lucid

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm not sure when I got lucid but I take one part in a time. Maybe in the wrong order. I think it was several dreams.

I'm being hunted and I hide in a house with a lot of guitars in it. I look out of the window and the persons I am trying to escape stand there. I know it's a dream but I'm not really 100% lucid. I try to fly out of the window but I'm having troubles. I fly super fast up in the sky but I'm trying to fly forward. The dream fades as the ground gets smaller and smaller

I try to teleport through a mirror but the mirror is too small and I don't even fit. I look for more larger mirrors but don't find any. The mirrors' reflections of me is slightly off and don't follow my exact movements.

I'm flying outside my house. I want to get better at flying and stop moving my arms as if I am swimming when I fly. It didn't go so well. I'm next to my door and I see my friend Gabriel walk by the trees against Stumholmen. I have read about people who talk with their DCs in order to talk with their subconscious. I run as fast as I can towards him and asks him why he is in my dream. He ignores me with a smile. It almost feels as if he teases me. I walk to another part and see my older sister. I ask her why she is in my dream, almost jumping her. She doesn't respond either but I don't remember her reaction.

I'm trying to leap of the ground in order to fly but fail. I just land with my front on the ground.

Possible recurring elements: Old schoolmates, being hunted.

Notes: I played a lot of guitar yesterday, that's why I dreamt about guitars. I'm going to make a new lucid goal and try to play on the guitar in a dream and see how it feels. Is it really possible for the dream to make fingermovements accuratly when it can't even make my fingers without misshaping them? This night was so weird. I was lucid but I don't remember the dreams so well. It feels as if every time I have had lucid dreams in the past I remember everything about them when I wake up. This night I woke up and didn't remember I had been lucid at first. If I hadn't laid still and tried to remember my dreams I would have never remembered my lucidity and it wouldn't be counted as a LD. I need to stabilize the dreams more. I read about people who wrote that you have to tell yourself in the dream that your body is in your bed and that this dream body you have can do anything because this isn't reality. I want to test that out too.

4 ОС. Надпись, отобранная козлёнком (1 октября 2011).

Я находился возле общежитий на качелях, причём качели находились с другой стороны дома. Вокруг ходили животные: куры, козы, коровы. Один козлёнок что-то выхватил у меня из рук. Я пошёл у него это отнять. Козлёнок превратился в белого щенка. То, что я отнял, оказалось листком бумаги. Я пошёл по тропинке, пытаясь прочесть, что на нём написано. Спустился в овраг, которого наяву там и в помине нет. В углу оврага было какое-то существо, и я жестом руки запер его там, чтобы оно мне не мешало читать. На бумаге были написаны какие-то цифры и в конце английские буквы. Сначала вначале была надпись 5532...пе - точно не помню. Потом она изменилась на 653....Q. Тем временем я вышел на тропинку возле училища и продолжал смотреть в бумагу, пытаясь думать. На мне появились противосолнечные очки, через них надпись читалась нормально. Больше надпись не изменялась. Я убрал очки и попытался отвести взгляд от бумаги, но понял, что если я это сделаю, то сон прекратится, и я не смогу дальше идти, поэтому я продолжал смотреть на надпись. В голове стали мелькать мысли - обрывки записей с форума. Тут мелькнула мысль, что чтобы сохранить сон надо внимательнее смотреть на предмет. И я решил посмотреть на свои руки. Взглянул на руки, увидел множество линий как во сне «Друг-тень». Количество пальцев на руках было нормальным, хотя я специально их не считал. Тут же появилась в голове мысль, что это точно сон. Картинка сна стала ярче, и более похожа на реал. Хорошо увидел впереди девятиэтажку, а справа училище. Я попытался взлететь, поднялся на пару метров, и меня развернуло в воздухе и выкинуло из сна. Осознание длилось меньше минуты. Буду ещё пробовать.

Выводы:

1. Козлёнок превратился в щенка - признак сна.
2. Осознался из-за надписи на листке бумаги. Что там было записано, точно не запомнил.
3. Существо в овраге я не видел, но чувствовал, что оно там есть.
4. Сами по себе на голове появились очки.
5. Смотрел на руки. Снова много линий. Количество пальцев визуально было нормальным, но специально не считал.
6. Взлетел в воздух, но полётом управлять не смог.
7. Когда проснулся, понял что девятина выглядела всё-таки не так, как в реале.
8. Место действия: Возле училища.
9. Примерное время нахождения в ОСе 4 минуты.


4 LD. Lettering taken by a kid (October 1, 2011).

I was near the hostels on a swing, and the swing was on the other side of the house. Around walked animals: hens, goats, cows. One kid grabbed something from my hands. I went to take it from him. The kid turned into a white puppy. What I took was a piece of paper. I went down the path, trying to read what was written on it. I went down to the ravine, which in reality is not there at all. There was a creature in the corner of the ravine, and with a gesture of my hand I locked it there so that it would not interfere with my reading. Some numbers were written on paper and in the end English letters. First, at the beginning there was an inscription 5532 ... I don’t remember exactly. Then she changed to 653 .... Q. Meanwhile, I went out onto the path near the school and continued to look at the paper, trying to think. Sun glasses appeared on me, through them the inscription was read normally. The inscription did not change anymore. I removed my glasses and tried to look away from the paper, but realized that if I did this, the dream would stop and I could not go any further, so I continued to look at the inscription. Thoughts began to flicker in my head - fragments of notes from the forum. Then the thought flickered that in order to maintain a dream one must carefully look at the subject. And I decided to look at my hands. I looked at his hands, saw a lot of lines, like in a friend-shadow dream. The number of fingers on my hands was normal, although I specifically did not count them. Immediately an idea appeared in my head that it was just a dream. The dream picture has become brighter, and more like a real one. I saw well the nine-story building ahead, and the school on the right. I tried to take off, climbed a couple of meters, and they turned me in the air and threw me out of dream. Awareness lasted less than a minute. I will try again.

Findings:

1. The kid has become a puppy - a sign of dream.
2. Confessed due to the inscription on a piece of paper. I didn’t remember exactly what was written there.
3. I did not see the creature in the ravine, but I felt that it was there.
4. By themselves, glasses appeared on the head.
5. I looked at his hands. Lots of lines again. The number of fingers was visually normal, but specifically did not count.
6. I took off into the air, but could not control the flight.
7. When I woke up, I realized that the nine didn’t look like it was in real life.
8. Venue: Near the school.
9. The approximate time spent in the OS 4 minutes.

Screens off by 10, mindfulness meditation, supplements and herbs. In bed by 10:30.
Awake|Dream|Lucid
I'm in a hotel with my family, theres some sort of wedding happening. Tina, my grandparents, my dad, aunt, and other family members are there. There are invitations, we drop them. I hold the elevator as my sister picks them up, but the elevator leaves without them. We are at a table, eating food, my plate has asparagus and broccoli, and its falling off my plate and making a big mess. There are other people around. They are looking at us. I wake up.
We are hurrying to go somewhere else, but I left my stuff. I go back to get it with my dad. We go to a computer station, where I left my headphones, bag, and a charger plugged in. Theres a boy, maybe a teenager, at that station. I ask if he's seen my charger, while I see him stuff it further into his pocket. I ask, how about the one you just put in your pocket? He hands it over, ashamed.
I wake up, my 3:30 alarm is going off. I'm surprised, I thought I slept through the alarm for some reason. I take my supplements, smoke some of my dream herbs. I lay very still, attempting a WILD.
Suddenly my vision goes from black to full real life colors. I'm in my old highschool, in a hallway. I look at my hands, way too many fingers! A DREAM! MY FIRST WILD! My dad is there again, I ask him if he's my Dream Guide, and he shrugs. I hold his arm and we walk down the hallway, passing some of my old teachers. Mrs Fina! I say hello. My dad seems to be in a hurry, I tell him to slow down, pop my head into another classroom. Mrs Ingram sees me and comes to hug me; her hair is different and she has to remind me who she is. I tell her she looks beautiful and we hug and I tear up. I return to the hallway as it fades to black. I wake up.
I'm fighting with some siblings, I feel like it was Avatar the Last Airbender related. I'm fighting with a brother, and he tries to knock me down, but I am holding onto something and don't fall. Then I realize I'm floating.I check my hands, yep! Toooooo many fingers. I walk inside. Its my parent's house in Blue Ridge, in the basement. All three sisters and both parents are there. I remember this day, it was the first (and maybe only) time all 6 of us were together in that house. I remember my dream goals, check pockets, meditate. I sit to meditate and realize I can't reach into my pockets while I'm sitting. I stand and find a hair clip in my front right pocket, keep checking for a wand, and I feel a lighter in my front left, but didn't quite fish it out before the dream changed.
I'm upstairs in the living room now, my family is all there. I see my old cat, Alice, run across a doorway. I tell my family I just saw her, and I start crying. Then I wake up, for good this time.

Dream signs: school, family, floating

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Awww, I remembered a long dream but for some reason I didn't write it directly in my physical DJ and now I can't recall it. Now I just have a short but lucid dream. I try a WILD 03.40 but fall asleep.

I'm in a classroom. I realize it's a dream and do my RC just to be sure. I look around me and try to remember how the dream started (my current dream goal) but it's impossible. I realize that the dream just started. I walk to the window and open it. I sit there and ponder what I should do. The dream fades.

Possible recurring elements: School

Notes: Yes!! I remembered to try to remember how the dream started. I am really excited how my dreaming progress is going I'm sure I can have multiple LDs every week, already now I have had 4 LDs in one week

ОС 3 Полёт на море (Конец сентября 2011)

Сначала был неосознанный сон. Я шёл по бульвару, и зашёл в садик. Там были спрайты троих парней и девушек. Парни напали на меня, и позвали девушек посмотреть, как они со мной расправятся. Я проснулся и тут же заново заснул с мыслью: "ну я вам щас устрою".
Я оказался на том же месте в садике и сказал этим спрайтам - это мой сон, поэтому я могу делать что хочу! Спрайты парней тут же пропали, а спрайты девушек зависли. Я попытался схватить одну из девушек, но как только я это сделал она исчезла, точнее лопнула как мыльный пузырь. Тогда я попытался схватить двух сразу. Они не исчезли почувствовал их, (хотя обычно у меня во сне только визуалка работала. После того как стал интересоваться ОСами и другие чувства то же подключились) на ощупь были упругие, как резина. Мне надоело их держать. Я решил взлететь перелететь территорию садика и оказаться на дворе другого друга С. На двор к С. я так и не попал, а улетел к морю. Там меня ждала мама и осознанность на некоторое время пропала. До тех пор пока я не подошёл к морю. Я подумал: "если это сон что будет если я войду в море с головой? - не утону ведь". Сказано - сделано. Когда дошёл до воды на уровне шеи, в мою сторону поплыл какой-то предмет в форме бублика. Я закрыл глаза, чтобы он меня не задел, и он проплыл сквозь меня. Когда меня накрыло водой с головой, чувство дна под ногами у меня исчезло, но я ещё некоторое время продолжал идти под водой. Вода была тёмной и ничего нельзя было разглядеть. Потом меня выкинуло на берег. Там снова период неосознания. Решил вернутся до мамы пролетел над какими-то гаражами, и остановился на крыше одного гаража. На песке стояла мама, но в тот же момент она была со мной на равном уровня. Сначала я не понял почему так, потом пришла мысль, что здесь пространство двухмерное. Я стал экспериментировать с пространством, изменять его. Думал, что делаю его 4-х мерным. Проснулся.
PS: Наяву это описать не возможно , когда пробовал сделать одномерным как бы представлял точку на листе бумаги, а четырёхмерным это когда на листе рисуешь куб и с ним соединяешь другой куб чтобы грань одного куба соединялась с гранью другого. То же и проделал с окружающим себя пространством.

Выводы:
1. Сумел вернуться в сон после просыпания.
2. После возвращения персонажи(спрайты) парни исчезли, а девушки зависли.
3. Одна девушка лопнула, как мыльный пузырь, когда я до нее дотронулся.
4. Другие девушки на ошупь были, как резина.
5. Сумел взлететь, но не смог управлять полетом.
6. С помощью полета меня перенесло в незнакомое место на море. С реальными местами, в которых я был на море, не было ничего общего.
7. Сумел войти с головой под воду. Дышать под водой можно. Ничего не видно. Исчезло чувство дна под ногами. Долго не прошел - выкинуло на берег.
8. Непонятный предмет в форме бублика. Закрыл глаза - прошел сквозь меня.
9. Искривление пространства. Разный уровень высоты, но смотрится будто на одном уровне. Затем своей волей смог сам искривлять дома.
10. Персонажи в неосознанной начальной части сна разговаривали, а в осознанной нет. Ни парни, ни девушки, ни мама - никто из них не произнес ни одного слова.
11. Так же в неосознанной части поведение персонажей было агресcивным.
12. Место действия: бульвар, садик 2, море на юго-западе.
13. Примерное время нахождения в ОСе 6 минут.




3 LD Flight at sea (End of September 2011)

At first there was an unconscious dream. I walked along the boulevard, and went into the kindergarten. There were sprites of three guys and girls. How they will deal with me. I woke up and immediately fell asleep again with the thought: "Well, I'll arrange for you right now."
I ended up in the same place in the garden and said it was sprites. The sprites of the guys disappeared right away, and the sprites of the girls hung. I tried to do it because of the girls. Then I tried to grab the two at once. They did not disappear, they felt them (although usually I had only visual actions). I'm tired of holding them. I decided to fly to another territory. I never got to the yard to S., but flew away to the sea. Mom and awareness disappeared for a while. I did not go to the sea. I thought: "If it is a dream, what will happen if I enter the sea with my head?" No sooner said than done. A donut-shaped object floated in my direction. And he swam through me. When I continued to go under water for some time. The water was dark and nothing could be seen. Then I was thrown ashore. There is again a period of unconsciousness. Decisions returned to the wings of one garage. She was on an equal level with me. At first I did not understand why this is so, and then the thought came that the space is two-dimensional. I began to experiment with space, change it. I thought I was making it 4-dimensional. Awoke.
PS: it is impossible to describe, perhaps when it was done in order to represent a single point on a sheet of paper, and four months old when a cube is shown on a sheet, and it connects to the face of one cube and connects to the face of another. I did the same with the space surrounding himself.

Findings:
1. Managed to return to sleep after waking up.
2. After the characters returned (sprites), the guys disappeared.
3. When I touched her.
4. Other girls were dry.
5. Managed to take off, but could not control the flight.
6. Unidentified place on the sea. That was nothing in common.
7. Managed to enter headlong into the water. You can breathe under water. I can not see anything. The feeling of the bottom under the feet disappeared. Long did not pass - threw ashore.
8. An incomprehensible object in the shape of a donut. I closed his eyes - passed through me.
9. The curvature of space. Different level of height, but it looks like at the same level. Then by his own free will he was able to bend at home.
10. Characters in the unconscious initial part of sleep talk, but in the unconscious not. Not a single guy, not a girl, not a mom.
11. Also in the unconscious part, the behavior of the characters was aggressive.
12. Venue: boulevard, kindergarten 2, the sea in the south-west.
13. The approximate time spent in the LD 6 minutes.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Yesterday I told myself that I would have something big to tell my DJ today, and I knew that I would succeed and therefore I succeeded. I set an alarm 03:40 for WILD. I drink water and meditate for about eight minutes. I go back to sleep, laying in the corpse position. After about 30 minutes almost my whole body is gone, I can't feel it. I get a big vibration wave sideways that I have never experienced before and I think that this is the first time I will succeed with a WILD. I try to remain calm and not get excited, it works. After laying still in one hour I can't take it anymore. I look on my clock and it's 04:51. I do a RC just for good measure and go to my normal sleeping position. It takes a while but I fall asleep.

I'm laying on an open toilet, balancing with my quilt, doing a WILD. I feel my hands gripping a bikehandle and I'm happy because this is the first time I succeed with a WILD. I'm not entirely in the dream but after I while I see the road I'm riding on. It's next to the road by Stumholmen. I can't remain in the dream and I come back to laying on the open toilet. I wonder how the toilet can be so big. I'm actually laying on a toilet I think. My legs drop into the toilet water and I quickly raise them again. I wake up and realize that I WILDed in a dream into another dream and am pretty fascinated.

I'm in my bed and I'm pinching my nose, trying to breathe. I can breathe, then I raise from the bed. Haha, I outsmarted my brain's FA! I read about tips on what you can do in a dream about telekinesis and try it out. I lift the music stand in my room and it's moving exactly according to my will. I jump out of my window and fly to the left. I scream for a person I want to meet with but no one is seen. I go into a taxi and tell him to drive to this person. He asks where she lives and I tell him that he knows. After a long time we are there. I'm thinking that I wasted worth-while time going 5 minutes in a taxi and have to learn more time efficient methods. I ask the driver how much it costs but he doesn't know. I'm not sure I have any money but search in my pocket. I find many bills and just give him a 200 kronor bill (about 20 dollars). He doesn't know how much he is going to pay me back so I tell him to keep the change. I fly up to the persons balcony and we interact. I feel the dream fade. I'm in my bed and do my normal RC. Wow it was just another FA I think to myself, cool. I fly to the same person without the taxi because now I knew where I was going. My flying is not good and I'm having struggle with all the tall trees I'm flying into. I constantly have to run on the ground to get some power to lift from the ground. There is a big sculpture and a giant man is walking against me. I fly up to the sculpture in order to escape the giant but I'm too slow and get caught. I wake up and do a RC and realize it's a dream! I think it's funny how I have had three FA in a dream and go into the building next to me instead. There are some mirrors and I decide I want to test the teleportation through mirror skill. I try to enter the mirror but it won't let me pass. I look on my fingers and they are all distorted. First they are really small and fat. When I look on my fingers through the mirror there are several fingers growing into my fingers. I think about what the forum has said about this and I'm comforted. I look into the mirror again and notice that it's acting wrongly. It's like the mirror in front of me had the view of a mirror that would have been above me. I also notice how my reflection is not properly following my movements. I try to enter it again but fail. I wake up but I already kind of know it's a dream. I hear some Naruto music and my brother enters my room. I have a hard time trying to open my eyes. I rub my hands together for stabilization and I'm forcing my eyes open with my fingers. I walk to the window and I'm screaming for some persons and they appear outside my house to the right. I fly to them. We interact and I wake up, knowing that it's IRL. I do a RC anyhow just because I want it as a habit.

Possible recurring elements: Toilets, escaping

Notes: Now I have learned to always do RC when I wake up haha. What is wrong with my WILD, I don't know... Just have to practice more. I didn't meditate at the begining of the LD which is my current goal. I have to think more about it in order to remember it. I think I could fix my flying just by practicing a whole night. I have succeeded in flying to the coulds really fast in a LD a year ago. It would be cool to fix the mirror teleportation. It's hard to analyzie a LD I think. I think I was laying on the toilet in the dream because I thought about how the rats may pinch my butt when I sat on the toilet yesterday. There are so many things that I have made up in the dream. This is by far the longest LD I have ever had!

2 ОС Друг-тень (Сентябрь 2011)

Я находился во сне у себя на дворе. Понял, что это сон. Рядом со мной был мой друг. Я стал думать, чтобы поделать. Подошёл к другу и попросил, чтобы он привёл меня к себе домой. Для этого я взял его за руку. Он повёл меня. Только почему-то заходить на его двор мы не стали, а пошли вокруг дома. Картинка сна стала блекнуть. Я подумал, что это не мой друг, и он хочет, чтобы у меня сон закончился. Друг стал постепенно походить на тень. Я схватил эту тень и сжёг на солнце. Картинка сна вернула свои свойства. Пошёл дальше вокруг дома. Картинка сна снова стала блекнуть. Я вспомнил, что читал: «для того чтобы продлить ОС надо посмотреть на свои руки». Я взглянул на них. От реальных рук они отличались тем, что на них было много линий. Мне стало больно руку, и я опустил их. Картинка сна улучшилась. Решил всё-таки дойти до дома друга. Мне надо было перейти дорогу, чтобы дойти до его подъезда. По дороге я прошёл нормально, но потом земля начала подниматься у меня из-под ног. Я попытался взлететь над ней, но ничего не вышло. Тогда я стал перепрыгивать с места на место и допрыгал до подъезда. Зайдя в подъезд, я сразу оказался на 2 этаже, где он живёт. Дверь в соседскую квартиру была открыта. Я позвонил в квартиру друга, и стал ждать, пока он откроет. В соседней квартире была девушка. Она увидела меня, и поманила к себе, чтобы я зашёл. Я не стал этого делать. Тогда она попыталась подойти ко мне и схватить. Я оттолкнул её. Тут друг открыл дверь, и я забежал в его квартиру, предварительно захлопнув дверь перед носом той соседки. На этом сон закончился, и я проснулся и почувствовал, что у меня болит рука. Было такое чувство, будто она вышла из своего тела и никак не может встать на своём месте. Точнее не рука, а сама ладонь минуты две-три, где то продолжалось такое ощущение, потом прошло.

Выводы:
1. Друг превратился в объёмную тень.
2. Сам друг со мной не разговаривал. Персонаж "соседка друга" тоже не разговаривала.
3. Картинка сна теряла свои качества, становилось нечёткой. Сумел возвратить чёткость с помощью
а) сжигания персонажа тени
б) Смотрения на руки.
4. На руках во сне было много линий. Почувствовал боль в руке. Продолжил ощущать боль и в реале, после просыпания. Скорее всего просто отлежал руку под подушкой.
5. Земля поднималась из-под ног и мешала идти.
6. Взлететь не получилось.
7. Зашёл в подъезд и сразу оказался на втором этаже
8. Агрессивное поведение соседки друга. В реале девушка мне не знакома.
9. Место действия: мой двор, соседний двор слева.
10. Примерное время нахождения в ОСе 5 минут.


2 LD Friend-shadow (September 2011)

I was in a dream in my yard. I realized that this is a dream. My friend was next to me. I began to think to do it. I went up to a friend and asked him to bring me to his home. To do this, I took his hand. He led me. Only for some reason we did not go into his yard, but went around the house. The picture of dream began to fade. I thought that this was not my friend, and he wants my dream to end. A friend began to gradually look like a shadow. I grabbed this shadow and burned in the sun. The picture of dream regained its properties. I went further around the house. The dream picture began to fade again. I remembered that I read: "in order to extend the LD you need to look at your own hands." I looked at them. They differed from real hands in that there were many lines on them. My arm hurt and I lowered them. The picture of dream has improved. I decided to get to a friend’s house. I had to cross the road to get to his porch. I walked normally along the road, but then the ground began to rise from under my feet. I tried to fly over her, but nothing came of it. Then I began to jump from place to place and jumped to the entrance. Entering the porch, I immediately found myself on the 2nd floor where he lives. The door to the neighboring apartment was open. I called my friend’s apartment and waited for him to open. There was a girl in the next apartment. She saw me, and beckoned to me to come. I did not do that. Then she tried to come up to me and grab. I pushed her away. Then a friend opened the door, and I ran into his apartment, previously slamming the door in front of the nose of that neighbor. This ended the dream, and I woke up and felt that my arm hurts. It felt like she had come out of her body and could not stand in her place. More precisely, not a hand, but the palm itself for two or three minutes, where such a feeling continued, then it passed.

Findings:
1. A friend has turned into a volumetric shadow.
2. The friend himself did not talk to me. The character "friend of the neighbor" also did not speak.
3. The picture of dream was losing its quality, becoming fuzzy. Managed to restore clarity with
a) character burning shadow
b) Hand looks.
4. On hands in a dream there were many lines. I felt pain in my hand. I continued to feel pain in real life, after waking up. Most likely I just laid his hand under the pillow.
5. The earth rose from under the feet and prevented walking.
6. Take off did not work.
7. I went into the staircase and immediately appeared on the second floor
8. Aggressive behavior of a neighbor of a friend. In real life, the girl is not familiar to me.
9. Location: my yard, the neighboring yard on the left.
10. The approximate time spent in the LD 5 minutes.

Bed time routine: screens off at 10, in bed by 10:30. Drank honey and MCT oil mixture with tea brewed from Calea Z, mugwort, damiana, bobinsana, blue lotus. No galantamine or DreamLeaf supplements this time (wanted to see how the herbs alone afffected me). Mindfulness meditation just before sleep.

I'm in a house with some strangers in an unfamiliar city. Someone was coming for us,but right as they arrived I slipped out, walking right by them and acting natural. They come for me, and I cannot escape. They threaten me, I don't know why. I wake up, 1:55 AM
I am with my sisters, Lisa and Tina. They are taking me somewhere, even though I am tired. I sleep in the backseat of the car. We arrive at a swimming pool, they jump in without me. I jump in next, but I jump too far and am above the concrete on the other side; I float back to the center, and am not falling into the water, so I push from the ceiling into the pool. When I climb out, there are other people in the pool, and I'm self concious of the way they look at my scars. I remember I had my tattoos in this dream.
I tell Tina that the gravity above the pool wasn't working right, and that I had to check to make sure this was in fact real. I look at my hands. OH! LOOK HOW MANY FINGERS! This is in fact, a dream! Tina doesn't seem excited by this revelation. I tell Lisa, she thinks I'm being weird. "Thats why the gravity didn't work! And thats why YOU (Lisa) aren't pregnant right now! None of this is real! My right eye closes, and the dream starts going dim. I ask Tina to lead me back to the car because I can't see. On the way to the car, my vision is replaced with a 3DS screen map, showing my location and movement. I try to explain this to my uninterested sister as we step into the car. Except now its a train car, its WWII era, many men and women sit in the car with us. Everything is so vivid. To my right, a very young and handsome Steve Rogers orders some food from the lady with the trolly. He turns to me and smiles. I know dream are all about expectations, so I try very hard to believe that he will kiss me. The dream fades and I wake up. 5:54 am.
Back in the dream, I immediately look at my hands. Too many fingers. I'm at the pool again, but as I leave it is now a restaraunt.I am old, and make a scene so that we will get kicked out. I lose lucidity as I follow the dream plot. We leave and are now shopping for shirts. I have to pick something for my husband, he is helpless. Also younger. I am now myself, in line to buy a shirt. A young boy is in line ahead of me, trying to use a credit card. The cashier asks for ID, and he shows her a picture of an ID on a tablet. She asks again if this is really his card. He admits its a joke, but she pushes a button and an alarm goes off. We are now waiting for the police. The people behind me are crowding, and I ask them to back off. An attractive girl with turquise braces and several tattoos apologizes. I compliment her tats, we have a conversation about them. I tell her I love the little peace sign she has, that I want something similar, that I want it to be a reminder for me to Smile and Breathe. I wake up (6:55), and draw the peace sign on my hand. I've been trying to figure out what symbol to use for this reminder, and the dream has just given me the perfect idea.

10 августа 2011
Проснулся ночью. После сна некоторое время не мог заснуть. Вспомнил про метод прерываемого сна. Подумал, что теперь смогу увидеть ОС. Итак, я заснул.
Нахожусь в какой-то комнате. Темно. Рядом висит автомобильное зеркало. Мельком увидел своё отражение, и понял, что я во сне. Решил осмотреть своё отражение, чтобы узнать отличаюсь ли я во сне от своего реального облика. Рассматриваю и думаю: "Да нет, вроде не отличаюсь. Только под правым глазом пятно какое-то". Когда проснулся, понял, что отражение всё равно чем-то отличалось. Далее я отодрал это зеркало, и поставил себе цель вернуться в предыдущий сон, точнее к людям того сна.
Оказался на улице. Мне кто-то сказал, что нужные мне люди находятся в доме, в квартире. Я зашёл в дом. Поднимаюсь по ступенькам – тупик. Выше ещё ступеньки есть. Перелез туда – опять тупик. «Да, наяву такую архитектуру не построить». Пришлось подниматься по перилам, для того чтобы перепрыгнуть на верхние ступеньки. Вылез на площадку. На площадке было две квартиры. В одной была открыта дверь. Зашёл туда. Вижу стул. А на стуле свою одежду: шорты и футболка. Оказывается я голый. Одел их. Зеркало в моих руках изменило форму – стало круглым, и чуть больше ладони. Непонятно каким образом я его держал.
Увидел в комнате мамину одежду. Стал искать маму. Зашёл в другую комнату. Там было темно. Сама комната превратилась в мою спальню. Я посмотрел в зеркало, перед тем, как выйти из комнаты. Увидел в отражении маму. Развернулся – никого нет. Попытался нащупать руками то место, где стояла мама – пусто.
Выхожу в зал. За дверью у стенки вижу свою маму. Решил проверить её на зеркало. Но вместо того, чтобы смотреть через отражение, навёл зеркальной стороной на неё. Понял свою ошибку. Посмотрел в отражение. Увидел вместо мамы человекообразное тело. На самом теле была огромная непропорциональная голова в форме сердца с большими красными глазами. Заметив, что её разоблачили, она пошла на меня. Я как то сверху накрыл её зеркалом. Получился этакий зеркальный колпак, из которого она не смогла выбраться. После этого проснулся.

Выводы:
1. Осознался с помощью техники прерванного сна.
2. Зеркало - признак сна. Висело не понять на чём. Изменяло форму. Отражение немного отличалось. Зеркальный колпак на персонаже.
3. Лестница - признак сна. Невозможная в реале архитектура.
4. Одежда - признак сна. В начале сна был одетым. Потом оказался голым. Заново оделся.
5. Персонаж мамы превратился в существо в форме сердца.
6. Место действия: мой дом.
7. Примерное время нахождения в ОСе 5 минут.

August 10, 2011

Woke up at night. After sleep, I could not fall asleep for some time. I remembered about the method of interrupted sleep. I thought that now I can see the LD. So, I fell asleep.
I am in a room. Dark. Nearby is a car mirror. I caught a glimpse of my reflection, and realized that I was in a dream. I decided to examine my reflection in order to find out if I am different in a dream from my real appearance. I consider and think: “No, I don’t seem to be different. Only under the right eye there is some kind of stain.” When I woke up, I realized that the reflection was somehow different. Then I tore off this mirror, and set myself the goal of returning to the previous dream, or rather to the people of that dream.
I appeared on the street. Someone told me that the people I need are in the house, in the apartment. I went into the house. Climbing the stairs - a dead end. There are still steps above. Climbed there - again a dead end. “Yes, it’s impossible to build such an architecture.” I had to climb the railing in order to jump to the upper steps. Crawled out to the site. There were two apartments on the site. One door was open. I went there. I see a chair. And on the chair his clothes: shorts and a T-shirt. It turns out I'm naked. I put them on. The mirror in my hands changed shape - it became round, and a little more than a palm. It is unclear how I held him.
I saw my mother’s clothes in the room. I began to look for mom. I went into another room. It was dark there. The room itself turned into my bedroom. I looked in the mirror before leaving the room. I saw my mother in reflection. Turned around - no one. I tried to feel with my hands the place where my mother stood - empty.
I go out into the hall. Behind the door by the wall I see my mother. I decided to check it on the mirror. But instead of looking through the reflection, I directed the mirror side at her. I understood my mistake. I looked in reflection. I saw a humanoid body instead of my mother. On the body itself was a huge disproportionate heart-shaped head with large red eyes. Noticing that she was exposed, she went to me. Somehow I covered her with a mirror from above. The result was a sort of mirror cover from which she could not get out. After that I woke up.

Findings:
1. Confessed using the technique of interrupted sleep.(dream).
2. A mirror is a sign of sleep. Hanging did not understand what. Changed shape. The reflection was a little different. Mirror cap on the character.
3. Stairs - a sign of sleep. Impossible architecture in real life.
4. Clothing is a sign of sleep. At the beginning of sleep was dressed. Then I was naked. Dressed again.
5. Mom’s character has become a heart-shaped creature.
6. Location: my home.
7. The approximate time spent in the OS 5 minutes.

Normal | Dream | Lucid Dream

Same routine, screens off at 10, mindful bed time routine including taking melotonin, raw honey and MCT oil drink, and mindfulness meditation on Headspace (Free year for the unemployed!). I made a dream plan, slept on my right side (which actually helps!) and by 11 I was already asleep.

I'm with Ivy, hanging out. We settle in to watch a movie and I lay my head on her lap, she strokes my hair. I kiss her softly, her lips grazing mine felt very real. Dream fades.
I'm in my apartment, doing something in my bedroom. My waterbottle was scewered by something and is leaking water. I take it to the kitchen to pour the water in the sink. The sink is full of dirty water. I drink from my bottle, the water is dirty. I think thats not right, so I do a RC. This is a dream! I announce CLARITY a few times until I'm satisfied with the sharpness of the dream. I walk around my apartment, knowing I had a plan to fly tonight. I see my cat Elton trying to get my attention and following me; this is the first time I've ever seen him in a dream but I ignore him, worried he might do something freaky if I pay too much attention to him.
I visualized a beautiful dreamscape that night before going to sleep, so I try to close and open my bedroom door to lead me there. I try a few times but the door keeps opening to my room instead. The dream starts to fade but I stop what I'm doing, and restabilize by rubbing my hands together and looking around me. I try the door a few more times and still nothing.
I wake up in bed, Elton wakes up next to me. He's very energetic and excited considering its 3:30, and cuddles me and starts purring, and I wonder if he was really there in the dream with me. I take my usual supplements (galantamine, red DreamLeaf pill). I decided to try Niacin as I saw it listen on DV and had some on hand. WHAT A MISTAKE. Before I'm able to fall asleep, I'm already burning and itching all over. My remaining sleep is troubled.
I'm in my apartment, I get up, go to the freezer for icepacks. I lay back in bed with icepacks all over my body to relieve the INTENSE BURNING AND ITCHING I feel all over.
Another dream, I check on Google how long a Niacin flush lasts.
Last dream, three teenagers are sitting along a fence in the sun. They took Niacin, like they were doing drugs together. The girl in the middle is freaking out because of how hot and itchy she is. Me too, girl. Me too.
I wake up at 6am, can't sleep any longer. Niacin was a terrible idea. Since my only LD came before I took my supplements, I'll try only honey and MCT oil tonight and see what my results are like.
Also, what do you call it when you LD but you're in your apartment and it feels like real life? OBE? Astral Projection? False Awakening? This has happened before, and leads to some very boring LDs.

I was in the house and realised that I was dreaming again. This was the third dream of the night but I had not ben able to get out of the house because I was distracted. This time i had set the goal of exploring and flying around. So this time I got out and found I was in the back yard of the 5 acer house. So I ran twards the back yard. I jumped up and phocused on the wind and felt it flowing around me and I flew up and by phocusing on the direction and wind currents I was able to fly up. I flew above the clouds and saw a map like a game map but real. It had like the fog of war on the land. I was able to tell there were 4 buildings placed at the heart tips of a heart shaped 4 leaf clover. I had come from the north leaf. About 30 mi from the sandstone asteck pyramid. That leaf was to my left and to my right was the south leaf and on its lower right heart bump was a brown desert with rocks and a carnival. Later I learn that lucidity is kept difrently or rewarded difrently in each leaf. In the lower it was an pvp rpg system where you got rewards for exploits. There was lucidity packets and rewards that could help you phisicaly (odd but it seems to be a recurring theme in my dreams stuf there can give you wealth in a certain aspect or talent in skills). Later when I saw a rich person's house where I apparently went to perform a counsltashion for the mother who married a non natural lucid man and where wondering about how to make him more natural at it. Theas people were rich and they had paid for a stairway to heaven. This was basically where they built their steps to cultivate lucidity. This was built with tiles that interlock that had difrent gradients and give. Basically to make yo pay a certain type of attention when walking the stairs. Every step was difrent.

Two nights ago I had a semi-lucid, I was in my mom's old house, my view traveled from her room down the hallway to my room. The room was a slightly dark and blurry so I brought my right hand in front of me and said "Clarity Now" while snapping my fingers, bringing the room into clarity and making it bright. I was seated on the floor and started to become aware that I was dreaming. I took my right hand and slowly pushed it through my left hand and it went straight through, unfortunately this did not send me into a full lucid dream.

Last night I dreamt I was in a location that was located in Richmond but it was also shifting to different layouts too, it was closer to my apartment building. I was walking down the street which looked like the aisle of a Target or Walmart but the roof was open and the lighting was similar to being on the street at night. There were different sections where people were stopping off at, I stop at this sort of run down shop that in my mind is a bar. There are tables with people sitting at them, I see one guy with glasses and a plaid blue shirt on and I'm thinking this is someone from my work but he didn't see me so we didn't acknowledge each other, he's there with what I think is a tinder date. I'm sitting on a couch and I remember playing some sort of racing game on a TV, there was a bar to my left and a pool table in front of me. At the pool table is a group of girls, it was strange because they pulled their pants/underwear down to their ankles and were dancing to music playing, they had sort of teleported to the couch I was on and then were back at the pool table.

I left the bar and wandered down a dark street, to the left of me was the Hof which is a rooftop bar, there was a crowd below and I heard PUP playing, to me it was around 1:45AM in the morning and they had just ended their set which was disappointing but I thought I had caught one of their songs. Eventually I'm with Liz and Aly and a few other people in the group, I tell them about the bar I was at and bring them to it. We were there for a little bit but that eventually ended.

Next I was outside of Target near my hometown, a lot of people from my high school were in there. I was running into some of them in the parking lot including a friend Grace and when I called out to the person next to her it was not the person I thought, another person was in the car. I greeted other people I knew inside the Target, in my mind I had been looking for Liz but couldn't find her. I was eventually back on the sidewalk and it was people from my highschool walking past me going to their respective classes. I had long hair and I could see out of the right corner of my eye a family friend with a long hair too, I made a comment about how "the flow was back in style" or something, another older family friend walked by but he seemed indifferent when I said that to him too, I muttered something like "well that was a stupid comment" and walked back towards the Target. Inside was a class going on and I was sitting on the outside because there wasn't enough room inside, at some point the teachers comes out to me and asks me a question.

I'm inside the Target which looks like an open lab, at some point I'm on the ground in a SP situation where I can't move a muscle but I can hear this electronic song in my head and thought Grant had made it. The dream is now outside at this town on the beach, I'm thinking something about family guy and being with those characters in rivers/sewers going through the town.

I am with a friend and we're trying the racing simulation Assetto Corsa Competizione then the car turns into a horse and the game turns into a GTA game and i turn into a savage and decapitate a knight with a very shiny armor.

The dream changes itself into a role playing game. There are three characters. It's about a family thats working in a motel. This dream was just a very bad acted soup opera i shouldn't even write it down

Before going to sleep i had set an alarm but this dream was so bad, it woke me up anyways so i cancel my alarm because i don't want it to ruin my LD that i'm gonna have right now. I take a sip of water and get into my sleeping position, i am seeing some vivid images and as i'm about to fall asleep i get excited and wake up, then try it again and again.


At last, i'm in a dream. I'm in a dream! I'm in an industrial area with lots of buildings and i'm near one of them. There is a car beside me but everything is so low res, it's GTA:Vice City level. I want it to look better and it does, now the graphics looks like GTA:V ! I don't worry about it too much and get inside the building. There is an office with two people in it. Now everthing looks like real life or maybe more sharp. One old guy and one old lady. I remember my goal about eating a chocolate cookie in an LD because i was very envious that KatBee did it and that old lady may give me what i want! I ask the lady for a cookie and she says "grab a file from there and follow me." I do as she says and we're going inside the factory.

It's just a dirty old factory i say to myself while following the old woman. I see a mirror on the way and want to check how i look in LD. I was almost the same except for my eyes, they looked smaller. I remember about the cookie and run to the old lady. We go up some stairs and now we're in another office but this place looks so much nicer than the rest of the factory. She gives me the cookie, and it's very good! The crunch, the taste, awesome. But i remember something, my plan before going to bed was go to Adventure Time world and get a cookie from Bubblegum. Even though i ate a cookie, it's time to go there!

The office i'm in has a balcony, i step outside and look at the view, there is some parks with trees and after that it's sea. It's a good view but i need to go to Candy Kingdom! I turn around and imagine the Candy Kingdom behind me and when i turn back, it's there! Now i need to fly, i try to levitate of the ground but i hesitate and fall to the ground. I remember what i read about dream control, if you fear something, it's probably gonna happen. I just jump from the balcony, i lose some altitude but manage to fly!

I fly towards the Candy Kingdom. I'm doing some cool moves like a fighter plane, the view is amazing, the feel of flying and the wind, smell (smelled like cherry there), taste in my mouth from the cookies, it's just so much! Started to cry in my sleep because it was just so beautiful.

I wake up feeling very light, happy and energetic, even though i just slept for 5 hours tops.

LD 120 - Gliding and Flying Again
After struggling to fall asleep again, I sink into my thoughts about my sister keeping a vlog on youtube, which happened in a previous dream. While thinking about commenting on the videos and stuff, a dream has formed around me. I’m gliding on the floor of an empty apartment and spinning too. I’m in a resting position like in waking life, but just spinning and gliding. Suddenly I’m outside on a sunny day, gliding on a street through a city. My thoughts rationalize slowly that I must be dreaming.

I continue to glide down the street until a store stops me. I don’t want to go inside again, I remember struggling to get outside in previous lucids. I stand up and start flying over the city. I cross over a small river and notice there’s a dark spot covering half of my vision. It’s my waking life hand that’s resting on my face. I try to ignore it and make it go away, but I focus on it too much and wake up.

10pm screens off, took melotonin, dreamleaf supplement, and about one tablespoon of raw honey and MCT oil.
10:30pm in bed, meditation, dream yoga visualization practice, mantra: breathing in, I remember my dreams, breathing out, Lucid Dream TONIGHT.
3:30am WBTB, only long enough to take galantamine, second DreamLeaf pill, and go back to sleep

My first memorable dream, I was at a friend's house, and he had told me he had broken up with his girlfriend two days prior, and we started fooling around a little, but his roommate woke up and heard us and shamed him for hooking up with me so soon after his breakup. He left, saying he should stay with a friend since this was a bad idea, and I kept trying to assure everyone that it was okay, this is only a dream! But I wasn't entirely sure, so I started trying to check to make sure, at which point I fell head first off the bed into an almost black area where all I could see was the floor, and I was alone. The patterns on the wood floor were moving, and I bounced around strangely, and even though I was alone at this point I said SEE, this IS a dream! But with nothing around me, and several failed attempts to summon a portal midair, I tried to phase my hand through the floor.

This is the first time I've successfully manipulated a LD! I put my hand to the floor, thought about how it would feel to phase through it, and blamo! I pushed the rest of my body through, looking for a wilderness dreamscape to forage for food in (task of the month!). I get to another empty, warehouse like area, and my sister Anna is there, pointing to a structure that I climbed, leading to an outdoor area. There was woods and grass but also a bar with several bowls of berries and other foods; I open a jar at the far right of the table, and although there are gnats flying around it, I pick a large chocolate chip cookie from the jar, and begin to eat it. Delicious. I wake up.

I don't move, and allow myself to fall back asleep. I reenter the dream world. I'm in an area with several shops, it's raining. I know I'm in a dream, and I'm walking around (rather awkwardly) looking for a door or other portal. A little girl is following me. I hold out my arms and feel the raindrops hit my skin, my arms are red. I rub my hands together for stability. I find a shop with large windows, press my hand against it, then through it, and then step through. In this room are several tables with members of my family, and on the wall is a picture from my sister Tina's wedding. I feel deep love. I look back to the window, and see my reflection. For the first time, I'm able to change my appearance in front of a mirror. I guess I was hoping to go to the Land of Oz, so I try to make myself look like Dorothy. It doesn't exactly work, and I revert back to my normal reflection. Good effort. As I begin to walk through the window to look for Oz, my cat jumps on my bed and wakes me up.

When I finally get back to sleep, after writing down notes to remember the previous 3 dreams, I'm somewhere with bad guys, and they're looking for me. I'm able to use telekinesis to throw them around, but from behind a wall, so I don't actually see this but rather experience it as a puppeteer would. I wake up when one of them finds me.

I've never had MULTIPLE LD's in one night, or managed to do a DEILD. Very happy with my progress!
Side note: does anyone else dream about writing in their DJ and wake up to realize they didn't jot down any notes? This keeps happening to me. I also seem to remember hearing sounds as if someone was on my roof, thinking it was real, then realizing it was just HH and that this was the in between dream state.