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Don't read ahead unless you're an adult, I've tried keeping some of the descriptions to a minimal though.

Dream
It's sunny and I'm walking along a sheltered wooden deck outside, like a walkway you might see at the zoo. As I was walking I saw cute girls walk past in leggings, I flirted with one of them and it felt unrealistic which clued me in that it was a dream. I became lucid and immediately went cave-man mode, no stabilising or anything.. I just walked up to the cute girl and groped her, kissed her and many other things I managed to go all the way and even finish which isn't something I've ever had in a lucid dream. A weird thing I noticed was that she kept disappearing yet was still there, it's hard to explain but basically she went invisible or something..

May 2, 2013

Realize after sleeping in my body with phantom sensations of hands. Understood what is happening and began to struggle with rage like mad to go outside my body. The feeling that I was crawling on the floor in the dark quagmire and pulls me back, it seemed that crawled a many meters, but I ended up in my room when the vision came.
Next, I went to the window and pane at the top of the window apparently was open, began to climb out through it, climbed half and wanted to jump down, then I wondered whether not this is real world, think I'll break. Thinking, I knew that in real life it can not be that I got out of the window like this, and jumped down.
Was on the ground, I walk around the yard, see the trees, no people, came to the end of the house. Then I take off and fly smoothly at a height of 2-3 floors, along the house, flew on the same line one yard and fly into the next, where landed. All buildings were in the same places as in real world. Looked at my body, arms and legs, pants which are dressed in the real.
Drew attention to the lying stick and for some reason I wished to draw it by willpower, and turned out it flew into my hand. I throw it into the house standing in front of me, at first it fly at random, I see it can not reach, and send will to it so that flew straight and stuck in the wall.
Next moment, from behind, my leg gets an arrow, and pierces through shin. There was no pain, I pulled out the arrow, turned around, see a woman, dressed in red archer clothes, the bow, distance to her ~30 meters. To aggression my answer the same - throw arrow at her and directing it, she tried to dodge, but arrow fly like self-homing, hit it as well as she did, in the legs. She starts to run away. And dip in memory...
Then remember, I was standing with this archer, and there are men with us. They are talking, and I remember she said that I'm Italian and do not understand them, I said, I'm Russian and understand. After I returned back to body.
But I not woke and tried once again to get out, and get out of body through resistance, climb out again for a long way, I appear in the porch, it turned out that I climbed through two walls. I went down the stairs, there I see was very bright, hyper-realistic. Went to the window in the stairwell, open it, and jumped down. Then back into body and wake up.

Meesha woke me up every hour on the hour & then my wbtb every 2 hours. Dreaming was a joke.

PE lesson

I was in my old school, I left changing room and went to sports hall. We had a new PE teacher. I was just about to enter the sports hall when I noticed that I don't have one of my shoes on, and the other had an enormous hole in it. I passed by students from other class and entered the hall. The teacher took some old shoes from a cardboard box and gave them to me. I took them on and started tying them.

Failed WBTB attempt

A favor

With two classmates we were in a city, wandering around blocks of flats. It was a sunny but cold day. We were going to a house of some girl one of classmates wanted to invite to a prom. We got outside her flat, there was some dark haired girl outside, standing with her mother. Classmate asked me to do him a favor and ask her mother if her daughter will go with him to a prom. I went to that mother and asked "Could your daugter go on a prom..." She cut in and asked me about her name. I didn't knew it and stood there in silence. After a while I explained "Well, I'm doing a favor for a friend who is too shy to ask her out." She said "I see..." I went back to these two dudes and suddenly we heard a voice shouting through megaphone. Her mother was angry at us.

Waterslide DILD

I woke up in a bed in other room than usually, confused. I felt as if I wore a jacket, but when I moved my hand over my body but haven't felt any jacket. I started suspecting that this might be a dream and made a nose-plug RC. It confirmed that it was a lucid dream. I got out of the bed and moved towards doors. I used them to teleport outside. It was really early morning but it wasn't that dark. I was standing on the middle of the road, completely naked. Staring at the way the road led, I got an idea to make a waterslide. I jumped on the ground and created a wildly flowing stream of water flowing along the road. I slided across whole village, increasing or decreasing flow of water until I got close to my friends house. There was an enormous shopping mall in the middle of the road. It looked like it was just recently open for business. I entered it, it was really dark inside. In the darkness I could see all the clothes shops - there were only clothes shops with mannequins. I clapped my hands expecting the claps to turn lights on, but it wasn't working. I got a wild thought that these mannequins could turn alive and attack. I immediately got a feeling that I'm surrounded, that thousands of them stare at me at the same time, I felt lost. I managed to calm myself and stabilise the dream a bit, thinking "Wait, they can't even turn alive if I don't allow them to do so!" I continued along the shop. Suddenly I lost lucidity.

Mirror DILD

I woke up in a bed in another room again. Immediately I realised that it's a dream and made a nose-plug RC to confirm it. I got out of bed and moved to hallway, there was a huge mirror hanging on a wall. I waved my hand in attempt to telekinetically smash it, but it only made the dream much less stable. The reflection in the mirror showed the hallway in strong moonlight. I woke up.

What a strange one. It began at a clubhouse of sorts. I was hanging out with some friends of mine when Sophie Mccarthy showed up. We started talking and she guided me to her room in the house. We then had extremely vivid sex. One of the most present moments I've ever had without being lucid for sure.

The main part of the dream was much more strange. I was accompanying/guiding/controlling a team of super powered beings. They were kind of like overwatch, but they were people I knew. I realized after a while that some of them were honestly fighting crime while the head of the group, this girl called valkyrie, was simply using everyone for her own gain. When I came to realize it I left them to their own devices.

At the end of the dream, I was with a friend of mine outside. It was raining, and we were on a hill. For some strange reason, there were people on the street either shooting a movie or a youtube video because they were doing extreme horse acrobatics in the street. I'm not talking your average Olympic equestrian here either, this was some next level shit. This one extremely fat woman was riding the main horse, and man that thing was having a real tough time supporting her. It was wheezing heavily, and with the rain on the hill, it was struggling to keep its footing. Suddenly, she started backing the horse up the hill. She rode it backward up the hill, then turned right and went backward up a ramp! The ramp was a quarter pipe, so of course, it was completely vertical at the top. The magnificent beast made it 95% the way up there, almost getting on the platform before her massive frame caused his stature to snap, and he slammed into the ramp, sliding down it with tremendous speed and across the hill through traffic, impacting the curb on the other side of the road. He looked like a horse ragdoll. Why would you let such a fat lady ride a horse backward up a slope? Who would do this?

The horse lived, though. No way I would let that happen.

I finished reading the Lord of the Rings today.

Bed @ 2210
Woke @ 0000 /w a general feeling of restlessness

Hobbits
I'm observing the four hobbits in the last couple of years of Lord of the Rings, when the Shire is being rebuilt. They're all proud and siting on their ponies. Over and over, it's mentioned that these four are always doing things for each other; but it soon becomes clear that Frodo is almost always the recipient and almost never a giver. The other three know this and aren't bothered by it at all - they're more than happy to do what they can for Frodo, given what he's already done for them.

BTB @ 0015
Woke @ 0325

Fragment: I'm watching various hobbits - both named and anonymous - performing tasks to rebuild the Shire.

BTB @ 0340.
Woke @ 0730

Sneaking through a factory
I'm playing a 3rd person shooter of some sort. I'm trying to infiltrate some kind of industrial site. Guards are everywhere, and I'm sneaking as best I can, but eventually one of them sees me. I tense and get ready to run, but he just keeps walking as if nothing's wrong. I realize that, just like in "Hitman Go," I'm dressed in a disguise. I assume that the disguise will be blown the first time I touch an enemy, so I'm careful to stay away from them lest I touch one. At one point, I come to a hallway I need to go through, and I pause, unsure how to continue, because there's a guard standing in the middle of the hallway. I actually manage to squeeze by him without touching him and continue on my way.

Now I'm in the lower levels of the factory. My disguise has been blown, though the guards in this area aren't on full alert yet, so my efforts at sneaking are redoubled. Now I'm close to my objective, but some high level guards have been alerted to my presence and are hunting me. It's turned into a race of sorts, to get there and <do something> before they catch me or get to it themselves.


College event
I'm walking around a college campus, attending some kind of large event. At the moment, everyone's been given the assignment of finding where the elephant is hiding. I'm no good at this kind of thing, but I can't just sit it out (as much as I'd like to), so I figure I'll wander around until someone else finds it. As I'm wandering, I find that I'm near some some snack tables and go to check them out. I'm disappointed that they're mostly empty, but at least there are still a few small cupcakes left. I think they're pumpkin-spice cake with vanilla frosting; not my favorite, but not bad. I take one.

Now I'm walking along a path towards a freestanding staircase which connects to a bridge high above. The staircase and bridge are both bright white. A truck with a trailer is parked next to the bridge, and an older man is hooking things up. Eventually, he turns it on, and I realize that the trailer is a generator. As it vrooms into life, a nearby fountain starts to shoot water into the air, and I feel a breeze of cold air. A passing man incredulously asks me if the truck is providing air conditioning to the place, and I confirm that it seems that it is, adding that it's also powering the fountain. I start to walk up the stairs - they're wide and white - and have to keep dodging people coming down them.

Now I'm at the top of some indoor stairs. I'm carrying my youngest child, and I'm pretty tired. I just want to find somewhere to sit down, and I don't want to see any more stairs.

Now I'm in a classroom with a handful of other people. A woman is walking us through some logic problems. Now we're finished with them - there were four total - and she's counting up score. I almost solved one of the problems, but I don't actually score any points. The woman oozes sympathy, which rather annoys me, and I let her know that, even though I may not have gotten any points right now, I got some earlier, thank-you-very-much.


Fragment: I'm in a room filled with boxes.


Work van
I'm approaching our work van. Despite appearing normal, there's a very special way to get into it. Now I'm inside looking out its windows. One of my team members is standing outside, and a very large man is approaching him. I'm a bit worried, but I know that it's part of the plan and that my team member knows how to deal with the risks. Now I'm standing outside the van, and the large man is approaching me. I'm not worried, because I know that he can't actually reach me. When he's a few feet away from me, he hits an invisible barrier. He's confused, and I laugh, explaining that, despite appearances, I'm actually still inside the van.

I dreamed that I was playing a Harry Potter video game. I control a party of characters, though excluding Harry everyone else wasn't a canon character. We stumble into a Death Eater in an underground dungeon who was forging something and can apparently deink and heal himself with molten metal. Approaching him result in a cutscene where he grabbed Harry and stuffed him into some cramped opening in the wall behind him, and everyone was magically required to answer his riddles or Harry would die. After we answered his riddles, the spell was broken and he lost his bargaining chip. He joked about it being a good time fro a Death Eater to panic before trying to attack us, but as he himself had expected we killed him quickly.

We then walked around with a Dark Souls-like perspective in what appeared to be a mix between a castle, a fine dining restaurant, a temple, a tower, and a convention center. I have some difficulty describing it, yes. I think the best way to say it is that you just have to imagine the Floating Garden of Babylon, except that there were no plants, and the ceilings are extremely high. It was very beautiful but minimalistic, our sightseeing a bit marred by people screaming and running away from the Death Eater's blood on our shoes, so we sought a fountain to clean the blood off.

My dream transitioned to me in a Team Fortress 2 match, except that it looked like real life. I was presumably the Pyro and the framing narrative was that I was in a VR, hence why I don't feel liek I'm in an asbestos suit or wearing a gas mask or holding a flamethrower. I have infiltrated the back lines of the map, and there was nobody around. I was going to go back to the front line to ambush the enemies but there were news reporters being filmed. The map looked like Upward, but the bit after the second spawn was replaced with the gate from Hollywood in Overwatch. The reporters didn't seem alarmed on seeing me. I try to edge my way past them without getting in the shot because I thought that'd be rude.

Alright, I think this one my be one of my favorite dreams and probably my longest lucid dream right now. Some time before sleeping I took some melatonin (one tablet, this is the first time I ever used it) and I guess since it supresses rem sleep I had some kind of rem rebound after I woke up which gave me this long dream.

I was in the street in front of my house, at night. I remember opening the front gate and going up the stairs. Details are kinda fuzzy but I remember entering my apartment and going to my room. I suddenly woke up but managed to stay still (might have swallowed, but didn't move) so I tought I might as well try DEILD. Now, I've tried deild many times before but I just get a lot of popping in my ears and the feeling of a numb body, then I just give up and get up. This time tough, I persisted and tried to imagine things, like dream scenarios. My toughts started getting derailed so I tried to imagine seeing my room's ceiling through my eyelids. I think I also tried to imagine the sensation of flying. There was one point were I decided I should get up and check if I'm dreaming. I opened my eyes and stood up, everything seemed pretty real until I did the nose RC and found out I was dreaming.

I was pretty excited, running around the house trying to do some dream control. I don't remember very well what I tried to do but I remember not being able to control the dream with expectation and being confused because my recent LDs have had pretty good control. I went to my parent's bedroom and it was pretty dark so I imagined it becoming daytime outside. I looked through in the window and it was very early in the morning and still pretty dark, so I imagined the sun speeding across. Surely enough it started getting brighter and the sun speeded across the sky. I stopped it by shouting some command (maybe I held out my hand too) and I positioned the sun to the middle of the sky. I then told it to come closer. Closer! I began to try to pull it with my mind and it came closer and closer until it seemed to have engulfed everything. It was kinda like I was floating in space and I was now inside the sun which was blue now.

The inside of the sun is kinda hard to describe. It was like it was empty and the outside of the sun was a thin blue forcefield. In the middle of the sun there was this little white dot which I tough was a blackhole. Eventually everything snapped back to normal and I was back in my parents' room. I continued trying to control things and failed, so I decided I should look for my Dream Guide again. I went into the hall and said out loud "Dream, I'm ready to meet my dream guide" but as soon as I said that, a voice said that I wasn't ready yet. I argued that I was and then I found out it was just the housemaid that used to work in my house.

I figured that if I can't find a DG I might as well summon Yuu (she is a dream character I created in waking life). I extended my hand behind my back and felt a hand. When I pulled it back it was a doll and I tossed it aside. Walking towards the living room I did this again and failed somehow. I tried it again, imagining the feeling of her hand and succeded. There she was. I don't think I had seen her in such a vivid dream before. Her hair was bright pink, brighter than usual. I told her that she looked prettier than usual but I don't remember what she said, but I remember she was "smarter" than usual, like it wasn't just some random DC. She had a sweet fragrance to her which I also commented on. I told her we should go to her house. She manifested a pair of fancy magical pink scissors which she used to cut up a portal in the dream. I didn't create annything like that for her but it was pretty cool.

We arrived in some kind of huge house (it looked like we had been shrunk) which kinda looked like mine. I remember there being some huge dogs which we played aroun with. The details are kinda fuzzy here. I asked her why this house was so big and she said "Because it's not my house!". She used the scissors again and we ended up inside a car in some street, at night. I remember there being some bright pink fuzzy dice hanging somewhere. The car seemed to be moving by itself. I told Yuu that I wanted to live here with her and she said something like "You just want the car!" but I said that I really meant it. We got out of the car and walked on the streets. I'm pretty sure there was snow. I really felt great at this moment, just walking around with her in this dimly lit street.

Eventually I woke up in some amusement park at night, walking on some kind of orange catwalk towards some attraction. I was feeling really drowsy and had some drool on my face. I tought that, somehow, I was dreaming while I sleepwalked around the park. There were two guys behind me, who seemed to be dressed as Dumbledore and some other character. For some reason, they were following me while I sleepwalked. I called some guards because I felt they were creeps and the guard pinned them to the floor and told me to go to an attraction (it was some kind of bullet train with a lot of people getting on). I went towards it and when I entered the train I woke up.

This was a pretty cool dream, I loved hanging around for the first time with Yuu. This dream is so long, tough, that I forgot some details, unfortunately.

Last night bed 8:20pm - 3:25am

DR1:
I am with a family I used to know in LB. Walking down a sunny, dusty street, like in a new housing development area. She is saying that 500 is missing from her money and they kinda know that new housekeeper did it. She asks me about it too and she knows I'm telling the truth when I honetstly tell her that it would never be me.

Walking home, same area, through some dusty hills. A town fair is going to be opening tonight and they ar setting up the booths. We get into some dining hall. I pour honey into my tea cup then tea from a glass pitcher and watch the honey melt. The owner of the place and the fair comes in, we recognize him as a guy whom we passed on the way here and he gives us some survey papers, wanting us to fill them out. I know I'm not gonna.

Still same setting, same people.
One of the kids leaves friends house without telling us while we are all there. When we find him, he is in trouble and I'm telling him now I'm not taking him to the fair. He gets mad and tells on me.

DR2:

crosscountry running race, table with green tub w water, around - no through - butt wet, guy asks something, I push his hand he runs after, grabbs by throat, my fingers in his eyes, he is not letting go, blood in mouth, rinsing, ice

I'm in a cross-country running race. Running on a dirt path, small hills, seems like same setting as previous dream. There is a desk with green tub with water in it. I'm trying to squeeze by it, then I ask the official standing there if that's the way to go. She says, no, we have to go through the tub. So I climb up and she says we need to get our butts wet. So we do and keep running.

I think I'm second in place, running on a flat dusty path at the edge of a town. There are spectators and other people just walking around. On of them approaches me and with outstretched arm holding something asks me something. I push his hand away without slowing down. I'm sure he will know I'm in a race and can't stop.

I feel him running behind me, catching up, grabbing me by my throat. I try to think which fingers you are suppose to use when you pushing your fingers in someones eyes in self defence. He is still holding me from behind so it's hard to do, but I do jam my fingers in his eyes. I put them in pretty good. He is not letting go. I realize I should push not so hard, as to give him a chance to loosen his grip and let me go. Others come and I tell them to pull his arm off of me.

I go to a sink and I'm rinsing my mouth, spitting blood. Somehow he had his fingers in my mouth and cut me. I keep spitting out pink water and it's splashing all over the near wall. I ask for some ice.

HH- I saw a very vivid black and white fingerprint image that took up my entire vision and I was admiring its interesting lines before I fell asleep.

1- One of the fun things I did as a child was I created a long hallway with lots of doors and it was so much fun for me to check out all of the fun adventures in each one. Sometimes I would open a door and each time it was a new adventure and sometimes I could go in 10 times and it would always be the same. Something changed one day when I was opening every door I saw a dark character that I guess would look like the grim reaper. He had glowing eyes and would float after me until I could escape by creating a new door. I became terrified to open any doors again and every time that dream scene appeared I would have to vanish it by creating a slide at the end of the hallway that was super high up, so I escaped and it was still fun going down the slide. Last night I dreamt of the same exact hallway with doors, I could hear my heart rate really loud and really fast because I knew this was some kind of test for myself. I had to overcome this fear once and for all! I peeked in a door that was about half way down the hall, and it was black inside, I opened it and walked in and stood there going with my dream as I usually do and this time I knew the reason. It was damp and very cold, I couldn't hear a thing. I just stood there looking around for something, anything when I could feel my hairs on my arms and the back of my neck standing up. Suddenly the room was white and the VOICE said are you here for your next lesson? OMG I woke up lol. Darn it!!!! That was not what I was expecting at all!!!!! Whew! I woke up relieved that I faced my fear but sad I missed my lesson. Or did I?

2- I have a fear of planes in my dreams because I had nightmares of recurring dreams of people I love blowing up in planes, or crashing on landing, or me in them with people I love knowing we were going to die because we were spiraling out of control. All vivid nightmares. I had a dream last night I was on a plane very aware that I was dreaming of a plane AGAIN which I have not done for years and knowing the prior dream I am expecting the VOICE to appear again. I was on the plane when the speaker comes on the plane and the pilot says we will be delayed momentarily because they found a problem but it will be fixed and we will be on our way, Oh great! So I decide to deep breathe and try to relax while waiting. I fell asleep in my dream and woke up when we were already in the air. Whew I was so happy but then fear hit me again, then I woke up again, because I was dreaming in my dream that I was already in the air, OMG! Still sitting in the plane waiting to take off, this dream was going nowhere...time to get up for work.

7.20-8am Long LD
There's no HI or shaking or anything, I'm lying in bed and get the feeling something is not quite right and decide to sit up. Instantly my vision is blurry and distorted. I pinch my nose and try to breathe to confirm this is a dream. The dream is still very unstable as I stand up and move out of the bedroom. Attempts to stabilise by rubbing hands doesn't do much.

The upstairs of the house is very different to RL. The hallway is much larger and has a glass divider next to the stairs. The lack of clarity is pissing me off now, so I punch it. The glass gets a satisfying indent and spiderweb pattern of broken safety glass. I punch it a few more times until the glass is covered in cracks. It is still holding together though. I let out a primal roar and one final super punch which destroys the glass, the wall, and both collapse into the stairway.

I start wandering through the unfamiliar house trying to think of tasks or goals but nothing productive springs to mind. In the next room a woman with long dark hair greets me enthusiastically, with a kiss. Well, I'm not going to complain. One thing leads to another. We end up going back to the bedroom and having sex, but as this progresses the dream becomes unstable. Things go black temporarily.

The visuals reform as a walled garden. Ivy crawls all over the stonework and the walls reach up about 20m into the sky. The ground is covered in overgrown plants too, left to run wild. The garden has a few animals living in it too - deer and many birds. I call one of the birds down and hold my arm out. A falcon swoops down and lands on my outstretched wrist. Cool. I stop and stare at the bird for a while, and it eyes me back before taking off and soaring up into the sky.

I follow the falcon, flying over the walls to leave the garden. Beyond it are smooth, new looking tarmac roads. A group of teenagers are sitting and chatting at the entrance to a small building. Well, roads this smooth almost demand to be driven. So I summon a motorbike in my usual way: Fake it by sitting in the air, arms out, hands gripping imaginary bars. Twist the throttle and make the noise!

After a few seconds the motorbike appears and I glide down the road which turns uphill and then curves back down in some glorious ramps, although the bike is a cruiser and not really suitable for doing tricks. To get it to move a bit faster I change into a sportsbike riding position (ya know, frog on a hoover - crouched, arse in the air, arms forward, hugging the tank)

The shift in position creates a big difference in speed but without the adrenaline hit of sudden acceleration you'd get in RL. Still, it's fun, and the road is twisty, and there's no cars or police to spoil it. I stop at the top of a hill and while looking at the rolling English countryside, recall the task about being in a desert.

So I try to spin and teleport. Visuals go black, but the scene reforms looking like a town square. I'm aware of the armor plates in my bike jacket that has appeared on me, which reminds me of another task to wear armor.
"Summon chainmail." I say out loud, looking at the ground and expecting some to appear.
Instead, a young woman with shoulder length blonde hair walks towards me.

You know how a woman looks wearing a man's T-shirt - it's oversized, baggy, yet somehow super sexy? That. Except she is wearing chainmail over a white sweater. I can't help but grin and enjoy the moment.
"How about you take that off?" I say, indicating the chainmail shirt.

She slips the chainmail over her head and hands it to me. I pull it over my head and get my arms through the right holes - the bike jacket has disappeared automatically. The chainmail feels heavy.
"And how about taking that off too?" I ask the woman, pointing at the white sweater. She giggles and leads me off into the closest building. Once we are alone she is now wearing jeans, so I help her take them off. We start having sex. Everything is going great until she unexpectedly indicates she wants to stop.

She makes some comment about us being at it for two hours. Two hours? Not likely! (and I'll snip the rest, but basically I woke up 10 minutes after my alarm should have gone off. Can't help but think that some part of my brain knew the alarm should have gone off and that was why the woman thought we should stop.)

After routine relaxation and concentration exercise before sleeping I felt my spiritual body to free itself off of physical body a little therefore I allowed myself to stand up from it. It was very easy. My surrounding was greyish but not dark as usually when I travel at night. I saw the inner light of things unusually bright. I walked through my house finding it empty. Then I left out right through the wall to the empty street. And I walked for some time observing my surrounding, feeling it. I felt deep sadness but at the same time I was well balanced, therefore the OBE felt stable.

I came to the city and it too was empty. The lighting was stronger, the sun was up on the sky, yet everything, every colour was greyish. I saw gravel down to sand size very sharply, each piece of grain, each rock... and I came to the big bridge over the river.

I saw there an angel, who I instinctively knew as angel of death. He brought an unknown young woman with dark bushy hair there and pushed her under the bridge into darkness. I felt pang of great sadness and love toward that woman. And I came closer wanting to come after her. The angel of death looked like he wanted to stop me, telling me that that woman deserves to suffer for eternity because she took her life. That nothing would help her. And I went toward him nevertheless... And angel ran away. I turned and went under the bridge.

There was darkness under the bridge. It was as if I stepped through a border between day and night. Light was not penetrating under the bridge as it normally would. But it was possible to see on the other side to the light. There were people there, maybe 15-20 of them. Many of them looked like homeless people. And there was sitting that girl between them, tears were dropping constantly from her eyes. I stepped toward her, and my inner light repulsed those people away from me. That girl too tried to go away, but I lifted her onto my arms like child, and I started to cradle her while I was walking slowly to the light. It was like she weighed nothing. She wept constantly, and she was trying to free herself from my embrace, but I was holding her fast. After short while she stopped to struggle with my embrace. I crossed the border between dark and light and she started to cry as if it was hurting her. So I went back to darkness with her. I tried to ease her, I was filled with unconditional love which I tried to infuse into the woman. And I was cradling her while I was walking through the mud and filthy water under the bridge. For some reason I called her with the name of my first love even if she didn't look like her. I persuaded her that she is loved, that she doesn't have to suffer... And I was carrying her closer to light for short time and then back to darkness so she would be able to accustom to it slowly. At last, I managed to bring her out to the light for good, but she was holding me and looked scared of light. She was heavier and heavier for some reason. Nevertheless, even if she was growing more heavy I held her fast in my embrace and I walked away from darkness to stronger and stronger light till I lost connection with astral world.

Remarks
This OBE felt great... but sad. I needed to write it out of my system. Even now that sadness is lingering around me... I don't know in this state of consciousness how can one feel so deep sadness and love at once and yet to be unattached to those feelings, but it was how I was feeling there.

Elderly couple own a castle, which they market as a resort of some kind. Have a general unpleasent air and look downright decrepid. They die and wind up in a void, filled with floating bits of land, as well as an upside down 1920s style car with a street light hanging from the bottom of it. They navigate this tiny unfinished world and discover at the end their graves. Come to a realisation that this is their final resting place , but it was discarded by the creator. Due to this, if they can "survive" (no idea what from, an infinite drop, maybe?), they wil eventually "drift" back into their mortal bodies.

Before they do, a voice from the void describes their adoption of a little girl as a "sham". My dream self (sometimes an observer, sometimes the oldman) considers to be a euphamism for a far worse fate they had in store for the girl. No specifics are given but it implies abuse cruelty. They eventually return to the normal world, only to almost immediately go back to the grave world, which now has a different layout of its mini landmasses. They begin the brief journey again.

Very chilling and eerie dream. The old couple resemble a realistic depiction of Victor's parents from Corpse Bride with a few more years on them.

This girl bent over my bed. I got on my knees an d entered her tight vigina.

1 pt non-lucid
2 pts wbtb
= 3 pts 3+ 114.5=117.5
3 Step Goal:
Fly
Element Manipulation
Practice a Waking Life Hobby

Personal New Goals:
Voyage through a crack I make in the earth
Find my dream house
Take a magical train to another country

Week 2 task Intermediate:
Put on a halloween costume and gain the powers/abilities of the costume.


D1: Walking to my car after shopping at a flea market. I make a wrong turn & so do a bunch of other ppl. We are all trying to walk to our cars where we are in the middle of a gun fight. There a gang of mean bikers. ( I should note that most all the bikers that I've ever met in my life were nice ppl who raise money in my town.) They are everywhere & haul us all back to their cabin where they make us all work for them. A man & his wife were running things but mostly they weren't seen together. This dream was really long. There were a lot of escape attempts that went bad & ppl got hurt in various ways. We started wearing padding under our clothes because of all of the bullets that were flying so often. These ppl holding us there were really violent. I kept having to gather intel to try & find a way out & to try & stay safe. I was informing the new ppl who had just arrived about the padding. I'm gritting my teeth & they break & chip off. I'm trying to convince the woman to ease up on us. This place was being attacked by another gang, hence the padding idea helped quite a bit. There was a horrible blood bath fight so I upped my search to find a way out. So when they took us to this water slide being made out of actual tunnels that were next to the cabin. It wasn't finished but I was told it would be the most expensive slide attraction in the world when it was done. I start my decent down the slide when Meesha Cat jumps on my head in real life & I freak the hell out! It was only 2 minutes until my wbtb alarm so I'll count that as this time.
wbtb
D2: I'm fishing in my parking lot for a living. You gotta love the dream world! Other ppl were fishing out fish & other odd things. My dream grandson was supposed to be watching a movie in a near by movie theater type place but it's supposed to be an elaborate daycare. It was really big, like an auditorium. There is a roller coaster in there & things are happening that is some what like a Harry Potter kind of theme of things that are magically happening. I try to call my daughter at work & some guy tells me that if I was a good mom she would be there but cuz I won't take care of her kids she has to stay home. I'm so mad but I don't say anything to correct him. I ask him if he is her boss & he says no. My alarm goes off & I get up.