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July 13, 2014
10:00 AM

Overall rating: 3/5
Vividness: 3/5
Plot: 2/5
Lucidity: 0/5

3mg melatonin before bed

I had 2 dreams but i can not remember the first one but i knew it was good, i recalled it when i woke once in the morning but fell back asleep and forgot.

As for dream 2, me, Bill, Kyle, and dad were walking into a big harbor area with a lot of boats, long docks, and fishing crews. When we forst arrived, it was night time, and we were outside a big walled and gated area. When we walked up to the big doors, they opened up for us showing the harbor. There was a lot of people walking around, shipping containers, and cranes. Most of the floor was wood laid down over the main ground, and over the sea wall and down to ships as docks. We walked straight across from the doorway to the end of the docks where we could see the water 50ft below us as well as some ships getting prepared to go. They looked like fisherman/navy boats but they had huge masts too. We turned right from where we were looking over the docks down a narrower path into a restaurant. I noticed there was a guy working on the mast right next to me at about the same height up. Before we went in i looked down into the water and it was dark, relatively calm, and i could see the boat the guy was standing on. Inside the restaurant, the floor was the same as the docks and there was finally light. We had a waiter bring us to a table. Me and kyle were supposed to get pictures taken there for some reason so we moved over to a fish tank thing to do it.

Dream went kinda blank then

Then we were back at the house, except my friend danny was there too. We were standing on the basememt stairs when i heard my dad and brother get back and then Bill shut the door and locked it in front of us, me and danny were locked in the basement. I told him i knew another way out. We went down the stairs tothe basement floor. It was a finished basement. The carpet on te stairs and floor was white, the walls were white too. And there was relatively bright lights on the ceiling making it light enough to see things well. There was some clutter here and there but not much. My running shoes were on the floor and i asked danny if he needed to borrow them but he said he did not. I was about to open a door into another room but then i was woken up.

Notes:
first dream I had about the ocean since I was on vacation, also the first day I went actually swimming in the ocean, tho i saw it once before. Not only did i swim but i took a moment become aware of everything, close my eyes and feel free floating. Noticed its almost always night time in my dreams. Since i have been on vacation, I've seen the family i have been with a lot in my dreams that i am with on vacation.

Reoccurring elements:
Night time

I believe that when this life is over, we all meet around the same campfire, no matter who thinks they own it. My attitude toward organized religions. From my viewpoint, it would be mine-but only in respect to me being there. It really doesn't belong to me, either.

-The ‘The Fresh Prince of Bel Air’ show was on again. The dad had lost weight and it was mentioned more than once how he’s changed, wasn’t surly anywhere, was cleaned up. Carlton’s voice was kind of high-pitched.

Inspiration: Not sure, haven’t seen it on lately and I never watched it myself.

-Something about fishing and losing against someone else.

Inspiration: Parents just went fishing, maybe that’s why. Fiiish. *q*

-I’m getting a hamster (maybe for someone?). The owner guy directs me to a line and tells me that if I’m brave enough to get some bedding from the dirty cage the person in front of me is holding, I can have one.

Seeing the way I’m looking at it, someone hands me some bedding and I present the toy (yep, it changed). I think that ‘isn’t water more important’?

I’m looking at the hamsters, and they’re gray and all have differently shaped heads, like a hippopotamus and a wolf. :O

Inspiration: Took my sister’s over to her new place recently.

I had a fairly long nonlucid dream ready to go but it faded not long after waking up. Just checking in.

Date: 8 July

Wbtb time but I feel so tired, decide to have 1/3 latte nevertheless and do the wrong wbtb - straight into bed. A few mantras but I know this will lead to no lds as I feel super sleepy. I quickly fall asleep and guiltily wake up couple of times to confirm this is the case but am too lazy to wake up more. I decide to experiment with the third eye as a focus point to see if this increases my wakefulness and focus for an ld. Not really increase in wakefulness but it did serve as a sort of anchor.

LD: The dream starts as I find myself staring at some furniture, while still in sleepying position. One of those moments where you are not sure you are quite in and I concentrate more on the forehead point to get a better grip of the dream, then a bit later start moving my hands, etc. In the beginning I'm gently floating and spinning, it's not unpleasant. I want to make sure that have fully transitioned to this dream.

I think shortly of the location and wonder whether to do a direct teleport but decide against it. I get up, it's grandma's kitchen and for some reason I decide to take the stairs to go outside. I open the door with tk and also close it and lock it with my mind. It's almost as I could feel grandma's presence doing that. I get down the stairs and tk open the locked building door to get out. As I'm on the street I have a moment of excitement and tk lift a car in the air. Also do very short skateboarding down the street slightly above the ground.

My mind is very blurry as I try to remember any tasks for the totm. I recall the DV goal and look around to see if Sensei might be nearby. There's an older teenage boy on a bike with a slightly longer hair that could do. But let me try to get Sensei here. It's a whole street full of DCs so one of them has to be him. I concentrate and think about Sensei, turn to the side in the opposite direction and to my surprise there he is - tall with browish hair, etc. He smiles happily.

We go up the street which turns into a gray building and I decide we will be learning superpowers. I feel that instead of me doing all the controling as in tk, I should try to give the DC more free will and let it demonstrate super powers, while I'm just saying what we are about to do. There is a a pencil like object and I throw it in the air, trying not to hold it with my mind and say that BB should try to lift the object. Before he can react, it falls on the floor.

"Ok, maybe you can demonstrate fire magic instead", I hint. Sensei takes the initiative and produces a large peach colored napkin, unfolds it, throws it in the air and tries to blow in its direction. I now understand what trick he had in mind, he was going to ignite the whole paper with his breath. Unfortunately, that doesn't happen and the object just remains in the air for a while. I feel a bit guilty because maybe I have sabotaged the demonstration by being slow to understand the procedure and didn't put my expectation into it. I'm saying something mid-sentence when the dream abruptly comes to an end.

Non-ld: I have an earlier non-ld where BB is on some other platform online and has organized a dream game where we have to gather pieces of a puzzle.

22:00 3mg melatonin to help reset sleep schedule

23:00 pre-bedtime (intention)

23:20 bedtime (woohoo before midnight, an improvement)

00:00 Wednesday 2014-07-09

03:59

+ long early morning dream:"AED": fAtalistic Eternal Determinants: bizarre interactions with freaky super powered beings, including being required to play Mary Had a Little Lamb on the clarinet (and I don't play clarinet), and a creepy vampire baby/doll offering to make me into a vampire.

I'm in a deep valley looking up at a very high steep cliff where there is a straight-up-and-down-vertical stairway. I'm thinking that noble/royal people travel this stairway (on some sort of a beast like a camel) on their journeys outside of the castle.

Perspective shifts and I see more of the valley, rocks, trees, and this stairway from a different perspective.

Perspective shifts again and I'm hovering DO, I see a huge rocky mountain lake basin in between mountains, there is not much water in the lake, a narrator tells of the water shortage, and I see this is because of a massive artificial drain in the bottom of the lake basin. This basin is a very dangerous evil aware place, anybody venturing there is killed, for example by landslides.

I appear in a large room before 3 beings in white, 2 of them are Tony Randall, one is Jack Klugman, from the TV series The Odd Couple. These are super powered beings. A few others have been summoned with me, and we are required to play Mary Had a Little Lamb on the clarinet. I feel the instrument in my mouth and my fingers on the keys, I imagine playing the piece correctly with my fingers making patterns according to another instrument which I play. Sound does not come out correctly, I remove the instrument from my mouth almost all the way just the tip of the mouthpiece remains and I finally get a sound out of it.

I'm summoned again and one of the beings in white is now in two parts before me on the ground, slowly moving/wiggling, mostly like two large lumps of meat with some hair but is sort of recognizable as a body, I know that the boundary between the two pieces (the axis of the division) constantly changes/rotates, so that the two pieces are made up of different body parts all the time.

Moving in to the next room it is like a locker room but the lockers are screens looking into the world. The beings in white are commenting on something: a procession of some aspect of reality that moves from screen to screen, each time slightly changing and transforming according to their desires, they voice their approval of this process, I'm amazed at their power.

At some point I see a screen/sign with words against a white background, I think it's describing this place/experience, (is it a TV show or reality?), 3 main words like Fatalistic Eternal Determinants, and I think the abbreviation for this is A.E.D.

Back to the valley, there is a fight, a large military naval vessel is in the lake, I have a high hovering DO view, something attacks it and decimates it, most of the ship falls apart like it's been sliced in half, and a black thick stream made up of sailors and machines flows strongly and thickly out of the ship like blood.

Up close scene of one of the sailors, he's on his stomach with his legs crushed underneath a massive stone cube (20-30 feet on each edge), narrator says something like "it's better to be dead than crippled because when you're crippled they'll catch up to you and kill you." The stone block then grinds along the floor over the sailor and his head pops as it covers him, crushing him entirely.

I see clumps of thousands of huge long purple tendrils writhing (and pulling the ship apart?), this is the evil power in the valley. At one point I think you can battle this thing, but them millions more purple tendrils in multiple bunches pour out of the earth and I know it's hopeless.

I'm crawling along some sort of outdoor walkway alongside a large building, it's dark/twilight, I'm paralyzed and don't have the use of my legs. A small baby/doll/creepy vampire being with scary eyes walks by me and offers to make me into a vampire. I'm concerned that this is a bad deal, like it's trying to trick me into a horrible fate, and I ask it several questions like "if I am not happy with this transformation, will you put me back exactly the way I was before?" Each time the thing says yes, so in the end I agree, and I feel the fangs grow in my mouth, I run my tongue over them, and (as I was secretly hoping) I can stand and walk now. I ask the vampire thing if this means I must drink blood now, and I wonder if the white super beings allow the eating of meat.

I'm in an indoor small room with a smaller chamber in the middle of the room, I'm trying to walk through and around this to avoid all the white-clothed beings, because I know they like to cause trouble/mischief on lesser beings, but there are too many of them I can't avoid them so I just walk through, I have the thought that at these higher levels it's very perilous because there are so many of these troublemaking beings. At the other side of the room is a tray with beakers on it, one of the beings is doing something there, I go over and take control, mixing substances together in a small ornate beaker, creating some potion or something, the contents/beaker starts burning/cooking and gets a dark burned look to it, a being is standing right next to me reminding me not to forget something, I study the outside of the beaker and see a flakey/flimsy thing made out of a material like insect wings, I peel it off the beaker (and put it in?). These little things are of critical importance to levelling up, and I think the more advanced beings are blocked from progressing if the things they leave behind are not found, so they make it easy to find them.

05:30 out of bed, can't sleep

08:00 (?) back to bed

12:03

(earlier)

+ Chasing and destroying vampires, jabbing syringes of adrenaline into their eyes, the characters were from Friday Night Lights (Tim Riggins). A dog was helping us track them, we were chasing several of them and catching up to them on a hill.

(waking 12:03)
+ I'm ready to test some equipment in the lab with (Coach Eric Taylor?), my scripts are ready, but I haven't moved them into the proper directory yet. I'm typing at the keyboard and watching the command line on the screen change, I vaguely see the letters.

Long dreaming night, to bed late, slept late, got back to sleep, should have gotten lucid but too tired after trip.

+ skiing downhill at night in a group, at the top of the hill was a campaign sign reading "Americans: we're not as stupid as you think we are!" it's from a candidate whom I think I know

+ playing "hide the USB wireless mouse interface in your ear!" game in a swimming pool with a large group

+ I work hard to recapture our ball in the swimming pool, tons of kids are playing, later it is a flag, I finally get it and victoriously return

+ up close view of a spices stored in a store, mostly hot crushed red pepper, some strange individual slice packing I think is really clever (one of those "you mean *that* was a dream?" dreams, felt very real)

+ The origins of Captain America: at first he's (me) a guy who just likes the suit, I try the helmet/mask on and check myself out in a mirror

+ water is building up in a diamond-shaped cabinet, I rush to get some stainless-steel cook-pots to capture and reach it just as it begins to pour out, it fills up all the pots quickly, I think about siphoning it through a green garden house down to an in-ground water storage area, but there's a guy in there held prisoner

+ in a team of young people/heroes trying to trick the evil witch into appearing, I think she does but the team just stands around

+ I'm on a 3-wheeled motorcycle slipping and sliding on a snowy road, I run into a fence, I try to figure out the best position of the front wheel to counteract the sliding (turned 90 degrees sideways seems best!)

+ arrive on an extremely urgent mission to an important adult figure who just doesn't want to hear it, we should all calm down and eat our dinner first, we start singing in harmony

+ I'm in a small movie theatre as a movie ends, I'm surprised to see about 5 other people scattered around the theatre, we all start doing "raise the roof"

+ something about my parents and lots of food

...and much more that forgot

I was in Walmart and there were a lot of little people around. I bumped into two guys (that I had a head on) who smirked at me. I smiled and moved on.

In the jewelry section, I met a small lady and we ended up talking about zodiac signs. “You could be a Cancer - a crab, or Taurus, a bull. Or an Aquarius, born in September [got this one wrong!].”

She said she didn’t have one because she was born on this one day. I was confused because I hadn’t heard of it. I told her to just pick one, no one would ever know.

“You could say you were a Sagittarius born in December.”

At one point I asked if I could carry her and I did.

Skip.

She had had a secret power, and taken ‘us’ [a bit fuzzy, but a girl and guy pair I think] to a secret place. We had to make our way across land. Some people with the lady thought we wanted to use her powers.

We were cloned [just appearing there) – there was a younger and older pair of us. The older pair got split up, I think. The older guy was being used by this old man while he was in the first cave.

I saw that the place was big (like looking at an area map in a game), full of forests, plains, caves and such. I did not want to have to go through another cave, which was to the far right. I wondered what was at the very end.

Inspirations: I watched the first episode of Sailor Moon: Crystal yesterday and think the zodiac stuff came from that (and maybe the jewelry section) – also, I’m a Sagittarius born in December. The landscape might come from playing Pokemon. I think I recently saw a show with little people on it.

I was looking through one of the manga from the yaoi bookbox I’m doing for BookCrossing.com IWL, flipping through a few pages when suddenly my fingers caught on fire. I dropped the book and found some cloth, patting my hand down with it. The tip of my index finger got it the worst.

When I woke up, I actually had to check my finger to make sure it was okay.

Inspirations: The only thing I can think for the fire part is that on July 4th we burnt marshmallows at a stove outdoors and it was scaring me the way the wind would make the flames lick at my hand.

I had a couple dreams which I can only recall a small amount of from last night. All of them were pretty interesting to me though.

~Dream 1~

I dream I'm at the store with my friends. We are there quite briefly, before going to a baseball game at a very muddy baseball field. We are playing and having a great time together. However things quickly take a change for the worst when we are suddenly attacked. Several gunmen start a Shootout at the baseball field, and my friends and I are the first to respond. We all pull out pistols and return fire. There is a long battle in the muddy field, and the gunmen lose all of their men after a short while. I recall shooting at least two of them in all of the chaos. That's all I recall from that dream.

~Dream 2~

My second dream involved me being in a house. It was my own house in the dream; an awesome two story home with a lot of space. The dream was clearly in the future, probably about ten years. In the dream I am married in the dream, but I have no recall of my wife's appearance. I also had a young boy in the dream. The majority of time was spent with me and my wife playing with our son in his room. My son, whose appearance is a blur as well, was around 5 years old, and he was a very bad listener. My wife was very nice, but she seemed to be wearing the pants in the relationship for sure. I would suggest something, then she'd immediately turn down the idea and suggest something different. I would then agree to her ideas and go through with them. It was very odd. I hope in the future my real wife won't be like this, and I hope my child is obedient. I also recall people stopping by the house later on, but that's the last part I recall.

~Dream 3~

I dream I awake in my friends' apartment early in the morning. Another guys' night has ended, so it's time for everyone to get up and clean the apartment as a kindness for the college guys letting us stay here. We all get up and begin cleaning stuff. I plug in a massive industrial vacuum, and I begin sweeping. Another friend of my mind starts vacuuming, and I get mad at him for trying to steal my job. So we comprise, and he sticks to vacuuming hard to reach places, and I'll do the rest.

I was then awoken, and it was time to clean the college guys' apartment in real life now. Funny coincide of a dream.

I finally broke my dry spell a few nights ago, sadly I barely any of my dream. The only part I recall is doing a reality check by looking at my hands. My left hand was very disfigured, and I became lucid. I sadly don't remember anything else after that...but hey, I broke a near two month long dry spell!

A group of people including me are performing an operation, We’re inside a house stealthily moving around as we take down black-clothed people. When we’re done, I go into the bedrooms to make sure we didn’t miss any adults. I turn the light on and see kids asleep. They’re Japanese. In the other bedroom, the mother is sleeping.

Before we leave, I pause and tell them to go ahead. They pause and look at me before going.

I start looking around the house and things. In the kitchen, I grab a box. I’m looking at stuff on a shelf and see a bunch of writing utensils. I reach over to grab some and the pile shifts but doesn’t fall. I see a golden gel pen and take it before going in the kitchen again.

I get confused as I look down and see my small box and a bigger box nearby, I thought I had moved to that one. So I grab it instead. I see some framed photos of my family (mainly me and my sister as kids) on the fridge and a bit confused, take them down and put them in the box.

I worry the police will suspect us if I do that, so I take the cut out magazine strips beside them to make it look like a burglary.

There is a chainsaw running outside the bedrooms but the inhabitants don’t make an appearance. They appear able to sleep through anything.

I come across some of my clothes. I’m feeling a little befuddled as if things have changed on me, because suddenly this is the place I live [not IWL]. I take a few of the clothes (‘won’t I need these?’). What alibi are we going to give since we live here too??

I go near the right bedroom and hear one of the children talking - a boy. He says, “We can do that later.” Talking about future plans for the day. I realize he knows English from going to school here. I think about my level of Japanese.

I realize I need to get moving. As a leave, I hear them calling for their mom. “Mommy?”

Apparently we had killed the mother. I realized they were calling to her and getting no response, so they would investigate soon.

I head outside where the team is waiting. There are about six of us, including my parents.

One of them holds out some of my clothes, including a pair of underwear, as I approach.

“”We need to go. Now.” I say.

“Too late.” Someone says as the family rushes out from the house. We hurriedly get into the car and start to drive away.

A montage thing whites out the screen of the kids and their father without their mom, as her smiling face floats across the screen. The father had blond hair and the mother auburn.

I think, ‘That’s sad.’

Notes: And then my nose started bleeding and I had to type one-handed. Darn summer.

Journal Entry Lucid # 58 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed. And I meditated after doing WBTB. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I did fall asleep, without awareness. When I did my WBTB I woke up at 2:00 Am and I watched some movie. My parents are getting ready to start the day as always. I then talked to my dad and said to him, "Do you know what is so beautiful about the darkness?" He responded, " heh, nothing darkness is evil", he is a very christian man and only sees one way. Even though I know this will dissatisfy him, but I proceeded, "Darkness gives rise to possibility, only the imagination fills in the gap". He tells me, "darkness is bad..". I told him to look at it a different perspective and maybe he will understand what I mean. He didn't quite understand even though he claims to. Well you get the point.

WILD experience: I had a dream and I awoken from it. I kept thinking about the dream and I began falling back to sleep. I then hear the loud wind again. At first i was scared and the noise started diminishing. And I became sad, but then I resolved to myself that I will do it sooner or later. I stayed still. I felt like my hands were swinging. I felt out of control. I don't know if that was astral body or part of the dream. During all this I could hear the loud wind that was deafening and it got higher in frequency and it felt like needle that keeps getting sharper with the increasing of sound. I thought I can't do this, but I kept thinking about the dream I had to distract me. New images started to form, complex patterns. I could also hear sound now, no more pain. I think I came in with fear though. I hear laughter that keeps on distorting and getting lower in pitch. I saw blood dripping from the patterns. They turned into a pyramid. Then I hear a voice say to me, "Do want to meet our lord, Lucifer?". I thought this is only a dream, and besides I have to live by my words, I say to myself to face all fears. I then say yes. I see a book open and it was covered in blood. My body felt possessed and I squirmed around in the dream without my control.

Lucid Dream # 58, day: 07/03/14, time: 5:20-6:59 Am" Facing Fear:
I am now 180 degrees on my bed, sleeping where my foot should be. I see a clown, a lady clown looking at me, she had blond hair, She had a clown outfit but the colors were a little bit faded as if she has worn them for years. She said, "I am sorry it didn't work". I know it's a dream so I just looked at her. I could see that I am in my room, but it is still a dream. She looked at me and realized that I know. She said, "If you want to explore this place you have to put on a mask". I am still just thinking to myself, "no, mask is a representation of losing one's identity and replacing it with another". With that thought, she said, " okay you have to put on a scarf". She put it on me and told me to follow her.

As we were making our way through an office with little to no lighting. I am looking around telling myself be aware. I touch the desk to feel the texture. I would look at the wall for pattern and I am just occupying myself saying be aware that i am not truly experiencing the dream. The clown lady is standing next to the door like a SWAT person and she open the door slightly. I see a little girl in a bright pink room, looking frightened saying out loud to herself "Be aware. Be Aware." She is walking back and forth. I thought to myself what is my dream trying to tell me, the clown said calmly and slowly, "Calm down". I started settling in the dream. It felt stable. The clown disappeared. I wanted to see how the little girl responds to the change of my thought. I opened the door and I hear a short scream of something fearful, "Rah" and for that very second I felt a cold darkness come over me.

I am scared and I rocked back away from the door. I then calmly told myself to calm down. I turned and started walking away. I pass through door after door in a endless mansion. I started to become scared. I see the walls crumble. I thought to myself without being scared, "wow this doesn't usually happen in a dream of mine, it is mostly stable". I started to walk away. I kept telling myself that I got to get out of here. I see a friend of my sister, KE, and he is outside the house being dragged by strong wind. He tells me that I need him for some reason. I tried to use telekinesis to bring him back into the house. I couldn't the wind were blowing really hard. And objects in the house started to throw themselves at me, a lamp, a vase, etc. I used telekinesis to stop them but they kept coming. I then found a slide looking thing that leads outside.

I see a man climb out of it. Towards the slide and he slides back down. It looked like he is having fun, even though I had hell in there. He actually wanted to come back to the mansion. I on the other hand flew up into the air. It is raining. I felt so relieved and i could think clearly now. I felt powerful. I then extended both my hands and used telekinesis. I created a barrier around me, I want to say spherical but since it wasn't visible and I know there was a force field because of the way the rain responded. The rain didn't touch me. I see myself in 3rd person perspective. I could see the water bouncing off of the shield, it bounced more at the top*. I am viewing first again. Since I could think clearly I thought why did I experience that. I realized the conversation I had with my father, that was one. I also know that I came with fear from the start of my dream.

I told myself If I go out and have fun in the dream it would be preferable, but if I go back I could face a fear that I thought I conquered, darkness. I judged myself and called myself a coward, I agreed that I am acting as a coward at the moment but if I go back and face my fear that is what courage is, to face one's fear. I decided to go back. I flew back to the ground. Just a weird thing I noticed, I saw the clown but now she is a business lady. She started walking with a long coat on. She takes it off and now she is naked and begins to approach the other guy. I just ignored them for I had no interest. I went back to the dark room. And I opened the door. I see a lot of people cleaning up the place. I see Walter White from "breaking bad" with a bandage on his face. His face looked bruised like on season 3 after he beat gust. He was next to a pay phone. He calls Dewey from "Malcolm in the middle". He looked dead at me and he said on the phone with a serious tone, "Dewey (3 second pause) it is done". I then feel my body being dragged at an alarming rate. I woke up.

My interpretation: I think that it had nothing to do with darkness, but since I came with fear in my heart from the start my mind related it to the last things I saw.
I think the whole thing was about me facing fear not the fear of but confronting fear. And maybe the guy having fun on the slide signifies that I make the experience what it is, he was having fun while I wasn't.

*I love mathematics and after thinking about the way the water splashed; I think it make sense that the water splashed more at the top of the force field because the top has the most amount of surface area that comes into contact with the rain. The side would just brush the water and the bottom doesn't really exist. I am just amazed at the details that dream present themselves. It truly is fascinating that something creates without us straining our mind.

I just realized that the clown lady could be Harley Quinn from the comic books. I never knew she had blond hair.

A man stands staring at a building that looks like a factory. It has black bits flying up through the broken up roof. He says, “What happened here?”. The owner is standing beside him. The black stuff happened just before the potential buyer came. The buyer says he will take the place anyway since he already said he would.

There' a scene of children in the building handing a baby with jet-black hair over to him. It fell with a meteor into the building

Another scene of a Middle East(?) man being initiated into a religion or something, one with God. A man with him directs him to do something but the Middle East man is confused. The guide says he might be more conformable doing ‘this one’. He directs him over to a container with some tannish substance in it and directs him to scrape a butter knife over it in a certain pattern. Then the Middle East man starts crying at the experience.



The factory man [Jin Tae-Jin from The God of High School now] is escaping from some kind of law enforcement group that’s after him. He barely makes it into a house. He crawls through the living room, grabs something like a flat, longer blue-ish colored pillow and lays it on the couch. He crawls onto the couch and lies down with his hands on his chest and dies. The group bursts in and starts shouting at him.

I felt like I was there the whole time so it was like I was being yelled at too.

When he was crawling I was wondering what he was doing, because I had gotten a glimpse of his wife in their bedroom beyond having died in the past there, or spent time with Jin on the bed talking together. I thought he’d go there to die, but I saw now that the bed (a big yellow foam) had been pushed up against the wall and the room was bare.

I(?) was going through a bunch of drawers [think I was still in the house]. There were some coins. I thought they might be special and asked if could have them(?). I received a negative answer but took them anyway. There were various clothing bits in some of the drawers. I got sad when I found a doll of my sisters [only in the dream], it looked like she’d been trying to get all the marker off of it recently.

Tags: fandom, fandom: the god of high school, death, religion, children, immorality

Inspirations: I’ve been reading a lot of the ‘The God of High School’ manhwa, so the baby was probably Jin Mo-Ri, the baby Jin Tae-Jin raised.

I am listening to one of my favorite bands through earphones, and take the earphones off to do something else, but the music remains at the same volume. I check, and I am still wearing the earphones. I take them off again, being extra sure that I removed them. Holding them in my hand, looking right at them, the music is still at the same volume. I also feel them in my ears at the same time. I drop the pair I'm holding and feel another pair in my ears again.

My room mate comes up to me to tell me something, but I can't hear her over the music. I take the earphones out, but the music is still just as loud and I can't hear her over it. I focus really intently on reading her lips, but only get part of what she's saying this way. I take the earphones out several times as she is speaking, but the music never gets quieter.

Maybe I'm dreaming? I pinch my nose and cannot breathe. I look at my frame of reference, notice my nose is slightly visible as usual, as well as my face around my eyes. I try to put my finger through my hand, it won't go through. I look at my hands, I have the normal number of fingers: 4 and a thumb on each hand. "I guess I'm just going crazy then" I conclude, still unable to stop the music. I wonder if I am just unable to remove the headphones and am hallucinating my attempts to get them off, or if I am just hearing the music in my head without headphones....

In either case, the music is awesome, so I don't really mind it at all. I sing along for a bit, realizing I don't know the words, I let the song continue. I figured I would know the words if it's in my head, but I don't. I keep taking the earphones out, only to hear the music just the same, and to immediately find the earphones are still in my ears.

A large dog is sleeping nearby. Now it is a horse, the size of a huge dog. It has wedged itself comfortably behind some furniture and wants to get out. I move the furniture a little, and it squeezes through, now in dog aspect again. Turning around, it squeezes back into the furniture, between the frame of a table with no top. It is a large fluffy dog at this point, it lays down, completely comfortable and relaxed. I feel relaxed just looking at it curl up over there.

I wake up and realize I fell asleep with my headphones on, playing the exact same music. Complete continuity from the dream music to the music I'm hearing now.

Maybe I woke up briefly for the RCs, and due to the continuity of music, didn't know I was awake? A crucial element was missing from my RCs however: Truly believing this might in fact be a dream. Instead of this, I was merely wanting it to be a dream.