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*Tried to WILD+WBTB again last night, with no success at all. I've reached the conclusion that I cannot attempt to lucid dream until the weather gets cooler. Even with the air conditioner on, it's still painfully hot and uncomfortable upstairs, keeping me from being able to relax properly. I'll have to wait until it gets cooler, or until I get a new fan, because my old one broke. For now, I'm going to focus on improving my dream recall by writing all my dreams down here.*

I did have 2 small dreams last night. The first one was this:

I think it involved being near my school, but the only thing I really remember was boarding a really cramped school bus, and sitting next to someone whom I've probably never seen before. I don't remember their face, it was odd...

The second one was:

The next one involved me being far away from a hill that had a wooden gate that was open. I was at the bottom of the hill with a sniper rifle picking off "bad guys" that really looked like they belonged in Far Cry 3. I've been playing a lot of that game lately, so I guess this was bound to happen eventually. My parents were near them for some reason, and I was defending them I suppose.

I don't remember much else, so I guess that's it. It sucks that I need to wait for the weather to get better in order for me to try to LD, but it shouldn't take too long since it's already September.

Morning of September 9, 2015. Wednesday.



I am apparently at a department of education building, possibly in Brisbane, but it is more like my old school in Arcadia. However, the building may actually be at least four storeys high or more, though I think we are on the top floor. There also seem to be classes held at times or at least meetings, mostly with eighteen-year-olds and up. I am with my wife Zsuzsanna in one of the rooms and I start to work on a subtraction program for our two youngest sons to enhance their speed in general mathematics. Over time, I am actually able to read and resolve the code, but I still do not feel it is perfect, as I want to make sure there are no errors in how the digits are presented and such in columns (though I still want the randomization to be reasonable).

My wife and I seem to be the only people in the building at first at one point (though I sensed our two youngest sons were there earlier), as I sense it is late at night and the building has mostly been locked for the night. However, at least one other person, an obnoxious young Ivy Leaguer from Yale of about twenty years old (who seems a fictional associate or old classmate at one point, though I never went to Yale) is in the building, but is causing problems with the building’s security as well as possibly damaging or altering cache copies of extensive records and educational reports and administration feedback and with the seeming goal of replacing important information with mindless gossip about each and every teacher and student. He is even putting glitches in the calculus programs and altering images and data in civics and sociology programs. I decide to alter the building’s computer system and block access to the internal workings of the building and all the records. This is unusual in that the building itself is like a computer relative to software-driven doors, lights, elevator functions, and many other features. It is as if everything in the building is somehow linked to computer software (though seemingly not voice-driven).

The pad for the main building’s system looks like Windows calculator. I falsely “remember” a special function that does not cause the building to “self-destruct” but to cause total confusion for clueless intruders and would-be vandals. I enter the Qword DEAD C0DE 0BAD FEED as a hexadecimal input (with of course the “0” being a zero as the letters only go from A to F, thus why it is called hexadecimal - for the six letters). This causes random byte values to be placed in random buffers all over the building in every software-driven section, similar to the “poke” command on old Commodore 64 computers (though in this case does not breach the internal records, which are all backed up in non-adjacent systems). Various lights go off and on randomly and even random doors open and close. This seems to all be taking place on at least the third floor at this point.

After awhile, the unknown male comes out of a room and seems annoyed. He tells me that all this chaos will alert the authorities (or possibly even randomly trigger an alarm). He seems to think I am “with” him, but my wife and I just want him out and then we will leave the building. He apparently thinks it is amusing to disrupt the educational and social progress of people of all ages (including children). When we are walking in a hall, I push him into a malfunctioning elevator that is halfway between floors but the fall does not injure him that badly. This scene is the most vivid and realistic part of my dream, though I am not lucid at any point. (This also now triggers a memory of when my sister Marilyn used to say “his elevator doesn’t go to the top floor” when talking about an annoying or less-intelligent person.)

From here, I notice some sort of meeting being held in one classroom, which I can see through the glass walls and horizontal darker zebrawood beams on the other side of the hall from the elevator. The speaker is an older lady with gray hair and somewhat stocky (she does not look at all familiar in any way). She seems very friendly and responsive. I ask her if there are any authorities in the building but at this point, things seem to be getting back to normal as it seems the intruder has left the building (or possibly already caught by security guards or police), which has rebooted itself with one of the random values triggering the reboot function. My wife and I go to the first floor.

Just prior to us walking from the building into the late night (or very early morning), I notice we are completely undressed. I am not even sure how and when that happened. Perhaps one of the random values triggered the erasing of our clothes, but that is only a very vague and very brief contemplation. I pull a thin bed sheet seemingly out of nowhere (out of the air itself, it seems) to cover myself as we walk home, feeling quite happy at this point.

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Morning of September 9, 2015. Wednesday.



In the first part of my dream, which does not flow directly into the next scenes, I am on stage playing a flute for a seemingly long time; a very long version of “For My Lady” (from Seventh Sojourn from 1972, which I had on cassette for a number of years) and I seem to actually be performing with The Moody Blues. From here, I eventually fly from the stage into an (at first) unknown region.

I decide to walk for awhile. Eventually, I seem to be in an undesirable part of town. For some reason, an unknown male approaches me. I first think that his intent is to rob me, so I say how I know (I think) someone named Tony, who apparently leads a group of gangsters. I had never met this person, but the other male walks back to his apartment building, taking me along in a friendly manner.

When we reach the building and the small room which is somewhat kitchen-like, there is a young gangster in a T-shirt who is smoking and who is apparently the leader. He is seated on a small wooden chair. A burly male stands by another door. Oddly, the leader seems to acknowledge me as “David”, which the other male calls me as if that is my actual name (though I can tell he does not remember me - though also can sense he accepts me as someone he knew years ago). I get a vague impression that David was the human name of the Incredible Hulk, but it is not pertinent to any aspect of my dream. I really do not want to hang around these people so I make the excuse that I will leave and do a “hit” for them, as the leader seems to be broke and the idea of a “hit” is supposedly to get money (rather than just kill someone) and not necessarily kill the person you are robbing.

I leave and eventually reach the front of the building. Unexpectedly, the “staircase” is made of old pieces of railroad ties that were split in half and are arranged downward like a diagonal crooked ladder rather than steps. I have to climb down, which is somewhat annoying, trying on both my stomach and in crab position. Two very happy young Jamaican boys (probably only about three years old) are also playing on the diagonal ladder on my left and climbing down. I have a bit of concern for them, as the structure eventually goes down into seemingly deep water. An immensely overweight Jamaican woman is on my right and has to climb over me to get to her children but it is not that problematic and there is no drama. Humorously, now is the time I pick to fly up and away, rather than having done it from the top of the problematic faux staircase.

From here, I fly north down Tenth Street, past the King Street boarding house on the corner and to my left, flying about five feet from the ground. Someone shouts as if annoyed, so I fly much higher, but then fly back down to about ten feet from the street. Eventually, I think about visiting relatives, but soon realize that most of my relatives in this region have died. I fly past an unfamiliar bakery (which is on my right) where there is a red-haired girl visible through the large front windows and seemingly taking something out of a large oven, possibly muffins or cookies. I wave absentmindedly and she waves back but does not seem that friendly. I somehow think it is Anita (who never had red hair) but then I realize it is my wife’s younger half-sister Leila, who we have not seen in years (and she has never been to America as far as I know). I continue to fly on and upward and then decide that I should fly back home so I can “finally” wake up (even though I had not been actively lucid at any point). I am glad to wake up and be “back” with my wife and family.

Slept a bit longer today, quite tired, and had good late morning dreaming. So much that it gave the feeling of "I can't hold all these dreams in my head at once." A big improvement over this last week of onesy twosy dreaming nights. Not a lot of detail but just sort of key moments recalled, but still much better than other recent dreams.

Hopefully this signals a turnaround in my recall heading now for a "local maxima." Not close to lucidity in any dreams.

2015-09-08
23:30 bedtime

2015-09-09
04:30
+ playing "basketball" at the park with a small bouncy ball (one inch diameter, like for jacks). I'm trying to dribble this thing, and it's always getting away from me and I have to run faster and faster to try to keep up with it.

On the hill side where the road leads up to the middle level, there is a hole in the wall and something about the ball going in there and my wife giving stern directions about it.

Lots of water in the evening culminated in a water waking around 5 hours, the earliest I've noticed a waking in at least a week or more. Actually pulled off the will to sit on the edge of the bed for a bit for a short WBTB. Almost felt like I was up too long still, as I felt almost no drowsiness as I returned to bed. Maybe 20 minutes falling asleep, trying to WILD, to a mantra. Fell asleep unconsciously.

+ work, colleagues
I'm in a meeting with J the engineering founder of company R. He's going over a list (written, I see the items on a page as he discusses them) with (Microsoft?) about all the problems in their API that prevent hardware vendors from reaching peak performance. If these are not dealt with in time company R will go out of business.

I'm walking towards a long straight stairway, and pass an office on the left with a guy working on a computer, I feel he's a bit worried about me seeing his screen. He seems to be Josh Brener's character from "The Internship". I'm heading up this stairs and he's beside me, I ask him if "he's going to perforce later."

At the top of the stairs I encounter large crowds of former colleagues. "Hey <my name>!" they call constantly! I wave and shake hands. I see JM (company 3) sitting among others, [probably the only real former colleague in the dream]. I see AM he's standing by some very large mini-refrigerator server systems with lots of blinking lights. I say "<hardware devices> are all smoke and mirrors, all the work is done on these servers!" AM says something in response to that.

I'm greeting more colleagues. Some guys behind me say "Hey <my name>!" I turn and look behind me and see some non-engineering colleagues who I vaguely recognize.

I'm shaking lots of people's hands. Then I see a particularly "good friend" [false] and I say "hey!" and while I shake his hand with my right hand I reach with my left and and slap/clasp his right hand also with my left.

later (multiple wakings, final waking 08:30-9?)

+ billiards
I'm playing a team game of pool. Our opponents are at the table. The guy has a ball and the cue ball against the rail about half-way between the corner and side pocket, and he sets up to bank it into the near corner. He whacks the balls so hard the object ball goes flying at high speed and lands amazingly enough in the corner pocket. The guys around are saying "great shot!" but I'm mumbling under my breath "anyone can whack the balls around like that and get lucky." Then he (or his teammate?) tries to make another shot with a lot of English and miscues and scratches. My teammate takes the cue ball and I remind him he has ball-in-hand because of the foul. There is another scratch and I take an object ball up and put it near the spot.

+(f) sex
Vague, short

+ parking, house with people, story about vacation
Arrive "home" to friend's house the woman is driving and leaves the car parked on the side of the road, I'm a bit concerned that other people are trying to get by it?

I'm telling the story of my recent vacation, I say "I was just in <place> and it was so hot there I was sweating all day long. But at night, it was still *warm* and very comfortable. You could sit outside at a restaurant and be completely comfortable." People around nod agreement in how nice that is.

+ concert, borrow instrument
I have an upcoming concert, and I remember the guy in the house full of people I've been spending time in said I could borrow his instrument. I have a pile of coins to offer in way of some compensation. I go in the house and ask him very nicely if I could borrow his instrument. I'm surprised when he seems hesitant (says no?) because he already told me yes. I recall then that the concert is later *today* and I also have another one tomorrow. I'm screwed if I can't borrow his instrument.

+(f) give toy to boy
I'm in some store-like place. I've unwrapped a medium-sized toy (Lego something?) and given it to the boy. I'm wondering if he wonders why it's unwrapped.

+ in house with people, girl
Again in the house with lots of people (where I'm a guest?), I'm with a girl and I'm caressing her stomach and head north to her chest. I'm a bit concerned about what the guy will thing, the girl is OK with it. I tell her "I love you" and kiss the side of her head, she tells me "I love you, too!"

I was on a beach at night. Lucid now. I remember feeling like I was on a rather small island. There was a strange dim light emitting from all around me. I didn't really take notice of that. I remember I felt a menacing presence, like some kind of monster was coming to torment/attack me.

I saw two rabbits come out of the woods. One of them was considerably smaller than the other. It had light brownish fur. There were patches of fur missing and what looked like burns. The larger rabbit was spotted and had its ears clipped clean off and was bleeding from them.

I then swiped my hands across the two rabbits trying to heal them. It didn't work completely. The burns on the small rabbit looked smaller and less severe. The larger rabbit had one of his ears back. It was then that a wite cat came hobbling out of the rainforest. Also injured, it was missing its leg. I then did the same thing to the cat and gave it back its leg. I felt that the monster was getting closer. I could tell the animals were on edge.

I saw the monster emerge from the woods. It had yellow eyes and a sort of horse head, with a mouth that hung open and sharp teeth. I think something on its shoulders was on fire. It had a sort of centaur build, with a humanoid body becoming that of a horse.

I could feel its negative presence was very strong. It was somehow able to re-injure the animals just by emitting some kind of wave of negative energy. I felt the wave too, but it was too weak to affect me. I could also tell that the monster wasn't particularly interested in scaring/hurting me, though it's presence was still frightening. It merely wanted to torment the animals.

I thought about fighting the monster at first, but then remembered my 'scare them off' technique.

Spoiler for Spooky Scary Face:

The monster made a yelping sound and ran back into the woods.

I just scared off my own nightmare. Oh, how the tables have turned... (Though granted, I should have asked it what it represented.)

I looked back at the animals that I was protecting and healed them a second time, at least to the best of my ability. I then decided that I would bring good fortune to them. I reached into my pocked expecting to pull out something useful. I only felt a little peice of paper. When I took it out and unfolded it, I thought it was a one hundred dollar bill. Closer examination revealed that it was a one hundred thousand dollar bill.

I tried to give it to the smaller rabbit, who still had the burns to some degree. It looked at me curiously, as if to say 'How's that supposed to help?'. I figured animals wouldn't have much use for money. So I just tried repeatedly wiping my hand over the rabbit, completely healing it. The dream fades out here.

Once I use a dream power three times, I count it as a persistent dream power. This means that scary face to scare off dcs and avoid conflict is a go.

I was a character in an anime/TV show. It was a school show that took place in a floating school inside the atmosphere of Jupiter. The school was a number of very high tech looking white boxes suspended by some kind of gravity particle technology. They were connected by exterior platforms and there was some kind of field that kept a breathable, non-corrosive atmosphere in the vicinity of the school. The overall look of the location was exceptionally well rendered.

The characters however, looked flat and cartoony. Like poorly animated flash characters superimposed on a realistic and beautiful environment. Many of them had rather bland and forgettable designs or were characters that I recognized from either my own creation or any animated series that I have seen.

For a time, I was one of the characters. I was just walking around quietly. Curiously observing the surroundings. I had some inkling that what I was experiencing was a daydream. I recall seeing that one character was trapped in a small white floating box with a similar aesthetic to the school. I remember thinking that this was some kind of bullying tactic.

I then was booted from controlling myself, and forced to observe in third person. A couple of characters approached mine, asking if he would like to stay after school and help them study. 'I' said no, justifying it with the idea that the other characters were ugly and therefore not worth spending my time with.

My character then left the scene. It then explained these characters had made underwent some kind of change at night. Where the ugly nerd characters would become beautiful and the beautiful characters would become ugly. It had something to do with the machine/box that the one character was sitting in earlier.

The dream had some kind of moral having do to with how you should not judge a book by its cover.

I became lucid at this point and decided that the dream was pointless. This was projected by my character getting a cartoonish rage face and screaming. "Stop making me a character on a TV show!"

I am getting a bit bothered by these 'character in a TV show' dreams. Maybe I should start getting to the bottom of why they keep occurring.

I also recall part of a dream where I was at what felt like my old high school. Only it was spread out across multiple buildings and there were beautiful outdoor areas with gardens and fountains. I was walking with my some random people who I felt were my friends, and talking about lucid dreaming. Naturally, this led me to actually become lucid.

I remember I came outside because I needed to explain something to them. I tried to use dream control to create a world map for some reason, though it failed to alter the environment in any way.

I then remember I started eating a rather large chocolate chip cookie. Though the cookie had a sort of unnatural yellowish color to it. It tasted really good, and I knew it was a dream so I could chow down all I wanted, but for some reason, I started getting a sickly feeling in my stomach anyway. I stopped and pondered what I was doing for a good long time.

Manei approached me, though she had taken the form of a young boy. Not sure if it was on purpose. She asked me what I was going to do now. I threw the cookie into the grass and said that I knew what was important here and now. She started to energy sync with me and I lost the dream.

...

There was a large section on nonlucid dream before this that I have forgotten.

I was again with Manei. This time we are in a bog and there are some other DCs present. Though they are not actively attacking us, they are exceedingly and intentionally annoying. I became lucid and I flew the both of us away.

I flew up over a forested ridge. There was a beautiful and expansive oriental city spread out in that direction. The city had green and gold rooftops with a sort of beige construction. The buildings had a very ubiquitous look to them. Though there was some variation in height, size and shape, they were all so similar in design and none of them had any defining characteristics.

I then made the mistake of asking myself how the heck I was carrying her. Last time I tried to lift off with her on my shoulders I didn't get more than six inches off the ground and flew backwards into a tree. Just as I thought that we started going down. I thought to myself "It's a dream! She doesn't even have any real weight!" but I was plummeting toward the ground anyway. The thought had entered my mind and now it was not going to leave. We fell into a dirt street at speeds that would kill anyone IWL and rolled across the ground. Not a scratch on us, of course.

For some reason this was absolutely hilarious to her and she wouldn't stop laughing. I knew she knew how I let the thought of failure into my mind fully aware of what the end result would be.

"Fine then, maybe you should start flying me around."

She had to ponder that for a second. Apparently this was a new idea to her.

I got up. The dream went in third person for a moment. It had become very foggy and I took note that there was nobody in the city. There was a wind chime hanging from the corner of one of the roofs that made an odd sound.

I got bored and instead began thinking of ways we could travel together. I considered a glider staff, like from Avatar. Or perhaps a hoverboard. Or what about some kind of pocket dimension thing that I could put her inside. Nah. She wouldn't like that...

The dream faded into waking daydreams. I was awake now, but the final portion of the dream continued to play over and over for sometime.

I had a rather distressing dream last night about fighting to use a public toilet . On the positive side my recall has increased significantly over the past few days.
1: I was at a bank with my dad, but for some reason he was in a wheelchair. We withdrew some money from an ATM, but as we were leaving some people came up to us with guns. I think my dad got up out of his wheelchair and started fighting them, which surprised everyone involved.

2: I was watching/involved with motorbike and car racing, in particular a race where one competed against the other. I was racing/watching the guy on the motorbike, and as I was going around the corner one of my tyres burst, so I erratically tried to cross over the line before the car who I was previously beating zoomed up to overtake me.

3: I was at an art exhibition and party with my brother at school. Initially everyone in the year level had a feast of pizza and coke, then we went to look at the art. I think the theme of the exhibition was meant to be offensive art, as a lot of it had somewhat offensive jokes about students in my year level. There was one about me and my brother involving the twin towers and bananas in pyjamas, which I found hilarious but I don't know how the other DC's reacted haha.

4: I was involved in a school camp, with a group of 'the lads' and I sharing a really nice, big wooden cabin room. I can't remember to much of this but I do remember a large fireplace in the middle of the room.

5: Toilet dream! My brother, dad and I went to a cinema to watch Rush Hour 4(my dream memory told me that I had just watched rush hour 3 prior so wanted to see the new one). Unfortunately when we arrived we found that the movie had been cancelled that day, and with nothing else grabbing our attention we decided to go home. I needed to go to the toilet, so I lined up outside the public toilet thing they had there. There were 2 people in front of me at first, 1 of them went in, then another guy cut infront to be the next person in. By this stage the line had grown to about a dozen people and tensions were flaring. The guy in front of me went so I was in front, but all these people behind were pushing and shoving to go in. I held them back for a while but 1 slipped through and got in, even though the previous guy wasn't done. A massive argument started and the guy inside refused under any circumstances to get out. As this was the only public toilet around everyone grew irate and I received the brunt of the hate. I tried to escape by running outside, and I saw there was a toilet at the beachy end of what appeared to be the island I was on. I ran towards it and the crowd behind me followed, with one of the managing to sneak infront and get there first. he slipped inside and I was left to battle the crazy horde outside. The dream crossed over a bit with the school camp one, as I went through a side door to find another camp group's cabin. They invited me to use their toilet, but I felt a sense of duty and responsibility for what was happening outside. So, I dived back outside and fought my way through the raging throng of people to the door. Once there I had to fight off 3 people at a time for about a minute while the other guy was going, all the while screaming "It's MY turn to sue the toilet!". Eventually the toilet was free and I made inside, to blessed relief .

6: Just a fragment, something about an incredibly expensive gold table tennis ball, worth something like 25 000 dollars.

I was finally able to sleep again! I slept for 8-9 hours after 3 or 4 days of only being able to sleep 4-5 hours a day, very very frustrating.

I was in some weird place where I had to stay for thousands of years, with no escape. There were other people already there and everybody had a computer. I don't know what I did wrong and why I'm in this prison. There was also something else going on, but I don't know how this is compatable with the improsenment. There was some man in his 40s or 50s who wanted to hang out with me. We talked some and went to an Italian restourant, there was ice cream at the restaurant that cost like 3-4 times extra if you wanted it to be freshmade a few days ago. There were private musicians at 2 or 3 tables, and we noted that it's annoying to have 2-3 musicians playing a something different at the same time :P

Later on, in the prison, I tried to make a ball of energy to fire it at the guy imprisoning us, and it didn't work. A fellow prisoner saw me and he fired a ball of his own, and the prison guard fired one that was 2-3 times bigger than that one against it. I don't know what happened next.

There was also a part where I had to do some puzzles with door hinges/locks or something and there were some friendly dogs there. I considered hugging and petting one and didn't do it. I don't remember why.

Tried to WILD+WBTB last night. Woke up 2 times before my alarm could go off. The second time was about 10 minutes before my alarm was set to go off. I tried to WILD after that, but with only minor success. The transition was sort of reached, but I panicked out of excitement... I need to learn to relax, but I have figured out a way to help with this technique that may work for others.

In order to relax and focus, I was constantly saying to myself in my mind: "Focus. Dismiss the thoughts. Relax." over and over. Not in that order but whatever. I visualized the words as well, and it seemed to work pretty well up to the transition.

I'll try again tonight. Hopefully with this new knowledge, I'll have some luck.

It has two years since my first two lucid dreams. I admit I wasn't trying enough and at some point I forgot the whole thing, but lately I decided to try again. I was trying DILD mainly although DEILD is what worked for me before, but it requires much luck, it is not easy to remember to stay still when you wake up before you make any move. Also I find WBTB difficult, I don't think I can relax enough, so I'm saving this one to later.

Anyway I watched dream signs and I could never commit to doing enough reality checks, but today I finally did it!!!
I'm so excited and I wanna write the whole story but some parts I don't remember accurately.

First, I got sick and took a permission to work from home today, but I still woke up at 8:30 am without an alarm from a non-lucid vivid dream, then I talked to someone at work who is leading the project I'm working in, and he said I don't have to work from home today if I'm sick, so I decided to take a nap and then decide if I will work or not. I woke up from the lucid dream around 11 am, so the nap was around 2 hours long. I mentioned the times because I had my last lucid dream during a morning nap too, so I'm guessing that's something I should try more often at least on weekends.

It was a DILD this time, no SP or any other kind of transitions which is totally new for me since I had SP the first two times.
I was having a normal dream that I don't recall with details now but I think it was kinda scary then somehow ended in a car going to work, and as I mentioned above I'm staying at home today in the real world and I was considering more than just one day working at home, so in the dream I started thinking "Why am I here? I'm not supposed to go to work, I probably should go back." (The reality check I was trying lately but couldn't commit to was the "How did I end up here" one. so I guess it worked ). Then I started to suspect that this wasn't real because I am sure I shouldn't be here. Anyway I arrived there and decided to do a check. I dunno why I didn't try the normal reality checks, but what popped to my mind was to try to test the taxi driver's reaction. My logic was that he normally has to get paid, so if I'm in a dream he probably won't care , so I opened the door, and got out without paying anything, but he got mad! and starting yelling at me. I paid him and somehow I realized I'm dreaming while I'm paying him, probably because I kept thinking "I'm not supposed to be here". I literally threw the money at him after I realized I'm lucid dreaming, and walked away fast.

At that moment I tried to control my excitement since my last lucid dream was so brief because I got so excited and touching the floor couldn't stabilize it back then. I walked to the middle of the street and started spinning (it was the first time I try this technique), it felt so nice and the dream got stabilized. I tried to change the scene with spinning but I saw only slight changes, like colors and so. I was trying to change the scene to something simple I always planned to try, a green big field and a black horse. That didn't work, but I decided to move on and not focus on it so much.

I walked around and ended up in some building. It had my bedroom which I wasn't sleeping in tonight, and many other different rooms that can't be in a house. Anyway I didn't try to control the surroundings, but doors led me to different rooms which I don't remember in detail now like when I wake up from a normal dream. I got in my bedroom which wasn't exactly the same, and decided to ask my subconscious some questions (I made the decision a while ago to try that first since it is easier than changing scenes).

I started with my first question which was something about jobs always getting screwed up for me, something always happens that makes it is too hard to stay. Anyway, my voice at first was low, later I could shout. When I asked the question, I got a cat thrown from the window, it was like an empty stuffed cat and I thought he/she would talk, but he/she did nothing. So, I asked again, and I got a real cat jumping through the window, and he/she talked to me. That was kinda scary at first but I listened. It was a low deep male voice, and the answer was cynical, something about how all people with talents should be screwed like that, but I don't remember the exact words now. The voice was low, and I asked the voice to repeat some parts, and it would only repeat the last part it said, never more.

I left the cat and asked another question which was about a risk I wanted to take. A business to start because that has always been my dream and because I am sick of working for others. This time the answer came through a phone, a traditional one. I didn't dial anything, I just held it, and I don't remember how it ended up in my hand. I got the answer with the same low deep male voice, and again it was cynical about how that would be a risk and if it would fail "that would be it for me" in my career. The same thing happened with repeating parts I didn't hear. I was walking around while talking, and noticed some teens around who were making noise and making it hard to hear, so I yelled at them "quiet", and that's when the voice stopped answering, maybe because I got distracted.

Anyway I got out of the room, and decided to try again to change the scene, but it didn't work and I woke up. I just woke up like from a normal dream, nothing special.

Conclusion and notes for me:

• Morning naps work for me
• How did I end up here reality check might be the best for me.
• I am much better at stabilizing dreams now, and spinning works! I also tried touching my body while spinning.
• I'm not good at control yet, I was in full control of my character in the dream, but not the surroundings or other characters.
• I hardly interacted with dream characters, only the teens I yelled at, and the taxi driver was before I realized I was dreaming. I was too focused on me, and didn't pay attention to other characters. I should try to change that.
• I dunno what the voice I heard was, but if it is my subconscious, it is so cynical and I don't think I want to talk to it again
• I need to read much about creating scenes and practice visualization more.

Went to bed at around 9 pm after reading about Reverse Blinking. I would like to try give it a shot although I am not sure if I understand how to do it correctly but can see some folk get great results.

So laying there after taking some time to relax and I start to blink ( I think this means open my eyes and close them again quickly but in one place I read you have to open your eyes long enough to focus on something ...) my eyes open every 5 seconds or so... it was hard to count for 5 secs at same time but I am hoping it gets more natural next time I went on for quite a while like this and my eyes ,more than anything , started to get very very dry almost painfully dry.

So I decided to stop and relax - HI was strong and I tried to look past it instead of straight on - it goes on for a bit and calms down - I slip into a restful/sleep.

I am suddenly awake within my relaxation in a calm space I recognise ,what I think is Nrem/Delta . I sense a strong profound presence and feel I have been communicating for some time in my sleep unconsciously...
' Who are you?' I ask
' How do you know I am here, most people don't notice me.' The voice says
' I can feel your presence.' I answer
' I am the Universe, I am everything.' The voice tells me
' ................................' I am in silence for a while with the presence - trying to make sense of what was just said to me - I have a wonderful wholeness feeling about me.
I feel my waking life /consciousness coming back to my physical body in bed[/COLOR]. I look at the clock its 10 pm -it feels like I have been sleeping a long time....

I try the RB for a while again and feel myself drift into a relaxed state once again - the presence is there again but not strong

I may have to start my own religion now
It could have been a bit of noise or I don't know what but I put in wrong tag at the bottom - it wasn't a LD I don't think...

+ walking through a small city, come across a beautiful path of poppies. There are purple, orange, all different colors, I call to my wife to come look at the flowers.

Outdoors, group of people, one guy is preparing (barbeque sauce?) food? BBQ?

+ long sequence, many scenes

I see a ping pong table, someone I know is practicing his game, there's a normal horizontal table and a vertical one (like folded for storage) (for practicing serves solo?)

A guy goes up high and is offering his truck backed up against the loading dock to take refugees.

I'm covering up my truck with a fake covering with a company name and a phone number and the name of some unhead-of small Asian country starting with "M." There's a phone number on the van but it's very short, it must be a small country. I'll have to drive very carefully in order to avoid any attention from the police. I'm standing here arranging the cover and looking at it for a long time.

I have two cars in the company parking garage. How am I going to get both of them out? I'll have to drive one out, then somehow get back and drive the other one out. I want to get my stuff out of the garage before the employees arrive for the day. Oh, my I must have been here all night long without sleeping!

Employees are arriving early for work already. They're dedicated. It's only about 8-8:30am. How will I get past the guard?

I get out and there are lots of people around, this must be a fancy company everything is catered.

Inside the building (in a bar/restaurant?) there is a small group of musicians sitting in playing formation (4?). I don't see one of <my instruments.> I sit on a high bar stool nearby and start to play. My <mouthpiece> is new and feels stiff and sounds a bit muddy and flat, I say "it's new." There's a guy walking by who I think knows me. I play some fast, messy scales/arpeggios up and down. Including starting on a high A-note and doing my usual fast downward warm-up arpeggio. I'm a bit rusty so it sounds a bit sloppy.

I want something from all the catered stuff around. I see a portable bar of a variety of growing fresh herbs, about 1 foot tall each plant. I look down and see a small platter of some branches of a plant with small leaves and flowers on it, I think "OK, I'll just take this" but someone says no I shouldn't (?).

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The last dream was pretty long, felt continuous, and had a pretty high presence. I'm going to have to figure out some way to wake myself up more at night with my new sleep/exercise schedule, it's keeping me pretty tired. May have to go for a nap during the day.

I was playing soccer and we had this real shitty linesman, I was always complaining to him about the other team kicking the ball away when it was our throw in. He didn't even care! I was at an unknown soccer field but there was a RSL there or something of the sort. When we finished we went inside the RSL and I said to my brother, that ref was really shit. Then there was the centre ref came along and didn't say anything.

1: I was on a beach paradise in Mexico with my family. My dad, brother and I were gathered around a fire at twilight, sitting back in hammock like chairs. The talk turned to football, and apparently my team (the Western Bulldogs) had lost to Collingwood, kicking us out of the finals. We were all a bit distraught and tensions flared a bit.

2: I was playing a sort of MMO, where it combined mini games based on all sorts of different other games, except i was inside the world of the game. I created my account and then got cracking. The map showed a large, somewhat circular central island with a smaller island on the top left. The middle band of the central island seemed to be greyed out, perhaps needing an update, so I started off in the lower portion. I played some sort of minigame where I jumped around the city, grabbing bundles of cash that were stuck on the walls and posts etc. After that I decided to go to the top right corner of the main island, which dream deja vu told me was a theme park which I had been to long ago. The place seemed mostly deserted as I went on the rollercoaster and some of the other rides, it was a bit sad really. I went back to the middle top section of the island, called the maintenance section or something, where I was in a storeroom full with cleaning and building supplies. I was running around a bit trying to fix things and generally making a mess of myself. The dream cut a bit where I was with a friend at school and asking him how many steam points did they have.

3: I was one of three dwarves from the lord of the rings/hobbit. I was one of the three last living dwarves that were part of the group which travelled with Bilbo, and there was a feud growing amongst us. I was determined to be the last of them to die, yet the woman who was there was angry at me. The other male dwarf there, Kuro, was being exposed as a fraud, I was tugging his big grey beard and it was coming off slightly, it was a very weird experience. At the end I abandoned the two of them and went off into the woods on my own, vowing that I would be the last to die...

I dreamt that I was playing a browsergame called Crusaders of the lost Idols. It was pretty short and insignificant and I wasn't lucid... Though it happened within the first 3.5 hours of sleep, so I that's a sign of good recall I think.

Black: non-dream
Blue: non-lucid
Red: lucid

Dream 1 - at my ex's house
I was at my ex girlfriends house and her friend was with us too. I remember at some point needing to go to the loo and my ex's friend did too... So for some reason we went at the same time because there are multiple toilets in there (don't know why, it seemed normal in the dream). I started taking a leak while she waited, but she started trying to turn me on . Next thing I know she says "come on, just ask me already..." with a lustful tone in her voice. "I know you want to **** me hard" O_O. Uhhh. As she said this another guy who lived in the house walked in (there seemed to be 3 doorways into this loo, the man came in from a door opposite where we entered). I immediately knew he had heard what she'd said, the look on his face was like "ohhh haha I see what's happening", such a cheeky grin. We kind of act like nothings going on though... Then another guy walks in from the 3rd doorway, directly next to the 2nd one. I asked him to put something in the rubbish for me but he just looks at me, throws it back and says "no". I get all pissed off and follow him as he walks off back through the doorway. When I peer through the door I see a guy sitting on the couch, but it wasn't the right guy... He should have been right in front of me but it just wasn't the right dream character. I clicked and realized it was a dream. I don't recall too well what I did but I remember just walking around and thinking about what to do before eventually just waking up. What a waste.

Edit: I remembered this halfway through the day, but during this dream while I was walking around I saw a bunch of guys working out, which kind of grossed me out O_O I thought to myself "god damn it why couldn't there be hot chicks working out?". I tried to turn this thought into my will, commanding the dream to summon hot chicks instead of buff guys . And that's how I spent my lucid dream.

Dream 2 - Through the mirror to the arcade
I have no clue what I was doing prior to becoming lucid, but I clapped my hands in an attempt to stabilize myself. I turned to face a mirror which didn't have my reflection in it, but instead it had a reflection of another mirror which had another mirror in it and another and another... So on so forth. I wanted to go inside it and see where it would take me. So I clapped my hands together again and as I took them apart I 'grabbed' the air and willed the mirror to expand. I then kind of dived/got sucked into the mirrors portal and everything went black. I was in a dark rectangular pit just falling through space. Eventually I saw stars and the pit opened up. This is where it kind of turned into an arcade game. Things started flying towards me and I dodged them, then they came back and I dodged them again... I think they were pixelated skulls? I suddenly had a knife and had to fight off these giant pterodactyl creatures, they flew at me and I slashed them to bits. At some point I was like "I want to change my character and play the game properly" O_O which made no sense and I kind of just lost lucidity around here. Now I'm in a main menu screen just thinking about the different stats I can have, I go into character selection and look at these different race cars. One of them is like a mouse racer, which is weak but fast (the only one I looked at properly). After this I seem to remember being in an alleyway but I forgot the rest.