhere to the south. The rocket burns out and it slows down, then starts to fall. Then the rocket turns back on and kicks it a little more before it explodes into a rather small firework burst.
I look down the street of my sub, and see that it has been my dad along with say, five other men. My vision 'zooms in' and I can see all of them. They are all holding alcoholic beverages with plenty more in a cooler nearby, and they are lighting off the fireworks.

False awakening. It is now morning. My dad is nowhere to be found but my mom tells me she is going to lock up all of our fireworks. She wants me to ride my bike to the hardware store and pick up a lock and some lengths of chain, and she is going to put all of the fireworks into a big metal box.
I ride to the hardware store, and when I get there I realize it looks like any hardware store in my town in WL. I decide to RC. So I pinch my nose. Nothing happens. And, like I always do, I double check. I do the nose pinch a second time. I can't breathe. I ask myself if this situation seems logical, and (well I guess it's not that absurd of a dream plot.) so the entire thing passes my reality checks.
I go into the hardware store, that feels more like a convenience store and start looking for locks and chain. The funny part comes with what this store was selling. The entire front of the store sold fairly normal things. Chips, cookies, pop, junk food. The back of the store was guns. Yeah. All guns. All different makes, models, sizes. A huge wall with containers for different types of ammunition. I look around, and think maybe I could buy a gun. Just one of the really cheap ones. I see a gun on the shelf, it looks like a toy gun, but on the package it reads that it is real. I take it to the register to buy it, and ask the cashier if they have a lock and chain. I then lose the dream.

I am in some world. It looks like a very strange LittleBigPlanet level. I have control over these two characters that are attempting to make their way to the highest point in the world. I start ascending platforms and jumping over obstacles.

Dream - Lucid

I was reliving my past, though it was an alternate version. Honestly, I'm not sure where I was, I just know I was inside somewhere. I was watching the guy that I first kissed, Nick, taking these girls into the bathroom with him. I was jealous because I really liked him. I think at one point I went in there with him, but we didn't make out or anything. He was showing me something in there.

This alternate past went on for quite awhile, mostly it was me watching Nick, wishing he would be with me. There was a brief point of lucidity, though it was hard to grasp. It was like I was having trouble letting go of the dream plot. I finally grasped the idea that I was dreaming, and started trying to do other things, when I woke up.

~

I was in Nick's house, though it was a weird house; it was like a mixture between a house and another location. I saw that Nick was in his room, though I did not go in there. I was in a dark, basement-like part of the building, but I could clearly see the entrance to Nick's room, and I could see the kitchen. We were older now. I had been in this building with him for quite awhile, it seems like years, and he had been in his room for mostly the whole time. I did not see him come out. I didn't want him to see me.

I then had to go in there to give him something. I was afraid he wouldn't talk to me. I believe we did talk, but I can't remember for sure.

I then was "remembering" a part of my alternate past again, though it was when we were older and in college. We were talking and having a great time. We weren't together as a couple, but we were quite close with one another, closer than we ever were IWL. We were sitting on some stairs, just talking and having a great time. I looked into his eyes, and saw him for who he was; his light brown eyes were quite happy.

I then was "remembering" us writing letters to each other. At some point during this, I started to "remember" the past more as it really happened IWL, though not to a T; I wrote him a letter that upset him, and he never spoke to me again. I was now back in the present moment. I then had another "memory" of me in a dark room that was lit with starlights, and it was full of small models of the orbiting planets. There was also a picture on the wall of all the planets that apparently I had made. It looked very realistic, as if it were a computer rendered image or a very realistic painting. It wasn't accurate as far as their orbits went, and I had more on on there than the ones we know, but still, it was really good. It was really quite beautiful. I tried to telekinetically take control of Neptune, which looked like a grey rock with an indentation in the middle. I was not doing a great job at it. As this was happening with the planets, I was thinking about Nick and how close we had been and how upset he was at me.

Then, I was back in the present moment, considering whether or not I should write him more letters, though I was receiving no response. I wanted to write poetry to him, but I then thought about how inappropriate that would be since I'm married.

Dream skip, though the Nick thing was still relevant somehow. I was working at a grocery store, the same one I work at now, though I was not in the bakery, but I was doing something else. I was in a different section. It looked like produce, but was not all produce; there were other things besides fruits and veggies, like rice and such. I was working on setting up a display, when a woman approached me, an older, Asian woman with glasses. She asked me about a bag of rice that she had that was slightly opened. I told her I'd get her another one. I took the one from her and gave her another one. She examined it very carefully to make sure it wasn't opened. The bag was VERY slightly torn, and she noticed. I told her it was fine, it wasn't opened like the other one was. She still needed another one, however. Before I left, she told me she needed a 1-pound bag because the one she had was 3 pounds, and she wanted 4 pounds of rice. She was holding up two bags and showing me how one said one pound and the other said three pound. I took them from her to look, one at a time. For bags of rice, they were extremely lightweight. I gave them back to her. As I was leaving to go get one from the back, she shouted after me
"One pound!" as if I didn't hear her the first time.

I went and found one, I think asking someone about it on the way. I made sure that it said 1 pound on the bag. I went to bring it to her, and she swore it said 3 pounds. -_-'

She then directed my attention to another woman, a customer, who looked like she had chain smoked all her life, who was standing at a microphone at a podium to make an announcement. Only associates were supposed to use those. I saw some smoke trickle from between her lips. She was announcing something. The customer then asked me
"What's your joystick policy?" she asked as if she was quizzing me; she knew the answer, but wanted to see if I knew.
"I don't know," I responded. I had never heard of a "joystick policy" before.
She then directed my attention to an associate, a girl wearing the uniform we have to wear, who was standing behind a different podium with a microphone, but she was standing a bit further a way. The customer asked her to tell me what it was. She started to speak into the microphone, but her voice was no clear at all and I could not understand a word she said. I told the lady I couldn't understand what she was saying.

~

On average, I dream about Nick 1-3 times a year. It's usually something vivid too.

WBTB with alarm and (hence?) no recall - no lucid - but a very vivid dream again, and it took ages. Really ages.


Dream #1: I need a job, like a fast side-job, and got one as helper for a ballet-dancer while they were training and practising for a show. It was a huge production, I wasn't a dancer, but doing her stretching with her, or on her and doing all sorts of stuff for her - carrying her water, basically. It was very interesting - she was incredibly hard on herself at times, one of the choreographers found a bruise on her lower leg, and asked me, if I did that - and I couldn't remember anything - then she asked the dancer, who tried to evade, but in the end it had been me, and she hadn't told me, how it had hurt.
There was a later scene, where I overheard a sick dancer, she said appendix and then something on top of it, pleading with her helper to go on with it, who was of the opinion, that she can't possibly train in her state, she had a hugely swollen abdomen. There were a couple other helpers as well and we were also sitting about and watching, partly. Initially this was to be something for a religious ceremony, but in the end it was a big film-production, where they were the ballet or even more, it was about them, like a musical, maybe? I just missed out on seeing a celebrity make himself known, having sat in the audience of the otherwise almost empty theatre and giving compliments - I wanted to see, who it was, but couldn't leave what I was doing...
But while it was still religious, something disgusting in my view happened - I didn't see where it came from, but somebody put a very little piece of skin into a sort of complicated little shrine with strings around it in a certain pattern and hooks and hoops, and it was supposed to have something to do with circumcision. I suspected it was just some skin, but something came over me, and I opened that up, threw the skin away and tried to get it back together again, which I didn't manage. But I pretended it was a mishap, having opened it, and just got a row on that - but didn't get fired. He found the piece of skin on the floor and put it back in.
One funny scene had another choreographer come in late and saying she had to, because the rest of the catholic drug-addict support would only expect junkies from 2 pm onwards, while in truth they are out early mornings and she had to do her own Christian best instead. Nobody was angry - even while the whole thing was very edgy, very professional.
Not so funny scene had me remember that my mother had stormed off from a conflict and failed to reappear for a meanwhile long time already, and I search and search my telephone in the changing room, planning to ring my half-sister (why her?) - but then decide that I can do exactly nothing now, others are on it at the moment.

Na - that must be enough now.

Fragment #1: Again about this house, and about how there would be a financial crisis in Germany, and everybody having real estate would be well off, everybody selling stupid - man - can I not let loose on this finally - fuuing uncon - get a grip on yourself and move on!!

August 9th, 2014

I went to bed earlier this time and hade better luck with dreams. I had a few though i forget what order they happened in. Im super tired this morning and dont feel like writing down all the details.

+ I was at our neighborhood with by brother outside at night. We were in my front yard not doing much, and i was messing around with a multitool. My yard looked almost the same as it does now, it was a pretty accurate display. While i was messing around with the multitool an car was trying to pull into out driveway. I got out of the way and it pulled in. It had treads on the front tires. Later we took a roadtrip to another house and a lot of people were there. We were busy listening to a conversation for a while. Then we were told to leave and before we good i woke up.

+ one dream i was playing a zombie game on xbox at my friend jakes house and i got down in the game and had to go across the street to see that friend in a white house to tell him to revive my character. The other house was small and had clutter everywhere. I talked to them for a while.

+another time i was at a racetrack and tried gaining entry to a race so i walked down a entry road to the track to ask the track manager but he wouldn't talk to me, i saw the cars start and take off and one car stalled. I cant remember what cars exactly were there.

It was night, I was walking on a street near some grocery stores and electronics as I wanted to spend some of the money I had when I began to realize most if not all stores were unavailable and that the lights were all off. The strange thing about it though was that 1 of the doors were open so I decided to enter it but quickly realize no one was inside. I left the building and continue walking on the sidewalk when suddenly I heard someone yelled zombie apocalypse and once I turn around a zombie was nibbling all over my hand and crutching my fingers. My reaction when I saw this instantly made me become lucid, I quickly said I should've never watch that movie as it brought me in this situation. That's when a FA happen which made me lost lucidity. Another dream happens where I wake up and was searching for my dream journal to write it down but could not find it. However I forgot about it when I realize my flight plane was coming up again so I could meet up with my parents. I was about to miss it so I hurry up but was stop by two guys who seem like they wanted to ask me a couple of questions. They ask me if I had an electronic I responded yes and show them this blue handheld that I didn't recognize too well. The two guys began talking about different type of handhelds and which were better. That's when I began quickly packing my stuff in a case, they notice that I was in a hurry and ask if I was leaving. I told them yes I had to get on a plane and that's when I realize I was forgetting my brother. I ran and quickly left the unknown hotel to where I found Father room out in the open of a road. I open the door and saw a woman dress like a soldier watching tv, I told her she had to get going and if she could help me find my brother. That's when I notice a machine gun in her hands so I approach her slowly trying to show that I was not a threat and needed her insistence on this. She agreed as we continue to leave the room where now the road change in to the living room. I saw my brother and told him we had to hurry as we're about to miss our only flight left for today. But before I could continue to set my intentions on running I woke up.



I wake up in another dream where I quickly realize I was poison as I heard some person in my head telling me all the people who got in contact at that area will die. My Father came in the room and I could hardly move, I try to yell his name but my voice was so weak. I tried yelling for a couple more times but he couldn't hear me as when I would yell it would come out as a whisper. My Father then left as the poison was feeling stronger, I began panicking and force myself to get up and had a very difficult time walking. I manage to get to the bathroom and saw my face. Everything was wobbling so I open the door in to the living room where I saw these two old women. I told them I needed help and to get me to a hospital however the two old women didn't do anything and one began laughing saying that's my life 24/7 so atleast you get to feel how it is now. This anger me so I began running with ease toward them and began choking the one that laugh about me dying telling her if I'm as good as dead then you're coming with me. But before I could finish her I fell down as the poison was too overwhelming , I began crawling on the ground till I didn't have enough energy to do that. I pass out and woke up. Lucidity Time 2 seconds

I'm going to bed now - shamefully neglected to journal my two dreams up to now. Anyway - I made recordings of the hypnosis intro and the recall and lucidity chapters and wake up all separately and guess, I'll go with listening to it for the remaining nights.

I made some sparse comments on tape - this is what is left:

Dream #1: Following the plot-line - sort of - and having characters of 'The Wire', an HBO series - drug dealers in Baltimore and police, politics and press, I'm politics... We're through now, watching it - and besides that somebody going "yo nigger" turned up in my TOTM basic "repeat day", I didn't dream of it, even while watching it at bedtime, half on my husband's pleadings - often kept me off doing LD stuff.

Dream #2: Same sort of thing, in a way - and a rare thing that I dream of posting - but seems from what I dictated that I debated something with somebody on my atheism thread - details? Sorry, not any more...

Date: 08 Aug

Pre bed: 1/2 cup soy milk, 350 mg arginine (combo)

Wbtb: 1/2 latte, felt discomfort due heat which made it harder to concentrate. I tried doing 1-2 ssild cycles to relax, but mostly gave up due discomfort.

WILD: First was a transitional stage of me in bed and my body rotating, as I was trying to figure out which hands I'm moving. Kind of blurry memory here.

This later switches to another scene in parents' old bedroom where I appear feeling rather floaty and unstablish. In front of me are wooden shelves, so I run my hands on the surfaces multiple times to anchor myself. At the same time a glass case catches my attention, where I can see my reflection - averagely normal with something weird lurking behind. As I turn around to see what it is I am faced by my own doppelgänger and she is somewhat aggressive. She throws herself on the ground initially in some sort of a unexplainable act. Then approaches menacingly but I put her on hold - at an arm's distance with my mind.

As I manage my own reactions she calms down and now I decide to look at her more closely and make some manipulations. What if I were taller and she is now much taller. I examine her with curiousity but still have a bit of an after feel of aggression so decide to make sure she is harmless. I give the overly tall DC a hug around the waist and watch as she changes features to a different DC.

Then, I see the door behind her and feel like doing some tking. I look at it in order to will it open but the dream slips away. Back to my body and still for a DEILD

DEILD: I appear on the balcony, the one that looks over to neighbors. Quite excited about being here as this brings memories of past non-lds. There is a guy that pushes me ahead (as to move further, him being quite active) as I examine the neighbors' balcony. The dream is rather unstable at this point but I'm glad to have a companion and cross over to the other balcony where there is some sort of mattress, thinking both of us can sit here for a bit and plan the dream.

Forgot the exact words now, but told him something like "let's talk about adventures" or so and was waiting for him to sit. He disappears in the kitchen (neighbors) but then is back again, wearing the same red t-shirt as I make a mental note (resembles somewhat Michael Cassidy).

My voice is barely coming out as I say the adventure sentence and I wonder if it would count if I ask him about the basic task telepathically. But how is he going to answer? Too complicated and I decide to go with normal speech, struggle to speak but finally ask him.

His reply is "Woof" which sounds as if he is barking.

Me: "Woof?", are you sure?

He: Uhum. (as in yes)

Me: Ok, then. So what does that mean?

He: Hoof.

I ask for confirmation and he gives me another uhum. Oh well. The dream soon falls apart. I'm not feeling quite in shape to deild so let it go at this point and after a brief ld review go to sleep.

Non-memorable dreams, something vivid that forgot and then.

LD: I am near this familiar building. Something clicks and I recognize this as place of older dreams. There was a false memory or thought about the place too. I get inside and decide to experiment with door summons to see where they lead. I open a door - there are two DCs coming out of something that looks like a sparsely furnished bathroom. I don't quite like it, so close the door and wait a bit till it changes to try again.

In the meantime, more DCs appear around me and one of them makes aggressive moves towards me. After an initial super strength outburst, which comes out like some sort of a force push, I decide to chill out and try to calm them down while taking a moment to examine my inner state. I'm still slightly apprehensive of them, so try to control my own reactions and feel more at ease. From the tense situation I work on my indifference, relaxing more and at some point I start walking around freely and making funny zen moves (but not the Xanous move alas!). Don't remember when but at some point the dream ends.


Lucid FA: I wake up at home, the room looking very realistic and bf is walking around. I decide to play a bit stupid and ask him if I'm dreaming couple of times as if I've lost my mind and can't tell that this is reality. He reacts almost normally but I am still unconvinced. There's something in his reaction that is a bit off. "Hey, am I dreaming?", I continue shouting as he vanishes behind the corner. A female DC with a dark red cardigan comes in and then there is no more doubt. I feel a bit euphoric about being able to catch this fa as it felt like quite the thing I would have missed.

Contrary to other times when I have entered the other room, it now turns to a different place altogether. At first I don't catch the clues, but after more examination of the classical wooden furniture, it clicks how this place can indeed be the interior of Howl's castle.

Without any intention from my side, I notice that there is a fireplace to the side and the fire is as real as it gets. It dawns on me after seeing it that it is calficer. I approach the dream fire with astonishment for it is one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. It's not just a regular fire - there is so much light in it, it shines like a little star, while at the same time being surrounded by flames. I feel almost mesmerized by the sight of it and am so happy to have it in the dream.

Spontaneously, I place my hands around the fire and try to absorb some of its heat and energy. As my hands get closer to the little fire, there is slight tension as in heat related sensation but insignificant to dwell on. In the meantime, the fire gets smaller and smaller as if this process is really draining it. I don't want to do away with it altogether so stop whatever it is I'm doing. The thought crosses my mind that I have spent way too long playing around and risk not completing the task because of that.

I face the room and see that the girl is here again. Now she has a pony tail, blue top and and slightly disturbing facial hair. As I approach her, her face clears a bit and I ask her couple of times if she is Sophie, to which she replies yes.
Perfect, now all I need is a door.

There's a small door on the wall that I open, but it turns more into a small window, plus I need to turn the color dial wheel first. I face the other wall where there is a white door and look to see if there is a dial next to it - there isn't. I recall couple of techniques I thought of using in such case, but instinctively pick another one. Bf's DC is just nearby so I ask him to hand me a dial wheel to put next to the door.

He gives me a round knob-like white object that I place next to the door, cover with my hands and start spinning, until the second layer of it starts to reveal multiple colors. Initially it stops on blue, then it moves to orange. I feel like I want to pick a particular color but am not quite sure which one. I rotate it to yellow, remarking to myself this is taking way too much time. Curious whether the outside will be the same as what can be seen through the nearby window (garden), I think it's high time to stop messing with the wheel dial and open the door.

But it's too late - the dream abruptly ends and I find myself in bed, moving my hand and feels like I've lost the opportunity to go back and complete the task.

Sensei's Competition night #12

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I find myself in a room, it is pretty dark but there's not much to see anyways. I can make out an old table with a wooden chair next to it. I don't know where I am and do a nose RC. I become lucid..
I look arround and try to stabilize by running my hands together, I take a few steps but the dream abruptly ends and I wake up.

The next scene is in a forest. The light shines through the leaves and everything is dimly lit. I am calm
and walk arround. It seems like I have a destination but I don't remember where I wanted to go. I remember I was just doing SSILD and do a nose RC. Again dreaming.
I instantly remember my master plan but get too excited and wake up.
(I thought I was past that phase)

I am on walking through some
streets where I live. Again not knowing where I was planning to go.
I decide to walk on the street and notice the lack of cars. I do a nose RC and become lucid..
I remember to ground myself and drop on the floor, I scrub over the ground with my hands, and demand
clarity. The world turns from
kinda sharp to super HD and I am baffled by how realistic everything looks (that was by the far the most realistic dream experience ever!).
II look arround and everything looks like it's supposed to look. I notice that not only my vision is really clear, but also I really feel my body in the dream and feel the wind blowing past me. (I think I woke up then, but I might also have lost lucidity or even lost my memory of what happened then. I think I remember reaching behind me to summon Cobb but that could be a false memory)

I was in a big enclosed public space like a mall and needed to use the restroom. I found the ladies' room, which was a relatively large one with around nine stalls in a single row. I found a stall that was clean and was about to go inside when another woman barged right ahead of me. The next stall I checked had an unflushed toilet, as well as the one after that, and the third one was clean but had no toilet seat. I decided to use it anyway. I stepped into the stall and then remembered, "Wait... aren't dirty public restrooms one of my dream signs? This one isn't particularly dirty but still, I'd better RC." I counted my fingers and saw nothing unusual, then focused on the sensation of gravity and it also felt completely normal.

I remembered the time that I had failed an RC under similar circumstances and decided I'd better make extra sure. So I focused on levitating, really putting a lot of effort into it, but my feet remained firmly stuck to the ground and even the sensation of gravity or my bodily awareness did not alter or feel any more dream-like. So that was how I knew I was awake... until some time later, when I actually woke up, and wondered how the RC could have failed so completely. The gravity RC is usually very reliable, and even on the rare occasions that I don't levitate promptly, I'll notice that gravity or my body don't "feel" right. On this occasion the illusion was perfect!