lucid

Dream 1

I forgot.

Dream 2

I was in my house and had my hand in my parakeets cage. However, the cage had more parakeets in it and was smaller. My brothers friend came to me and told me I didn't know how to take care of my birds and that my hand was in the wrong place. I got mad at him and told him to mind his own business and that I do know how to take care of my birds.

He got scared after that and left. Somehow I felt like my hand was in the wrong spot and took it out. The next thing I remember is walking into a field of roses. There was a little girl and a fluffy thing trying to water a flower so it would grow. But it just wasn't growing big enough. I pulled out some purple roses and started walking to the race track I saw in the distance.

My family was watching a race but one of the car drivers lost control and almost ran over my brother. I ran to the car and tried to stop it from running over my brother. It was like the size of a child's battery powered car that they can ride in.When we stopped the car my sister told me to smash the car harder with my foot so I jumped on it and than stopped. The car was now starting to look like a girl.

My mom than pulled me away from the scene and walked me into a church. There was a lot of people around cleaning the chairs and stuff with bounty. I was sort of laughing at the idea of so many people cleaning chairs when suddenly a guy in the middle just shouted "shit!." I think he was trying to be a jokester and tried to make me feel bad at wanting to laugh but my mom said to ignore him and pulled me away.

My mom and I soon reached a building for kindergarten kids. We were inside and my mom asked a lady for a art drawing I did. After that my mom told me to wait for my drawing and left. The lady seemed to be taking a long time so I asked for the drawing myself. The lady said "Oh!" Than went to get it.

I than realized this made no sense and I didn't need to wait. But than a small tiny voice came out of no where and told me to draw red into it. It was a small round black figure floating in the air. I painted red in it with my finger than suddenly it grew a needle like mouth.

It thanked me and said the red was for the blood and that it was going to suck my blood now. I kicked it and tried to keep its big head from getting close to me. It was so annoying I almost felt like giving up but I didn't. I managed to make it really tiny and run. As I ran down the escalators and stairs the thing screamed that it was going to come after me, fly up my butt and implant a disease in me.

I ran out through a small moving door and pushed a girl out of the way. I than appeared in a supermarket and was in a really closed corner near a cash register. A dad called his daughter from behind me and asked his daughter why she always bought frozen hamburger foods. That they were unhealthy and were gonna make her thighs huge. She just said that she likes to eat them and than I woke up.


Dream 3

I was in my living room with my cousins,my brother's friends and my family. I went into the bathroom to shower and got in and out pretty quickly. But I couldn't find clothes. I told my cousin to pass me my clothes and she said okay but she had to do something first.

She walked into the bathroom than moved a picture on the wall. The picture was hiding a square hole where you could view the other room. I was confused but than realized i was dreaming.

I went to the living room and saw lots of people eating fancy food on a fancy table. I thought it was nice but than noticed a DC that looked familiar to another DC i saw in my other dream talking to another guy on a table. I patted him on the shoulder and told him I realized that this was a dream and he said "that's great! It's about time you realized."

When he turned around i could see that his eyes were a really bright light blue and that his hair was a bright yellow.Than the scene began to change and one of my cousins was now eating food at a table. Monsters with radio heads came to attack us out of no where so I fought them for practice.

Than the scene changed again and I was in a huge arcade like place packed with people. There was announcer asking who wanted to try a dream test and I said I would. He brought me to a room and told me to go inside because my opponent will shoot lots of bullets around.

I said no though cause I thought they were trying to deceive me. The guy got angry and told me "Fine! Do it your way than if you don't want to be barricaded." I than heard gun shots and a fat guy was shooting bullets through his finger.

I just used dream control to bend his finger though and than started beating him up. But than....his head came off when he was on the ground. "Was that supposed to happen!?" I asked. Than a guy next to me said not to worry cause his neck and head will grow back together.

Than I noticed another lady announcer asking who wanted to go in a test room to fight with a large version of a octopus and Ursula.I was hesitant at first but than volunteered. The announcer was happy and let me in the room.

As the crowd was cheering though I noticed my vision was fading and I was being pulled back by a green and white net. I jumped forward and could see now but the scenery was different. Ursula and the octopus were small and in a fish bowl.

I knocked them off the table than took a towel to dry them since they need water to live. Than stomped on them and broke them in half. Than they turned into a rose and I woke up.

From this dream I learned that I don't need to get so violent in some dreaming situations if my opponent appears to be bigger and badder than me. I just need to judge the situation better and use kinder attacks.

First thing i remember was speaking to DC. I spoke to him that i wanted to share a dream with this one person. I wanted to somehow send message trough a dream to certain person. I looked around and i was in this yard. I saw huge tower in front of me made out of building like temples,huts, japanese houses,skysrapers.....fused together in very messy way. It was like i was looking into mashed world of dreaming. It was really confusing and the clouds were all over the places. It just look like it was place beyond time and reality. That there was just all sorts of thing. The place beyond the tower and the yard was just blue sky covered by clouds all over the place. The weird thing though was when i flew around the place it had four invisible walls. I flew below,over,up,left ,right the tower until i hit invisible wall in all directions. I could see just endless sky trough these walls and this wasnt the first time i was in a dream like this.

In the other dream i became lucid and i created portal. I jumped into the portal where i appeared at this weird place were me and thousands of other people where were pulled by gravity to different direction. The place was colored by orange sun light and which painted the clouds there beautifully. As i was pulled by gravity to different direction ended up this path were i had normal gravity and could walk. Everything beyond that path was covered by clouds. As i looked up it was painted by clouds and orange sunlight. I just saw clouds and orange sky everywere i looked and there was on thi one path to follow. There were many people walking in this path. I asked one of them were i was he didnt know and said maybe heaven. I said to myself that im just dreaming and flew outside of this path and i was hit by gravity and i dropped down beyond the clouds and entered this dimension. It was same as the previous place it was covered by the orange sky in every direction i looked. I noticed that there was no gravity there and i was alone there. There were all sorts of object in the air all over the place.
I flew around and grapped this towel and tried to move it. It sretched really far and as i let go it snapped back to its original form and stayed compeletly still without any effect at all. I flew around and i saw huge skate ramp, weird objectss like toilet paper to rocks, clothing,small parts of land and things i didnt reconize. I flew around until i hit this invisible wall. I wondered why i couldnt go trough it even though i was lucid so i began to fly to other directions. Same thing there were wall every single direction. I tried to get out but i couldnt this place was without gravity and objects all over the place and all over the world just staying still in the air. When i tried to move the objects they just scretched and snapped back to its original form and place. I flew to the huge skate ramp and landed there. I began wonder should i wake up. I just thought it was even too weird for a dream so i just snapped myself back to awake.

#386 - DILD? - 5:48AM (2 of 2)

I had slight wakefulness but was really focused on WILD. I must have failed due to how long it was between dreams. However, it did feel like a WILD, but I am not sure what really happened. Either way a lucid is a lucid.

I am in my house and I head straight out the front door and recall my goal to fly into orbit. It is raining. The smell of it is vivid. I notice I don't feel the rain and discover that I am wearing a hoodie with the hood up. I take it down wanting to feel the wet precipitation on my face but there is no sensation. Oh well, on with the task. I jump hard while doing a mighty force push against the ground. This effortlessly propels me fast into the sky while I look down. The ground drops away, then dark clouds, then atmosphere. I get a brief glimpse of the Earth before the dream crashes.

Everything gets darker and super unstable. I put my hands out trying to focus on seeing the Earth from orbit, but I realize that I am back in my yard. Before me I see a large circle of red light with a ring around it. I notice someone getting in the car in the driveway in my peripheral vision but choose to ignore this. I focus on making the laser light show become a realistic representation of Earth but the dream quickly fades away.

#385 - DEILD - 4:21AM (1 of 2)

A couple shots of vodka just before bed for a little REM suppressant. I went to bed around 10:30PM and awoke naturally at 2:00AM from a super vivid dream. It was a little early for my WBTB but I went ahead and got up for about 45min with 8mg Galantamine and 400mg Choline. I downed the pills with a glass of home-brew Kombucha, then got got on Facebook for awhile.

I having failed a WILD, found myself waking from this dream:

I am about to go to sleep on the asphalt in a parking lot. I have my pillow and a huge comfy comforter. My wife is next to me already passed out. I have been talking to a work buddy on Facebook and decide to make a final comment then lay down. When I put my phone down I see him and his mom some feet away in their own pallets. His mom keeps making snide comments and says something about my top hat. I look over and see one next to me. It looks a lot like the one in "Frosty The Snowman". I tell her its just a top hat and not to worry about it. I lay down and flip them the bird with my eyes closed and smile. Then I get really hot and notice that I have a long black overcoat on. I take it off to reveal a while dress shirt. It takes effort but I mange to strip down enough to feel comfortable and go to sleep.

I wake partially and go into DEILD. I feel vibrations right away and let my self lucidly slip under. I feel real excitement with a racing heart and it takes a moment to calm down. Then I blindly make my way out the front door. As I feel the cool air hit me, I hear a loud sucking noise and am pulled back into my body. I am not sure if it is my physical body or dream body but I gasp for air as if I have been holding for a long time.

I wait a few seconds in the vibes and then get up again. This time I see misty swirling visuals as a dream forms in front of me. This gives a really cool effect as a copy of myself forms before me. Its a little odd but the dream is still really unstable so I grab my doubles arm and talk to him. This quickly fades as I am sucked back once again.

I realize its always my habit to rush this transitional stage so I decide to relax and just be mindfully in the moment. I enjoy multiple body sensations like weightlessness and vertigo. I begin to sing some old song. I am not sure of the name or even if the lyrics are right. "I-I-I-I-I... Get that feeling." (What's that song?) I have that moment where I wonder if I am singing out loud and I swear I think I feel my wife turn a bit in bed. I decide not to be put off by it and sing the line again though, it is noticeably softer.

Next, I use the feeling of weightlessness and start imagining flying. The feeling is real and I think I have a moment where I open my eyes and see a huge puffy cloud above my bed. After I awhile I feel like I am falling and blindly pull a parachute cord. There is a noticeable jerk as the air fills the chute and I glide softly down. I get a visual of ground below me then I land in a version of my bathroom. I immediately recall my lucid dare to find a story in the dream. I decided beforehand to either call someone to ask and listen, or find a TV and watch. I decide to look for my phone.

The bathroom is full of all kinds of junk like a tornado had hit my house. There were clothes and debris everywhere as well as all sort of cosmetic and toiletry items around the sink. As I search around it, I say out loud, "Where is my cell phone?" I have a thought to blind summon but for some reason it feels silly since I 'just woke up'. I see something under an empty Q-tip container; It's my phone, but when I reach for it I push it off into the floor. When I bend over, I feel air on my asshole like I like I am completely naked. Shocked, this causes me to pause and look in the mirror. I see a blurry and vibrating reflection in the mirror. As far as I can tell I am shirtless and probably naked with worried look on my face. The effect of the reflection feels unstable so I look away back on task. It's probably best not to worry about this anyway.

The phone screen is super dim, but I blindly tap random spots on the screen anyway, knowing it really doesn't matter. Its the object in my hand that is extending this form or dream control and giving me a mental boost. I put the phone to my ear expectantly and hear a ring then an answer. I try talking to the man the other end but it just sounds like I have tapped into someone's phone conversation. The dream blacks out here and I worry that I am going to have to start over. Luckily, the sensation of the phone to my ear is still very vivid so I just continue on in the darkness. I try to interrupt but they don't seem to hear me and I can't tell what they are saying. I stay persistent and finally get through to a very redneck sounding man. When, I finally understand the man, I find myself in some sort of auto mechanic shop full of colorful hydraulic lifts and tools. I walk around messing with items and flying around the shop as I talk on the phone.

Me: Hello?
Man: Who is this? Hello?
Me: Yes. It's me. Will you please tell me a story?
Man: Huh? Hello?
Me: I just really want you to tell me a short story. Please?
Man: Well OK...
Me: Yeah, go ahead.
Man: When I worked at the mill down by your place with the number one wire...
Me: Yes, go ahead.
Man: ...there was a sawed-off coffee maroon.
Me: Ok wait. (I am trying to make sense of this as well as remember) You worked at the mill down by my place with number one wire and there was a sawed-off....coffee...ma-ROON?
Man: Yes. That's right.
Me: Then what?
Man: George was like, 'What the fuck?'
I can take it any more I begin to laugh out loud at this. I notice my laugh sounds really different and I cut it off short.
Me: Dude that's really hilarious. You didn't ask George what his deal was?
Man: Yeah! That's what I did!

I was going to probe on but I suddenly wake up.

Early evening of November 30, 2014. Sunday.



Ever since I was young, I learned how certain recorded affirmations in a loop (and altered in particular ways, which must be done correctly but would take hundreds of pages to clarify) - and at a fairly low volume using headphones - placed me into altered states fairly quickly (sometimes within less than three minutes or so). This is more effective with at least two different “streams” in two different locations of the stereo field (although one stream can be centered or monophonic). I never needed anything else and in fact, had been able to duplicate any kind of perceptual state without any drug or commercial product (which seems moot as dreaming is already a totally natural function anyway, but which is greatly enhanced through education, sharpening the mind, and real-life experience).

Sometimes there are drawbacks, but fairly inconsequential. This one was the “falling back into myself” event. This was caused by the fact that the sequence was only 22 minutes long and stopped suddenly, causing me to shift consciousness too rapidly (I did not intend to fully shift into this other state but sometimes it cannot be helped as it is often automatic at one point even if I am otherwise fully awake up until then). I had fallen into a deep altered state while sitting up in a chair (head slightly tilted to the right) and this is the second time it had happened recently with the “falling” event. It was so vivid and intense, I was nauseous for several minutes (much like car sickness but a bit more powerful), but then in a more focused clarity at this later stage.

Entering this other “realm” or mental location, whatever it is, had always been (for over forty years) preceded by the exact same “imaginary” sound pulsing. This is always the sound of what seems like a small stone falling into a shallow amount of water, but with various frequencies over time, and in differently oriented areas of my perception, and similar audio effects, which are mostly fluid-like. (However, there are sometimes stages where it sounds similar to someone flicking the tab on an empty soda can.)

Falling sensations “from greater heights” (seemingly) during actual normal sleeping times has been very rare for me over the last twenty years or so (other than when I deliberately do certain flying maneuvers).

During the session as I was otherwise reading here and there and looking at a couple web sites, I started to realize I was shifting and thought it might be a good idea to lie down, as I do not really like sleeping or being in a trance in an upright position when I do not have head support. I started to become aware of vague sketchy patterns - somewhat comic-strip-like, but then seemed to be very aware of a girl (wearing blue jean shorts) walking over to me and placing glasses with lighter blue lenses on my face - not only did I see this, I also felt a change in my awareness once the glasses were over my eyes. After this, I am trying to focus. I am quite aware of the imaginary sound pulsing, which at times, seems to have audio “tendrils” emerging from the stone-into-water effect coming out into intricate higher frequencies in an almost ecstatic way, almost musical (bordering on the nuances of an intricate chime effect). Another typical sound in this state is a sound somewhat like the single shuffle of a bird’s wing, which sometimes seems to cross over through either ear.

Eventually, after being who-knows-where for about twenty minutes, I find myself suddenly fully conscious “too quickly” and falling rapidly into myself (from a seemingly great distance) and am aware that all sound (both real and imaginary) has completely stopped. The nausea is a bit much but short-lasting and inconsequential.

I left work early because I was sick, so of course I came home, opened my window (it's a nice day...) and took a nap. I shift restlessly, occasionally jerking awake, worried that at any second the wind is going to finally knock the curtain from my window.
During this nap I had one of those weird lucids. I saw my room but it was different in a few ways, the electrical box on the wall was missing, and in its place was a hole. I focused on it and tried to will it to change "I think I see light on the inside." I said to myself, focusing harder. "I do, there's light." But there wasn't. I gave up, considering my intention had been to turn the hole into a tunnel, by which I would leave the room. Instead, I turned my focus to the window. *eye roll* You know, because I can't use a door. That's just crazy. I flop over, but my body still feels heavy with sleep. I claw my way up to the sill and manage to look outside.
"Come on, you're going to have to do better than this or the dream will fall apart." I thought, trying to will the heaviness from my limbs. Nope. Still not working.
Then, of course, the wind knocked the tension rod out of my window and across my legs, shattering my delicate lucidity, the room suddenly awash with sunlight. Damn it.

Part I
Setting: Earth. mid apocalypse. a city.
Characters: Me, Father in law, Wife, people, Strange solders, zombies, demon creatures.
Influences: World war Z, Constantine, the matrix, left for dead.

We are always running. being chased by gouls, zombies, demons. The Police cant handle them all. They just keep coming. People get bit and turn into creatures themselves.
We are hiding out in a school. I'm not familiar with it. Its dark, dirty, scary. We hear gun fire outside. The military is here to help. creatures keep coming. They don't seem to be affected by normal guns very much. They are trying to hold them off. We move to a lecture hall. The lecture hall reminds me of a theater. Stage where the prof. would talk and then seats going up in rows. They barricade the bottom doors. Outside more guns, yelling, screams, snares. The creatures break through suddenly! Guns blaze and cut through some of the smaller ones. Bigger ones push through and make their way up to the back where we hide. The back doors burst open! Can't see what came in its to dark. Its a man. Dressed in a trench coat and wearing strange glasses, and firing a futuristic looking hand gun. It seems to shoot strange colored projectiles, almost like light. Another man similar look enters and jumps on to a desk and begins battling the creatures hand to hand. A woman in similar fashion bursts in and tells us to run! My Wife, her dad, and I make a break for it out of the room. We find ourselves running down a dark alley way. the school to the right of us and a large industrial looking building to the left. Smoke stacks and cylindrical tanks adorn the building along with a crane and loading area. I turn around to see the hoard chasing us. jumping down from the roof tops, running out of doors, breaking through windows. The mysterious group continues to aid us and the others in our group. My wife falls behind with her dad and i stop to wait for them. I see a creature dive from a near by roof at them as they walk beneath it completely unaware of the danger. I run, jump and collide with the zombie creature knocking it away from them. I wrestle the zombie but it bites my side savagely. I break away from its bite and proceed to tear the creature apart. I look back at my wife and father in law and say im sorry. I run into the building to the left leading many of the creatures with me.
=Perspective change=
I see one of the strangers fighting a group of creatures and receive several wounds and bites. He crawls into what appears to be a release pipe for the factory/industrial buiilding. Through his eyes I see strange colors flowing like water toward a place of unknown origin.
=Perspective change=
I am me. Seeing my self crawling now like the wounded stranger. I unexplainedly start to see the same flowing colors and remember one of the strangers saying go to where the white is. I crawl, stumble, limp. Following a stream of color. To my left i can see a orange stream, and in front a green stream. I crawl into a large pipe and see that the colors are mixing into white at the end of the pipe. I slide down the pipe. Like a water ride at a amusement park i slide through tunnels and caverns. Through a conveyor belt system. Then into a sort of mine cart. The cart races down the tracks and i start to see light ahead. I slam into the end of the tracks and i am flung out of the cart. I land on my feet and seem to be OK. I hide as I see a person has seen my entrance.

Part II
Setting: unknown. resembles a farm. dirt roads. strange pool of water like fluid. Forrest like area. futuristic training area and obstacle course.
Characters: Me, Fairy Women, Fairy Men, Trainers, Humans like me, Liam Neeson look a like.

I am quickly found and captured. I am not ruffly handled but bound non the less. My captors are human in form. They whisper among themselves and I catch words but don't understand. A female of middle completion approaches me and ask why i am here. I then realize that i can no longer speak. My mouth moves and nothing comes out. I panic. She says " I see" then motions to some one to the left. I am sat at a table by what appears to be a lake not far from my entrance, which now has no tracks or carts but rather a gently winding path up a hill. I beautiful woman, looking similar to my age, comes to the table and sets some things down. A strange bottle. A strange flower. A root of some sort. She doesn't speak just looks at me. She has a soft look about her. Golden brown hair. Blue-green eyes that seem to reach out to you and make you feel good. I immediately take to liking her. The way she interacts with me and her almost loving glance is intoxicating. I feel safe when she is with me. Warm, loved, cherished. I am extremely shy of her though. The sensation of her is almost to much. I will name her Clair for discernment sake.
A man strongly resembling Liam Neeson approaches. They others that have gathered part and greet him. He seems like a leader of sorts. Clair stands smiling beside me. I notice that all the people are scantly clad with garments that appear to be made of large leaves and some simple white cloth as a scarf, cape or toga. Elvish looking one mite say. Leader Neeson ask me a series of questions to which I still cannot talk to respond. They show me visions of my life. The only ones i see are a repeat of the earlier occurrences. I have a scar but no wound from the large bite i receive from the zombie creature. They tell me that I am special and will join their ranks. They explain that the warriors that tried to save me and the others were a special troop from their world. Trained to wield weapons and perform feats unthinkable by normal humans. Certain people have a hidden aptitude and power and can become these elite fighters. I accept the offer and get whisked away to start training. Clair is with me always. She seems to enjoy my company almost as much as i enjoy her's. She does seem to grasp my shyness though and breaks the boundaries of comfort.
My first task is a simulation of rescuing friendly captives. I am shackled with strangle chains and suspended above a pool. A strange clay/resin like ceiling and walls are in front of me. I see the captive dummies stuck in the resin wall. I don't understand how to get to them. The trainers shout go get them! I can talk now! I ask them how am i to rescue them if i am chained. suddenly the chains jerk and send me into the ceiling. I feel like i am flying. I collide with the ceiling. I am then drug across the ceiling. The resin breaking against me is painful and i reach out to block incoming obstacles. The trainer yells but i can't hear. I see another recruit to my left experiencing the same training. "FLY!" Screams the trainer along with some soldiers watching. I see the wings for the first time. All different. Each pair special and unique like a finger print. Shapes, sizes, textures, colors, all different. Each person had a main color. Some had 2. I would later find out that was a measure of natural ability. I tried to think I had wings. Maybe I did and had to make them appear. The chains continued to drag me around. The pain was intense. I push out my hand again to will myself in a direction. It worked! The chains pulled me towards the captives now. I smashed through the opaque wall encasing them. I grabbed both dummies and again willed my movement back to the place i had started. I descended to the platform and the teacher and Clair stood astonished. I turned to see if I had wings but sadly I did not. A soldier step up to greet me and congratulated me. "I was one of the few that got it on the first try" he said. "You did to and even quicker than i did" he followed. I smiled. i fell to my knees over come by injury, emotion, and mental exhaustion. Clair looked worried at me and I quickly became super embarrassed of my sad state and sorry for making her worry. Even though she never spoke with her mouth, I could feel everything she was trying to say and how she felt. I was taken to rest in a bunk house near the lake i had entered this world at. I woke up, in my dream, from my rest and instantly sad. my heart ached and i was afraid again. Clair was nowhere to be found. I started to panic. I ran out side. I looked around feeling lost and abandoned. I looked to the hill and spotted Clair looking a mirror of my dreary state. As quick as it came my terror and ill feeling left and i was overwhelmed with joy as her gaze met mine. We ran to each other. We met and is grabbed my hand and held it to her chest. I freaked, but was entranced but the feeling of her heart and more so the feeling and emotion that she displayed along with it. I could tell she had worried about me since they had separated us yesterday.
We are approached by the lady from my arrival and Leader Neeson. They explain that i will be partnered with a beast of color today and it will help me advance and strengthen my inner being. The lady asks Clair why she is so protective of me. The lady ask this of Clair the same nonverbal way Clair talks to me. I seem to be able to speak this almost base telepathic language and i catch the conversation. Clair doesn't answer only states that she will do the discerning. The Discerning I am informed of, by Leader Neeson, is the assessment of my potential, my color affinity and other qualities about me even I don't currently know. Clair is apparently very good at this but has never taken such interest in a recruit before. Leader Neeson is hesitant but gives the ok. Clair leads me off down the path she came from when we rejoined. Beside a lake next to what is possibly her dwelling we stop. She positions me against the wall of the house. She stands arms length from me and stairs into my eyes. Her vibrant blue green wings emerge. They shimmer matching her gorgeous eyes. I feel squeamish. Its just us, alone, her and me. I am nervous for my Discerning. Will it hurt? Why does she like me so much? What is she going to do? She places her hands on my shoulders. I feel her telling me to relax and that it will be ok. I feel my self start to relax. She stares into my eyes and i can't look away. She is getting closer and closer. I start to panic. Her Eyes glow, her wings glow. I see the universe spanning before me in her eyes. I feel as though i will be sick. Her nose is now touching mine. Locked in a solid unblinking stare I feel like we are flying. My nerves are about to explode. the sensation of her touch, smell, gaze, and nonverbals is overwhelming. Her expression changes to one of shock then concern. Then for the first time she speaks. My legs give out. My eyes glaze over and I break my stare. I feel myself slip from consciousness. "Chris" Is the word she said. My name. Never in waking or dream had i ever felt so much from that name. Never had so much feeling and passion been put into it being verbalized. everything is black.
(Dream fastwards itself)
I wake to find Clair sitting beside my bed. Watching over me as usual. I am dressed in a uniform like the other soldiers. Clair and I report to the obstacle course with the other trainees. She watches as I begin my final test. All the recruits charge into the course. We defeat trainers dressed and acting like enemies. We climb and crawl through terrain challenges. Then the color field. Our affinity makes allows us to draw power from certain colors of light. Others hurt us and darkness always hurts us. The color fields test our knowledge of our affinities and our endurance to our weaknesses. I approach the field and the "enemies close in on us. Capturing and ravaging recruits just like real enemies the trainers enforce the realism and direness of the moment. I was never told my affinity so i hesitate. I feel Clair reach out to me and say "fly". I smile at her and see her smile back. I think of that day we met. I think of my training. I think of my discernment. I jump full force arms outstretched into the air.

I wake up. Alarming buzzing. My heart sinks a bit and I revel in Clair's eyes until i can't remember what she looks like. though out the day i think of her and how she made me feel.

November 29, 2014

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I was at the school in which I am student teaching, and we were doing the reading buddies program we have (basically my 1st graders are paired with a 4th or 3rd grader, and they read together). There was this large egg-shaped rabbit thing. It was yellow, and would role around and bounce up and down. I'm going to call it Ralph for now.

So Ralph was rolling around the class helping out, and then the kids went to lunch, or a specials class. The room was empty, even the chairs and tables were gone. Ralph was glitching or something; he would jump up and down on a spot on the floor, doing the Mario Ground Pound, and would seem to go through it, at which point the floor directly under him would spin. He would get stuck in a few cycles of this, and then roll away. He would go do something, but every time he rolled over that spot in the floor, he would glitch.

I decided I wanted to know what was up with this spot, so I wanted to see what would happen if I went over it. I was aware that something was weird here, but didn't get to lucidity yet. I walked over the spot thinking I would glitch too, but I didn't. So I jumped and used a Ground Pound, and the floor gave way, spinning like it had for Ralph. I was falling down a long shaft. It was lit pretty well, but I don't remember seeing any actual light sources.

I landed in a large, rectangular room. Every inch of wall was lined with cupboards, drawers and two fridges (one at the corner behind and to my right, the other midway along the wall to my left). There were two eggs that looked a lot like Ralph. One was smaller than my first, the other was as big as my head. I picked them up and put the smaller one in my pocket, and somehow managing to also fit the larger one in my hoodie pocket.

I thought that Ralph would be happy to have younger ones of his own species (I assumed they were eggs for his species). I started looking through the drawers and cupboards, finding nothing much at first. As I made my way around the room, the drawers and cupboards started having things in them. By the time I reached the second fridge, the one in the corner, it had parts of toys in it. Like bags and bags of a single part of the toy, so you could make lots of them by putting the pieces together. There was also some sort of snack food in the fridge.

A colleague opened a door at the corner directly behind me, which I had not noticed before. They were calling me because the kids would be back soon. I turned and left the room, and was surprised to find myself in the hallway just a few doors down from the classroom I'd started in. How could I be in the same hallway if I'd fallen down that long shaft? I looked down at my hands and realized I was dreaming. I was aware enough to do a task.

I could have gone back to the classroom to tell the kids we were in a dream, but I didn't remember that task... Instead, I went to what I assumed was the door to the outside. I paused before opening it, trying to envision the kind of surroundings I wanted to see. I knew this place was supposed to be the school I teach in, but it was so different that it wasn't too hard for me to envision a new surrounding. One with more trees, and therefor more leaves.

I opened the door, and there was a long lane with houses on each side. All the houses had big front yards with big maple trees. Perfect! Some of the trees were bare, some were green, and some were orange, red and yellow. I think my subC didn't really have a grasp of different seasons being at different times. I did notice that the trees that were colorful seemed to clump together, as did the green trees and the bare trees.

It was almost like a temporal whatchamahoozit. Like there were different times at the different clumps.

Anyways, I walked over to one of the clumps of fall trees, and looked around. There were leaves on the ground, but no piles. I was too lazy to rake them up, so I decided to walk along the lane until I spotted the house of a more conscious leaf-raker. It didn't take long for me to find one. There was this big old yard with a decently large pile of leaves.

I stood next to the pile for a moment, and then decided to jump in it the way I do IWL. I stepped back a bit, and hopped through the air right into the center of the pile. At first it was just super normal. I was on my stomach, so I turned so that I was sitting up in the pile. I let myself fall back into the leaves, and then it was like every leaf was a gentle spark.

I could feel a lot of little tingles and waves on my back and the backs of my arms, and there was a sensation of sinking. I felt like I was being sucked in, and then I was completely surrounded by leaves. I stayed there for a moment, and then felt air on my back, and pulled myself up face down in a pile of leaves at my Oma's house.

Leaf pile = dream portal?

I dinked around in my Oma's back yard for a bit but lost the dream pretty quick. I kept trying to remember another task to do, but couldn't before I woke up.

A week before this dream, I had just come back home from a trip with my family to Disneyland. I had loads of fun and thought it would be cool to go there again. I fell asleep in my bed and somehow became lucid.

My dream was very short and very blurry. I managed to teleport to the castle in the middle of Disneyland, but when I looked at the lights, it seemed like I was squinting. I floated around the park a while, going to Tomorrowland (My favorite part of the park). I went into the entrance of Space Mountain and awoke.

#384 - DILD 6:37AM

This dream was probably inspired by watching "Gravity" and "Guardians Of The Galaxy" yesterday.

I am the captain of a starship. I have somehow acquired several other ships either by space battles or other means. I look at a computer readout showing several ship ordered by value. The one at the top is worth 8 something billion dollars, almost 9. There is some older woman who I think of as important. She is in need of a ship of her own and I am feeling generous. I decide to let her have her pick, but not the most valuable one. That one is mine. Shes comes back not liking any of the starships I offered her so I reluctantly offer the more valuable one. I haven't really got to check out this ship yet so I decide to go with her. I see that I have a spacesuit on with a helmet already. I notice that there is no face shield and I am able to put my hand inside the helmet. I decide there must be some sort of force field that will activate when I go out. I open the air lock and make a quick space walk to the other ship that is docked to my main ship. I use something like a large air tank to propel me forward but when I look down it is just a can of air duster. I feel embarrassed and quickly drop it. Unfortunately, I don't think to take in the view of space during this all of this.

I climb up a ladder and come to the main bridge. It looks very much like something from Star Trek but there are skeletal corpses standing around. I feel fear and disgust but I remember this is the effect of the weaponry I used against them. I haven't had a change to clean this up. I think I see one of the corpses moving but when I look I see that it was just my imagination. I make my way through some darkened corridors and feel I am being followed. I turn around and see that one of the corpses really is moving and right behind me. I say, "You're dead. You're not supposed to be following me." Then I quickly dismiss the whole thing as I turn a corner and open a door. There is a room full of people that are still alive and healthy. I am not sure how to handle this so I hit my communicator badge, "Dad.... I mean... err... Co.. Commander." It's really weird having my dad as my "Number One" officer. I tap again, "Commander, we still have people in here. I need assistance immediately." There is no reply but I feel like he got the message. I find a darkened room that I really need access to but I can't find any light switch. I tap my badge again, "I need power diverted to Engineering." This doesn't do anything for me. I feel a little panicky now, "Commander, come here please. I need help."

*Memory Gap*

I am now somehow lucid and talking to a woman on an old Motorola RAZR flip as I walk around the living quarters of the ship. The exact conversation is a little hard to recall but she kept saying, "Tonight's the big night. Stick to the plan. Don't fuck it up." Her voice sounds like Scratch from "Were Alive". There is some other garbled word she says but I focus many on asking what the plan is. I can't get any answer from her other than her repeating the same things. After a long time I hear a click and the phone disconnects. I try pushing the send button as a redial function. There is one ring then silence. I do this several times then try *69. Someone picks up. I say, "Just tell me what the fuck you are talking about. What's the plan? What plan?" I have no idea why I am so hung up on this but I am completely obsessed with getting an answer. As I am on the phone I am paying close attention to the living quarters. Most of it looks like a large mobile home. I end up in some large complex bathroom. There is a section that has a toilet in the shower. I feel like something looks familiar but can't place it (my parents camper trailer). I leave this area and find my mom sitting at a dining table. I let the phone conversation go and decide to ask my mom, knowing that all DCs are connected as part of my subconscious. As I make my way to mom I feel a slight instability to the dream. I know this dream has gone on for quite some time and i wonder when I'll wake up.

I sit down across from here and ask her about the phone call; I forget my exact wording. She responds, "Austin to Houston then to a computer." I was listening really closely and want to make sure I understood her so I repeat it back. She smiles and nods with raised eyebrows like she had really said something great.
I chuckle and say, "That doesn't make any sense. You [My Subconscious] are all crazy assholes." After I say this I realize I am insulting the deepest parts of my psyche. My mom frown and almost looks evil. I lean forward and I large cardboard box appears between me and the edge of the table. It jams into my neck. There is a little pain but I feel like I am choking. I decide to give up on all of this now and try to think of actual goals as I stand up. I wake up.

Dream 1

I was running away from something but I don't remember what.

Dream 2

A DC that looked like Eye at first(changed into a chubby short girl)was threatening me to listen to it or it would take the knife it got out of the box and stab me. It manages to stab me with a needle and started saying that the bumps I got on my veins and wrist were because I didn't listen. Than two DCs took money from me so I had to chase them. Another one of them came out of a frog wallet dressed as a soidger and tried fighting me. But I got on the couch and told him to stop cause he was too tall.


Dream 3
I made myself appear in a dream rpg gaming world and was hoping to find Eye in there. I looked around and felt like I heard his voice so I grabbed the DC and asked if I could be on a dream RPG team with him. He said OK and we ran around for a bit. But than I started thinking about how Eye was leaving me to fight my own battles more and got a bit mad. I jumped on his back and we fell down. Than I told him I don't care about battling DCs and getting stronger. I just want him around more like before. He laughed and said okay but than a girl DC came and was like "What do you think your doing!?" I started to laugh and tried hiding it behind a purple cloth that appeared in my hand but the girl DC just gave me a stern look like there were consequences. That's when the dream started fading and a view of a castle came into the picture. I was viewing the inside but than I woke up.

11/28/14 Epic sex LD. I am walking around the inside and outside of a house and seem to have trouble figuring out the layout and what leads to the backyard what leads to the front yard. When I make my way outside I go through what looks like the front but it is actually a fenced in backyard I guess and the gate leads to another unit I guess it is a duplex. I make my way back through what seems like the back and out onto the street and this whole time its just me walking around. I think that I'm already getting suspicious that this is a dream. I run into a guy out front and something about the previous scenario and something about this guy makes me realize I am dreaming. I float up into the air and get ready to fly but the guy grabs hold of my ankle and I motion and shoot an energy burst at him and he let's go but then another guy comes and I decided to try a more traditional flying left hook. After a few hits I'm able to get away and I fly off. I wonder if there was something I should have stayed there for and perhaps I could have asked those DC's why they were trying to hold me back and what they represent. (But then I probably wouldn't have had the experience that comes next.) I'm flying and the visuals have gone a bit gray on me so I decide to visualize where I'd like to end up. I visualize a huge crowd of beautiful women in bikinis and before long they start forming but not real clear but good enough and I land in the middle of the crowd of beautiful women, and just send out the message that we'll

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have one big orgy. It is using something like telepathy but not exactly since this is all happening inside my brain, this is all my dream so of course all I have to do is think what I want to happen! I feel around on quite a few different women before I choose one woman to focus on and she has nice size breasts and beautiful silky skin and her nipples are little bit pale but so beautiful.

She looks like a natural blonde petite and very sexy. There are two sexy Asian women nearby and I will them to come over and

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lick her breasts while I have intercourse

with the blonde. They are a little bit foggy but the blonde is not in the least! She is very vivid! I will another woman to come up behind me and hold me and

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touch me while I continue to thrust into the blonde.

I notice that the blonde seems a bit disinterested and even at one point reaches over to a pen and notebook and writes a few quick notes. Funny I guess...but I want you at least pretending like you are enjoying this! At this point I actually speak with my mouth and I say I want

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you to moan <snip>, it is quite sexy. She does it a little bit and I look around and back down and I seem to lose the visuals but I still have some of the feeling and I continue to thrust

and eventually the visuals come back but I am in a bedroom and the woman is now my wife.

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We continue having sex

but at some point my wife says that someone is coming and I forget what name she used but it sounded like someone important. This is one of those moments that can try to pull you away from lucidity especially after the fading transition from that extra-ordinary scene to this more normal setting. The person comes in, she is a butch stocky short haired blonde woman and my wife seems concerned. I say it is ok this is all just a dream and I decide to float up just to confirm it in my head. Sure enough I float up and decided to

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pull back out my "ahem" and offer it up to my wife's mouth. She looks at it like that thing has been so many places just recently. It looks significant but slightly flaccid and an image of a child size one

shows up on the opposite side of what is becoming more of a narrowed tunnel vision. Eventually the visuals fade and I decide not to fight it and at first feel like I am in a void but then feel myself back in bed, I've already had a terrific experience and I want to make sure I commit as much as I can of that experience to memory and record it. 238

The day before, I had just learned about Lucid Dreams and thought it would be cool to have one, and when I fell asleep I did! I appeared in a local park in the middle of a baseball field. The scenery around was clouded by fog. I knew I was dreaming and just stood there for a second, then I realized I could try to control my dream! First I dreamt up a katana and held it in my hands, then I made a zombie appear. I quickly killed the zombie with the sword and celebrated. I then, for some reason dreamt of a lifeguard tower. I climbed to the top and sat. After, I attached rockets to the bottom and started flying around. As I was flying, I guess I got too excited and woke up.

This dream made me curious on why and how humans dream and I quickly began researching.

I met a DC who was talking to me. His form was changing repeatedly as he was talking though.I asked if he could change his form to one he liked but he said no. He was telling me about his DC life but his voice began to fade. I looked at the writings on the floor but couldn't really pay attention to its details. The scene was fading and I asked the DC to hold me in the dream. I appeared on my bed but he grabbed my waist from the back and pulled me into a room. I took a taco on the floor and was eating it to enhance my senses. The DC brought me to his room and said he hasn't played his game in a long time. But when he picked up the remote i woke up.

That's all I recall since last night I wasn't in the lucid/dream mood.^^"There was a non lucid dream but I don't remember now.

My brother and I were sitting in the living room, talking. That's when our mother came and told us our father will be here soon. We both waited not too long afterwards. He arrived and said lets go. I open the door and began approaching the car till I see the neighbors complaining. Then one of the guys came up and slap me. The slap made me become a bit more aware because it felt odd and it was completely random. A commission was beginning to happen. I enter back and could tell my parents reaction was curious for what involvement I had outside. I said I was slap for no reason I'm aware of. We all enter back outside and I saw the guy again that hit me. I ask him what are you doing here? But every time I see his mouth move I didn't hear anything. He seem agitated and I was as well. I suspect it was a dream so if I attack him I won't have strength. I decided to try and push the man but it was futile. It felt like my arms were sponges that couldn't conduct force. The man then jump up while hanging on the roof with his arms. I then jump and grab on to his legs to pull him down but it did nothing. I look down and knew I had no strength. That's when I told the man watch this, I began performing acrobatics by using both of his legs. This was proving to be effective as he began to slip and fall down. I got up and look at my brother saying the job is done. That's when we both realize, our parents have enter the car and has driven off without us. The irritated neighbors dash off to follow them. My brother and I began to do the same. As we're running, the whole scenery and motion of the dream with the situation help turn my suspicion to lucidity.

We eventually made it to the next block but the neighbors and car were far away from us. That's when I turn around and see this guy running toward my way, so I prepare myself and quickly dash at him but ends up I lost because I got tackle down. The dream faded and turn in to a false awakening. I woke up in a different area. I began looking around everything was larger and off. I became lucid again and notice I was in a cabin. I lift my head up to only get hit on my forehead by a nail sticking out of the wooden bunk bed. The hit made me lose lucidity and I continue to have a non-lucid experience. Lucidity Time: 24 seconds