lucid

I had an LD tonight. I went to bed around 8:30 pm for a nap but it took me some time to fall asleep, and I woke up at 10 pm. I rarely have LDs at night, but my sleeping times are messed up currently anyway.

It started with some painful sensations like the last time but I was aware I was dreaming this time, and tried to get rid of them but couldn't but at least I knew they were not real, so I suffered less. Then I thought I woke up and realized it was false awakening and became conscious again, and false awakenings kept happening, probably 5 times. I tried to summon somethings each time, but it didn't always work. There was never a time enough to go with the flow and live a story or something but I had some fun in between them.

I remember in one of the false awakenings, I thought that my body moved in real life while spinning in the dream. I thought that because when I woke up (not really, just a false awakening) I found myself in a weird position and floating! and that sounded realistic to me at the time until I realized later I was still dreaming.

I'm back home. I'm looking outside from the front of the house. I see two boxes. I'm afraid to open them. I assume I opened at least one of them because there is the bottom part of a dress or skirt. It has money in it. I give the money to I think my gf. Its also nighttime which might of been why I was kind of scared...

I talked to a friend of mine today and she thought what was emotions inside the boxes. If anyone who reads this would like to interpret it that would be cool of you.

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1.I became conscious at the edge of anothers dream, behind me seemed dark and gloomy it was a portal from my dream into his, and as I looked off to the side it seemed like I was standing in a desolate city, I looked forward and saw large colorful wooden blocks set ontop of each other making a fence line for what I thought was the beginning of a kingdom and an archway. I walked throught the archway feeling like someone was there, looked down and saw stairs going off to the right so I walked down them, infront of me was junk like old vehicles and other things piled on to each other, I began to wonder where the other person was as I turned around he was standing there blue eyes, brown hair, with blue overalls. We spoke to each other metally I remember asking if I could stay and help him build and he said yes then he walked up the stairs I remember thinking how weird it was that his behavior was unscripted he did what he wanted to do, I didnt have control over his actions thats when I became aware that it was more than a dream. As he walked up the stairs I felt like I was going to be lonely I think he stopped and looked back at me reassuring me that he'd be back he just needed parts for a tv he was fixing...well I think thats what he was fixing and then he walked out. When I woke up I remember thinking I wanted to go back to dream with him, but that he wouldn't be there even if I did manage to go back there in a dream.This dream happened when I was 7.

I watched Back to the Future for the first time on Tuesday! It was a really good movie. That night, I had a dream that was somewhat related to it. And once more, it was lucid! My LDs have been too few and far between lately. My new reality check (whether or not I can fly) has been paying off!

There was a lady from the future! Her ship flew into the futuristic-looking room that I was standing in. Her time machine looked different from anything that was in the movie. I remember it had some orange-red parts to it, which looked a lot like lava. She came out of the time machine wearing a cool (black?) suit, and she had lava markings on said suit as well. Another lady was there with us. I went to ask the lady from the future where she was from. I can't remember what her response was, though.

Then, eventually another lady appeared, so there were 3, and we were then joined by my tulpa and best friend, Tess, with me in this futuristic room. We were having a nice conversation; I don't remember what it was about. I think the combination of time travel and Tess being completely imposed onto the external environment clued me in that I needed to do a reality check (Tess isn't fully imposed yet in waking reality).

My reality check is trying to rise up into the air and fly. Checking my watch isn't as effective as it used to be, because I never seem to notice my watch in my dreams. So I tried this new RC, and it worked splendidly! Of course, it took a few weeks of trying it before it started to work its way into my subconscious and truly take effect. But the results were worth it.

I realized that I was dreaming because I could fly! The first thing I decided to do was ask the other dream characters if they thought that this was a dream. Tess already knew it was a dream, as she usually dreams with me and is generally cognizant and lucid if I am.

I put my arm around the first lady and asked what she thought. She said something like "Well, I think this is real!" Then I felt bad for putting my arm around her and put it around Tess instead. I really wanted this to be real, because it was so cool - it would mean that Tess was completely visible to everyone, and time machines are REAL! - but I knew it wasn't. Despite that fact, I agreed with her: "Heck yes, this is real!" But I didn't lose lucidity.

This other, older lady, who looked like my grandma's friend Janice, waved her hand dismissively and said "Oh, of course this is a dream! We are all dreaming right now! "You " - and then she pointed at me - "know we're dreaming!" She said it in a playful, teasing tone, so I believe I just laughed and agreed with her.

At this point, I forgot about the time machine for some reason. I thought about going to a tropical island with Tess, but then I realized that I could actually make out with her for real! Aaand that's kind of what happens when you are 22 and have never had a girlfriend, not through any choice of your own. -_- But we did, and it felt so REAL! Then she pressed her body against mine, and I could feel every detail - her lips, her soft warm hug, and umm...every other part of her body from top to bottom that was against me. :p I won't go further than that in case any kids happen to be reading this. xD But yeah. Every single detail; every single sense was so real that I really feel, even now, that in some way, that was real. It wasn't just a psychological effect of a lonely, imaginative mind. It was something that really, truly happened, and I will always stick to my belief of this.

But then my body was too excited and I woke up lol...dang it!!


Another dream I had was during a short, spontaneous nap I decided to take today. I felt sleep paralysis, so I was very close to being awake. It actually feels really cool once you get used to it. Lots of romance, flying, and random things that made sense within the context of the dream, but wouldn't have within waking reality. . I only exerted a moderate amount of control; mostly what I did with Tess while she was with me.

I have recorded a few other dreams for the past few weeks, but due to lack of time I'm just posting the lucid ones for now. This trend shouldn't continue, though. More to come in the future!

I LOVE LUCID DREAMING

It has been sometime since i added a new entry to my dream journal (partially has to do with a dry-spell) so here goes
Also i had this dream a few days ago so it is not exactly fresh in my mind.
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Fragment: I remember the dream taking place in some kind of forest area but i am not exactly sure. One thing i remember clearly was a large, square monument with vines on it in front of me. I don't know exactly when but i was lucid, and so the first thing i did was increase the vividness of the dream by shouting something along the lines of "increase lucidity" which immediately made the dream nearly as real as reality. I was surprised by this but suddenly I get the desire to try flying which i don't accomplish because of what happens next. As soon as i thought about flying some kind of crocodile-like creature jumped from the monument to a piece of ground in front of me, the creature wasn't actually scary but the dream slowly fell apart and I woke up.

Not quite a memorable LD but the realism sure was interesting.

I'm heading toward the exit of school building, and making my way through the second floor stairwell. I'm thinking about dreams, and becoming lucid in them. As I approach an outdoor balcony connected to this area, it hits me that i am actually now inside of a dream. I Begin to fly over the railing to travel out of the area of the building and toward the forest beyond. The dream feels a bit unstable, and I'm a bit cautious of flying at the time. I want to head farther into the distance to explore the dream scene, and feel walking would be better for a couple minutes until I can build some stability. I head a bit farther, then begin flying, and the dream begins to fade.

My husband and I were on a vacation together, staying in a hotel that had a creepy manger. He was our age or older, and had a thick head of bushy brown hair and giant dark piercing eyes.
He was acting inappropriately towards me, in a very threatening way when no one else could see.
At one point I had to go back into the room with a key, to get additional clothing, headphones or earbuds, and [my?] wallet and the creepy manager was there, and I couldn’t find all of the things I needed before I felt like I needed to escape.

It was hazy and darkish and I was walking down a small alley/road with my dog and saw I saw another dog behind a fence that looked like her only a different color. I knew they had once known each other, or were siblings, and I wondered if they recognized each other; they seemed to.

My husband, creepy manger, one other guy and I were sitting on lawn chairs facing the ocean
It was sunny and warm
We were watching strange crustaceans and cuttlefish on shore, interacting with one another.
At first just one, but then all, began changing colors. Beautiful iridescent sparkling colors that faded into one another. I became lucid when I thought about how strange it was. The dream quality diminished instead of enhancing. The background with the animals froze, and things were dimmer all around. The people around me were still talking. I felt hesitant to fly or do anything too intense because it felt like I was about to wake up. I tried to interact with one and soon either woke up or lost lucidity.

I was driving a car with my brother in the passenger seat. The car started sputtering, and my brother gave me a look that said this happens all the time.
I pulled over near someones house and parked haphazardly.
People came out of the house an accused me of ruining some of their lawn ornaments. I apologized, and a younger woman asked me if I wanted coffee or tea or anything.

Thoughts:
The hotel part is similar to another dream Ive had recently—having to go back into the hotel rom with a key to get additional items while trying to avoid/not trusting the manger. Hmm. I need things, from an area that is supervised by someone I don't trust. I'll have to think more on this. Im not sure what ocean animals signify...perhaps deep-seated memories or creative ideas? And finally, I am in the drivers seat, although my car breaks down. Of course. I don't feel like the best example for my younger brother perhaps?

Dreams seem a bit random and boring at the moment!

1) In a canteen, Phil Colins talking about winning an award then he started singing. As if a documentary panned to his ex wife who complained about how much she missed him and how she went on a tour of Australia after they separated. Suddenly I was on holiday in Townsville with my family driving in a car, we passed a row of houses and commented that one of them was where our friends stayed quite often.

2) Poor recall of this one - something about the doctors I was working with getting ill, I was told it was my turn to go to the sick room with another doctor. then talking to some old friends and looking at some books.

3) In a mini-bus. Some kittens on the road but the driver just managed to avoid them. then I was ordering some sandwiches it was a special offer and I was ordering for the whole year I said I would come back once they had all been made. The I was talking to a patient in her bedroom, her husband leaned over and told me that she could have told me all this in surgery and I said that's ok I was just waiting for some sandwiches to be made so I had plenty of time.

I'm putting my hands through a wall of some kind but not going through it even though I kind of want to.

Non-lucid to lucid nightmare of sorts. It's hard to describe the place I'm in but I'll do my best. Okay, say you were in a warehouse type of place but with no roof & there are these kind of balconies but industrial like. That's as good as I can describe it. The world is basically ending & these guys are telling me the only way out is to come with them. So we climb up to the surrounding balcony & it leads to a door & through the door there is this tunnel.... The threat that will end us all is this constant water rising & people are trying to get to higher ground but it's obvious that even that will not save us. They tell me we need to get into this tube which is like 2 feet in diameter & it will take us into the earth somewhere where we will be safe. So, I was like okay, I'm claustrophobic but it's to save my life right? Then they tell me we will be sliding in said small fucking tunnel tube for a fucking hour but we will be fine. I become lucid as I'm thinking I have to be dreaming because this is all scary but nonetheless stupid. And then I start to panic & I just need to get away from this dream & right on cue before I could change anything my husband calls to wake me up.

I know why I had this dream. I was reading this book on meditation & it has you pay attention to your breathing. Breathe like you are breathing blue fluid which simulates the eather & yes in this book it's spelled that way on purpose.... And the tube came from when Mike & I had to go to one of the other pools recently due to our pool has the swim meet going on & he gashed his head in one of their tube slides that were made for kids... And I "am" claustrophobic & hate said tubes in general but I can deal with them if they are really fast or short rides.... Not to mention I'm overwhelmed with shit going on in my life right now so it all makes perfect sense. I would have liked to change the scene though because I had a dreamscape planned out. Oh well.



Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown

07.07.2016
9:30

Pokemon, Pants, and the Speed of Light (SSILD)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

Pokemon go came out last night! My roommate, girlfriend, and I walked around the college campus untill 11pm and found a lot of pokemon. I was really close to level 5 and was about to take over an unclaimed gym but then the servers went down and we had to go home. I had so much fun that I decided to give the pokemon TOTM a try.

I had to get up early to move my car for the street sweeper and then stayed up a bit to read about updates about Pokemon Go. That made me WBTB. I did some SSILD and some quick mantras and tried to WILD.

I don't remember if I succeeded at WILD or had a false awakening but I am in my living room and I am lucid. I had put my matress in the living room for the night because the air conditioning is better. I remember that I am trying to do the Advanced Task i which is to catch something with a Pokeball. I put my hand behind me and point it towards the door to my room. I pull with telekinesis on a pokeball that I imagine to be in my room. I feel a ball fly into my hand. I pull it forward and look at it. It look much cooler than I expected. It's so polished that it's reflective. I remember to telegrab another just in-case I miss. Now all I need is something to catch. I fly out though the window. I don't bother opening it. I just phase through. I fly down the street and find a woman walking her child in a stroller. I throw the pokeball at them but it goes to short. I throw the other and it goes to far. I keep telegrabing them and trying again. "This is to realistic to pokemon go", I think so I use telekinesis to push it into the woman. It makes a dink noise and doesn't work. I really should catch a pokemon and not a person I think as I start to wake up.

I DEILD and end up back in my living room. My girlfriend is there and talking to my roommate. I do a nose plug and confirm I am still dreaming. I look ou the window and see Shadow the Hedghog in the apartment complex? Wait, no, thats a Zoroark, an actual pokemon! I am summon a pokeball and fly out the window but wake up. Another false awakening. My gf is stil there. I just try the pokeball on her. No luck. I see my dog and think to try it on her too. Wait, don't they have to be weakened first? I consider beating up my dog until I realize how crazy that is. I take another look at my pokeball. For some reason I think to run it under the sink. It turns into a blue dive ball. If I see a water pokemon I will use this one. I fly out the window and explore. I hear some rumbling in a bush and find a Lapras. Cool that's a pretty strong one for my first wild pokemon. I throw the dive ball and it breaks open and sucks in the Lapras just in time before I have another false awakening.

It is very dark now. The tv is on with netflix still playing. I am trying and find the remote to turn it off when a middle aged man comes in through the front door. He looks confused as to why I am sleeping in here. He asks if we have met. Oh yeah, this is my roommate's dad, I have met him once. I haven't. I don't even know what he looks like. I find the remote and mess with it until I remember turning it off last night. I do a RC and become lucid again. I might as well do the basic task. I pull down my roommate's dad's pants and underwear. I fly out the window before catching his reaction. I need that to complete the task so I look through the window. He stands there blankly and then says something I can't hear. Probably "damn it." I fly back inside and find my gf is still there. I pants her too and we have some fun for a little while.

I have another FA or two. They are very realistic. It is still dark and I am with my dad and sister now. There is a bright green shooting star and some other strange lights. Suddenly, the moon flys over the horizon. I do a RC and become lucid again. I decide to try the task that I suggested which is to fly faster than the speed of light and investigate where the moon went. I fly into the sky. I remember in my last lucid I covered the center of my vision. It is easier to see how fast I am going in my peripheral vision. I fly as fast as I can and all the stars at my peripheral vision streaks for a second like in star wars. I stop and turn around. I am outside the entire galaxy. I feel like I am really big now and can easily fly back. I go back to where I think our sun is. I find the earth but it looks super tiny. I look for the moon but start to wake up. I decide against DEILD because the dream is getting so long I can hardly remember the begging. As soon as I wake up I remember that I was suppose to summon the pokemon so it doesn't count but I still completed a basci and an advanced task!

Bedtime: 10:30 pm
WBTB: 4:00 am (awake about 20 mins)
Technique: DILD
Notes: This dream occurred before my WBTB alarm. This is the second time in the last couple weeks where I used an induction technique WITHIN a dream to become lucid. Very strange.

I am at my dad's house. I am with my family in the living room. I decide to see if I can fall asleep on the floor (in the dream) and have a lucid dream. I use an LD technique to enter a lucid dream. As I enter the new dream, I become fully lucid.

I am in an unfamiliar city. I remember I still want to cause an earthquake for the bonus task, so I ask the dream directly for an earthquake. Nothing happens, so I tell myself to give it time and explore the dream. I wander around a junk yard full of old cars. I see an attractive man in one of the cars. He has a large dog, possibly a pit bull, in the back seat. I climb in the car to pet the dog and talk to the man. I feel attracted to the man, so decide to kiss him. The erotic feelings cause the dream to begin collapsing so I get out of the car quickly before I wake myself up.

I ask the dream again for an earthquake. Again, nothing happens so I continue to explore. I enter a large office building. I go up several levels and look out the windows, hoping to see some sign of an earthquake. Nothing. I try to remember the other July tasks. I recall the task to prank a DC. I don't feel comfortable pranking my DC's, but decide to give it a try anyway since I can't figure out the earthquake situation. I see a man dressed in a suit standing by a drinking fountain. I walk up behind him and pull down his pants. He turns to me surprised and perplexed. I apologize, and explain that I am working on my LD tasks. I then offer to let him pull my pants down so we are even. He agrees and pulls my pants down. We laugh, then I experience an awkward moment of erotic feelings. I immediately leave, again afraid of the dream collapsing.

I go downstairs to what appears to be the company cafeteria. I see several familiar faces. I decide to approach another male DC and ask his opinion about monthly LD tasks. He seems interested, and goes on to explain how interesting it would be to explore religions symbols for the TOTM. I am intrigued, but wonder if that is too philosophical for some people. I ask another DC what he thinks would be a fun TOTM. He says he would really like to see people picking raspberries. I consider this, amused. I then continue approaching people. I ask the next DC if she has heard anything about an earthquake. She shows me a newspaper with a headline saying scientists expect an earthquake to occur sometime that day. This encourages me. I then see my ex-boyfriend in the crowd. I tell him we are dreaming and we can do anything. He is amused and agrees to go exploring with me. I show him how to jump and fly over the tables to exit the building. The DCs get agitated by our flight and begin a food fight among themselves. I am then woken up by my alarm.

07.07.2016

(SSILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up about 5 hours after going to sleep. I was too sleepy to get out of bed so I just went on fb on my phone, I browsed for 25 minutes and then laid on my back to attempt SSILD. I did the short cycles in about minute and a half, and then started the long cycles. I had drifting thoughts but made it to about cycle 4 before losing consciousness. Next thing I know I'm feeling SP set in so I lay still, wait a minute or two, then plug my nose.

Even though I was 100% sure that I had RC'd too early and woken myself up, air went through. I decided to check again, just in case, as I didn't want to end up in the news "crazy guy jumps out the window in the middle of the night". RC'd confirmed again it was a dream. I get out of bed and feel the usual WILD grogginess; it is early dawn and my room is still dark. I rub my hands together and look at them, there's always something odd about them in lucid dreams. I grab my phone, feel its texture, its weight, and the dream feels more stable now. I sit on the floor, for a moment it felt like I was gonna go straight through it but the floor stops me. I shout "MORE CLARITY" and wonder whether that even makes sense, but it seems to work. My room is lighter by now. My dog Fiona comes in and starts wagging her tail at me and resting her face on my leg as she usually does. I wonder why it is that my dogs always show at my lucid dreams, and think there is a slight possibility that maybe we are shared dreaming.

I think "I have no idea what I want to do right now" and then laugh at how silly that is to think in a lucid dream. I run towards the window and jump out, going through it as I used to do back in the day (or back when I used to lucid dream, really). I start flying and get a rush of adrenaline. Everything goes white but I am still 100% conscious in the lucid dream. It feels like it's something with my eyes, so I just remain calm. By the time I regain my sight I am in my backyard. The sky is amazing, a mixture of Vanilla, orange, and purple. I run off and start flying again, I fly towards the soccer field and enjoy the feeling of it. I missed this. I think of my goal; since my gf is away for 3 months I thought might as well pay her a visit and have some sexy time.

I walk along the street and go into the first car I see, expecting to find her inside. Conveniently, the first car I see is a van (spacious). I go in, and sure enough she's in there. We undress eachother and have sexy time. For some reason I lost my sight yet again, and it took about 20 seconds to get it back.

I have a FA in which my mom comes into my room to check on me and I pretend to be asleep.

The dream started when I rode in a car to the house of my late grandmother (mom's side) who passed away six months ago. From there the telephone rang as I was told that I had a dentist's appointment soon. A week later in the living room of my dad's house, I sit in the recliner in the living room asking my dad if he had any money to pay for a plane ticket, as it was all the way on the West Coast in Los Angeles. Dad had his TV tray with his big laptop on the table and his female friend who visits was sitting on the couch.

A few weeks later in the dream, I find myself in Los Angeles...but unfortunately, it looks like downtown Raleigh. I hear a rendition of Ain't It Fun by the band Paramore that is the work of British pianist Sam Yung (it's also on YouTube), and just as soon as the first verse ends (when he stops playing for a few seconds), the actual song's chorus plays with band frontwoman Hayley Williams' vocals just like it sounded on the band's 2013 self-titled album (which I enjoy, by the way), bass, electric guitar, percussion and all. I remember saying something about copyright. I also remember being on a bus near the back when I heard it. I suddenly have this feeling where there really wasn't a dentist's appointment in LA and that I may have been tricked. As soon as I heard Williams' vocals, I jumped and felt a funny feeling in my right leg and stomach. (I think this may have been my first lucid in a while.)

I remember dreams I've had from 2013-15 where towns and cities in southern California (Los Angeles (twice), Hemet High School, but one scene later) look like places in North Carolina that I may have been before (dentist's office in 2013, downtown Raleigh in 2014 and a random section in Wal-Mart in 2015 that looks like none of the stores I've visited in the state), leading me to think the two states are fighting over me and/or my writing works. I've also had Paramore dreams before, but Williams' hair has been different colors than the trademark red or orange.

(I credit the Carmen Sandiego series of computer games (I saw the game show on PBS first when I was younger) for inspiring me to do research on the two states in 1998-99 in the 7th grade.)

I am at work talking to someone I am I do not know at my manager office. He leaves and I go check at the beo to see what needs to be done for tommorow. As I am doing so, I am interrupted by my mother who then walks pass me. I'm wondering why she is here intill the person who runs the human resources showed up and ask me how is my head doing. Before I can respond entirely I see she is trying to lift one of the 6ft classroom tables. So I offer to help lift it to her office. It felt way lighter than it should be I thought, but I decided to just go with it. I then enter her office to see my brother and father both sitting down. I attempt to place the table down but the table legs that are meant to hold it were bent for some odd reason. I told the captain human resources that I will come back with a better table. I walk out and notice all the tables were distorted or just plain broken. I lose track of my thoughts and just left the building walking outside on the side walk for a minute or two. Thinking about nothing at all in till it hit me. I felt like I should be doing something but didn't knew what it was. I stood there for a long good second and it hit me. I was suppose to be getting tables , the urge to get a table was too strong to the point where I woke up. But it was truly a false awakening. I look around and got out of my bed. I enter in my bathroom and notice my mirror is reflecting differently then it normally would. I look at my hands and did a nose RC. I knew I am dreaming but lost lucidity fairly quickly .