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12/12/12

Simpsons
I am in a toy store of some kind. I look around and find the store seems to specialize in Simpsons items. I also realize I have no money. But I want to get a present for my friend who is really into the Simpsons. So I find a container of small Simpsons figures and I figure I can help myself to them. They aren't very expensive, and they are small, and the container is on the lower shelf of an aisle in the back. So I dig through the toys and pocket one of each of the Simpsons figures except for Bart.

I am having trouble finding Bart. I keep digging and I finally find Bart. I have just slipped Bart into my pocket when I see the store owner is right behind me glaring at me. Shit. I should've been more careful. He says I have to pay for those. I tell him I have no money, hoping that if I return them and never come back to the store that will be good enough. He doesn't give that as an option. He says I have to work it off. We go to the back and it turns out he has been making pirated Simpsons merchandise. I have to help him make illegal Simpsons rip offs. That or he calls the cops. The fact that calling the cops would be worse for him than for me doesn't occur to me. So I start painting small Simpsons figurines in the appropriate colors. I get bored with the proper colors, and I am painting Bart blue when I wake up.

Once Upon a Beach
I am on a beach. There are a few other people there but they aren't bothering me at all, so I start walking on the beach. It is a very relaxing scene. I soon find I am alone on the beach. The sand is surprisingly soft on my feet. It feels more like flour than sand. I keep going, watching some colorful birds in the sky. I look out over the ocean and see there is one strange person there with me. It looks like Rumplestiltskin from the Once Upon a Time series. I stop for a minute, thinking, then I remember getting a potion from him that was supposed to help with depression. Since it has been an epic failure I wonder if it might have been a scam of some kind. I tell him his potion sucks ass. He says his potion can't possibly work when I want so badly to be depressed. I tell him no one wants to be depressed. He says I do. Otherwise why would I keep bombarding myself with negative comments even if I'm not feeling that way? It's a bad habit. Besides, how would he know about my negative comments? He says if he didn't know before he knows about it now! I just give him a dirty look. He says he has a stronger potion. If I'll stop attacking myself maybe it can work. He takes out a potion that looks like a disgusting black fluid. What the fuck is that? He says it's a concentrated form of the first potion.

He holds it out and then pulls it away. He says nothing is free. I am not in the mood for games. I tell him to fuck himself. He asks if I'm not even going to hear the price before deciding against it. Some prices are very reasonable. I ask what the price is. He seems to think about it for a minute… then says a hair. My first thought is a hare. I summon a rabbit. Not a hare, he says laughing, a hair. My hair. I look around for a bit trying to think of what he could want with my hair. I turn back and see he is right in front of me. He plucks a hair from my head, apparently taking my silence as an agreement. He hands me the potion and slips the hair carefully into a small vial. The potion smells like chocolate. Well that settles that… I drink it… it tastes like liquorish… I hate liquorish… I almost puke it back up. But instead I wake.

~ 6 am

Feelings and ideas:

- Compassion for animals
- A writing
- Mayor's work
- "Calderon"

12.12.2012

Look What You Did To Her (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Apparently, I'm with Wonder woman and Batman, and we're assigned to kidnap a girl who's probably about 3-4 years of age. There's a chariot we have to go on in order to escape, and we have to align it into a door entrance, and close it before the people try to get their child back.

I don't know why we're assigned to do this, but we managed to successfully get into the building. However, the people came in as well, and before I make them try to take the girl away, I stand up, picked up the girl's head.....

I think I broke her in half and said,

"Look what you did to her."

She immediately transforms back to her normal state, and she agrees with what I said. She felt scared and angry at the people trying to save her. But honestly, I think these were bad people.

I can't remember anything else.

Frags:

• "apathy will the next?" [don't ask; I have no clue]

Dreams that didn't involve my girlfriend in the last two nights,
Non-Lucid
12/11/12
The diamond Lake- well not a very lengthy dream but it was interesting. I was in LA and I was a international investor with a full camera crew. Apparently Los Angeles had just had a huge underwater volcano which crystallised the lake with diamonds, I don't know how scientific that is. Me and all of other international investors had a bidding war but for some reason they all backed out and it was just me and the owner, so it turned to a pawn star deal. We kept battling it out but in the end we settled for $12 million which if you ask me is a bargain for a diamond lake

Don't know why I didn't get 3 dreams in a night like the last two nights, my main objective is to remember at least two dreams a night and then I will start infusing lucid dreaming.

12/12/12
The New Bus- from the point I remember I was getting ready to get on my public bus that I take home from school because they don't run a school bus to my area. So I got there and in stead of a bus it was a big iron flying machine and well I walked on and it was even bigger than it looked on the outside. So I went to sit down on these really nice leather seats and they had heating in them and all sorts. The bus driver said lets go and we travelled in style and well there wasn't that much people on the bus but a couple of friends normally its invaded by six formers. So I continue to just go down my road and it reaches my stop and I get off. But somewhere in this dream I remember braking someone's kite, sort of strange I think it was one of my brothers friend.

Also if you have been following my lucid re-boot I am going to start phase 2 soon which is to get back into reality checking

This is being directly copied from my tumblr. If you don't follow my progress with my tulpae, or if you don't know about tulpae in general, parts of this entry may not make much sense.

This post is about a dream I had last night.

First of all, let me give some background information. Last night, Link and I were on the IRC. He was talking with Ashley (his girlfriend, for those who don’t know), and he explained to her how he still wants to go back home to the forest, how he knows he should stay here, how he hoped she would understand (she did), etc. At one point last night, he told her he’d be right back (since I had to go for a few minutes); when he came back, she had logged off. One of the other users informed him that her host had had to go. We ended up going to bed shortly after, but he did say he still needed to speak to her.

Anyway, on to the dream…

I was on the IRC, and I got a PM from Ashley with a message clearly meant for Link.

“I’m so f*cking done…”

I knew right away what she meant. Last night had been the last straw. After all, last time he left, when he came back for a quick visit, she got mad at him for leaving (and not intending to stay). They ended up getting in a huge argument over it, which resulted in her refusing to speak to him. It wasn’t actually too surprising that she’d finally had enough.

I wondered how Link would react. I knew he wouldn’t take it well. After all, she was essentially breaking up with him. Of course, my mind immediately jumped to the worst-case scenario, which I really hoped wouldn’t happen…

I decided I should stop worrying about how he MIGHT react and just show him the message. Next thing I knew, I was lying awake in bed, in the dark, at 2:30 in the morning.

I was SO relieved that it had only been a dream.

(Non-Lucid) My friend Kolby and I were in a regular dream in my cul-de-sac. We had taken some drug that we thought was Molly (ecstasy) but apparently it was laced with something so I started to feel really trippy. My vision was blurred, my world was spinning, and I couldn't really think or move. I was depending on Kolby to carry me to my room so that I could just sleep it off, but I don't know if he was even there anymore. I started to notice that this dream was coming to an end, but I realized it was a dream so I started to imagine a new dream scene. Again, I picked the closest thing to me which is my room.

(Lucid) The dream scene comes into focus as I'm standing to the right of my bed in the lucid dream world. I stare down at my hands, which usually have an A on my right hand and homework on my left hand but are clean in the dream, and start to say "holy shit I'm dreaming." At first nothing comes out, then I say it again and it comes out more clear. If anyone has ever seen the movie Donnie Darko, there's a character named Frank who speaks with a normal voice that has this creepy low voice under it, so when I said "holy shit I'm dreaming" it had that low voice. I didn't really think much of it so I decided I wanted to explore. I walk to my window and opened the blinds. It was daytime, so I levitated down to my street. I saw that there were these giant holes in the hill that leads up to the house across the street from me. I turned left and walked up the hill to my next door neighbor's yard. As I walk by the bushes in their yard, I look up to the sky to see it is looking very real. The sky is blue with no clouds at all, so I start to doubt that this is a dream and is probably reality. I look down at my hands to do a RC by pushing my hand through my palm and it goes straight through, so I conclude this is a lucid dream indeed. I turn around and walk to my garage which is open. I see that all four of my cats are lined up staring at me as I walk into the garage. I see them and laugh, then turn to see my dad is sitting in my mom's office which is in the garage IRL. This is odd because my dad doesn't live with my mom so he's never at this house. His dogs are laying down next to my mom's dogs in the garage, but half of them decide to get up and sprint away from us into the yard. One of them bumps into me which startles me...
And that's when I exited my subconscious.

I'm back at my old home again with a few friends and family. I remember these friends from my past and they would often act like they used to, when I was a very young. There were a couple other kids too like four more others. I spent most of my time with the friend I met back in elementary school. There was nothing entertaining about this dream, I was only hanging around with them and playing what every seven year old's play now in days. Sometimes he would tease me in the dream and make me feel as if I was weaker than him. I didn't mind much. I got frustrated in the dream when him and the other kids would take my stuff without permission. At one point, I take back something that was not theirs. I figured they'd be mad but they weren't. My mother looked at me struggling with these kids and tried to see if she could help, but it was my job to stop it. I felt obligated to stop it. A few minutes later, everyone moved all around the house to find a place to eat their lunch. I was just standing there wondering how my friend and all these other kids got here. And that was when it came to me. I tried to remember where I came from before this happened and as soon as I thought of the dream some more, I now realized it to be a dream. At first, I yelled. Not a manly yell. And then I quickly walked over to the living room, where some of the kids were eating, and right before I was going to say, "We're dreaming!", I woke up. After waking from the dream, I thought about trying to go back in it, seeing how I just woken up and haven't moved yet, but still, I didn't want to see anything creepy appear.

I'm in "Atlanta" (though it looks nothing like the city) with my two friends Bet and To. They are a couple. We need to get to the airport to leave. To starts driving off and as he's driving Bet decides to look up the directions on the GPS. He's driving north and it does look like the way that we came from the airport. I know that it is the wrong direction though because I saw the airport on the other side of the town earlier. We only have 45 minutes before our flight so I start to argue my case. They don't agree so I stop arguing. All the while, the GPS is not working properly. I'm dropped off at the boardwalk that is suspended over the city. It is the outskirts of the city with not many people and many storage buildings. I walk over a yard of drone aircrafts and I think it strange that these are out in the open. I thought their technology was secret. I think about taking photos but instead keep walking. I call up Bet and To and they have left me. I say it's okay and I mean it. I call my sister who has an apartment in the city.

We go to a petting zoo. The zoo guide lists the names of all the animals that are available for petting. They seem normal enough but at the end his voice changes tone and he says, "and a tiger!" I'm scared expecting a big tiger to walk up. Instead, a zookeeper emerges with a baby tiger. He lets us pet it. I'm angry at the zookeeper because he is not being gentle with the tiger.



I have a fragment of a fish tank scene, where the fish are sort of competing with each other. I have a feeling it was an interesting dream but cannot remember much.

I'm in a house, which needs to be renovated. Some guys, three of them, do that job. they say, that the whole electrical system should be remade, and for that, they have to take down the clay coverage. But instead of paying a guy to do that job, they will hire someone, which can do that than. And then i notice, that the whole roof truss is loos, i can move it from side to side, and the house bends with it, all the doors get skew, and i realize, that the wood arbor, which connects the house with the truss, is broken, the worker say, that they have to fix that as well, and i'm thinking about the best ways i can immagine to do that.

Heeeelp!!

I am almost locked out of Dreamviews.

I can only post to Dream Joirnal from this phone.

If you make any more changes I will be as bad as BANNED.

Please Help

also I havn't been able to see new dj entries on front pahe or the newest threads or the newest posts. Its boring.

I hpe chat works. if it does I'll winge on chat. Hope someone sees this

square stress ball

dream opens with me in last day of a (country) junior primary school.

I walk and sit by pool dangling my legs in water.

Time to go home. I pick up Thick slice of brown heathy bread, my mobile smart phone, 2 more smart phone that two school friends acidently left behind (I will get the phones back to them when I see them.

Then mum's hand picks up just the circular-dial mechanism of old land-line phone (the only phone mum ever new) but it's broken and she puts it down again. She doesn't relate to what I call a phone.

Off school premises, near transport home, there is a nice cage with my pet in it.

I put my hand in, to encourage pet to trust my hand and come onto my hand.

The pet becomes a square-rolling stress-ball (grainy stress-ball filling). It timidly rolls upto my hand and away again a few times. Then it rolls onto my hand and I gently tip my hand so it rolls off a few times.

Mum wonders why I do this. I explain I don't want to frighten my (stress-ball) pet. I want it to know that it is free to be with me only if and when it chooses to be with me. I dont want it bullied.

then it changes form.

It lunges toward my arm. It is a Smiling chessire cat but it is fast asleep and much slimmer than the Alice In Wonderland Chessire Cat and its Siamese brown.

I cradle the sleeping cat. It keeps smiling. But it won't wake-up. But that is some how lovely (EOD)

This dream is full of symbols:

My Tulpa is my (spiritual) stress ball. Treat Tulpa right and it lunges at me (playfully-suprisingly) to invite me to sleep and dream with him in Wonderland.

I'm outside, in BDU's and I'm securing a parameter. I can see some scientist looking at something right next door. This other guy and I are guessing what could it be. We sort of come to the conclusion that it could be radio active. I jokingly state that if it is, I'll go next door and grab something to eat since the fridge is probably lined with lead.

My feet are hot, so I take off my shoes and socks, and eventually some other soldier calls me over. I told him I'd walk over when I got my gear back on, and he made some response about being a lazy LT.


I'm at some huge congressional meeting...I think it's all democratic, and the speaker of the house is there. She opens up the floor, but for the most senior people. After someone speaks, all the people in the crowd have mini uproars like they're a bunch of yes men. Meanwhile someone asks me to do a multiplication problem. It was something in the 400s maybe times 80. I want to say 450 x 80. Anyways, I couldn't figure out 8x4 for the life of me for some reason, and just asked another DC. She was like "81" and I said it can't be, because 8x10 is 80. I asked another one, and they said "45", and I did the same thing. I was so mad that I forgot the number when I woke up.

I'm in a hotel in Vegas. Some military people are with me, but I'm not in....we're just relaxing. My room mate bursts into the room, and I said "hey, you better be glad I wasn't jacking off!". Some other guy enters, and I head off solo. There's an AVN awards show going on, and I show up. (fun fact: I showed up to the hotel where this was going on in RL before and was like WOW ALL DEM FAKE BOOBS, but I didn't recognize any of the girls) I sit down, and they announce the winner for some scene, and her name is "Miss J" or "Dr. J", or something. Anyways, she's this one softcore porn star that I never caught name. Black hair, green eyes....nice rack. That sort of thing. I was happy that she won, and I tried to remember her name. I walked off after that.

This is going to be my first DJ entry of my latest lucid dream attempt. Because if you look at my previous posts, I last posted about a year ago
And as you can imagine I eventually got tired of trying to lucid dream and I gave up

But this is my new attempt, and I know I'm going to become lucid this time. And I think it's mainly due to the fact I've just been more motivated recently then I
have in the past. A great example is how I'm working out after MANY years of being a lazy piece of...

Anyways, Now on to the actual dream


Also a little side note, I use a timer when I go to sleep now, So I can have a rough estimation of when I wake up
(Doesn't take account of the fact that it takes a while to go to sleep :S)

Zombie Cops - 5h after timer

Me and one other guy (Zach - my IRL friend) were outside a hospital. It was the zombie apocalypse and we needed a car. We saw some kid with his mother walking towards the carpark, so we took off. We sort of ghosted them for a bit . I could tell the kid knew we were following him. Anyways when we got to his car we asked for a ride. I think he assumed we were friendly. He let us in but instead we shot his mom (We had mac 10's) and wounded him. He then was in some sort of drugged up state. Forgot what happened next but we ended up at farm. At this point we had a police cruiser somehow. Anyways we're in the farm chilling on the couch with the kid and a police officer shows up. He asks how we got the car. I said something like "It was abandoned" and he was like "What do you mean?" Then I explained how we like found it in a haunted town or something, and explained something about a bunch of mantras. That when combined look like

☼²Æ↨D îa}{`
YOUNG or LOVE ----- Essentially the word Young and Love with weird symbols ontop.

I forgot why but he then started inexplicably dancing and me and Zach we're trying not to laugh, but in the ended busted out in laughter.

I also remember it feeling... Sort of real.


Anyways that's all I can remember for now.

For my very first night of keeping a dream journal I was pleasantly surprised at how much recall I had. Not only that, but having fallen asleep focusing on recalling and writing them down really worked, and I even had the wherewithal to write at 3am the first time I woke.

1. I was at my parents' house, as were a bunch of my extended family and even Auntie Mara was there (IRL Mara passed away 3 1/2 years ago and I hardly ever dream about her, which is actually one of the reasons I want to learn dream control, so I can spend time with her in my dreams). Logistics needed to be dealt with for this gathering, which required a trip out and I was taking care of that with Mara, who was driving the car. She was being very sassy and flippant and it hurt my feelings. I started crying as I said to her that I was being helpful and didn't deserve to be snapped at and she agreed with me, adamantly, and obviously felt bad for making me cry.

2. I am with others, not sure who or how many, at some place semi-industrial and there is a mini baby elephant that wants to cuddle and lick my face out of love.

3. I'm in the back seat of a giant, classic wood-paneled station wagon with a girlfriend of mine that I've known since we were teenagers, although we are grown, the age we are now, and her mom is up front driving. We are looking for someone's house. I am having difficulty speaking and I say "I don't know why, probably because I grew up in one, but there's something comforting about a neighborhood built in the 50's/60's." And then her mom stops the car and to our right is a huge house being remodeled and behind it and between it and the house to its right is an amazing view of Puget Sound/Lk Union/the ocean. Not entirely sure what the body of water was, but I could see a bluff of land way out in the distance beyond the water that clearly had the Space Needle on it.

If you read this, you must be bored.