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Raven and I stare into each other's eyes. I feel like I am falling through a wormhole, sitting nowhere.

We are everything, all gods, creator gods, destroyer, male and female, then become nothing.

This dream is nearly impossible to describe, because I was/am/are infinity. I felt infinity, and for me to describe that would take forever.

There were infinite dream bubbles coming out of me and going into me in every direction. I realized these were every point in the multiverse. Every single point in the universe is dreaming.

I leap out of bed. Enemies are surrounding me in a circle. Cyborg astral demons. “I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR, SHIT, FUCKERS!”

We all attack simultaneously. I stop time. I shoot astral tentacles at them, and rip their evil cyborg hearts out, and pull their armor and weapons on to me. I let go of time. The lasers bounce off my new cyborg armor. I look out the window. It’s a lush jungle. Where the fuck am I?

Holy shit. I am on the Moon, in the City of Nowhere. Fuck this mayor shit. Here I am King and God. I fly though the roof of the pyramid I am in, and hover above the city.

Citizens and denizens of Nowhere, I now proclaim myself King of Nowhere, as I am God of Nothing, makes sense right... haha.

Something tackles me into a portal. I battle with this creature, a croc-man. Soulgawn? Father? NO! He slams his fist into my jaw, breaking it. Your uncle, his evil twin, nephew. He bites down on my neck in face. I scream in terror, then I transform into a swarm of flesh eating beetles and crawl into his gut, eating him from the inside out. He roars in pain, and rips me from his stomach, flinging me into another portal.

****

I heal myself, and Pixy heals me in the strange dark wormhole, before I land at MoSh’s house. No, it’s my house. MoSh is crying uncontrollably. I am stunned.

He looks up at me. “It’s Asuka, she’s dead.”

He looks so real. Suddenly, the dream is torn. I see Xaphor’s face. ‘NONE OF THIS IS REAL!”
We are in a war zone in a city. Xaphor grabs my wrist and teleports us to a high bell tower. We have to keep going up and out, he says. He lines up about fifteen portals.

“Now, keep track of my energy. Summon Jo. It’s going to be a wild ride.”

I summon my astral pet, Jo. He becomes a giant war pig with armor, and machine guns on his tusks, and rockets on his side. “Hold on,” Jo growls.

Xaphor turns quickly and blasts green goo at the oncoming enemies. We fly through many portals, and many dreams. We land on the Moon... no we are on the Moon? I am blind! Images?

I can see! Xaphor rips off a virtual reality helmet and smashes it. “Interesting invention, but it got infected. I told you not to fuck around with VR in a dream, Nomad. It’s too confusing. Let’s go find MoSh.

We go to BanyanLand. MoSh and Asuka are there, but wait he’s with Selene? No. None of them are real. Xaphor scans me. “Dammit, you have bugs infesting your dream body projecting illusions in front of you. Hold on. Xaphor turns into a ladybug like creature, and runs around in my dream body, eating all the bugs.”

Now I can really see!

I teleport to MoSh. We are in BanYanLand high up in a tree room. He is cooking breakfast. Selene and Asuka are sitting there. There are two children playing. Raven is outside talking to Basara and Link.

“Everything okay?” I ask.

‘Yeah,” MoSh says, “I think so.” He serves us breakfast. I see everyone in the room as different flaws in their auras. We eat. Everyone’s energy improves. Asuka gives everyone cookies and ice cream.

I suggest relaxing and enjoying the view instead of going to the healing glen. I trust the ambient energy of the nature will heal us. Raven starts humming quietly. We all hum and sing. It’s sounds beautiful. I realize Basara is somehow leading us.

I go to sleep.

I am meditating in my meditation room in BanYanLand.

DJ Sabertooth walks in and laughs at me. "What?"

"Why are you sending your astral body out of your dream body?"

"I didn't know I was doing that. Weird."

"Come back to Planet Moon."

"Is that what it's called?"

I am meditating in my meditation room in BanYanLand.

DJ Sabertooth walks in and laughs at me. "What?"

"Why are you sending your astral body out of your dream body?"

"I didn't know I was doing that. Weird."

"Come back to Planet Moon."

"Is that what it's called?"

"Well, now that you and Raven and the others have terraformed it. It's brimming with life. It's amazing. The Biodome really is unecessary now, as far as holding life, but it will forever be your great fortress on the Moon. Do you realize this is going to be here forever! I am not going to let you forget next lifetime. I am going to come to you in your dreams in between lifetimes, and the next ones. I am not going to let you forget!" he says, grinning at me.

He grabs my wrist, and we go flying into the sky. He opens up a portal with the name: Dragons. We are flying as big cats. He is a sabertooth, and I am a black jaguar. In the wormhole, we transform into a golden dragon, and I am a violet dragon.

We land in a bright green land. Everything looks perfect. The place is brimming with life. I roll around in the grass like a dog. It feels amazing. "What is this place?"

"Teraluna!" says the voice of a red dragon.

I look up and see Xaphor descending from the sky.

He has something in his arm. It’s a baby dragon.

“You are to train and raise this child, and when it is ready, give him to Hyu in a shared dream. “His name is Xylon. He is an interdimensional being, a real entity. One day he will be an amazing dream guide for you in your next lifetime. Better than even I. You will show him everything you know about dreams, and he will remember, and tell it to you next lifetime. At a certain point, Hyu is going to train him in the way of dragons, for he is a True Dragon. You are a False Dragon as you are also a False God. The fool can be false-anything, and dragons can shapeshift, but you two have different soulds.”

“Sould?”

“A sould’ is a certain type of soul. You don’t have the word in your language any more, because your culture forgot about types of souls. Anyway, that’s not what important. What’s important is that you need to view Hyu.” (The way he said view, it had a deeper meaning, but I can’t really translate it, since he was talking telepathically, which is more in images and ideas.)


“So, Xaphor, why is this important?”

“Don’t you realize he is just like you? Why else is he walking the same sacred path of the ancient shaman dream warriors? Finding his lost love, his lost dream guide, his lost lovers. Realizing the reality of the dream plane. Actually understanding, and seeing with nine eyes. It’s already past due time. Don’t worry about if he will remember. You have a mission, a purpose for being here, for this place is a parallel universe to the one of Urth. This Teraluna is the twinner of Planet Moon. Teraluna though, is far more ancient in this universe, and does not remember being barren. Now, go see Hyu.”

I see him is sleeping in a cave, a red dragon, like Xaphor about half a mile away. I teleport to him, and chuff. He yawns in his sleep and rolls over.

Yuya walks to us. She is really tall right now, about sixty feet.

“He is having a dream within a dream,” she chuckles. “He always turns into a dragon when he does that.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know.”

Selene appears and looks curiously at Yuya.

I growl quietly and nose at Hyu. He wakes up. His bright yellow eyes bug out when he sees the three of us.

“I was dreaming I was back on earth, at school, living my life, and I wake up here? What is a dream and what is not?”

“Don’t worry about that right now,” I laugh.

Hyu seems to be content with that answer.

“I am going to show you the land of dragons,” I say without knowing really why.

I pat him on the back, and point at a tiny black dot in the sky hiding inside of a cloud. We leap into the air, and our leathery wings billow in a stiff breeze.

“I breathe fire!” Hyu shouts exultantly while spinning. He breathes fire, and it blows back in his face a little, and he laughs. “What do you breathe?”

“Ice, water, fire, steam!” I shoot ice bullets, and pour a flood out of my mouth, then fire balls, and a blast of exploding steam. “We can be whatever kind of dragons we want to, brother! Head for the cloud there.”

Hyu changes colors as he changes into many types of dragons.

We fly into the cloud, which is apparently shaped like a bowl inside of which is a floating island. On it is a white stone city of dragons. It’s amazingly huge. The closer we get to the island, we realize it is the size of a continent.

We land on a platform, and there is an old dragon-man with glasses and a book. He tells us to sign in. We use our breath, and burn our names into a book with wooden pages. We write in another language made of spirals and dots mainly, with some slash marks.

“Welcome to the Land of the Dragons. This continent floats above the planet of Teraluna hidden in a cloud. We are vigilant, ancient, and powerful. We could easily rule Teraluna, but we want the inhabitants to be free. Unfortunately not all are. We want to aid, but the people that live on the surface must learn how to have peace on their own, and fight for their right to be free. To aid too much would be like enlarging the hole of a cocoon that a butterfly is struggling to crawl out of. But, enough of that. We will now show you the our most beautiful paradise we have crafted with our very souls. Much of this is synthetic, but we have one rule: All must be beautiful.”

We walk out from under some trees and stop. There is a city all around us. It’s made of some beautiful white stone with hints of pinks and yellows. There are vines hanging from the rooftops grown down walls, and vines growing up walls. Plants are growing everywhere. They don’t seem to be manicured at all. Dragons fly back and forth between the dwellings. I then realize this city is carved from the solid rock of the land itself.

“There is more.”

We go to a museum, a chemical lab, an electrical lab. (This part of the dream was long, but I don’t have time to write it all.)

“In our land, we study energy and the way it moves, for all is energy. We look for patterns, and see the cycles in all things. In this way, we are able to intercept some energy, and move it right along seamlessly. We collect ambient electrons from the air, and use them to power whatever we want. It’s so easy.”

“What’s your name, Sir?”

“You may call me Scribe.”

“Aye. Scribe-”

“Ahem, the True Dragon has a question,” he says, motioning to Hyu which I find mildly annoying. Hyu looks at me, and I shrug my shoulders.

“How do I find my dragon father?” Hyu asks.

“You will find him whenever you want. But, you have this look on your face that tells me you are not going to remember this dream right now. Save that mission for a WILD.”

“Now, False Dragon, ask away.”

“I forgot was I going to say,” I sulk.

“Now, stop being a silly child and don’t sulk in the museum. It’s disrespectful.”

“I-”

“Sh! Ask.”

“Um... is this more real that waking life?”

“Yes, of course it is! What’s the real question?”

“Can I lose my waking life lucidity?”

“Well, silly boy, you used to be asleep for a long time! Do you remember? You only really started waking up when you almost died. Actually, you did die, for a second there. Ha ha. You don’t remember. Well, it doesn’t really matter. When you almost went to sleep, it made you begin to become lucid in your waking life more and more. You are on the path to Total Lucidity, but it will take you decades to master, but you can, Nomad. Some people can lose lucidity completely. This is when they become drones and wonder where the past twenty years went when they have a mid-life crisis. This is actually a process of waking up. Some people go back to sleep, others wake up, and begin to really enjoy the dream which is waking life. We are all happy here, for dragons are dreamers. We are the Master of The Dream, the Great Dream which is Dreaming us up right now!”

He grins, and his face gets bigger, and I am suddenly in some crazy Alex Grey world... .EYES SO MANY EYES... distance... space... points... moving ... lines... energy...

I explode and implode at the same time.

I tumble through a wormhole, and land on the Moon with Hyu, and DJ Sabertooth. We stand up, and dust ourselves off.

“Where are we?”

“The Green Moon, Planet Moon!” I shout.

“What it’s all grey...”

“Alter your perception.”

We suddenly see Planet Moon, and we are smack in the middle of it. We are surrounded by jungle and waterfalls. There are ziggurats in the distance. I show him to the Biodome. It lets us in, and the AI smiles warmly at Hyu.

“See, we made this. You can make this on Teraluna, or Planet Moon, anywhere, really, just by using your energy. It’s called dreamscaping. Your dream guide will help you. Anyway, isn’t this great? It’s a shared dream. Are you going to remember?”

“I don’t think so...”

“Why not?”

“Well, what if I faked it? I mean, how will you know?”

“Just don’t read my DJ until you write down your dreams. Get it?”

“Well man, I had so many dreams this night. I really don’t want to wake up now to write this down. I am so tired. A little drunk in the other place. Anyway, will you remember this one this time? I promise I will try and remember the next one.”

“Um... sounds weird... uh, okay.”

“Oh, I am going to wake up- coughing!”

He coughs, and disappears.

He appears for a second, still coughing, “Sorry man!” then is gone.

Raven appears next to me.

“What an odd character.”

“Haha, okay, weirdo. You’re the one that believes in shared dreaming.”

Raven sticks her tongue out at me, and crosses her eyes.

“I mean it’s odd how normal he seems.”

“I know. He’s like a calm little Buddha.”

NOTES

[I]semi-lucid[/I]

I was with this chick, D. We were fooling around, and I asked her if she wanted to fuck. She seemed to not care one way or the other. I got annoyed and bounced.

[I]lucid frags[/I]

In my room.

I am trying to see if I can make a certain part of my dream body bigger.

***

I am holding a wooden shotgun. The barrel has twigs. I make a second barrel on the gun.

[I]Deep Dream State[/I]

I am with Selene on the Green Moon. I start coughing. Raven picks me up in something like an energy net, and takes me to the Healing Glen. The Frost Giant talks to me at length about the nature of sickness of the three main bodies: physical, dream, and astral.

Joseph said he is going to join us on the Moon, and live at the Tower.

I get bandaged up, and Selene and I go to my house in BanyanLand, and cuddle in the Great Room. We have a long discussion about the difference between her and Angel, and all my dream lovers, and physical plane lovers.

I ask her what the nature of love is, she says: Gift, and kisses me passionately.

I tell he I never want to wake up. I am done with the other world. She smiles and says I have to go back, there is a lot I need to do there.

(sorry for switching tenses, no time to fix atm)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID FALSE AWAKENING

00:30

Vampire dogs
Policemen find a body in the middle of a street. Someone asks them what happened and they say teenagers are mysteriously disappearing and ending up dead in some distant place, drained from blood. I go home and I am visited by a friend. I ask him to stay away from my dogs. He asks why and I show him that they all turned into vampires. He says I’m nuts to keep them, but I tell him I love them still and I offer them my blood. To demonstrate, I offer them my hand and all of them (three, I think) come to bite me. It hurts as hell, but I am willing to sacrifice myself for them. They are all on leash, but one of them escapes. Then I get worried about him biting someone or even just my cat who is on the house. I don’t want the cat to become a vampire to. Not my pussycat!

5:00

Money, money, money
At the entrance of my mom’s building. I come with dad, but he heads to the elevator immediately and I stop at the mailbox. I have one mailbox just for me, which I don’t open for years. It’s full of cash! I try to take it out without the incoming neighbors to see and get envious.

Where's mom?
Then I’m with my mom on car. I get out to get something or someone and she goes park on some alley. Then I meet someone, wee talk for a while and then I realize she is taking too long so I go look for her. I feel I am becoming lucid, but I can’t move on to tasks without first finding my mother, because I’m worried about her. I wake up.

6:00

Casablanca (ToTY)
I go back into LD. I’m in a house and I look for some mirror. I cross one while thinking of the Casablanca ToTY and I land on the entrance of a bar. I pass a folding screen and find myself in a corridor. I spend some time there because there are some amazing paintings and sculptures that I observe, trying to memorize them. Specially a painting about some winged snake-like surrealistic creature, being ridden by some warrior and a sculpture of an abstract man with a sun and moon head. But I’m brought back to the present moment by some gentleman who is pointing me the way to enter the main room. I look inside and it is all in black and white, tables with candles in the centre, fancy dressed people sitting and listening to jazz music. I look like Ingrid Bergman in my hairstyle and clothes. But once I enter the room, the black and white becomes slowly colourful. I see a guy on the piano and a queue of at least four people who seem to be wanting to talk to him. I ask someone how can I speak to Sam and they point me the guy on the piano and say “You’ll have to wait for your turn.” But Sam was an old white guy with white hair and glasses. I said “That’s not Sam!”, but they insisted it was him, the famous Sam. “Ok, so I’ll ask him to play a song.” I didn’t feel like waiting for my turn and it was my dream anyway, so I passed in front of all the other people waiting and was about to talk to Sam, when he finished a song and got up in a very bad mood, complaining that there was too much people nagging him. Instead of him, I ended up talking to another guy who was his manager and told me I should write down my name on a waiting list and the song I wanted Sam to play. I realized I would not be able to hear him playing the song before the dream was over, so I wrote my name on the paper. I had serious difficulties, because all the pens they were handing me over did not write properly, but in the end I managed. I didn’t know what song to ask for, so I wrote down “whatever song you wish to play”, because I figured he was sick and tired of playing all the crazy stuff other people were asking.

Market in Denn (RPG task)
Then I leave the place and thing about the RPG task. I see a backdoor and imagine to be on Denn when I open it. I go to the other side and find myself inside some kind of warehouse. I look outside and this part of the town looks a bit like the wild west. I see a saloon, people in horses and a diligence. I don’t go outside, because on a side door I notice this warehouse connects to a market. It’s an indoors supplier market. It’s really early morning and they are preparing the boxes with food to be shipped to the merchants. I look for the strange fruit I’m supposed to find and I do see among pears and apples, a few boxes of something that looks like a mango, but with spikes. It looks like the picture posted by WakingNomad on DV, but it is not pink, it is reddish and yellowish like a mango. I feel it might be it, but I insist in looking around a bit more, to see if I find some other weirder fruit. I don’t, so I pick up one of those strange mangos. Unfortunately some guy appears complaining that I shouldn’t be there and escorts me out. He distracts me from my intent to eat the fruit and I wake up. Grrrrr…….

7:00

Fighting monster with love
Trying to avoid someone or something. I was already lucid, but can’t recall what had happened before. I just know I’m on a bus and outside there’s an hideous creature, half elephant, half octopus with a giant jaw-like mouth. It is crushing cars as it moves along the street and eating people’s guts. It’s horrific. And then it jumps and lands on top of the bus. People scream and try to run to the extremities of the bus. The monster opens the bus and enters on it. It shape-shifts into a more humanoid form. I feel confident I can beat it, and I think people around me notice that because they look at me hopeful that I will protect them. The monster comes to me, but instead of kicking it’s ass, I decide to try the “love approach”. I give it a hug (yuc). I realize the monster is female, because of its energy signature. I tell her we can be friends. She gets really confused and at the same time pleased. She just feels unloved and lonely. I still feel revulsion, because I can feel it’s deep down emotions and they are ugly. But I make an effort. The bus is stopped already for some time and the bus driver opens the door. We come out and walk together. I can read her thoughts and she is visualizing us together forever, all the time. I don’t like the idea so I explain to her “You know what being friends mean, right? We will go out sometimes, call each other once in a while, but we’re not supposed to be together all the time, that would be slavery.” (I joke) She asks me if we’re now going out somewhere. I reply I have no plan, but let’s just walk and talk. Then we cross some neighborhood and I see a couple of swings. I tell her “Why don’t we ride the swings together for fun?” She looks at me like “Are you kidding, that’s for babies.” But I hop in and swing higher and higher. She just stands in front of me, trying to figure out why is that fun. Then she transforms into a cloud of black ravens hovering in the sky in front of me. I hope it is a good sign. Then some ravens become black open umbrellas and then slowly all transform into dancers in the sky with black feathered wings, making a weird, dark, yet beautiful, group dance. I guess it’s the creature’s way to set her emotions free. Then she says she wants to eat “nam”. I have no clue what that is, but I interpret as Vietnamese food. We go to a Vietnamese restaurant and she is loving it! I enjoy watching them prepare strange dishes – I’ve never actually been to a Vietnamese. Then we become engulfed on a large party they are organizing on a backroom of the restaurant. Besides the amazing food we were about to choose to eat, they had a huge long table with all sorts of sweets and cakes. They were so kind and offered me to try anything I wanted. The party was only hours later, but they insisted that I take whatever I wanted. So then followed an orgy of cake eating. It feels so good, when you know it’s calories free!

8:00

Lonewolf's test

Started out I was on some weird landscape with Raven and Nomad. We were near a beach and there was lots of crumpled buildings everywhere... it reminded me of Limbo from the Inception movie. I vividly remember stepping into a completely trashed house and stopping there to eat something.

I suddenly find myself teleported to lonewolf's dream house. I'm sitting in a living room with blue walls and one couch with another by it arranged in and "L" shape. In the house is him and some of his allies. Lonewolf has a sinister grin as he enters the room. He has a kado mask and puts it on and then pulls out a whip. Then i keep thinking he'd going to do some weird teleportation thing around the room which leaves blue streaks. It seems like he's going to try to hurt me, but then one of his ally dogs comes up to me and I start petting it.

It play bites my arm a bit and for a second I am worried wether it will try to rip my arm off, but it reads my fear of that and stops biting. It then just licks my arm and then playbites my arm. At lonewolf seeing the dog playing with me, he knows that I have no ill intent. Lonewolf puts his weird "gear" away. He then smiles and hands me a glass of water. I drink it a bit and notice a doll witha bit of presence. He says i can use that doll to get asuka back. I go to thank him but the dream ends.

Hypnagogic weirdness.

I kept falling into semi lucid hpnagogic dreams. In one I heard kaomea telling lonewolf to just "come on," but he was a wolf and walking away from her. In another hypnagogic flash i was eating a bowl of.... ciggarette butts EWWW. In another I was in a dark room and smoking.

Torture

I had a FA in some weird place. I was in a wooden room with a wooden shower place. I go out of the room and find myself in a larger area with all these doctors walking around. Some nurse comes up to me and drags me to a chart with a picture of a strait jacket. She points at it and says that I'm going to be wearing one of those while they take me into a room and get a little hammer and chisel where they are just going to give me a little "bop" on my head which won't hurt much.

I then yell, "you guys are going to give me a lobotomy... are you fucking serious?" I then run back into my weird room. I am pondering shutting out the lights so they can't find me. then I wake up.

Nap dream

Asuka is posing as "K". We are in calgary and visiting my cousin. It is snowing out and we are riding bikes around town. I am trying to avoid all the icy and snowy parts but K seems to be doing just fine... Everywhere I look in the snow I see K's name drawn in it.

I remember entering my cousins apartment from above with K. We flew down an elevator shaft and right into my cousin's apartment. I saw Peter there and asked him if he had any beer. He said, "no" and reminded me that it would piss off my new GF if I drank...

24.10.2010

Networks (Non-lucid)

★★★★☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Stretched out against a vast, black aether, they weave and twist about, branching down into unfathomable depths. At the head, a name for each: Walms, Naiya, Raven, and so many more. Delving down, I explore their reaches. The expanse below Walms' is the largest by far, and twines itself about the others more and more the deeper I go. Naiya's is closest to Walms', their trees the largest, while Raven's name is drifting, slowly pulling away from the others.

The scene shifts into a game of conquest, and here I find MoSh, willingly under the control of a female presence I never get to see. She guides him well; his troop placements are precise, his movements coordinated. I find myself under pressure. . .

______________

The dark conference room, with its expensive wooden tables and high-backed chairs lined up against the walls, is deserted. Making my way to a table across the room, the other High Aide walks in, aghast.

“They're not here,” she sounds frustrated.

“No. It's not like Congress to be here in a time of crisis. I expect they're safe somewhere, probably out of country.”

“Point taken, but that still leaves us. The enemy is descending upon us, as you well know, but what are we supposed to do about it?”

“Keep things under control,” I pick up a pink slip of paper with several ornate signatures scrawled across it. “A standing order,” I tell my coworker.

“What does it say?” the other Aide asks quietly.

“We have to evacuate.”

“Then let's get out of here. . .”

We walk through the white-walled building, all the way to the heavily populated atrium. A commotion erupts upon our arrival, and I drop the book I wasn't carrying moments ago. Stepping on it, I notice there's something under it. . . is that?

“NOBODY MOVE!” A man in a black leather jacket and slacks steps out in front of me, back turned, left arm locked around a secretary, right hand handed aiming a gun at her head. Just like the one beneath my book. I scoot backwards, dragging the book and gun underfoot, taken aback by the occurrence. Why would terrorists be attacking the House at a time like this. No one is here, except us two. Slightly dumbfounded, and fearing for my own safety, it takes me a moment to realize the man doesn't know I'm behind him.

Reaching down, I grab the gun; it's an old five shot revolver, I'm not really sure on the make. I point the weapon at the man's back and move slowly, silently forward. Putting up my other hand to steady the shot. . .

BANG!

A hole appears in the back of his jacket, followed by blood. He slumps to the ground, dead, but he's not alone. His accomplice comes at me from the left, swiftly. I try to aim the gun at him, but my hands are shaking too violently. A shot rings out, and a bullet wizzes by my head, tousling my hair. I fire wildly, BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG. Each shot either goes wide or spirals out of control, missing the mark. The accomplice fires back at me four times. One miss, two miss, three miss. . .

THMP.

The bullet rips through my chest and my mouth opens in shock, spitting up blood. I stagger for a moment before my eyes go wild and I look at my killer with a maniacal glint. I let him know, “I can regen, mother fucker!” I charge him, quickly regenerating the wound in my chest, pushing out the hot lead. Pointing my empty gun at him, I demand his weapon. He hands it to me, terrified; it's got one shot left. I put it against his head, and he whimpers like a puppy. As I pull the trigger, I grimace as. . . the shot bounces off his skull?

The anticlimactic ending stifles my rage, and the two of us have a chat. “You know the only people of any importance here right now are the High Aides, right?” I ask him.

“Oh, really. . ? Well, we should have figured as much with Rob moving in on Cambodia [Kaomea?] in the west.”

“Yeah, I still have to let the Adamarill know.”

“Admiral?”

“That's what I said.”

Another shift and I'm streaming a video of Galactica's CIC. Starbuck let's Adama know the current situation, and I can't help noticing the HAL eye at the bottom of the screen. I remember that signifies this is one of my Dream Journal Entry. Wait a second. . .

My phone rings.

Craziness (abridged)

I'm with kaomea in the healing glen. We are talking about stuff and making a connection... I think. Raven flies through a portal and we begin healing spells. We pull out asuka from her who is also infected, and then loads of dream demons start flying out of her dream body. Lonewolf's head appears from a portal, He is a wolf man. He gobbles up most of the dream demons and laughs and then disapears back. We pull out one more dream body from Kaomea... Haley?

Haley is a witch with bat wings, she's also infected with dark energy. She flies through a portal and I follow. We fly through loads of portals and dreamscapes, her form keeps changing from bat to a dark butterfly. She's singing nursery rhymes in a creepy voice... We enter a final portal and then the dream explodes.

In one dream haley is a little girl sitting in a corner and singing to herself... there's loud banging all around her. She cries but when I approach she has a demonic look like the girl from the ring. i open a portal and shoot and astral tentacle from my hand and drag her through the portal to the healing cave.

In another dream She goes to a place that looks like heaven. Her bf jaaz is sitting on a cloud with a guitar and rapping beatles lyrics. He sees her and blows a tornado at her. While she's caught I shoot a tentacle and drag her through the portal.

In yet another dream we are at a party where her bf's band is playing. She starts ripping heads off al the fans and telling jaaz that his music sucks. I swing through a portal like spiderman, grab her with a tentacle and go back to the cave.

there were other scenarios, but i can't recall them all.

I arrive back in the healing glen. Raven is still there healing Asuka/kaomea. she says "wow that was fast. you only left a split second ago..." Raven has cat eyes and licks her chops with a cat toungue.

"are you ok raven?" i ask.

"yeah... I think you're from an alternate dimension."

"oh, well heal this girl because I'm going to wake up soon and try to forget this whole mess."

"okay," the alternate raven says and she smiles.

Manuel

A very low recalled dream where Manuel and his DD are teaching me something. Can't remember what it was but i know my dream self always remembers these things. i may find myself using them in later dreams.

Long WTF dream

Started out.... I was in my inner world house... but seeing it as I did the very first time that I tried to visit my inner world. I was in the kitchen and there were asian twin males that looked like rednecks. I was folding strange sandwiches for them. I gave them the sandwiches but they didn't like them.

Then I remember being in a living room and watching TV. i was watching a show about Asuka? I think. and me and the people in the living room were jamming out songs. I wanted to play the songs with them live... but they said no.

we took off somewhere and wound up in some inside parking lot. I heard music from a band playing in the distance and then I saw a bulletproof sheild in front of the band. I saw bullet marks on it. to my left was plastic poly hanging around. I really wanted to get to the band but the people I was with wanted to go elsewhere.

We walked through some doors and wound up in a theater. I was walking down a very long hallway and was going in and out of different theaters. One was a typical movie theater. but in another that i walked in there was it was shaped all weird. I was walking along the aisle and suddenly there was some anti gravity force. Me and some woman (asuka?) were running over the anti grav parts and having fun floating from one side of the room to the other. My memory ends here.

Asuka

Asuka is pulling me down a hallway and saying that kaomea is outside and pounding on the sheild waiting to be let in.

Kaomea

Kaomea is saying something to me like "I can't believe I Just called you neevok again. What's wrong with me?"

Healing

Very vague memeroy of me lying in bed with Raven and Kaomea over me. They were doing a healing thing on me. Kaomea was asking what the bug on my chest was doing? Raven said it was feeding me negative energy. They kept talking about the bug.

My dream: Asuka Returns.

Me, Raven and Nomad chase manuel's Death Defier to a dreamscape that was the hill from the night before. Seeing that she's outnumbered and that we are organized, she gives up Asuka and they De-merge. This is a VERY GOOD move on their part. I tell them that now my inner world is sealed from them entering. and from now on, they are going to have to EARN my trust.

Manuel appears and his eyes are black and white swirling portals. I see a large image of his energy body behind him. He speaks simultaneously to all three of us and then he blows a tornado at us.

Missing Time



Her Dream:

Gotta Get 'Em Separated
I was with MoSh and some other people on the top of a hill at night, I looked around and saw there was a gentle slope downward all around us, and I could see houses a bit farther off. I looked closer and I could see that I was there with MoSh, Nomad, and Asuka, though Asuka looked a bit odd. I thought for a bit and I remembered the goal for this night, it was to get Asuka separated from some nagual woman who had merged with her… I couldn't remember why this woman had merged with Asuka, but I did know Asuka hadn't agreed to it, so the idea was to get them apart so Asuka would be free of this. I was all ready to do my song spell, it uses the song Come Out and Play by the Offspring, which works perfectly for the line, "Gotta Keep 'Em Separated," but it turned out I didn't even need to do that. MoSh told the nagual woman to release Asuka immediately or we would force her out, and after a brief hesitation, she de-merged from Asuka with no resistance. I guessed I wouldn't need the spell after all. After she was separated, another man appeared, though I didn't recognize him. He shot dirty looks around at everyone, then created a wind storm which I wanted to fly on, it just seemed like the thing to do. I was floating on the wind, but the man and the nagual woman both disappeared, along with the wind, causing me to face plant on the ground… ow…

Note: I fell asleep tonight with a couple plans with MoSh, though I didn't have any actual plans with Tigress since I wasn't able to talk with her today for some unknown reason… I fell asleep with my light / sound machine as usual, and I was once again successful in slipping into a WILD. Each time I do this it is amazing, since I went for so long being unable to do it or even have a lucid dream or even remember many non-lucids!

As I entered my WILD, I found I was in MoSh's inner world as I often am, I looked around but I didn't really have enough time to really see anything before MoSh was beside me saying he knew where to find Erik's guide. He said he really wanted to see what EG had to say, so he hoped at least one of us would remember, and by one of us he meant me… I said he should at least try to have a positive attitude, but didn't go any farther than that. MoSh opened a portal and the two of use went through into a wide green field, there was a stage at one end of the field, it looked like an outdoor concert venue. There were people on the stage setting up musical equipment, getting things ready, but they didn't seem to be in any kind of a rush. I saw the man I have come to recognize as Erik's guide not far off, he came over to us and said he had been expecting us. With that the scene around us changed, apparently EG had teleported us somewhere else, I now saw we were in a small but comfortable room, I couldn't tell much about it other than there were seats for everyone and a small fridge from which EG took three beers and tossed one to MoSh and one to me.

EG sat down and took a drink from his beer, then said he also knew why we had come here, that surprised me a bit, but it didn't seem surprising to MoSh at all. I figured it was normal for EG to answer questions before they had even been asked? Was he reading our minds right now? Puppies lift their legs so they can fly from the force created when they take a piss… that was what I thought… no reaction from anyone, so either that wasn't as weird as I thought it was or no one was reading my mind. Instead of acknowledging my thought in any way, EG started talking on a different subject, he was talking about what we had come to ask him. He was talking about MoSh getting together with Kaomea, he was saying that of course it was a possibility, anything is possible, but that doesn't make it easy. He said anything worth having is worth fighting for, and if it works out like it should, this would definitely be worth it.

MoSh wanted to know why this would have to be so difficult, why couldn't something be easy for a change, hadn't he earned it? EG said a life of ease isn't something you earn, it's something you create… and it is also almost always considerably less rewarding than the lives of those who choose the more difficult paths. EG said that MoSh was wondering why there would be resistance to him getting with Kaomea, but he had already noticed the reason even though he hadn't acknowledged it as such. He said that MoSh is not really supposed to be in this world, this was not where he had been intended to go, something had sent him here anyway. He asked MoSh if he hadn't sensed this at numerous points in his life, that he was an outsider in his own world… before MoSh could answer, EG said of course MoSh had felt that way, this is also one of the signs that a person is likely to be a nagual.

My mind wandered a bit, making me wonder if MoSh was an outsider like I am an outsider, maybe there was still a chance to find someone out there that would want to be with me? Or maybe my one chance was gone, having turned out to be with a complete asshole. Now I found out that EG could read my thoughts. He said that yes, an outsider can indeed find a soul mate in a world that wasn't meant to be their home, it just doesn't work easily. He said he knew of the events I was talking about, with the one I call James (my ex boyfriend), and when it had started it had the potential to work out fine. The main problem was that negative energies poisoned us, created problems between us, then eventually consumed the weaker of us, which was James. That made James into an asshole, trying for quite a while to push me away as I was still fighting the forces to stay together… until it finally worked, until he had finally done so much hurt to me that there was no way I would… or should… stay with him. He said it might not seem like it, but I was actually the one to come out on top in that situation, I was currently much better off than James.

MoSh wanted the topic back on him and Koamea, he said he wanted to know what he had to do in order to make things work out with her. EG gestured towards me, he said that meeting me might just have given MoSh the added knowledge he would need in order to make this relationship work, to overcome the forces that would seek to force them apart. He said when I had been trying to hold on, and even when James had wanted to hold on as well, neither of us knew much about dark and negative energies, when James acted like an ass I would get angry and send his negativity back, multiplied, then James would send it back to me multiplied again, until it reached a breaking point and we separated for a while, both of us both furious and depressed, wanting to both punch the other one in the face and cry at the same time… it usually ended up with me crying and James punching the nearest wall. Towards the beginning, it seemed James had accepted and understood that negative energies were frequently the cause of our problems… but over time he stopped accepting that as a reason and placed the blame fully on me, or sometimes on himself, but usually on me.

EG said this wouldn't have to happen with MoSh and Kaomea, because MoSh knows about negative and dark energies, and Kaomea would also seem to know about it. With both of them knowing what dark energy is and the effect it has, they would know better than to just multiply it and send it back when their partner got negative. Each of them would be able to understand that the other one was acting out of reaction to dark energy infection instead of just being an ass. So instead of having the dark energy and negativity escalate until it exploded, they would seek healing for each other, a way to get rid of the intruding dark energy, to set the other one free of it. This would rob the forces seeking to separate them of the most dangerous weapon they had. He said as long as MoSh and Kaomea couldn't be turned against each other, no force in the universe could separate them against their wills.

MoSh wanted to know who was seeking to separate him and Kaomea, and why were they seeking to do that. EG said he knows the nature of the forces, though not the exact identity, because the identity of those opposing MoSh and Kaomea would change… The nature of it was that which seeks to keep everything on a perfectly ordered path, the different timelines themselves seem to have a will of their own, and they don't like being interfered with. He said that is why it takes a significant event to alter any timeline, significant as when someone from outside the dimension interferes and makes considerable changes. That will inevitably create a ripple in the timeline. One of the inhabitants of the timeline changing their own timeline is very difficult, usually this just gets done from outside the dimension. So when an outsider such as MoSh or me enters a dimension and tries to find a companion or even just tries to find a place for themselves, that creates a ripple, which the timeline will fight. He said I already knew that, and for a while James had known, too, but then James had somehow forgotten that as he got consumed with negative energies.

MoSh seemed to be lost in thought about something, I wondered what he was thinking, EG waited for a few minutes while MoSh seemed to be muttering to himself incoherently. EG finally said that MoSh and I are more alike than we know, that saying we are like brother and sister isn't by any means incorrect. He said we had both gone through hard times that had left us fractured, but not broken, he said neither of us would be broken by any force in this world no matter how unsure of that we ourselves might be, he looked at me when he said that. EG looked back at MoSh and said MoSh and Kaomea have a very good chance of making things work, a very good chance of avoiding the fatal errors that James and I had made, although most of the errors were James' mistakes, and to keep the negativity from pulling them apart. He looked directly at MoSh, and told him that as long as both he and Kaomea are willing to hold on, they cannot be pulled apart… as long as BOTH of them hold on. This is where my memories end.

yeah and WTF is with no comments when my recall goes back up?

★★★★

Fighting like a video Game

I am being led by the hand somewhere. I can't see but i notice the sensation of passing through a doorway and into a hall. My perspective switched to third person view and I see the dream like a 2d video game from the mid nineties. Kaomea, is leading me into a room. I am bounded and blindfolded. She pulls out a hammer and is about to knock me around, she has a dark aura which means she is infected with dark energy. Asuka flies through a portal and manifests DCs, in between me and Kaomea, since i have 3rd person view I play my "guy" with a video game controller.

I see my self jump up like a spinning top and bounce of all the heads of the Dcs. when I hit them an animated wave flies from them just like In a video game. I kille them all, land and fall over and roll around. On the side I can see Asuka struggling to stop Kaomea from hurting me. But somehow during the struggle Asuka gets infected with the dark energy.

Missing time

Semi lucid

Fa, I decide to gooutside in the middle of the night for a smoke. I have the sense that I am dreaming so I try to fly. i manage to float in the air a bit and then drop. I forget my lucidity and fly to a store to get a midnight drink.

House wtf.

I travel to Ontario to see my family there but instead enter my inner world house. I walk around and the place is filled with people. I see Dan and tell him i have the money to pay him back from years ago.

I decide to go downstairs. The house is huge and impressive. I know I've never seen it before and yet I recognize the place. I look around and find every room from memory is there. I go into the living room area of the basement. There are lots of people seated at a table. The all are sitting at computer consoles. I wait to use one, but then everyone gets up and makes the consoles disappear.

I go upstairs and havea smoke outside. I go back in and still realize I have the butt in my hand. I go into the kitchen to look for a garbage can but I can't find any.I find Asuka in the kitchen baking cookies. But she looks worn out. It's like those over exaggerated commercial of smokers when their face gets wrinkly. I ask her where the garbage can is. she says she doesn't care anymore about leaving garbage around, just eat a cookie and things will be fine. I shrug and go downstairs. I see a pile of ashes on a part of the ground.

I sit down on a couch Next to Kao mea, several other people are on the couch as well. We are watching some movie.

Fa, and I'm on the couch, the lights are out and everyone's asleep. Kaomea is falling asleep and leaning on me. I begin whispering things in her ear but have no idea what i am saying. She starts leaning too heavily on me and pretty soon I feel like she is crushing me. a wave of panic hits me and I try to push her off,but i notice my hand is in her hair. (apperently i was running my hands through her hair earlier). I try to get my hand out but my hand is caught in her hair. I don't want ot hurt her and start screaming. She wakes up and screams as well and I wake up.

Mermaid

Asuka was healed earlier and me and Raven go after kaomea to heal her as well. she's by a large pool, and jumps in. She turnes into a mermaid and says. "I love swimming naked with men who's souls are old." At first my heart stops but then I realize she was giving me a back-handed compliment because I am the soul of a sage. I jump in after her.

some weird creepy mermen are luring her into a water abyss. They start making her say mean things to me. I lose control and I begin to battle her. Raven is with us now trying to stop me. She reminds my I am supposed to fight the creepy mermen.

missing time

back at the house.

I go back into the house I was in earlier and find it overun with Dcs. i enter some cafeteria and get my food. I sit down at a table and some guy takes my plate and spits on it. He laughs. I tell him I'll leave him alone for now, but should he ever do that again i'll make him drink my piss in a pixie cup.

He stands up and is 10 ft tall. He follows me into a hallway where I sit and meditate. The man grabs a huge guitar case and smashes it against my back. It slightly hurts, but not really. his guitar case is broken. I scratched. my back slightly and say "Was there a slight breeze in here? someone should close a door." I stood up and he looked feaked out. I shoved him through a wall leaving a big hole.

sometime Later I go downstairs and find a hospital like place that is sealed by a big blue door. i walk back up the steps with people in green and blue medical uniforms following me.

I am at a party. There are half naked women making out. I find this a little odd, and annoying for some reason. I leave and go outside. I am a futuristic city.

There are couple dressed oddly making out. One is a huge Samoan man in a green dress, and a little White woman. Air cars fly by... some strange alien creature hops past and grins at me...

Okay... Am I dreaming?

I pinch my nose shut, yet I can breathe.[COLOR="blue"] I am dreaming.
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[COLOR="blue"]Of course I am dreaming! Of course I am dreaming! I fly up into the sky. I am above the ocean. Hmm... what should I do next? Aha! I am going to fly to Angel and visit her in a dream! I fly toward the horizon. There is a beautiful storm cloud about to rain in front of me, lit up by the setting sun. It is amazingly detailed, orange, blue, grey, white, pink... Wait, I am flying west. I should be flying east to her in Florida. Okay...

I turn around and fly the other way. The storm is in front of me. DOH. This storm is in my way!

I look up. I see a hole in the sky forming above me. Oh, right, well, nothing between me and the Moon. I'll fly there and see if I can meet Raven. No, not fly. That will take too long. I can teleport. I can teleport! Right. I can teleport to Angel. I close my eyes and think of my girlfriend. I open them. [/COLOR]

I am in bed. Awake. DOH! :doh:

The first thing I remember is doing a RC. I had a FA, but I kept doing the nose RC, so I realized that I was actually still dreaming. unfortunately my eyes were closed, which is a recipe for disaster for me. I relaxed and tried to DEILD by pulling myself into my HH.

Eventually I made it into a dream, where I was spinning around in dark water. There were a bunch of glowing red bubbles around me. I surfaced and found myself in a cavern, where there was a line of gods and their animals. I talked to a few of them, asking about their powers and whatnot. One of them, which had a raven on his shoulder, said that his raven served as an extra brain for him.

Okay, so I tried taking my meds and then staying up for about 30 min afterward. And guess what??? That's right! I remembered a dream! Now to become lucid again!!!

I was fighting GIANT SPIDERS. I was with Raven. I was spinning and hitting them. I was also scared. I couldn't believe that they really existed. It never occurred to me that it was a dream, even given the weird armor, the swords and the fact that Raven could heal me. Of course I rationalized it because you always have to kill giant spiders with swords. They are immune to everything else. So we continued fighting spiders and soon was getting ready to leave the dungeon that we were in.

Somehow a spider ended up slipping into my bag. It was a baby, very young, and easily fit into it. Of course my backpack is where I store all my adventuring gear. Raven and I walked to my house. Well it was more like teleportation, and my mind rationalized it as walking. There we were talking with Mom, Dad, and Jen about our adventure. The spider slipped out of my back and bit my mom. Dad rushed her to the hospital. The spider must have laid eggs too. Raven and I go to kill the big spider when all of these little ones come pouring out of my bag. I am trying to kill them, but stepping on them and hitting them isn't working (which proves my sword theory!) Soon they area crawling on me. I am freaking out cause I am terrified of spiders.

One of them bites me! I want to go to the hospital but Jen says not to worry and Raven tries to get me to calm down. I ask her if she can take care of the rest of the spiders. A big blister, its boil like, is appearing on my arm where the spider bit me. A EMT appears. He tells me not to worry about the bite. It will not kill me. I am perfectly safe. I never have to worry here. What? Why not? "Because its all a dream!" he says. I pause and think about that. Dream? That means... ah shit! I wake up!