non-lucid

Dream Fragment:I'm standing in front of the tv in the living room just staring at the wall behind it, then my mom walks in and starts talking about how she's been talking to my dad, and me and my sister become angry, but then she says he has throat cancer then I become somewhat concerned, but only somewhat. I think to myself it's probably from all those cigarettes he smokes. I tell her to tell him to poor his urine down his throat and then to stop contact because it might be one of his tricks again.

The last dream I remember happened 6/19 ;w;

It started off with my father driving like a maniac in a weird field with a bunch of dirt to get away from someone. Then, for some odd reason I associated that with school, and the dream switched to a completely different place.

We were sitting in some weird room in the middle of I don't even know, and I was sitting with a kid who I knew a couple years ago. He was smiling oddly at me, so I asked him why he was doing that.
He turned to his group of friends and began glancing behind his back at me and laughing with his friends. I got confused and touched my hand to my head. I was wearing a helmet for some reason. I took it off and touched my forehead.
I must have literally touched it, because I felt it and imagined pain, and I jerked awake with my hand on my forehead...
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It was just really weird because he was caring for me and he had acted concerned before laughing at me, so... pff.

Date: 25 Jun

Pre bed: 40mg B6

Woke up a million times during the night, but not once attempted to deild/wild, etc.

Wbtb: 1/2 latte but was somewhat less wakeful than necessary

HI: with Sensei (only team colors this time, my name in green, his in silver )

Fell asleep in rather heavy sleep.

LD: I'm using the tram without a ticket and am worried about that but don't realize it's a dream till later.

At some point I'm on the street lucid and do some spontaneus flying again. I see this guy from school and decide to fly towards him, where I focus on my hands being on his shoulder and speed fly/zoom to move there. I recall to seek Sensei but decide the dream needs stabilizing and spend a few seconds feeling the texture of the guy's jacket. He says a few words and I probe whether he can talk but he mostly replies with gibberish.

We continue down the street and there's another guy with him. It gradually gets darker till it's as dark as night. I gaze at a distant light that's so bright it leaves an after image. I think about asking about this on DV. This doesn't make things better for my vision as everything around fades into darkness. I address the guys and tell them to fix this, that we need some color but the they don't help much. The physical sensations are still here, so I decide to bring back the scene by engaging in action and begin to strip one of the guys.

A scene appears in full color but for some reason this has the effect of an FA and I become very concerned about what I'm doing. A moment later wake up.

Woohoo! Today it was the verdict and I was along the best for the year, most of my scores were higher than the average and I'm able to procede to the next year without any problems, my last year.
This morning my alarm went of at 07:00 and although it hurted a little bit getting up and grabbing my Tag-book I'm happy to announce that my DR is climbing back up.

1. Justice

I'm walking around in houses and through basements of old houses in the Middle Ages, while also talking to peasants who have to work way too hard for their liege. I feel as if I have to do something for them, fighting for human rights. It all feels a bit like a game (Crusader Kings 2) and somehow faith is an important factor. I also tagged down that I had made a letter to the king and I remember seeing flashes of Filip (Current king of Belgium). I help the peasants with their hard work and somehow guns and fighting were involved according to my tag-book but I can't really remember anything of that.

2. Left behind

I'm in a weird deserted shopping mall and I see one of my fellow students, I go up an escalator and suddenly I'm standing on a nice road somewhere in the country side of what I think is France, although it still feels very familiar like it's near where I live. I walk past a house and see another fellow student walking out in sport-gear and ask him what's he's up to. He talks about an important marathon everyone's participating in, I don't know anything of this marathon and walk away. I see hints of this marathon and read somewhere that it was 310 KM long, goes through France and ends in some place called 'Helmet'/'Hemlet'.

3. Infiltration

I'm with a team of armed men standing infront of an old building ready to breach in. One of them calls me and offers me a rifle, he asks "You know how to operate this?", I respond "Yes, that's an M1 Garand." and I quickly practice reloading the rifle and aim it at the door. The door opens and we storm inside, suddenly it all feels very much like a game, I have difficulties aiming the rifle as it seems to have a life of it's own. My vision switches to a strategic overview of the whole situation and I'm able to see the whole team including myself from 10 meters high. First we fight some sort of digital glitch, a pixilly being that acts like some sort of wall preventing us from advancing any further. After shooting it for a bit it suddenly starts to violently jerk around and then it splits up into multiple small fragments of itself, we continue. Behind the door in the next room is a giant Sumo-man or giant Baby you could almost call it that tries to hulk-smash us, we can dodge it's attacks for some time but then it corners me and I get crushed. I react in the same way like I would do in a Co-op game with friends and sit back, I keep watching the rest of the team fighting in an observer-mode where I can fly around watching the battle from all angles.


4. Be silent

I'm walk in a rebel-camp and see a lot of young people sitting on the ground eating I think or just talking to each other, in the distance I see Vaas who seems to be the leader. He walks over to the group I'm sitting at and people seem to be intimidated by his presence, he calls everyone to meditate and not make any sound. When I mean not making any sound I mean not even the sound of your own breathing... After some time I and someone else start to get problems controlling our breath and we start breathing louder and louder, I notice Vaas seems to become more and more aware of this and then he stands up and tells us again not to make any sound.

Now that any distractions are gone it's time to fully use my 2 months of freedom to master Lucidity and hopefully become so good at it that I will be able to continue it when school starts again. See you next time!

2 DILDs 6/21, 1 on 6/22 & 6/26. Possible lucid 6/18 but not counting it. Semi Lucid 6/25

6/18: possible lucid/not counting - working from my family room everything went completely dark and I knew something was odd, this is dream-like and I stay very calm just the way I respond to the void and I think quite different from the way I would act IWL. (This makes me wonder what I was dreaming right before this). After a short time in the void it went to some NREM-like visuals including a grid pattern which seems relatively common for me (smaller and uneven blocks within the grid than in the past). Also acted lucid-like with a young lady who apparently goes both ways and I said we should invite a female friend to join us.

6/21: DILD#1 leaving out details since I told this person about the dream. The person wasn't making any sense in their answer to my question so I realized it was a dream but didn't get very far with it anyway. 163

6/21 DILD#2 later in night; I had been disappointed that I didn't get another Father's Day appropriate lucid like I did Father's Day 2013 but I got one late featuring my son as a toddler in the house he grew up in. It was cute. At first my thought in the dream was why is my son (who is a young man now) pretending to be a little boy and making a fuss but I finally looked over at him and noticed his head was barely visible, looking closer he was not sitting on the floor but was just a little boy and I realized I was dreaming! I love seeing my son as a small boy again in dreams. The dream fades to a visual of my ceiling and then of what seemed like a dreamlet of a friendly looking talking tree and then a close up of my face with my eyes closed (assumed it was of me sleeping)...odd! 164

6/22 Great New York City dream flying around the city. Hanging on the edge ofa tall building and seeing a guy dancing around on the streets and the song New York, New York playing. Where did that come from?? Also some discussion on slowing down for the important parts (of song? of life? NY tour? of speech? of explanations?). Wake, recall dream smiling.
DILD: * I am in a big room don't think it has the airport yet but becomes airport later. I see a guy go by in a really nice suit. I see elder bro-law walk by. Also N the show tunes lover perhaps brought to scene by thoughts related to bro-law. Bro-law comes back by and says something like your family all left you and went on vacation. Now it seems like I'm at the airport and there's some announcements I don't know if it mentions my wife's name or my name but I got up to look at the screen like they have at airports. Amazing, the screen says "(insert wife's 1st & last name) your flight is on hold because you are lucid." What? I am dreaming this? I float up and start swooping around this airport waiting area with high ceilings and I almost go for this hot young thing but I think let me just explore. I fly around a bit more before it goes dark so I decided to land back down on my feet on the ground and I start walking in the dark waiting for the scene to come back but instead I find myself back bed. 165

6/23: excited to hear that a friend saw me on an episode of Lost. Oh yeah, I must have been an extra...doh! Also found out my voice would be used in a World Cup video game.

6/25 Kevin Spacey as an assassin stalking a sexy blonde. Played more like watching a movie. I don't think I was involved in the story. +Two very sexy dreams. One with someone I know, another I don't recognize but super hot! Seemed semi-lucid. Yowzers!

6/26 DILD: At odd version of where I play league games. Then changing in bedroom like set up. Son with me. I decide to change in front of woman and she hangs behind me seemingly checking out my butt. Wife calls and sounds half asleep. Confusion as uncle D(?) hears the call and it is a mix of wife's call and client call like I switched between calls but client was still on line and can hear client at end of call. Becomes a family gathering... some Susan lady is there...why is she even there? She tore two of my old photographs. Each had my cousins in them. Two eldest cousins I think. Why would she do that. I am so angry! I feel like waking this Susan up right now! Aunt of eldest cousin dissuades me. I go out front door and through a big locking gate (to my car?) but can't lock gate when come back in...a little fear like someone might be following me to gate. I leave it and head for the door. A strange woman and family let me in. Huge dog seems friendly at first but then the owner has to hold him back from knocking me over. "How did I get to the wrong house? This is like I stepped into the Twilight Zone. Ah I know what's going on...I'm dreaming." I look around at this family and feel frisky but it goes dark but I stay calm. I remove my pants and underwear in the dark and it gets tied up around my ankles so I whip it the rest of the way of with tk (ignore problems/ take decisive action). Off shirt, fully nude. Soon I hear someone talking to me and I am back in a room with a large family....not sure if it is the same and is not my family...I don't see the strange lady. I scan the room and there is a cute girl but too young and she slightly morphs to a boyish look. I turn to my left...she will do just fine. I reach over to her and she turns away a little. I Jedi mind her and say you know you want this. Intercourse and then whip it out and stick it in her mouth. She does well but I decide to be more romantic with her pull it out but dream fades. 166

Dreams before 4:45 - Once again, I was back at high school, (this time in the science department) where I found my way to my chemistry teachers class? I felt the urge to review some topics, but my surroundings were out of place. It was MY chemistry teacher giving the course but in the OTHER teachers classroom. Flipping open a book, I look behind the cover to find clearly written in cursive: E.L.G (Her full name was written). That's all I remember of this dream, but it amazed me to have knowledge of her full name, despite not speaking with her in a while.

There were other dreams between this period, but I cannot recollect them at the moment.

Returning to the high school with my sister, even when school has been released for the year, she has a key that opens Dewarja's science lab. The area was somewhat familiar to the back entrance to the science department but it more resembled a green-house, full with foliage. I questioned if my sister was telling the truth when she said she needed to be in there, but "whatever" I guess. We make our way in, the building being dark as we motion past the desks, until a little annoying dog (I believe a puggle) slips past the door into the building. Across the hall he went into a vending machine (I believe?), until we saw another teacher, Mead. She still looked like a toad, and had her coat & briefcase with her, implying she was here because she forgot something. The vending machine now turned into a photo-booth, with the dog yapping inside as he hid. Eventually, we make our way out with the dog following us. He followed us for a somewhat amount to the car, until the owner caught up trying to lure the dog back. I can hear the owner (Asian female) mumbling some rude slur behind us, thinking we stole her dog. Seeing that the dog obviously had more interest in us, I whistle over to him as we drive off.

After a long hiatus, I can finally focus on dreaming again.

04.14.2014

Giant Slayers (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I seem to once again be in high school, riding the bus back home. The driver gives all the students some kind of trivia assignment to be completed before leaving the bus. I have a book of facts with me that I'm using to complete the assignment. I briefly wake up as I complain (out loud) about how unfair it is to have homework on the bus.

I re-enter the dream. Now I'm hanging out at my mom's house with one of the girls from the bus. She has a tattoo on her cheek. I look in the mirror, noticing that my hair is long again. When I touch it, however, it still feels short. "Why does the mirror say my hair is long when it's not?" I ask the girl, confused. She tells me that it IS long. This is when I take note of my stupidity and realize that I must be dreaming.

"Oh, I get it," I tell her. "I'm dreaming." The girl gives me a doubtful look. "This is all just a dream. I can prove it to you. What should I do to prove it?"

She points to a guitar behind me. "Can you play?"

I look at the guitar skeptically, thinking of how musically illiterate I am. "No," I answer, "I doubt I can even play that in a dream."

"Try it. I'l only believe you if you can play it.

I pick up the guitar and surprisingly begin playing a really wicked tune. The girl grins, joining me with some sort of electronic instrument that she possesses. We have a really powerful jam session that has both of us really pumped up by the end. We laugh and cheer at our success.

"I guess this really is a dream," the girl relents.

"I guess that means you only exist in my mind," I tell her. "Or maybe we're having the same shared dream. Try to remember this later and let me know on the bus tomorrow if we're really in the same dream." (Clearly since I'm in college now, and I've never actually ever seen this girl, I have no way of knowing for sure.)

We go outside, still discussing the nature of shared dreaming. I lazily levitate down the street. "Where are we going?" my companion asks me.

"Who knows? But where ever we end up, it'll be an adventure," I promise.

Somewhere along the line, we join with two friends, a guy and a girl. I do not know them IRL, but I seem to in the dream. We come upon a beautiful swamp-land area where we decide to explore. I marvel at how real the place is, combined with an undeniable dream haze. "It feels good to travel with a group again," I tell my friends. "Ironic, since I'm called the Loner."

The forest thickens, aand we notice a huge mansion ahead. We walk onto the porch, intending to explore, when a Giant bursts from the woods. She's taller than the house--- the ground shakes with her every step.

She hasn't noticed us yet. There are several large crates on the porch--- I indicate to my friends that we should hide behind them. Before we get a chance, the Giantess looks directly at us, leaning over the bannister to peer down at us with a mighty roar.

"Take cover under the house!" I yell, taking my own advice. The giant crouches down, trying to grab at me from my hiding place. While her face is so low to the ground, I use the opportunity to slash at her. She manages to get away before I do much damage. I yell my plan to the others. Together, with much effort, we manage to get the Giant down on her back. I run towards her with my knife, but she has one of her own. When I hesitate to attack, she impales one of the girls I'm with. I cry out furiously, grabbing the knife from her and stabbing her face over and over again. Her face is a wreck; no longer can I even consider it a face. Blood is everywhere. It smells awful, like this sickly sweet organic matter... It's all over my hands, thick and slippery. I smirk, wondering what the Queen would think of me now.

The Giantess, meanwhile, is still alive. With the help of my friends, I drag her to the nearby river to drown her. All it does is heal her face. >_< I wake up, heart pounding, the smell of her blood burned into my nostrils.

06.26.2014

Yet Another Fight with a Snake Goddess (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This seems to be a recurring theme with me for some reason.

I am in an outdoors setting with my two roomates: Alex and Ninja. A large blue and black feathered snake slithers through the branches above my head, then comes to rest in a coil just in front of me. It regards me maliciously. I can tell it means to strike at any moment, so I scurry back to avoid its (likely venomous) fangs. For some reason, it seems necessary to kill this snake at all costs.

I pull out my large black knife. Alex and I take turns distracting the snake while the other attacks. After we inflict a certain amout of damage, the snake transforms into a dragon/spinx-like goddess. As the goddes has wings, we must now resort to ranged weapons. We throw miniature spears at her, which serves more to fuel her temper than to actually do any damage.

The angered goddess pulls out a dart gun and procedes to fire venomous darts at my companions and I. The darts take out Alex and Ninja, but I fight the effects. "Don't you know I'm the Queen of dreams!?" I shout at her. "Your darts have little effect on me!" I grab some unused darts from her, which are now more like syringes, and inject her with her own venom. Now that she's paralyzed, I somehow manage to weild an axe and chop her to pieces.

.../I met the lead singer and guitar of a band which lately I bought one of its albums. We start talking and I realize that we are the same sort of freaks. Apparently we have even the same psychological disorder and I notice that his t-shirt is dirt with food the same as mine. I'm amazed! Then his partner gets around and we decide that we can go to visit some underworld I know from previous visits. I can remember the smell of roses there, and I ask him if he remembers that smell, like vanilla I say. I'm hungry and wanna eat some pizza before we go there. I know the secret passage where we must go to get that underworld. I can see us slipping into the darkness and start crawling in search for some adventure. I'm fascinated with the possibilities. I think it would be fun if I can share the experience of visiting that underground place/...

* I fell asleep hearing the CD while I was taking a look to the booklet art.

* I remember some past scenes of that world where I have to crawl in the dark to get somewhere.

Dream 1


I am going shopping with my mom. I like the shirts they have here and end up getting about 4. I start thinking that I already have a lot of shirts and should've bought some shorts. One of the shirts I buy is a purple and black stripped shirt that I already have. On the left of it, in small white letters, it says 'God is Dead'. I am wearing the shirt and I like it.


Dream 2


I'm walking down a street, going to a lake. My family friend E is with me and I think her mom and brother are not too far behind. On the side of the road is a little ditch with some running water. I sit down in that and am able to float in the water as the surprisingly strong current carrys me away.

Dream
SM and I were walking in the parking lot of a mall. We were headed to the movies to see The Desolation of Smaug. I had the impression that the movie wasn't playing at one theater, so we were walking to the other theater.

I recall sitting in the theater, watching a movie, but it seemed like a really short time had passed before we were standing out in front of another theater waiting to buy tickets for another movie. Ahead of us were two older couples and they were trying to buy tickets for Lord of the Rings. One of the older ladies had mentioned that she wanted to see The Desolation of Smaug instead, but it wasn't playing at the theater they were at.

I told her we had just seen it and she asked me where, but I couldn't remember. I took out my cell phone and tried to look for where it was playing near where we were, but either the app kept shutting down or I couldn't read the text or the data was coming in to slowly. I kept trying and trying to give her the information, but it just wasn't working. SM was getting frustrated with me and eventually disappeared for a while. But I kept trying for what felt like hours.

At some point, I walked over to some benches where I saw SM laying down on one of them. SM started yelling at me about some old issue we've had in the past and it made me really angry; so I walked away.

Fragment: High School. I am at my high school getting ready to leave.

Somebody is introducing me to this new children's show. The show is called 'David the Nightmare Hunter' and it follows the adventures of this boy named David (duh) with purple eyes and white hair goes through classic high school drama like bullies and getting a girlfriend and what-not. But he was also born with this special power, that allows him to detect nightmares.
In the show 'Nightmares' are essentially demons that can disguise themselves as anyone. They will attempt to preform evil deeds as that person. David has to find and expose these people and battle their true form. When a nightmare enters their true form they become a large black monster, each one with unique powers and body parts. (For example, some nightmare monsters may look like bats or gargoyles with wings. Others may be more brute like, resembling a large ape or human with horns, you get the idea.) In order to permanently kill nightmares, one must hold up a dreamcatcher to them and recite some magic words. The nightmare then gets sucked into the dreamcatcher.
This sounds like a really cool premise for a show, but it seems to be ripping off Danny Phantom. Even the animation style was somewhat similar.
So anyways, the episode we were watching was about David venturing into an abandoned mansion where he thought a nightmare was hiding. It was something of a haunted house set up. I can recall a scene where thunder cracked outside and he hid behind a grandfather clock. David was a cowardly character, but he was tasked with fighting nightmares, constantly forcing him to be brave, adding a dimension of drama to the show. Somebody was watching the show with me and they explained to me that this was a 'class 1' nightmare, as in the smallest and least threatening.
I don't recall the battle scene all to well. The nightmare emerged from some kind of book, and looked like a small dragon. David was initially frightened by the appearance, but upon realizing the nightmare was small he took out his dreamcatcher and banished it.
The show skips to the next day at school. We see David with his two friends, god help me for their names. He had a pseudo girlfriend who wore a hoodie and had a robotic arm, and strange friend who wore a black tee-shirt with a white gear graphic on it and had long orange hair.
Then came an interesting character. Her name was never mentioned but she looked exactly like Manei, my dream guide. I couldn't help but exclaim this to the other person watching the cartoon with me. Of course he was confused. So I had to explain to him that I practice this thing called lucid dreaming and that some dreamers meet what’s called a dream guide. And that character looks exactly like her.
But it gets even better. The Manei impersonation went back to talk to her friends. One of her friends looked looked something like Marcus, but redesigned to be high school age. But it was defiantly a Marcus design. And I guess the other character was supposed to be a representation of me. He looked strange, one eye was blue-green, and the other one was bright orange, and he wore a dark blue scarf.
Okay, there is no way that this show is a legit thing. How does somebody copy two characters so perfectly out of my dream journal?! Who created this show?! The person sitting next to me just looked confused.

I woke up.

Update: This dream was the inspiration for my new avatar.

06/26/14

8am

non-lucid

At a pet store with my husband. We came across this screen that lets you interact with a parrot. I would then find the actual parrot is behind the right corner of the shelf the screen is on.

I get separated from my husband and then catch up with him at the aquariums. This is a recoccuring dream setting. Inside a long, horizontal tank we see mini tanks for mini fish, like a mini clown fish. We discuss getting one. I also see normal sized clown fish inside the tank. We walk to the other side of the tank and come across the shark tanks. I avoid looking and run when it comes to the great whites. I wonder what would happen if the tanks broke.

We leave through this door that leads to an elevator. Another guy is also there. It starts lowering and then I realize we're lowering into the great white tank.

lucid

I feel my paralyzed body and debate changing the scene and trying to accomplish my dream plan of going to Japan. But I know I have to get up for work since I've slept in, so I choose to wake up.

Reflections: I knew I could lucid dream, I just didn't have enough time unfortunately. But I think this is a great improvement. I actually had choice and was calm once finding out I was paralyzed. Usually when paralysis enters in, I try to wake myself up right away.

The Joker

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I´m in an old school i dont recognize. I go outside and see a street. The school is pretty dark and made out of dark bricks. I see a near roof and decide to climb up there. I use a rain gutter to get up there. As i explore the roof a narrator voice tells me the joker has arrived. I climb down and there are already a couple guys fighting him. I shoot a gun at him but miss. He then shoots at me and i lay down on the ground and play dead. I´m really scared but at the same time i kinda know that I´m safe. My family comes and thinks I´m dead but i explain my playing dead. I´m back on the roof circled by a group of bad guys with all kinds of weapons. I go right for the first one and punch him in the face. I take his RPG and begin firing at the other ones. Sadly nothing really happens and they only fly around in the air after getting hit. Apparently I´m also really bad at aiming with such a weapon . So when i realize i cant kil them i decide to talk to them. Turns out they´re not so bad after all. From time to time in the conversation i try to murder them by firing right infront of their feet but they just grin stupidly.
I climb down the pipe and go to the other group, nobody´s fighting anymore. I´m confused and look for the Joker. I find him standing next to us with a Joker mask on. I pull down his mask to reveal the same thing just for real now. I grab him from behind when he try´s to run, grab his head and attempt an epic neck snap but nothing really happens so i give up. The Joker seems dead now. Everything looks good now I´m pleased and i go talk to the remaining people who just started a mouth watering BBQ.

Hi everyone, this morning around 7 around woke up spontaniously and had quiet good DR, I could remember atleast 3 dreams. However I felt too sleepy and confident to write them down at that moment, so I fell back asleep for 3 hours and by the time I woke up I could only remember one dream very fuzzy. In the coming nights and mornings I will try and get in the habbit of writing in my DR, doing an RC and questioning reality upon awakening. I will set my clock to wake me up after 6 hours of sleep as this is the time I have best DR, largest REM-cycles which means that it's the optimal time to do induction techniques like WILD/SSILD/... which should raise my chances of lucidity a lot.

1. The boring swimming-pool

I'm in a modern building that has an indoor swimming-pool, there's several people in it relaxing and I see my sister too. I get in the water which splashes a little bit but that was unavoidable, however my sister is quiet annoyed and asks me to keep it quiet. I respond telling her that I couldn't do anything about it and I pay close attention not to disrupt her again.

I am with my mom and sister and we are going to see a movie. This movie is at a grocery store, so we pay for our tickets at the front and make our way to the designated isle. On the way, I see some 'exit only' doors and a man coming in through them. I wonder how he was able to do that. In the isle, the screen is on one side and a row of about 6 mattresses is on the other side. They lay down on two of them and I end up in a section between two of the mattresses.