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Head in my mommas lap. she was stoking my hair like when I was a child. View of myself in a pavilion by a river. Not my momma anymore but a beautiful woman. So comforting. Peaceful. I hear an Angelic voice whisper "salvation" over and over. I jolt awake.

So let me walk you through what I did yesterday night. (End of streak to 6 )

I decided to try the technique that gave me my first and only LD: The Yell And Be Mad At Yourself technique. Basicly I go in my room and start talking about how I cant seem to LD and telling myself to RC and such. It worked the first time

So I go to sleep and try to stay pissed off so its my last though before sleeping. I still try to relax and, without even wanting it, I start seeing blue in my eyes. It starts as blue, then there's a voice that is saying stuff in my head. Not just a whisper; a very clear, solid, manly voice. Also there appears to be a creepy music in the back. My first though is that my parents are watching the TV too loud. But then patterns start appearing. The form was some kind of spiky circle. I dont know what the name of the shape is. So im starting to realize I may be in SP. My heartbeat starts racing. I also felt something in my eye, some kind of tingle. Although the voice is creepy, im not scared. Hell ive been trying so hard to SP im not chickening out anytime soon. Then I stopped, because I know its impossible to dream before going to bedand im tired. Besides, I never wanted to WILD in the first place! But before sleeping, I get up and go around the house. Both parents sleeping, NO TV, NO COMPUTER. HELL YEAH! Im hallucinating! Yipee! And even if the TV was on, you cant ignore patterns and colors.

Note: This is really weird. To keep my mind awake, I started singing the song by The AA Rejects, Gives you hell. And for like a splitsecond, it felt real. It was loud, and I could hear it as clear if I was listening for real. Is that common?

Now this morning, I noticed something: My YABMAY technique not only did nothing, but completely fucked up my recall. I remember absolutely nothing, but it was to be expected. Stress and nervouseness decreases recall, I heard. I tried to see if I could go in SP again at 7 and saw blue, but no voice or pattern.

Now heres my questions:
Was I really in SP? Im used to thinking it is sleep paralysis while it is only numbness.

The first time, I was sleeping on my stomach (my reg position) but in the morning I tried on my back. Any impact?

7 is the time when Im simply not tired enough to fall asleep. At that time, I know going back to sleep is not an option. But if I try WILD in the morning, maybe my body couldnt fall asleep? After all, my mind cant.

Can YABMAY do any good? Is there a "right" way to do it so it doesnt mess up my recall?

Im thinking of turning more of my attention on WILD. I dont like going to bed not knowing wether I will have an LD or not. Luck isnt a big friend of mine. Is spending more time on WILD a mistake?

TY

BTW: Im gonna see Adam Lambert in person backstage this weekend! Wish me luck

Non-Dream Non-lucid Lucid

I feel like i've made a breakthrough. During my holiday, something just clicked. In my dreams, I've began to just "know" that i'm dreaming, it's hard to explain It doesn't happen everytime I dream obviously, but it's progress and I'm happy for it .

So last nights dream (or one of them anyway) done this and it was pretty damn awesome (at least to me anyway haha ) I can't quite remember how it started but I'll try and piece it together.

I'm at a party for my friend Rachel. She's just had her room decorated and for some reason a ton of people have came to help her celebrate. They've all brought loads of gifts. Rachel doesn't know what to do with them all, so she puts them in the attic. Later during tIhe party, we decide to go see them all. Leaving the party, we ascend a large, white stone staircase that is deffinatly not part of her house. We're outside now, and keep climbing the staircase.

Soon we reach the top and a white and gold There's alot of white and gold things in this dream. angel smiles at us. We smile back and keep moving. All the gifts are placed in neat rows, for some reason they're all the same. A grey dwarf from Disney, most likely Grumpy. We move in and out of the rows, then get bored and head back towards the staircase. The Angel is in the middle and once we climb on, she moves the staircase to the floor because it's shrunk a little.

Once at the bottom, I somehow know that i'm dreaming.

I forget to stabilize and RC, but the dream is fine anyway. Maybe it would've been clearer if I had. I forget about Rachel and look at the sky. It's nighttime, but cloudy. I wish I could see the stars. I seem to be really instinctive during this lucid, because I smile and jump. I take off flying, it's so amazing.

I pass through the clouds quickly, and see the stars. But i'm flying fast and they're getting closer and closer. I don't want to spend this lucid in space. I've only flown a few times so my control is a little off, but I manage to twist around and stop. I float, looking at the grey clouds underneath me, and decide to change the world.

I fly towards the clouds, and pass straight through a storm. Then I get close enough to earth so that everything's like a patchwork quilt. I throw my hand out and in a flash, it's changed. Not the way I want it though, so I do it again. Suddenly it's daytime and down below is sand and palm trees, I fly down to take a look.

I land in the sand and look around. Between the trees, there are gigantic moths everywhere, sucking things out of the sand. This is deffinetly not where I want to be, so I fly up again. I really think about where I want to go, and when I snap my hand out, I think of medevil times. I fly down, and Rachel and I (who magically appeared again ) are in a green forest. We're not in medievil times but I don't really care, I want to explore.

We find bikes nearby, and head off. On the edge off the forest there looks like a ditch. It's actually a river traveling. We cycle beside it and follow it downstream. Soon it forks to the right into a lake. There's a guy walking around on the water (I found if I cycle fast enough I can cycle on the water too). I whisper to Rachel; "Ok, I'm going to "fall in" accidently of course, and then he's going to rush over and save me and everything will go from there." He was pretty damn hot. Longish dark hair and pale skin. Been dreaming about this guy alot recently. He pops up from time to time. But as I watch him, Miley Cirus appears on a jet-ski. She "falls in" and he rushes over to save her. I get off the bike and stand, open mouthed. I curse her for getting there first and Rachel pats my back sympathetically I know I could've attempted to blast Miley to pieces but I want some drama in my dreams! "Bloody Miley Cirus, Hannah Montana, whatever." I wonder out loud if he'll think she's shallow. I tell Rachel the plan might still work, she objects.

Out of nowhere, tigers appear from behind the trees. Well I have to weapons and no battle experience so I decide not to take on a bunch of hungry, snarling tigers. "Run!"

I try to dodge around the tiger but it's having none of it. Rachel runs in the opposite direction. "What the hell." I mutter, and throw myself into the dark river.

"Nicole, no!!" Rachel shouts in panic. "Not the water! Anything could be down there!"

I roll my eyes and swim forwards. I'd rather risk a few fish than a few giant tigers. The tiger that was trying to eat me is hanging over the edge of the bank, not wanting to go in. It seems afraid of the water. I look forward and find out why. There are huge fish, with equally huge snapping teeth, swimming toward me.

"What the fuck is safe around here!" I snarl and try to grab the edge of the banking, but it's too high. The fish are coming pretty damn fast.

Suddenly, someone grabs my legs and throws me up. I land with an oomph on the soft grass. I tiger comes to mind and I throw my body over so I can see everything and be prepared. There's no need, they're dead. I here a noise to my right and scrabble to the left as fast as i can.

"Hey! It's ok, it's ok, you're safe now."

It's the boy who was walking around on the water. He's on the grass beside me, blood splattered. I don't know whether it's his or the tigers. I edge myself over to him, we lie on the grass, I'm calming myself down and he's just watching me.

After about a minute, I lean on one elbow and study him. Yup, definatly the guy who's been in my dreams. He mirrors my poster and does the same, studying me.

"Thank you." I whisper. "What happened to Miley?" She's nowhere to be seen.

"I don't know, I got to you as fast as possible. I can't let you die." He said quietly. "She's rather shallow anyway."

I smile at that, and analyze what he said. Can't let me die? I'm dreaming, although maybe he doesn't know that. He feels a bit like a protector of some sort. I'm about to ask why he can't let me die, but he makes a choking sound. I look over him and see a large, bloody gash in his shirt. My eyes widen.

"Oh, gosh I didn't see that." He clutched the wound. "Maybe I can-"

"No," He interupted. "It's too late." He takes deep breaths, but they're laboured. His voice barely rises over a whisper. "Come here. I need you to do something for me."

I lean over, so his lips are close to my ear. He passes something into my hand. It a thin, white and gold dagger. "You need to kill them. It's dangerous, but you need to kill them." He shudders.

"Who," I ask softly, stroking his hair, comforting him. It's the least I can do. "Who do I need to kill?"

After a few breaths, he says; "Follow the river, you'll see..." Then he looks me in the eyes. His are a perfect, clear blue. I know he's close to dying. I ache silently.

He sweeps some of my hair away from my face, and then kisses me. I seem to be getting alot of kisses whilest dreaming, not that i'm complaining Then he moves his lips to my ear and whispers; "I'll find you."

He takes his last few shakey breathes, then lays his head on the grass, and dies.

I gaze at his body for awhile. Then at the dagger. Maybe he's an angel, they all seem to be white and gold. I pick up his dagger. The thin gold that snakes it's way across the hilt is clean of blood. I get up, and follow the river. After awhile, I find it stops, and there's a dark hole. I climb in and end up in a damp, dark tunnel. It's large, with pipes running along it.

There's a group huddled together at the end of the tunnel. The dagger glows ever so slightly. I've to use it to kill them. Nothing else can kill them, I know that much. I feel determined, this is what I've to do. I slash a pipe and direct the hot steam towards the group. They scream and scatter. They see me and run towards me.

I slash at one at cut through hard bone. This dagger will cut through anything. They're going to overwhelm me though. I turn and run. There's a red, rusted chainlink fence. I cut through it and suddenly, my vision is darkening. The dream is ending.

But I need to kill the bastards!! I spin, but it ends anyway.

Now I have a new goal Imma kill the dark creatures.

I just realized I forgot to post this one here. It's been in my main DJ.

The dream that I remembered is a bit fragmented. I remember being in a room with a bunch of people, but there were two guys there that seemed more prominent than the rest. Later in the dream Joe and I were driving to school in his truck. It was really rainy and gross outside. We go inside the building and we see the two guys there again. One of the guys is blonde and the other has brown hair. One of them is wearing a yellow shirt. They were going to show us something in the school but we followed them in circles around a large group of people and lost sight of them. Joe and I get back in the car and wait for a few friends. It's still raining and the car starts to drive itself. We're pretty freaked out.

Later in the dream there was something about them asking a girl (which could have been Ana) to dinner, but there was something really malicious about it. I arrive at dinner late and they bust out the cameras and take pictures of all of us. In the end of the dream there was something about Joe and I in the top room of my house. We were looking out of the window through the blinds watching this girl and one of the two guys dancing together.

In real life, Ana wakes up and tells us about a dream she had of two guys (we were sharing a hotel room). I asked her if one of them had blonde hair and the other had brown hair and she said that they did. She also remembers the yellow shirt, being toured the school, eating in a cafeteria, and dancing at prom with one of them.

I had this dream (or series of interconnected dreams) this night, when I fell asleep from 6:00AM-5:00PM. I had used autosuggestion very loosely, so I'll call it a DILD.

Technique used: DILD
Length: 45 min

lucid non-lucid not a dream

I forgot a lot of the dream (I didn't write it in my RL DJ, and wasn't able to type this part till now, a good 6 hours later) but I do remember fragments. Also, it's good to note that I was starving when I went to sleep.

So, the dream started with a lot of my brother driving and a few of my cousins, we all hung out, and then we had to drive to get some food at my aunts. We got there, and there was a teleporter somewhere. I think I used the teleporter to teleport to my next dream scene.

This next part was all extremely vivid. I walked from my mom's car to a restaurant with her and my dad. My dad and I walked to the staff room (for a good reason I can't remember), which ended up being a large windowed room, with three layers of windows till there was the outside. I thought of doing a reality check, since that was weird. It was odd though, my reality check failed, but I still had the feeling I was in a dream. I tried two more times, and it sort of worked, but I realized I must be in a dream anyway.

I wasn't very lucid, because of the shoddy RCs I think, but I was with my dad, and I knew that it could be the real him in the dream world, so I told him I was in a dream, that we were in a dream. He said he knew. I asked him if he realized that that meant we could do anything, and he said no we can't (I think). I tried to break a glass window, but it didn't break. My dad said something about it, and I told him I could cut it with my fingers.

I put my finger to the glass and did a very shitty circle, cutting it through. I broke that part off, then broke off the rest mentally. My dad tried as well, but instead broke it physically when he was done. For some reason doing this interested me a lot, and after talking to him a little bit about dreams, I kept doing this with the windows until I lost lucidity and found myself back in the restaurant with my dad.

It was a FA, I told him I just had a dream, and he was in it. I asked him what he did in his dream. He said he was with me, but he was at our basement or something, and we were making holes in the tiling. He added some other info, about us both knowing it was a dream, and I concluded it was a shared dream, but not a very good connection.

I woke up, and fell back asleep.

I was in a different place in the restaurant, and I did another RC. Shoddy again, but I still realized I was dreaming. My dad was with me, and we were atop a spiral staircase, all white, with a very interesting curvy railing. I saw a baby girl sitting at the very end of the railing, and I decided to go grab her, I was about to slide to the bottom, when I FA'd again in the restaurant with my mom and dad.

I don't remember what happened after that, but after a minute or so I woke up IRL. It was very interesting, and I felt that my dad was actually there. It seems to me that I kept switching from the astral plane into my dream world, and that in the astral plane, RCs don't work as well, or the vividness throws me off, and I only was with my dad in the astral plane.

I'll ask my dad what he dreamed about and see if we made a connection, and I'll update this accordingly.

EDIT: I talked to him. He said it happened. He remembered a great deal more than I did. We also got high together, had sex with some people and he said We fell right after the glass building thing. That was when I lost lucidity, so I was probably a DC at that point, otherwise I would have flown, or at least remembered it from terror. He remembered nothing about a restaurant, he said that never happened. I find it pretty probable that I met up with him in the astral plane, and that the other parts where I wasn't lucid was in my inner dream world or something.

This is my first successful (remembered) shared dream.

08/09/10



I'm standing in the shadows, talking quietly with the owner of a tavern. I lean casually against the open door frame, and the owner seems nervous, as if he'd very much like to tell me to leave. I ask him for information on my target, an older man who knows secrets that someone is paying to keep hidden.

The front door slams open, and most of the bar turns to look. My target is standing at the center of attention, panting. He looks around nervously.

I put a finger to my lips, warning the owner to keep silent, and step back into the night. Remotely, I see the man look at the open side door, before shaking his head and descending the stairs at the center of the room. I walk into the bar, through the front door this time. The target turns around and eyes me suspiciously, but my dark brown cloak is unremarkable, and I'm making my way to the bar.

When he turns a corner, I'm down the stairs after him. I see him slip into the dormitories, the beds that the tavern rents out, and I enter the room after him. He's not there. Unconcerned, I head towards the bed that an old woman, who used to work for the tavern, said was his the last time he stayed here. I strip the bed and see subtle signs of stitching at the seams. I rip into the mattress, sending stuffing across the room, and taking what's hidden there.

The stack of papers is old, but well preserved. I focus on the title.

These are the carvings of the things I saw.

The rest of the information needs to be translated. I carefully place the manuscript in my bag and fasten it shut, slinging the bag across my shoulder.

The old man must have escaped through the Shadow Ways (portals?), but I have what I need. I walk down the hallway and find an exact copy of the room I just left. I think about searching it, but decide that the phenomenon is entirely normal, since this is a dream.

What one person will pay to keep hidden, others will go to any length to reveal. Curious and excited, I take the stairs to the main floor, ready to meet my contact.

Questions. Scare Factor: 2.

I didn't get to find out what the manuscript was, and I wasn't lucid even though I knew I was dreaming. What a frustrating ending.

In last night's dream I was a well-known and famous PI, I was sometimes called both: a "Young Jane Marple" or a female "Sherlock Homes". I was known throughout 3 countries: Canada, U.S.,and the U.K. I was vacationing in Britain (like ALL book detectives I sometimes get involved in mysteries when I am vacationing called "A Bus man's Holiday" or in Tom and Liz's words "We don't find trouble---trouble finds us." ) when I was called at 5:00 in the morning about a body being find in a library in a nearby manor house. I went to the house and the first thing I did was asks "Is the victim man or woman?" One of the people there says "We don't know miss!"and then did the military salute. I looked at the privates and says "woman" . I than asks the doctor "How long has she been dead?" the doctor said: "I don't know Ma'am. I will say maybe 6-9 hours." (military salute). Than I noticed the victim's belly was huge, but not huge in terms of overweight or obese-but in pregnancy. For some reason nobody could figure out how she was killed). I asks "who discovered the body?" a severant girl said "Miss, I discover the body" When I was waiting for the Master & Mrs. to meet me, I noticed a family picture on the well that had 2 girls (twins). The one on the left was who looked like the victim. When the Mrs. looked at the body, she recognize the woman, as a long-lost daughter. The other daughter was away at her boyfriend's place.

This morning I experienced sleep paralysis for the first time. That led into what is either a lucid dream or an out of body experience, depending on how one wants to look at it. It started as a normal dream; I was at a friends house and we were playing with our pets. I laid down on the floor and closed my eyes, to rest I guess, not sure. Then I heard this loud mumbling sound in my ear. I thought it was just my friend messing with me, he jokes around like that. I swatted above my head to swat him away but there was nothing there. The noise stopped when I swatted and I think that is when I realized I was dreaming. I just lay there with my eyes closed and before long it happened again, it felt like someone's face was right above my ear making a mummbling sound. When I tried to swat I couldnt move my arm. I recognized this as sleep paralysis and knew what was happening. When a person experiences sleep paralysis they cant move and it is common for them to have hallucinations like mummbling or incoherent talk.

With difficulty I did manage to raise my hand and swat. Again there was nothing and the noise stopped. Again I just lay there and before long that feeling was back but this time there was a panting in my ear like a dog panting. Not only could I hear it, I could also feel the dog's breath on the side of my face. For a second I thought it might actually be my dog but then I decided that was very unlikely because this panting is another common hallucination. I tried to open my eyes but I could only open them up a crack and couldnt see much. When I tried to sit up I felt something pressing down on my back, it felt like the front legs of a large dog. As I continued straining to rise there was a strange and uncomfortable sensation in my back. I think Ive felt that sensation before, maybe when I was under the influence of salvia. With considerable effort I finally managed to sit up, and when I did I saw myself still laying there in my house where I sleep. My body had its eyes open and was looking in my direction but I couldnt tell if it was really looking at me.

With a little more effort I was completely separated from my body. I was elated to be LDing, or something similar, again. I tried flying right there in my house. With a couple of hops I was up and floating next to the ceiling. I flew through straight through a closed window with no problem and I was out and up. I barely cleared the top of a sweetgum tree by my house as I headed south-west. As I cleared the top of the tree I called out "Guru Rinpoche are you here?" because I decided last week that the next time I had a lucid dream I would try to locate this deity. This is the second LD in a row where I have had the presence of mind to pursue a spiritual goal. I saw my dad's tractor and I saw neighbors' houses and other familiar things. It was lovely! There were dark, stormy looking clouds to the west and for a second I felt concerned about lightning but then decided nothing could harm me. After flying just a short distance I started to lose altitude. Through a large force of will I shot up higher into the sky, up into dark clouds where I could see nothing but very dark gray. I wanted to keep the ground in view so I dove down out of the cloud. Once below the clouds I again began to crash and this time came all the way down to the ground in a forced landing. I was in the field west of my house but not as far from the house as I had actually flown. I tried to fly again and this caused me to wake up. When I woke it was 9:30am, about the time I usually get up. In the future when I am forced out of the sky like that Im not going to try flying again, maybe that will make the dream last longer.

Notes:
This sounds like an out of body experience, however there are things that might be taken as evidence to the contrary. Last week I got a hair cut, but this morning when I saw my physical body in the dream it still had long hair. In the dream there were dark storm clouds in the west, but when I woke up and looked outside the sky was clear in all directions. In the dream I saw my dad's tractor in a place it probably wasnt, however its possible I confused this for another tractor that might have actually been in use at that location at the time of the dream because when I woke up there was a man cutting our field. In the dream the sweetgum tree had some red and orange leaves like it does in early autumn, however right now the tree is all green.

The thing pressing me down is an interesting topic itself. People have reported such phenomena for centuries. In the past they usually thought it was a demon or witch. Was it trying to keep me in my body? The noises and panting might have been attempts to wake me? Maybe its just a phenomenon with out purpose?

Brandon
8-9-2010

WHOOOOO! i WILDed on my first try! well, technically my first try, i had tried to WILD several times before going to bed, but they were all doomed to fail so they don't count. i woke up at 8, took the dogs out, then went back to bed and tried to WILD. i tried on my left side, back and right, finally settling on my right side. i waited a while, and i had this extreme uncomfortable feeling, like i really wanted to move. i didn't realize it till afterwards that it was my body testing to see if i was awake. unfortunately, i don't remember actually going into the dream, i forgot the beginning, which was probably a minute or two. i do remember cars, and a road though. where it does begin however, the detail was amazing. it was the most clear and realistic lucid ive ever had, i didn't loose lucidity once. it "starts" on a busy street, im standing behind this SUV, and i was gonna try something. in real life, ive always wanted to ride on the roof of a car, holding onto the rails where you attach the bikes lol.
it kinda looked like this:

maybe a darker green. anyway, i wanted to lay on the roof, and ride it lol. but in the background was a enormus city, like a futuristic city, it was really far away, almost fading into the atmosphere. i started to fly, i was either gonna fly to the city, or fly up into space, but i thought to myself "nahh, i fly all the time" and landed. i then grabbed the rails of the SUV, as soon as it started going. for some reason, my feet just kinda dragged behind me, i never got to ride on top. then it turned into this parking lot outside a building, and my feet stayed where they were, but i kept going. it was weird, like my legs were stretchy or something. after that, i got off, and remembered my ultimate goal: to find my dream guide. so i went inside, it was like a Chinese place, i think it was like a nail salon or something, it had very dim lighting. i saw a DC and decided to ask her where my dream guide was, i think she was an employee or owner. this was how the conversation went:
Me: "hey, you wouldn't happen to know where my dream guide is would you?"
Her: "whats a dream guide?"
Me: "well, it's kinda your subconscious, like in a DC"
she then said something like "well, your subconscious is a very complicated place, you could find her anywhere..." i think she said more, but i don't remember. then this blonde woman walked past me, i walked up to her and asked "you're probably not my dream guide. are you?" she said "no", to my disappointment. so then i followed her upstairs, and did some other "stuff", not gonna go into detail on that . i then woke up, but i stayed still, and then after about 10 seconds, my body started vibrating, and started to DEILD. my eyes were closed, but i could see my window. there was a lot of trees outside my window, with oval shaped leaves, right outside my window, which don't exist in real life. i was trying to decide if i recognized those types of leaves, not even thinking about the trees themselves lol. i sat up, almost deciding that it was a dream. then the damn phone rang. my parents have the phones set up so that they can ring the one outside my bedroom whenever they want me to come here. it rang in the dream and i immediately sprung up and ran downstairs. i found my mom standing in the office, telling me to start mowing the grass near the pantry. i was confused, i visualized my backyard, and estimated where the pantry would be. my mom asked "are you ok?" i think i said yes, not sure. i then woke up for real, and kicked myself for not becoming lucid. thats all i remember.

I''l put the dreams from the last 2 nights in the same entry

8/9

can't remember why but I looked at my left hand and I had too many fingers, failed a nose RC then checked my hand again - still manky, became lucid. Was in a room which was supposed to be my parents it was very dark. I touched the cupbords and whatever else I could reach to stabilize the dream, it worked. I left the room and was in G's house I walked to the playroom but didn't see anyone, I walked back towards G's room to see if B was there as I approached the room the dream faded.

Later that night I had a non-lucid dream in the same house, this time there were lots of DC's including a beautiful woman who was totally into me. I felt like I was cheating by being with here and tried to hide what we were up to. We kissed in the playroom and them made plans to meet in G's bedroom, she wanted me to stay another day but I said no. I went through the kitchen on the way to G's room and B was making breakfast in the kitchen. Eventually I'm in G's room with the woman and we have sex, B is there and she is giving me instructions - LOL

Nap: I'm travelling in Africa and am in charge of some teams, Dad and me split the teams mixing them. S was there.

9/9

We're visiting houses from a news story? We go into a house that I know in the dream world it is a very poor area, the house has yellow and blue walls. We're invited to sit down and I notice 2 of those buzzy magnet things on a table. I remember someone mentioning them in the inception totem thread and realize im dreaming. Do a hand RC and fail but know I'm dreaming so I do a nose RC and I can breathe. I touch some things to stabilize and walk toward the kitchen where the old lady host went. As I get to the kitchen I start loosing the dream, in desperation I close my eyes and spin and fall, I get up in the living room again and head toward the kitchen the dream fades again this time I can't stabilize it .

Later I'm fetching L from school but the building is different as I get to the gate I realize this is a dream, I RC and become Lucid. I touch the gate to stabilize. I go into the classroom but there are no DC's. I decide to walk through the door to transition to somewhere else, I walk through the door without opening it and simply am outside the school. K is sitting outside and I decide to see what kissing feels like. I put my hands through here hair to help stabilize and kiss her. It feels ok - not amazing. I loose the dream - probably because I closed my eyes.

I lie dead still after waking and slide back into the dream, this time I'm fetching P. I'm lucid from the beginning but loose the dream waking up after a few seconds .

fragments: Africa again, S is there, Trip to Russian or Turkey?

I've been writing my dreams down but haven't been updating here so here goes.

3/8

something about a juvenile prison, that is just a deterrent and me and some other DC's trying to escape over the roof.

Hectic meeting with some people I work with about some stuff that they are doing wrong, everything comes out into the open and they both admit to wrong doing. One of them admits to having an a affair.

Can't remember the significance of the rest of my notes:
D watering his plants
neighbors flat - holiday
railing kid safe
gay guy
talk to guy about flat windows

4/8

Long dream about moving into a flat in Pretoria. C doesn't like the courtyard I'm explaining that the plants have just been planted and they need to grow, it's like a formal garden with hedges. The flat is in a really nice building and we can afford it but we're looking for a cheper place that's just as nice.
There is a strange bouncy walkway with red carpets, I think CT is there.
Later F and some others are sitting at chairs in the courtyard i go and talk to them.
Later there is a swimming pool in the courtyard and I'm swimming, staying underwater for very long periods. Suddenly theres acid in the water and it burns me. I get out and the burns continue to get worse E is in the dream at some stage.

notes that don't make sense:
flyers for church
bikes, new tire
watering grass
buildings

Later I'm chasing something with the help of a bloodhound

5/8

Playing golf with K at Unicorn golf club

I'm at a mall with T and W. We are in the part of the mall that is only used by employees. It turns into a factory/mall, we are spies. We are running away and someone goes through a "baggage slot". At some point we're in a bathroom and I p on T - LOL

Also at some point in the mall we are comedians and we are ripping on a group of people for coming to do something lame - to do with strangling a lady, only thats not a bad thing and the lady doesn't mind. I tell the group that they should "not be themselves" this was apparently a witty diss.

6/8

I'm teaching people about a healing technique which has to do about the other universe (too much fringe )

In a hotel room with sex stuff going on, S and V are involved as well as K. K tries to make a fool out of me. There is lots of alcohol involved.

7/8

Was in my old SL house with C and P can't remember if L was there. Played on the giant rock with P.
Tried to stop C from seeing me in the photos inside the house.

Nap: Parrot with a broken beek and metal prosthetic. Golf club Dad and L are there. Pool with Alex, Andre and Ant - LOL

I was starting to get worried about not having another LD since my first. Then 2 nights ago I had one and last night I had 3!!!! Two were DILD's (MILD) and one was a DEILD (WILD). I'll update this post later today when I get home just wanted to share the excitement.

18.07.2010

"We can't give the Sword of a Thousand Truths to a NOOB!" (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I haven't had a World of Warcraft-based dream in a while! Serenity should like this one.

I was exploring a frozen wilderness with some sort of companion who I cannot now remember. Whoever it was, was female. We were off at the side of a road, peering into a small cave which led underneath the road itself. It was a clear day, but bitterly cold. My companion told me the Lich King was likely to be in the vicinity, and that was the cause of the low temperature. I was a little concerned, but something glinting in a frozen pond just inside the cave caught my attention. I couldn't quite focus on it, even after focefully blinking a few times. I looked at my hand. It was completely fucked. A few fingers were melded into one, and several were missing altogether. Now more confident, I stepped over to the frozen pond to investigate. Beneath the ice was a sword. But not just any sword. I recognised it immediately as the one belonging to the Lich King himself. It was a huge two-hander, and the blade was glowing with a freezing blue aura. I punched though the ice and pulled it out. The handle was unbelievably cold.

I ran out of the cave with it, and found myself on a frozen lake. Then I remembered the last time I had seen this sword. I was watching the opening video for the WoW expansion- Wrath of the Lich King. The Lich King had used it to summon an enormous skeletal dragon. It was a lightbulb moment. I raised the sword high above my head, and thrust it down into the ice. The whole area started to shake, and cracks formed, zigzagging out from the sword. I stepped back cautiously. I'll post a video which basically shows just what happened.


Watch from 1:20

The dragon's head burst through the ice right below where I was standing, which threw me hundreds of metres up in the air. I got that roller coaster falling-feeling that I hate, so I slowed time down a bit to watch the dragon's emergence in slow motion. It clambered out of the ice, and I noticed that instead of the blue innards it had in that awesome video, it was glowing purple. I timed my fall carefully, and landed on its back, between the shoulder blades. I grasped two small bones in its neck, and pulled backwards. The dragon flapped its enormous wings and flew straight up. I leant forward and it flew forward. I think I forgot I was dreaming for the rest of this, but I flew around for a while burning settlements and decimating armies with the dragon's purple flame-breath.

August 8, 2010

Darren's car
My dad and I were in a shop. I could see through a glass wall into the next door shop. I saw Darren there, sitting at a table. I recall my dad was sitting across from me (against the glass), and he was saying something to me, but I kept getting distracted, looking over at Darren, and just saying things like, "Oh yeah?" really distractedly to him

We all left at the same time (including Darren). My dad and I were coming down the right of way lane, and he mashed the breaks because Darren nearly cut us off. My dad comments, "Just cos he's rich, doesn't mean he owns the road!" And my dad keeps inching along, trying to force Darren's car back... but Darren isn't giving up either!

Me, I'm just worried about the paint job on both cars. Our two cars were an inch away from scraping each other. I stuck my hand out in between the cars so they wouldn't scrape. I gave Darren a reproachful look, and he smiled at me

Later on, I found his fan page on facebook. I dashed off a quick message saying, something like, "Hey, I'm the girl from the car, earlier."

Darren contacted me. "Thanks for worrying about the paint job, but you really shouldn't have used your hand... you could have crushed it, and then I'd have been really upset!"

Danny Fragment, 1
Danny (my DG) and I were sitting on the porch of his house in my inner world. It was sunset and we had our guitars out with us. "I wish you would practice the guitar more, in waking life," Danny said.

Danny Fragment, 2
Danny, Darren and I were in this volcano-like cave. There were explosions and lava happening around us, and we were trying to get out. Darren was the one holding my hand.

29.05.2010

Superlucid Musical (WBTB)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was woken up and went back to sleep three or four times this morning, so lots of mini WBTB's. My memory of them has really gone down the shitter though, due to other dreams and the time between then and now.



I remember already being lucid in a kind of mall. It was extremely bright. The walls and roof were made of glass with a steel frame. The roof was pretty damn high above me, and there were lots of little white columns and platforms on top of most of the shops. My friend Hugh was beside me. I turned to him and said,
"Dreaming aye?"
"Yep," he replied. I told him I wanted to do the task of the month, even though there was only like a day left. (Jump off a skyscraper) I reckoned that if I could fly up to the top of the highest columns, I could maybe get out onto the roof and see if there were any skyscrapers nearby. Hugh and I flew gently up in the air towards one of the taller columns. I didn't quite make it to the top, but I grabbed onto some rungs on the side. I surprised myself with the clarity of my thoughts here. I knew I had been completely lucid for a decent while, and had no difficulty remembering details from waking life. Then Jess shifted beside me, and the dream crumbled. I percieved that I was back in bed, but desperately clung to a feeling of disassociation to try to DEILD. I "moved" around and grabbed the rungs of the ladder as much as I could, focusing not on my real body, but the dream body. Not to blow my own trumpet or anything, but it took quite a lot of concentration! Pulled it off, I was back in. I drummed on the column with my fists in jubilation. The realism astounded me again- this was kind of like going back to my first few lucid dreams, wonderment-wise. Just a few seconds ago I had been lying in bed, but now here I was, seemingly physically somewhere completely different, banging my fists on a surreal column-platform thing, which appeared for all intents and purposes, completely real.

Those moments of super-lucidity really are great. When you are 100% you, not some quasi-self, slightly warped by the dream world. I was me in the Matrix. Unbeatable realism.

I think I gave up on climing to the roof, it got a little difficult and I was having trouble flying. (Lack of control sometimes seems to go hand in hand with hyper-realism for me) I ended up back on the ground, looking down the other end of the mall. A set of very tall doors looked to open up into a type of ballroom. I decided to investigate, and started running towards the doors. As I did, music started playing. It was a brass band or something. The floor was shiny through the doors, so I dropped to my knees and slid through, arms open wide. In mid-slide, someone tossed me a microphone, and I caught it, jumping to my feet. I was on stage in an auditorium. There were two galleries full of people near the roof at the other end of the room, and on the floor between them was a massive fountain. Behind me was the band. I instinctively started singing. The band backed me up. I was literally just singing whatever came into my head, but for some reason I was hyper-creative and the song just seemed to flow. It became a continuous medley of songs from the 80's. I remember YMCA was definitely in there. As for the rest, I wish I could remember more of the song, it was brilliant. It was a proper musical performance. The audience loved it, and cheered wildly.



When I finished the song I bowed, and reminded myself that I was still asleep. I thought,
"No doubt Jess will wake up soon, she's an early riser." It was strange. I visualised the sight of her lying in bed- as in, just imagined it. But the act of doing so made it real. I wasn't just thinking about it, it became part of the dream and caused a false awakening. I got out of bed and started typing this up.

Makes me wonder. Can we have a visual imagination in a dream? Surely that ability is already maxed out with the creation of the dream itself. Is it possible to imagine something in there and not have it become real in some form? Puzzling.