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Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragment):

There was some electroguitar-like music.

Dream 2(fragment):

Was talking to someone.

Dream 3(fragment):

Was playing some game.

Dream 4:

I wake up, keep eyes closed and try to DEILD, after a while comes tactile HH where i feel some kind of serpentine creature, then followed by rough entry into dream with loud sounds and sensations. It transitions into FA and i get up from bed, i notice that room has different layout which seems to be a mix of few old ones, also my PC looks slightly different. Also the weird part is that there"s still noise, then it transitions into two or three voices talking with each other, but i can"t understand what they talk about. Also gravity seems to be low. After looking around for a bit i try changing form, but with no result. After a few tries though dark scales appear on my hands. The whole time voices continue talking. I then notice a few white particles phasing through walls in a few places, i decide to go to balcony, which is open, but dream fades halfway.
I am back in the bed again with closed eyes, there are noises again which then combine into some kind of scream, so i realize that i am still dreaming, i open eyes but i wake up instead, whoops.

I was at my old house in blacks land, and my Mum was across the road at Janette's house. Mum wasn't doing too well, I think she was terminally ill. There was mattresses set up on the ground with blankets. There was a few people on them, including Mum. I wanted to spend as much precious time I could with her, and try and make her feel comfortable. I must have left and came back shortly after, and I could hear her talking to the person next to her. She said ''I was her favourite son''. I think Mum was now Kayley, and her problem had to do with her eyes. I wanted to start a charity/fund for the illness that was going to maybe take Kayley and Mum away from me.

I was in prison for a minor incident, but something had happened in jail which had given me the life sentence.

The prison was getting raided. We were all told to lay down, face down, facing the wall.

I somehow escaped prison, and made my way to a house. I was wearing clothes that didn't look completely like a prison outfit, but was uncomfortable in case I got noticed as a prisoner.

I had reached my family, but they were not my real family, just people I knew (Josh D?). I was happy to see them and was cherishing the moments I was having with them. I broke down and started crying when I mentioned about how I was given a life sentence.

I was now in what looked like, Germain's bed room. I was using looking into his mirror and noticed I was now someone else, Miley Cyrus . I had all her features that she has of now. I was trying to style my hair, but I couldn't get it to look the way I wanted it.

Miley Cyrus

I asked Josh, how I could fly out of the country without getting caught.

Scene changed.

I was now playing Australian Rules Football(AFL). I saw a great mark by a Melbourne Demons player. I thought It may have been J. Howe, but I don't think it was. The ball had been kicked over my head, I ran back with the flight of the ball and took a courageous mark. I tried to kick the ball long and direct, but it went to the left, but luckily one of my team mates was there to take the mark.

I remember the ball going over a fence. Some players said that we wouldn't be able to get it back, as they asked the owner of the house for it, and he said no. I had a look at the fence it had gone over and noticed there was a lot of barb wire at the bottom of the fence.
I thought that I should jump over and get it, but saw the owner in his house, looking our way and didn't risk it.

Eventually I think the man threw the ball back over his fence to us.

I was back at Germain's. I was talking to Chris Judd (Carlton AFL Player), about why I couldn't play at the top level in AFL, due to my shoulder. I think he thought I was talking about him, so he explained about his surgery. He said he tore his hamstring off his shoulder

Chris Judd

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #149: Chicken Fight

I'm working as a consigliere and fixer for a 20-year-old Filipino billionaire. He's a natural genius, a derivatives trader that controls a global financial/oil and gas empire. He relies on me and a talented, resourceful woman named Rachel as his on-the-ground "problem solvers".

I'm in a dark room watching a movie projection on a wall. The presentation is talking about some aspect of derivatives trading. I get some kind of message or phone call with a new assignment, and I hurry out of the room. There's somebody that I need to apprehend and speak to that's a spectator at a nearby cockfight. I know that both my boss and Rachel are counting on me to handle this and I feel a tremendous sense of responsibility to get it done right.

It's night, and I take a set of metal stairs down to a dusty street, hanging a right into an alleyway. I see a metal door to my right and hear some faint crowd noise -- that's where the cockfight is being held. I detect movement to my left and I sense that a huge man is lunging toward me to tackle me. I twist my body around and throw a right-handed haymaker that catches the man right in the mouth, stopping him short. I knee him underneath the short ribs and he staggers back. Something tips me off that this is a dream and I become lucid.

The man comes stalking back toward me, as fat and muscular as a bear. I'm struggling with what to do next. I have a strong urge to get right to lucid goals but I'm trying to process in my mind what will become of my boss and Rachel if I fail this task. I slowly retreat from my assailant, not ready to act until I'm sure that I'm not letting down real people who depend on me.

I finally convince myself that Rachel and my boss are just dream characters. My attacker is about four feet away when I wind up and hit him with a two-handed force push that sends him flying violently back, where he lands in a heap. His body has gouged a nearly foot-deep furrow in the dusty ground and, more surprisingly, has turned into a huge roasted chicken!



I walk onward as calmly as I can. I hear a few DCs chattering in surprise behind me but I try to put it out of my mind. They don't care. They're just looking.

Walking between two compact cars and onto an empty paved road, I look up at the sky. The stars are out tonight and I can see far more of them out here than I can with all of the city lights that are near my home IWL. I jump up, getting a good fifty feet into the air. I'm on the edge of a much larger city, one where I'm sure that I can find the means to accomplish my Task of the Month and Task of the Year goals.

I hit a second jump, this one slightly higher than the first, but start to sink down again. No, now I'm flying. I imagine myself catching an updraft the way a hawk would catch a thermal. I shoot upward, high above the city. The sky becomes thick and bright with stars and I know that I can go anywhere that I want. I decide that the Colosseum is just a little ways off in a darkened portion of the city. I begin flying that direction when I suddenly feel Wife's hand slam into my pillow in waking life. She rolls over a couple more times. I try to go in for DEILD but I'm a bit too adrenalized to make it back under.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps. And new kind of WILD/DEILD entry(for me at least)! Also random fragment i recalled from previous sleep.

Prev sleep:

Dream 3(fragment):

Some kind of factory, molten metal.

WBTB/naps:

Dream 1(fragments):

I was doing stuff at home and was typing something on my PC, then i shouted something from balcony and heard some talk outside, then that talk started coming from weird directions.

Dream 2:

I wake up and go back to sleep while trying to DEILD, shortly some voice starts calling, and asking me about something, i feel falling sensation and open eyes, there appears to be hole leading into darkness below me right in the bed and i start falling into it while 'glitching out' aka periodically teleporting back to top like some kind of video game lag. Then everything fades.
I wake up and look at my hands, they are weird so i am still dreaming. I get up from the bed, go into quadruped stance and focus as much as i can while shouting commands, it works out and i start becoming bigger and i feel as my head and neck becoming different and longer, soon i am almost ceiling high. I try to go out through(Pretty big) balcony doorway but dream suddenly fades out and i wake up.

Dream 3:

I am in the bed, looking through window outside. I see the moon, and it's daytime, it's grey and it's moving strangely quick. I think that "if i am dreaming it moon should start moving towards me". Moon suddenly transforms into Earth, or some Earth-like planet, not sure, and starts rapidly getting bigger-closer, surely i am dreaming! It crashes into Earth and there are debris and stuff floating outside and massive earthquake too. It also became kinda low/zero gravity. Strangely my room didn't changed at all. I get up and notice two characters fighting outside in the flight, one of them has black wings. I try to phase through window but suddenly curtain appears in front and blocks my way. Dream destabilizes but i manage to force it back, curtain attacks me by literally trying to cover me and my face, i tear it apart a few times but it keeps coming, then dream fades to black.
Then i wake up, twice.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Had almost WILD where i got to transition with HH of someone entering room and trying to wake me up, but didn't got any further than that.

Then the second nap, same HH but this time with voice: 'Wake up". I wake up into dream and get up from the bed, i look around and nobody seems to be here and location of stuff in room seems to be different, i shift to quadruped stance and remember about TOTM, going on the walls/ceiling thing. I go onto the wall easily but when reaching the ceiling i get confused my position and then i am back on the floor, well then. I go towards the door and attempt to finish shift, door becomes slightly reflective and i see something blurry and shortly i feel pain out of sudden, then dream fades out. In dark, i focus my will on getting it back.
I wake up and do RC, hands weird so still dreaming, i go towards balco-... well there's no balcony but just exit outside for some reason, on ground level. I go outside and look around then i end up losing lucidity and start walking on streets and talking to random DCs, then shortly i wake up.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was walking on some street and some random dog tried to bite me in the arm, but as it tried it was unable to bite through my skin. I said something along the line "Not you", got the arm out of dog's jaws and continued walking further.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was going through some wooden place and then there was some open area, there was a wall with a barricaded hatch. I tore the barricade apart and opened it. I am looking through and there's a railway with some military people, trees and some tall buildings. More buildings appear as i look around and i realize that i am dreaming.
Suddenly i am back at home, at the kitchen, i talk to family DCs that are here and ask some dream control stuff, then i go into another room with a window and start shifting into quadruped stance, but dream fades out shortly.

Dream 3(fragments):

I am watching some pokemon anime and there was something about turning humans into pokemons and there was some black colored pokemon that was related to that, then i realized that i am watching episode not from the beginning and set it to beginning, but then i also realized that i am dreaming and that i would not be able to finish watching it... Then dream faded out.

I tried to DEILD but lost awareness.

Dream 4:

I am in some game and i am going through level that looks like something from Doom, green walls with pipes. Somebody says something about training course and i enter the passage and get to blow up some barrels using some weapon. Then there's another passage and light turns on as voice explains something about night vision, which i turn on. At this point i realize that it's dream, go out of the area back to the start and turn off night vision. As i return i try to expect that there should be flying course, and i find another passage which leads to the open area. The area is L-shaped and filled with lava at the bottom, walls are green and there are some brown metallic platforms. I take off and fly with my wings, and also feel my body changing shape slowly a bit. I also notice that my wings are black colored. I fly around some more and manage grab into walls to quickly change direction. Shortly i notice that i am slowly becoming slightly bigger as well.
Then some DC appears and says that "She shouldn't have left the cage open", i ask which cage and he answers "Your cage" and then adds that "It would be better for you to be in it", before i can do anything dream fades.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

There were some false awakenings and i was chatting on dragon forum.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was something about cartoon characters and preventing someone from stealing someone's wife and some weird movement in air on something.

Dream 3:

I was at home doing some stuff, walls were different and there was some kind of celebration going on, somebody was asking questions about money and annoying me so i gave him a coin and told him to go away, then went to nap.
Then i wake up and realize that i am dreaming, i get up and go to balcony, dream seems to be unstable a bit but other than that room looks similar to IWL. As i reach balcony door i attempt my new idea for changing forms, reversed transformation, which almost immediately works and i fall into quadruped stance. Though at this point dream destabilizes.
I wake up again but i am still changing, i feel tail, then dream 'desyncs' and what i feel is different from what i see.
Then i wake up again and talk to someone, and wake up again.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

There was some anime with story about some detective dude who visited some school and was getting all clues by beating up people and in the end he found out that the teacher was behind everything and then there's some other character appeared.

Dream 2:

I am in my room, doing some stuff, and i spontaneously realize that i am dreaming, i take off a few headsets(seems to be my new reality check, multiplying headsets, haha) and then go towards balcony, i look around and it's different, more cramped than IWL and it's more structually into building. Suddenly dream fades out.
I wake up still dreaming, but can only see cloudy blackness, though still can feel that i am in my room. Dream is highly unstable. I get up from the bed and go in general direction of balcony, i hear familiar voice of attacker DC, as he gets in my way, i forcefully shove him off to the side and continue towards balcony while trying to force dream to stabilize with sheer will. As i reach balcony dream becomes stable and blackness fades, i rub hands and take off a few more headsets because why not, balcony seems to be pretty similar to before false awakening.
I jump, feel my wings and start flying. I fly to the left from the balcony and there are some yellow buildings, trees and some highways. After a bit of just flying i decide to try that idea of starting transformation from phantom sensations. I focus on them and it starts, i feel and see snout and also the side of nearest building becomes reflective, in reflection i see that my head is a head of dragon now, black/grey scales and a few horns, but as i try to move, it reverts back. I fly over some fence and there's some passage under bridge. I land and decide to go through it, there are some DCs.
I exit passage and now i am in some foggy park place(As in, natural fog), with trees and a puddle of water to the right, i take off once again with my wings and i fly higher, out of the fog. I look around and there are some tall red brick buildings surrounding the park, i fly higher and get onto the roof of one, then i continue flight. As i fly i notice that one of buildings has small weird HP bar near the roof, i get onto it and stomp a few times, with each stomp taking out part of hp bar, as it reaches 0% building falls apart in the place, then i continue flight and notice more buildings with hp bars and part of their hp missing, they look actually damaged. As i fly over one, i hear some voice saying something and then some force knocks me to the right, i fall onto the streets, but manage to land perfectly. I look around and see some buildings on fire and some factory building. I walk and lose lucidity, i walk through some streets and reach some gas station.
I wake up and i am apparently in some outdoor restaurant place and my tagbook is on the floor, some weird kid is looking at it. I grab whole thing and kid says that he knows me from dreamviews apparently. We start talking about something and then he asks if he can have some of candies that i apparently have in the pocket, there's four of them. I give him one and eat one myself as well, it's yummy.

Dream recall from today's naps.

Dream 1:

I am at home, doing something on PC, then i am interrupted by someone questioning about my nap and look at the time, it is 1:00 or close to that, but i already went to nap at 2:00, i start feeling the dream too, so i am dreaming. Dream is slightly unstable, i go to balcony and jump out, i feel my wings and start flying around, the place looks mostly similar to waking life, but to the left there are some buildings that don't present IWL. I end up flying around for a few minutes, getting in some wind currents a couple of times, looking around and trying transformation. I also notice that sky is being like background texture rather than actual sky, weird, haha. Then dream fades as i wake up moving around the room in chair, i get confused and then wake up properly.

Dream 2:

I am on the bed in some grey-ish room and i think that's my room, there's some aquarium with fishes right above doorway, it's weird, i start reading some magazine and then look at aquarium again, now there's pretty big and really weird fish of green-yellow color, and it has 4 big frog-like eyes. I end up multitasking between reading and watching it, at first it just stays in one place, but then it slowly starts phasing through aquarium glass. Then it teleports to the left from me, onto the wall, and then onto my head, everything goes dark. I feel that i am dreaming and vision fades back in and room is shaking for a bit, also it is darker now and... there's same DC that attacked me few lucids back, i say something to him and give him "Don't even think about doing it again" look and he gets scared and sulks in corner, then says something about what i am doing not being a good idea. I go to window and look outside, i am apparently in some kind of skyscraper building. Then dream fades out.
I wake up but in different room of my home, the one with chandelier. I get up and let out a bit of roar, go on all four and jump through window, ending up partially phasing through it, i feel wings and try to fly through, but i get stuck for a bit, then as i phase through i end up falling onto the floor of some different room. Brown walls, bookshelves, green/red carpet and some small lights. A bit confused, i jump and fly through window again, this time ending up outside. It looks like it's autumn, since all trees have yellow/reddish leaves, and also there's really huge fence. I try to fly over it but dream fades out and i wake up twice.

Very well-meaning but flawed attempt at the North America Task of the Year. (The King Kong one!)

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #128: Donkey Kong Junior

I falsely believe that I have a young niece named Emily that's arriving by plane. I'm waiting with Dad in the airport for her and all of the passengers have gotten out with no sign of Emily at all. I'm becoming fretful. Dad isn't very worried and is loudly telling me stories about how thoroughly the new cereal he is eating "cleaned out his colon". I'm very embarrassed by how loudly he's talking and decide I'd rather go look for Emily.

It's like the old days when you could meet someone at the gate, and I'm allowed to stroll right through the jetway and onto the plane. I walk up and down the rows of seats, but there's no sign of her. But when I double back I find her waiting by a bend in the jetway. She's about 11 or 12, short, blonde, a little pale. I realize that I have never seen her before in my life and become lucid.

There's one of those little doors that leads out to the runway, and I walk through it and start flying toward a city that I see on the horizon. Night either falls quickly or I suffer some kind of memory gap here, because I land at a parking lot in a cluster of buildings. There's some sort of party going on with loud music bleeding out into the parking lot. There are a lot of people milling around in the parking lot itself, and some of them start following me.

I spot my friend "RF" as part of the nearby group and I tell him to "check this out" as I approach one of the parked cars. I decide that the car is as light as an inflatable balloon, lift it, and turn it over on its side.

RF looks stunned and asks me how I did that. I tell him that you just pretend something is the way that you want and you usually find that it is. I become sort of boastful and start showing off. "Look at this car. If I decide that it tastes like cake, it will." I take a huge bite out of one of the tires and it's pretty good! Tastes like a fairly decent birthday cake. Several other people in the crowd join in, taking bites out of the car here and there. I spot my high school friend "Alf" in the crowd, and he makes some remark about how cool this is. Pretty soon, a huge crowd of DCs has surrounded the car and started to devour it. It's cool to watch them consume the car but also vaguely disturbing. Reminds me a bit of a Walking Dead zombie feed.

RF and I walk away from the car along the sidewalk, reaching a building with the mural of a skyscraper painted on it. I suddenly remember the North America "Empire State Building" Task of the Year. The mural doesn't look quite like the Empire State Building, but I decide that I'm going to start climbing it and then turn it into the Empire State Building as I go. I tell RF this is for "Task of the Year" and he says "Go for it." I latch myself to the mural like Spider-Man and start climbing up the wall. It feels really forced at first, but the more I get into it, the more it feels like I'm scaling the side of a tall building.

And now here I am, clinging to the side of the Empire State Building, the wind pulling at my clothes and body. I'm trying to remember what the Task of the Year even involves. (I'm supposed to transform into King Kong, climb to the top, and fight with the military.) I feel a little frustrated with my memory, so I decide that I want to get inside and think about what I'm supposed to be doing. I either enter an open window or phase through a closed one, winding up in a small, quiet marble elevator lobby.

There's an elevator waiting here, and I step inside. It only goes up to "9", and I wince that this is not nearly high enough for the Empire State Building. I press "9", assuming that there will be a new bank of elevators I can take at that point which will bring me all the way up. The elevator begins its ascent and I pace nervously, worrying that I'm buying too much into the mechanics of the dream. I can't remember whether I'm supposed to be ascending normally, climbing the building, or what, so I just go with it.

The elevator doors open on "9" and I step out into a lobby that looks much like the previous one. There's a bulky, square-jawed maintenance man in overalls here. "Hey!" he shouts. "You're not supposed to be here!" With that, he winds up like a baseball pitcher and throws a large crescent wrench right at my head. It clonks straight into my forehead and drops into my right hand. My forehead tingles a bit, but there's no serious pain.

Somehow I now have a wrench in both hands. I feel angry with the guy for attacking me. "You're an asshole!" I inform him and throw both wrenches at his stomach. They bounce off of his torso and he doubles over, glaring at me but not seriously hurt. I feel a little bad and have no interest in going to war with this guy, so I dash into another elevator, stab at a button without looking, "knowing" that it leads to the viewing platform.

Again I wait, and soon the elevator opens up to an open-air room that looks a bit like a bell tower. There's a guy in a lab coat here explaining some scientific breakthrough about lycanthropy and animal transformations in general. I run past him along a plank to a balcony. Now I want to transform into King Kong. I look to my left and there's another skyscraper, even taller than the "Empire State Building" that I'm standing on. On top of this other building stands the cheesiest-looking Godzilla-style lizard monster I've ever seen, and I can't help but chuckle. Looks like all the movie monsters are out and about today.



I start hopping about like a gorilla and imagine myself transforming into King Kong. In my craziness, I manage to leap off of the building. Rather than a fall, there's an odd transition and now I'm just running along a tree-lined street below, roaring like a gorilla and pounding my chest. The chest-pounding feels a little phony but the gorilla roars are amazing. My hands and arms look big and gorilla-like, but I'm not nearly large or hairy enough to be King Kong. I feel more like a big, strong, long-armed dude with a gorilla roar.

Some DCs rush up to attack me, but they're all just regular men in casual street clothes. I shove them away, remembering that I need to get attacked somehow and win, but I'm very confused as to the details. I take a few swats at these DCs and amusingly, they go flying off whenever I hit them. I know that something's off with all of this, though, and that I need to be a lot bigger, I need to be up on top of the building, and I think I need to fight something tougher. The details are really hazy, though, so I just lumber around for a while longer amusing myself until the dream ends.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was walking around my room and suddenly gravity ceased to exists.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in bed and i was looking at jewel case of some CD or DVD, then i started watching some story involving some scientist having a possible choice of exchanging lives with some villain lady. Then there was some action on rooftops.
Then i wake up and see jewel box again i am sure that it already happened and i am dreaming, i stand on all four and start transformation but dream fades out, i keep feeling it for a few seconds but then i wake up.

Dream recall from today's naps. Quite alot of FA's and forgetting to do RC's even though i do them in waking life every time i wake up, still got lucid though.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was playing some game that looked like 2D isometric action RPG type of game, like Diablo. I was taking some quest in a city but on the way to completing it i had to fight lots of quickly respawning enemies.

Dream 2:

I wake up and get distracted by family, talking about something, suddenly i am in chair, i get confused and go back to bed to nap, which is located in different place in room. I try WILDing and soon i have sensation of dreaming, i recall my goals and that's enough for transformation to start, i get up with some force(and still with eyes closed) and i feel as my body starts changing, i stand on all four and my limbs are changing to be ones of a dragon, tail starts appearing as well, all feels as vivid as it would be if it was in waking life, then i decide to open dream eyes to take a look but i find myself back at the bed, unchanged. I think that i actually woke up and decide to go back to nap.
I wake up again, this time i am sitting in chair and facing window, i hear annoying metallic noise, some black dude is standing on metallic platform connected to a car, platform slowly moves out of view and he says something, i respond by waving and he says that he can't reach me through window, then platform moves out of view. I shrug and go back to nap.
I wake up again, i notice somebody's bleeding finger on the table and decide to throw it out of window, i fail epicly and then i think what am i doing and what's happening, i realize that i am dreaming and stand on all fours again, my limbs start changing vividly but shortly dream fades out...
And ofcourse i wake up again because there's some weird sound outside, i look through window and notice huge ad stand that closes and opens with an annoying noise, i blame it for the noise that i heard in dream earlier and then i get into discussion with somebody about some kind of new sport event, the huge ad opens up with sound again and plays some ad related to that event. I wake up properly.

Dream recall from today's nap. A couple of lucids, ultralow awareness though.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was trying to nap but was getting constantly interrupted in one way or another.

Dream 2:

I was in some modern white skyscraper-style building, there were some anime characters i was talking to and then i was going down the stairs and reached some office-like place. Shortly the building started crumbling, i was going further down the stairs while avoiding holes, then the view switched to third person and i was apparently anime character as well, i was about to exit the building but i noticed child Gaara, just standing on stairs and not moving, i told him to go out but he was ignoring me. I (still in third person)walked back up and tried to move him, but he was like glued statue, i even did ended up doing some quick transformation like huge wing for a second, but all useless. I walked out of building and was back to first person view, i got into some red car and was driving on the road. Then it went back to third person and camera rotated around the car, moving further and further away i realized that i am dreaming but it was kinda 'cutscene mode' and i haven't done much in the end. Shortly dream faded out.
I woke up at home and was immediately distracted by family(As always... That would make stable dream sign but it doesn't happen IWL, so...), there was something about going out of home, i agreed at first but then was like 'nope' and got back home.

Dream 3:

I was in some version of Doom 3(According to dream at least, it didn't looked like Doom 3 at all), in editor mode. I opened level that was one of the endgame ones, which was happening in some tall techno-style dark building. I was noclip flying around looking for boss rooms to check scripts and stuff, i got through some boss rooms and soon i was in some different area, metallic with yellow lighting.I realized that i am dreaming because i had feeling of dream and walked around for some time, navigating through some dark passageways with pipe-like structures in walls and grating, soon dream faded out though.
I woke up and(forgot to RC) was in some restaurant place, alot of stuff was colored white and there were various challenges related to food. I selected one challenge in which i had to bring some food to small cylindric container that sucked in all food that was dropped into it, i filled it halfway through and then i...
Wake up at same restaurant place again, though this time SilentEternity is here... and another SilentEternity... and also another one of myself. We start discussing something and then dream ends.

Date: 08 July

Pre bed: 100mg B6

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Sleep quality and recall: I have been sleep deprived for a number of days in a row, so I really needed my sleep. As soon as my more memorable rebound began (after 4.5 hrs of sleep and an involuntary WBTB), I went directly into a lucid, took key notes only, went back to bed to have another chain of lds. Sleep was the priority so only took brief notes. Also due to deeper sleep in which I think these LDs occurred plus them being one after the other, I was going deeper into the dreamworld and some details were lost.

Early dream: I am in some house and think about a family friend who's visiting in the dream. She will sleep in a particular room, I am now in the room and examine two beds, and a very long couch and make some comments about that. Soon she comes in and we start talking. I am very happy to see her, so I hug her and kiss her on the cheek, one side only, and she does exactly the same, which I find a bit strange. She has short ginger/copper hair, a really beautiful color and looks much younger and as if she has lost some weight compared to rl.

Fragment: my dad was involved. I just remember cleaning something outside, wearing a short top which makes me feel uneasy as some guys are staring at me, so I go inside.

LD1: My first memory is that I am standing and possibly I wake in this bed in a room that vaguely reminds me of my first room. It is dark and there is a sense of creepiness and I explore around as the room changes to a larger apartment. Unfortunately, I don't have much memory of what I looked at in the first part of this ld. This took some time and then I look out if the window and see some strange graffiti. This whole thing is moving and it looks like a picture of graffiti next to another picture of graffiti, below and above each more graffiti pictures and some people there as well. It looks insane/trippy. There seems to be some story developing as outside on the street and to the right some kind of danger is making these people on the graffiti window want to run away. I briefly wonder about what kind of supp I took this night and remember it was the B6, which slightly worries me. (I tend to have more aggressive/chaser dreams with it). Yet, I try to control my reaction as I really don't want to spend the ld running from this thing.

I concentrate on other items in the room. Some kind of a cupboard or whatever, I just see thousands of tiny objects, each one is different and unique. I am literally overwhelmed with detail and unable to remember any particular item. The images remain stable. While this is extremely interesting and I enjoy examining these items, I realize that one can sink to uncontrollable depths due to indulging and decide to move on. I see a glass door and just pass through it as if it is nothing, and wonder a bit about that. I also briefly check out my reflection on this glass door. This room is also very dark and I really don't feel like exploring in this condition as I begin to worry I might meet something I am not going to like.

I try to back off but then get paranoid that I am summoning something as I keep on staring at the darkness behind a door. Soon something begins to form there and comes towards me. Luckily, I only managed to get some grey formless furniture to appear from the door and come towards me. As it gets in my proximity, I instinctively lift it with my mind, and hold it in the air for a while. This reminds me of various tasks that were included in the competition, and I go through my own tasks, but most of them involve some DCs. The only one that I remember I can do here is to transform into a tiger. I simply think of that, and possibly because I am so deep into the dream, it is quite easy. I immediately find myself on fours, and check if my paws are those of a tiger, they are! The only problem I seem to have is with my head/neck. There is some tension and I am unable to look ahead as my head is facing the floor. I am trying to fix this but it doesn't work much and I experience all kinds of weird sensations, connected to vision, my body, floating, etc.

I think this is how the dream ends. I wake up feeling very sleepy (some 5 hrs after bed), take some key notes and review in mind as not to forget. I also think that there was another task that I can do without DCs, swallow fireworks. I fall asleep again.

LD2: I find myself in what looks like my first room again, some floating feeling again, and I am in a normal upright position. Something about this whole thing feels weird as I am thinking what the hell am I doing here, I realize this is a dream just like some time ago. The room is dark again and I remember how this is not an issue for Xanous anymore, but it certainly bothers me, it is just unpleasant, and not just the darkness, but rather the whole atmosphere.

I remember that I don't have to be confined to using conventional means so decide I will use a flashlight to help me. (I had previously thought about this) I look around and there are all kinds of things on the furniture but no flashlight. At this time, I remember that there was this other no DC fireworks task that I can still do and look for some fireworks among the objects, but don't find any. My memory is a bit vague as to what I do afterwards. After spending some more time looking around, I finally gather the courage to risk and phase through the wall or some furniture on the wall. It swallows me and I float in the void.

LD3 fragment: I am in some other room but this time it is daytime. I am examining the surroundings, very enthusiastic, but don't remember almost anything. I want to go outside so I carefully climb on the window and try to cross over to the street. As I do, I feel as if I am phasing, but do some movements to emerge through this invisible sticky water-like material, and hold on to the dream. I lose my balance and fall forward, ending up in the void, where I am floating and rolling at the same time.

LD4: I suddenly find myself in a room, that slightly looks like that of bf. Bf is to my left and we are discussing something. I am facing a wardrobe with a mirror and notice that am wearing a long Chinese dress. It looks a bit strange since I can't figure out why am I dressed like that. I take a closer look in the mirror. Not only that but I just look ridiculous, it is oversize, my hair is kind of weird too. This is a dream. OK, so finally I can do TOTM. I hug my bf's DC, hold like that for a while, then wait for a reaction. He doesn't do anything just breathes and there are some hissing-like sounds coming from him. He finally manages to whisper the word "something". I step back and look at him. While I consider him to be my bf he is a different DC now, more like Nicolas D'Agosto.

There is something unpleasant about him, but his proximity triggers some sexual desires on my part and I start thinking of what to do. I tell myself that it is ok to do that if I want to and think about DV and how people are fine with it, and how I am going to report that...So I am very close to him, both of us with clothes and I am struggling with myself as he just waits there. Two opposing forces are acting on me until I finally manage to move away and just observe him for a bit.

I remeber other tasks with DCs - "assign a DC", I feel like there's no sense in doing that, then "ask a DC". This one sounds good so I decide to go ahead and ask him where my phone is. (I lost a phone at home). He is totally dumb and doesn't say anything just assumes some strange waiting for me to jump on him kind of position. The dream fades?

LD5: I am in my high school and bf's mom is also there.I am still lucid but this is extremely hard now as I feel I am sinking deeper into sleep. I am mostly worried that all lucid memories will be totally lost as I haven't journaled and try to remember how many lds I had before. I count four. I continue down the corridor, float and fly up the stars in yet another float/fly style with my hands locked like in a prayer/or like I am swimming. As I float up, I just remember the ld with the tiger transformation and the issues I had with my head. I can somehow compare the experiences and sensations during both events (transformation and current float moving).

My floating is somewhat hard to control not in terms of where I am going but in terms of how I'm seeing. It's like I am in weightlessness turning over randomly, seeing the world upside down, sideways, etc. As I am trying to figure out a solution for these problems, the dream fades, and I if I recall correctly I float in a similar way in the void. Or maybe not. I spent so many dream ends shortly floating in the void that night, it is getting hard to distinguish those.

LD6: I wake up my first room, on the bed, it is dark. I get a bit tired of this scenario. This time I am lying on the bed while some sort of indigo/dark blue energy is attacking me. This does not feel nice at all as I literally sense this thing is energetically feeding on me. I wake up from the nasty feeling.

These dreams took around 30-40 mins of sleep. After waking up, I take some brief notes. The last dream left me a bit distressed so even though I need my sleep badly I am reluctant to immediately fall asleep. I try to dissipate the mood, then go into more unmemorable deep sleep.

LD7: There was another LD that I vaguely as I lost lucidity at some point and then had 3 NLDs. I remember two lucid fragments: one where I was checking out shadows - my own shadow and that of someone else and some objects. I was excited to have finally noticed this. I conclude that the shadows are very realistic and on this occasion there is no difference from RL, at least according to my dream logic at the moment. I also remember organizing an erotic scene, but it got interrupted by other dream themes.

Other dreams: I remember having three NLDs that were cool and interesting, but unfortunately cannot recall as much as I would like to.

NLD: I am having a tiger that I take care of. For some reason this tiger is activated into life and then made to hibernate by being drained and filled with liquids like water and blood. It is a good tiger and I wonder why did I decide to switch it off by taking life away from it. Someone tells me that the more you do that to these types of animals the worse they get every time they come back. The give a list of symptoms that will develop over time, the first one being aggression. I am worried about my tiger and want to bring it to life as soon as I can tomorrow. At the same time, it seems I have another animal, that is some kind of leopard that morphs into a dalmatian/leopard with the head of a bull terrier. This animal already suffers from side effects of the process and is ultra aggressive. I try to lock it in a room and think what esle to do.

NLD: I come across a beautifully decorated box. If contains two strangely shaped crystals, a bit a like the tooth or horn of some animal. These crystals belong to some kind of a ruler/king who has now sold them. They have creepy magic powers that are very strong and can be used to one's advantage
but there's some sort of negative side effect too.

A bit later me and a friend of mine, possibly a classmate go out on a strange street. There is a minor quake and I warn her that there will be another one as this is part of the scenario.

NLD fragment: I am going up some rails that are in the sky. It looks as if I am travelling and want to cross over to Sweden, where there is an invisible track and another one to a nearby location. But who can fly (by himself) for such a long distance?

Comment: The 2-6lds were just following one after the other and I did not touch on my body to DEILD.