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2019, 05-02

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream - Notes

Note: When I have video game dreams they tend to be long and detailed, which is one thing I like about them. I also seem to be very slow to realize it's a dream and not a game, which is frustrating.

I am playing Skyrim VR. I am starting a new game, I am riding in the back of the cart with Ralof across from me and Ulfric to my right, but I look to where I expect Lokir to be and instead of him there is a woman. The woman is glaring at Ulfric like she would really enjoy gouging his eyes out and feeding them to him. I am surprised to see the difference, I think there must be some random factor to the fourth person in the cart when starting a new game. She tells Ulfric she won’t kill him until he begs her to. Ulfric completely ignores her, not even looking at her. Ralof tells her to watch her mouth when speaking to Ulfric Stormcloak.

The woman briefly glares at him, then she sees I’m staring at her. She turns her glare on me. I return her glare, giving my best effort at a Vegeta (Dragonball Z) glare. She says if I even think about getting in her way she’ll rip off my face and wipe her ass with it. This strikes me as funny and I start laughing. She looks confused. I ask what her name is, she says her name is Varlin, and I’d better not forget it. I tell her she wins, and as soon as I learn the three word fus, she has won herself a place on the top of my list of people to fus off of a cliff. She looks at me strangely again, she clearly does not know what a fus is. Ulfric, on the other hand, is now looking over at me, but he can’t say anything because he is gagged.

Varlin returns her glare to Ulfric, who is still staring at me. I say that knowing my luck Alduin will eat Varlin, denying me my fus. And then Alduin will probably die from eating something that nasty. This earns another brief glare from Varlin and Ulfric’s eyes get wider. It sounds like he tries to say something, but then looks frustrated and growls, still staring at me. I want to know what he has to say so I stand up, and even though my hands are tied in front of me, I reach to take the gag off. A guard riding beside the cart gets closer and uses the blunt end of his spear to push me away from Ulfric, making me fall on the floor of the cart on my ass. He says if I try that again it won’t be the blunt end he strikes me with.

We get to Helgen and everyone gets out of the cart. Varlin immediately takes action. She has somehow freed her hands. She moves lightning fast and snatches a sword from a guard, and before he can even look her way she has run it through his chest from behind. She says she came to kill Ulfric, but now she wants to kill me first. She seems to think that will be easy since I’m still tied. I really want to fus her. So I do. I let out a full three word fus, “FUS-RO-DAH!” right in her face. And it works! She is launched backwards into the stone wall that surrounds Helgen. I have surprised myself, I didn’t think I could do that yet! A glitch? Nice glitch!

General Tullius arrives with Elenwen riding a horse close behind. Tullius asks what in Oblivion is going on, some people say Varlin killed a guard, more say Ulfric shouted at Varlin, and others say I shouted at Varlin. Tullius looks to where Varlin landed, but she is gone. He then looks at Ulfric, then at me. My cool down for shouting has finished, so I tell Tullius I have a message from Thorald Gray-Mane, and the message is, “Fus you.” He looks puzzled, then I fus him in the face. Now Tullius flies through the air and crashes into Elenwen, knocking her off of her horse. The two fall to the ground in a heap, they land in a pile of poop just dropped by Elenwen’s horse. I start laughing. This glitch is too fun!

These changes don’t delay Alduin’s arrival. He swoops over the tower and breathes fire. People start running, my ability to shout is no longer important. Tullius gets up and starts organizing a defense, all unarmed and bound prisoners make a run for cover. I turn towards Alduin and let out a fus. It does little more than surprise him, and he replies with a blast of fire. Ulfric grabs me and pulls me towards cover, his hands are free and his gag is off. He says if that’s really the World Eater, Unrelenting Force will do nothing to him. I think Ralof is the one who is supposed to come back for me, not Ulfric, and I ask where Ralof is. Ralof is on my other side, he says he’s right there and all three of us go into the tower.

Now things follow the normal path from Skyrim, notable differences being Ulfric says he has to make sure the other Stormcloaks get out safely, but Ralof will make sure I get out ok. And he wants to talk to me more, but that will have to wait. If we don’t see each other again here he will be in Windhelm. Ralof comes out the hole in the wall with me, at no time did I follow Hadvar or even see him. On the way through the tunnels under Helgen and out the back way I am completely fus-happy, these are people I’ve never gotten to fus before. The Imperial Captain who orders the player be executed even though their name isn’t on the list got fus’d repeatedly until dead. I follow Ralof to Riverwood and into his sister’s house where I collapse on a bed. That start was new, now to take off my VR headset… I’m not wearing one? Does that mean I’m dreaming? I never even get to RC before I wake.

I keep getting back into lucid dreaming and then falling out of it whenever things get too busy. This is bad. I am really trying to be more consistent from here on out.

I used to have such good recall. last night was faint, and I recall two nightmares: I had a dream about a creepy guy and his daughter, apparently. Then, I had another dream, this one about a playground for all ages including adults that was haunted/menacing. It was loosely similar to the current horror novel I'm writing. It's cool to have nightmares about your creative work; hopefully that means I'm actually creating something spooky. (:

29/04/2019

This was a great night because it was the first time I recalled 4 dreams, for me this is a new record. the first two that I'll write were more vivid and longer than the other two.
I think that happened because I was on holiday and I slept very well in my own bad.

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Pee problems

I'm a boy, it's night and I'm at home in my bathroom. I'm standing in front of the toilet with the urge to pee but I can't, after a wile I try I start worrying about my health, so I call a doctor to come and help me.

A doctor arrives with her white coat on, she has brown and wavy hair that falls over her shoulders.
She gives me a pill that should solve my problem, I swallow it and then I sit down.
the doctor look at me in a strange way and asks me if I'm okay, I tell her I'm fine and then I fall to the ground unconscious.

I wake up a few seconds later and stand up, now I'm a girl again, I'm myself again. I go to the bathroom and pee successfully.

I wake with a start thinking I have wet the bed, fortunately it didn't happen.



fighting a dragon

Me and another boy are fighting a red dragon under the supervision of a magician who can be Gandalf the white (yes I watched the lord of the rings that night).
We are in an enclosed place, it looks like an artificial underground river with a vaulted concrete roof, the river that flows below un and laterally a raised platforms where you can walk with side exit.

But the battle with the dragon isn't real, because every time we made a mistake in strategy and the dragon defeats us by growing us away Gandalf save us and brings us back restarting the fight from where it ended, giving us the opportunity to find a new strategy.
It's more like a workout.

the other guy and I are hanging by chains at the riverbank while the dragon, breaking through the wall, has come out by one of the side doors.
I start to the eight and to the left until I get high enough to kick the dragon on his head. but it wasn't so effective because the dragon kick me in return and I and up on the other side of the river.
the dragon himself, snapping, comes to save me before I touch the wall and Gandalf tells him: " I was taking her ".
but now the dragon had grabbed me and brought me back on the other side to resume the fighting again.


cuddles

I'm at home sitting in my room in front of my desk, it's evening and in front of me there is my little white budgie hanging out on my desk.
at certain point I take it in hands and start caressing him, initially he screams and wants to run away, but after a while he understands that I don't hurt him and he relaxes letting himself being cuddled.
I put it on the table and continue to do the scratching behind his head.

then I take it downstairs and I put him in his cage with the other budgies.



secret agents

I'm a secret agent and I'm on a mission with another companion. it's night and we are dressed all in black, we are almost invisible.
we are in a place that seems a construction site and we have to sneak into a cubic building to steal something but it seems to have no income.

Teeth shaking or falling out in dream

-signs of growth or stress

I saw a businessman funding a film and he got a cameo part in a kung-fu zombie film. He was pretty good at his role except He didn't watch movies so he didn't know what zombies were.

End

I was at a neighbors house and the roof were leaking. I walked down went to basement to avoid rain and found friends there. There were only sweets like rice crispy kind of stuff there but I wanted salty food. We hang out a while and I go upstairs again. I talk to others about something maybe complaint about the food.

-perhaps telling me to eat less sweets? Or telling me to eat more sweets lol.

Next

I dreamed of a girl who was looking for her dad. Her mom left them so the dad tried to keep her entertained. He made these arcade like games for her to play. But she wanted to find her dad though. So she kept clearing different games to trace her dad's footsteps.

She met some bad noble. He was trying to violate her with his authority. She's also a noble but no dice. 2 guys shows up before it escalates too much. They had a unique sword skill and one on the left introduced himself as the student of Gen. The one to the right was also his disciple but they didn't know each other just coincidentally met and began to talk to each other on the spot.

Next

Road trip on country roads of USA and the greenery and mountains. Reason? Was looking for something.

-perhaps memory of long drive
Next

Something about discovering untapped potential. Or attaining it.

Next

Was trying really hard to get lucid in dream in kind of limbo between wake and sleep. I think i realized I was in the dream but I was nervous about the time so woke myself up.


Notes:

Relax, so I can stay in dream when I get aware l.

**I should try to meditate first thing in dream. Times when I did that I had multiple DEILDs. Probably puts me in a really good state rest of dream

Also need to be calm and realize I set the alarm properly, time is just dilated in dream and you have the time.

Ate coconut oil right before reading about it on forum. Perhaps good for dreaming.

Grc meditate mild shadow work remember

Sometimes, I slide into REM very quickly. People say that this isn't possible, but it happens, so.

I was going through an art tutorial, and fell asleep towards the end of it. Only for like 5-10 minutes. During this time, I had a brief dream involving being rescued by a lady from a body of water, possibly a pool or an ocean. My memory of this is very faint, but it definitely happened.

Fascinating stuff!

Well, it's been a few days. and I keep not remembering non lucids. So it's time to log some I had today. I had to take 2 melatonin today just to sleep in the afternoon. (I work nights)

netflix and what?

Just a brief micro dream while falling asleep of me and Jamie in my bedroom. we are lying on my bed, which is too small for the both of us but we are trying to manage. We are picking a show on netflix. she is using a remote. IRL I use an xbox controller.

crazy ass Castle.

I'm in some abandoned houses. There seems to be a whole district of them! As a lover of abandoned places I think i've struck gold. After exploring a few I notice some extremely shady homeless people nearby. I remember i'm on a mission or something to find a castle. I go outside and it's right there across the street. It looks really evil, it is really glossy back. It's also surrounded by a black glossy fence that looks like it would cut you if you tried to go over it. I cross the street to try to break in. but then I notice some women with black angel wings guarding the fence They are all dressed in black, and in Gothic sort of makeup. Every 20 ft or so another girl is posted. I avoid a mean looking one to my left and decide to walk on the sidewalk to my right. Another fence materializes on the side by the road, so I am walking between two fences. The blond gaurd comes up to me, She had a clack spear but doesn't threaten me with it. She asks in a friendly way where I am going. I say I am trying to reach someplace else. I was lying. She warns me not to tread further. She seems nice though and we start having some conversation I can't remember.

Suddenly I am back in my neighbourhood talking to Jay, my neighbour telling him about the place I found. He mentions the abandoned district and says That's a very dangerous plave to explore.

Transitions I am in my house in a different bedroom. There is a younger woman there and I have my arm around her. She seems to be my girlfriend in this dream.

Transitions again and I am in a basement with my old co worker Jeff. We are watching UFC or something on a giant 80 inch TV. I ask him when he got an 80 in TV? He laughs and says he doesn't know.

Transitions again, I seem to be back in the town where the castle is. I seem to live close by. Jay asks me to go into his abandoned house or something to retrieve something. I go but can't figure out which house it is. I walk further to catch a glimpse of the abandoned district again. Then I turn back.

Back in my house now and my dad is there. I am supposed to get a screwdriver or something for him. He tells me to look in his bag. I check the one he asks but all I find is clothes. I go to tell him this isn't the right bag, and it's here my alarm wakes me.

I did not sleep very much. Yesterday's meditation time was different than usual. That could be the cause or more likely I wanted to know the ending of a book.

Had very short micro rem.

Had only a little time left to sleep

I saw a scene in an auditorium or gym with people huddled together. Looked like a high school announcement in the gym. At the end of the row apart from everyone else sat a guy. He didn't seem very special or anything but all the other students were crazy about him. I felt or just read their thoughts and they belived he was really amazing badass. Truth is that he wasn't people just randomly believed in him.

His back story was that he just ended up in bunch of circumstances that caused misunderstanding for everyone. Around here I remember I gotta get up soon so I decide to wake up.

-I'm not sure if i was lucid, I was just aware that I had to wake up. Would I have been more lucid if I had more sleep?

-I believe the guy in dream was incubated to a story I read a couple of weeks ago. He had a similar story.

-the wanting to wake up was incubated from right before sleep. I probably could have incubated something else much better and turn it into an enjoyable Ld.


Notes:

I reached this higher frequency of buzzing in my head by focusing on it. Felt interesting could be beneficial. Or could have overdone it before sleep.

incubation time still fast.

Need to lay more still

Feeling like I'm more confident about Ld in general



Always lucid dreamin

Regular Dream - Semi-lucid Dream - Lucid Dream

2019, 04-30

I am in a small house that must be owned by a troll. No one else could stand to live in such filth. The place smells like something crawled in about a week ago and died. It makes me think I might vomit. I see movement. But surely nothing could live in this filth... I see a strange cat come out of the shadows and meow. KITTY! The cat is scruffy and has two extra legs hanging from its abdomen, but being the HUGE cat lover that I am, I see the beauty in any cat. And its little smooshed face is still cute. I get down and approach the kitty, reaching out to stroke it. The cat's fur is matted, this cat needs a groomer, but the cat purrs. I hear a voice behind me. I look and see there is a person in the room, an old woman. She looks like the old crone disguise used by the evil queen to trick Snow White into eating the poison apple. She looks puzzled and says Musty doesn't usually let anyone pet him. I say I have a way with cats, I love every cat.

The old woman soon says, "Put your clothes on for your father's sake!" and I realize I'm naked. That seems odd, so I pinch my nose to see if I'm dreaming. I can still breathe with my nose pinched so I know it's a dream. I quickly put on my clothes. Now I'm ready to leave. I head for the door, but the old woman says there is one more thing we have to do. I ask what that is. She comes so close to me that I can smell the stink coming off of her, she smells like she's the dead thing stinking up this place.

The woman fiddles with a gold coin as if trying to hypnotize me. She whispers something in my ear about cutting my hair off after having sex, then she laughs. I ask her if she's gone mad, why would I do that? She gets mad at that and says maybe she should send me back to the mayor blind, deaf, and dumb. The parts Mayor Thorin values would still work. I say maybe I should fus her into Oblivion. She gives me a puzzled look, "You'll what me to where?" She then says that sounded like a threat and I'd better watch my pert mouth before I really rouse her anger. She is trying to sound angry but I think she just feels confused as to why her hypnosis failed.

I leave the house and I lose some lucidity, and the angry woman slams the door behind me. I look up at the stars, taking deep breaths of the clean air. I look back at the small house as I am about to leave and I see a weird pink light inside a window. I peek inside and see the old woman holding a glowing pink crystal ball. The light actually makes her look young, but I can sense the malevolent negative energy coming off of it. If she uses it too much it will consume her, or maybe it already has. I now want to rescue the cat. I creep back to the front door and ease the door open. The woman was looking at the crystal ball in her bedroom so she doesn't see. I lean in a little and quietly call to the kitty. The mutant cat comes over for pets. I gently scoop the cat up, making sure not to accidentally hurt him. I close the door and hurry down the path with the cat in my arms. I am trying to think of the best way to introduce the cat so that I can keep him when I wake up.

1. Just playing minecraft with my brother, we have a little house and then my brother leaves, Then I start building this giant minecraft factory that come from a variety of mods, when Im finished other people join the thing and it gets less minecrafty, the factory now looks like a real factory although I still claim the extra land I used to build it on. Now theres a lot more people and a whole scenario going on, my family is there and other people that i dont even know but they work there. I go outside and look over the edge of a cliff and see the vast cliffs like the grand canyon, I see holes deep down where other houses are and its amazing, I couple times I fall of the thing and that feels pretty good, I die a couple times there although I skip the parts I hit the ground for some reason. Then I go and show the factory to my mum and we go downstairs where the lounge is and she begins about something that I want this stuff idk lol, then she starts playing the piano and she plays it like a god.

2. Something about a giant tower I now live in from EMT some organization for college students and we play "real life" league of legends there, I go into the battlefield and we fight, then retreat and I still sneak around a bit there.

(I havent played those games in like a year)

Lacking rem again, likely sign of good meditation and grc.


Lacking rem for big chunk of sleep. Listened to hemisync to relax then try to sleep once more.

Spy

I am a student of sort in the beginning of the dream. Eventually I'm at a hospital/lab that I think is a research center.

I'm a spy, and I'm trying to recover some secret files from this place. I'm sitting in front of a computer with a very large screen, maybe 30 inches size or something. I think it's located in France. I'm stopped by a girl and she brings me somewhere. I faint? I end up in a hospital room and the girl was there with her twin. They were controlled by bad people and were trying seduce me to foil my spying mission or something.

Wake

I go back to sleep. I'm at the room with the computer once again. I find the girl there and I recall the details from previously. I think I'm lucid? I wanted to re-do it properly. I understood that she was forced to play this role and I just directed loving feeling towards her. Trying to send some kind of telepathic message to undo her brainwashing. I think it got through and she understood me.

Wake

-Being like a spy thing was related to an audiobook I was listening to "Celestial Prophecy". It was about a guy who went to a foreign country to discover a manuscript containing great secrets.

Mini AP

I was back on bed. Just laid there a little. Felt some feeling but did not expect much. My sensation of touch was separated from the body. Didn't have vision. Just left the body and walked a few steps. Perhaps had a little bit of worry that it wasn't going to last and it

Ends


Notes:

I tried sending gratitude to the food. I chewed it very thoroughly unlike before as it was described in the book. Fully aware and immersed in the process of eating. When I chewed the piece of pork... Tears began to drop. I Felt the life force of the animal... I was just so grateful. Thank you. I chewed the beans, its texture and complex flavors that melted in my mouth that representing all the minerals within. Thank you. The vegetables bursting with juices and vitamins thank you... I ate less, yet I have never been so full. Thank you for your life. Is this awareness or mindfulness? I'm... changing... being transformed?


Just be
Always lucid in every dream.

I'm in a school of magic, something like Hogwarts but a bit different. we live in a castle surrounded by nature and we sleep all together in huge dormitories above hammocks attached to the wall.

We have a lot of subject to study, like spells, transformation, other things, and one of this subject is lucid dreaming. I am very bad at it and in fact I found myself talking with my teacher about it, she is a middle aged woman, thin and tall with blonde hire.
I'm telling her that I want to drop her class because I can't do it, but she tells me not to give up and that soon I will became as good as the others and even better. after hearing these words I found a new motivation.

Later that evening I go to sleep in my hammock.

I dream of being seated in a field and in front of me there is a goat that makes strange cries while it loses its teeth, and I have cuts all over my body that light up with fluorescent green light.
I'm very scared and I wake up screaming in the previous dream.

Now I'm in class with all my class mates, we have to collect money to do something, there is a lot of confusion and it is not clear what we should do.
when I understand how much money I have to give I invoke some little bats, I give each of them a coin and I let them fly to the girl who was collecting the money. it would have been impossible to give them personally because she was surrounded by all the other guys. Once the bat's task is over they disappear.

​I feel like I'm lacking some rem. Perhaps due to intense grc and meditation. Probably a good thing, had this feeling when I was having pretty much daily LD. Listened to Monroe tape again, pretty cool for relaxing and things saw some visions. Almost ld I think but need a little bit of "touch" sensation.


Hell to Heaven

I was listening to the monroe tape and after I bit I began to see and feel freaky stuff. I saw a spiderwoman or what you'd call an arachnid in front of me just exposing its hole I think that were used to weave webs. I'm looking around and it's pretty dark and things are fleshy but dark. Is this one version of what people considers hell? I pondered for a moment and realized and remembered that heaven and hell are one and same; They were both the thought responsive environment that would grant all of your immediate thoughts and I began to direct my thoughts. I tried imagining an angel and saw a being with some feathery wings but it went back to the previous scene.

-I believe I thought about spiders in bedrom or something that might've contribute to the initial scene.

I am trying to visualize something more serene, and I began seeing clouds,, but the whole sky was filled with grey clouds. The clouds were intenstine shaped and not a trace of the sky could be found. I willed the sky to be clear and slowly lights began to part the clouds. Starting from the middle the clouds began to dissolve and You could see the magnificent warm yellow light leaking through and giving way to the peaceful baby-blue sky. It began to become pretty realistic but ended here.

-heart felt very clear afterwards

Cyclops Barbecue

I was listening to the thing again.

I found myself in a forest all alone. Nobody else was there. I decided to summon 6 of my strongest and most loyal warriors to the spot. I created a blueish wormhole and they emerged out of it. We immediately engage some enemy. I forget whether it was a beast or bandits but I stopped it with my index finger and flicked them out of the picture. After the engagement I told my party I wanted to find my body. We began searching for my body and I saw the vision of the side of a rocky mountain. Brown-yellowish boulder mountain, likely high in phosphorous or sulfur, I'm not a rock specialist though! We fly towards my body.

It was covered in a large crystalline thing or ice. About 10 feet tall and a little less wide. Wasn't sure what to do but I decided to touch the crystal and I end up back into the body inside the crystal. I break free and I'm free! Feels so good and wonderful. We decided to go explore another world. I summon a portal once again and we head inside.

It was another foresty area, a little more jurassic like with giant animals. Wasn't sure what to do, I unconsciously summoned gotenks from the DBZ universe through the portal. I tell him we're trying to hunt something so we can hold a BBQ. He agrees to help us and quickly comes back with a dino beast! We begin cooking some of the meat and I give it to the now separated gotenks. They have to go back to their world now so they take some BBQ and leave through the portal. I wanted to make a hot plate for the meat and I grow a boulder out of the ground and slice a slab out of it. We fire up the slab and put a thin slice of the meat on top.

The dino meat had the texture of chicken, however its scent, richness and taste was more akin to that of pork. Delicious, light and tender yet wholesome. We enjoy BBQing for a bit and I wanted to summon others from my palace. Might be too dangerous to summon everyone here though. I decided to create a boulder once again.

The color was similar to the the mountian from the previous scene, brown-yellow ish and I grew it out of the ground. It rose and grew wider until it was somewhat conical in shape and almost like a tower. Its top was rounded though and I sliced it cleanly with my magic like a laser to create a even ground for everyone to stand on, with a little wall on the outer rim of the circle so no one would fall off, now it looked even more like a tower. I morph the interior structure into a crude dungeon like rooms and stairs. Nothing too fancy. Fly to the top of the tower and I summon a portal. Now everyone was here. Gramps, my bulter begin to toot my horns about how magnificent my creation was; although it was more like a dungeon than a place where people could stay he was pretty impressed. I tell him it's not that amazing that it's not furnished or anything. He immediately calls the maids to furnish the interior of my tower. Done in just a few moments... amazing! Well it was habitable now.

I decide to resume the BBQ party and this time we have drinks and stuff too. Everyone's enjoying themselves here. I get a little bored and decide toe explore. I fly down the tower at the north west or just top left side casually only bringing 1 of them with me, but 4 more comes along after they noticed me leaving. Let's explore this forest a little. We keep heading down the path and I feel something ominous. My senses don't betray me and a massive cyclops, size of about twice the street lights and its eye was width of a human! It roars and engages right in front of us. I take a step back but I am grabbed by a pair of massive hands the size of my body grasping clasping me. It was another cyclops! I immediately think "freeze" and the one that caught me ws frozen. Then "freeze" and frozen was the one in front. They were both now frozen in place, no ice or anything just frozen dry.

-the cyclops had no hair. It had a single cone shaped horn that grew from the top of its head and blue skin.

Jade was intrigued by this unique creature and wanted to conduct experiments on them. But I told her to be kind. We had a creed where we'd never cause unnecessary suffering. So she drew her katana sword out of the sheath and sliced the one behind me vertically and perfectly into half. Its insides were very frozen and each of the sliced half showed perfect details of its insides. She decided to kill it out of mercy. Asked me if she could have it... sure it's a present then... she was pretty ecstatic about it. I decide to leave the one in front to let it thaw out by itself to not influence the eco system of the surrounding too much and just left it there. We head back to the top of the tower.

I decide to go somewhere else to set up a base since this place seemed kind of dangerous so I open up a portal and enter it. I end up being in a room and behind me was a miniature planet, likely the world I was in previously. It was like a giant child's room with toys that contained worlds within. I wanted to go somewhere else though so I created a blackhole to create a tear in space. A new universe. I head inside and and find myself in blackness in the space of a different universe. I wanted a nice beach. Closed my eyes and appears there after a bit. I summon the others through the portal and we spend some fun times on the beach.

-was very fun!
- I think the ice and frozen could be related to how it snowed a little in the morning

FF 6 Mermaid

I was in a game world I think it was final fantasy. I summon a mermaid and we just hang around for a while but I feel the dream ending. I or it wanted to stay longer but the dream ends.
-maybe mermaid related to the beach scene from before, or maybe its related to tale of lil mermaid
-game is just memory of the game, haven't played it in a long time though


Vat Van

I'm hanging out with folks from the vat19. We are going around town on a special bus and just cruising. Eventually they and my dad get into an argument that lasts for hours.
-watched vat19 video recently
-had an epiphany about growth as a person at the end of dream

Notes

Reduced rem from really hard GRC, forgot to grc while typing, improve!

Didn't feel much resistance during MILD, tried shadow work and worked on the tiny doubt

Hemi sync tapes are pretty cool, would likely work well for AP or WILD

Perhaps I could have engaged the sense of touch more, maybe rub hands

Oh yeah it snowed.. NO MORE SNOW NOW! SUMMER IS COMING NOW!


Always lucid in every dream!

Just dreams of last few days. was in a slump

First day.

Being sucked into an environment.
-like being involved

Setting different hands all shaped slightly different.
-maybe memory of hand rc from months ago

Going uphill in the previous Japanese road after me and classmates leave the school. I recommend them to take a specific route left is the road while right is grassy. It had those carnivorous plants in super Mario and it spat rocks at us. Some people take the grassy side don't think they'll make it.

-the road was tough. It was forestry to the right and left Das boring road. There were some wild berries we ate. Orange and red raspberry or something very delicious. Maybe that became the Mario plants. Perhaps it's from memory of getting injured by a sharp plant as a kid.

I'm at a Walmart shopping with some girls. There's a bedroom and shower at Walmart so I stay over there. We wanted to steal some stuff. There's security though.

-maybe memory of being accused of shoplifting at Walmart. Had to stay there for hours until they found video footage of me actually buying stuff.


We are in a desert like place and find a tavern. There's a spoiled child giving us hard time. I reprimand him and his dad gets violent.
-memory of some kids violent dad


Second (maybe third just wrong date or maybe this was first just polyphased with low dream)

Playing wc3. Playing d2 with moon.

Third frat-cult

I'm at a frat party at kit townhouse. There are pair of girls one looks like young Britney spears. Anyways I get close to one of them. Im looking for the bathroom. My friend wants us to go to a bar or something didn't have id so I borrow from someone there. We leave on a van.

I'm sitting in the middle part of the van. There's a bunch of little kids at the back. One girl is pretty into occult or supernatural stuff and we talk about Ld. I tell her I wanted to be lucid in every dream. She is not interested. So I talk to the guy to my right. We talk and I try to jot down notes about Ld on my DJ.

We arrive at the destination. It's another frat party. Just hanging out. The place turns out to be a cult and I'm apparently the leader. The police raids us and I'm sure of who was the rat. It was the blond kid from the other party. I read minds and told others. He was an android mostly machine parts. Some members try to retaliate and bomb power stations.
-memory of borrowing id
-incubated desire or Ld and DJ even in dream lol
-android is likely the phone I used as a sleep tracker,
-gna be a cult leader or something hah

Third
Blue orange salt

I was with my mom and we went to pick up my dad at airport.
-literally memory from years back

I'm at school. We are going to on a school trip but end up at hospital. I derail from the tour and walk to the path to the left. The hospital was more Asian style. I find a case of blue and orange salt. It's pretty special or something.
-probably related to himalayan salt

I am at a supermarket. Apparently I'm balling so I buy a durian for everyone there to eat. Pretty delicious. When I went to pay at the counter my wallet was empty!
-durian is awesome

I was walking down a narrow sidewalk down north on the right side. I find a couple of dogs in a dog contest. Two jumps right at me fast. One gets a bit of my ear. I get away.
-maybe bad memory of dogs.

Fourth

Don't remember the earlier part. Maybe connected to a desert from a dream long ago. End up in a classroom. To my right the seat is empty had things I wanted. The seat behind me is also empty I think they were all my stuff! There were fish oil pills I took them.
-maybe dream telling me to take fish oil

Was in electronic store. They had an event and reserved the place for only students. Had a sale on some new fancy console which was a mix of Xbox and the switch. $300. Everyone was nuts over it. I wasn't that interested though. I went towards the back and find the music section. A mom and son running the mini spot. Handmade instruments. Pretty cool. I try out this uke, bottom strings not playing well. So she had of to do other work. Her son shows me his creation. It was a ukulele guitar that swirled in shape like @. Did not play well either.
-about Nintendo switch
-my love of ukuleles. Wanting a good handmade solid wood

Fifth
I'm singing in class. I think i get embarrassed and fly away out the window!
-memory of embarrassment

I'm in a student housing. Trying very hard to get lucid dreams. I meet a doctor and a student at a library recommending me tdcs machine to zap me to lucidity for $500. Didn't want it. Leave them. End up using it though and get a heart attack at the elevator lasting a minute. I'm trying to get away from people.

I end up at a cottage house like peace and stuff about x. Then find my friend Alison.
-read about tdcs on forum I think

+Tried Monroe tape,
Saw hand and feet lucid vision but no cigar I think.

Morning of April 27, 2019. Saturday.

Dream #: 19,122-02. Reading time (optimized): 3 min.



Water induction and the Naiad/Oceanid factor changes into a fishing scenario. Despite the former process beginning at least one dream each sleep cycle for over 50 years, the continuity and outcome are always unique.

Zsuzsanna and I are sitting on the shore of a lake, though it seems to stem from associations with El Jobean, which is near the ocean and the area where I fished as a boy, close to the bridge. It seems to be afternoon.

Two unknown men are present. One of them is cheerfully fishing. The other, the preconscious simulacrum of this dream, is sitting on our right. There is a brief, vague concern that someone might throw something from the bridge high above us, but no one does. (It is subliminal anticipation of vestibular cortex activity, which is a common dream perception.) I soon attach the hook to the end of my line, and I also put the reel on the rod. At first, I snag a sunfish carcass (on its dorsal fin) floating on its left side (as analogous to my sleeping orientation) on the lake’s surface. The preconscious is holding a pair of scissors. I am wary, as I think he intends to take them while claiming someone lost them. Looking down, I see another pair of scissors that is nearly the same and belongs with the other. There are small rust marks on the handles of each. I comment on how similar they are and pick up the pair on the ground. I take the other scissors from the simulacrum (with no protest on his part, which is atypical in RAS mediation, especially as the scissors indicate potential separation from the dream state) and put both pair in the tackle box.

I verbalize loud, sarcastic remarks about people sitting near people who are fishing. He soon leaves (thus allowing me to sustain my dream). So does the other male, though it is getting later and is almost too dark to see. I ask Zsuzsanna if fishing at night is allowed and it seems that it is. (This process, regarding nightfall with enhanced awareness, is sometimes indicative of the return to slow-wave sleep, but I maintain my dream state awareness without direct lucidity.)

I do not have live bait and consider digging in the ground with my hands, but I find a live worm with at least two hooks through it in a small paper bag that someone left behind. I think it is artificial before it starts moving. I attach the rig to my line.

When I cast, I accidentally snag a cluster of plants halfway across the lake’s distance from our side. I see an unknown woman off to the left near her car on our side. She had also cast. I find the situation somewhat amusing but not that frustrating, especially when it seems I had also hooked a big fish. However, it turns out that she is reeling the line from her end, causing the little island to move toward her.

I hook onto something big. Upon reeling it in, I see that I have snagged a seal, with the hook in its bottom lip. “It’s a seal,” I loudly say. The woman and I agree that I should take the hook out and release it, which I do.

When I cast again, the hook ends up near the woman’s car. She decides to leave but ends up falling in the lake almost up to her neck. She swims out, gets into her car, and it accidentally backs up into the lake, sinking completely.

I dive into the lake. I swim to the end of the lake to the right of my original location, underwater (being able to breathe underwater as in all my dreams since early childhood). The woman is sleeping in a small dry cave underwater, as the water remains as an impossible “wall” at its entrance. I maneuver into the cave through the “wall,” without disrupting the impossible vertical water barrier. I ask the woman if she needs me to rescue her. She shakes her head and shivers slightly, with her eyes moving as if in REM sleep. I ask her again, and she nods.

My feet push against the water “wall,” and water starts to flood the cave, but I wake around this time. I see that Zsuzsanna is sleeping in the same position as the woman had been.

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This dream renders the same processes as usual, but also unique as always and very vivid and enjoyable.

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Random dreams

Lots of dreams of just wandering abandoned places. Thought I could recall more may post more of these later.

Jamie Dreams

Despite there seemingly being a lot. the periods between them are getting longer.

In one dream I see a single HH image of Jamie with something around her neck. A crucifix chain? or a charm? she kisses it.

In another dream we are watching Jesus get persecuted in Jerusalem and get hung on the cross. Jamie is crying about it as are some others in the crowd.

In one dream We are in her car at night. I'm living in some apartment building. We start kissing. IT's nice, but after a while she stops me. "That first part was REALLY good," she says. She then tells me that she wasn't feeling the later part. I ask her to elaborate. She wasn't clear on the instructions. and I was getting frustrated. We get into an argument about it and she leaves. I go into my apartment and look at the spot where we were just parked. I replay the scene over in my mind something like a hundred times. Trying to pinpoint where I went wrong. If I did anything wrong.

Dream I am on the hill with Jamie again. Jesus has his hands in our backs. We are closer to the top of the hill now. He is trying to make us face one another. We are both connected through him it feels. He earnestly tells us both. "Now I want you two to come together." Not later or soon. He wants us to do something NOW. But I'm not sure because I don't like messaging her or reaching out to her and she doesn't respond. She made it clear in other dreams that there wasn't anything I could do. That she might try and reach out when she is right with herself or something. I have to try and respect that.

The same day: Checkers again.. This time she says to me, "I love you." I believe it this time. It's not like when she told me this before floating in the dybbuk and seemed drunk on something. This seems more sincere.

another dream I had of Jamie. There was a long week or so where i didn't recall her at all. I was getting a little frustrated so she showed up in a dream where we were just exploring an abandoned building. Don't recall what we did. but it's like she sensed my frustration and showed up to show me she is still around.