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Hi everyone,

I call myself Solaetia here. I'm a, ahem, 'middle-aged' human female and I've been interested in dreams since I was a kid. The first dream I remember was from when I was around 4 years old, it was short and involved my dog and Robin Williams in his role as 'Mork' (70's kid) I was playing with my dog when I saw Mork was visiting us, along with my grandma and grandpa. ^_^ The first nightmare I remember happened when I was around 5-6 years old, and involved being sucked into a picture that sat on the nightstand next to my bed, and turned into a cartoon. I began having reoccurring nightmares about bears when I was 12, and they lasted throughout my early 20s, although I still have bear dreams now and then they don't have the power that they once did. I had my first lucid dream at 15 before I knew what they were called. I discovered Stephen LaBerge's book 'Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming' when I was around 17 and I believe that is when my true oneironautic journey began.

It's been a while since I've kept an online DJ (I used SawLogs for a few years back when it was online) and I am excited to be back in a dream community. I feel more connected to myself when I record my dreams. My goals are to keep that up, continue to exercise and advance my LD skills, study and practice Dream Yoga, and to become overall more aware in waking and sleeping life.

Happy to be here.

Solaetia

Comet Visit

I was on a space shuttle bound to visit a comet. This was mostly a white surface, probably inspired by concrete more than ice. I don't remember any sky or starscape, since I was mostly looking at the ground. I came across some small red plants (similar to seaweed) growing in a patch. Finding plants growing on a comet would be an important discovery! Unfortunately, upon getting back in the space shuttle, it turned out that the plants had been put there previously as part of an experiment 'by a PhD student'. (I don't think anyone told me this - as often happens in dreams, I just knew.) Later I went out in deep space and ended up floating out there, somewhat worried about by prospects for getting back. I had a HUD which allowed me to scroll through possible targets, and upon selecting a target, my thrusters would slowly take me there. I managed to select the space shuttle quickly enough to get back before it got too far away, but only after hurriedly scrolling through many irrelevant targets.

I remember hearing some radio chatter between the pilot (a woman), and ground control (male voices), and peering forward into the cockpit. Skip forward to re-entry, and everything seemed to be going well. While we landed, though, I realised the wheels were beginning to smoulder and might catch fire. Suddenly, all of the crew of the space shuttle (including me) were outside sprinting away in fear that it would catch fire and explode. I saw a person or two I recognised from my memories in the crowd. The end of this scene seemed to be inside a very large warehouse where the spacecraft were stored; in the end the space shuttle was fine.

Note: Lately I'd been reading about astrobiology and speculation on alien life. Can't remember any other space dreams off the top of my head.

University Life

A senior member of a student society or 'panel' had resigned in order to make way for a new member, since they thought it would help the new member's career opportunities. They were mostly female and drawn from my memories. After watching this being explained, I went into a side corridor, and I knew that everyone had a small extra room here for 'emergency purposes'. My room was to the left, the first door off another side corridor, containing only a bed. A man came in to repair something, and watching this for a while, a man opens the door of the side corridor. For some reason I get it into my head that the second man thinks I'm in a gay relationship with the maintenance man, to my irritation. Later, everyone gathered outside on a lawn to watch a building's roof (a glass dome) explode. An announcer explained that this is due to its composition of silicon dioxide, which is said to be unstable in our atmosphere.

Note: I've had the odd dream set in a school or university, normally involving very different buildings or outdoors areas each time.

Awful Pixelated Game

I'm walking in the road in a random real-life location, with a skip on my right-hand side (and a lack of cars on the road) as the only changes. Someone is talking to me about a game. It's set with a light blue background, and I may have somehow seen the game by looking into the skip. I think the game may have involved bears or polar bears, and it had these weird low-resolution pixelated graphics, where one of the characters was a sort of blobby snowman marked by one-pixel borders and a face made of a few black pixels. There was nothing particularly good or special about the game (probably better than Flappy Bird), except that a sixteen-year old teenager had designed it. I didn't get why people were talking about it.

Dream 1: Non-Lucid dream fragment. Meesha was rubbing up against my feet while I was in bed & I woke up. She wasn't there in real life & she never does this, lol.

Dream 2: Non-Lucid dream. I went to this apartment & was babysitting a small dog. The owner came home. We were talking & then we heard something coming from the back part of the apartment & these 3 people who were apparently hiding there & they found another dog there that had just been born in the back of the apartment. They were friends of the owner. Suddenly there was a fire in the back of the apartment. We put it out but it had opened up a wall & area that wasn't there before. The owner suddenly said, okay you guys can fix this part of the apartment & you can live there. It was funny.

I listened to a soothing subliminal Lucid Dream tool while I was sleeping & I woke up in a good mood. It actually let me use the WBTB method.

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I used to have very frightening hypnagogic images on a regular basis (along with hypnopompic hallucinations), but ever since minimizing my internet use last October, I've only had a few occurrences and it's not something I've really had to struggle with anymore.

And now that I've overcome that, I've realized, like my sleep paralysis, my HIs could actually be a blessing in disguise: a key to both falling asleep easily (when normally it takes me hours to fall asleep) and lucid dreaming. On Tuesday night after seeing a beautiful HI of a humongous whale inside an aquarium [not that I condone whales in aquariums], I slipped into a false awakening WILD. I was in bed and could see my cat and husband in bed with me, but the room was lighter. I realized it was a false awakening when I noticed I could see despite my eyes being closed, and then woke up.

If I work on this, I could turn seeing HIs and having lucid dreams as soon as I go to bed into a regular activity for me. At the very least, it could help me fall asleep more easily, even if they don't always lead to instant lucid dreams. Now that I no longer have to be afraid of my HIs, I can take full advantage of them.

I didn't have a lucid, just a non-lucid but I totally lost it due to being woke up with a spider bite on my stomach. It hurts & there is a knot but as long as it gets better I'm not too worried.

I just finished reading a fiction book that was really great so I'd encourage others to read it. It's called "Lucid" by Jay Bonansinga. It's in the horror section & is a dark book which was cool.

Non-lucid by vivid. I was part of a team of detectives investigating something that seems like a murder but there was no body or anything. It was like the dream started after the fact. I was with this woman with short blond hair which for me is strange. I can actually remember what she looks like even now. I've never seen her before in real life but she was crystal clear in my dream. We are outside in the eating area of a restaurant which seems to also be off of a square or something because there are many other places just paces away with other outdoor eating areas. We are questioning people & trying to find out who saw what etc. Again this place in itself was very clear to me. Then I woke up prematurely because I was having a bad reaction to something I ate in real life, lol


I recently have talked about all these houses in my dreams & I thought it may be my subconscious bleeding over into my dreams of hating the house I live in & have to wait until I pay it off before I can move. But last night I started analyzing this house subject. For years I would go to sleep & construct this dream house of mine. It's a house I started building years ago almost trying to will it into existence. It was the house I would build if I won the lottery. Anyway, for some reason I stopped building it when I made lucid dreaming an actual lifestyle choice. So last night I started again & my dream that I had was much more visible.

Ok, I finished reading a fiction book called "Lucid" by Adrienne Stoltz & Ron Bass. I enjoyed the beginning of the book & thought it had potential but it turned out to be a book that would have been better represented in movie form & left you hanging in the end. It also did not explain lucid dreaming other than a couple of sentences which was an insult to those of us who actually have lucid dreams.


I did start another fiction book, also called "Lucid" but is by Jay Bonansinga. It seems to be a whole lot better. They have tried to explain it in more detail. Therefore, I have higher hopes for this book.


On a separate subject. I have had a crazy amount of sychronicities lately.

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Wellp, I'm back. Again. Yeah, I feel really bad that I've been gone for so long! I've finally decided to try to get back into LDing. It's funny, because, the other night, I was looking at HowToLucid because I just randomly wanted to get back into the subject. The next day, one of my really good friends asked me if I'd hears of Lucid dreaming and then we talked about it for the rest of the day ^^

Aaaaannnyways, I actually recorded my dream!
Here it is!

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My dad and I went to a school. For some reason we felt like attacking random people, and I ended up doing it. With a.... marker...? Yeah, I thought that was strange, too. But, anyways, I 'attacked' about a dozen people with an Expo Dry Erase marker. I remember attacking an older girl who I recognize from WL, and have always wanted to befriend. I felt really sorry. I also remember that, in that dream, I explored town and traveled on a public bus. Later, the dream shifted into an almost post-apocalyptic setting. I remember having to hide from my math teacher so I could steal resources/weapons from her. I collected quite a few weapons, and I stored them in a Resident Evil 4 style inventory, where I 'tetrised' things around (although I only remember storing a random sniper rifle). Then I think I woke up and attempted a WILD, but drifted into a nonlucid dream. In this dream, I remember running a shop. Well, it wasn't much of a shop, but I was in one of those barber shop-type buildings. A whole bunch of kids from my school (more specifically, boys) came in and out of the building but literally all they did was sit down. I remember recognizing a guy I share all my classes with IWL. The only thing I really did was wipe off the doorknob, but for some reason it had the same feeling as my previous dreams.

Suddenly I was waiting for a train car to arrive on the railing system in a dream world. I looked around and saw people walking about as they did in waking life in similar places. I noticed that there were several tracks leading in different directions in which all the directions seemed to venture out into a similar distance, almost as if they shared the same track but split, if that makes any sense.

This kind of reminds me of my life right now, and how I hold a belief that I have many options or ways to outlook my own life, through meaning and understanding or disdain. I like the first two over the last, except, sometimes I get caught up in my own feelings and I feel like I can fall into an empty void of eternal darkness, and that's just scary, but as time ticks on I am learning to rid myself of fear and old beliefs so I can become one again. Oh, and have better dreams because I have been through quite the dry spell lately.

I had 3 dreams. Non-lucid: The first I woke up from & fell right back into it but it changed somewhat in the middle. Chaining/DILD/WILD. I was on a ship & there were these thieves or bandits. There were a lot of people though like this was a luxury ship yet not a cruise ship. It was like I knew a man in the first & in the second. Same man but I just couldn't tell how I knew him. Woke up to feed Meesha & fell back into this ship dream again. The details weren't all that interesting it just had cargo & some animals & people talking about theft. The man was the focus for me just because I couldn't figure out how I knew him. 3 dreams with the same theme was unusual though.

Throw back from LD4All website.

The one place I've always wanted to go. Venice!

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WBTB Method. When my cat woke me up I used it! I tried my back first but then I turned on my stomach cuz I have spinal issues & it hurts. Took my Meds, smoked a cig, used the bathroom, fed my cat, read about lucid. Then I thought about Venice because I've always wanted to go & wanted it for a destination in my LD. And I suddenly remembered how much I slept when I was a child. I loved to dream. I had a traumatic childhood & I'd suppressed this. I did my meditation & before long I was having a dream about my childhood friends & then it happened! I was on a staircase in the dream & then my friends were gone & I was outside. It was beautiful! The most vibrant colors I've ever seen even in real life & I was on street in Venice! And then I knew it. I knew I was Lucid Dreaming & I consciously opened my eyes. Lots & lots of ppl & color. And can't say enough sbout the color! I could run really fast & I tried to push past some ppl who weren't happy about that & I knew I shouldn't do that so I flew over them, just like that! Easy peezy. And then I woke up... Talk about a rush! ... And I feel refreshed. Like I did a work out & just feel all kinds of happy! I hope it counts cuz that's where I wanted to go.


I mention this one because I always wondered why it was so incredibly different than most of the others I've had since. I meditated & did the flip. At least that's what I call it when you are laying there meditating & you go straight from awake into either a lucid dream state or AP state or at least sleep paralysis. I opened my eyes because I could see through my eyelids & it felt so different like I actually went somewhere. I went from meditating to being in Venice where it looked like Mardi-gras. I've always been fascinated by Venice but not once have I ever seen the festivals that actually exist in Venice which exactly like Mardi Gras. This had details that were extremely vibrant & all the details were very intricate. I remember it just as I would if I had taken a trip there on a vacation. Very Memorable.

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Before I went to bed I was reading a fiction book called "Lucid" by Adrienne Stoltz & Ron Bass. It's about these 2 teenage girls who dream each others life every night they go to sleep but they don't know each other or if the other is actually real. So far, they suspect that the other is real but so far only one has tried to find the other but was unsuccessful.


Very Lucid Dream! I was talking to this older woman & there were other people around & I suddenly realized I was extremely lucid so I decided to ask the woman if she was my spirit guide & at first she said no & then I remembered someone saying that you should ask 3 times because it seems to be a theme that on the 3rd time that things seem to change & you seem to get the real answer. The idea was that dream characters will say they are your Spirit Guide but it isn't true. So I asked 3 times & then I got really really angry because I wasn't getting answers. Then the craziest thing happened. I lost time somehow but I was still lucid. It was like someone was trying to guide me somewhere & I just started losing time. I was very lucid so it was all very strange. I had the overwhelming feeling that I was being watched but not by something or someone sinister. I remember saying I understand everything now. That I know there is so much to our state of being is more than a physical shell. Basically the body we occupy while we are here is a shell with our spirit occupying that space. Also I was saying that there are so many things going on that we can't see. I basically communicated my beliefs about our existence & that of others.... I obviously don't know quite everything but I feel I know quite a lot for someone at my level of state of being. We are energy like everything else & that being in a human body limits us be pigeon holed into thinking only in physical terms. I won't go into all of my realizations of the world we live in because it would become a book, lol.... I found myself flying around in a rage because I just wasn't getting all the answers I wanted but I just kept losing time while my ranting was going on. After this I kept having chaining dreams which included the characters from the book I was reading. Many Lucid Wilds & DILDs but I didn't stop to write anything down because they just kept happening. I felt as though I've been kind of blocked lately & felt the need to l just purge my dreams, if that makes sense. I woke up feeling very enlightened but also left with questions about why I kept losing time. Ironically before I went to bed I was talking to my husband & told him that I've never felt I've lost time during a lucid dream or in sleep. I have had it happen when I was drinking though back when I drank but I know that was just the booze, lol. But on September 18, 1989. I was driving with my first husband. We had just got married that day which is why I remember the day. I was the one who was driving along this river. I was showing him where I used to live & I lost time while I was driving & till this day find that to be very strange.... If anyone has any theories on any of this I'd love to hear them!

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Have slight recall problems and a dryspell due to sleeping schedule changes, still can't get used to it.

I was in this big room that looked like a small gym. I was selling puppies to make money to buy some dentures or implants. I became lucid & started negotiating in my favor, lol.

I woke up shortly after this dream & since I became lucid I tried to go back to sleep but Meesha wanted fed & I just couldn't. At least I finally got a partial lucid. It just seems lately I'm lacking sleep & the allergy meds have thrown off my dreams a little.


I used to breed Bichon Frise's & I am having some teeth issues so I understood the symbolism.

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I was in some competition. It started with teams & then it got down to 2 people. There were food competitions where logic was so out of the window & abstract. It was hard to understand let alone explain.

No lucids lately & I just don't get it. Which is surprising because I saw the documentary "The Nightmare" on Netflix about sleep paralysis & my husband got a glimpse of the kinds of things that I have endured do to sleep paralysis. For me I believe there is something in our bodies to keep us from acting out our dreams but there are definitely other entities present around us all of the time. I would highly recommend this documentary.

I was dozing on on the sofa while watching tv, after coming home from an early morning shift.

The whole thing lasted only split second, but it gave me some "memory". Apparently I used to frequent a cooking chat with 4 others, when I stopped going. And I just now remembered that.

After snapping out of it, I actually felt sad that I stopped going to that chat while trying to figure out if it did really happen or not and why in the world did I forget about them and not go there any more.

Not sure what's going on. Not really remembering dreams. And if I do, they are chaotic, nothing that I can put into words.

True, I sleep less than normally. Going to bed around 9-10pm and getting up around 3am. I sleep better than when I was on midnight shifts, but something is off.

I'm also having hard time getting a morning nap, since I have only one shot at it having only one day a week off.

Too many thoughts in my head, too many things to work out. I kinda know what's bothering me, but I just can't get rid of it. Maybe with time. Or maybe I don't want for it go away. This way there is always hope.

Where are the times of 7 DEILD chains? Happy times.