non-lucid

My lucids have been brief and hazy ever since I got this cold. I keep coughing which wakes me up too much in between REM cycles, making DEILDing nearly impossible. But I still get random DILDs, so neh, I can't complain.

This morning I slept in, and i had a dream that I was in one of the large bathrooms at SMU Meadows School of the Arts. (In real life, it's a long bathroom with tons of sinks, long mirrors, and even showers at the end. I would use them alot when I was at SMU because it was close to the dressing rooms, and really convenient before and after performances and rehearsals.) The weird twist though was I was in the MEN'S one. (Kinda backwards now that I think of it, because I remember my gay guy friends always hung out with ME in the women's one irl lol). Anyway, I was just leaning back on one row of sinks, watching these two guys chitchat with eachother. I noticed one of them was a friend of mine from a few years ago, named Jake. I'm just watching them talk, and suddenly I think to myself "Why am I in the men's room?! DOH! Lucid." So I took my friend Jake's hand and we went outside. (In real life, Jake had been badly burned as a child, all over his chest and stomach. He had extensive skin grafting, so the skin was all wrinkled and off colored. I always felt bad for him, he was such a nice guy. But he had a good attitude about it. He never let it get him down, and it didn't stop us from doing it once, and he was comfortable enough to take his shirt off and let me see and feel the scars.) However, since I was aware this was a lucid dream, I told Jake that I was going to make the scars go away. I conjured up a jar of cream, and started rubbing it all over his chest. It didn't really work the first time, so I did it again, and really worked the stuff into his scars. It made like 90% of it go away, he only had a little bit around his collarbones. I woke up right after that. Balls. I could have gone for another round for old time's sake.

After having (or remembering) four dreams that night, I thought I could take advantage of the following, longer REM periods and try out the WILD technique. But eventually I got scared by the thought of sleep paralysis and directed my thoughts to something else – the film “The Avengers” – to calm down. And this affected my next dream.

#005 | Meeting Thor | In the city | Day | Long

“MOVE! Everyone, get out of my way!”
A loud voice brought me back from my daydream. I was sitting alone in a lively street café and just finishing my sundae, as Thor (or rather: Chris Hemsworth dressed as Thor and acting like him, too), passed by – looking rather displeased. A bunch of noisy people followed him, and they got more as the people from the café noticed this special guest, got excited or curious and approached him, too. Thor, being visibly annoyed by that and feeling very uncomfortable with the situation, pushed them out of his way harshly. For a second there, I smirked because I’ve had to admit I was slightly amused by that - but also very angry at this man for threatening these people so roughly. I stood up from my seat as Thor was coming near and at the moment he glared at me I gathered my courade to confront him.
“HEY!”
He stopped (as well as the crowd) and looked kind of puzzled for the source of this call. “I’m here.” I remarked. Thor gave me a confused look, followed by a displeased one. “What?! I don’t have time for your-“ - “You’re threatening these folks pretty gruffly.” You could hear some whispers in the crowd. I didn’t really know what to say and felt incredibly stupid, but I just had to do something. “What?” – “See… I get it, you’re some sort of celebrity, but that doesn’t give you the right of being rude.” He came near, and seeing his huge guise I tried to back away from him, but my curiosity held me fixed at the point I was standing. He lowered his voice. “Look, all I want is some peace and quiet. But now I can’t go anywhere… since even more people seem to recognize me every day.” He sounded frustrated. So he didn’t want any harm, he was just feeling uncomfortable, I thought. My precious little thing. I internally shook my head. Did I just call this enormous creature “my precious little thing”? Geez, being a fangirl and a normal person at the same time is hard. “Okay… I’ll count to three.” He didn’t seem to understand me. “One…” But I couldn’t explain it in front of the crowd. “Two…” He and the people looked tense, because no one knew what was going on with this weird girl starting to count loudly. “Three!”
I grabbed his hand and began to dash towards a sideway, which was located right next to the main street. The people must’ve thought we’re heading towards the latter and went that way as we escaped from them. After a short chase scene I stopped and waited quietly to see if anyone was still following us. No one did and I finally was able to relax, leaning on the wall and gasping for air. Thor seemed to be completely fine and asked me if I was okay. “Me? Yeah, I’m fine. I’m fine…” He smiled and thanked me. After catching my breath I asked him what he was doing here (on earth). He replied that he wanted to look after the humans and the earth, but eventually got caught up in a whirlwind of activity, since a lot of people started to recognize and pursue him. I chuckled and told him that it’s because of a new piece of art called movie which tells the people a bit of the story surrounding him and Loki, his brother. “People enjoy this piece of art and talk about it, so they recognize you right away and want to talk to you out of admiration, I think.” – “Ah, I see…” He looked somewhat gloomy. “You were right. I was really inconsiderate.” I snickered and told him that it’s alright, and that they’ve probably already forgiven him. Then I invited him to go for a stroll down a more tranquil road.

Aaand~ I forgot what happened after that, again. In my DJ notes I speak of “classmates who are standing on the pavement and making fun of Thor”, an “adventure”, “Thor cleaning his hands with my sleeves”, the number “105” and “me and [one of my best IRL friends] gaining a lot of EXP”. If I can eventually make out what happened, I will edit this DJ entry.

Oh! I just remembered another scene. My classmates thanked me, my clothes were quite dirty and one of my friends (whom I look up to) dragged me to the side and praised me. She told me I proved to be a really great person and that everyone should be proud of me for doing what I did.
That was, or still is, such a nice dream memory! (Especially since I don’t have a lot of self-confidence and this boosted it. Kind of.) Plus, it gave me an example for how dreams can affect the attitude and thoughts of a person positively.
(But now I really want to know what I've done...)

05.17.2012

Purple Scarabs (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm inside a lecture room, and I think everyone is watching a screen presentation. I could tell that most of the students could care less from what was being presented, and after it was done, a lot of people started to leave one by one.

There was a female professor in the back of the area that wanted the students to stay, probably to see if they had a few questions related to the presentation, but her voice was weak, it wasn't convincing enough to startle the students that left the room.

I look at her face after she wanted to students to stay in the room, and then she has this passive demeanor that is full of disappointment, it's like she felt like a failure, and she just looks at space randomly. Probably to forget about how she can't even instruct the students with confidence.

After there were only 10-15 students I decided that I should go ahead and leave as well, seeing as this lady failed. I felt kind of bad for her, but there wasn't anything interesting after the presentation was done.

I think some point while I'm in the room, a swarm of purple beetles or scarabs start from the front area and begin covering the walls quickly. I think I'm running from them, but that's all I remember.

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05.17.2012

Almost Late to the Bus (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm sitting near the stairs of a building outside, and it's probably late afternoon. I'm resting from some kind of activity before, but I can't remember. I was wearing short pants, gray or black, don't know why I'm mentioning that though.

I'm just taking my time relaxing, just watching, hearing, just getting used to calming down. I could've done a reality check at this point, because everything was neutral, which should've made me realize something was wrong.

There were a few people walking past me, and I believe I had my shades on, so I that gave me a little confidence in staring at them a bit longer than usual. Pathetic....I know.

After watching and looking at random people, some girl and her friend suddenly remembered that they have to reach for the Bus before it's too late. She said it's 7:25 I believe?

I find that funny because I set my alarm to wake me up for a CANWILD technique attempt around 7:45 AM...wonder if that was a cue for me...

She and her friend get up and run to the path to get to the Bus, and I had a hunch that I should be going to the bus as well. I end up passing the two women, and a blonde female is riding the bus.

She was pretty skinny, and was wearing a very light violet hoodie the was opened. Then I look back to see if the other girls would come, because I was going to tell the bus driver to wait for them. After they go in, the dream shifts to where the bus driver is taking a right somewhere.

I'm still holding on to the small pole near the entrance of the bus, and something doesn't feel right...it's like I don't really belong here. It's because before, I could've just ignored what those women said about being late to getting to a bus stop.

Funny how things turns out when you decide to take a random path...

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05.17.2012

InvisibleWoman (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I can't remember much from this, but I'm on IRC chat, and InvisibleWoman (DV member) was showing me a link with a lady with large breasts. She was wearing a light pink dress shirt with both sides lining up half wear on her breasts.

I think it was an anime picture as well, reminded me of a certain woman from a movie called "Immorality."

Oh right, the chick's name is Sayako, she's kind of like some kind of sex demon that drains the life force out of men while seducing them....isn't that funny.....another succubus...

And as for the movie itself, you don't want to watch it, it's lame....reallllly lame.

#004 | Yoghurt with Cereals | School | Day (Morning) | Medium

Okay, this one is a little bit stranger than usual.
I was sitting in religion class and while we were watching a film (I think it was “The Bucket List”?) I ate yoghurt with cereals and banana bits. Then my teacher came up to me and handed me a sheet of paper, which seemed to be the latest exam I’ve written. On top of the paper stood the verbal and written score I got in this subject. I got a 4 (D) for my test and a 5-6 (something like F) for my behaviour (…which is unusual, because I usually get A’s in both). There were additional notes on my behaviour which said that I would always sleep and not pay attention in class. (Wrong.) Oddly enough, this didn’t upset me at all and I took the sheet of paper as an underlay for my dish of yoghurt and continued eating. My teacher went out of the classroom, whereupon I stopped eating, leaving a rest of yoghurt, cereals and bananas in my bowl. I took out a bottle of fizzy water, opened it and started pouring it into my bowl. I examined the way the yoghurt, cereals and bananas interacted with the water. Then my teacher came back, revealing that he was hiding in the doorway to observe what his students would do if he went away. He stared at me and I stared back, wondering if it might’ve been a mistake pouring that water in the bowl, since I was supposed to watch the film. Then some other stuff happened, which I don’t quite remember… it had something to do with the teacher having a second job and therefore me meeting him at the station but other than that I really don’t remember anything.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

In this dream I performed a reality check but didn't become lucid. First signs of trolling in this damn dream.

Yet again I was walking through the forest but with my dogs this time. I was in a place I commonly visit in real life but it was a little different, I thought of what I would do in real life and that would be to perform a reality check. Whenever I am in the forest I do a reality check, which is what I said in the dream, so I did a reality check and looked at my hands. I didn't become lucid because it was a shit reality check that I didn't pay attention to my surroundings. The forest was a lot different than what it normally was but it felt like I had been there before in another dream, which I had ages ago. Anyway, there was a huge hill in front of me which caused me to reality check, but it failed ;_;. I decided to walk up the hill with my 2 dogs and on the other side of the hill was a HUGE white forest covered in snow. It was beautiful, but the forest is usually green xD. I walked over to where the trees were and the dogs were running around, looks like they were having fun. All of a sudden 2 frost trolls from skyrim ran out in a huge rage. (Second sign of trolling ba dum tss! HAHAHAHA...no? Okay...) I tried to get the dogs away from the trolls by running up the hill, but they didn't follow. They were still having fun in the snow while the trolls chased me up the hill. I ran in to 4 other frost trolls at the top of the small hill but I was still worried about the dogs. I managed to fight 4 of them off with firebolts like on skyrim but then I heard one of my dogs cry in pain. It was horrible . I still continued to fight the last 2 trolls with firebolts and then observed my surroundings after they died. I was in a camp. There was only one tent and a fire outside it. I searched it and flipped over this peice of leather or hide, it had 2 dead woman on it. I assume the trolls got them ;_;.
At this point I had forgot about my dogs completely because I'm a stupid idiot in my dreams, then decided to search the tent. I found a strange gem like on skyrim again (Unusual Gem in-game). I carried on with my surprise adventure until I reached a tent, which was in a normal grassy enviroment, and there was a woman sat on a stool outside. I asked her what this odd red gem was and she told me to give it to an old lady who lived in a village down the road. The dream skipped to the point where I was in front of the lady because that is how my mind works in dreams LOL. I gave her the gem but she teleported me in to a haunted looking house. Stupid bitch . The owner of this house was half spider half human, very odd haha, she invited us (me and a few guests who I didn't see properly) to eat donuts with her. We were all eating donuts then she headed back to her coffin type thing made out of spider skin, and it closed. Everytime I went up to her coffin it opened and she jumped out and stared at me with her huge 5 or 6 eyes and then went back in as I backed off. The dream started to fade as I trolled her and made her get in and out of her coffin(3rd sign of trolling hahaha) I was just jumping to and away from her as she jumped in and out xD.

That is all for this dream, but this has been my favourite and weirdest dream for a long time. Thanks for reading

I was chilling in my house at night, the lights were off but I could still see. I had a friends with me. (random guy I've never seen before) and we went out on the deck because it was a really pretty night out, warm but not hot, gentle breeze blowing. So we were out there for like an hour, and we go back inside and these thieves have cleaned out my house. I mean they took flashlights, T.V.s guns, But they forgot one rifle. My friend is like "Man let's call the cops." But I didn't listen. I grabbed the rifle and some ammo and trail the guys back to where they live in my car, my friend decided to come along. I caught them getting out of the car and it was a family! In two cars. 2 babies, like 4 guys, a woman, and 2 more guys in the house and another 2 women. So I get out of the car and they're all laughing and stuff. I come up behind the woman and point a gun at her head and tell them to get my stuff. The guy draws a gun on me and the rest of them come out of the house, at this time I don't know where my friend went. All of a sudden everyone except me and my friend vanishes and we take my stuff back and leave. Really weird.

Second dream I was in my house again, and I felt like something was watching me or with me. So I said what I usually say when I feel bad spirits "I encourage the good to defend me, and the evil are not welcome here!" I heard like this growl... It was the creepiest thing ever. It was like a dog but as low as a bass guitar. I begin to feel light headed. So I say again "BEGONE EVIL SPI-" Before I can finish it I hear a scream and at the same time I hear the scream I feint. When I wake, my sister, dad, and step-mom are at the door so I let them in and told them what happened. They are DC's so they didn't care much. Wasn't a nightmare but it was creepy.

#003 | A Terrible Ensemble | Parking at School | Day | Short-Medium

I strolled around the parking lot of our school with Mary (a good friend of mine), when I got the spontaneous idea of performing Godot’s theme from the Phoenix Wright games (see below) with a mini-orchestra right on the spot. (I should remark that Mary often plays that piece on the piano when I’m with her and that it’s one of our favourites.)
Okay, so… I gathered some pupils from the school grounds (which are right next to the parking) and gave each of them an instrument (such as drums, strings, etc…). I don’t know where I got them; I assume they just turned up when I needed them. Also, a piano emerged in the middle of the road. Then I started handing out songbooks, which had also appeared out of nowhere. I took my saxophone (I’ve never played saxophone before, just so you know. So this is pretty unusual.), counted to three and everyone began playing at once and terribly wrong. Except for Mary. But you couldn’t her play because of the boisterous noises the other people (including me) made.



After realizing that this couldn’t work out since no one was able to play those instruments, I was desperate to get them to stop. But my voice was too soft, so Mary harshly yelled “STOP!” instead and everything went quiet. The people slowly disappeared and the instruments vanished – except for my saxophone. Exhausted and also kind of disappointed I took my instrument, gazed at it and leaned on a parked car. Mary approached me and we started talking.
“I guess we all make a terrible ensemble.”, she said while giving me a soothing look. “Yeah. That was a stupid idea…” I sighed. “Let me see…” She picked up a few songbooks which were still lying around. “No wonder! Look, this one got the wrong chords in it and that person got the wrong page.” She showed me the books and giggled. “Plus, none of us can really play any instruments, so that probably was what caused this chaos to begin with.” I smiled, too. “Well, maybe next time it’ll work out. Until then we just have to practice a lot!” We both started laughing (not sure why).
But then something distracted me. First, there was a bee flying around and since I don’t really like bees (or anything with a sting, really.) I avoided it, leaning myself further on the car. After a while it flew away leaving me being able to relax again. But once more, a fly came to bother me and as I tried to shoo it away I touched it and woke up.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

This dream will probably be hard to put in to story because it happened 2 nights ago because I was too ill to type it up yesterday. I also changed the "Dreaming" part from cyan to deep sky blue as people had trouble reading the super bright cyan. Anyway here goes the dream.

This dream started with me at school again. It wasn't the first dream I had that night, but the most clear. I was walking up to a group of friends who I usually don't hang around with but I was. I started mentioning to them about a game I played, then the dream shifted in to me actually playing the game. It was very similar to the game "Age of Empires". I was just moving the camera around the map then my controller ran out of battery so I changed controllers. I only have one controller but in this dream I had 2 xD, anyway after I switched controllers I decided I would spy on the enemy base. They only had 3 soldiers in their base, but they were shown as yellow dots. The terrain of this game was grassy and had lots of dark trees everywhere. After spying on the enemy I somehow switched in to first person and built a town center (what you use to make people on the game) and made some people. At this point the dream skipped to a place where I was alone in the enemy base. It was an arabian style prison that looked like it had been bombed or attacked by something. I was going to creep inside to take a look when I heard a female voice. She looked like a prisoner. She said something about it being empty, so I went inside and looked around. It was dark and had broken bikes in it, I have no idea why haha. A guy walked out next to the lady and I lowered myself in to hiding but the woman shouted something at me, it sounded aggressive as if she were giving my position away so I ran up some stairs ahead of me and the dream ended.

That is it for this dream. It was pretty vivid at the prison part, so I guess I enjoyed this dream. Also I hope you find the darker text better to read. I know I do! Thanks for reading through it you have.

I can't remember what happened before, but I'm at my house and I find out my parents are robbing a bank. Somehow I can see through the security cameras a bit. Anyway, my parents get home with $300K. I'm fretting, thinking the cops are gonna turn up any second. Then I find out this crazy guy was in the bank going nuts with a gun before all this happened so I was hoping the cops would go after him instead. Then I start listening to Wammy's theme from Death Note. I'm not sure if I'm playing this on the guitar I got from my previous dream or not. I'm 80% sure the answer is no, but not certain. Anyway, that's what happened. I think I need better dream recall...

#002 | The Mentally Disabled | a nursing home | Day | Short-Medium

Okay, a bit of background information here:
Yesterday, some guys from my confirmation class and I went to a special nursing home for old and mentally disabled people. It was really interesting talking to them (or at least trying to do so) and I learned quite a few things regarding the contact with those people.
My dream wasn’t really different from what I was doing that day… in fact, a lot of things reoccurred. I talked to some people I met that day, but I don’t remember the exact conversations. Later, we went for a walk. (Well, I pushed their wheelchairs; we talked and looked at the nature.) Together, we visited a little farm (which we also had visited the time I was there for real) and looked at the rabbits and horses. An older women was nearly crying out of happiness when I caught one of the rabbits (it was the white and caramel-coloured one I also had seen yesterday) and handed it to her so she could pet it. When we got back I played a board game, which I think is called “Ludo” in English, with an elderly gentleman. Then the doctor came for their daily examination and we had to go. And that’s when the dream ended.

After I woke up I did a quick reality check which proved to be redundant and scribbled down some notes regarding my previous two dreams. Then I went back to sleep.

I am standing in a unknown room filled with people, a person standing next to me says
"potassium, people prefer active chlorine!"
i reply "ya, pure potassium spontaneously combusts on contact with water"
as i walk away i hear something about a lab with gold and some other element (tantalum) so i make my way to the edge of the room and grab a large plastic tub labeled GA,GEF.

at this point my alarm goes off and just before i open my eyes the last thing i see is a turtle moving across a sandy beach.

I was too lazy to write down the first dream I recalled from last night.

The 2nd one entailed a conversation about relationships with a guy named Whip or Willow Whip. something like that.

1:
Me and Sigurd were not really talking. But it was coming along.
Astrid was the connection between us, I was very happy alltogether, anyway. Something is just way better than nothing.
I was hanging with my friends when Astrid went out to play football and I started counting my fingers. There was something fishy about the whole scenery.
Five fingers. I pinched my nose. Air came trough, and I thought that I wasn't holding it right. I tried again; more air, but a little less than before. Wtf! This couldn't possibly be a dream, could it? I felt a sudden urge to convince myself otherwise (for whatever reason..)
I counted my fingers. Now I counted six, but as I looked at my hand again, I saw five. Must have counted wrongly.
Counted again- six. When I looked at my hand I saw five. I wanted to tell my friends about my counting-glitch, but tried one more time.
Six fingers. Five. This scared me; was something wrong with my brain? I turned around to look at an icecream booth at the other end of the hall. There was a lady behind the disk, but no icecream or commercial. I tried looking for something dream-like, something blurry or wrongly placed. What is odd is that I didn't think at all that the icecream booth in the hall of my school was a little out of place.

I remember being with my mom in her car. She was driving us around. It seems like we were younger than usual. My little brother was with me in the backseat. My mom talked to us about how dangerous driving could be, and that you always have to be careful and aware. She told us to buckle up.

While my mom was stopped at an intersection, I tried to buckle both my brother and I. It took a bit, but I finally got the right buckle in its right slot. I remember my brother laughing and saying, “That’s cool.” When I accidentally buckled us together.

So… apparently my first task in order to learn lucid dreaming is to improve my dream recall - this is the main reason this journal here exists. So when I went to sleep yesterday, I told myself several times to remember my following dreams.
And, well… it worked! In fact, I (more or less) remembered six dreams!

#001 | The Aerodrome Volcano | At the airport | Night | Very Short

My first dream this night was probably influenced by me looking out of the window and observing the planes flying by shortly before I fell asleep. I found myself standing behind a giant iron grid which surrounded an airport. The airport building was located to my left, but I didn’t pay a lot of attention to it, since my eyes were fixed on the area right in front of me. At the back stood a large control tower probably sending signals to the approaching planes – as it was blinking red. Actually, I noticed a lot of lights blinking everywhere, but they didn’t catch my attention since they glowed pretty dim. There were also a few planes and cars standing or driving around, but no people in sight… though it seemed to be quite lively.
Suddenly, when the second and third planes were trying to land, the ground began to stagger. Not the realm where I was standing, but the airport area. Then, slowly the cars and planes started melting into that ground, which was also gradually becoming liquid. The felt air temperature rose and it seemed like the aerodrome in front of me was on the verge of becoming a volcano. The other planes nosedived into the ground and then melted, too, whereupon I woke up.

After waking up I felt incredibly tired and fell asleep again after a few minutes – leading to the next dream.