dream fragment

I'm at a house reminiscent of my girlfriend S' parents' house and my friend V's house. I'm hanging out with my friend J. There is a surprise visit from my friend D and my brother. A They are out on the patio. D is wearing a disguise, but I recognize him easily. It wasn't a particularly good disguise and it wasn't intended to be. More like a joke. D has a Galaxy Fold and is showing it off. He has a thin black cloth case on it. He has some gacha-games on it.

I'm driving and something like a check-engine light came on. Genuinely unclear on whether this was reality or not because this type of thing happens all the time. My car was fine this morning so I think this was a dream...

Night of Monday 3/6/23

I'm in a basement dungeon that reminds me of Snape's office from Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. There is some argument happening about outfits to wear. Snape is trying to impose some evil magic. One of the kids is transformed into a massive black monster that takes up most of the room. Snape plays the hero and defeats the monster. It was his plan all along. There is a purple glowing scythe that has mind control. It has a mind of its own similar to Nightblood in Brandon Sanderson's Cosmere.

I'm on the top floor of a mansion house on the beach. The mansion has secret passages, with some rooms off limits. It reminds me of the home containing the wardrobe from Chronicles of Narnia.

Night of Tuesday 3/7/23

I'm in a documentary about My Chemical Romance. There is a skyscraper where they supposedly live. They have invented their own version of the color black and are selling a clothing line based on it. There is another scene where there is a party in the skyscraper home. The inside looks like my sister's old rental home. There is some drama going on but can't recall exactly. The documentary goes into some detail about how the band uses cocaine.

I'm talking to the Pope at the Vatican. Don't recall any context for this.

I'm happy, but also jealous that my GF got a 20K bonus. I question my current employment situation.

I'm at a surprise party that looks like Grandma M's apartment. My friend SG is there and she seems excited to see me. She's brought some friends of hers that I don't recognize. There's somebody else there who has a cat on his shoulder. He makes a big show of how the cat is clawing onto his back and isn't jumping off. I make eye contact with the cat, and it decides that I am the next place to sit. It comes over to my shoulder. The table is set to play a monopoly-like game.

I'm watching some porn and my brother A catches me. This situation is embarrassing, but I own it as best I can.

- I'm in a group of people with new technology that allows you to erase bad memories. Only thing is, all the bad memories are building up and will eventually return to everyone. This scares the crap out of me.
- A part with Batman on the roof of a rainy building, waiting for a villain to show up. I'm there too, but apparently that ruins the atmosphere.
- I'm in a car with my friend, driving around my apartment.

- I'm with my father. We walk through a neighborhood, and then through an empty field to the rest of civilization. The sky is a weird purple, and everything feels surreal. I mention to my father how the reason that the neighborhood is cut off from the rest of the urban space is because it was procedurally generated.
- 3D sculpting a character's head
- My sketches win a competition, and everyone is impressed, but I secretly just got them online. I feel guilty but don't know how to explain myself.

I remember seeing some kind of dog or animal. It had a chunk of its body missing, and there was machine or code running underneath.

My smartwatch vibrate alarm went off at 4:45 today. I wasn't trying to do a WBTB, but the alarm went off because it had gathered enough charge to turn itself on, hence accessing the alarm from last time. Vibration was enough to wake me up from across the room. I figured I might as well salvage the situation, so I took the supplements I was planning for my next WBTB attempt (same as before, Yuschak Primary Trigger) and laid back down.

I tried to sleep for some time, but my GF's alarm eventually went off around 5:30. I didn't manage to get back to sleep after that. Going to try a non-supplement-assisted WBTB this weekend, while making sure all alarms are not interfering

Supplements
2nd Yuschak Primary Trigger Attempt (8Mg Galantamine, 250Mg Choline Bitartrate)

I'm outside a vaguely familiar farmhouse. There is a goat inside an open-sided pen area with a roof. I'm concerned that it is time to wake up the animals. There is a farmer inside, but he is naked. I'm not bothered by this. Neither is he. I noticed that one of the goats is awake, but it has a big hole in its side and I can see entrails. This doesn't bother me either for some reason. The dream feels foggy and gray in general.

Up at about 4:30AM for a WBTB. No recall from earlier in the night. I've just taken the supplements below for the first time. I'll be back to record later. First impression: Choline smells terrible. Like fishy terrible.

Update: Laid in bed for a long time. GF's regular weekday alarm went off by mistake a couple times and messed up my rhythm. Eventually I relaxed enough to start feeling WILD vibrations. I got all the way through the process of "going through the wormhole", and I could see a dream in a tiny pinhole at the end. It was my childhood home. I could see my old PC monitor with Runescape on it, but the dream was black around the edges. I forgot that I needed to 'grab' the dream and I missed my opportunity.

I find myself in my bed and I think to do a nose RC. I can breathe through my nose so I know I'm dreaming. I start to rub my hands together, spin, and demand that the dream stabilize. It doesn't do much, and it feels very unstable and groggy. I try to leave my bedroom but the dream fades. I have a few more false awakenings with similar results. At one point I did spin and see some marked improvement in quality, but not enough to try and pursue a dream goal. I was trying to go to a forest and explore the dream environment.

I'm in something similar to a fast-food restaurant playscape. There is a pool resort nearby. Sunny day and all that. Looks like a dope vacation spot actually. I'm crawling through the tube tunnels, and eventually come out the other side. There is a group of people playing the upcoming Zelda title, Tears of the Kingdom, on an outdoor TV setup. It is lagging really bad. I'm upset about it being this bad. I wake or otherwise recall nothing beyond this point.

Regarding the supplements. I did notice a bit of a headache during the attempt (and now still), as well as some stomach discomfort. I felt my heart beating faster but that is most likely attributed to the WILD experience itself. Nothing earth-shattering but thought I should note it.

Hoping for better results next time. I will say that this is the first time in a long time that I've actually felt the WILD vibrations, tiny victories I guess.

Supplements: Primary Trigger Combination (1st Attempt)
Galantamine: 8mg
Choline Bitartrate: 250mg

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Blue = Dream
Green = Lucid

I'm in someplace similar to my highschool, but it is on a higher floor than normal. Ceiling seems lower. Assorted open instrument cases are strewn carelessly across the floor. There is a crowd of people in dress clothes creating a familiar pleasant cacophony of instruments warming up and noodling around. I'm in the bandroom before a concert performance. I realize that I don't have my saxophone. I start to sweat and panic. How long would it take me to go home and get it? How long do I have?

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I'm at my friend D's apartment, but it isn't where it normally is. He is living in a loft apartment above a shopping mall strip. I think I might be living with him.
This might be connected to the band dream (IE I went back for my saxophone) but not sure.

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I'm in my ex H's basement. There are some extra couches compared to normal. I have 2 or 3 uncles sitting there. They look like a rougher crowd of people. They are trying to lure a cat at the top of the stairs to come down to them. There is a gate at the top of the stairs blocking the cat. I come lie down on an open spot on the couch. The cat immediately comes to me and lies down on head and starts purring. I feel a sense of pride about my perceived skill with animals.

Default = Commentary
Blue = Dream
Green = Lucid

Making my first dream journal post here on DV... it isn't much but here it is:

I'm in some abandoned town. Broken buildings, dust blowing in the wind. Harley Quinn is in front of some town hall assembly. She is tasked with naming the town. She decides to call it Dustsewer, or something similarly ugly. She is doing it on purpose and thinks it is hilarious.

Default = Commentary
Blue = Dream
Green = Lucid

I slept in an uncomfortable position with my head between my pillows and bad a collection of short, strange dreams.

• I was working different audiovisual related jobs, such as operation a radio tower
• I was in a pop up bank in Utrecht Central Station, where a robbery started to happen and had people with rifles and RPGs shoot the place. I try to distract the robbers and make a run for it towards the exit, but suddenly wake up. I might've been shot and woke up or forced myself to wake up until realising that I was dreaming.
• Half asleep, half awake after waking up from that terrifying bank dream, I stare into the dark as my tired brain generates psychedelic visuals of a vibrantly coloured desert where I blow away the sand, and come across strange, colourful creatures
• I had my theatre school graduation, my family as well as the women that did my hair were there, one of my family members was playing GTA on their laptop and I've been told my classmates and school walked by during an inappropriate scene from the game

There were more, but I forgot what happened. A lot of capitalism-themed dreams, and I know exactly why :U Can't disclose yet but I'm happy about it

I was in a theater, waiting for the show to start. I didn't really like my seat but so many more seats were open. So I jumped seats. But when I looked up, this seat was somehow even worse than before. Weird.

I jumped seats again. Once again, the results were not as expected, now I had a metal bar blocking my view.

I got up and moved very close to the front. And now the movie started. It was in 3D, but I wasn't wearing any glasses. I must have been so close to the screen that it just looked real, said my dream brain.

I have been having a hard time sleeping since something terrible has happened to me. This is the first I have had a dream in a while. Interestingly, my dreams prior to this happening predicted it... maybe I knew this would happen subconsciously. I don't really believe in coincidences.

...memory dream about one of the hikes I had gone on with my husband in Korea. We had been hiking up the mountain for a while and we took a break to share one of the Kimbap (a seaweed/rice roll with eggs/kimchi/ham/anything in the center) that I had cooked for us. Very happy memory.
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"memory" that could have taken place in another life, or maybe in the future. NSFW but we are poking fun and making jokes about the situation that is happening to me right now (as if it has been over for a long time). He looks slightly different, maybe a bit older or with a different haircut.

...

Me and my husband are sitting together watching a little girl in front of us play the flute.

I was in bed with my husband and I was telling him about my twin sister who is an actress. The room looked just like our room irl. my twin played catwoman in the latest batman movie. [the perspective shifts to 3rd person of the movie im explaining] I was explaining to him that I am worried she is into some very evil things since if you look closely at the frames in the movie you can see some weird messages hidden. The perspective zooms in on one of the perfume bottles in catwoman's vanity titled 'I eat little babies'. It was housed in a very luxurious crystal bottle whith the lettering done in cursive gold imprint. The bottle was among many others on a glass shelf. She finishes getting ready for a gala that she and batman are attending. She is wearing a beautiful flowing gown but she still has her cat woman mask on. The gala is hosted in a large rococco ballroom and is quite crowded. they climb up some stairs which are supposed to contain some occult symbolism but I forgot what it was. [perspective shifts back to me explaining this to my husband] I am worried that the batman actor is leading my sister in a very dark direction. After I tell him this he is stone-faced which makes me worry that he is in on it too. He looms over me and grabs my side very painfully which wakes me up.

[i fall back asleep] .....

realize im dreaming and the dream falls into a white mist. I try materializing something by yelling out 'Dream, give me more clarity' and 'Dream, bring me my twin from the previous dream'. a somewhat human form appears but it is very hazy. I end up losing lucidity eventually.

.......

I am at work as a teaching assistant in the dream. The school is large with a modern, open floorplan. The classroom has a beautiful design where one wall is full of windows to the park outside, the opposite side is open to the hallway, and the cieling has a curved '~' shape. The kid's tables are arranged around a shelf where the kids can grab materials like paper scissors etc. I dont remember the situation too well. I wanted to grab one of the covers to a CD case since I needed it for something and I assumed it would be fine since the teacher had told me i can grab anything from the shelf. As i go to grab the case the teacher yells out 'No! do not take my cd cases!' ....... I am in the front office ready to clock out but one of the front office girls is having trouble applying to something using a PDF application. I tell her that she should be able to apply online using the school district's wesite. They have a 'jobs' page where you just have to fill your info in online. I tell her that is how i applied to my job and one of the older office ladies says she did the same.

Im not sure which dream came first chronologically.

Lucid- I dont remember what the dream plot was before getting lucid, but i was on a long and wide garden path during a sunny day and there were children running around playing. The main path was long (i couldnt see the end) with lots of smaller tributary paths at even intervals with square patches where flowers grew to chest-height. the hand-size stones that made up the paths were also square. I think I was playing a game with the children + i was my male twin. I didnt do a RC, i just noticed i was dreaming. Once i realized this, I looked around for something to explore and one of the kids started chasing me (in good fun). I ran but focused on the feelings of running-the ground beneath me, the wind flying past, etc to strengthen the dream. This worked ! but then my cat woke me up or the alarm rang idk.

...opened the door for my cat and then tried to sleep a bit more before my alarm rang....

non-lucid - dont remember much about this one but it seemed significant and was (sort of) about the book im reading. I was my male twin again. I think i was playing a game gone sour between me and 'my feminine' vs another person and their opposite (i dont remember if i was playing against the man or woman). The significant thing was that the longer 'my feminine' stayed with my opponent, the more she was turned against me. I remember her changing colors from my black and blue to my oppontnt's white and yellow (or the other way around idk). She didnt look like me so I wonder who she was supposed to represent.

This dream was in the middle of the night and I should have gotten up and written everything I remembered in my journal. But I would have had to turn on the light to see what I was writing and I just went back to sleep. I should do better.

But I remember this: I was competing in some kind of obstacle course and there was a puzzle aspect like identifying objects along the way that had a theme to them. My course had a semi-deep rectangular hole to run through, a seat to jump over, and a tool to grab and carry with me. I figured out that three were the theme in that they rhymed. Trench, Bench, Wrench. I felt so smug in that no one else would figure it out, mostly because 'trench' was a little-used word and no one else would think to call the hole a trench, they'd just say hole or something similar.