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I meditated for about 10 min in the rec room at work. Which was fuking hard to do with Rosie O'Donald blaring from friggin TV babbling about how awesome she is. And that stupid place doesn't have a remote for the TV, so no chance of shutting her up without hopping on a chair to reach the invisible buttons on top of the tv.

Will meditate again before bed, same as last 2 days.

2.7.14 Friday

Last night bed 11pm -4:47am

Short night, plus I took some REM rebound aid (haha, wine).

Had a not so bad dream. Although dreams that start "I'm in a room or house" are, well, I owuld rather have some exciting things happen.

DR:
So, I'm in a room, and I hear a helicopter. I pull the curtain away, that's flying in the breathe. I see a blue helicopeter hovering really close, and I tell someone in the room.

I look again, from another window, and now I see that it's a hummingbird. He is all blue. His feathers are not smooths like you would expect, but a bit ruffled. He has some red strands on his head, hanging down. He is beautiful.

I'm in another room now, and the hummingbird is inside. He flew in through the opened top part of the window, which kinda leans away from the frame. He is fluttering between window and white curtain. I gently grab him with the curtain and lift him up to the open part of the window. He takes a few seconds to make it out. He pauses to look at some fat flies in the abundant spider webs.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

(...) I live in a poor neighbourhood. My family sells clothes in a small shop in a shady corner. Some bullies come to collect money from us, but they get more interested in myself and I have to run through back alleys to escape them. At some point I enter a back door of a building and find myself at some kind of posh shopping center. I continue running, but I have time for some observations. I see, for instance, a lady trying on some jewelry the shop keeper put over the counter and as they turn around for a second, I manage to grab a beautiful necklace, but I throw it away before exiting with it. It would be so helpful to sell it and make some money for my family, but I can't. It's not so much that I find it absolutely wrong, but I believe there's a good chance it has an alarm of some sort and I would be caught and it really wasn't worthwile. So I drop it and keep running. I exit through another door and I find myself crossing an oriental-style spa. It's so soothing, but if they see me there, I'll be caught and jailed, so I keep running. I finally exit the building and get to a non-urbanized area, by a riverbed. The sun is setting and I duck under some bushes. I stay there until it's dark and I sense that there's no one looking for me. I then walk through a dirt road and I find a well. I look at it and see the moon reflected on the water and I feel an absolute sense of peace and detachment. I touch the rough stones of the well and have a strange feeling that they are moving. Scared, I fall on the ground and covered in mud, I see a dragon arising from the well, the stones becoming his scales. Is he going to hurt me? I feel that it's up to me. It all depends if I run from him or if I tame him. So, in a corageous decision, I grab some scales on his neck and I decide to ride it. He turns his head and looks menacing, but then he talks to me and he says something magic I can't pronounce even if I wanted. But I understand he is going to take me somewhere.
He drops me at some big palace like hotel or something. I wonder how I can go inside covered in mud, but then he merges with me and his scales transform into a beautiful golden scaled mermaid strapless dress and I look like a queen. The doors open for me and I'm inside. But I keep feeling a stranger and everytime I cross paths with someone on the lobby, at the hallways, I fear that they will see through me and notice that I don't belong. But they don't.
I see everyone heading to some kind of concert room and I follow them, trying to mingle. Some old rich couple starts talking to me, I have to lie about a few things, and I wonder if I'll be asked for a ticket a the door and look stupid for not having one. They do ask for ticket and I don't have, but the way I look, they don't even doubt I haven't paid for the show, they believe I just forgot and allow me in. I can't believe it is so simple. Some guy offers me a coat and then I see why. The doors open to an open air amphitheatre over a hill and it's a chilly night. We take our seats and we get a package. If we're on an even row we must open it to the right and if we're on an odd row we must open it to the left (or vice-versa). Inside are some kind of 3D goggles and other weird gadgets. I wonder what this show is about. Then I see some kind of gigantic molecular structures with lights floating above us and I'm said the show is about to start.

(Side note: It occurred to me yesterday, lucidity works best for me when I'm focused on a specific task, as with defusing nightmares, and that's probably something I could put to work for me more. So before going to bed today, I tried typing out one of my dream goals with the heading Task of the Day.)

I was flipping through the just-released final book in a series, the Wheel of Time, when it occurred to me that this series already ended. I get online to explain the discrepancy, and there's some explanation that this new book is an optional epilogue with bonus materials and illustrations and so on. I realize this is a dream. My first instinct is to just continue with what I was doing anyway, but right afterward I think, no, what I was doing was boring. There is no way I am going to waste a dream sitting around my IRL home on the computer. (Although come to think of it, a dream computer could probably do some interesting things too.) That decided, I immediately set out to perform the task I set for myself. (Successfully remembered!) The first step is finding a doorway or other way of changing scenes, so I head for the door.

Before I get there, however, I get distracted: I realize I'm holding the t-shirt I'd taken off earlier in the non-lucid part of the dream. But although I hadn't put on another shirt afterward, I'm fully clothed now, which I think of as a convenient bit of dream logic. I remember a previous lucid dream where I'd tried to transform a shirt into something else, not very successfully, so the presence of a spare now makes me want to try again. I decide to just transform it into a robe, that should be easy, I'll just lengthen it and create an opening in the front. I see there's an opening at the front of the collar now, so I take hold of either side and pull as if tearing it, extending that opening to the bottom, seeing that it's grown longer as I go. I hold it up to look at it - it's got the shape I pictured, but it looks like a poorly-sewn costume, like something a child would make. It's got a piece of plastic sticking out of it, as if a price tag's been torn off, and there's a tangle of loose threads and frayed edges across the opening in the front. I tear that tangle off, then realize I'm waking up. (It occurred to me afterward that both shirts had been specific shirts I actually own IRL. Makes me wonder if I'd have an easier time if, rather than just the general idea of a robe, I'd aimed for something more specific. Still, though: a more successful transformation of an object than the last attempt.)

I'm lying in my bed and I get lucid. I'm TP to PS. I was near "Kame house" from Dragon Ball. I go underwater and ask someone about PS. He told me that PS had quest and he need to get tooth of white shark. I looking for him, but I don't find him. There are many people, they watching some art. I watching the art too. I'm in building. I meet girl from my old school class. Then I start watching other girls, I want to look at very pretty girl. There aren't any, so I want one model to appear in second room. I try few times, but she don't appear and every person disappear. I think I can meet some girls in school, so I TP in it. I go to the toilet, there are some girls, I kissed one.

I had FA. I'm again in my bed, I do RC and be lucid. I go outside and try few times TP to a beach, but I failed. There is one small creature, I help him or something. Then something appear in the air. I think this is made from clay, I'm sure this is orange. I fly into it and my alarm woke me up.

I like the thing that in this dream I many times told myself to be focused, but I don't like this "girl stuff"... and I forgot to call/scream for PostScript.

Had another dream of hackers accessing bank accounts. There were at least 3 women involved and maybe 4 or5 men. They were stationed all around the world but were part of the same unit. One woman in particular had an accent and I associated it with Croatia for some reason. I knew they were about to drain the bank accounts of millions of Americans and I was yelling at people to get their money out of the banks. It's all going to be gone!

Journal Entry Uncategorized#2 Dream,Lucid Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I have been acting very curious in waking life after watching a youtube channel called "shots of awe". Well he recommends that we look for awe in every day life. So I have been doing that looking at the walls in my house with interest, the rain drops and anything else.

Dream fragment 1, 8:35pm-2:05am."": My cousin was complaining about how heavy an item was. She asked me to carry it for her. I said, "but after a while I said ok". I looked at it I think it was a heater small enough to carry but really heavy. I started observing it turning it around. Writing was all over it, I think it was warning label

Dream fragment 2, 2:10am-3:13am." Short lucid": I was next to swimming pool and I was with my cousin, AL. I told him about our annoying cat, some body said you don't have a cat. I thought "hmm why did I just lie then". My cousin was in the swimming pool. I was touching the water with my feet but I didn't want to go in the water. I did this to all the corners of the pool. I wanted to go to my cousin without touching the water. I flew to him, and I thought we were having a shared dream experience. I told him it is a dream, then I realized. Then he started to float a little, I tried to help him stay up. I started to sink. I decided to meditate on my breath. I started hearing my breath and imaging it floating like it did in another LD I had. It started floating but it wasn't like the other time. Then a kid from my church, ES, came and said, "do you want to hear a story about demons" I responded angrily, "no" I then lost lucidity and I took the book from him

Dream fragment 3, 4:10am-7:00am." Hillary Clinton is a slut": Hiliary cliton was trying to convince every body she is not a slut. She was on the news they were calling her a slut and we were looking at old footage's of her. We saw that she knew Bill Clinton was cheating on her. How he just used her and she used him to become politically active.

Dream fragment 4, 4:10am-7:00am." Uncle's anniversary": I was looking for a place to pee. This man was running on the wall, sideways. My cousins, AL & BY were in my dream again. They were sleeping over so that they could be their for my uncles marriage anniversary. I saw BY before I saw AL. They were both in my sister's room. Idk why.

today i dreamt i was on a electronic store, i was in front of a high spec laptop.
I only remembered to see 16 GB ram, a thought came in my head.
"I saw this laptop somewhere, oh yeah! it was on mediamarkt
i wanted to make it as my RDP"
so i looked for the laptop IP, so i could connect to it through my PC.
My instinct told me to don't do that. so i stopped.


Dream elements:

-laptop
-electronic store
-mediamarkt


Technique used: ----------

hours slept: 8 hours

1. [Non-Lucid]
Sitting at a desk in a classroom thinking about being lucid in my dreams and how fantastic it would be.

New we are pulling out the contents of this blue box and having to describe what we are pulling out such as pencils. everyone seems to do ok... now its this girls turn to describe its contents she begins and it becomes apparent that something is very wrong with her as she is off to the side of the box taking imagery things out of an imagery box, this goes on for a few minutes.

Im so happy at the fact I remember thinking of lucid dreaming.

fragments:
I get a starred at in a rather strange way by my support worker sitting across from me, was pretty creepy.
I saw some word written in lime green with a swirly thing next to it.

2. [Non-Lucid]
Me and Emily are playing Minecraft when all of a sudden a wall falls down to my right, on the other side is a secret project I been working on, so I panic and say "uhh...don't go in there please" as she looks through the hole in curiously.

Fragments:
Getting Kye a copy of Minecraft then rushing to my pc to tell Emily the good news.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I'm next to a sweet shop with another guy when my aunt shows up and gives us each these huge pink boxes with Jelly Belly jellybeans in it (saw the logo as well), I was extremely happy about this.

fragments:
I'm trying to get past my aunt sneakily but she notices me and I get embarrassed. (she was holding a weird looking bag)

So I am bit confused on if this was a wbtb or not. I woke up but I never moved or opened my eyes(this was round 5:30) I could tell because I heard my mother getting ready. I just went back to sleep but I started to have hh's, Gotta say these were fantastic. I heard train tracks like when the train goes over the cross section you here that bump kind click-clack sound. This was very loud. I felt so many vibrations and at one point I felt super light then the next I was sinking into the bed(I got about halfway through). It felt like I was going warp speed through a tunnel as I was sinking into the ground. I saw fractal like patterns mostly circular that were vibrating. I never managed to dream though but this was the closest I came to I believe. However as I mentioned i was not trying or planning to do this. I just forgot how much fun these are and how unbelievably real they can feel, see I have been working on dream recall so that I can do dild's.

Now onto the dream(which actually happened before the failed wild/wbtb thing) :

I was working at my old job cleaning a retail store when an old friend from high school, D, came in. He came over to me and the store morphed into a house. There was a party and we were all in the kitchen. I was sitting at the table. Everyone was drinking and socializing, however I did not want to drink. A lot of people from my public school were there as well, I takes to S a lot about mundane things. Suddenly talking to her made me want to drink so I took a couple shots if whiskey. I danced the mamba I think with D. Then I looked up an the ceiling was all stars. It was controlled by a light-switch that D turned on. I rushed out the back sliding glass door to look at the real stars outside. He came after me and I told them that the stars outside were much better. I then noticed a cluster of stars and said, "I am so sick of those goddamn aliens!" I then went back inside the house but most people had left. It was only 11:30pm so I was kinda disappointed it has ended so soon. Even though it was my house I decided to take a taxi, while letting others stay the night. I remember getting into a taxi with my sister however the interior of the car was a huge room. You could walk around and there were tabled to sit at. I then was listening to a women lecture about the safety hazards of driving. She said that good drivers get in trouble when others drive badly. I said I wouldn't know since I don't have a license. She kinda look at me like I was one the problem drivers( I think she assumed my license was suspended). So I told her that it just expired as I never went for my G2(this is true in wl).

Dream 1: [COLOR="#800080"]I was in a train station waiting for someone to go on a trip. I keep waiting and waiting but nobody comes so I try to call mom. I see mom and I ask her where the person is. She says that the person should be here already. I tell her it's not here and she grabs my hand and drags me into a little garden. I see there a man without his arms and mom tells me he's a relative. He does the split and mom laughs while saying to me : "That was his position when he beat up that nurse because she wanted to kill him" and then a train drives over him and he still laughs. I get on a tube(blue color) and I stay there. The man says that I need to walk away because that's a water tube. I said : I just stayed there because It's so hot outside and that tube is cold. Then my sister jumps on it and it breaks. The relative gets angry and yells at her. Mom runs fast and repairs it. Suddenly, a snow storm comes and everybody flies away except me and my sister. My sister runs somewhere and I stay there yelling for help. I see a guy with a red hat and he says he will help me but then he runs. I try to move and I find this kid who is like 3 years old. She is really scared and yells and I run to her and pick her up saying : Don't worry, we'll get through this. I lose her and I start looking for her but all I find is another girl who looks like 5 years old(She had blonde hair and green eyes). I grab her hand and we try to walk. I see a fireplace and I tell to this old man if he can let us stay there for a night because it's really cold and we can't see. He says yes so I jump the fence and we sit near the fireplace. It's really hot there and there's no snow. I talk to the girl and she says she got lost from her parents and I tell her that we'll find her parents no matter what. I look over the fence and there's no snow so I'm really happy and I tell the girl that we can go now. We jump over the fence and I see my sister. I run to her and hug her. There's my classmate that comes from the back yelling : ALINA!!! and he jumps on her and we fall. Kris comes and he says that we really need to go a building and he points at it. I say okay and we all go into the building. We play some game and then I get into this hall that has lots of doors and walls in the middle of it and all kind of things. I run but Kris grabs my shirt and he says that the game is over. I run to this other hall. I see some the snsd member and I say that they're really pretty but they're so small(height). I get to this room and there are some papers. I look at them and there are only math problems. [/COLOR]
Dream 2 : [COLOR="#800080"]Something about my grandmother. She wanted me to bring her all kind of stuff.[/COLOR]
Dream 3 : [COLOR="#800080"]I was in my classroom and I was playing on my phone.[/COLOR]
Dream 4 : [COLOR="#800080"]I'm with mom and dad on a street. Mom sees an ambulance and she tells us to run because they will kill us. [/COLOR]

Fragment:
I had recently uploaded another Dream Journal entry to this site. (In my dream.) In it, I discussed my reasons for not "making love" if you will with another dream character. I got a bunch of comments saying that I should have done it.

Fragment:
Something to do with me shopping at a huge warehouse type store trying to find foam mat board. It was sold in these big rolls of white foam that came in varying thicknesses from two inches to four feet. I also recall that the store sold yachts on these giant shelves that were like 10 stories high. It was a pretty epic store...

Kittehs!
I am with my cousins. And my three cats. We are outside in the drive. This cat walks out of the neighbors yard, but she looks rather strange in that her face is half black and half white split down the middle. Somebody else points out that the cat is a mother.
As the cat gets closer to our yard, four kittens walk out of the bushes and follow her. One is silver, like a British blue. Another is a brown tabby. Another is a black and white spotty cat. I think the last one may have been an orange tabby.
I pick up the brown tabby kitten. Now he was feral so he wasn't very happy about being held, but he wasn't scratching me. I petted him for a moment then put him down. My cousins were trying to decide if they wanted to adopt one of the kittens.

Nightmares invade real life:

This last dream was very weird. And epic. I was told by someone that this dream was in fact a prediction of what would happen in real life. The setting was strange too...
Disclaimer: Even though this dream claims to be a prediction, I severely doubt this will every happen in waking life. I just don't want any of you to think that I am crazy.
I am in a vast circular valley surrounded on all sides by mountains. The entire basin is filled with a grassland. There is a large city in the center of the basin, with an extra tall skyscraper in the exact center.
It is daytime, and the sky is a bright blue. But above the city is a large thundercell that is starting to rotate. The lightning strikes become more frequent and the underside of the cloud taints a purple color. Some of the lightning strikes hit the tall skyscraper in the middle of the valley or some of the other nearby buildings. There are not one but three vortexes underneath the cloud now.
As I pay close attention, I begin to see the outline of... something in the cloud. It drops below the purple cloud layer and is revealed as a rather oblesk with a warped black design. What looks like the front is vaugley claw-shaped. This is the side of the "ship", and it is tremendous, probably four miles long.
I hear the voice of someone, quite clearly in fact. He explains that he is the "nightmare king" and that he is able to talk to us directly in our minds. He then explains that for thousands of years he has been the source of all nightmares, but only now has the world fostered enough negative energy for him to manifest himself and his army in the real world. He seeks to lay waste to earth and rebuild it as his version of paradise.
About two dozen smaller ships emerge in a close ring formation along the edge of the portal, with every ship facing forward, out. For a moment, the portal glows in the outline of a strange symbol. The smaller ships have the same look to them as the large one. They begin advancing outward while bombarding the city.
I look over my head to see several squadrons of Jet fighters followed by a trio of what looked like the flying battleships from last night's dream. Two identical fleets closed in from either side, and there was probably a final fleet on the opposite side of the city that I could not see.
They go into combat. The nightmare ships seem to have some kind of protective shield that causes anything shot near them to hit a red forefeild wall. (Think Independence Day). The "good" army is losing terribly and the warships have advanced to the edge of the valley, widening the portal storm as they went. I woke up.

Only fragments this night.

I was at a construction site, and for some reason the people there wanted to kill me haha.

I also dreamed that i was playing Pc games..

i'v just got back into dreaming so this one is VERY fuzzy..

Remember being in a dark cave. the dripping was loud.

Thats it..

Dry-Dock Bullets

The entire world around me is dank and misty. The houses are gloomy and reek of mildew with vibrant green vines trailing up and down the walls. I can see moss growing in brick molding cracks from the giant U-shaped roadway I'm standing in.
I'm, oddly enough, wearing a vibrant blue T-shirt like an Under-Armour and coal black sweatpants tied up around my knees that I was certain hid actual coal smudges. My feet were bare and I had a weird metal wristband with runes etched on my right arm. The mark on my left hand is still present again.
The road branches off in two ways, one leading to dry docks and the other passing by a small house that is slightly less dilapidated than the rest, with a painted sign creaking in the wind. It's one of the few houses with lights pouring out of the windows.
A young boy, probably about ten, walked out of an alleyway in the dry dock direction and walked towards me with that cheeky grin little kids have. You know that grin, right? He's dressed conservatively, with his sweatpants rolled down and a longer, thick dark shirt on. Grime coats his cheeks and a little hat is crooked on his tangle hair.
"The next ship came in. Figured your name was on it." He's got a definite English accent and he doesn't wait for my reply. I'm just left to wave a thank you as he walks down the other road and I'm taking a long stride to the docks. I don't run. You don't want to run in this place.
The sand is a more fiery red than the calm beige we're used to. It looks as if the entire beach is a raging fire, glinting in the sunset against a very pale grey-blue ocean. The docks are huge, branching off in forty paths after making it to the even level. A woman curled up in a chair with the heaviest cloak I've seen points me in the right-most direction towards a giant Galleon. A part of me thought this was suitable. The boards creaked under my weight, and I had to drag out a second board to board (I'm just trying to say board a lot here. So I don't get board. Get it?) the ship made out of boards. A little trap-door leads down to the hull where most of the cargo is stored, but I don't give it a second look. The grand door to the Captain's Quarters with ivory carefully laid into its carved channels catches my eye instead. I wanted a lockpick, and immediately reached into my pocket to retrieve a knife, several needles and other weird metallic instruments. I'm not quite sure how I held the knife and everything else in my left hand, but I did, and after a minute of fiddling, the door swung open.
A small chest sat in the middle of a table. Papers and overturned chairs littered the room, but I paid it no attention and applied my picks to the chest. It opened far easier. Long, turquoise stems stood stacks tall, bulging suspiciously. My picks fell back into my pocket as I slit the first plant open and a large, heavy bullet dropped into my hand. It reminded me of a shotgun shell, save it was a steel-brass mix that was obviously only one bullet. There were hundreds of these stems, but I only took as many as fit into my hand before I left in somewhat of a hurry back down the streets.
I was slipping into the almost cozy house down the second road as the young boy was slipping out. He gave me a tilt of his hat and was gone into the darkness of the night. Inside was far cozier than outside. Two counters stood on either side as you walked in, forming a hall-way that led to little wooden tables for four. An elderly lady and one in her teen years stood opposing each other, cleaning bottles and wiping the table as the elderly lady's counterpart dusted down the furniture. The torches made it more comfortable than a small, barren inn may have otherwise seemed, at least. I grabbed a small bag of my things near the entry-way and slung the satchel over my shoulders. They all gave me a short note of recognition before returning to their work, each too preoccupied with their work for talking to a leaving person.
The house just across the street had strong vines, and I found myself reverse rappelling up the side of it until I firmly on cracking shale. I could run across the roofs, having nothing to worry about at this height, and did so freely, jumping over tiny alleyways and climbing up and down houses. A small, cloth rope spiraled down from the tallest building into a tiny niche on a beachcliff. The houses cut off the other pathways, and the ocean crashed far below. The only way there was the rope I left.
I was like a monkey. A really awesome monkey. I just slid down the rope and threw my bag to the side to enjoy the view. It was pretty, even thought it was a subconscious thought. My hands found their restless way into my bag to pull out a letter that was quite clear and is quite clear in my memory, though I won't type it up. Let's just say, even my dream hurt.
And then I woke up!