Comment Dream Lucid Dream I find myself living with the family of a so-called Sophie and her two brothers (one older, one younger). In their backyard they've build a roller-coaster and are now responsible for its daily maintenance. I came to live with them to help with that task and I feel it's quite an honour. First things first, we've got to get onto the track. Apparently the didn't think about building a staircase for that, so each day we've got to perform some magic trick which involves repeatedly drawing figures in the air with your finger. It creates hot air rising up in the backyard that you can ride and get to the coaster. After practicing my magic in the attic for a while, I get permission to have my first look at the coaster. I get to wear some rubber braces (protection? Although I'm not suspended by any cord) and ride the hot air. The track's entirely white and more of a tangled mess than any real roller-coaster would be. The first thing we - Sophie, her little brother and I - do is walk through the entire ride, literally. I can also vividly remember the ride went below ground level (Sophie and co did some digging) and they covered the earth walls with sloppy placed tilework. It looked something like this, only...sloppier: Spoiler for image:
I haven't posted any dream journals lately, mainly because the activity has gotten too repetitive and annoying for me to do. However, this dream requires me to tell... Somebody about it. I can't exactly recall how I got to this point. I remember it was sort of middle ages/Renaissance urban setting. I think I had committed some crime, and was being tasked to eliminate rats in at first a barn, but then my dream demorphed it to just around the city. It's at night, too. Somewhere along the line, I find a tall building, with an entrance near the top. A girl lets down a rope-ladder from the entrance. I start climbing, because I think this place will grant me a better position to eliminate rats from. However, when I get into the tower or whatever it is (I'm in an attic-like space. Tall ceiling. Rather large. The girl has a netting over a hole in the floor (That descends all the way to the bottom... Tough fall.) that I guess acts as her bed.) the beauty of the girl literally jars me into semi-lucidity. Holy shit I think this might be the girl I'd seen in my dreams from long ago. Sure the hair is different... Okay, background time. A few years ago, I had two dreams, maybe a week or a month apart, where I saw the same girl. All I remember is she had a knee-length white dress, and had long, flowing, beautiful brown hair. Also that she was the most radiant being I had ever met in my entire life. The first dream we were in a modern, dark urban setting. We were in an alleyway I think, and we were running from something. The second dream were on a Japanese-style levee, sitting on the grass next to the river. She stood up at one point, and had sandals in her hands. I never saw her face. This girl's hair wasn't brown, now either blonde or white or some combination thereof, but I'm not sure that means anything. Especially since I think her name may very well be "Change". I don't remember her name exactly, but I'm certain it starts with a C and is very short. For some reason, Change sticks in my mind even though part of me knows that can't be it. Anyways, back to the now dream. My memory is a bit foggy on exactly what happens, but I sit down and start complaining about things. About the dream I was just in (For some reason, the idea that I've entered a sort of "dream bubble" comes to mind here.), about the dreams I had been in during the night, and about my real life. She listens and talks about it with me. Somewhere along the line, she goes to the other side of a plastic wall that has appeared. After a while, I kiss the wall at a random spot. I then realize she has her lips touching somewhere on the other side of the wall. I go to kiss that spot, thinking it might be a first kiss, but as I kiss her through the plastic, I realize that I've done this many times before. Cut to us in some sort of bed, in the same attic, morning, but where the netting was before. We're cuddling together, she's on top of me. Clothes are on people, don't worry. I go to try to kiss her on the lips (Rather than through plastic. Think Pushing Daisies her, people.) but she refuses. I am then reminded as to why. I have only ever thought of her as a dream. She refuses to be with any man who thinks of her only as a dream. She is saving herself for someone who doesn't think she's just a dream. While we may both be in love with each other, which is why she kisses me through plastic, she refuses to go beyond physical cuddling with me, because I'm not willing to love her as more than a dream. Somewhere along the line, I think near the end of the dream, she tells me to stay a little longer. That I don't need to head back to the real world just yet. I think we've been laying there for a while. Hours, maybe. I'm not certain. My memory is unfortunately more foggy for this dream than I would have liked. For some reason, I tell her I can't. That I have to go. I'm not certain if I knew then that this was untrue. I could have stayed with her for as long as I liked. I simply needed to will myself to stay in the dream. But the dream surely enough fades out sometime after this. That girl is dear and precious to me, I now realize. I may only have three memories of her, but for some reason I feel like I've known her forever. I love Change, if that is her real name. I think I love her more than I've ever loved a "real" girl. But... It's not even that I don't care if she's a dream or not. It's that I still think of her as a dream. What do I have to do to finally have her love, then? Abandon this world? Truly accept dreams as another reality? Or maybe she's not a dream character at all, but an actual, independent entity that enters my dreams? *sigh* Well, I'll be looking for answers in my next dreams. P.S. I had many other dreams (About three or four or so) besides this one last night, but I'm only relating this one because it had the most profound impact on me. If anybody has any comments on it, please, tell me about them. I would love to see what people think about this dream.
Project temporarily on pause while I focus 100% on improving sleep quality.
At first I dreamed of minecraft. We had a new map on the pallkars server which we explored. You were able to view it as a map. I remember thinking that the water on the map was too spread out evenly. No huuuge oceans and no huuuge landmasses. Only randomly placed water here and there. After that I dreamed that me and a couple of friends had sneaked into the culverts of a hospital. There were empty corridors with branching doors here and there. Some of them were made of armoured glass and some were locked. We weren't allowed to be there and we hoped no one would find us. What we were doing there was to "fix" the place a bit. I don't remember for what reason but I for instance painted the wall so that it looked nicer (All though I had no paint so I had to use my hands by licking on my hands and stroking them over the wall so that they became wet. Then they got a darker colour, lol.). A while later we went up from the culverts and got into some kind of school. We were spotted by an old teacher I had back in primary school. He didn't see to care though. I don't remember really what happened then. ----- I was sitting at my PC writing down the dream about the culverts into this DJ (this was still a dream). <--Very vague memories of this part There was something about how I was planning on taking some extra courses along with my program because the extra courses was really easy. They were about extended python programming and basic PHP. Then there was a part in which I was at my grandpa's place (he lives in the mountains near norway). I was lying in a bed there. I got up to go to the bathroom. First I was going to drink water from the tap in there. I thought about how cold and fresh the water always is at their place. The water was quite nasty though because there was some brown slime coming out of the tap sometimes along with the water and I drank only a little. Then I was going to use the toilet, but that didn't seem nice either since the bathroom had many windows without any cover and my grandpa was working on something just next to them, lol. I tried to cover the windows with some curtains but they were semi transparent anyway.
I was Quasimodo in an alternated universe. Frollo wasn't so bad. He was understanding, and really did want to protect Quasimodo from horrid attitudes. (He had a complete personality change..!) Unfortunately he had another adopted son who was extremely jealous, and made certain things weren't much better in this universe. He kept trying to get Quasimodo in trouble with Frollo. Upon seeing just how that was impossible to do, he decided to take matters into his own hands. When Quasimodo was ringing the bells the other son knocked him out from behind with some piece of wood. He glanced around, and then threw Quasimodo's unconscious form out of the bell tower's window. He then took his place, ringing the bells. That is when frantic screams were heard, as they found Quasimodo's dead body.
I came across a discussion about this, and I thought I'd put down some of my ideas for good "totems". First off, a "totem" is a device or personal affect that only the owner thoroughly understands that is used as a means of separating the dream world from the real one. I've used "totems" for years as a for of reality checking, only I referred to them as charms #1 - Rosary One I used myself was a rosary with a few specifics... rose scented beadsa small hole drilled into every third beada pewter crucifix with a sterling silver dove for a hail holy queen beadthe 10th bead of the 4th decade was missingthe dove was attached with gold chain links - all the others were silverINRI was inscribed upside-down on the cross #2 Matchbox Car Another one I used myself with fair success was a 1976 Metal Canary yellow jeep wrangler car with an angel wings decal on the hood. It sat on it's axel wrong so it wobbledit drifted to one side when pushedhad a specific model number on the bottom #3 Weighted Turtle The third one I used was a pewter turtle with a jade shell. I was the only one who knew how it was weightedOnly I knew about the small heart etched on it's underside #4 Spoon Ever seen a waitress check her reflection in a spoon? The concave side turns the reflection upside-down - if it's right-side-up, you're dreaming! #5 Marble Flatten one edge of a marble. Be careful to do it not so it's obvious at plain sight, but that when the marble is gently rolled it will come to rest on it's own accord.
My mom, Uncle Nick, and I had dinner at a restaurant. As I was expecting, my Uncle Nick ordered a pretty expensive drink. Next thing I know, I'm in a big city in Molokai (which is strange because in real life, Molokai is only made up a few towns and not many people.) There were bridges, skyscrapers, the whole deal. The next scene I remember, I'm back in the house I previously lived in, in New York. My mom and I put our cat Chanel on top of these strange large sheets of paper, each dedicated to a specific Hawaiian Island. She walked around on them, and it seemed to make it feel like she was actually walking on the island itself. I didn't want her walking all over Lanai so I took her off of it. I got out of the house and walked across the street, and I noticed a semi-secretive watch-house, which has cameras pointing directly at my house. I did not feel comfortable entering, so I moved on to the next house, which happened to be Carol's house... I walked in and I saw tons of my friends from here (Hawaii) inside. I was curious as to why so many were in there, turns out, some billionaire was in the house. I saw him, but I didn't go crazy over it. Then all of a sudden, someone asked where Carol's mailbox is, so I mentioned that it was to the right of the driveway. Then all of a sudden, some kid starts nagging on me about how I made these YouTube videos in 3rd grade about geography lessons and they were boring. Later, I log on my computer and I see that there actually are geography videos I made on YouTube, and also another video with some of my friends saying "Hi!" Then I realized that I left my Sidekick cell phone in Carol's house 3 years ago, so I ran back in and I checked under one of the chair cushions.. sure enough, there it was! The internet loaded up right away, and I was worried that my parents would be charged for the bill. Next door to Carol's house was an Ice Cream Shop. I went with one of my friends, and immediately walked out after seeing how unpleasing the ice cream looked. Later on, I was in an arcade (I don't remember how or why I came here) and I decided to play DDR. I start playing, and some song is already preselected, and it's DIFFICULT. I did terrible and failed on the last few arrows pretty much, and some kids were making some side-comments. So, I started the game again, and I played Fantasy by Melissa (on heavy) but I forgot to speed up the arrows. Now it was very difficult, because the arrows just came in cluttered groups, but for some reason.. I hit all of the arrows. My feet were moving rapidly on all of the arrows, and I was doing great. But for some reason, I was hitting most of them early, and it was counting them.
I'm not really sure where the first dream starts, it's a bit fragmented at the start. I'm dreaming about house. I'm watching House and Wilson have an argument not sure what about or what is said (can't remember) but I think it is about Cuddy and Lucas. I have to get a timetable for house for the Gerrards Cross train for some random reason so I suddenly find myself on a train. The thing I notice most about the train is that it moves absolutely silently and smoothly and the carriage I am in is completely empty. The train itself is a light turquoise colour and the seats are dark purple and Turquoise. I get off the train in a massive train station, a really old sandstone building that is cavernous and busy. I know that I'm getting on the same train to get back in a few minutes because it's only 3 stops back and the train will leave in 5 minutes. I walk along the side of the train, down the stairs and back around to the other side of the train, stopping to pick up the timetable before I get back on. I have no memory of actually going back on the train though. Back with House and Wilson, Lucas and Cuddy are there and he has just hit Cuddy after she has told him that their relationship is over. House shouts at him and charges over, punching Lucas in the face telling him that if he ever lays a finger on her again, he'll kill him himself. Lucas goes to leave and somehow his arm and fingers are broken, his arm at a bizarre angle in his dark jacket, so house tries to stop him to at least treat the damage. Lucas snarls at him and pulls open the front door, where 3 heavies are waiting one with a thick chain, swinging it menacingly. I know that the guy with the chain has broken House's legs before but I don't know when or why. Probably some gambling debt, or hookers. Dream ends. Dream 2 I'm outside walking down a little dirt path, with a chain link fence, next to my old primary school. It's dark but the sky is a funny colour a really dark angry purple. Two little girls are walking in front of me and I can hear them talking. The first has dark brown hair, about shoulder length and the second has blonde hair with bunches, cute as a button. Neither of them could be any older than 6. I think they might be my little sisters, when they were young I could only see them from the back. The Dark haired one says to the little blonde one with scornful authority of being a year older "Well when I was a little girl like you, I didn't eat plasticine!" The little blonde girl starts to say something in response but is cut short by the lightning starting. It is awe inspiring lightning, like nothing I have ever seen before - sparking in the sky initially, seeming not to hit the ground. I hurriedly try to move the kids along, as the lightning starts to strike all around us. The kids are terrified so I wrestle them both into my grans house in Baillieston. Further up the street, behind Louise McCann's house I see my mum and dad. As I watch, a huge lightning bolt tears out of the sky and hits a small car in the car park, setting it on fire. I rush over to my parents and tell them that I have made sure the kids are safe in the house. They are sheltering in a garage in the car park after being caught outside when the lightning started. Dream ends.
[I]abridged[/I] I am Deathgawn, the devil-man. I am standing on Mars, surveying my surroundings. Q10 stands next to me. I raise my arms, and he and I create a demonic castle rising up from the ground. It is covered in spikes, and red soil is mounded up next to it. Crab-like legs unfurl from under the castle, and it moves. Then, jets shoot out and it hovers. The front gate opens like a mouth, and thousands of bats swarm out. A few hundred land on my body, and flying, carry me to the front castle wall, then release me. I see there is a control panel to drive the castle. I surround the castle with tiny stars and black holes. I declare war on the Templars of Urth! Strange dark beings come to my castle, and pledge to fight with me.
Lions! I was in a jungle, its was nice and warm and very sunny. I started to notice there were lions everywhere! There were hundreds everywhere I looked. None were too bothered with me but when I got too close sometimes they stood up. I was trying to get away but everywhere I went there were just more! I tried climbing up some palm trees that had enough angle for me to get up but I kept slipping. Pack of Unicorns I was in Wellington and I hopped on a bus with some mates. They were going to Masterton and I couldnt go because of something. I was deep in conversation with them when I noticed I had forgotten to get off and was all the way in Masterton. Suddenly they hopped off and I was alone on the bus. I went to the driver and told him the story. I didnt have any money and so on. I had my eftpos card in my pocket but didnt want him to see it as I didnt want to pay for the trip. I hopped off in the country and there were a few other cars. A middle aged couple approached me and said they were driving over to Welly later that night an 9pm and said I could get a ride with them. I was happy to have that sorted but they did seem pretty dodgy. Then my dad came out of nowhere and me and him and a cute girl with short red hair hopped in a van, the girl was driving. I noticed a unicorn in a field we drove past and then saw more. There must have been about 5-8 in the paddock. I thought this was pretty odd and RC'd. My pinky didnt pop straight out as usual but with a little effort it emerged between my fingers. I was dreaming! I started rubbing my hands together, it felt so real! I told my dad I was dreaming and told him to rub his hands together too. I was just starting to think about making a portal to the moon when the dream faded away. Escape with the Midget I was with a midget, for some reason we were prisoners in some sort of royal castle. The head man of the castle had organised for us to escape. I dont remember how we got out of our cell but I remember sneaking around and seeing the main guys wife who didnt want us to escape. She saw us and sent her guards. We ran into a realy big room and out a huge door into the courtyard. There were heaps of guards chasing us. I was ahead and was going to run out away from the castle when the midget yelled out to go into the church. I didnt think it was a very good idea but opened the huge wooden door to the church. Just as this happened it went like a movie to a shot of the midget who was quite a bit behind me. The guards were still quite a way behind him. They shot some wierd thing at him. It looked kinda like the head of a fork and when it flew through the air you could see the way it came like bullets in the matrix. When it hit him he couldnt move. Then all of a sudden he burst free and started running again. It went slow motion and I could see heaps of the things flying by and barely missing him. He made it into the church and I started locking the door. There were like 5 locks and I did them all up. The midget ran into a small midget sized door. I tried to follow him but I got stuck in the small door. I knew I couldnt make it and woke up
My first entry, taken from my workbook. Black-non dream things Blue- dream things Ok, here is going to be a post from what I remember. Luckily it was only four days, but unluckily is that it was still four days so hard to remember. I distinctly remember Thursday's dreams, I'm not sure why, though. The first excerpt was Me playing Fallout: Vegas or whatever it is called. I am not sure why, as I played Fallout 3 a while ago but in the dream it was like an advertisement for the game, with a young female voice narrating the pros and cons of the game while someone was shooting some robot... Weird.. Later that night, (I was sleeping over at a friend's house) I had a false awakening. The reals situation was that the guy had to get up at 9:30 for something, but in my dream it was 9:50 and we all overslept. The alarm rang on the guy's phone and everyone was panicking bbecause we had overslept. This was weird, because I saw the guy setting his alarm on an alarm clock before bed so I should have recognized this contradiction. I woke up that morning very confused because of that false awakening dream and because I forgot that I was at someone else's house. For Friday, I remember I went to sleep really late and slept like a log jsut before waking uyp early. I do not remember any dreams, only taht I was having a really good dream right beofre waking up. I woke up disoriented and unhappy because this good dream was interrupted. For today (Saturday) I also went to sleep late and woke kind of early. I do not remember any dreams right now because I did not have my journal handy and I was put ont he spot because we had to do a lot very quickly. I cannot remember any feelings either.
I get up out of bed, and walk downstairs to the bathroom... wait it's upstairs... I have to pee! No, I don't. For some reason, I touch my crotch, and I don't have my man parts... OH SHIT. Wait.... this is a dream. right... ok... I am just going to walk around and touch things. Things feel so realistic, I start to lose lucidity. THIS IS A DREAM THIS IS A DREAM, DAMMIT. I sit down on the couch. I am sitting in my dream. I am going to stay here. I am... sleepy... I fall asleep (in my dream.) DOH!
I fall out of a portal... on to a familiar looking plain at the edge of a forest. There is a castle in front of me. On the drawbridge are a bunch of cheesy DC shadow ogres. They grimace at me. I step forward, and slicing them all in half with a finger laser shout: NONE OF YOU ARE REAL. I leap over the wall, and land in the courtyard. There is a tower I must climb. I stick my ninja fist thingies in the wall and climb up, and into a window. There is a beautiful blond girl waiting there. It's Angel. Oh, I dyed my hair for this adventure. Xaphor pokes his head in the window. "But first you must defeat me!" I close the blind on his head, and kiss my hot girlfriend. There was something about gold or treasure? Rumpelstiltskin? A red devil-boy appears and says, "No, that's not how you do it!" I shrug, and kiss Angel some more.
A large crowd of kids from my high school have planned to go to a mall, then the Cincinnati Reds Hall of Fame and a ballgame. I am with them, but am rather low on cash and already have the giveaway bobblehead from the Hall of Fame. When they leave for the Reds, I stay to bum around in the mall. I head to a Barnes and Nobel to buy a copy of the Tao te Ching. When I get to the shelf where it's kept, I'm accosted by a clerk who says I tried to shoplift it earlier and thus am not allowed to buy it. I get angry and start to make a scene. I notice that mixed with the books on the shelf is a poorly written journal (text RC failed); its owner, a cute black girl, returns to claim it and takes the Tao te Ching along with it. Now I'm really pissed, and I go to pick a fight with a random customer. I soon realize he outclasses me in every way, but I refuse to back down and lose pretty badly.
19-08-10 I woke up in my bed, after a few jolted and fragmented dreams like mentioned before. But this time it was different. I felt the same tingly sensation all over my body that I remember from my first WILD, I quickly started loosing control as everything was dark and there was nothing to see. I shouted “Woow wow, get back here” did a little jump and reached out for the ground while spinning. I mentally said to myself I need light, I needed to see and start using my senses in order to stabilise the dream. I couldn't keep the lights switched on they kept turning off. After a while the light stabilised a bit and I started focusing on the mess on my floor, loads of colours and clothes everywhere (like it is in real life) except there was an old pair of shoes I no longer posses (now I know where to look if I should be fortunate enough to have another Lucid before the end of August ^^). I decided though that the idea of cleaning my room in a lucid dream was a bit of a waste so I walked into the hallway remembering now to smell, touch and try and look around. ARGH damn lights, what good is it to be mentally able to turn them on/off if they won't stay on!!! I started loosing the tingling sensation in my body and was afraid I was about to wake up, so I did a quick check and reached out with my hand and made an empty Coke bottle fly into it.. Telekinesis, check.. still dreaming. I walked to my coffee table, that admittedly was slightly in the wrong place and made sure I caressed it and felt out for the edges and corners (something I reminded myself about when awake, at work considering writing a small explanation on Schemata, from an old presentation I have lying around). In the lounge it was dawn although it had been dark night in my sleeping room (didn't think anything of it, the DAMN DAMN lights were still way too dim!!). I tried to remember the goals I had set myself and these needed DCs so I decided to take to the streets, also knowing there would be street lights. I flew out my kitchen window (which has now become my new favourite exit place need to remember to turn it into a portal at some point). Hovered around and looked in the same direction, as where the woman appeared the last time I tried to ask a DC my dream name. There were no people, but a simply fantastic (although small) Siberian husky came down the street towards me. I landed and sat on the ground calling out “come here boy” in a friendly tone and as he came I started cuddling him behind the ears. I was aware that the visual and tactile sensations of cuddling this dog was helping me stabilise the dream, and besides the dog loved it (I will get back to just how much in a bit ^^). I looked over his shoulder and I saw that woman's back as she turned a corner. “stop” I shouted, and took off flying after her, the dog followed. I thought to myself I could grab a quick dream flirt ^^. As I came around the corner I saw a door leading slightly downwards, the type of door that leads to a corridor under the building(s) commonly associated with the university structures. I flew through it, the dog followed (didn't pay any attention to the dog's control ability till after having booted up the PC to write down the dream). As I flew through these corridors I several times flew through doors, which I have never been able to before (the dog followed). And midway through I noticed the dog jumping up and down, either he wanted more attention or thought it was as fun a game as I did. Now that I was confident in my abilities to fly through matter, although not being able to see through, I flew up through the walls at an angle and the dog followed until I reached a café of sorts. The dog disappeared, but the woman was queuing up to get seated. The café had a professional feel to it and the surrounding buildings in quality seemed governmental. I said “hi” to which she replied “hi and goodbye” which I found very odd, although I didn't treat her like other DCs in the past, to whom I would say “youre in my head, this is my dream”. I wanted to talk to her and start the whole flirting plan I had in mind, but she kept refusing me although she was smiling while walking away. I must have asked her why she refused me, as she said something like “I don't know it just seemed rude since I wasn't going to get anything to eat” I asked “why is that?” and she seemed stunned by the question and as she was about to answer... I woke up >.<
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