lucid

07.07.2016

(SSILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up about 5 hours after going to sleep. I was too sleepy to get out of bed so I just went on fb on my phone, I browsed for 25 minutes and then laid on my back to attempt SSILD. I did the short cycles in about minute and a half, and then started the long cycles. I had drifting thoughts but made it to about cycle 4 before losing consciousness. Next thing I know I'm feeling SP set in so I lay still, wait a minute or two, then plug my nose.

Even though I was 100% sure that I had RC'd too early and woken myself up, air went through. I decided to check again, just in case, as I didn't want to end up in the news "crazy guy jumps out the window in the middle of the night". RC'd confirmed again it was a dream. I get out of bed and feel the usual WILD grogginess; it is early dawn and my room is still dark. I rub my hands together and look at them, there's always something odd about them in lucid dreams. I grab my phone, feel its texture, its weight, and the dream feels more stable now. I sit on the floor, for a moment it felt like I was gonna go straight through it but the floor stops me. I shout "MORE CLARITY" and wonder whether that even makes sense, but it seems to work. My room is lighter by now. My dog Fiona comes in and starts wagging her tail at me and resting her face on my leg as she usually does. I wonder why it is that my dogs always show at my lucid dreams, and think there is a slight possibility that maybe we are shared dreaming.

I think "I have no idea what I want to do right now" and then laugh at how silly that is to think in a lucid dream. I run towards the window and jump out, going through it as I used to do back in the day (or back when I used to lucid dream, really). I start flying and get a rush of adrenaline. Everything goes white but I am still 100% conscious in the lucid dream. It feels like it's something with my eyes, so I just remain calm. By the time I regain my sight I am in my backyard. The sky is amazing, a mixture of Vanilla, orange, and purple. I run off and start flying again, I fly towards the soccer field and enjoy the feeling of it. I missed this. I think of my goal; since my gf is away for 3 months I thought might as well pay her a visit and have some sexy time.

I walk along the street and go into the first car I see, expecting to find her inside. Conveniently, the first car I see is a van (spacious). I go in, and sure enough she's in there. We undress eachother and have sexy time. For some reason I lost my sight yet again, and it took about 20 seconds to get it back.

I have a FA in which my mom comes into my room to check on me and I pretend to be asleep.

The dream started when I rode in a car to the house of my late grandmother (mom's side) who passed away six months ago. From there the telephone rang as I was told that I had a dentist's appointment soon. A week later in the living room of my dad's house, I sit in the recliner in the living room asking my dad if he had any money to pay for a plane ticket, as it was all the way on the West Coast in Los Angeles. Dad had his TV tray with his big laptop on the table and his female friend who visits was sitting on the couch.

A few weeks later in the dream, I find myself in Los Angeles...but unfortunately, it looks like downtown Raleigh. I hear a rendition of Ain't It Fun by the band Paramore that is the work of British pianist Sam Yung (it's also on YouTube), and just as soon as the first verse ends (when he stops playing for a few seconds), the actual song's chorus plays with band frontwoman Hayley Williams' vocals just like it sounded on the band's 2013 self-titled album (which I enjoy, by the way), bass, electric guitar, percussion and all. I remember saying something about copyright. I also remember being on a bus near the back when I heard it. I suddenly have this feeling where there really wasn't a dentist's appointment in LA and that I may have been tricked. As soon as I heard Williams' vocals, I jumped and felt a funny feeling in my right leg and stomach. (I think this may have been my first lucid in a while.)

I remember dreams I've had from 2013-15 where towns and cities in southern California (Los Angeles (twice), Hemet High School, but one scene later) look like places in North Carolina that I may have been before (dentist's office in 2013, downtown Raleigh in 2014 and a random section in Wal-Mart in 2015 that looks like none of the stores I've visited in the state), leading me to think the two states are fighting over me and/or my writing works. I've also had Paramore dreams before, but Williams' hair has been different colors than the trademark red or orange.

(I credit the Carmen Sandiego series of computer games (I saw the game show on PBS first when I was younger) for inspiring me to do research on the two states in 1998-99 in the 7th grade.)

I am at work talking to someone I am I do not know at my manager office. He leaves and I go check at the beo to see what needs to be done for tommorow. As I am doing so, I am interrupted by my mother who then walks pass me. I'm wondering why she is here intill the person who runs the human resources showed up and ask me how is my head doing. Before I can respond entirely I see she is trying to lift one of the 6ft classroom tables. So I offer to help lift it to her office. It felt way lighter than it should be I thought, but I decided to just go with it. I then enter her office to see my brother and father both sitting down. I attempt to place the table down but the table legs that are meant to hold it were bent for some odd reason. I told the captain human resources that I will come back with a better table. I walk out and notice all the tables were distorted or just plain broken. I lose track of my thoughts and just left the building walking outside on the side walk for a minute or two. Thinking about nothing at all in till it hit me. I felt like I should be doing something but didn't knew what it was. I stood there for a long good second and it hit me. I was suppose to be getting tables , the urge to get a table was too strong to the point where I woke up. But it was truly a false awakening. I look around and got out of my bed. I enter in my bathroom and notice my mirror is reflecting differently then it normally would. I look at my hands and did a nose RC. I knew I am dreaming but lost lucidity fairly quickly .

I haven't been posting DJs to DV a lot lately, but I found this one interesting.

I remember at the dawn of a nuclear war, the governments of the world built three very large bunkers. They said there might be one in China, one in Ukraine and one in Germany, but there were only two so one of those places DIDN'T have one.

The bunkers were built to look like spaceships. They had three big ring sections and a central axis, and were dark gray in color. I remember they were talking for quite awhile how the bunkers didn't start buried, but they used sonic pulses to break apart the rocks into quicksand and sink into it. They supposedly also had wheels that were gears with teeth and the sonic pulses would carve the rocks in such a way that the gear teeth would mesh with the rocks.

In one of the bunkers was a female scientist who was obsessed with improving humanity so that the catastrophe that happened above ground. (It was never specified what the catastrophe was) A portion of the bunkers population were prisoners that had caused the catastrophe and fled the bunker. They had been rounded up by the non-catastrophie causers and put in prison. The female scientist decided to use these people as test subjects, willing or not.

I remember she would lobotomize the prisoners and place their brains into robot bodies, then put them back into the prison. She continued to study them and noticed that even though they were robots with no need for food, water or sleep, they continued to have problems. She then realized that the root of the problem was the human mind and she needed to create something without a human mind in order to truly improve on humanity.

She made a plan to create an improved human mind through genetic engineering. The next thing I remember was her killing a prisoner and extracted a small amount of fluid from his brainstem. She put it into a petri dish and poured this chemical onto it. In a grotesque but interesting manner, a blob of bluish-green goo grew from the dish and spread around the room. Human brain formed inside (only it was about twice as big as a regular human brain. It had numerous eyeballs on different colored stems all around it with.

I thought the experiment had failed but in reality it had succeeded. The being rose up before its creator.

The scientist had a plant to ask the creature questions, but the creature was able to answer every question before she could even ask it. It turned out the creature had telepathy.

"What was the 10th's fact on the first video of the third season of the youtube channel's 'obscure facts' video?" The scientist asked.

"Trick question. There were only 9 facts displayed on that video, because it was 9 facts about odd numbers." The brain blob replied. "I know that because I can read your mind."

The scientist then asked the blob if it was planning on destroying humanity. The blob said that it was created with the directive of being a perfect life form, and it interpreted being a perfect life form as not terrifying or destroying those below it in any manner, so it would not. When it was unveiled to the other scientists, they were skeptical that the being wouldn't try to destroy them, but it assured them that it meant them no harm and began helping them with their research.

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I remember someone had tried to harm the brain in a blob creature and it had been reduced to a weakened state. It tasked me and my twin sister (I do not have a twin sister in real life) with transporting it to a safe location. We were in the park near my subdivision only the buildings and trail were overgrown with trees and had collapsed into disrepair. I don't remember much outside of this other than the fact that the creature was in a soup can with a radiation symbol on the side of it.

I think we were on a mission to restore a solar power plant that would help with rebuilding civilization.

I don't know. I just think it was interesting that the brain blob being was actually nice and helpful.

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I was driving a school bus from the high school to my neighborhood. I remember there was this big lake and bridge where the middle of my town was and there were a lot of people on it. Someone said to me that driving a school bus without a license was a federal offense, and I saw some police coming. I said it didn't matter because I was dreaming and I woke up.

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I had a summer job pouring concrete to help build a new airport terminal. In the evening when the construction site was closed down, I brought S and my mom to show them the incomplete building and explained to them some things about how it was going to be laid out. I remember there was some significance to the fact that I was going to use the money I made from this summer job to take an airplane trip.

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Something to do with being in a synthetic/robotic body. May have been related to the first dream.

I'm standing at a counter top area on the first floor level of a structure which appears to be a family home. The room has a bright white hue to it. An individual resembling my father walks into the room, and I begin to get a strange feeling about the situation. I nose-plug and am hit with the realization that I'm in a dream.I take in the visual male figure in front of me, across the counter-top. I want to take the opportunity to check why my hand RCs usually never work to verify that I'm dreaming. I look at my right hand and notice that it's a near perfect re-creation. I then look at my left and notice that one of my scars is gone, and my ring is missing. I gaze left into a kitchen area, and there is a older female who resembles my mom, but with a younger look and shorter hair. She's sitting at he head of the table, and a very young girl is sitting on one of the sides working on something that appears to be school work. I intuitively realize that this is supposed to be my sister in the dreamworld; I find it very interesting, yet strange. White light spills in at the end of the table, through the glass. I see a few snacks in Tupperware set on the table to the left of the girl's school work. I turn to my mom, and am curious about the DC's concept of my name in this strange family. I ask her, "Mom, what's my name? She looks at me with a slightly annoyed expression, and in a very sarcastic tone tells me: "Football; your name is football. I look back at the table and take look at the contents of the Tupperware containers. The first contains bars with light pink. The second contains light brown bars that look like milk chocolate. I try to taste one, but it isn't very flavorful. I decide to walk to the fridge to try to make some dark chocolate bars appear. I approach and open the right door but I quickly vibrate back to my body, and hold very still, trying to DEILD for a bit.

I'm standing out in the street in front of my home. The sun has just set to my right, and I gaze down the street at the surreal colors. I note the surreal feel, and begin to become aware of the dream-feel. I nose-plug and become lucid. I begin to fly above the lawn, and immediately start thinking about dream goals I set before bed. I see a massive ornate Christmas tree, roughly three stories high, situated in the middle of the front lawn. There are vivid ornaments - mostly red - finely decorating the tree. Many nut-cracker ornaments are on the tree as well. I wind around it, taking in all the vivid decoration while feeling a sense of joy and smiling to myself. I ask the dream for my spirit guide to appear. I circle the tree a bit and try to make it to the very center of the top to stand on it. It feels as though a small force field is keeping me away. My spirit guide doesn't show, so I decide to ask the dream how I can become lucid more often. A small evergreen tree appears on the lawn at the base of the tree. Another evergreen then spawns directly to the left of it, rivaling the size of the Christmas tree. As I fly to stand on the top, and await an answer, another larger evergreen spawns to the left of this one. An outward spiraling circle of evergreens, continuously growing in size, spirals outward as I fly upward, not quite landing on any particular one. While flying upward, I reflect on what this may mean, and consider that it either means 'trust in nature' and/or I'll progressively get better in time. I continue upward toward even taller evergreens, yet the dreams become dim very quickly and I lose lucidity for a brief period.

Portal Mirror
I'm in the upstairs bathroom in my childhood home looking into the mirror. Things look fairly normal, yet I get a strange feeling, and have an inclination to RC. I nose-plug, realize I'm dreaming, and feel a bit of surprise. I walk out into the hallway. The house is dark, and it appears to be late at night. The hallway is dimmed, and there seems to be a blueish hue coming from my brother's room, suggesting he has a screen on in the back. I begin to head into my brothers room, but strongly decide not to get wrapped up with DCs and possibly distracted. I turn right, enter the guest room, and begin think about my goals. I remember that I wanted to meet my spirit guide as well as trying to teleport through a mirror. I enter the room, and look against the left wall to see a tall mirror leaning against it. I think about how this is perfect for TPing and head toward it. I walk right through, thinking about a forested area I'd want to go to. I enter a void area, and wait for some visuals to kick in. I think about an area resembling Darnassus, picture some architecture and colors in my mind's eye. Nothing kicks in yet, so I start humming some music and keep myself anchored in this void for a bit longer. I verbally recite my goal as well. After a bit longer in this void I lose lucidity and pop up into a non-lucid for a short period.

I don't recall any of my surroundings. I have a splinter in one of the fingers on my left hand and I'm vaguely aware that I am dreaming, though not fully. I use my thumb and index finger to squeeze the skin on the finger of my left hand, to get the splinter to come out far enough for me to pull it out. Something black starts popping out of it. It's the head of a cat. I let go so I can hold onto the cat and pull it out, but it sinks back in again before I can grab a hold of it. I repeat the squueze, this time holding on longer so that the cat will come out farther. I start to become more aware of this being a dream, but just at that moment I wake up because of a dog barking.

Often when I wake up like this from a lucid, the thing that woke me up was not really there in reality. This time, it was real. I could put up a post on the rant forum about how much I hate my neighbour's dog -_-

Used the WBTB method & had many non lucid dreams & one that was really starting to be lucid but they were too intricate to write & remember with my pain level being so high & my notes look like a drunk person wrote them. What I thought was a zit in my nose is actually an ingrown hair so now not only do I have pain I have a hole in the inside of my nose from it draining. I slept all day just to wake up repeatedly to take meds. Making myself eat but all I really want to do is go back to sleep. I'm frustrated.




Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

It's taken some time to get over my fear of sleep paralysis, and to go with it. Now that I've woken up from my nap, and started researching, I realize I could have gotten here a lot sooner! This is my first account of purposely submitting to my sleep paralysis.

I felt my sleep paralysis start coming on while taking a light nap on the couch, in my living room. I made sure to tell myself to relax. As I did, I got a brain zapping, whooshing sensation and sound, which was something different for me right off the bat. I drifted back to sleep a couple of times and kept returning to my sleep paralysis state. Each time, I would tell myself to relax, and by the second or third time, I simply heard myself saying "relax" through my ears instead of actually thinking it.

The next thing I know I am up, I think I was turning the volume down on the computer, and heading to the kitchen to grab some caffeine. My normal wake-up routine. But I remember thinking to myself how wonderful I felt. I wondered if this was a dream. In my semi-lucid dreams I can usually get to the flying point, so at this point I tried to jump twice to see if I would go airborne. (I guess I've been playing too much Minecraft...) I stumbled backwards into the stove a little, and realized I must be awake, I was not going to fly today. I let the dog outside... noticed I had new neighbors who had new dogs, but it was raining, so I decided I would wait until tomorrow to meet them.

At this point I must have drifted into a deeper consciousness... or awoke, I don't remember. And while this is the most mundane dream ever recorded in human history, it is a huge leap for me. SP really is a doorway to lucid dreaming, and now that I experienced this, I can start honing in on it and having a lot more fun!

As a side note, it is not raining out today, and my same old neighbor is there with the same old dogs...

Bedtime: 11:00 pm
WBTB: 4:00 am
Technique: DEILD
Notes: Brief lucidity x 2 this morning between wakings (woken by cat and husband)

Dang.....I became lucid twice this morning but kept getting woken up before I could try the bonus task of the month (summon an earthquake). In both dreams, I became lucid in a courtyard of some kind. Once I stabilized the dream and the scenery was crystal clear, I ran around looking for a wide open space. There were large buildings all around, and several tall trees. In the first dream, I was woken up at this point (either by my cat or my husband making noise in the kitchen). In the second, I returned to this same point and I decided to test my "strength" by defying gravity. I jumped up high into a tree. Feeling comfortable that I had some control, I then got back on the ground and ran to a large area between the tallest buildings, thinking it would be safer to summon an earthquake there with less to fall on my head and wake me up. I tried speaking out loud to the dream to summon the earthquake. At first my words didn't come out right, but my voice grew louder and more confident as I continued to speak. I asked the dream directly to create an earthquake. Then my cat woke me up. Sigh.

Following my previous blog entry, I formulated a guess about how my lucid dreams have been induced all this time, strangely enough. This morning I had another lucid dream with a unique twist.

It was a another DILD following a WBTB wherein I recognized I was dreaming but as usual, didn’t hold the dream for more than 10-20 seconds. I woke up shortly afterwards with my eyelids still lit up with vivid hypnagogic imagery such as a playing cards twisting and spinning and even the word “RSAtouble” was seen. I believe I was reading the word as “Roundtable” - just poorly misspelled.

I wasted no time in trying to gain entry into the dream world again and tried to do the FILD method while waiting for the opportune time to move my limbs again, do a reality check, and explore the dream world. I was certain I was dreaming but I was still in my place of rest so I got up, did a nose-pinch reality check but could not breathe so I lied back down and tried once again to get back into the dream scene using the FILD technique.

The thing is, in retrospect, that reality check should have failed because that entire FILD sequence was a dream, I now realize. But because I thought I was fully I awake, I expected the reality check to succeed and thus it did.

Expectations are huge in the dream world. I am not talking about these forced expectations that are induced via mantras. I am talking about expectations as natural as you expecting a light to come on when you flip a switch or when you turn a doorknob. They are not consciously thought about, you just passive anticipate the usual result after countless repetition. A routine essentially. Anyway, back on track.

It wasn’t till after I had woken up one last time to get ready for work that I realized what had happened, I had some inception-style lucid dream.

I noticed a pattern in when my lucid dreams have occurred:

1. I sleep for 4-6 hours then wake up for 45-60 minutes.

2. I go back to sleep with awareness of the time and the intention to awaken at a later time. Why? Because it would be absolutely dreadful to be late for work trying to lucid dream.

3. I expect to have a lucid dream but I don’t try to force anything. My priority is to get as much sleep as possible within the 2 hour time frame I’m allowed.

If the second item is the reason for my lucid dreams, then I may be on the cusp of mastering the induction of lucid dreams. After that, it is only a matter of training stability and control.

Completed Basic Task 1

Had a really good sleep last night and woke early for a short wbtb. Also read through the totm's on dream views - I had the urge

Was very aware of dream starting and the deilding over an hour or so just before getting up - began moving around in dream very quickly but lucidity was a bit tricky at times...I must remember to ground myself more when beginning with entering ...maybe coz I am so close to awakening.

Anyway Enjoyed some Lucid times this morning and managed to get a few takes at some of the totm's ; when first lucid I tried to fly at the speed of light but it was awfully static and dark not my usual flight mode ... So I abandoned that task. I see a DC and walk up to him. I try to pull down his pants but to my utter surprise the trousers just won't come down ha ha I keep tugging but it seems like a tug of war with the DC's powers or something - anyway I abandon it.

Later lucid I try the Basic task again and succeed - I move up to a handsome DC and say 'ok task of the month here I come' - I look him straight in the eye and move very very close to him! When I am almost nose to nose I quickly bend down and pull his trousers and pants down to the ground. I stand back and look at his exposed parts and it looks like he is a woman down there or he is a small butt ...I could not work it out so I looked up at his face and he looked at me saying something like ' I don't know ' and shrugged his shoulders with a cheeky smile

I then asked him about a good Totm - he gave me an answer but I forgot

Morning of July 5, 2016. Tuesday.



This dream starts off with quite honestly the worst visual pun I have seen in ages. I am looking into a parking lot and see that something is not quite right. Instead of the cars having a windshield and upper section, it is a thumb in such a manner as the thumbnail implies the car’s windshield. Still, the scene does not really seem that bizarre to me and in fact, eventually triggers otherwise unrelated sequences.

Next, there is a thumb with windshield wipers moving over the thumbnail. This image is greatly magnified though the closeup perspective is not realistic. The windshield wipers have too much mechanical detail and exaggerated distance from each other (relative to one over the other and seeming farther out than it should). Eventually these “windshield wipers” become more like a minute hand and an hour hand reading fifteen minutes to three (or two forty-five). During this time, there are also glimpses of watching the slightly twitching needle of a pressure gauge. Sometimes when going back to the “fingernail wipers” they seem more like black hairs that just fall off the surface.

The perspective of my dream shifts, similar to when one jumps from visual sequences into a more corporeal state. A car has been abandoned at the top of a hill with all of its doors left open. It is raining. The windshield wipers are the minute hand and hour hand of a clock, again suggesting two forty-five or a quarter to three. They move slightly but fall back, and the position remains at about a quarter to three. It seems at first to be some sort of sign relating to mortality. However, it is more likely a circadian rhythms feature as it relates to the nature of time. I begin to walk towards the car and instead become the car which is also a clock.

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Upon seeing the above image, Zsuzsanna caught the play on “thumb drive” instantly, with no other hint.

I intended to take Galantamine last night but, remembered that I didn't need it. However, I think my recall would have been much better if I had.

#491 - DEILD - 2:44AM

I partially wake up and focus on relaxation. I immediately get vibrations and quickly get up. It's dark and I and I end up in some trippy body sensation where I am twisting around all weird. I have a moment of thinking I am moving my physical body and open my eyes. For a moment I think maybe my physical eyes are open but I trust my instincts just go with it. I can see now and I go out side and fly around a bit.

I have a huge memory gap or maybe I lost lucidity but when I come back to myself I am floating around town with a woman that resembles my wife. There is a closeness that feels like a part of myself. I say I wonder what aspect of myself you are. The woman giggles. We hug as we float around a food court. I grab her tit and she pushes my hand away. I have an understanding that she is resting because I don't want this type of lucid dream. I nod and verbalize this to her.

Suddenly we are having ice cream. I take a bite and then decide to leave. A disfigured and mentally ill kid runs after us from behind the counter. I suppose he expects us to pay. We fly out of the food court and effortlessly phase out a window. I look back at the kid running after us. I wake up.

#492 - DILD

I am shooting some type of full automatic rifle in a shooting range in a cave. Says "Carbide" on the rifle. At some point I recognize I am dreaming but I continue shooting. I don't worry about reloading properly. I just dump some bullets in. I notice the bullets are made of stone. I continue to shoot noticing how dull the shots are in dreams. I know I can shoot as much and as fast as I want. I carved designs in the wooden targets. I smile and just enjoy that I am having a lucid dream.

A NLD about making copied from objects in a mirror. Some how I put something in front of the mirror and turn around to find a duplicate. I ended up doing this to myself but somehow copied bunch of other people. I some how got the duplicates to go back to where ever they came from but I kept the copy of myself. I wondered if having sex with myself would be gay or just masturbation. I try to talk about this to my copy could read my mind. We left the question open and unanswered.