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So there has been something that I've noticed about my dreams lately.. So far they have all had something to do with a cousin of mine who passed early January. He never speaks in my dreams but He always looks at me and smiles as if he was saying "I'm alright." I'm honestly 100% okay with this but soon I want to go lucid when this happens to see how that goes.. Maybe I'll find out that it's really him coming down to give me closure. Or maybe it's just my mind showing me what I want to see. Either way I'll be happy~

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes

Got it? Great! Now enjoy my dreams.


Wishes, do they ever come true?





Dream #1 A being of Light.

Im in some room looking up outside the window. It is a full moon, and i am talking out aloud about searching for my Twin flame my other half. I begin getting emotional, telling my other half to please appear to me and enter my life soon. I wipe the tears away from my eyes, and walk outside. I look up and notice that there are hearts in the clouds, with the moon turning into a glowing purple colour. I stare in to the moon, and feel myself being filled with some type of loving calmness energy. I begin floating in the air and letting whatever takes me take everything of me.

I sense a being of light, it is a female. She is beyond beautiful, I will try my best to describe her. Her eyes were like a million diamonds illuminating in the moonlight, Her hair was long brunette, and blowing in the wind. Her face was like the most beautiful and most precious of any newborn. She a had glowing bright white and purple light illuminating from her naked body. I was at awe with her beauty. Why, she was simply beyond words. Im now in what looks like an Infinite temple place. There are books and rooms with gold lights everywhere. There are animal stautues of wolves, birds, and different Deitys. and it had a very heavenly feeling to it. Everything feels familiar to me, Almost like this is my home in a way. She shows me a glimpse of what love looks like.

"You are a compassinate and loving person. Do not dwell on the past so much. But move on and become an inspiration, and let your light shine, to make a new path for others."

She then walked up to me and gave me the most powerful hug i have ever felt! It was not a suffocating hug, but a hug that can heal the most violent and destructive beasts and human beings. I begin tearing up from my eyes and telling her that i love her. And hearing her say she loves me too.

I am now awaken in my bed with the most vibrant love of energy i have ever felt from a dream.


3:20 - 3:45 am. Did plenty of reality checks with my totem. And did a little bit of subconscious training.

Notes: Wanted to also try something different over the next couple of nights. Im listening to certain songs like music with love, to see if i am able to get more intimate moments in dreams. I set my alarm to a specific time to go off while i am asleep. I also assigned a certain ringtone to it to see how it will affect the mood of the dream. I keep the volume at a medium volume, and set it across the room to see if i can cue in on it. If it will make me lucid, or pull me out of the dream.


Dream #2 Me and Mila Kunis.


Im in a supermarket and i notice Mila Kunis is working there at the register. I walk up to her and she says..

"Hey babe! Im almost done ok?"

"Mkay, take ya time."

She is looking good. Her hair is down, and she is wearing a green supermarket t shirt, with some beige pants, and black flats on. Im standing by some magazines and start reading thru one of them. (I think it was about good health or something like that)

(Mila Kunis) "K, im ready babe."

She pinches me on my butt and starts tongue kissing me. I put my arms around her, and we stare into eachothers eyes.

"You know what im in the mood for?"

"What sex?"

(She hits me on my chest lightly)

"Hah, noo. Ice cream!"

(Me) "Oh."

"Maybe later tonight ok?"

We are now walking and holding hands. it is day time out, and we go to the ice cream parlor to get some ice cream. I hear a very mellow song from a oldies classic that sounds like its coming from in the background. (must be my alarm goin off on my cellphone)

Spoiler for Lovers Music:

Mila Kunis starts taking her ice cream cone and licking it very slowly.

"Girl you better quit licking that ice cream like that for you get yourself in trouble."

"Hah, what are you gonna do hm?"

"You'll see, keep on."

She starts doin it again, and i shake my head. She starts laughing, and ask if i wanted to lick it. I laughed and said..

"Lick what? Yo ice cream?

Oh see, now you tryna tempt me."

She laughs again and takes the ice cream and puts it right in my face licking her fingers.

"Hah, nice look Q!"

I wipe my face with a napkin and tell her shes gonna get it. Im chasing her thru a grassy field where we roll around kissing and playing with one another. She is laying on her back and im on top of her. We both are fully clothed just a little bit of kissing and staring into eachothers eyes. We get up holding hands and start walking some more.

The area where we are walking, is now in some sort of garden almost. There are rose bushes and colorful birds flying around. I take a rose and give it to Mila Kunis. She smiles at me and kisses me. I reach in my pocket and pull out my maroon colour maroon moonstone totem and say to her..

"I want you to keep this. This token, will be a reminder of my love for you, and it means that i will always return to you ok?"

(She tears up a bit wiping her eyes)

She nods,
And we hug tightly and i can feel the dream closing in on me and i wake up.


5:15 - 5:35 Am. Did plenty of subconscious training.

Dream #3 Natalia and me take a night out.

Me and Natalia are in a fancy hotel walking downstairs to a lobby it looks night time outside. Natalia is wearing a very lovely dress, it is Red, and she has her hair in a ponytail, and wearing black strappy high heels.

(Me)

"Just relax ok?" It will get taken care of.

"No Q, im fucking tired of relaxing! Shit...it seems like when i do try and relax, something always happens!"

We are now in a limosine on our way to meet with some people. Im wearing a black and white suit, with my hair in a long braided pontail, looking at my reflection in the mirror in the limo.

(Natalia talking)

"You look good ok."

"I should've worn my other suit."

We get out the limo and enter this very fancy looking restaurant. There is classical music playing and me and Natalia have a seat. Some italian men sit down at the table to have dinner with us. They are explaining to us about some men ruining their business or something like that. Me and Natalia take a good long hard look at the pictures.

I only remember frags here. Something about me and Natalia being in a hotel setting up cameras, and hot wiring a car.


Notes: Im not sure if in my 1st dream if that was my Twin flame or not. But the energy that she carried certainly felt strong. I am most happy with all the dreams that i got. I think i may try and stick with what im doin so far to see how this will affect my dreams over the next few nights.

Went to some really cool retreat with Leo Dina and Kara. There were monks there and a giant forest. We each took the pez. I took 8 drops. At first nothing happened and I did a really cool handstand where I bent my elbows and went over almost touching the ground. Then I slowly moved back into handstand. Eventually everything started getting really colorful. Flowers were changing into different colors and the sky was a deep purple. We were getting ready to go into the forest. Everything was really magical and I was having a great time. We ended up in some weird part of the forest that looked kind of spooky. There was a giant building hidden inside with a tiny door for entrance. We went inside and were instantly locked in. There was a broken down train in the building and we had to cross it to get to a other platform. As we crossed it the train came to life and tried to crush us. There was another woman with us that warned us of this place. She was ripped into the sky above and killed. We were scared and tried to make our way out. The door was locked and we were stuck. A voice came and said as Long as we were alive we would be stuck there. We figured we had to pretend our deaths. We got on the train and it rode us out to the front of the forest. We figured If we could hide in a cloud on top of the train it would think we died. Everyone got on their cloud and as I jumped onto mine I was launched at a blinding speed away from the train. It was really scary and I wanted to retry. It rewinded back to when I jumped on the cloud and this time I just tucked me in a space above the train. The train suddenly stopped and let people out. we were getting out. The dream changed and it was g who was hiding and Leo's dad lookin for him. He was up where to trunks were and Leo's dad was about to give up when g started moving. He was found and Leo's dad was relieved. He though he was dead.*

Another DILD last night. I'm getting better at this.

This time, I had much more lucidity and clarity than before. Still not enough to remember those dream commands, though.

I don't remember what made me do a reality check, but I was lucid enough to remember to stabilize the dream. I did the trick where you rub your hands together. For some reason it didn't work. I didn't notice, though.

The dream was very blurry. Can't remember anything. I remember stabilizing the dream and flying. That's all. I don't even remember doing a reality check.

All I need to do is become lucid enough to remember the "More lucidity!" dream command. Then I'll be fine. D:

I was in my house like normal, it was at night, and then it randomly turned to day and i randomly teleported. I was in a truck with my friend and we were talking about lucid dreaming. I told him i knew i was dreaming and i did my reality check. My middle finger faded away. I jumped out of the truck and went in a room made primarily of minecraft blocks (if you dont know wat minecraft is its a game for the computer). I thought to myself to chage the colr of the blocks form blue to red. I concentrated and it turned purple, i concentrated harder and it turned red. I concentrated on being able to jump through the wall and i did. I met back up with my friend and random aliens attacked. We both got weapons and were fighting them when i got drowsy in the dream and started losing control. I stumbled into a wall and woke up. I thought to myself that i had a lucid dream.

I was in some sort of ancient roman city, although I wasn't in first person. I was more of a hovering camera, observing other people. This day was special - there was some sort of religious uprising going on, and I was observing some events taking place in the central city square.

I was looking at a roman teenage girl, wearing white robes. She was on a sort of balcony, which didn't stick out of the building, but was more of a small room that didn't have an outer wall, and had pillars there instead. She was searching for something in a tall and long cabinet that spanned the entire back wall of the balcony - it looked like something out of a church, with books on some shelves and various other objects. My view turned and I could see that this balcony opened up to a huge city square, larger than Trafalgar square, round and much lighter colours - the colour of building material in roman cities. In the centre there was a tall, 10m or so wide stone spired tower, twice the height of the average building around the square. It was mostly just a stone cylinder until about 10m up, where there were no outer walls, just small pillars holding up the conical roof. In this circular balcony, there was a huge humanoid figure, quite fat - sorta like a 5m tall santa - but I knew immediately that it was in fact an incarnate god. Surrounding the tower in the square were thousands of people - protesters - all calling for some sort of religious reformation - the god in the centre being their spokesperson. After remembering all this detail I thought I might draw it - that's the garbled figure you see above.

My attention turned back to the girl, who rushed down the stairs to just outside the front of her building, where her father was. Her father turned out to be a priest, who was proclaiming something religious, trying to be heard among the crowd. She asked him something, and he pointed to a book on a stand, on the balcony she was on before. She went back up and looked at it.

I was looking back at the square, from a few metres above the crowd, watching the god doing his thing, when out of nowhere an explosion appeared on him. It was a large explosion, but it just knocked him back a little and dazed him. Then I saw the girl zooming away on a flying-moped device... apparently she had tried to kill the god. Who tries to kill a god with a small bomb? Actually, considering both sides of this religious thing had supernatural abilities (gods on earth, flying mopeds), I can't really have understood the situation

I then saw a sort of replay view of the inside of the god's mind during the explosion - I saw his conscience (represented by a mini version of the god ) get knocked out of his frame of mind by an expanding ring of cloud, and then rush back again, through the cloud ring, back to the centre of his head. That's the last thing I remember. Still a more logical dream than some other's I've had

I am in my early 30s and have been having lucid dreams off and on my whole life this is the dream that started me on lucid dreaming
around 13 years old
I was walking around these beautiful mountains my dream guide? native tribal elder guy in a lot of my dreams . says "we are dreaming jump around on the mountains" I jump around I start having fun then I see this most beautiful water fall I have ever seen. I stand in awe .my tribal guide says" we are in russia right now follow me " I follow him to the top of the cliff where there was a outside school.Children are studying at their desks. A man walks up with purple and blue hair.He has long hair and is about 15 or so years older than me. He starts to follow my guide and I around but I ignore him .tribal guide starts to tell me I need to stick this knife between the heavens and the hells (sugesting the earth) I look at the knife it had a wooden blade and a metal handle and just as I am about to grab it the purple and blue haired man stole it .I chased as fast as I could and flew over the mountains . But I was not able to catch up . I knew it was a dream because the tribal man told me it was . I woke up very bummed out that I couldnt catch the guy.I did not hear of lucid dreaming till many years later.

I look out over the mountains, and as massive as they are, they seem small at my height. I stop and snap a picture; when I find him again, he'll want to see this. That done, I continue on my way. Presently I come to what seems to be an abandoned passenger plane, a 747 or something very like it. Inside, I come to the door separating the cockpit from the rest of the plane. Papers are plastered all over the door, sloppy writing scrawled over most of them. I'm on the right track, then. An envelope catches my eye, an address carefully written in the appropriate place. I begin adding the numbers of the address that will lead me to her.


I honestly have no idea what this one is really about. Lindar and I were presumably looking for some girl, and we had gotten separated, so I was taking pictures of various things so I could show them to him when we met up again.

I also don't know if this is the traditional format for dream journal entries, or whether there even is one, but I particularly liked this dream; I have a particular fondness for adventure.

This one is kind of old and happened right after my last entry.
I haven't really found the time to write it down until now.
My dreams are also getting kind of long, which is amazing, but also kind of a pain to write down.


The time is ticking.
I have no choice but to diffuse the bomb, there is no way we'll get out of the explosion radius in time.
I quickly grab an electric screwdriver from my back pocket and start removing the digital clock mounted on top of the bomb.
There is less than one minute left on the timer.

"Hurry up!"
"Shut it!"

Removing the clock reveals a highly complex maze of cabling.
Screw this!
I remove the electronics as well, in the hopes of finding a simpler set of cabling leading to the warhead.
Fortunately I am right. The whole electronics are wired to the warhead by only two thick cables.
I can do this!
But my short burst of confidence is quickly shattered by a rather troublesome discovery.
The warhead is nuclear.
How the fuck did this happen? How did anyone manage to acquire a nuclear fucking bomb?

A quick look at the dismantled clock reveals that I have 7 seconds left.
I decide to cut one of the cables at random.

"I know this setup! Cut the red one!"

I move my knife to the red cable, but it shifts colors with the other yellow one.
Whenever I switch, the cable colors switch as well. It's impossible to cut the red one. WTF!

Seeing the last few seconds run out, I notice that I'm not really scared to die.
I wonder why that is.
Oh...

Yeah...
I start rubbing my hands but am interrupted by the bomb hitting zero and audibly powering up.
Well... this is not good. I might wake up because of that.
I think about quickly portaling the bomb away before it goes off, but then I notice that it is plugged into the wall with an extension cord.
Really?
I unplug it and the warhead turns off.
Lol.

I resume rubbing my hands but I am yet again interrupted, this time by the DC that was with me.
I unsummon him because I have no time to deal with DC's right now.
I need to stabilize the dream and get my second lesson in time dilation...

... I'm in Haven with Yuya and Liv.
I have trouble stabilizing the dream but eventually manage to get there.
Once stable I immediately get back to doing the awareness technique from the previous dream, sort of to show off in case Yuya tests me.
But she doesn't. There is simply no need, she is fully aware of my thoughts and how aware I am right now.
Liv is curious about what we are doing and I have a difficult time explaining it to her.
She is unaware of the difficulty of remaining in a dream or the concept of stability.

We walk along a path that I remember. I've been here before but I cannot quite remember what I was doing.
Then I see the water pools, yep, this is the fighting practice area.
Yuya starts walking onto one of the pools and I follow her.
Walking on water is second nature to me nowadays, but thinking back, it's the first thing that Yuya taught me when I met her again.

I suddenly get goosebumps and instinctively power up and take a defensive stance.
Huh? It was Yuya.I felt the shock of her suddenly powering up.

"Nice reaction!"
"Cheers. What are we doing?"

I barely manage to block her attack as she blinks towards me.
Without my recent training she would have knocked me unconscious with this.
I'm kind of in the mood to fight her now, I wonder how I compare to her nowadays.
I smile.

"Awareness Hyu."
"What? Oh, you've got to be kidding me! During a fight???"
"Why? Are you scared that I'll slap you across the face?"
"Hahaha, alright, let's do this!"

I awaken the dragon and charge towards her.
She easily blocks all of my attacks. No surprise there though.
So far so good, I manage to remain fully aware of my surroundings.
The fight is pretty tame, I don't get myself into uncomfortable positions, have I gotten closer to the skill level of Yuya?

She summons her pressurized spheres.
Well shit. I forgot about those.
The spheres are horribly dangerous and difficult to fight against.
She basically creates 5 water spheres about the size of a basket balls.
Then she compresses them down to the size of a grain of sand.
I'm not even sure how it's possible to compress a liquid at all.

The pressure of these spheres is immense. They can be used both defensively and offensively.
She moves them around telepathically at extreme speeds and can make them burst whenever she wants,
releasing the contained water at extreme pressures, cutting through anything in their way.

You really can't let them touch you unless you don't mind loosing a limb.
Fighting against them requires a lot of blinking, which causes stability problems due to the distorted vision.

It would be rather useful to have my katana right now, but I'm not using it in a practice battle with Yuya, it's too dangerous.
I don't use the dragon eyes either, because the thought on using them on a friend scares the shit out of me.
In return she doesn't use her water extraction technique, which I wouldn't know how to fight against.
I only saw her use it once in a fight.
Within a split second she extracted the entire blood from her enemy and he died on the spot.
It's a really scary technique.

What am I doing?
I'm thinking too much. I should look for openings instead and strike whenever I see one.
But Yuya is way too skilled to provide such an opening, I'll have to force one.
I create and launch spheres of compressed energy at her. Those are rather explosive and fairly dangerous.
I got the idea from her water spheres. Attacks of compressed energy have their advantages.
They are much more efficient against single targets.
The technique is also cheap energy wise, so I can cast it a lot, making it an ideal tool to get someone off balance.

She is moving 3 of her water spheres into a defensive position to cope with my relentless attacks.
Time to get serious.
I make an aggressive blink, right in front of her, and try to strike her with a fist.
This is obviously not going to work, I expect her to blink away.
I'm using a multiblink attack, which is very difficult to perform.
I try to feel where she's going to blink to to dodge my attack and blink myself to the new location simultaneously.

Blinking usually has some sort of cooldown, making this impossible, but using enough energy it is possible to force it.
The energy required to do this is ludicrous though, so multiblink attacks are extremely exhausting.
But you basically put your opponent into a position where he is forced to multiblink as well to dodge the attack.
Yuya and I are skilled enough to do it about 4-5 times in a row, but after that everything hurts.
Your aura is completely unstable at that point and takes seconds to recover, during which you cannot focus your energy at all.

The reason I'm using such an attack is to nullify an immense advantage she has over me.
She doesn't need to stay lucid. She lives in this world, I am merely a visitor.

Here she goes.
2 Blinks... 3, 4, and finally a fifth.
The energy in my fist has completely dissipated due to all the blinking, and she can now easily block it.
I land on the water surface and have difficulty remaining on top due to my now unstable aura.

I attack her again, purely physically this time, as I neither of us can focus any energy.
Whoever manages to focus his energy first will have the tremendous advantage of launching the first serious attack.
I might have the advantage on this, dragonic energy is extremely unstable by nature, so I'm used to it.
I should be able to focus my energy before my aura has fully stabilized.

I can feel my aura tingling. This should be enough!
I focus energy into the tattoo stretched over my right arm and quickly cast a fire based attack towards Yuya.
She dodges it by blinking.
How the hell can she do that???
How is her aura stable enough already to blink?

I screwed up big time. I casted this before my aura stabilized, and now it's completely messed up again.
Yuya is over me charging towards me. She's casting a spell.
Shit, I can't do anything.
The water surface collapses beneath my feet and I am dragged underwater.
She's controlling the water, increasing it's pressure attempting to hold me in place.
I see her splash through the water surface still charging at me fast.
She is wielding a trident.

But she's overconfident. She's in her element, so she thinks I must be at a huge disadvantage.
Yet, even though I do not control water, I can make good use of it.
My aura stabilizes and I create an extremely strong electric field in front of me.
Electrolysis! I split water into hydrogen and oxygen. The correct mixture is highly explosive.
She realizes what I've done too late and I ignite the mixture with a fire sphere.

Oh shit. I didn't think this through.
The explosion is huge and we are both catapulted out of the water.
Everything is extremely foggy because so much water evaporated and water drops are going everywhere.
I can barely see. This is really dangerous, the dream could collapse.
I don't even know where up and down is.

I decide to completely ignore my vision and rely on my sense of global awareness instead.
Good call! I sense 5 sources of compressed energy approaching. Water spheres!
I quickly locate Yuya's aura and blink towards her.
I catch her slightly of guard and manage to land a focused hit.
She blocks it fine, but still.
Focused energy attacks are better to avoid than to block.
They cause all sorts of vibrations in your aura making followup moves difficult.

I try to chain a few attacks together but quickly feel the exhaustion kicking in and I back up.
Most of the water has come down and my vision becomes useful again.

She performs a blink attack.
Shit! She's going to chain them up.
We blink a total of 4 times.
It hurts so much.

This keeps going for a few more rounds.
One of us performs a multiblink attack and gets us both completely out of position.
Then it's a race to the first attack and a matter of somehow defending against it.
It is absolutely exhausting.
My limbs become insanely heavy and I start to loose the ability to focus my energy properly.
We fight for maybe a total of 15 minutes, which is actually quite a long time considering the speed we're going at.

"Alright... let's call it a draw..."
"No... I win."

Oh come on. She's just as exhausted as I am, she can barely stand.

"You lost awareness of your surroundings."
"Fuck my life."
"Haha. You completely forgot!"
"..."
"And guess what? You're still here."
"Huh? I thought the goal of this was to remain aware of my surroundings."
"No, that's not the goal at all. The goal is to have deeper dreams. The goal is to remain here for longer."

...
Wait what?

"Hold on a second!"

She got that grin of her face.
That "she knows everything" grin.

"You're telling me the heightened awareness thing isn't actually necessary to stay lucid???"
"Of course not! How would you pull that off for multiple hours in a row?"
"..."
"I said your awareness level was too random, we did some training to fix that."
"So you're saying it is already fixed?"
"I am now convinced that it is already fixed."

Woah. That was fast.

"So.. what are we doing now?"
"Teaching you to let go."

Let go? Let go of waking life?
Not thinking about it all the time and rather focus on the dream?
Of course... she told me many times before...

I take a quick dip in the water to get rid of the smell.
I'm sweating like a pig.

We walk back towards Yuya's place, discussing dreaming and being awake.
I mention Dreamviews, which I haven't done very often before.
Yuya tells me to say hi to fOrceez and Dark_Merlin.
Liv doesn't say a word. I don't think she's ever seen Yuya and me fight, that must have been quite intense for her.

Damn... I'm so exhausted.
Why do you even get exhausted in dreams?

"Why wouldn't you?"
"Eh... yeah..."
"Indeed."
"So, what do I do against it?"
"... are you serious?"

>_<

"You sleep of course! Or did you think I would sleep just for fun?"
"Well... now that you put it this way."

Liv leaves us and we quickly get into bed.
Goddamn I'm exhausted. Every muscle in my body hurts.

"This is a problem"
"What is?"
"If I want to sleep I'll have to close my eyes."
"So?"
"I might wake up?"
"zzz, you've picked up a lot of nonsense"
"I have?"
"These 'dream rules'. Darkness is bad, don't close your eyes. Don't talk. Yada yada."
"Yeah, I kinda have, haven't I?"
"I know the not talking one is nonsense, I talk all the time."
"It's no different for closing your eyes."
"I know you're right. I only wake up because I'm scared that I might. But it seems hard to get over."

"Pff... hahahaha"
"What's so funny?"
"Hurr hurr, I'm a badass dragon, I can fight a goddess of water and do all sorts of shit."
"Yet I can't even close my eyes.... haha.... I'm sorry Hyu, but this is funny."

It kind of is.
Screw it. Let's do this shit!
I close my eyes.

"You know, when you exploded half of the fucking training pool you didn't see anything either."
"That didn't wake you up, so why would closing your eyes do so?"

Yep, my thoughts exactly.
I open my eyes again to sneak a closer look at her.

WHAT THE FUCK?
How am I awake? What is this shit?
I'm a bit mad, but happy to have made progress.
I take some quick notes and go back to sleep.

I'm not sure how I got there, but my first memory is that I'm at a party.
While a lot of my friends are there, it seems like for the most part the people in attendance are people I was once friends with, and would still like to be friends with, but some drama got in the way.
Most notable is my former best friend, who stopped associating me after he dated my sister. I warned him in advance her relationships have a bad habit of ending with her cheating, but he went ahead with it anyway. When the relationship crashed, he took it out on me. I had recently gotten him a job with us working together, and he stopped showing up, doubling my workload over night for a couple weeks.

Anyway, the dream progresses with me avoiding my former friends (while wishing I did not have to), and trying to have a good time. Eventually my group of friends decide they wish to go to one of the new clubs that opened up in town. A former coworker is there, and offers to be my ride. It was odd that he was present, as he and I had always just been associates, never friends, never enemies. I honestly don't even know his last name. We left the house the part was at, and found ourselves in a cove. He lived across on the other side and had to grab something real quick. The cove seems familiar, but I have no idea where I remember it from. Dream me seemed to know where I was though, making the comment that as many times as I'd been there, I had never realized he lived there as well.
As we went to get into his car, I woke up.

Didn't seem as though there were any specific dream signs. Just a normal party, with the exception of being full of a bunch of people I no longer associate with.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes


Got it? Great! Now enjoy reading my dreams.


Notes: Wanted to see what my dreams would end up like without doing any reality checks, or subconscious training. Pretty interesting what my subconscious decided to give me.


Dream #1 Supermarket spree.

Im with my moms in a supermarket, and we are on some game show. We have 60 seconds to put as many items in the cart as possible. We run thru the aisle picking up items on throwing them in the cart. The timer stops and we have five hundred dollars worth of groceries in under a min! Me and my mom dance and laugh and start celebrating around the supermarket. (Very hilarious moment.)


Dream #2 A side of me that is shown often.








Im walking in a mall and hear Edith Piaf, La Vie En Rose in the background. (Must be my alarm) I stop and glance at this young woman who looked Arab or Indian. She is fairly attractive, Long black hair in a ponytail to her waist, big beautiful brown eyes, and a very light coco skin complexion. She wore blue jeans with silver flip flops, and her toes were polished a silver colour, and she wore a light blue shirt. She was putting clothes on a rack, and she turns to look at me smiling. I nod at her and smile back, as i continued walking thru the mall hearing that song play in the background. Pretty soon it fades, (Most likely went to a 5 min snooze) And i am now in line with a lady who looked tanned and in her 50's i believe. Very attractive, with medium length sandy brown hair, and big aqua blue eyes.

She begin flirting with me, and took out a green pill and swallowed it. I reached in my pocket and pulled out a green pill and swallowed mines as well. She begin glowing a aqua colour and and light begin surrounding her body. Another guy who was black was in the line hating and cock blocking, saying..
(Black guy talking)
"Why don't you get with a real man like myself baby."
(Woman talking)
"No thanks, im not interested."
She smiles gazing into my eyes, flexing her breast telling me she works out. We lock eyes for a while..then my alarm goes off again then i wake up.


Final dream: Fantasies from my subconscious.

Im in a room with two beautiful women who looked mixed with something.

Spoiler for For 18+:

Im sitting down in a chair, and one of the girls starts unfasting my belt buckle and pulling down my pants. She then takes her black leather heel pumps off, and throws them on the floor. She now lays on her back on the floor, and uses only her soft silky beautiful feet to tug and stroke my now fully rock hard erect cock. Another girl walks over and begins sucking on the head of my penis, while the other girl uses her feet to jack me off. A black dude walks in, and i look over at him and say..
"Man get the FUCK outta here!"
I throw a bottle of lotion at him, and tell him go in the bathroom and have fun...shit.

The girls laugh, and the guy takes the walk of shame. I continue my business with the women, and felt myself reaching climax and literally woke up with a bit of a surprise on myself. Lol,

I woke up recorded the dream and took a long hot shower.


Notes: Well not too upset with what i got. Can't complain, but this just shows what my dreams are like when i don't do any reality checks or subconscious training. Sooo think ima gonna go back to my usual routine. Lol, gonna start my day off with plenty of reality checks, and plenty of subconscious training for tonight.

And I've come to the conclusion that my dreams actually mean something. All the violence, sex, adventures, and military life mean something. Most of my military dreams relate to the fact that was the toughest experience I had to deal with in my life, and whatever I'm going through now is nothing in comparison. The fighting varies. The "strong DC's" that I've come across usually represent the current issues that I have to face in my waking life. Just as a certain fight requires a different approach, so do certain problems. I also have fighting dreams, just because they're exciting. Maybe bleed over from kung fu and action flicks I enjoy. A lot of the times, when I'm feeling bad, I'll go to sleep and have an amazing dream...I think it's just a way to tell myself that things will get better. My video game dreams are cut and dry. I've probably been playing them so much that whatever is in my head running, doesn't turn off.

I've had this reoccurring event during lucid sex that happens a lot more than I tend to post, that normally involves prolapsed uterus' blood, and other gory things happening right when I'm trying to penetrate. I can pretty much chalk that all up to either A: being in a relationship I shouldn't be in, or B: Fears of having another child. And speaking of children, I haven't been dreaming about my daughter as much, because I actually see her now, and it feels pretty good.

Overall I can say I don't regret my interest in dreaming for one bit. No matter how "odd" I may seem to some people. Maybe some people only have dreams, but for me, I tend to have visions. Nothing like precognition or anything, but just finding more of what my heart tries to tell my brain.

I'd still like to do the following in the future:

Get to The World That Never Was- I've been to the outskirts of it on multiple occasions, but never to the castle.

Have a series of dreams intentionally linked- Like a mini series of sorts. Sometimes I wake up and wish I could interact with those characters or events again...especially my really epic dreams.

Dream Share- I think I've had a couple of near misses, but nothing significant to write home about.


And on that note, I hope my next entry is epic.

Black means non lucid
Orange means semi lucid
Blue means lucid
Red means dream characters talking
Purple means possible shared dreaming person
Green means notes

Got it? Great! Now enjoy my dreams, and make yourself comfortable.


Dream #1 Fearless Hitman.

Im sitting around a round table with a group of mafioso bosses. One of the men Who looks like Steven Seagal, ask me if im willing to take out the biggest known crime syndicate in town. I tell them sure i can take care of that problem for them.

Im now on some rooftop looking thru a scope of a sniper rifle. The sun is shining and it is a calm afternoon. I spot a man walking out of a hotel He looks like he is some italian dude. He is heavy set and wearing a white suit, with 4 henchmen walking on the side of him there is a limo he is walking to. I squeeze the trigger hitting the man with right between the eyes. The men look around, but i am smooth and walk away off of the rooftop down some stairs and change my all black gear that i had on, including black gloves, black skull cap you name it. I stuff it all in a dumpster.

I am now wearing baggy blue jeans, a white t shirt, white sneakers my hair is down and i put a white baseball cap on, and put my glasses on. I get to a payphone and make the call to my boss and tell him..
"Looks like he is gonna be gone for a looong time."
The man laughs on the other end, and the dream fades and i wake up.


4:30 - 4:40 Am. Did plenty of intense subconscious training, and went back to bed.

Dream #2 Such a beautiful body. (TOTM)

Im in a mall walking around and notice a white lady who looked to be, 30 or 40 years old. She looked very attractive, reminded me of Julia Roberts. I sat down at the bench next to her, And reached in my pocket to grab my hawk coin totem. Im rubbing and playing with it thru my knuckles and say..
"Such a beautiful body you have."
I smile thinking about the TOTM. I open my arms and let my self emerge with her.
"Wha..what are you doin!?"
"Sssh, hush now. This real be quick and painless i assure you sweetheart."
"Nooooo!"


I feel myself emerged with hers and feel a slight tingle thruout my entire midsection. I laugh and look on the ground to notice my hawk coin totem has dropped on the ground. I walk hearing my heels tap against the floor as it echoes when i walk. I pick it up, and begin flipping my hawk coin totem in the air, whistling the entire time.


Grow Juggernault grow! (TOTM)

Im still walking thru the mall, and try and find my favorite childhood toy. I stop around and look for a toy store, and find nothing. I grow impatient and decide to summon my favorite childhood toy. I take both my hands and use my mental strength to summon a toy Juggernault. Nothing. I begin getting frustrated and finally yell..
"WOULD MY TOY JUGGERNAULT APPEAR BEFORE ME NOW!!!"

look around and see nothing. Im walking around looking and notice a toy Juggernault standing right in the center of the mall. I smile and command that Juggernault grow, raising both my arms up as i say.

"Grow Juggernault grow, grow Juggernault grow!"
It did not grow until i begin stomping my heels on the ground. Noticing, each time i did so..it grew. I continued stomping on the floor as the Juggernault toy grew in size. I laughed said..
"Grow bigger Juggernault, and do thy bidding!"
The toy Juggernault grew to an incredible stature, And it begin crushing stores and everything begin to become chaotic!

I noticed that the dream started to look a bit unstable and i was looking for my hawk coin totem to rub, and decided to try and rub my hands but the dream had already begin to fade, and i woke up.


6:27 - 6:45 Am. Did a alot of reality checks with my totem. And plenty of subconscious training.

Dream #3 Showdown at Xiaoyu's.


Im at a chinese restaurant. And there is this black dude there causing some problems to this asian lady.
(The black man talking)

"WHERE IS XIAOYU!? WHERE IS SHE!?"

(The asian lady talking)

"I DON'T KNOW!"

I stare at the man from my table, looking at him making sure he does not threaten the woman. he starts to pound at a nearby table, and gets mad breaking it as he pounds it.
I stand up and say something simiar to Bruce lee's quote from enter the dragon.
"The table, does not strike back."
(The black man talking)

"What!? What did you just say!?"

"Only a fool such as yourself, thinks he is stronger than any and everyone he threatens.
Well fight me."
The man looks at me with a shocked look and takes up my challenge.
I tell him let us fight outside in the back alley, he agrees. I take off a white suit shirt i was wearing and take my glasses off and give them to one of the asian women who watched nearby. I am now bare chested and wearing black dress pants and some black shiny dress shoes.

I get in my stance, and so does the black dude who is wearing a black dojo karate uniform. He makes his 1st move and i counter every strike that he throws in my direction.
To make it quick, i glow gold and take both my fist and strike directly toward the guys forehead. He falls backwards and looks knocked outcold. Everybody cheers and i end up the hero. They end up calling the cops on the man and a ambulance.

Meanwhile im putting my shirt on, and noticing a beautiful Asian chic approaching me.
(Asian girl talking)

"Heres your shirt and glasses."

"Thanks."

"Im Xiaoyu."

"Ah, so your the young lady that man has been looking for. You mind telling me why he was looking for you?"

"Its a looong story."

She laughs, and i laugh then i wake up.


Notes: Glad i got a good amount of sleep to finally complete both TOTM. My recall has been great so far, gonna try and keep my sleep pattern the same over the next few days.

- I was standing in the bathroom in my house, and something weird happened, so I did a nose plug RC. It failed and I became lucid. I tried to walk through the wall to get into the hallway, but it didn't work, so I opened the door and walked out. My house looked a bit different. I threw myself at the stairs, trying to fly down for fun, but ended up just falling and slamming into the door at the bottom in slow motion. I stood up and saw my mom and my aunt sitting in the living room, then went in the kitchen and saw my cousin sitting on the floor in a pink outfit, except she was younger, maybe 3 or 4. I...wasn't very lucid yet at this point, and I just sort of kicked her out of the way lol, and she started crying. I went into the living room and guiltily said, "I accidentally hurt her..." and my mom was just like, "oh yeah don't worry, it happens, I do it all the time". I RCed again to be sure, then continued on.

I went into my back yard, but suddenly got self-conscious because for some reason I thought the people I saw outside were there IWL and would see me. I imagined myself going outside when I woke up and asking them if they'd just seen me. A girl in my class who lives near me, LM, was in the yard next door.

The dream suddenly faded and I woke up; I don't know whether I was really awake or not, but I think I was. I moved my arm, then realized that was a bad idea and moved it back. I tried to re-enter the dream, and succeeded after a few seconds. I sat up in bed, did an RC, and stood up. My vision suddenly disappeared, but I forced my eyes open with my hands and it came back. I counted the fingers on one of my hands a few times, and got six each time. Then I went back out into the yard, more lucid this time. I actually managed to walk right through the wall this time, and felt kind of proud when I got through.

Once I was out there, I decided to try some verbal commands. I yelled for the dream to stabilize, and it did make a slight difference. It felt pretty stable. I recalled a post I'd read on DV and yelled, "show me something amazing!" After a few seconds, the colours of the dream started to flicker, then everything was suddenly a rose pink, with a soft round black border at the edges of my vision. I said out loud, "okay, turn it off now, I don't want to see the world through an Instagram filter." xD The colours returned to normal.

I noticed there were a bunch of big, cool birds around the yard. They were probably about 3 or 4 times the size of a pigeon, but with a small pigeon's head and face. Their feathers were really fluffy, some of them were black, and some were blue. I went up to a group of them and said "Oh my god hi, can I touch you?" I reached out towards one of them, but it just made a really pretty cooing noise and shied away from my hand, so I didn't touch it.

I wanted to try and meet someone in my dream, and decided I'd try and go find N. Without even really thinking about how to fly, I started flapping my hands a bit to rise into the air, then started swimming in the air to move. I tried different strokes and stuff to see if I could go faster. It wasn't super fast, but I was okay with it. I started trying to convince myself that N had moved into a house down the street. I flew into the street, but got tangled in the telephone wires, and had to go higher. I reached a house less than a minute away from mine (which really exists) and went inside.

Inside, to the right of the entrance, there was a blueish porch with someone in it. Straight ahead, the rest of the house was very warm looking, with dark reddish wood and yellow-orange walls. Most of the house was risen maybe 1.5 feet above the small area I was standing in, with a tall step to get to it. The main room was pretty empty, and I saw a doorway to what looked like the kitchen in the far right corner. Two very old women came out of it who looked like twins, both dressed in yellow and with long fluffy white hair. I thought to myself that I 'wouldn't be able to find N in here because I knew in my heart it wasn't true', so I left.

Once outside, I rose into the air again and concentrated as hard as I possibly could on the fact that he would be just around the corner a couple blocks down. I started off slowly flying down the street, but sped up as I got to the corner. The thought actually took a lot of energy, but as I rounded the corner, I saw N approaching on a black skateboard. He was wearing a black jacket with red designs on the front and black pants. His eyes widened and he smiled at me, but didn't say anything. I touched down and walked over, then started saying something about how I was pretty sure I was dreaming. I counted the fingers on one hand and there were eight. I gave him a hug, and tried to concentrate on keeping the dream as well, but I felt like my eyes were closing. I could still feel it, but everything faded to black. This lasted for a few seconds.

I 'woke up' into a short FA where I took a notepad and pencil out of my purse and was about to write the dream down, but then woke up for real.


- I also had a short dream earlier, after being awakened by the phone ringing and someone leaving a weird message. I dreamt that I checked the phone to see who it was, and saw a bunch of calls from 'DEBT COLLECTOR' or something similar. I asked my mom about it, and she said, "oh yeah, that's the money I still owe from when I went on a scuba diving trip to make friends with the oysters."

First of all, I am new on this site. So Hello Everybody! Before I write down my first dream I want to share with You I should point out that English is not my native language. So please don't offend me for little mistakes.

I got this dream with a MILD and WBTB attempt which failed. It was totally non-lucid.
Now onto the dream:

I was on a bus with some of my friends going to a hotel or some sort of house. Then I found myself in my hotel room which was almost identical to my real room. Me and my friends wanted to lucid dream that night. So we went to sleep. I tried to WILD and MILD in my dream! Here is the Interesting part: I had a dream in the one i wrote above (very much like Inception )! I dreamt that I was lucid in my dream inside the other one. Of course I wasn't really lucid. So I found myself in a big glass-room full of vases, bushes, trees and stairs. My friends were there, too. We wanted to have a great gunfight. One of us even told that we can't get injured because we're dreaming! I replied: We shouldn't do such things in our first lucid dream because we will maybe feel pain (just like in Inception, again ). So we decided to try out smaller things first. We then went through a restroom-like corridor. There a tall guard scanned us with a metal detector. Nobody got caught . On the other end of the corridor there was a part of a typical English town. It was like Christmas with lamps, decorations and a lot of snow. Near some tall buildings there was a small park. I went there with my best friend. I know that to conjure things in LDs it's easier to imagine a thing hidden somewhere and then find it so maybe the next scene was be because of this --» My friend then walked to a bush and picked up a handgun from the ground. Then he wanted to conjure a whole soccer team. (weird... ) In the next minute a whole soccer team arrived from the street next to the park. I got my headset out of my ears and wanted to get a minigun. So I imagined that I'm in the game Left 4 Dead killing zombies with a shotgun . I also heard that to stabilize a LD you should use all your senses so I started punching the zombies. Maybe this was the reason. At first it felt like my sleeping dream body was doing the same motion. My hands didn't really want to move. Then I had a rest for a while and the punches felt like real punches once again. At the end of a corridor full of zombies I found a chest. In it was the Minigun! Then I woke up (still in my dream body ). I talked to a friend about the dream in my room then I went to sleep again. Like previously I tried to MILD. I woke up again, I didn't have a dream in the dream now. This time I was talking to 2 of my friends in the living room of the hotel about LDs. And I went to sleep once again. I woke up, then I saw one of my friends (again...) with my dog. The was an other dog like mine but it was slightly bigger. There were 2 cats, too. I hard some whispering behind me and when I turned around I saw a wet cat. It stood like an aggressive statue and one of its eyes was blue, the other red. Then my friend said we had to go. I went out of the room and finally woke up in REAL LIFE.

This dream was one of the most vivid dreams I have ever had.
Luckily, I know where most of the dream sings may come from (like the cats, dogs, the English town and the hotel).

I am still a newbie to LDing but I practice RCs, MILDing, dream recall, WBTB and even WILD regularly. I have practiced meditation for about half a year now so maybe if I consider WILDing more seriously this will come in handy.
I will hopefully find some time to update my DJ and profile in the future.