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I dreamed about using the magic system I'm currently designing for my novels. I used it to hide it from people who I knew that had betrayed me (not sure what the context was). I teleported behind a stage curtain using my visualization and logical sequencing that I've been working on; I can't remember if there was an incantation or not. But there should be once I finish it.

I also flew. And I made windows in walls to escape from when they didn't previously exist. It was the night and very beautiful. At one point, when someone was trying to harm me, I used my magic and his hand went right through me. They were convinced that I was about to die, or possibly a ghost. It was super cool and pumped me up to keep working on it!

INT. SEMINARY - DAY

I walk down the hallway at the graduate school where my father teaches. Two or three other people pass me. I look an old man in the eye and realize I'm dreaming. What to do with my lucidity? I know, I'll look for Jesus himself!

ME
Show me Jesus!

But he doesn't come. Maybe he's around the next corner?

I'm waking up and I instinctively jerk myself out of sleep.

In waking life I've been listening to Bart Ehrman's audiobook, How Jesus Became God. Next time practice some stabilizing techniques and try to stay asleep.

Paul Rudd’s coming over for a date with me. I’m serving up dinner for the family: fish and chips, sweet corn on someone’s plate, another plate got a cup of tea but it’s inside half a lemon or is half a lemon/lime, maybe that’s uncle Michael's. I put the plates on the floor of the living room, so we can all sit together. Paul arrives. I put our plates so Paul and I will be next to each other. He disappears off to the loo. I realise I haven’t started eating, after several minutes, though others have almost finished. I go get a plastic fork and start eating. After one thing, I eventually go for a second thing and notice only one prong is left on the little white fork. I show Jesse and Paul, and giggle. So yeah Paul comes back during that time and he says he wasn’t able to flush properly and sorry he took so long but that’s why(?) and also sorry but he’s left something in the toilet. I look to Dad to explain as I start to say “sometimes that toilet..” or something, not really sure and/or not wanting to be the one to say. Soon Paul and I go off somewhere to be alone and have our date properly.
There’s Paul and me and another person, like blind Jenna from Pretty Little Liars. We’re on a hill, near a little waterfall, and there’s a wooden fence like for a sheep paddock. Maybe Jesse is there too, at some point(s). Before too long, things are going wrong. Paul doesn’t seem to be enjoying himself. Granted, I’m 20 and he’s 50, and I’m sure we both knew it would be weird. But I’m making an effort to enjoy myself (actually no duh I’m automatically having the time of my life iTS PAuL RUDD) and to help him enjoy himself, but somehow things don’t go smoothly. I just remember getting to the point where he was (or they were) offering me/us (me and Jesse?) a plastic case of little bags of nuts and like things, and I was suspicious from the start and trying to read the labels but they looked normal and I couldn’t see how they’d have injected anything bad into them - the bags were whole. So I tried to at least be polite and not let on, until he said something about having everyone we know die or have something happen from eating those, and that was of course the last straw, so I/we argue back to him/them, and at some point not too long later Paul and I are talking about what went wrong on this date and we’re talking about starting over and I think we wonder why I’m being so optimistic and forgiving or why or how we reached this decision and I say maybe it’s because I’ve been trying to make it work, not giving up - or something like that.
So we try again. We go the other way from the house this time, walking along a grassy part near a river. Things go well, and he actually likes me. At some point I link my arm through his - my right, his left - and ask him if he’s having a good time. I just love being with him, and like knowing he too is happy while with me. When I link our arms, he’s noticeably a lot taller than me, the top of my head coming up to about his shoulders, perhaps a tiny bit above. I’m looking up at him. At some point we must be talking about how we’re having a good time this round and I say it could be because we’re going the other way, along by the river. The river is just nearby, in the background, behind us. We are walking along and up a bit, the long-grassed ground is sloping gently.
We’re in a building, like quite a fancy house, carpeted, upstairs, quite a lot of space, and lots of people there, for an event like, a party or a convention. From some point we know it’s [our annual summer camp], but not at first I don’t think. I'm with Paul at first, and maybe Jesse and/or others too, and then Paul crosses the room through the crowd and I quickly look after him and try to follow where he went, before he disappears. He no longer looks like Paul, he’s now an older, shorter, wider man, with white hair, a black blue and pink horizontal-striped t-shirt, or that’s how I imagine him because he looks like someone you’d see like that, someone you can’t easily imagine without a fanny-pack.
Then I remember we're looking at a house, and I'm excited because Paul and I have decided we're going to buy it, we're going to get married and live here. I'm so happy and excited and content with everything. We're about to say we want the place but just before us another person says they'll take it. Oh well, we think, we can find another place.

When I woke up from this dream I was genuinely very sad that I was not with Paul Rudd. (

Had 2 dreams both lucid.

I was in an upstairs of a house not the most familiar one. Maybe ldings house. There was a pc there looked like mac aio ones with large screens. I realize I was dreaming and ask R who was there "you know this is a dream?" and looked at me weird. Solved the rubicks cube at the end.

Next

I was spinning around in a large cylinder. I come out and I appear to be in a school. Lucid. Looks like the elementry/hs one bc. I looked around and found a girl from hs. I think her name was Sarah. She began spinning something she had into the air just levitating in the air. I had some dvds that I was holding. I tried spinning it but had some doubt and it was reflected and fell. I tried again with more oomph but still had a little worry it worked but crashed against the second floor and fell. Dvd broke. Dream giving me a plot apparently I'm suppose to be dating in the 90's setting.

Notes:

Little prophetic regarding mac

All dreams recalled were lucid! Hurrah

Update with more info if needed. Two long dream. Short ld

Hero group, air balloon. Magic travel with ?? To Pizza place . Something super powers.

Wake

One more dream here trouble recalling now. It was long something to do with friend and mall.

Wake


Laid still trained like last 2 days got HI. Saw vision of amusement park and b became a dream

walked down University road. Scene change to hospital hall dark . Lucid now. Look behind me bright and fuzzy. Look front getting fuzzy. Touched wall and got clear, also licked wall for good measure it was grainy. Tried touching floor too tried to lick but woke. May have focused too much (vision single spot) and broke rem.


Notes:

Should replay dream in head instead of writing if feeling lazy.

Progress is excellent.

A few weird dreams last night. I've been trying MILD to launch me back into LDing, but I've gotten nothing yet. Haven't been repeating the mantras enough, probably.

First dream: I get really mad at my parents because they won't let me play with toys (which makes no sense because I'm 25 lol) and I was building with Legos and a toy globe. I said something akin to "I don't want to live in this world anymore" and they flipped out. I...really don't know where that dream came from ._.

Second dream: My journal says "veil vs. not" and I'm not sure what that means. People were changing appearance/personality -- also don't know what this means. Black metal vs. pop with cats (on posters, I think?) -- I vaguely remember this, probably because I was looking at the Dark Lord Cat Facebook page shortly before bed.

The last line in my journal for last night says "We all started hearing his calming voice deep within our thoughts." I don't remember what that means, either, though I do have a vague recollection of it happening. Creepy.

I am at work when I notice a shorter, pudgy blond boy holding a shirt and standing right by the mall entrance. He is sort of obscured by the racks of clothes, but i still see him conceal the shirt somewhere on him and then exit. I know I’m not cleared to stop people by myself, and I don’t know where Lainey is right now, but I run after him anyway, feeling that it is justified. I go up to him and just tell him that he needs to come back. I let him lead, staying pretty close to him, noticing how young he looks. I ask his name and he tells me. I ask his age, and he tells me something like 13. I think about how old kids are looking for their age these days. At some point a girl has started walking with us, like she’s with him. When we get to the door, I tell them to put their bags and phones up on the desk. I recover the merchandise, hanging it on the wall. There are Nike sweats, two things from Pink, and something from another store. Now, there are three 20-somethings sitting in here, in three chairs facing the desk. They have grabbed the paperwork and are filling it out themselves, nonchalantly. The guy in the middle is even reclining and has his phone set up and playing a video or something. I take it and set it on the desk. Now, it is the boy and girl again. I look over and notice the girl playing a game on her phone. I hit it out of her hand, saying “Get off your fucking phone, I’m not fucking kidding.” Now, it seems a little later, and I’m being invited into a house by a slightly older looking Nathaniel’s dad. I get the impression that the two earlier were Nathaniel and Beatrice and he wants to talk to me about it. He plays a tape or recording and I hear myself saying what I said earlier and hear the phone hit the ground. He politely tells me that he thinks I was being aggressive. His mom is here now too, and I tell them that I’m very quiet and so I have to try to be more assertive. I tell them we never try to be mean to people there, that we tell everyone it can be easy and we want it to. They seem understanding. I also tell them that like half of the people we get are homeless and that it’s saddening.

I am in what looks like a large fitting room (sort of like one in the Levi’s fitting rooms) with Dad and Makayla. The lighting is dimmer and the back wall is encompassed by a mirror and a bench. We’re standing at the entrance when I, recording on Snapchat, throw a sock into the room and watch as it is thrown back before it even hits the ground. I throw it a few more times, the same thing happening each time. Now, I seem to be on a roof of a building, on a long ledge. Dad and Makayla are down on the ground. I am asking ‘Charlie’ to reveal himself and actually bracing myself for it to happen.

I am in what seems like a large, dim room. The building seems industrial and empty/abandoned. There are only a few others here. They are doing some sort of bomb test. I think I ask someone if it’s a hydrogen or atomic bomb. I think they say it’s a big bomb, but not that big. Now, the bomb (that looks more like a grenade) is being throw from the other side of the room to over here. There are actually two of them, and they land in a corner/inlet to my right. There is a wall between them and me, but still I panic a little. They then detonate with a much smaller explosion than I had expected. The explosion looks like mostly black smoke in a sort of mushroom head. After a moment it sort of goes off again, sending a powerful wave of aftershock. There are people against a fence on the far side of the room; I watch as they are violently thrown up and against the fence. I go look at the location of impact, finding two small craters. The bottom is bright yellow orange, like it has turned the ground molten. I think about sending a Snapchat of it.

I am climbing at what looks pretty much like Basecamp. I boulder around, and it feels pretty easy; I feel strong. Granted, I am only climbing easier problems, but I feel in control and unfatigued. It seems uncrowded and also a little bigger than it really is. I start a red taped problem on a slight overhang. I start with both hands each on a hold, noticing that the hug my right hand is on is the only starting hold. I don’t really care, since I’m just climbing for myself. After a move or two, a dyno is required to get to the next hold. I come down instead of attempting it, not feeling quite ready for it. Though I probably could do it, I don’t feel committed. At one point, I am making up my own route, using side pull slopers and heel hooks and small holds with ring/rung features (almost like handles). I now try a problem that starts low on a triangular feature on a slight overhang. These small, yellow holds are loose and move around when I pull on them, so I come down after a move or two. A girl comes up and nicely explains that she needs the holds to not be moved, to stay exactly where they are. I think it occurs to me that she must currently be setting this, so, feeling a little bad, I tell her I am sorry and wouldn’t have climbed on it if I’d have known. I now climb up a short problem on a pillar. Now, I am by the rope walls, which really aren’t much taller than the bouldering walls. There are about four groups climbing next to one another, very close together. An older couple comes up and asks if I can belay them or something. I give some excuse not to. They seem a little put off, like I was obligated to or something. I’m not even sure it’d be safe for me to belay right now it’s been so long since I’ve done it. I do go over by the top ropes and start moving one. It’s so close to the pair using the one next to it that it gets tangled in their rope. I get it free and put it back, a little surprised that I can still tie the figure eight (albeit a little too short).

2019, 05-07

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream - Notes

Note: I just has the longest and most epic dream I have had since forever! I took a melatonin pill last night to aid in recall and I have been reading dream journals here and thinking about dreams, and I think it is really helping! At least it did last night!

I am at school. I am in a computer class and we are dividing up into groups. Allison is in the class, and a couple others that I know. I am wanting to be in Allison’s group but she ends up forming a group with others and I am left out, so I end up getting placed in a group where there is still room. I don’t know anyone else in my group and I am not happy with it. Class lets out and we all leave class. I am upset and I avoid Allison, but a bit later we both end up at a pool that is at the school. I was going to get in the pool but Allison and her friends are there. We get into it, we have some pretty heated words, it ends up with both of us really pissed off at the other one and we part ways.

Later on I go to bed. I start dreaming. I find myself walking down a path at night that looks like some kind of fantasy forest. There are over-sized mushrooms that I think look like fairy houses and there are strange lights glowing amongst the trees. I think this fantasy world is not real, I must be dreaming. I do a nose pinch RC and I can breathe while pinching my nose. I become lucid.

I now remember the argument I had with Allison and I feel awful about it, I want to find her in this dream and make up. I continue down the path, now I am calling out to Allison, hoping I can find her in the dream and apologize for my part in our earlier argument. I want to say I got more upset about being in a different group than I should have and we can’t all be in the same group so it’s no big deal, I said things I shouldn’t have. I get no answer, but I find a town. I fly over the town, calling Allison. There are people in the town looking up at me and pointing and talking. I keep flying and calling, looking for Allison.

I fly over a larger city. I see a big display screen that’s showing the news. I get close enough to hear and I realize I am the news. The reporter is talking about the woman flying all over the place looking for her friend Allison and anyone with information should call in immediately. I keep flying and I see someone waving to signal me. I fly down and a woman says she saw Allison. I follow her to a theater that is dark and empty except for a few people. Allison is in one of the seats looking as upset as I feel. Her other friends are seated around her glaring at me. But they don’t interfere when I go over and sit down beside Allison and apologize for getting so upset. We make up and have a friendly hug and then I wake up.

But it was a false awakening. I wake up in bed and sit up. I start talking about the dream to record on my iPad that I have set up with a voice activated recorder. I record as much as I can remember and then I stop. I rub my sleepy eyes and then my itchy nose. Then I notice that even when I had my nose pinched almost shut while rubbing it I could still breathe freely. I do a full nose pinch RC and I find I can still breathe. But that can’t be… am I still dreaming? I repeat the RC and become lucid as I realize I am still dreaming.

I leave my room and I find my mom on the front porch of our house. She is just watching the birds around our bird feeder. I tell her that I am dreaming. She doesn’t believe me but I tell her I can prove it by making us both fly. She decides to humor me and let me try. We walk over to the stairs and I help her into the air. We both fly away from our house. My mom is amazed and now believes me. I fly with her down over the city, though the city is much larger than the actual city of Tucson where we live. My mom looks at a billboard that shows an advertisement for a live action version of the anime series Voltron. She seems interested in that so I tell her I can give her a better preview than that. I fly with her over to a tall building and we land on the roof.

Once we are on the roof I walk over near the edge and yell, “VOLTRON!” The sound of my shout sounds like I just did a thu’um as done in Skyrim, it is extremely loud. And then the five lions arrive. The black, blue, green, red, and yellow lions fly in from different directions. I take my mom into the air again to get her the best possible view of the formation of Voltron. All five lions come together and Voltron is formed. The huge robot clearly has my mom impressed, which surprises me. I had never thought she would be interested in Voltron. I look at the advertisement billboard again. It lists the names of the pilots, but they aren’t the same pilots as in the anime. I specifically notice that the pilot of the blue lion is different, though it is still a woman.

As Voltron seems to be showing off I see something else going on. A giant robeast version of Freddy Krueger has arrived on the scene! I land on a building with my mom where we can see what is going on without being in danger. Voltron engages the robeast Freddy Krueger in battle. The fight goes for a bit, but then it looks like Voltron is losing! Voltron forms the Blazing Sword but Freddy knocks it aside! Freddy is laughing and knocks Voltron down into some buildings. Voltron isn’t getting up.

I tell my mom that maybe I have to stop Freddy because an actually dreamer has to do it, an element of the dream won’t be able to do it. I leave my mom and fly towards Freddy. I use my voice sounding like a thu’um again, but this time I say, “I have the power!” I transform into something that looks like She-Ra from the old cartoon, but I’m too small! I repeat the thu’um “I have the power!” several more times, growing larger with each repetition. Now I am equal to Freddy in size. I am ready to fight him now.

I go over to engage Freddy in battle. We grapple for a bit, I push Freddy away from me and then fus him right in the face with one loud and powerful, “FUS RO DAH!” Freddy flies backwards and crashes into a couple of buildings, landing not far from Voltron. I go over to the fallen Voltron and pick up the Blazing Sword. Freddy gets back up and comes at me, I fight him using the Blazing Sword as a single handed sword. I have him retreating, he is trying to block sword attacks with his finger knives and it isn’t proving too effective.

Now Freddy backs off a bit, he seems to be trying to connect to the dream around him with tentacles that look like those of the daedric prince Hermaeus Mora from the Elder Scrolls games, the tentacles are grabbing onto and boring into the dream world, changing it into a nightmare wherever the tentacles touch. I take flight and cut the tentacles with my blazing sword as quick as I can to keep him from transforming the dream. When I have cut all the tentacles I fus him again and this time while he is down I run the sword right through his chest where his heart should be. This time it works, and he lets out a loud cry of rage or pain or both before he turns to dust. I am looking at the huge pile of dust when I wake up to my cat’s meows. I am annoyed at my kitty because I’m afraid she will keep me from remembering the dream. I do a quick nose pinch RC to find I really am awake this time.

I was at hschool with my friend steven. We were hanging out and I met my neighbor Tony. We ended up scheduling like a fight, like a cage fight of something. I realized I wasn't that prepared so just walked around tried to find people to train me. We went to a mall and ended at the mall cafeteria. Eating foods and there were some indian people there. My wallet or friend's was missing. But there was only visa in the wallet so all was ok.

Replay scene. At the mall cafeteria. While asking around for the wallet, the Indian people were a group of elite assassins and were out to get me? Get away from there.

next

I am in a classroom connected to the school before. We went on a school trip to the nearby spot at the north with a mountain. People were skiing and having fun. Back to classroom. We had to play a terrorist/cop kind of game with the class split in each team. What we had to do was write down numbers on a sheet of paper, indicating where each person would go to and where key items would be placed. I was on the tero team. The teros would go first, writing down how many people they would place on the left/right side like 1:4 or 3:2 sort of thing and then the cops side would look at them. The cop side would then decide to counter the number of people to put on each side as well.

So my team decided to put it as 3:1. Our plan was to lure them into the 1 side and bomb it or something. After everything happens things are just confusing and it looks like it didn't work as I thought it would.

-probably influenced from playing counterstrike from long ago

I woke up

Listened to some monroe stuff again fell asleep though. Woke, tried doing same things as yesterday and just tried to relax after that and see images. Saw plants again. Practiced seeing HI while twitching eyes. Moved to the side after twitching the body too much. I moved on my back again, in a broken tree pose since that felt very comfortable.

AP

Got vibrations. I focused on it and it got stronger. Things weren't looking too good though, I had doubts and I was familiar with the sensations, it was getting stronger but felt like one of those that wouldn't work.

Then I had the bright idea to move my eyes around in circles. I believed that maybe this would induced an artificial REM.. And it worked! I just jumped right out of my body (gravity slightly too light when landing on floor). However vision was not there. Part of me was uncertain if I was in an AP or just really did get up. I walked around with my eyes closed, rubbing hands to try to see things. Did not work though. I walked around the bedroom and somehow knew where I was going. I was by the door and decided to hop a little. I felt that gravity was off, slightly too light. Walked back towards the bed, rubbing hands again. I jumped against the bed and did a half back flip onto the floor. Pain, but slightly off. Then I was back on bed.


Notes:

I probably should have touched the floor or the wall. That helped me gain vision last time.

Circling/rolling eyes is very interesting. I need to try this again! Try this when doubts arise or try it next time when vision is not there. I think it might just work. Maybe do this when dream is collapsing. To create an artificial REM?

Date of Dream: TUE 26 MAR - 2019



Dream No. 567 - A Simple Chat

I can’t remember much about this dream at all. The only thing I can remember is that I was chatting to Edward (Ed) B in some unknown setting, he was wearing a black hoodie over his base clothing, with the hood over his head even if it wasn’t raining.



Dream No. 567
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: SAT 23 MAR - 2019



Dream No. 566 - Voice Actor Sleepover

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was at my house and there were two voice actors from America staying over. Edward (Ed) B ended up having my bedroom and so I was sleeping in the front room. Kevin M had another room that doesn’t exist in real life. There was one point in the dream where I was in the kitchen of a distorted layout. Ed was about to come out of the bedroom as it was apparently morning but I was nervous about this. I didn’t want to see how scruffy and disorderly Ed would look after such a long sleep.

The dream was trying to tease me as it kept quickly switching back and forth between me and then Ed who was trying to wade his way out from under my sheets. There was eventually a quick snippet of him and he seemed to be wearing an orange high-viso construction vest over his outfit. Both now in the kitchen, I was making something but I ended up getting slightly upset as Ed was insinuating that he didn’t want to try my food. On the other hand, Kevin, who wasn’t in the room, was emitting this energy that suggested he was really keen to try my cooking.

Later on in the dream, it was just me at home. My dad was now making something in the kitchen and I think it was with some salami, some cream sauce, and basil. I asked why he used the ingredients he did and he said that the basil was to cool down the salami and the sauce. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 566
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 22 MAR - 2019



Dream No. 565 - Beachside Rendezvous

I don’t remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was on some unknown beach when Edward (Ed) B ended up approaching me from the distance. He was wearing a red short sleeved t-shirt with black pants and white shoes. We ended up greeting each other with a very quick, informal hug. I don’t remember anything else that happened in this scene.

The next scene was later on in the dream but still in the same location, Ed was no longer around though. It was some unknown African man that was talking to me and he was mentioning something about these three people who taught Dutch at a high school. He mentioned two of them with a title of “Brother” and other of “Sister”, I have forgotten their names. The third one mentioned was “Brother Ed”, so apparently Ed was one of the ones now teaching Dutch at this high school. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 565
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No