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21.10.2016

(DEILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up 5hours after going to bed for my WBTB. I read some posts on DV and then watched some Underworld videos (mostly werewolf/lycan transformations). I went to bed and practiced MILD and WILD.

I fell asleep, had a nonLD, and started waking up. I held still and felt SP.

I found myself in my bed. I sat up and did a RC. I walked to my door, opened it, and saw Tonka lying on the hallway. I pet him for a bit and then walked downstairs. Tonka was also downstairs, but he looked older and more sick. I rubbed my hands to stabilize my dream. I walked to my backyard door and phased through it. Once again, Tonka was outside, this time he was missing pieces of skin around his paws and looked in pain. I took off but for some reason I started accelerating upwards really fast, and the dream crashed.

I held still and waited about a minute. I was seeing images from a 3rd person POV. I thought I wouldn't be able to transition into a dream. I kept seeing images and then managed to somehow plug my non-existent nose.

This gave me a body and sent me to my dream bed. I stood up, walked downstairs, and exited through the front door. It was daytime. I took off and started flying. I wanted to find a Vampire's Mansion; I wanted to fight a Vampire that defeated me years ago in a dream/nightmare, and this time I would bring a Lycan army. I was flying at the speed of light, everything was distorted. I stopped and there was forest on all directions below me. I landed, and was met by Eric. We started running at high speed through the forest, dodging trees, jumping over cliffs, over trees. Suddenly Eric slipped and was impaled by a big branch. I told him I would heal him, but he told me to save my power for the fight. I asked him what I should do and he told me to continue down one path. I was asking him what he thought of Shared Dreaming, but his body vanished.

I reached a village and was met by a big guy who looked like Khal Drogo. He was blaming me for kidnapping his daughter. The guy transformed into an Orc






We were in a fighting pit, his tribe came on to watch, cheering for him. I partially transformed into a werewolf. My fingernails grew into sharp claws, and my canines into sharp fangs. My skin turned grey and I grew a lot of body hair. My face and overall shape however, stayed relatively the same. He ran towards me and I leaped over him. He was strong and heavy, but faster than I thought for his size. He grabbed a club and charged towards me once again. I dodged it, rolled towards him, and sliced his hamstring ligaments behind his knee. He screamed in anger and pain and kept charging at me. I kept dodging back and then leaped on him, and bit his neck. I pulled back and ripped open his throat. His tribe started charging towards me and I ran away. They were catching on to me, so I took off and started flying.

I reached a city, it was night time. I landed on the street behind a gas station. I still needed to find the Vampire's mansion. I thought of the competition and wondered if I had even scored any points.

Spoiler for Sex :

I reached a house, I went in and Daenerys was there. We went into a washroom and had sex.

I came out of the house and the dream started crashing. I was once again in 3rd person view, and woke up.

Woke up too fast

First fragment

I recall only a blurry fragment, I was somewhere inside my house.

WBTB attempt

Second fragment

I was somewhere in a city, it was close to evening.

I went to sleep thinking about dream recall and wished I could get enough sleep where I could start remembering more.
I was at work when I saw this door that I never saw before so I knew it was a dream but what could be behind the mystery door? Of course I go inside, it is a dark black room which you would expect to be scary but I walk inside and I see nothing but darkness. I stand in there and spin looking for a sign of something and wonder if there could be a message somewhere hidden? I start feeling around when I feel a presence in the room, I can hear breathing and yet I am not afraid, I ask who it is and he tells me not to be afraid, he is my "Mentor" and is there to help me find my dreams. Then he tells me to wish for the "Dream Remote". I open my hand and wish for the dream remote and I see a green glow in my hands, it is a square box, unlike a typical remote. It has glowing buttons and only the symbols for forward back pause and stop. I hit the back arrow button and I see images flying past my eyes like an old movie going in reverse. I stop and it starts playing where I stopped. It was me in my 30's and my kids when they were small, it wasn't a memory so I wondered if it was in fact a dream, then I went back further and saw one of my nightmares from when my son was a todder, I quickly went back more and saw when I was a teenager and I played it for a little bit, I had a white van (which I didn't) and I was drinking and left it somewhere and couldn't find it and the Voice I hear in my dream was telling me this will be what could happen if I don't stop drinking, this happened often where I had life conversations with the Voice, didn't remember that one, rewind more, I see a missile that says USSR on the side of it and it was guided and going up and down over the hills (yep that was a dream that scared my dad because I drew it and he said they really had those but they were new back then and something I drew he said I should not have known about) I often scared my parents with my dreams so I didn't tell them as I got older. I saw several more dreams that I never remembered, then I went to the beginning where it wouldn't go back any further, I saw an infinity symbol with what looked like a sparkler burning in the lines. I clearly remember being a baby drawing with my fingers the infinity sign on the smooth part of the headboard. I try to go back again....nothing. My Mentor tells me that if practice I could combine this remote with my Time Bending skills I could use this remote in my last dream and recall all of my previous dreams of the night in one dream? (Sure that made sense in the dream). I then told him I wanted to see if I could see the future which he seemed curious about so I hold the forward button and I see images going so fast I start to get really hot, it feels I am reliving my dreams in seconds. I get to the end and then go back a little. I see my granddaughter riding a two wheeler (she is only 2 right now) and she falls off the bike and scrapes her knee and I bring her in to clean it up but it isn't my house so it must be a dream, then I hesitantly want to see if I have any future dreams and I forward to the end and see my mom in a casket and immediately feel I should not have pushed to see the future, like I was doing something wrong and when I had that feeling I was sucked through a tan colored wormhole and I could feel the energy building inside of me to the point I thought I was going to blow up, it was so much pressure that I woke up.

I can't recall anything today.

Boring non lucid dreams
- I put the green container outside. I think about the fact that it's almost full.
- I compare with my girlfriend our books.
- I meet some friends. One tells me that he will not arrive at 50 healthy because he drinks too much.
- I go in a bar speaking Italian to the barista. The guy didn't speak Italian so I tell him in Dutch that I'm going away.

Dream starts of me standing on a sidewalk of unknown location. For some reason instant lucidity happens. I cant make out street names or store front names but i notice a woman with black long hair staring at me. She seemed friendly to me since she had a grin and i felt the rushing need to blurt out to her, "whats your name?" and to my surprise she answered back, "brenda". I then awoke and quickly wrote her name down. Dream guide or just a fluke?

Last night was a bust. I now have my other set of grandchildren for the next 3 days. I can sleep in my own room w/ these 2 here though. Very grateful for that so I have a better chance w/ a lucid.

Night 5

had a fairly lengthy but bland dream. I was in my 8th grade history class and everyone was naked, except me. Class seemed to be going on normally, though. The teacher was giving a lecture, and we were all taking notes. He kept telling me to stop being distracted by everyone being naked with a very serious tone in his voice.

Marcus came in (also naked) and said something about the dream failing to allow anyone to wear clothes. He then walked over to the teachers desk and made a valiant effort to craft undergarments out of computer paper and scotch tape.

-+-

I think this was actually from the 3rd or 4th night of the comp and I just forgot to document it. There was a dream where I false-awoke. In the dream, I had a very long beard, reaching about halfway down my body. I tried to shave it but it perpetually regrew in new and strange ways. The dream went on for a few minutes.

Night 6

I am attending Hogwarts. (I knew a HP dream would show up eventually, since I've been reading through the books.) However it was disguised as my middle school. I remember they were having a beginning of the year celebration. Apparently I had been sorted into house Hufflepuff and, for whatever reason, we had to sleep outside on the lawn. They gave us yellow and black stripey scarfs that were really big and could be used as blankets.

There were some people running around the running track. (In-Dream, it was across the road from the middle school, instead of next to it, and I think there were quidditch goals set up at either, too.) People wanted me to run a race but the other people already had a head start. I started running anyway and (shame I wasn't lucid for comp points) went super fast. So fast I remember I would have a hard time turning tight enough around the bends in the track.

It was getting to be nighttime and Dubledore came outside (He looked like a combo of dumbledore and my old Middle School principal.) He magically created a small carnival with a mini Ferris wheel taking up about half the field for us to celebrate. He also inadvertently created a forest of large oak trees filling the other half of the carnival. He said he might as well leave them there since they were not hurting anything and they were magically linked to the carnival so he'd have to clean up both of them anyway when the field needed to be used once more.

I sat down under one of the oak trees and did a moon RC. I looked at the moon (it was full.) and looked down at the grass. When I looked back it was crescent shaped and the stars were brighter and more vivid. I became lucid, but I didn't think of my goals so I obviously wasn't too lucid. I just decided to fly around. (I think I was trying to impress some girl that I had met in an earlier dream by flying, but either I just saw her out of the corner of my eye or she didn't even notice.) In fact, nobody noticed at all when I took off. (I presume because this was a gathering at a magical school.) It took some forceful voice commands to get above altitude, and I remember seeing the spot where I took off, leaving a spinning orange/blue fire circle that expanded outward and faded as I flew away. I took off and hovered above the central area of the fair, examined my fire jets. The effect wasn't too flashy this time around. The whole dream was foggy.

Due to forgotten lucid goals and generally not putting enough effort into this recently, I flipped upside down and hovered on a jet from one hand, and spun around like a top for no reason whatsoever. My phone buzzed in my pocket and then fell out because I was upside down. I had to dive and catch it right before it fell to the ground. I really scared this older woman who looked sort of like my maternal grandmother but with darker skin and a whole lot fatter when I flew down right in front of her face. I caught my phone in one hand and propelled myself back up to my original altitude with the other.

I answered it. On the other end was who I presume was Marcus and he told me in a rather irritated tone of voice to stop calling my fire jets 'fire jets' that they are actually fire rockets because they can work in outer space. He then said that theoretically I should have the ability to shoot fireballs that home in on targets and explode when they hit, if I practiced more. I lost the dream abruptly.

WBTB

I revisited the scene. I was at the track with the oak trees and the carnival, but nobody else besides us were there now. Lapis Lazuli from Steven Universe was there and we were laying on the grass stargazing together. The stars were even more vivid and bright this time.

Night 5:

NLD x2=2

Night 6:

Frag x1= .5
NLD x1= 1
DILD x1 =10
Fly x1 =5
Element Manipulation x1 =10
Use electronic device x1 =5

I went to bed about at 23:30. I was very tired. I would have liked to meditate but i relaxed lying in bed. I fell asleep at 3:40. Late but all the time i was relaxing the body, so i had a good night of rest. I woke up at 8:55 and i dreamt with:

I was on a field with some other people and there was a barn. Past the barn there was a field full of straw. It was probably like 10 miles like that... or more. However there was a sniper that would shoot us if we walked on that straw. So... as soon as we passed the barn we just jumped to the ground, and if he shooted us then ok, if he didn't very good. He didn't shoot, maybe he didn't saw us or wasn't quick enough. We were looking for a diamond in all that straw.
Then Joako, Fede and another guy approach me to mock how i played football. I get angry but i was powerless... Then i hear him spreading rumours about me with a taxi driver, and although i would let that pass because i don't really care i said the taxi driver that it wasn't true (actually i think this is better action than let it pass, but still not caring). I saw the transportist that took me from school to my house when i was at highschool so i decided to leave with him. I opened the front door, but there was Sofia and Lucia. So i went at the back. Then i saw that also Victoria L was also there. I wasn't going with Noel anymore so i worried about how i was going to pay to him (i recalled a lot of times he "saved me" in my dreams... so i would have to pay all that. I wanted to pay all that. Also i would like to be more self-reliable from now on, either walking or taking a bus, or being lucid). As we were going out of school i saw Fede standing in the street, so i take my arm out the window and slap him in the forehead. Nobody saw me, not even him probably. But immediately after i did that i regretted it. Victoria asked for internet password and although i didn't know it i gave it to them.

Then i had a false awakening. I was on the kitchen and saw a kg of flour, which actually i know there wasn't (in the dream apparently my sister bought it), and some scons. I ate the scons. Then i don't remember anything else.

Then i got up. Went to the bathroom (it was 9AM) and went to the kitchen. Right then i realized i have had a FA before. I checked if that was a dream but it wasn't. I ate some peanuts, drank some milk. Then drank some water and went to bed to try WILD. This lasted about 5 minutes.

So i lied in bed and started relaxing the body with the breaths. At first i just watched the breath, particularly how it felt in the head. Then i started counting as i was relaxing. Then i thought i was relaxed enough to sleep, that maybe i could fall asleep at any moment. I counted up to 30 and i felt that i could dive at any moment, but i reminded myself to still keep counting and forget of actively diving. Then i turned to my right side and started again, watching my breath and counting. I don't remember if i counted, and if i did i counted up to 20. I tried to remain aware the whole process but also knew i had to let sleeping occur. So i fell asleep and didn't experience any HI or sleep paralysis, vibrations, sounds... i just went straight to a dream. As soon i was in the dream i knew it was a dream, but also i didn't believe it so much because it could just collapse at any moment, because i was aware of my body lying at bed. So in the dream i was in my home city, Rio Cuarto, in front of Saint Francisco Church. It was at night. I thought of getting involved in the dream to let it unfold and so gain lucidity later when the dream was completely formed. BAD IDEA. I thought that if i didn't do anything the dream would just collapse, but getting involved in the dream as if it were a nonlucid it was just plainly a bad idea, at least do it lucidly! that's what WILDs are for! Well... i wasn't too logical at that moment. So i headed in front of the church, coming from a supermarket (that supermarket might be like 6 blocks away, but in the dream it seemed like 2 blocks). And i had 2 bags full of groseries and one bag with a box of shoes. The bag of groseries were so heavy that one of the bags was about to fall to the ground. So i grabbed it differently, and they were definitely lighter when i put them at the height of my chest. Then i just put the bags in the shoe bag. And at this moment a memory of awareness came again, that it was a dream, but i let that go... Then i start hearing canticles from the church saying "The inmortal is always with me/us. The inmortal won't let you go...". It was a christian church, and i just decided that it was time to leave. Then next to the church there was a bar, and my father was there drinking a beer or something in the street. He tells me "It would "good" (or interesting) to hear the song from a psychological point of view". I reacted like being angry because i wouldn't like to hear that song! I heard Christian songs before and they make no sense to me, so i wouldn't hear this one. I replied something like "why would i hear a song of another religion than mine?" although that question was vague, i could have had replied something better, wiser, more open. But i felt tired in the dream... like if i had duties... I was carrying 3 bags and i just have forgotten that it was a dream and that i could simply put the bags on the ground and forget about them, or donate the things of whatever... Well I think i need more resolve, and more practice. Then i woke up and recorded the canticle. Then i thought about it and i was sure that they referred to "god", but then i thought it from the point of view of Buddhism and the inmortal refers actually to nibbana, and some monks that share some of their experiences said that they experienced a happiness, a tranquility that hasn't left from the time they experienced it, be it 4 years, 40 years or whatever (Ajaan Liem and Ajaan Maha Boowa). So i felt relieved by this and felt glad having dreamt with this when i woke up. It was a christian church and i know their path doesn't aim nibbana, but since there aren't any buddhist temples in Argentina (just one Zen temple i think, and some Dojos of Tibetan Buddhism in BSAS) i interpret it that a message of Buddhism could have come from a church.

This dream lasted about 20 minutes, so i could have tried a DEILD or something like that. But i didn't felt like it. I also thought it would be ideal to wake up since i was rested. But i didn't. Maybe i would have a long dream in which i could become lucid. I slept for about 3 hours, almost 4 and lying in my chest.

I dream being in "casa tia" (a supermarket).
I don't have time for the act.
I am in a river and there are jaguars there. However i didn't get hurt. This was in alpacorral (and looked like Santa Rosa)
I am in a playhouse (pelotero) and there are some mattresses. We were at some height. If we fell we were going to get eaten by some animals and die. There were people thrown there.

Then i decide to go homeless. My family was together, and they were in a car. They were wealthy but i thought they might be fools for that, being blinded by money. So i left home. I went to a Buddhist temple in Alpacorral (there isn't any) and asked for a room there. They gave me a room, and it was completely empty. It was fine for me, since i like to sleep on the floor (although i usually put something not to feel cold. I dont mind hardness). They were doing chanting and i didn't want to get involved so i just went to this room. There was a small Buddha statue in the front wall however. I thought what to do now, i had no future at all... and i was free. I thought about meditating but maybe i just could not focus because of the chanting next door. So i knew i had with me a bag with medicine. I open it and saw many different pills and a small metal box. I open it and it had nails: a copper nail an iron nail and another nail (maybe silver). It was to put it on the bones of the fingers Then i woke up.

I awoke, well, that was what I thought in the first moment. The unknown surroundings and the friends in my room didn't bother me yet. Taking a look at the alarm clock got me puzzled though. It said "2:24" without specifying "am" or "pm". As it was totally bright outside it couldn't be 2:24 am but I would never wake up as late as 2:24 pm. So I thought back a bit to solve the puzzle. The last thing I remember is going to bed, the thing I wanted to do after that was staying up early to get to university. There was only one possibility to explain that circumstances: I was dreaming!

Now I wanted to do a small test just to be sure. I went outside on the streets and tried to simply jump once. With minimum effort I jumped multiple meters high. OK, definitely a dream!
A friend joined me and I said "Come on, I want to see you jumping up that house in one jump!". He prepared a bit and did without any hesitation. Not bad! Well, now it was time to try it myself: I made a few small test jumps and pushed upwards landing on the roof. I ended up doing nothing else, which is a shame but on the other side it was a lot of fun. That is what counts, right?

Bed @ 2210 /w green Sleepytime tea
Woke @ 0200

Fragment: Something about a bunch of pigs

Moses in the wilderness
I'm watching (and also somehow reading) about Moses as he guides the Israelites through the wilderness. Something important has just happened, and I've reached a chapter break. It's actually more than a chapter break - there's a notation in bold that I need to go to page five hundred something. I've not seen any thing like that before and wonder at it, but I can only assume it's setting up for something even more important..


BTB @ 0220 /w SSILD
Woke @ 0350

Visiting the G's
I'm running and jumping very long distances (I must have been playing too much Chameleon Run ...). If I miss my target platform, I have to start over - which happens a lot. Each time, I make it further in the course. Now I'm leaping around a lake that stretches as far as I can see. The water is perfectly smooth and mirror-like - it's beautiful. The only places for me to land are small metal "walkways" (which look like they belong in a factory) which have been placed for the purpose. Now I'm trying to land on one, turn ninety degrees, and jump again, but I'm having real trouble getting everything coordinated, and I keep messing it up.

Now I've landed on the water again; but this time my speed is enough that I'm staying on the surface instead of sinking. I try to keep it up, but I can feel myself slowing down; then I'm amazed as I find that I'm still not sinking. Now I'm merely walking quickly. I've reached the side of the lake, and a large bed is floating just beyond the reeds. I head for it. Now I'm climbing onto the bed - which is completely dry - and trying to keep my shoes from dripping onto it.

Now I'm still on the bed, but it's inside a cottage. Looking around, I can see that there's an inch or so of water on the floor. Now my wife is walking around unpacking a few things. I can see that the water has receded, and she's walking around on carpet that's only slightly squishy with water. Now I get out of bed and am surprised to find that the carpet is completely dry. I take a closer look at it and see that it's some kind of outdoor carpet that's designed to get wet without damage. It's got an odd texture and is an ugly shade of orange. Near my side of the bed is a cooler. I open it up to find a selection of good beer, and I take a bottle.

Now I realize that we still haven't announced our arrival to the Gs, the family who owns the cottage, but I see from a clock that it's 10:40 PM. I look over towards their house and see that many windows are still lit, so at least one person is still awake; but I don't want to keep us, or them, from bed. If we go over to say 'hi' we'll end up talking for hours, so we'll just greet them in the morning. Now Joel is coming towards us - he must have seen the lights on in the cottage. My wife comments that he'll miss the beer I've taken, but I'm not too worried about that - the cooler must be here for guests to use. For a moment, I worry that he'll be mad with us for not announcing ourselves, or worse yet think that we're intruders, but I realize that's silly - I'm sure they've been expecting us. I had nothing to worry about, since greets us warmly as he comes inside. He launches into what a crazy day he had, listing his family's whole itinerary, starting with going to bed at 6AM (which confuses me). After he finishes the itinerary, he says that <the second item on the list> was completed at noon, and it takes me a minute to remember that means it took hours longer than it should have. Now we're in their house. I'm pulling a tea bag out of a mug of tea that's steeped for too long. One of their girls comes over to see what I'm doing.


BTB @ 0405
Woke @ 0530

Translation documentary
I'm watching a documentary about the translation of a document. The man in charge walks into a hall with a couple of other men, and he's trailed by some children. There are boys everywhere - war orphans? He walks to a table covered with notes and has one of the boys read him something. As the boy is reading, the man is reading along on the translation making pleased "mmmm-hmmm" noises. I rewind the video and mute some of the audio trcaks to more clearly hear what's going on. This time , I can clearly hear the boy and the professor and nothing else. I rewind and tweak even more, trying to make the sounds even more distinct, but this time the scene plays out slightly differently, more heavily involving another man. I don't understand why it would have changed like that, but whatever.

BTB @ 0540
Woke around 0700

Fragment: A woman is being reprogrammed by aliens.

Fragment: I'm using a mobile device to look at a web page that's covered in iframes, sometimes even in nested iframes. Trying to scroll is an absolute nightmare.

My recall is vague and disjointed. This had been a thing for the past few days, but hopefully things will get better once I fix my sleep cycle.

I recall being in some sort of manor with walls of wood. There is a wall of concrete, which has a window on it leading to a room inside the manor. I try to open the window but the entire thing detached, leaving a square hole in the wall.

Going into the hole, I find myself in an underground slum, with the ceilings made out of metal and machinery, the walls made out of scrap, and the ground is made out of paved concrete. The hole had turned into a metal door. The place is a long, cramped hallway, with openings into various rooms. I go in a vacant room to rest. I hear the sound of flesh hitting ground and a person telling the people living here to eat the dead bodies. I hide.

I recall my dream transitioning, and Satan is hounding me while I ward off my bed. "Satan" in this case looks like Star Butterfly from Star Vs the Forces of Evil. At some point I am tricked to leaving my bed, and Satan says that my soul is hers. I am so annoyed by her underhanded tactics that I realize I am dreaming, but I am also too annoyed ot make any use of that fact apart from telling Satan that I'm not playing her game, and waking myself up.

Well! After years and years of training, and many nights of tiny lucid moments, I can confidently say that I have now had a pure, 100% conscious lucid moment.

I was on a golf course with chris, and we were sitting in a golf cart. We were about to start driving into the course when I noticed somethihng off about him. Suddenly, I was hit by lucidity. I got very excited, and was about to start ripping the golf cart, when I remembered how much I should just take a moment. I kept staring and chris and started taking long, deep breathes. I could feel the breath entering my lungs deeply. I could hear the birds and the wind of the golf course. And Chris' face began to morph in to some crazy version of his and mine combined, the veil of the dream no longer able to conceal how fucked he was. I turned forward and began to drive, taking in the moment, and quickyl lost my lucidity.

Although it was short lived, for a moment there my entire conscioussness was focused on "I am dreaming. This is a lucid dream." Meditating in your dreams is the way to go, and I will try to start every session like that from now on.

I think we were on an island, a barren, dry, and deserted island. There's three people in an RV, roaming around the island. I'm not a character in the dream, rather the "camera" - like I'm watching a movie. There are two males, one older man and a younger one, and a young woman. I expected the older man of being a traitor and wanting to kill the others. He had the younger man digging a hole (looked like a grave) and I thought he was digging his own grave. But then came the plot twist, the young woman showed up, pointing her pistol at him. Turns out both the woman and the older man were traitors!

I'm on a train in a foreign country. I realize I've taken so many trains, I'll never find my way home again. At some point, the train braked really hard, and I fell. There were others on the train I knew.

A some point we were still on the train I think, watching TV. In the movie we were watching, someone said they would have to kill the babysit, and some other guy. *REDACTED*