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i had a dream early in the night but i don't remember it at all. i will edit this if i recall any details.

later i am in the dining room of the townhouse. various people are here. i have gotten 7 or 8 identical tattoos on my hip. they are tiny outlines of men. i colour them in with a pink marker to make it look like they're naked. a girl laughs and asks me if it's my halloween costume. suddenly i realize that it is halloween. i want candy but i do not have a costume so i go to my room and find a pair of bunny ears. i put them on and leave the house (it is night) but i only get a few steps before realizing i've forgotten to get something to hold the candy. i go back inside the house. there's a long segment here that i don't remember much of. all i remember is that i was carrying a purple nightgown with bleach stains and i saw an identical nightgown on a shelf, which creeped me out a little, and people were discussing times? i went upstairs to get a pillowcase but for some reason went into the bathroom instead. i heard someone talking about slenderman downstairs. then i entered my room. i grabbed a pillowcase and put on a glove shaped like a bunny's paw. the dream ends here.

around 9 am i had the following dream: i am visiting my mother in an unfamiliar house. we get into an argument, the details of which are a little personal and so won't be posted here. i end up screaming at her, throwing a stack of paper in her face and leaving.

edit: remembered another part of the last dream. this occurred prior to the argument. my father and i were in an apartment with white walls; a lot of stuff was made of wood. the room was filled with blue light. there were parts coming out of the walls that created steep hills and inclines and we were trying to climb on top of them. at the same time that these represented parts of the room they also represented a landscape and at times they would become much larger in scale and look, for lack of a better description, like real-life video game platforms; at one point there was an elaborate gothic church on top of one. yet they were still components of the apartment.

comment: these simultaneous perceptions feature commonly in my dreams and often make it difficult to write down an accurate description. the best way i can describe it is that they add layers of depth to the dream world.. that is to say a table in a dream is not just a table; it may occasionally be perceived as an object that is functionally or structurally related (eg a chair because it's used for dining, a dog because it has four legs and is brown) or, if not fully perceived this way these sorts of associations will persist at a subconscious level and colour the dream experience. the mechanism behind this, i think, is an intensification of associative thought. i have experienced similar perceptions in waking life w/ the use of marijuana.

Legend: Dream , Semi-Lucid , Lucid.

Robots and zippo lighters:
In this dream, i'm a pilot of a mech, but my mech isn't fully upgraded so i'm hiding in my garage hoping to avoid the other mechs so my mech won't be destroyed. After a while, i eventually walk out and find tons of zippo lighters on the ground, and of course, my attitude is, 'hey these could be useful'. So i walk around collecting a ton of those. I think i eventually see a person but i can't remember. The dream takes place on my farm at night by the way.

Also, i mentioned Shinobu oshino in my log title ( she is a character from the -monogatari anime series ). That's because somewhere in this dream, i saw her or something. I can't remember what happened except for the fact i saw her.

Jailbreak:
The theme of this dream is like the gamemode Jailbreak from cs:s. I'm a prisoner but i get left behind, in this dream, the goal was to get a bomb and plant it somewhere in a courtyard. Since i was left behind, there are no cops to stop me from looting the bomb off a body. So i get the bomb and i go through sewer pipes into the courtyard and as i'm about to plant it. The cops shoot me and i die.

Next round, only my dad and sister are the cops and i'm the only prisoner. Next thing i know, they are in my room attaching pins and buttons to my t-shirt.

Jailed:
I'm in a big open metallic looking room with other people. We are all standing still, there is a girl walking around giving us orders. I open my mouth to ask a question as she walks by and the look on her face was absolutely terrifying, the young tough lady then starting yelling at me and told me to give her 5 dollars so i did. Then she gets even more mad because i wasn't suppose to give her money.

Eventually, she leaves me alone and continues to walk around yelling at people. She gets back around and tells me to give her money again and i do ( forgetting what happened last time) but i was too late, she snatched the money just as i remembered what she had told me. So i start chasing her and i tackle her down and rip the money from her hands.

After that scene, all of us are sent to like this nice little living room place. Not too bad for a jail xD. Next thing i know, the girl is having a feast with me and my family. I'm afraid at the thought because i know she's going to do something bad. So i walk outside for the feast, but i see no one so i keep walking, i eventually get the some woods and i see some indian like shelters, i'm afraid the owner is going to come back and catch me around his stuff so i walk back.

I find my family sitting around a big fire. As i sit down, all the prisoners escape, so i decide that in the chaos, i will flee too. I start running, this new girl joins by my side but speeds up for no reason. I look behind me to see this guy chasing me. He's throwing alcohol on these ant hills and to my surprise, they're exploding. This is all i remember.

Level of Lucidity: 0
Level of Clarity: 5
Level of Realism: 9
(levels based 0-10, 0-5 being low - good 5-10 being great - extreme)

I was in LA (My home city) and was just finishing smoking a blunt... of tobacco. I was sitting at my computer playing Battlefield 3. I heard some people outside of my apartment looking at an apartment to lease and I knew it was late, perhaps 4 in the morning. I looked out of the window and there was a large family comprised of two parents, an uncle, and about 6 kids. Two of which were girls close to my age (18). One of them saw me looking out of the window and climbed up to the balcony to see me. She sat at my desk and I told her that I had been smoking. She doesn't seem to care. I put my hands on her knees and we are about to engage in sexual activity when she begins to pull away and talk, but it's still a heated kind of conversation. We then started making out etc. After we did that for a bit, her family walks out and she has to leave with them. I think her father saw us kissing, he was very mad and I ran out of the apartment and the complex was no longer my own, it is now like a Motel 6 on the exterior. The balconies were all different, and so were the colors, and every apartment had a window AC, just like at Motel 6's. I run into the last room on the end towards the street because the door is open and explained what's happening to my neighbor. I go and hide in the back which was a closet with a shower in it, and there was no door. When I think it's safe I stick my head out to thank the tenant but the family is walking past the window and the dad sees me. He comes inside and walks to where I am with his daughter and says some things to me but I can't make out what they are. All I understood was that he was angry. I talked to him for a bit, and before long we are friends. He knows I only wish the best and wouldn't simply take advantage of his daughter. The next thing I know we are on a fancy boat on a very futuristic beach, but there is no sand, instead there are huge mile high skyscrapers, and the waves were crashing into the base of them. In between 2 of the skyscrapers there's a sort of boating dock. The boat I was on was like a speedboat that would pull a tube behind it. Me and the girl are sitting in the front of the boat and one of her sisters was out swimming in the sea. Then suddenly she found some other boat and is doing something with it. She started it then pulled it behind our boat and tethered it to our boat.

That's all I remember, I forgot the dream upon awakening, but remembered about an hour and a half later, after I got out of the shower.



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Late Journal Entry: June 6, 2013
No Method (long day at work, just went to bed)

Piece's of a dream #1:
Living in Columbus Ohio for a short while with my sister then it was time to go back to my life in another state. I have to make a decision on if I was ready to move to my state, or stay in Columbus and live closer to my family.

#2:
Inside a school cafeteria eating lunch and my son was singing and I told him to be quiet because he could not sing.

Napping:
I was baby sitting and showing new mothers how to bath their newborn babies. They were very nervous and I could hear their heart beating so loud and fast. Many of them could not be in the same room and had to step out for several parts of the demonstration.

2013-06-01

#1:
It felt like I was in a Pokemon game. Not much to say about it, except I was only walking around.

#2:
At the end of a long "dungeon", there were books called Black to White and White to Black (I think this was a reference to Pokemon). The whole books were sort of like puzzles and the pages split from being black to being white in the middle of each page. They had a lot of pictures as well, and I think they were written by J.K. Rowling.

#3:
My dad had people over. I think he invited over the people with the first phone numbers (1-111-111-1111, 1-111-111-1112 etc) and quite a few came. My cousin was there as well. We were given riddles to solve collaboratively.

I'm having one of those dreams where my daughter is being super disruptive. I hate these dreams because she's nothing like that in RL.

2013-05-28 2:00am to 10:00
Don't remember any early ones except one very vague piece.

#1:
There were university exams finishing in my school when I went home. When the bus was coming, I realized I had something that belonged to the kitchen, which moved to across from the office. I gave it back and ran back out to find a nice girl who held the bus. I thought I had to get off at my dad's, but I missed that stop while talking to her and nearly missed my mom's. She would keep smiling brightly. The next day, I was on the bus again and saw her on there. This time, the bus took a pretty weird route and we were the only two there. Eventually, we both got off at my mom's after one stop being in my mom's basement and one being upstairs, and the bus driver had to pack up some stuff, so we helped. It ended with her telling me when she took the bus home normally.

#2:
Two friends' moms and mine hung out a lot. There was one time when I was making some meat mixed with chicken, a time when I was at my friend's and he did something as news people came closer to the house, and a time where I was reading an easy book where you had to keep guessing the place farthest away. Sometimes, I would go into the book and solve a problem, like someone being trapped on top of a geyser gush. My sister was intent on putting cheese in the grater for some reason, and I was working hard to make some food from numbers scattered all over the floor.

#3: seems familiar, and almost as if I was watching a movie
Tyrion or someone buried stuff. We were somewhere and they and others decided to come, but had a hard time getting to us. Meanwhile, I was helping someone with a carnival-like game in a grocery store. I also tried to answer someone's hard math question. We were on a ship or something and watching videos and doing question sheets. I did the wrong one before we watched that video. Then, we were in a classroom and my friend was wondering what the light switches did. He eventually flipped one that cut the room's power. It ended with Cersi finding the buried stuff.

2013-05-27
Woke several times before alarm; never remembered any dreams until morning. Almost everything seems like a big blur.

Fragment 1:
I was at my grandparents' house, though it was very different. We were all having Thanksgiving dinner and I managed to make some crazy stuff happen, which I fixed by adjusting all of the light switches to certain positions. Eventually, this turned into a sort of ship with all kinds of doors and passage ways and we got a big problem that was interesting and involved a lot of fighting to solve.

Fragment 2:
There was a city that sort of reminds me of those first Sonic games. There were multiple ways through and one aspect was seeing how fast you could go. Occasionally, a thing would pop up. I could never get past two of them. There was a giant elevator in the centre of the city that I was eventually meant to take, but I don't remember what was up there.

Fragment 3:
The first thing I remember was being in the van on the way to a restaurant and wanting to bring an empty water bottle in, which I drank while running to the door of the restaurant. We went to that restaurant twice: once for Mothers' Day and once for Fathers' Day. After those, I was at my dad's house and I kept needing something to drink, but I could never find a cup.

Fragment 4:
I was at the school, looking for hidden openings behind parts of the walls and found that as a Rhydon, I could easily climb all over the wall and break through. I started following instructions given by some evil person, kept finding all sorts of powerup things, and eventually ended up in a computer lab with a class in it and I had a dragon. It downloaded all of the information and blew fire around all of the room, though nothing really happened from the fire. The teacher and I talked while the dragon finished downloading everything. Then, the class left the room.

Fragment 5:
I was at my mom's, having battles against my sister. She once threw a couch down the stairs at me and started saying how "Java has no multithreading". Eventually, we were breeding Pokemon to get new types and I was following a pretty good guide with my brother and ended up with a pretty good result, but had far fewer in total than my sister. I eventually ended up in a room on the other side of the bathroom from my sister and eventually, we were in her bedroom, battling, even though I was planning to get another of the really good type. I won and I realized I was playing a new Pokemon game. The ending credits had a part where it was panning along a street near my house. I could even read a street sign, though it was blurred, and thought that was weird for a Pokemon game.

2013-05-26 -- 12:00am-12:15am to 4:20am-4:25am and 5:00am-5:30am to 9:15am
I actually managed, when waking up after the third fragment abruptly came to an end, to not open my eyes or move at all, but my mind quickly betrayed me and started thinking of waking life things
and I ruined my first DEILD chance.

Fragment 1: (felt like a precursor to #2)
I was at a school, in a locker room. I was more highly regarded than not, and it was not that I was dealing drugs or anything like that.

Fragment 2:
There was some cat food that we had at my dad's house that would turn the cat invisible. I remember seeing a preview of a ghostly outline of our bigger cat. My sister and dad's old girlfriend were
there. My brother was playing a lot of one specific game downstairs. I was on game consoles and watching the Kill Bill series, which I've never seen IRL. The fifth one was supposed to be about gay
men, and I think the others had some suggestive scenes, but I watched the fifth more than once and it had nothing of the sort (not that I wanted it to). Two girls were racing and one didn't want to lose, so some giant thing grabbed her and teleported her right in front of the other one right at the end of the race and she won. The game my brother played also had a ripoff that he deemed worse than the original. At some
point, I was in my dad's bathroom with a laptop on the counter and other people behind me when he walked in. My dad was also bugging me to set up some technology thing throughout the dream (as if I
don't get enough of that IRL).

Fragment 3: (felt linked to #2 as if this happened after)
I was kidnapped and ended up in a camp with many others and a pretty fair leader. We were all given computers to type up something with and the leader tossed a big ball mouse to someone who needed
it, despite the fact we had laptops. For some reason, I wrote that I was disabled from the waist down and made sure not to put my name or anything on it. I also posted a StackOverflow question (I
swear these are the first two dreams involving it, though I do hang out there a lot) with a very badly drawn long biological worm-like thing with points in it that was unrelated to the question, in
there for others' interest. The leader sent these (not the question) to the school or government. I was starting to freak out. I was then in my mom's house, eating at the table, when inspectors
arrived. There was a little girl and, presumably, her mother. Thankfully, there were two wheelchairs nearby. My brother unfolded and pulled one over beside my chair. Next thing I know, I was
sitting or standing by the front door with the inspectors on the other side of the screen with no wheelchair near me. I was about to walk back to the table, but realized and my brother helped me
over. It was very unconvincing, but they seemed fairly convinced I was disabled and I got the monetary statements, which I didn't want. It felt like I was crying over what it all turned into, but I
wasn't. Next, I started worrying that they would do more research and I would end up like the person I saw recently IRL who had a video that clearly showed him not needing a wheelchair and just
reaping benefits. I was transitioned to court with no wheelchair beside me (I wanted to go up to the judge and looked). Then, I awoke very suddenly and actually got the first step of DEILD right.

My alarm was for ~1.5 hours later, but I was up, so I wrote the dreams down in my DJ and by that time, it was close to half an hour later, though it took me a while to get back to sleep.

Fragment 4:
I was in a school that I did not recognize. There were no classrooms and I didn't like it outside of my room and had to follow my roommate to find it. The supervisors didn't seem too nice. One day,
I lost my roommate and the supervisors got me. I was then in a basement area and I think I escaped outside. The school's location was that of a plaza near my house. I was running around and found
that I could slide great distances (like really good ice). After a while, I returned and a supervisor said I wasn't allowed off school property. After that, I was sitting outside of a classroom in
my normal school, playing around with a program that my IRL friend made in my dream. Rockets would fly up and whichever hit the top of the screen would explode and make some cool noise. Eventually,
some other people came, and I showed them, but the rockets came out of the screen and some hit the roof and exploded and made the noise. It was pretty cool, and there was some other part before the
dream ended.

Fragment 5:
All I remember is standing outside my church with a pole with two flags drooping down on it. We were trying to figure out if there was a case where shaking it so that one flag was rigid would ever
not make the flag droopy after exactly five seconds, and there was not. All I could think about were tuples for some reason.

2013-05-25 (apparently I had these dreams two months from now before)
In what I believe is chronological order, none lucid:

Fragment 1:
Another person and I were walking, possibly down the street. That's all I remember.

Fragment 2:
I was in some sort of jungle. I think I was racing 2 on 2 by swinging around on vines or something and I believe I/we won and ended up in my dad's backyard.

Fragment 3:
My sister had friends over and there was a lot that happened that I don't remember. At one point, I was in the front closet of my mom's house and they came, opened it and we all wanted a specific shirt. I walked over to the sink in the kitchen and saw a StackOverflow question inside, saying something like my mom should get it, which quickly got two upvotes. <Then, I woke up, opened my eyes, turned onto my side and immediately realized I suck at DEILD.>

Vividness: Around 6-7/15 (10 being lucid) (From the night of Wednesday, 5/8/13)
Awareness: 6/10
Sleep times 11:05PM, 6:56 AM, 7:20AM
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I am at a pool (one I am not familiar with) and there seem to be many people (indistinct blurs, I don't exactly focus on the detail here) running around the edges. Somehow I gather that there is an 'evil spirit' that transfers through contact (my subconscious can't make up it's mind: sometimes there are many and I'm made to believe that they're devouring people, sometimes just one) and chases you around endlessly. I remember running up the stairs of a mini tiki hut by the side of the pool, and getting jostled as people crowd up in the small doorless frame. I get tagged a few times, but feel no effect and immediately get someone else as the running in circles cycle continues.

At some point I'm at a pool I used to go to as a child, and the water level is a few inches about the floor (so the entire surface of the pool, concrete and all are covered with at least 6 inches of water, the pool parts going down to 14 feet). I am splashing along the edges of the pool and seem to glimpse sharks near the bottom of one of them. I notice that the water is very sparkly and pale, and the concrete has a bleached look about it. This was the middle dream, then the pool location switches back to the first.

More running around, then (about 453632626 hours later my mind realizes if I'm getting chased I can actually LEAVE the premises) the focus switches to there being bombs in either the pool or one of the cars in the parking lot (a flat gravelly area with dense foliage on all sides, not a place I recognize). I'm trying to think about where to go, and glance over at the suddenly enlarged entrance to the pool to see a mass of people trying to leave and drive away. I notice my dad and mom, and as I do so there is a movement out of the corner of my eye and all the cars drive away, leaving one empty white SUV conspicuously parked near me (at least the passenger side was). I usher my parents out of the building, and I recognize slight fear and confusion on my dad's face as I single him out in the crowd.

I'm at the pool parking lot still, but deathly afraid and run along the gravelly path that makes way for a cheap asphalt road. Here I am very aware of some of my limbs, and glance over my shoulder every few seconds, moving my neck quickly. I can see a great amount of detail, with flickering lights shining through the leaves behind me and giving off beautiful shadows on the ground (I almost never notice shadows in dreams). There appears to be some pulsating 2-D shape moving along the ground and emitting a strange 'eeeeeeeeee', but my mind deems it nonthreatening and I stumble onwards. I make turns aimlessly and don't really recall the scenery, just the fact that I need to run away and I'm lost. I finally am running down a extremely narrow, lineless road that heads towards a coffee shop I sometimes go to on the weekends. As I run, I meet up with a misleadingly innocuous girl, slightly shorter than me with an average, unattractive face with brown hair and eyes. I somehow learn that she is a vampire (my disoriented brain is trying to tie in with the spirit-monsters from earler) and mistakes me for one as well. We talk briefly, but as we reach the entrance of the coffee shop, she realizes I am a human as a bulky, lumbering male companion of hers steps out onto the road to meet us. She says how they bite thousands of humans every day, and I feel an immense relief, not having realized how scared I was that if I were to get bitten, it would hurt badly (thinking I probably had been bitten before, and either I didn't remember it or it was not painful). I start to run back down the road, and she lopes gracefully after me. We swing our arms at each other, and I block a quick secession of blows with the sides of my forearms, somehow hitting a combo to disable an attack buff (...? even I don't remember or know what I'm talking about here). We exchange some deadly hand to hand blows, and then I have NO IDEA what happens next. Talk about crazy sickness-induced dreams, eh?

Wednesday 4/24/13

last night bed 1am - 8:50am

Today nap 11am - 1:20pm

Nap WILD

I was getting close to WILD, so I imagined I'm flying upwards and I started to feel sensation of flying up, then I imagined falling down, and got that strong sensation.

Here I thought, that I must be already dreaming, no need to wait for any clues and decided to get up. I payed attention to my body standing up and it felt as my real body. Went out on my balcony and thought I better confirm, before jumping off. I did a thumb/palm and it was going in easily. Didn't push it all the way through, because I was a little grossed out. Then I pinched my nose and I could breathe. I didn't do these RCs in a long time. Even so, I was just climbing down on the outside of the balcony instead of jumping off, just in case.


I'm walking through neighbors yard. Looks like it's winter, trees are without leaves, maybe with some yellow, spring flowers. I walk over to our yard and neighbor is looking at me and waving, calling my name. I yell back, yes, you can see me, because you do meditations (he does IWL). But he can't hear me, so he stops.

I perch myself on top of the fence and start singing. Beautiful voice, melody, cool words. I'm very happy with myself. (As WILDing, one of my requests was let me hear some beautiful music. So I guess this was it? I guess I need to specify "not sung by me")

My dad and my mom are in the yard and it's so real, as if I was there for real. Dad in red tshirt, cleaning vegetables.

I don't know what to do, so I say this is also nice, visiting family. Then I remember I wanted to go to starship Voyager. So I say when I turn around, there is starsip Voyager. I turn around all smiles, but there is only open field.

I walk through the fields with a little girl and we are finding lots of toys in bags. I ask her if she would like them. Principal walks by.

As I get out of this LD, I start to iniciate another flying/falling sensation and it works. At some point I can feel both up and down falling at the same time. It was awesome. When it was over, I smiled to myself and said ok, now we can go and have a lucid dream. Again, I said to myself no need to wait for clues, I just get up. The moment I got up, neighbor came home with such a ruckus, sounded like she is moving or something. Damn. Then I just got up and will continue tomorrow.

1am-6am

this dream takes place in the apartment. i have just bought a new pair of jeans. buying these jeans enters you into a contest: the contest details are written on a pink leather square on the back of the jeans. i show the jeans to my mother and she becomes incredibly angry, screaming at me that the jeans are awful and i am stupid for wasting my money on them. i try to reason with her but she continues to furiously berate me.

i later had a lucid dream in which i was able to exert control over the environment -- although i have lucid dreams quite regularly they are typically very short & i am not able to control anything... this dream was different. sadly, i don't recall it too well.
i was inside of a house. something about the environment tipped me off that it could be a dream, so i performed a reality check. it was successful, so i ran outside of the house (rubbing my hands to stabilize the dream -- i remember i looked at my hands once and they looked normal, which i've never experienced dream before) into an autumnal forest area with many elaborate fountains scattered around. the fountains were all turned off but i was able to will them to begin flowing. i felt an invigorating rush of power. this is the first time i've been able to change the environment in a LD and makes me optimistic for my dream control in the future.

7am-9:30 am

i am in an unfamiliar house with three teenage boys and an older woman. at one point i ask the woman what the boys think of me. she tells me i disgust them with my insecurity. i have a breakdown and begin crying. i think i might have to go to the mental hospital.

later i dream that i am playing sims 3. there is a new item, a box that your sim can crawl into. when you click on it there is an option to "enter the dread cave". i choose this option: my sim enters and does not come back. the scene then switches from observing a video game to being inside of a real life scene. the box has turned into a kennel and there is a small black dog here. i put the dog into the kennel but it escapes somehow. i talk with someone about this and we somehow make the dog want to be locked in the kennel.

fell asleep around 12, woke up around 3, went back to bed, finally woke up around 7

12am - 3am
a long and complicated dream about a tall girl with red hair. in the dream we were good friends. there was a very jovial atmosphere, unlike most of my dreams.

then a dream where i discussed lucid dreaming at length -- without actually becoming lucid.

3am-7am

i am at a strange clothes store with my boyfriend. the store mainly sells lolita dresses but contains a large variety of different clothing items as well as miscellaneous objects. at the far end of the room there is a passage to a second room which is brightly lit with many large windows. the store owners, a middle-aged asian woman and her teenage daughter, work here, making all the clothes from scratch. we talk to the two women for a while. there are many items of clothing hanging on racks here and i discover a finely crafted leather jacket with luxurious fur trim; i ask the younger woman how much it would cost and she tells me "about a month's salary". we leave this room and return to the main part of the store. there is a dress i would like to buy here, but it is too expensive. instead, my boyfriend and i decide to buy two dvds. these "dvds" come in vhs cases with elaborate box art; the one my boyfriend buys has art that's a slightly altered version of the dark side of the moon cover, and mine is a complex pattern of organic plantlike shapes. we understand that these movies are beautiful works of art and that watching them will change our lives. we trade the shop owners a large pyramidal prism for the dvds.

then i leave the store and enter into a shady urban area at night. i am now running away from three young white men who want to mug me. i see my dad's car parked on the side of the street: i get in and we drive away.

Was lucid Saturday...something involving a theme park, and this stripper chick I dated once.

Today I had a few frags. I remember talking to my brother about bowling. We were having a conversation about bowling not being a sport until a person who is really good at it does it.