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The following lucid dreams were not extremely vivid, but were numerous (for me) and groundbreaking nonetheless. Although I forgot to do any stabilization techniques or RCs, I remembered to yell "More Lucidity Now!" and ask several DCs if they were my dream guide! All in all, it was an eventful night.

In the beginning of the night I had a few nonlucids, which I have little memory of. The first I can remember was in a humongous supermarket -- I'm starting to add skewed, elongated, or infinite spaces as one of my dream signs -- I was with a girl and possibly others down a long aisle that reminded me of the pet food/accessories aisle in Walmart irl. I wrote down in my DJ that I asked the girl something about dream characters, but I can't remember anything more specific.

Note: That night I went to sleep on my parent's couch, tired after a long day, tried a glass of apple juice as an oneirogen for the first time, and took .75mg of melatonin.

The first lucid dream I had started in a dark room. I could see two silhouettes in the lighted doorway -- a woman and a man. At first they were completely dim, but soon their silhouettes had horizontal rainbow stripes projected on them. I asked them repeatedly if they were my dream guide, and after that they left. I freed myself from standing still and walked through the doorway. It was an office-like room with a circular table in the middle. The lighting wasn't bright, but wasn't all the way dim -- the best way I can describe it was a blue overcast. On the central table and possibly throughout the office were full-sized Christmas trees (not the ones you put on tables as decorations). There were 20-30 people (workers?) sitting around the central table and at other desks along the walls which had large '50s era computers and control desks from a disaster movie lining them. There was an older lady who either had white hair or was bald. I got the feeling she was mean. I asked her if she was my dream guide and she responded with a scowl (I don't remember her saying anything -- possibly she mouthed something and didn't verbalize it?). I screamed "More Lucidity Now!". I don't remember the dream getting noticebly more vivid, but the old woman looked physically hurt after I said it. I screamed it again, and each time I screamed it, she got angrier and her face started running with blood from her scalp. Despite this, she seemed alright and she wasn't directly confrontational with me (she either walked off or faded out -- I can't remember). I believe this dream came from watching The Santa Clause (1 & 2) with my family.

The next dream, I was in a large, dimly lit brick room (not red brick, this was more like the beige brick of an old Italian house) with an open window. I maneuvered out of it and sat on the ledge, then reached above where I knew there would be a broom (I hadn't planned this or thought it out -- this sort of makes me think that the beginning of this could have been a dream *about* having a lucid dream rather than a lucid dream, but when I awoke I was convinced it was lucid the whole time!). Looking out, I could see many of these blocky buildings expanding out horizontally. In front of me it seemed like these buildings were actually raised high up because there was a sort of drop off point with a ~100ft radius. I grabbed the broom and flew down off the windowsill. It felt amazing! I remember trying to figure out the rules for flying as I was flying, and the actual mechanics changing dynamically -- I could feel my conscious mind working it out -- does the right hand stabilize while the left pulls up? Which hand goes over the other? As I continued to fly I saw below me several stormtroopers infighting and the red lasers of blasters.

Next I had several chained False Awakenings. During each of these, I would wake up and reach out for the chair that was pulled up to the couch irl, and grab the number 2 pencil and 8.5x11 sheet of paper (not there irl). Each time I did this I would write down my previous dreams. The first time, my grandpa stopped by and complained about something (it was still dark out). In the next FA, I wrote down this dream below the spot where (in the last FA) I had written down my previous dreams. But there was nothing written there! This triggered lucidity immediatelyI got up and walked into my parents' bedroom and put my hand over my mom's face (who looked somewhat like the old woman from my Christmas dream). After this, I talked to her about something (perhaps asked if she was my dream guide -- unsure).

In another FA, I got up, walked over to a picture frame that used to be near the kitchen in my childhood, and pressed my face against it. It was a reflective black and I could see other people's faces in it (in white). I tried with some success to summon specific faces, but the final one I was trying trying kept eluding me.

On the whole, these FA-sparked dreams in my house gave me quite a spooky vibe.

After this, there was a semi-lucid fragment where I was walking up a small, cramped staircase, but either my focus was waning and the visuals were dying, or, as part of the dream, there was a large black/white spot covering a portion of my vision like an eclipse.

I wrote in my DJ that I had several other fragments, some of which I felt were lucid, but I can't remember them now. I feel as though I might have returned to the supermarket from the beginning of the night and been lucid then, but I can't remember.

Note: there were points where, during the dreams, I wouldn't necessarily RC or spot a dream sign and then realize I was dreaming -- rather it was like I was lucid the whole time and I simply willed myself into a participatory role. This was an interesting feeling.

Because I'm unsure about the validity of some of these dreams, I'm going to mark the lucid count for this night as 4, which is amazing for me! I'm still excited about this two days later. Happy dreaming!

Moral of the story: Practicing dream recall gives surprising results.

On December 20, I did an all-night study for a human sexuality final on December 21. This study composed of reading three textbook chapters, about 90 pages, on STI, contraception, and sexual violence. After reading so much, I decided to sleep for 1 hour and 30 minutes.

I also assumed that I wouldn't be able to recall my dreams since my sleep will be too short for any dreams. But, lo!, a dream came to me! Apparently, 1 hour and 30 minutes were enough to fit a REM sleep.

The setting took place in the rolling hills of New Zealand. I noticed that there were vampires running away from angels. An unseen narrator told me that vampires were running so that they could find a way to revert back to human so they could go to Heaven as a human instead of Hell as a vampire.

I woke up after that and laughed at the fact that dream recall did more than I expected.

Some battle had been going on in a control room. There are big monitors up round the room and a central square plinth. The head of the badies "sparks" was too badass for me so I decide to takeover his body but then my own team are still targeting him :3
So I play dead in the hope they will leave me be. I even lay on the ground and make blood pour out of me but they still keep prodding me. I change the monitor screens to distract them but to no avail :/ so I give up lol

Morning of December 29, 2017. Friday.



My dream memory starts with me already being in the waking space with no recall of any prior backstory or induction type. I find myself on the Barolin Street porch (a porch being my most common end state marker, symbolizing the closest transition to emergent consciousness).

Despite the setting, my dream distorts the implications into what seems to be a perfunctory attempt at reinduction. I am near a large globe that is implied to be the actual world. I am apparently a giant, bigger than Earth itself (which makes no sense as I am standing on a porch seeming otherwise of normal size). Looking down, I see where I am supposedly meant to go. It is a small island called Oahu. In my dream, it is a smaller part of Japan, not Hawaii. The rest of Japan is rectangular and horizontally oriented on the globe, just east of China. There is no North or South Korea. Oahu is east of the main rectangular part of Japan. I look more closely. My physicality changes but I am still a giant somehow standing on the globe. I am standing in the water (the ocean implied), which is just above my ankles, on the west side of the little island.

I do not want to ruin anything, as the island is almost too small to stand on. Looking down, I notice about six or seven very small animated drawings of people, depicted as walking around, but I see no buildings. The sketchily animated people are not in correct perspective relative to my position. I view them more from their sides (partly in profile) than as if looking down upon them. They seem too big to be able to live in such a small area. They seem to be wearing only white Asian conical hats and white loincloths. Despite them being sketchy animations, I perceive them as real people, or at least indicative of where the “real” people are. They make no indication that they are aware of me, though they are like insects in comparison to my size.

There are some changes in my size, it seems, but the island remains too small to consider suitable for visiting.

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Zsuzsanna and I watched a movie that was set in Hawaii last night, apparently on the island of Oahu (though there was nothing in the movie regarding Japan). I do not know why Japan came in or why Hawaii was supposed to be Japan or whatever; just the usual nonsense.

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My dreams were all over the place last night.
I dreamed of driving down the road, trying not to run over white snakes. Some had been previously hit and there were snake parts strewn across the road. The snakes were in a feeding frenzy and there were dead baby rabbits on the side of the road.

In another dream, I was in space on a space ship. There was a huge fan-blade type contraption outside the ship which was nearly as big as the craft itself. I used the blades as a ramp to pick up speed. In part of the dream, I was in a small pod. In other parts, I was just in a suit. I marveled that evolution/adaptation may make it possible for future generations to forego the suit entirely.

In another dream, I was driving and being followed by a van. I managed to get inside the house and I let my dogs (3) outside to a fenced in yard. The side opened on the van and I thought he was going to try to grab me. He came right into the yard and handed me some mail, lol, and told me I did very well. Then he threw the neighbors mail into the road, cackling like a crazy person.

In another dream, I was some girl who was told my boyfriend had just been raped. ??? I don’t recall much about that one. There was a lot of drama and heartache though.

In another dream, I gave birth on the same day as my former best friend. I tried to hide the fact because there was a wager about who had sex when we weren’t supposed to or something. She walked in on me right after the delivery and we laughed about it.

In another dream, I had a “three-way” (didn’t dream of the actual act though lol). I got lice really bad and was trying to hide it but felt irresponsible for not telling my bedmates.

Another dream was standard zombie themed.

Another one was of some battle between tribes or factions. I was a young boy and I ran off with a young girl. We jumped off a massive cliff into some water to make our escape.
A leaders son was killed in the battle and he was overcome with grief and remorse because he permitted it to right a wrong.

-1(L)-On the freeway on a sunny day, when suddenly, my family was driving under it at highway speed. Approaching the edge of the flat pavement, we slowed down kinda, and flipped around, so that we faced the freeway in the distance. What happened was the car bounced on the bump, and fell onto the button parking lot, two levels down, and right next to the woods. I got out of the car lucidly.
[New (L) Scene]
I spawned at home during twilight, wanted the sun to return to its apparent location in the sky at noon. I noticed a short train at the south end of the lake. I stuck my head through the window and confirmed it was raining. A moment later, I could only see the moon where the sun used to be. Then, it was totally right outside. Suddenly, a friend showed up, and asked me if I had beaten A Link Between Worlds yet. (no)
-2-So my grandparents were living in a gigantic, 3-story house. The house’s height was like that of an apartment building. The ceilings were ridiculously high, like 30ft high for the 2nd floor and 20ft for the ground floor. I didn’t check how high the ceiling for the 3rd floor was. Also, I had apparently been there before at least once.
[New Scene]
I was in/playing Hyrule Warriors with a portal gun. I opened a portal in front of a long rectangular bottom, and another on somewhere along the far wall. I think I was using a blue laser to hit the button. Once I did, an army of bad guys stormed to the exit, and the aperture walls disappeared, leaving HW-textured, open landscape. I was suddenly playing as Link, and repeatedly used his OP strong attack. Apparently, the army didn’t care or notice me trying to attack them. Also, they were running slightly slower than me—just slow enough for me to launch another strong attack. It did pretty much nothing to them. Next the army turned the corner to the left and ran much faster than before. It was fast enough for me to be forced to call a horse-like animal to keep up with them. I snapped my fingers, and it spawned in a place where I could jump onto it and travel a little faster than the sprinting army.
Lucid Time: 30-60 seconds

This dream addressed a lot of the technique that I did right that night before going to bed. Although the dream was weird in some ways, the method of response was amazing and quite intriguing.



Dream No. 251 (B)

Before Going To Bed
The quality of my dreams was frustrating me and what was getting to me the most was the fact that my dream guide is getting progressively harder and harder to summon. I took the situation literally and decided to troubleshoot it. For a focus technique, I used my journal to physically write a letter titled to "The Awareness Behind The Dream" (ABTD for short).

The things seen in the dream that I addressed in the letter were, in these exact words:
- "Stop toying with my dream guide!"
- "But no weirdly transformed dream guides or wacky school teachers!"
- "A lot of my recent dreams have been weak and have had barely any meaning"
- "I stress this, bring back Dreamy WB, bring back my dream guide now!"
- "I do not have 5 fingers; I have 6 of them on each hand"
- "The most accurate environment in my dream is my house; the rest may change as pleased"
- "And in case you do listen and decide to bring back Dreamy WB... It's a she!"
- "I will know when she is near, you cannot fool me. Although I may be dumb in a dream, I realise it when I wake up and I will track it back to you, the ABTD"
- "You can change some of her facial features and I mean only SOME... I must be able to recognise her in order for that to qualify".

My House
The back of my house was resembled as in real life but as it got closer to the front of my house, the dream took this quote from my letter last night "The most accurate environment in my dream is my house; the rest may change as pleased" and bent that rule a bit. The first sign of an inaccurate appearance was in the kitchen. In fact, the only accurate rooms in the house were the bedrooms, the rest was all messed up.

Dreamy SW
She was a past dream guide but she only ever appeared in a dream once and her role was so insignificant and I ended up helping her instead. In hindsight, I'm actually grateful I got extra help in the dream and what's really amazing is that she fully supported me getting to Dreamy WB.

What intrigues me is that Dreamy SW had such a strong foundation when I've had barely any connection with her in the recent past.

The Office Scene
In the dream, it was an ordinary scene but on further analysis, it's the most meaningful and powerful scene in the dream. I think that the circle table is supposed to represent equality and conferencing, that the dream guides are literally a committee and a team.

In the letter before I slept, I addressed the ABTD as a mysterious, mischievous, trouble-making figure and I could see that in the boss... The boss was a literal representation of the ABTD and the chain of command. It really is the ABTD you're calling out to when you want to summon something, isn't it? What really created that sense of darkness and mystery for me was the all black attire, the dark hair and most importantly; the sunglasses covering the eyes. Is it true that the eyes are the window to the soul? This figure was using sunglasses as a blind to the true identity.

Then there's Dreamy WB; I'm going to elaborate on her in a separate topic but what I want to elaborate on here is that wristband. The boss said to her "your wristband's flashing"... What does this mean? My question of curiousity would be that do all dream guides have a wristband equipped like this? It was so cool when I realised the fact that my dream guide actually has a wristband that activates when I call them, alerting them to the scenario. I wonder whether Dreamy SW had one as well but I couldn't see it as she was wearing a long-sleeved jumper. Another thing is, I wonder if that wristband was just for this dream or whether a similar principle would be followed in subsequent dreams.

Dreamy WB
This has got to be the most disturbing aspect of this dream, which was how she made her first appearance. The letter quotes I think the dream addressed were "But no weirdly transformed dream guides or wacky school teachers!", "And in case you do listen and decide to bring back Dreamy WB... It's a she!" and "You can change some of her facial features and I mean only SOME... I must be able to recognise her in order for that to qualify".

With the quote of "You can change some of her facial features and I mean only SOME... I must be able to recognise her in order for that to qualify", I reckon the ABTD was trying to test me and see what I would accept and wouldn't accept. Was the ABTD trying to think of the worst possible version of her? In her first appearance, the dream had distorted everything... It made it so absolutely no feature was recognisable.

The second appearance feels to me like a correction by the ABTD saying that my letter has been understood and interpreted. The second part felt like I was more in control overall. I did also state in my technique letter that the most flexible thing to manipulate if the ABTD wanted to would be her clothing. I reckon the men's tuxedo was the aspect of the ABTD where as the hot pink colour of the tie as well as the hot pink energy barrier around her was it affirming to me to I would only stand for her true identity as female.

I think the reason why the dream played in extra slow motion when it was parting Dreamy WB's hair was to show me the last aspect to having full control; once her hair was in place, I was fully satisfied with her and the unique differences that the dream had given her.

Intentions
I had more intentions in this dream but my time was wasted as the whole dream was taken up with troubleshooting the identity of Dreamy WB that the ABTD had completely messed up. I wasn't expecting the identity correction to take as near as long as it did. I had a solid intention on completing a DV TOTM and I was going to progress to it once I had Dreamy WB helping me.

What was problematic is that once the identity had been corrected, I was whisked away to another bedroom scene where the false awakening occurred. I think I know what my next correction technique will be; distinguishing the difference between a false awakening and a real awakening so the dream can't trick me anymore (or at least it will be harder for the dream to trick me).

Date of Dream: FRI 29 DEC - 2017



Dream No. 251 - Separated Sections

Dream 251 A - Dandy Danger
I don't remember much of this dream. I was heading along the Princes Highway towards Dandenong. I was walking towards the lonesome Coles store when there were also heaps of high school students, mostly boys, walking that way as well. One boy randomly approached me and bashed me really hard. After that, I was running out of that Coles car park. That's all I can remember about this dream.

Dream 251 B - Dream Guide Troubleshooting (Lucid Dream 10)
I can only remember this dream from the point where I became lucid. I was in my parents' bedroom, looking in the mirror, when I noticed my appearance was slightly messed up. I then looked at my fingers and said to myself, “I seem to have 6, or 7, or more!”. Then I tried moving my body around a bit. My hips ended up hurting when I was swinging them around and I could hear the bones cracking. I confirmed I was lucid and changed the scene so my body wouldn't hurt anymore.

I was now in my own bedroom, calling for Dreamy WB. It was only becoming annoyingly harder and harder to get her. I walked out to the kitchen, which looks completely different in comparison to real life. A dream guide appeared eventually, but it wasn't Dreamy WB. On multiple examinations, I found that it was Dreamy SW, whom I was not intending. She obtained her traditional hairstyle with the fringe from 2014 and she was also wearing a sand-yellow coloured jumper.

At first, I tried to show that I wasn't happy with the situation but I noticed the dream trying to fade out on me. I eventually sighed and said to myself “you'd better stop complaining or you're going to wake up”. Dreamy SW realised what was happening and said to me that I shouldn't just accept what the “Awareness Behind The Dream” says and that I should be allowed to get the dream guide I want. She then encouraged me to keep trying and said that she would help me in any way she could. The scene ended with me calling for Dreamy WB a few more times.

The scene changed to this dark room with a round wooden table in the middle of it, laid out like an old fashioned office... It must have been the Dream Guide HQ! There was some random burly guy in a corporate outfit with dark hair, wearing sunglasses. He had a mean look about him; I'm thinking he must have been the boss and he was the one with the title of “Awareness Behind The Dream”. Dreamy WB was sitting across from him and the boss goes to her in a frustrated tone, “your bracelet's flashing”. Dreamy WB was wearing a black wristband and there was a light underneath it that was flashing a bright yellow/amber.

Now I must say, the dream made her look horrendous... You could say that she was naked with minimal coverage. All she was wearing was a purple and orange g-string bikini with a bra top you'd expect to see at a stripper club. Additionally, her skin was all folded over and was very speckled with the wrong colour... She was an utter mess. The only thing half appropriate about her was the fact that she had hair on her head in the correct colour and a pigtail style.

The dream camera showed her walking towards my location, which was a low balcony in the distorted, front area of my house. She was literally an unidentifiable, walking pile of jelly approaching the stairs. Wherever she walked, the path widened for her and then went back to normal after she left that area. The dream even made the stairs fly up and down when she walked on them. She did nothing except stand in front of me in the front yard and I didn't look pleased at what I was witnessing.

I looked up aimlessly into the sky but soon, my face gained an expression of purpose. I yelled my head off at the “Awareness Behind The Dream”, throwing every curse at it I could think of. I said stuff like “You stupid! I called for a dream guide and I've got a slob! Give me someone I can bloomin' identify with at least!”. A few seconds later, I was still in frustration while I followed Dreamy WB to the lower part of the front yard.

She eventually stood still and a pink holographic barrier came up around her, lifting her existence out of the dream world. While the pink barrier was still active, a pair of dress pants ascended from the ground. The second stage was when the top half of a man's tuxedo appeared on top of the pants. The blazer was a matching black and then there was a white shirt underneath with a hot pink tie to match the colour of the energy barrier. The last stage of development was where the head and all other body parts started to fade into vision and place itself onto the figure.

There was now the resemblance of a full, decent human being who was fit to be classified as a dream guide. Something was still odd about Dreamy WB though; she wasn't human flesh, rather, her skin and hair were some sort of silver, stone-like metal. I stated to the environment that Dreamy WB's hair still wasn't right. The dream then zoomed in onto her undistinguishable hair and showed it being slowly morphed into an afro. The dream went into really slow motion, to make sure that Dreamy WB parted her hair really well.

When the transformation was finished. Dreamy WB gave me a wide, pleasant smile and just stood there, waiting for me to make my next move. I came closer to her and gave her a hug. Although she appeared as metal, she still felt human like. The dream then showed the area where the stairs previously were and the pathway had morphed itself into a love heart, with the limestone pavement on the outside as a border to the shape and the grass on the inside.

The dream then moved back to my parents' bedroom where I was under the belief that I had woken up. Since it was a double bed, my brother was lying next to me. I looked over at the clock on my dad's side of the bed (which was my side in the dream) and it said 7:42 with no distortions. After reflecting with my brother about the lucid aspects of the dream, the dream truly ended and it went into a straight transition to Dream C.

Dream 251 C - The Appointments Manager
My brother was due for a check up at the dentist. The differences are that the exterior of the building looked different in comparison to real life and it was also night time. I forgot what I was doing exactly but I was walking around in the dark, in the middle of the night with my dad. We eventually found our way back to the clinic and I found out that I had to cancel some people's appointments on the dentist's behalf.

There was a electronic list of people outside, the door and then a bigger list inside the clinic. I went to the area in the waiting room and started swiping random people off the appointments register. There were originally 7 appointments and now there were only 3 left. A random lady came and told me to also swipe another one so now they only had two remaining.

After that, AD came into the clinic and surprisingly, she came up behind me and briefly patted me on the back... She'd typically be angry at me. In this dream I could tell what she was wearing; a plan navy top and black leggings, her hair was in the default style with a slight gingerish tinge to it. Although AD was nice to me, I still couldn't find myself to trust her incentives, so I squeezed my water bottle really hard to try getting all the nerves out of me. After my dad questioning me on why I was squeezing my bottle so hard, the dream ended and I woke up.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- Free Roaming (Have 3 lucid dreams)



Haven't done a "Behind The Scenes" entry in ages. I think Dream 251 B has a lot to get to the bottom of.

a close my eyes and let the abyss engulf me I darkness I will become one with the universe I utter under my breath as the darkness looms over a fantasy of star lights I grasp the darkness with pinch nerves wondering how I wake if I only see nothingness I wonder for a minute as the darkness becomes fading smoke gestures as the light starts taking control I see the darkness expand turn into foolish gestures as they light start glimmering the wakefulness of being up prompts me into waking up some more like I'm transforming dark into light as the light become more temper my mind becomes consciousness as I start dreaming I notice that the light can do whatever it pleases without darkness getting in the way as the gestures become more intent my dream form fades into a light phase of smoke gestures surrounding me in a prison of dreams as I wake I become lucid as I'm becoming lucidity itself the dawn of eternity becomes light and darkness as I try to wake from this sleep I become more powerful until the next time the light and darkness fades

It's cold and dark inside the gigantic air force bunker I have found myself inside. It seems to be a futuristic setting as the technology being used is unfamiliar but, just like most my dreams, I don't find the aircraft, or the fact I'm in a bunker, strange. The numerous aircraft appear look similar to a Saiyan space Pod however they opened from a hole in the top and where a bit bigger.
A alarm went off and red lights started flashing. A man, a captain possibly, started yelling orders. We were about to come under attack. The enemy knew our location and would arrive soon.
I ran to my pod but was stopped by the captain and told my brother would be flying today and I was stationed on the ground. I turn and my brother is there in full uniform. I want to protest but know there is no time so I don't. I hug my brother and tell him to be careful and to give the enemy hell.
My brother gets in the pod and right at that time the huge doors of the bunker are ripped open. I stood there shocked for a moment as the enemy turned out to be two giant aliens. They looked kind of like the invading aliens from Gantz.
The pods, including my brother's, take flight and start to attack the aliens but many of them where just swatted out of the air. The rest continued their assault. One of the aliens pulls some kind of ball out of his pocket and opened it. A swarm of mechanized bees came out. They started swarming the pods and somehow got inside them causing the occupant to either die by bees or jump ship. Some of the pods went out of control and hit the ground.
The ground had become chaos. Bees swarmed people and pods exploded. Someone started yelling for everyone on the ground to retreated. I started running to a back exit while looking back at the remaining pobs fighting. I watched in horror as one of the aliens grabbed hold of my brothers pod and crushed it in his hand. I kept running.

Dream Skip

In the next part of my dream I'm at some kind of camp. I'm part of the small remaining rebels against the alien take over. My sister is there and we are talking about my grandfather, who has passed away years before. We speak about a time were he modified a keyboard and I how I had gotten in trouble for playing with it. As my sister was telling me about this I started to remember it happening.
As a small child I had gotten into my grandfathers study and was playing with a computer keyboard, mashing random buttons. There was a knob on the keyboard for changing the volume on the computer. I stated cranking it up and something very strange happened.
My brother and sister, who had followed me, where playing on the floor in front of me. As I turned the knob forward they seemed to move faster. I turned the knob backward and they started moving in reverse. I looked down at the keyboard and suddenly came to the conclusion it was a time machine.
My grandfather then came in and ran and took the keyboard from me and started yelling at me.
I'm back talking with my sister about it. I ask her if she knows what happened to the keyboard and she says it here at the camp somewhere. She brought it with her but it was misplaced among all the stuff the other survivors brought. She says she will find it but didn't care either way. She didn't know the truth about the keyboard.
I set out to find it so that I could undue my brothers death. I started searching through the store room where survivor's belonging are being sorted.

This bit of my dream is hard to remember.

I do remember that I find the keyboard. The two last pod fighters are going up against the two aliens that originally attacked the bunker. The aliens take each of them out when I finally get the keyboard time machine working. I was apparently having trouble getting it to turn on. As expected, It works and turns back the time. I go back to the original fight in the bunker.
This time I ignore what the captain says and I get in a pod with the time machine. I use it to manipulate time in such a way during the fight that I become unstoppable and I destroy the aliens.