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Very long and absurd dream. The plot was about me and Noah Bennet trying to save what was left of his daughter Claire. She wasn't really a person anymore. More like a handful of ashes that somehow retained her intelligence and personality. I even suggested putting it in a robotic body, to bring her back. Anyhow, there was a car chase. Noah driving, me in the passenger seat. We went over a cliff at some point, but we both got out alive. Somehow I'd managed to hold onto "Claire".
After all this (and much more, forgotten action), we arrived at a house (their house?).

I remember a "guy" showing up, but he wasn't a normal human. Not human at all, actually. He was exceptionally strong, and wanted Claire at all costs. I tried fighting him. Not sure how that worked out.

I was with my father. He said grandpa was dead. He's in pretty bad shape in real life. Doubt he'll see the end of next year. Anyway, I got really emotional. Not just because of grandpa, but because it reminded me of my dad's mortality and that I'd lose him too one day. I cried quite a lot. My dad looked at me like I had two heads. Showing emotion isn't really acceptable in that side of the family. I forced myself to quit and said something like "I'm fine, I'm invincible to emotion," or something absurd like that.

I was walking through a town/city with Claire by my side. I could see some guys floating around, and thought to myself, "I can do that too, but better!". Yeah, I wanted to show off. I flew around a bit (not just floating), from building to building. At some point I was pretty high up inside a building (it was a pretty exposed spot, no walls). I waited too long and got scared of heights again (the dream felt 'too realistic', I could feel gravity). I didn't dare jump down again. Suddenly, something happened to Claire right below me. She was severely hurt. Caring about her made me forget about my fear, and I jumped down - floating gently to the ground. I held Claire in my arms. She was covered in blood, but recovered quickly (as kind of expected). Somehow, I learned she had done that to herself/let someone else do that to her to help coax me down. I think she was happy because it also showed I genuinely cared about her. Not sure what happened next. I remember kissing her? And boobies. Yes, boobs.

Battle at sea (Battlefield 1942 style), I was piloting a bomber. I dropped bombs on an enemy ship. I don't think they had much effect at first. I was taken down, and had to bail out. In the water, I could see my target capsize, and realized I must have hit it anyway (or did my crashing plane hit it?)

August 26, 2015

Night 9

All of my dreams this night involved something about college life; 3 of them were about parties (in one of them, there were these weird vendors lining a wide stairway, and something that looked like Alf gave me some really weird drugs...), and the other was about being with my college friends and I somehow feinted and ended up i the hot TA's room.

August 27, 2015

Night 10

My two full dreams were about living with Zukin's boyfriend after they broke up, then going to Target to get Pokemon cards... I felt so guilty for having that dream D:
In the other one, I had to drive to an old school building to pick things up with a back-o or something, but it broke down like a block away from home. The repair cost was too much for me to afford so I had to sell my soul to the mechanic D:

August 28, 2015

Night 11

I was a super hero in one of the dreams My super power though...... Well, I was called The Great Dildo, so you might guess what my powers were. Everyone loved me, at least. The other three dreams weren't really worth mentioning :/

August 29, 2015

Night 12

Three non-lucids about school again, one of which was really bad; I was at an interview for a teaching job and suddenly lost all power to speak comprehensibly. I was completely aphasic and didn't get the job DX

I woke up way earlier than I'd planned (do once I didn't set an alarm for WBTB; still woke up around when I would have set it lol) and went back to sleep to have this dream:

I was on a beach, just sitting for a while. There were other people there but I wasn't concerning myself with them. The sun was setting and I was watching the sky change colors; it was so pretty. Then The super-huge night sky starts moving in, and I realize this is strange, so I look at my hands. For one thing, I didn't see my class ring or the ruby ring my mom gave me a while ago, but the real clue was the fact that my fingers were all abnormally long. Like, really creepy looking.

I looked back up at the sky for a moment first, seeing what I could see while I tried to remember my goals. It wasn't a very high lucidity, but I knew one of the things I wanted to do was explore underwater or in a cave, so I walked out to the ocean (or lake, it could have been Lake Michigan or something) until I was up to my waist in the water, then just sort of sat down in it. It was a little hard to get myself to keep breathing, but eventually I was able to breathe normally under water. I opened looked around, having opened my eyes at first. It was murky at first but started to get clearer after a little while. About four feet ahead of me, the sea-floor dropped suddenly. I scooted toward the underwater cliff and looked down. It, surprisingly, wasn't too dark. I let myself slowly sink down, watching the cliff as I went. I wanted to find a cave, and lo-and-behold, there was one after not too long. It was about twice my height in diameter. There wasn't much exciting at first. Some sea creatures here and there but mostly just murky water haha.

Then I turned a corner and entered this huge cavern with glowing spots in the walls. A merman came up to me and asked what I was doing here. I told him I was exploring, and asked if he could show me around. He was skeptical at first, but eventually gave in. He showed me the merpeople village and the best part was the bathrooms. Instead of water in the toilet bowl they had figured out how to use air in their pipes lol.

I got a little bored of this place for some reason, and decided I wanted to watch the sky again. I pulled a black circle cloth out of my pockets and slapped it onto the wall near me. I stepped through it, expecting that I would end up on the beach again... I came out on the other side, not on the beach, but in the halls of the Enterprise. It was then that I remembered one of my goals was to take a trip on the Enterprise... I got giddy.

I walked through the halls until I spotted someone in a yellow shirt. I asked them what deck I was on. Apparently this was deck 4. Good, close to the bridge. I tried random doors until I came to the turbolift, and told the computer to take me to the bridge. When the door opened, I was on this weird version of the bridge. It was a little darker, and a little more steam-punk. I looked around and then said, "What, no one's going to announce Captain on the Bridge??" Expectantly.

The nearest crewman, another yellow-shirt, looked up and then became flustered and confused. "S'sorry sir! Didn't see you come in... Captain on the Bridge!"

I nodded satisfactorily. Captain of the Enterprise. I went to the Captain's chair and relieved who I assumed was my Number 1. He asked for my orders. "To Galifrey!" I commanded. Everyone stopped like stone and stared at me. "But... it's in a time lock, sir. It's lost."

"Well, let's find it!" I entered in some random coordinates and hit the big, red, ENGAGE button on the control panel in front of me. The engines started up and we entered warp. I felt the dream destabilizing here, and tried rubbing my hands together to stabilize, but something was off and I woke up...

I become lucid. I barely remember where I was at the time, but my memory and awareness are both decent. I know I've been in a non-lucid dream for a bit (about 75% of my dreamtime is gone). I do the nose pinch RC and briefly remind myself that this is a world created by my own mind. I'm in a place with grass. It's night time. It kind of reminds me of a farm where alien abductions occur. After moving around for a bit, the dream begins to blur.
I remember to hold the thought that my dream isn't really fading away, so I manage to retain lucidity, but it's weakened. (I've noticed that these black outs seem to occur when I'm getting excited about a dream goal).

I remember flying by jumping through a wall, maybe a glass window. My body passes through easily and I'm airborne.

I'm in a strange place when I remember I want to do door teleportation... the only way I can describe the place is "alien-like", like it's somewhere separate from my normal dreaming realm. I feel like I don't have as much control here, so I want to get out of here. When I teleport, I end up deeper in this weird realm. It is desolate; there is no life in this place, save for me. There is a robotic thing, but I can't really remember the details. I try to teleport again, this time by doing a backflip. I see some sand as I land, so I use that to form a desert area. Soon, I'm falling backwards down a narrow tunnel, a sandstorm raging all around me. I can feel the heat increase as the desert forms around me.

When I reach the bottom, I find that the tunnel is almost completely submerged in sand. Rather than wading through all of it, I turn back and head up towards where I'd fallen from. Sand was blocking the way, so I take a deep breath and forcefully exhale, wind blasting out of my mouth and clearing away the sand.
When I get up, I find myself in a research laboratory of sorts. A middle-aged man with a deeper voice greets me, asking me if I need anything. I ask him for help getting out of here. The man tells me that the only way out is down - through the area I'd just appeared from.

There are a few people here, sitting at desks with computers and monitors. I examine the computer closest to me to see what kind it is. It reminds me of a Windows XP machine.

As I turn back, I see a "familiar" woman approaching. She had a red wrist band and long, dark purple hair. I realize that I'm viewing myself in third person now. The woman begins talking, and the dream ends.

Points:
- first DILD of the night (10pt)
- RC / stabilize (1pt)
- interact with DC (2pt)
- fly (5pt)
- ask DC for advice (5pt)
- teleport (10pt)
- elemental manipulation (10pt)
- fully phase through solid object (10pt)
- personal goal - new [do a standing backflip] (15pt)

COMP TOTAL: 153

(Shhhhh, this entry's a day late. Don't even worry about it...)

I took a nap this afternoon after classes, and decided to try a WILD for unknown reasons . After a while, I definitely started to notice strong vibrations and HH. I waited for quite a long time before trying to move to make sure I had fully transitioned. Eventually, my torso shot upright in bed, and I knew I was dreaming. Man, that felt like an eternity, but at least it worked. The dream didn’t feel incredibly stable, so I tried rubbing my hands together some, mostly to no avail. I woke up and fell back asleep at least 5 times (probably more), each time finding myself in a different place. As such, it’s kinda hard to put any of these events on a timeline.

I am at this water park, on top of this giant structure full of pipes, slides and ladders going every which way. I notice some of them take crazy directions and even make loop-de-loops. Oh man, this is a Sonic level, isn’t it? How convenient! I jump across some platforms until I reach this long slide downward leading to a loop at the bottom. Instead of sliding, I take off running down the slide at an incredibly high speed and through the loop. I eventually get to a tunnel, so I spin around the loop for a while. I actually get a bit dizzy, so the dream destabilizes.

I’m driving this strange futuristic car. The car is incredibly wide, the outside is entirely chrome, and the inside looks like a spaceship. I decide that since this car looks so much like a spaceship, I should take it flying. I was using the steering wheel, but I manage to change it into a joystick so I can have better flying control. I pull way back on the joystick, but only manage to get a few feet off the ground. The car is hovering, but it is incredibly hard to control, and I keep swerving until I fly off the side of the road. I end up on top of a lake, but I’m still hovering over it.

After several FAs in a row (which I don’t remember entirely), I end up in this very small room with a ton of pebbles as the floor. I’m only partially lucid by this point, and begin to wonder if I’ll ever wake up, since I feel like this whole dream has lasted a really long time. I’m getting slightly claustrophobic in this small room, so I try digging my way down through the pebbles. I go down a few feet, but then fall into an even smaller room. On top of that, all the pebbles from the upper room start pouring in, making the room even smaller. I start freaking out, but then remember that I’m dreaming and I can wake myself up. I start focusing on my breath and breathing hard enough to wake me up. It takes an incredibly long time for it to actually work. Of course, the one dream today that’s actually stable is terrifying as crap. I finally feel the dream start to destabilize.

I wake up in my own bed. My roommate starts laughing because I was making weird noises in my sleep. I begin to explain to him everything, but then I wake up for real.

WILD - 10 pts
Chained LDs (x5) - 10 pts
Stabilization - 1 pts
Super Speed - 5 pts
Old Task: Run at super speed through a Sonic the Hedgehog level - 10 pts
Object Changing - 5 pts
Fly - 5 pts
Use an Ordinary Object (car) to Perform Dream Control - 5 pts

Dream Total - 51 pts

Couldn't recall any dreams on the 28th but today i recalled one. I was at school and i was walking to my car after school. I saw a lot of people i knew but i kept to myself the way there. Suddenly i turned away from my car and started walking down the side walk on the side of my school. It seemed like everyone was walking. Then on what i assume was a mega phone someone yelled, "If you have a green colored pencil run!" and a friend of mine who's in my art class went sprinting and then i woke up. I unfortunately couldn't remember more because my mom woke me up early.

One:

I was in high school, and it was the last day before spring break. After class the teacher kept a few of us in the room, and asked us to beta read some fiction that other students wrote. She laid all the stories out in a vertical row on this bar thing, and we went up and picked one each. Mary, a friend of mine from high school, picked up the weird Zoolander fanfic, which was the one I wanted. So instead I picked the erotic MA rated story, figuring I could learn a thing or two about writing that sort of thing. As I was flipping through it, I realized it was HORRIBLY BAD. Like, they used the most disturbing terminology to describe penises and I just kept laughing. So I put it in my bag and left the room.

Before I left the school, I realized I was on my period (ugh) so I ran into the restroom to get a tampon real quick, and I noticed the restroom was DISGUSTING. Like, there were puddles of pee all over the floor and stuff. I nope'd on out of there and went into the men's restroom instead, and it was super clean. Which was weird, because usually the stereotype is the other way around. So as I left the restroom, I put on my headphones and put my mp3 player and my iPod in my pocket, and walked down the hall. I bumped into Misha Collins, but I kept calling him Castiel, and we walked out into the parking lot together, talking about things. It was raining outside and he lamented over the fact that he couldn't put his headphones on like me because he was afraid the rain would short circuit them and that his iPod couldn't fit in his pocket. He was totally bitching about it. I was like "Dude, they totally fit in your pocket..." and showed him that I had both that and my phone in my pocket. This just blew his mind for some reason. We parted ways in the parking lot and I headed out to my car.

Two:

Mom was headed on a road trip to see grandma, and I was pissed because she wouldn't let me come along. So as she drove off, I grabbed on to the car and just sat on top of the trunk while she drove along. I have no idea how she didn't notice me there.

The road trip was super long, and a few times I fell off and had to grab onto the bumper to keep from hitting the road, so by the time we got there, I was tired as hell. She pulled in down the gravel path and stopped and got out, and was pissed off that I'd hitched a ride like that. She was also screaming about how I could've died. I replied that she was a horrible driver because if she had looked in ANY of her mirrors she would've seen me. I walked around the property by myself.

Three:

Something about Cory withdrawing $100 from the bank account and using it to buy some little thing, and I got angry because he kept taking money out of the account so he could spend it on things without me knowing. He was also late from work a lot so I was accusing him of horrible shit.

Four:

Something involving Seru getting really pissed and drop kicking some dude. I remember feeling tense and thinking WTF. Also at some point I noticed my nail polish was completely wiped clean. I just stared at my nails all weirded out. It was the first dream of the night, and by the time I finished remembering the other dreams, I totally forgot most of this one.

Got to bed really late and had no hope of getting lucid, but somehow it worked out! Woke up several times and the last bit was lucid!

-WILD into my livingroom, feeling very prickly. I feel like all my hair is standing on end and really hard, like plastic. In some spots the hairs feel like plastic hooks like on velcro. Sounds are really loud and clear and things feel freaky. I push through this and float out the front door before immediately thinking of the moon rock eating task. I zip back inside the open door and down a hallway. I hear my daughter whining and getting closer quickly. I reach a table at a corner of the hall and it has a bowl of rocks on it, among other junk. I look through the bowl and find a grey rock filled with holes which I KNOW is a moon rock. It feels really hard and I'm hesitant to bite it, but I do so carefully. It hurts my teeth a lot but finally breaks in half. I try to chew the half in my mouth but it won't break up anymore. It tastes like salt and minerals. I finally just swallow it like a pill. When I turn around, my daughter has crawled around the corner and is watching me. I grab her and phase out of the house through the window. I figure she's gonna follow me anyway and I might as well take her with me. This turns into a long non-lucid about live action D&D in my grandma's old back yard, very fun.

-DEILD back in (an actual chain! It's been so long! ) to my living room and Lk is there walking around. It feels odd and very real and I'm not QUITE sure I'm dreaming so I do an RC and sure enough I am. Lk has some kind of problem going on or some kind a question he needs answered and we both know that H can answer it. I tell Lk this and he agrees. I figure H is coming over, but Lk just sits down and gets on the phone with him. I refuse to give up on H coming here, so I decide to help it along with my expectation powers. I think to myself that they're just talking on the phone while he drives this way. I walk towards the door that leads to the car port and I see headlights pull up into it. I walk out and H is in the driver's seat of a big, nice SUV which I think is white. He gets out and I move stuff out of his way so he can get to the door. As he goes in I stay really close to him and put off an intimate vibe and he leans down and kisses me on the forehead... I'll take it lol. This devolves into a NLD where we all try to figure out the problem or whatever it was.

I'm gonna count that kiss persuasion as mind control because I didn't use any language or signals etc.

Morning of August 29, 2015. Saturday.



The above image is solely representative of a dream and is not meant to imply or reflect any aspect or opinion of a real location.

There is a rural church that comes to mind. It seems I had actually gone there for a time until I realized it was futile (this faux history is only in my dream). I am not sure where it is, though I get an impression it may be in one of the New England states in America. This is a brand new concept that was unveiled to me in my dream’s otherwise meandering forms. Even after waking, I feel as if I have a subtle piece of someone else’s memory somehow, though this is not logical at all because I doubt there was such a church that became like this one.

The church used to have a cross on the front above the entrance. This cross has since transformed into a trident over time, perhaps a year or two. I am astounded by this concept and altered imagery, as it had never crossed my mind at any point before in my life, or perhaps it is because I had not given much thought to the cross in the first place (and I had never been to any church in my life other than for a couple funerals). The only real difference between the cross and the trident is the extended and raised arms - otherwise they are nearly the same. As such, one might think it to be a symbol for praise (to the sky above) or even ascension. Instead, on one level, it is damaging, perhaps; the pitchfork. There can be a fork in a road and there can also be crossroads.How can something “speak” so intimately for the first time? Has it “spoken” before?

This dream left me with a very odd “new” feeling and it certainly can be said that hardly any dreams do that for me these days, at least not in this particular unique way - as if it was “not me” in even the slightest way (related to the idea or faux memory), since it seemed completely “outside” of myself for whatever reason, almost as if I was looking into the mind of another for the first time (though I do not know whom).

Any personal associations likely arose from “Percy Jackson: Sea of Monsters” (in which the trident is associated with the hero) - seen just previously - and the aforementioned absentminded confusion between “fork in the road” and “crossroads”. My dream self can be identified with Percy Jackson and forming a stronghold of differentiated and more intimate and viable spirituality; perhaps a “new house” to explore without the prior scorn of the general populace.

I'm gonna skip just about all of this since it was all very awkward. Let's just say that one of my friends wanted me to help them relieve some stress and sonic the hedgehog was getting a different kind of chili dog than he usually does. I lucidly woke myself up from both dreams when things weren't going my way.

'Twas laughing all the way when I wrote this in my private DJ. I know some people like to post their sex dreams and even I do it every so often, but only when I feel comfortable with the dreams, as funny as they were, I am not comfortable.

I was at church. There was going to be some sort of children's ceremony, possibly a baptism. I was waiting with a stroller. The child in the stroller at some point said "Terrific". I was amazed, since this child did not look old enough to use such a word. It turned out that the child was five, though she did not look it, but I still thought she was terrific. I called her mom over to tell her how amazed I was by her daughter, only to discover that the mother paid only attention to her son, and ignored her daughter! The woman who plaid the mom in the dream in reality is a church member, but she has no son, has two daughters, who are both older already, and luckily does not ignore either one.

I have a suspicion I remembered another dream upon waking up but did not immediately write it down, and forgot!

Sleeping: August 6th 2015, 11:30 PM (UTC +7)
Awake: August 7th 2015, 5:40 AM (UTC +7)

Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening

I couldn't remember when did this start, but I was in a my school's canteen. Everything was normal and loud around me. I was sitting on a table with someone else at opposite side, nobody else. It was quite serious conversation on what he had been doing. This included mentioning of his guilt and such also, until I noticed something weird. I slid my index finger from left to right, in front of him. Called out a window which included information that he had 4,294,967,295 HP. Maximum of UInt32 variable. I acknowledged that and continued the serious conversation with him. He continued speaking on his guilty topic, including how and why he 'hacked' his life.

Not sooner than that, he started trying to punch me. I quickly jumped out of table and mentioned how it wasn't possible for me to fight. He came out and continued. Most of punches came in slow rate as there were always another sentences after it. Of course, I did talk too, and tried fighting back. It went on until we found what we were doing was complete nonsense. We got back to our table and sat down. Continued this gruesome conversation. He also said he wanted me to tell this to police for some reason. I kept asking him why, but I never understood why he would even. It was unreasonable. It continued to the point where he decided to leave, telling me that I couldn't help him feel any emotionally better. I struggled to say anything, but told him I'll think about this favor. He walked out, thanked me for at least talking with him.

I decided to go back to home, and I was then there. However, I walked into door at side of my home instead. I unlocked the door and walked in. Everything looked like a mixture of my usual house and my cousins' house somewhere far away. I walked into the bedroom and lied down to the bed. Stretching my arms out above my head and kept thinking about what happened. Until then, I heard someone's car parking at my house, then came in my home. They, which I assumed it was my family member/cousin, walked in and warned me about how suspicious I was. "They suspected you being able to teleport around places since that case." I just nodded then continued feeling strange in my bed. He/she walked out and did their things as they would do in daily life.

Soon afterwards, I woke up. Recalled this and related "suspected teleport" to one of my other dreams. Actually, two. I still struggle to remember what that guy said and what I said to that guy. Who was that guy, also? That wasn't friend, wasn't stranger either. Name that popped up in my head when I was wondering was only "Reflection of myself"/"Cloned Reflection". I can only relate them to something I have yet to interpret. All those quotes from my other dreams.

I'm leaving note of "something along these lines" type of messages I might have said to that dream character. Included what he might have said to me.

• Why would you even do this?
• I know, I won't be matching against you anyways.
• What's the point? There's no point doing this.
• YOU are crazy. Stop thinking too much.
• I don't understand what you're even trying to tell me right now.
• Stop your attempt to help me. You're not making me feel any better. In fact, WORSE.
• This is my darkest secret, but please tell them. At least make some signs, please.
• I'll think about it.
• Thanks, that's enough.
• etc.

There are much more than this, and these are just something I could thought of. I didn't remember who said which also.

Related dreams

• Pre-Journal Entry - Unknown Date - Home of success

First dream

With my friends we were breaking into some kind of government offices. We were going to the archives, to take some information we needed. We were wandering the building, and then we were in a corridor leading to the archives. There was an office to our left - there was no one inside. The only thing that have drawn my attention was an aquarium. Then there was an intersecting corridor, also to the left, and directors office, also on the left side. The only room to the right were the archives.

The dimmensions might have been different, and the aquarium office could've been closer to the corridor. The way down from the aquarium office could've been closed by door without ways to open it.

First time, we moved into the aquarium office. I looked at random fishes swimming in jelly-like substance. Then we got into the intersection with another corridor. The guards were going that way, and they shot us as soon as they saw us.

Then the dream repeated. We moved into aquarium office, and went to the intersection. There were no guards this time, but as we moved closer to directors office a woman went out of it - she was a tall brunette woman with brown eyes. She was wearing a long, dark blue dress. When my friends saw her, they have immediately died for some unknown reason.

And the dream repeated again. We moved out of aquarium office (each time random fishes were swimming in jelly-like substance), head for the directors office and entered it. There was an elderly woman inside. She was friendly for us, and told us to have a seat, while she'll make some coffee.

Again repeat. We moved out of aquarium office, and head for directors office. On the way we saw that brunette woman, she had some weapon, and killed the elderly woman with it. Then we found some guns, and show her down. We finally reached the archives, and looked for information we needed.

First dream fragment

With my younger sister we were tidying the attic, to make ourselves bedrooms up there. Each time I walked close to the ladder, I almost fallen down.

Second dream fragmend

I was entering my classroom, found a good place to sit, and sat down.