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May 13 2011



I found myself playing in some dirt outside a roadside diner.
My identity changed to more of that of an adult and I got up and went inside hearing all kinds of happy conversations.

My senses were pretty open and I could feel all the people in the place.

Once inside I saw it was a nice bright coffee house like place. I walked into the center of the tabled room and then thought 'I'd like to sit with the 2 quirky gay guys, they seem interesting' and started to walk over to their small round table. They got up glaring at me and left.
Telepathy works both ways, hmm, I'll have to watch my telepathic outflow more.

I sat at the now empty table and listened to people talk which was a bit confusing because their verbal words and their metal words, that I was telepathically picking up, did not always match .

Guy1: "Oh that's great!" 'whatever'
Guy2: "I know right" 'I'm bored'
Guy1 "You must feel lucky?" 'I guess'
Guy2 "Oh I am" 'not really'

This was messing with my head and I tried to change my focus and then I saw a hovering robot about the size of an office trash can, it had a yellow light on its metal domed top and a red colored hair-like metal decoration under its hat like top, no face.
'I wonder what this is doing here'
Robot: 'I'm interested in human men-kind."

I was glad it was completely telepathic.
It stayed by me and intenetly watched the 2 other guys talking.
I plugged my attention into the interplay between the robot and the conversation but it was boring and my mind drifted.
'mankind hmm'
'yep'

I then felt a pull outside

This was no regular outside place, I felt no humans at all, as if they had never existed, though I thought that they had something like a million years ago.

Then I saw the dark figures move, I was looking at a strange group of chimp sized apes, about 20 of them. They weren't chimps, their faces were different, fuller and wider, and they all had a little gray hair around their faces.

My senses were still open and their radiation (a telepathic flow of consciousness you get from conscious things) felt a lot like human's but very simple like a 2 year old.

One was trying to kill a wasp that had flown out of a hole in the ground. He knew it could sting and was holding it by its wings and hitting it on the hard packed ground to kill it and knock off the stinger. The wasp was hardier than the strange chimp thought and I could feel he was sorry he had chosen to eat this insect. Another youner ape came over and watched and motioned with his hand in a whipping motion to rip the wings off but the older ape didn't get what the younger ape was trying to say.

I woke up wondering what happened and why I woke in the middle of that story.

These days I had crappy recall... It's not worth to be posted, just a couple of words, but I have it in my other DJ (the physical one). I think I'll try that ADA technique, while waiting for the academy reopen.

I'm sitting in class across from Milan and we're playing paper football, ignoring a nonsensical and hypocritical rant from Ms. Kaminiarz. I hear her ask Dennis to go write something on the board and whilst he's up there, he tells a joke. Everyone finds it hilarious, I hardly laugh. Some girl starts up a conversation with me about school and I notice Tawnya glancing over with an annoyed look. I get the impression that she think I`m interested in this girl but I'm not. A little while later, I notice someone rubbing/massaging my back. It strikes me as odd and I'm not sure who it is; I have a feeling it's the girl to my right (the DC named Courtney from a few previous dreams) but then I go "it couldn't be, what would she want with me?"I decide that it's probably Courtney (from Caf class) who's sitting behind. I can't remember what happened next but I know I had a false awakening after.

I'm not sure but I think this was my subconscious trying to tell me to stop settling for less.

Had several dreams last night but way too much going on to remember more than this.

There were a few people over at my house that I had never met before. One of the guys offered me a vial of LSD. It had weird floating blobs in it. He said I could trip for free and I told him I couldn't cause my kid was home. He said I didn't have to take much to trip and it wouldn't last as long. So I drank a bit of it and had some of the blobs in my mouth, I went ahead and chewed them up. Then he went and offered my husband some and he was going to take it. I told him he probably shouldn't just in case something happens with our son. He said he'd be fine and he took some too. I started tripping within half an hour apparently, at least that's what I exclaimed to a girl who wanted to take some. It kicked in fast, and I remember sitting on the couch, talking to two guys. It really felt as though I had taken acid, because the conversation was so simple and so funny. I just started giggling like crazy and I told them I had no idea what was going on right now, with the conversation. I started to see colors vibrate my vision and then they would disappear. My son was in his crib sleeping and I was staring at him when I realized I wasn't tripping anymore.

Just a fragment. There was a whole story to it. Slacking on my dream journal. =/

I have no idea what's up with the blobs...

After meeting what seemed to be my dream guide in my last lucid, I had a very realistic non lucid about drinking beer. Dad and I where at a friends house and they let me dink brown liquid. I remember nothing of the surroundings, but everything of the feelings. I drank a brown beer and it felt just like drinking something in real life and it was like no other taste. I without meaning to drank to much and in the dream went "O no." The dream ended

I guess the moral is to be careful not to do something you like beer or not to much and that if you do it can effect you negatively. Or it means take certain things like beer and games in moderation. Things that could have bad mental effects.

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Another non-lucid that only lasts for a short time. Stress from school must be getting to me, for I haven't had a lucid in over a week. I mustn't let it control me, though. Dreaming should not create stress, but release it instead.

I'm riding through the verdant countryside on a red and black dirt bike; all alone on the sun smothered streets. My eyes are focused on the road ahead, galvanizing a sort of tunnel that acts as a blockade for my peripherals. The gravel from the road begins to hover slightly above the ground which grabs my attention suddenly, allowing my vision to fall back into place. I slow the bike down to a dull roar, kick the stand and gaze off into the purple horizon. The sun, a deep crimson splendor, drowns its remaining color into the grassy hills, leaving a timid sky to look after me until nights deathly grasp consumes the land. My stomach churls at the thought of nightfall in this unfamiliar territory and I feel a strange sickness start to take over. It doesn't feel like anything I have experienced before...a writhing pain throughout my entire body and a deep throbbing pang in my head. I'm forced to fall to my knees, letting my head fall to my sweat stricken chest. After a moment or so I lift my head and begin to drag my fragile corpse to the soft grass a few feet away. Stumbling, I land in the now colorless patch breathing heavily and waiting for a cool breeze to lift my spirits. It's almost completely dark now. I watch the last bit of color slip furtively behind the tops of the ancient pines, sitting helplessly beside my rusted bike and awaiting my inevitable doom. My eyes focus quickly as the night forms a blanket over the countryside; everything is now wrapped in a deep blue which becomes the one of two colors that haunt my dream. The other color was a tiny, lurid, golden light coming from a window of a dilapidated house on a nearby hill. It was a three story farm house with a tin roof and a wrap around porch. The once vibrant paint was now peeling off in sheets, revealing the sordid wood that was used to build the creepy structure. Every window was boarded up with several two-by-fours crisscrossing one another except for the window on the third level. A thin golden light crept through the tiny window, combating the dark that was now raging outside. My eyes were glued to the enigmatic glow. I forgot about the crippling maladies coursing through my body that had put me on my knees. I forgot about the dreadful night sky that so malevolently hunted my timorous frame. All I knew was that light. That golden glow that saved me from nightmarish ghouls and interminable fear, and instead leaving me in a bleary trance that would soon fade into the horizon and over the pines, just like the setting sun.

Yesterday iwl, someone talked to me about a 16' trailer I am trying to sell. It is locked to a chain link fence.
The guy, Noe, looked the trailer over and picked up the lock. I wondered why he would do that. I suspected
he only came up to see if it was locked up, and after talking to me, he realized it was. It was odd the way he
picked it up for a second and let it fall as if to say, "This is a cheap lock" or "Oh, it is locked."

Anyway, last night I dreamed that there were two fences, one for the back yard and one for the front, and
there was about a 4 foot space between them. It was wasted space. Then, I knew I had to see if the trailer
had been stolen, so I look back and sure enough it was gone. The funny thing was, it seemed as though a laser
had sliced the fence in half. The line was going slightly downward and perfectly straight. It was intense for what
little of a dream it was, just thinking about what would have cut the fence like that.

BTW, in waking life, I still have my trailer and the guy never showed up today to buy it as planned. I'm going to
come down on my price today. Aren't you glad to know that?

Dream - Lucid

I was in a room with my ex, Chris. We were laying in bed, though the set up was weird. We weren't laying next to one another, but he was laying on the opposite side of the bed than me so our feet were facing each other's heads. I apparently lived with Chris. I remember getting up out of bed to take some Tylenol because my whole body was sore (pain leaking into my dream from waking life...sore from dancing all night a couple of nights ago). I got back into bed.

I then remember us getting up out of bed. Chris looked so much different. He was muscular and toned (in waking life he's very big). I thought he had done a good job working out to get to this point. When he talked to me, though, he was a huge douchebag. I don't remember exactly what he said, but he was being an ass. I then knew that we weren't really together anymore, we just still lived together.

Then I remember being in bed with Chris again, although this time, he was sleeping next to me. I wanted to cuddle with him, but refrained. I knew he probably didn't want to. I remembered that we hadn't even had sex in forever.

~

I remember being in the middle of town somewhere with a whole bunch of other people. The sky was grey and cloudy. I was mad at myself because I kept somehow missing History class at 10:25. I had only been to one the whole semester apparently.

Anyway, I then remember seeing some person in a cape fly in front of us. He landed and started to talk to us. He looked like a superhero. He was basically telling us to remain calm, and explaining to us that some sort of disaster had occurred. I figured out that the disaster was a volcanic eruption. The man in the cape flew away. I asked myself if I was dreaming, but it felt so real that I didn't possibly think I was. I thought the superhero man had just been using special effects to make it look like he was flying. I then took my phone out of my pocket and looked at it. I had missed calls and texts from my college's emergency alert system. One of the texts said there was some sort of government warning.

I then remember seeing flashes of parts of my town covered in volcanic ash, signs that had been knocked over and destroyed, buildings that were hit. I asked someone where the volcano was, and they replied "Ashwood". I was really shocked and upset by that, because I used to live there, and I have a really good friend who still lives there. I immediately wanted to make sure she was alright.

Then, I saw these women dressed in all purple who had this eerie calm about them as they tried to get the crowd to listen to them and not panic. I knew they were trying to trick us, into what, I'm not sure, but I didn't trust them, not for a second. I remember one approaching me and trying to talk to me, holding out her hand, but I told her no.

I thought that this must be the end of the world, or at least the beginning of the end.

I was then in some hotel room by the beach. I walked out onto the balcony, and saw that the volcanic eruption had taken out the railing on the balcony. I saw a couple of the chairs laying in the hill of sand that had accumulated up to the balcony. I looked to my left, and saw the rest of the hotel was in the same situation. I watched the waves of the rough ocean crash onto this wooden walkway that was used for beach access. I knew it was only a matter of time before it was destroyed by the waves. I then saw some lady push these girls sleeping in these beach chairs off the balcony and onto the sand hill. I thought she was just trying to wake them up by doing so. The girls woke up and started to laugh as they went down the hill.

I then remember being in the hotel room, and seeing my mom there as well. A lady in purple was also in there, calmly trying to tell me what to do, all with the eerie, calm smile on her face. My mom was trying to get me to listen to her, but I wouldn't. I turned and ran out of the hotel room.

~

I was in my house. I remember being in the bathroom, looking for some Tylenol or some pain medicine. I rummaged through this basket we have sitting on the bathroom counter. At the very bottom, I found a sample pack of Xanax. I thought it was probably very old. I looked at the date on it, at it had expired in 2006. I didn't care. I opened the pack, which contained a sample of not only Xanax, but another sample of some sleep aid and one of some allergy medicine. I took out the Xanax, which was in yet another pack within the pack. I opened it and took some Xanax. My brother then came in the room and asked why the Xanax was there. I told him I took some.

Then, I remember being in a hotel by the beach again. It was the same one from the previous dream. The balcony was still messed up from the sand hill. I remember my friend Virginia being there, though there were definitely some other people there as well. We were on some trip. I remember us going down the elevator. Our room was on the 4th floor.

I then remember us being in some hallway. We were trying to figure out how we were going to do this performance. We were going to all dance to "Love Game" by Lady Gaga. We just needed more people for it, and had a lot of details to sort out. I remember Virginia cutting up some strawberries and putting them in this plastic container. I helped her cut some up. I remember she said we needed 20 pieces. When we were done, we had to take them back out. Something about the way we drew them out of the container determined something for the show. I remember us talking about how we needed to keep the costs down to $150 per person who was participating (we apparently had a lot of stuff we had to pay for for the show). I remember someone talking about everyone paying $200, but I said that wouldn't work. They argued with me a little.

I then remember having my own apartment again. I had just moved in. I had a cat and 5 mice as pets. The mice were running around under some TV stand. I was keeping the cat from messing with the mice. I looked under the bed, and I saw a pair of shining eyes. I thought it was a rat, and I was a little upset, because I had just moved in. I shouldn't have rats. I then remember leaving, and worrying about the pet mice. I don't remember where I went, but I came back. Lo and behold, what I thought had been a rat under the bed was really another cat. He was brown with fuzzy, messed up fur. I tried locating the mice. I found them under the TV stand. 4 were still alive, and one, a red one, was dead and bleeding. I was really upset. I collected the rest of the mice into the container that Virginia had used for the strawberries. There were still a couple of slices in there. I closed the container. All the mice just stood at the edge of the box and stared outside (the box was clear).

Then, I remember seeing the cats talking to one another. They were talking about leaving into the apartment next door through these open windows. There were more cats over there, apparently. They wanted to visit them, and have them be able to visit. I said no, and closed the windows. One of the cats said
"I can just open the windows again."
I was pissed.

Dream Journal #12 May 13th, 2011

First dream I remember was being in a car with my mom and we were taking Ian home. We took a shortcut and she did not trust me with the way to go, and we were going like 1 mph so that made me really frusturated and angry lol.

edit: afterWBTB

Had my 2nd lucid yet! Followed by another FA lol.

this one was awesome, and I had a LOTTT more dream control and stabability this time!!! omg lucid dreaming is fucking great. hahaha.

so it started off with me looking at the clock once again. This was a DILD- I’m sure of it. I was in a FA, and I looked at the clock. There was NO time whatsoever, it was just blank. At first, I was going to let this slide.. I was about to say, oh shit my clock died. But then it hit me- I realized I was dreaming. All of a sudden I felt this rush all over my body! The same feeling from my first lucid dream. Everything became way more clear this time, and vivid. I tried to put my “dream glasses” on but nothing really ever came out when i pretended to put glasses on lol. It started out dark in my room again. I went to the bathroom and I almost lost lucidity… but I tried to turn on the switch for the light. No light. Gained my lucidity again. Went back into my room and for some reason the light was on this time lol. My mind was just blown at how everything seemed so real. I looked at the mirror and my face was all weiird and out of proportion lol. Normally this would scare me but I knew I was dreaming so it really didn’t scare me at all. I looked at my hands too! My hands like fucking 10,000 fingers LOL. I was absolutely sure I was dreaming this time. At this point the dream started to fade.. I saw it fading right before my eyes. I rubbed my hands. Wasn’t working. So I found the new solution to stabilizing my dream: Rub my hands AND spin at the same time. I found that this worked absolutely well, the dreamscape did not change and I was back in the dream.

My phone was on my bed, and someone was calling me. It was some weird contact… the words didnt make sense and there was no number. I answered it. All I heard was static I think- again, this sounds scary, but I knew I was dreaming, so none of it frightened me at all. I was like “whatever” and hung up lol. I then tried to summon a pretty girl in my room. That failed. So I was like whatever again.

Then, I wanted to fly. So i opened my window, and I thought “man.. what if this doesnt work, I start to fall, and I wake up?” But again, my mentality was like “whatever” (thats just the kind of person i am). So I stepped on my window frame, jumped like super high rofl, grabbed the roof of my house, and jumped off of it. I started to fall a little bit- but then I remembered I have to believe. So I started to flap my arms, and I started flying! Fucking best feeling of my life lol. The view was so awesome outside my house as well. I was mountains from the far distance and the moon and stars were shining. It was kind of hard to control though, because I would flap my arms once and sometimes I would go a bit too far up or forward really fast. I fixed this somewhat. I then realized that my neighbor was a hot lesbian. I flew on their roof (actually they had no roof, I flew right through it). She was making out with this other hot lesbian, and they took their clothes off. My dream started to fade again LOL so I started spinning and rubbing my hands at the same time. It stabilized again. The two girls started to go outside to their backyard, where there was snow… somehow it became winter and there was snow everywhere now. They started to begin making out there again fully naked. This is where I eventually woke up into my false awakening.

My false awakening wasnt as bad. I was not lucid however. I was typing out my dream on my dream journal and talking to my cousin that I just had a lucid dream. That’s all I really remember. Oh, and my dad walked in the door to wake me up to go to school. Then I really woke up- kind of confused. I almost forgot that I had a lucid dream when I woke up from my FA lol. Turns out I was only asleep for around 40 minutes- I’m not sure when the dream started though.

Yay for 2nd lucid

*Melissa and I are at “Rysovka” hill. I think I had a plan to go there with my friends and that they are there with us. (Back home) My friends ask me whether I have a sledge. I am going to buy one because I don’t have any. When I come beck my friends are cooking something. It’s a fish and when I taste it, it’s pretty tasty. Then I come back with Melissa. We are looking at some pictures. In one of the pictures there is a girl with a tattoo on her leg. The tattoo is pretty good.
I go to buy them fish, because I need some more. I put them on a plastic tray because I don’t have an oven one and put it on the fire. Next second, I quickly pull it back as I remember that it will burn in the fire because it starts melting. Now Sharon is there and is making some comments.

Huh. I've been having a lot of gaming dreams since u joined DV. Here is my most recent one;

I was playing battlefront 2, but the game was a lot better and had different rules. You were also playing the game in first person. I was a commander of the army, whatever that means, so I started out as a jet trooper. The game map looked exactly like mos eisly. The CIS appeared to have an advantage, they had genosians. Some of them would randomly land and turn into droidekas. The droidekas looked different as well, they were silvery shiny, had no head, and looked cooler, like a crab. The first thing I did was walk out of the cantina. Two genosians popped from the air in front if me. For some reason though, they were friendly to all people. I flew up to the arena in the center but noticed another clone get blasted away on my right. Somehow having a near unlimited supply of jetpack, I dashed over and back to look at the situation. A magna guard, a droideka, and general grievous. Grievous saw me. He charged forward into another area filled with troops though. I sneak attacked the magna guard and took him out. The droideka had different ideas. He put up his shield and fired at me. I somersaulted away and flew to a better position. I hit him a couple times with my EMP launcher, then he went away to recharge. I saw grievous and decided to attack him. He had half his hit bar gone anyway. I jet packed behind him and stuck a grenade on his back and looked for the droideka. Grievous exploded as I landed in front of the droideka, movie style . He was hiding behind a building. He put up his shield just in time to absorb my grenade. I ducked behind the small wall he was behind. His shield was almost down. I shot an EMP at him. It was my last shot. He didn't die. But,I had a few more grenades left. I tossed two. *He tried to get away, and he did. I followed him only to find that another clone's grenade got him. I flew into the arena to take the command post. Jango Fett was there. He saw me first and one shotted me. I *respawned and tried again. He didn't expect me to come back so I shot him in the back. He had a lot more health though. We both jumped into the air. I circled him as he charged up his blaster. For a fleet second I wondered how he did that, Jango had no weapons that charged, and almost became lucid. I didn't though. I shot Jango but missed. We kept dueling then ran out of fuel. We both landed on another building on the bottom left side of the map. It was impossible for anyone else to interfere. I shot, and hit. Jango was almost dead. For some reason though, it counted as another person's kill. I got mad at that. I took control of the command post, but then emperor palpatine slashed me in half. As I died I wondered why the CIS team had so many hero units.

So i couldnt sleep when i went to bed.. i was with closed eyes like 1 hour and something and was trying to sleep and LD.

k after hour i sleept i had some wierd dreams i dont remember that good..



then there was a girl a star i think and i was following her she was naked(?) and i wanted to ... her
then i did started dong that like 2 mins and changed position aswell and continued like more 2 mins..

after that i woke up and sleept again ... then i went somewhere in forest or park with a friend and my bro i guess and we were going to S-Bahn (Train station).
we went ther and my mom was there with my bro ok so i went inside and my bro had to go somewhere and my mom aswell..
then i teleported somehow somewhere on the roofs xD... cus something happened and on the roofs there was like a pointer(->) telling me jump to the right at the other appartment.


k i walked abit to find a opened window.. and i jumped
i am inside i see 1 guy sleeping..
i am like lolz , he woke up he is like wtf i explained him there was pointer sayhing i can jump from here etc etc k then he told me to close that window i did and was searching the door to go downstairs to 1 girl i knew.
i went downstairs there was police people running on the roofs no idea why and i went down
i knock the door she opened i went inside we tried to have sex i think but somehow i teleported to my Class room at the desk and sleeping so tired...
then the teacher a 2 womans 1 woman explaining smthing
then next woman says now lets do maths but write , orally .
then the teacher says to me wake up wake up
i tried slowly i was full tired and i woke up in real life..

now i m writing this after 5mins of waking up ..


karli

This is just a fragment that I remember because I remembered a lot when I woke up I was just to lazy to write it down.

So it started up with me in some kind of control room and I left the room to walk outside. It kind of looked like the interior of a spaceship. I walked out and I started levitating things and throwing things around and it made me believe I was lucid because of the powers, however I was just dreaming about the powers that I had possesed.

That's about all I remember.

I was at some strange doctors office. I remember him wearing a lab coat and seeing Zac from school to. The room color was in the cool color range, I don't remember exact colors.
I then zoned into a different part of the dream. I was in a hallway, the floor was brown wooded planks and it had 3 paths leading to doors, The walls where white. It was like looking on a 2d game screen. To the north a door on the left hand side, south a hall way, left a wall and right another hall way. The door that was seen had a dull metal color to it. I knew a zombie came through earlier, so I made note of that. I also knew the BIG CHEESE from Resident Evil 4 was coming from the south. Before he came I woke up outside the doctors office still dreaming. I entered his office to tell him about my dream and I took and ate a lolly pop. The lolly pop was very realistic. The dream ended.