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I'm in school with Signe and showing her the Dream Journals' section of dreamviews on my school computer. I see one of my posts and there is a picture of a bowl with cereals and milk in it. I see a comment from my classmate Hugo.

I'm in school in a sofa with many other pupils from school. I have a guitar and play it. I do some different chords and notice that the chords I'm playing aren't the ones I hear from the guitar. I know it's a dream but I get the feeling that the dream is going to disappear. A transition were I lose my lucidity and teleports to another part of school. I'm walking the D200 floor from the spiral steps to the other part of the floor. I walk to a toilet and slowly realize I'm in a dream. I walk to Helene and Signe. I walk to the spiral stairs and jump down. There is no end to them and I keep on falling. I fly to the stairs and hit the ground smoothly. I want to do it again in order to feel how it felt again. I look down the stairs but there is an end to them now about three meters down. I fly down and Signe and Helene are there again. I feel the dream starts to fade away. I'm in my bed and do a RC. I try to go up from my bed but it's hard and my vision is bad. I open my window and fly away. I fly in through a window and find two girls and a boy sitting in a sofa watching a movie. I test my abilitiy to command my DC:s to do things through my mind and is able to make one of the girls to stand up and jump around without saying anything. The dream fades away.

Notes: I played guitar at school yesterday. I wonder if I can stop the random teleportations and have a long lucid dream instead.

I am a missionary at a yard. I walk around with my companion and there is a girl there too. We walk into a small house and there are many drinking glasses. I do some tricks with the glasses and walk out. I look back in the house I just was in and see some other persons doing tricks with drinking glasses. Some of them drop them and they break. Some people are mad because they break.

Notes: I am preparing to become a missionary and saving money.

I'm in the kitchen with Eni and his friends. His friends walk out and I talk to Eni. I tell him that we can camp in the park if he brings a tent and sleeping bags. I eat a Billys Pan Pizza and really feel the smooth tomato sauce between my teeth. I think to myself that we probably won't have time to camp because I will soon wake up. Soon after I wake up because of my alarm.

I went to bed 22.40 and drank some water in order to WILD later in the night. I wake up 02.10 and decide to go back to sleep. I wake up 04.49 and start my WILD attempt. I am not able to focus enough and I start to follow my random thoughts and they put me to sleep.

We are in an unknown big house. My brother is playing a game where you have to pay each time you start it. Each time you are to pay the price raises half a dollar. The last price of the dream is about 3 USD. A good looking woman from the game is transformed into our reality. I think it is Lara Croft.

Notes: I was thinking about playing Lara Croft yesterday.

We are in Sturkö kitchen. The young Christoffer H is telling a story about a comedian. The comedian married with someone he knew and there was a twist to the story.

Notes: We watched some old photos yesterday and found a picture where Christoffer was young.

I'm in a sport shop and a man from the staff gives me a water bottle that looks very cool. He then hides and when my girlfriend comes she compliments the bottle and says that it is looking very good. I feel obliged to buy it now and see that it costs 500 kr (57 USD). My girlfriend also grabs something and we walk to the checkout. He tells me that the water bottle costs 1 500 kr (170 USD) now! I give him the money and feel as I have been tricked. The staff starts to talk about how you make the most money by hiring cheap staff and hands me a yellow battered card. I ask what it says. He says that it is a list of farmers that are looking for work and that they only want to be payed 20 kr/h (2.3 USD/h). I think to myself that it is suspiciously cheap. He talks about how you can save money by not delivering the wares to the customers. I ask him how they are going to get the wares but he is not intrested in answering that question.

Notes: Dad talked about buying me some sport shoes but I said that I didn't want to because the ones I have are working just fine. I have thought about starting my own company for some time now.

I'm home by the dinner table and everyone has sandwiches on their plates. My sister is complaining that that you are supposed to eat them cold. I concentrate on my sandwich and try to fry it with my mind power and succeed. I taste it and it tastes really good. I feel bad for my sister who isn't eating it fried and decide that I am going to fry her sandwich as well. She is not complaining when I fry it.

Notes: Dad baked some bread yesterday.

I woke up and thought that I still WILD:ed and gave up when I got a bad itch on my eyelid. When I remembered some dreams I knew that I fell asleep. I think to myself that I am going to have some LD:s for the last two hours of my sleep.

I lie in my bed and do a RC and notice it is a dream. I walk in my bed room and think about what Sageous wrote in the WILD guide that you need to find a door in order to create your own dream. I find a door and expect that jupiter is going to be there when I open it. I open the door and find myself in some kind of other room I have never seen before. I decide to use my usual exit when I have FA:s. I open the window and fly out. I think about a challange that I read on Dreamviews some time ago. The challenge is to make the world darker and then lighter again. They said that it was easy to make the world dark but much harder to make it lighter again. I focus on the light level on the houses and the sky. I speak in a high voice that it is going to be dark. I see how the sky is changing and a light over a house is strong. I look at the light and notice that it is the moon. The moon has fire spitting out from it. The light that is emitted is dark but beautiful. I spectate the view for a while and then decide that I am to try to make it bright again. I focus on the light and immediately it is light again. I fly to a window and break it open. I enter it and some youths are sitting by a sofa. I talk with them about movies and the dream fades away... I wake up and do a RC and notice it was only a FA. I fly out of the window and think to myself that I should make a permanent hideout in the house next doors because I so often have FA:s. I fly out of the window and find a very big yellow house that normally isn't there. I break a window open and cut my left forearm from a glass piece. I walk in and find myself in a big white room that is tidied. I walk to the next room and find a butler leaning himself over a large table. I ask him where the lordship is and he replies that she is not home. I say okey and explore some more. There is nothing interesting and I notice that the butler is watching me. I get a bad feeling and decide to walk out from a window and fly out. I lose myself to the dream narrative here. The butler starts to chase me with a knife and I hurry up. I fly out but I am still worried. I fly alongside some houses and their windows. When I fly next to a window the butler comes out with his knife and tries to stab me. I am trying to wake myself up and succeeds.

Notes: I dream for those dreamy, beautiful views that you can't experience IRL.

Edit: I remembered one more dream later on.

I do a RC and know it is a dream. My view is black but I know that I am sitting against the wall in my bed. I try to stand up but a force is pressing me against the wall. I try harder and slowly I am able to go up from the bed. I try to force open my eyes with my fingers but its really hard. I walk out of my room and the dream becomes more stable.

Notes: I think that this dream was a part of the FA earlier.

I'm talking with Diego. He says that he doesn't have any parents.

Notes: I helped Diego with some math yesterday. I read "To Kill a Mockingbird", and just read about Dill who doesn't have a dad.

Fragment I'm in some kind of game with lava. I need to get some kind equipment in order to pass the lava.

Notes: My brother talked about about a game he plays where he needs some new equipment in order to proceed.

I'm cooking Hasselback potatoes in the kitchen. Andreas E is constantly calling me just to ask me how I am. I tell him I am okey with a short reply all the times. New fragment. I'm in my room with a hose. I am shooting water in my room and try to put my thumb by the mouth of the hose in order to get a more spread out water beam. I don't succeed. My mom calls to me that everyone has to help in the new potato land.

Notes: I read about potatoes yesterday. Andreas has been writing sometimes. I think Andreas has the role of Martin more in the dream because he constantly asks me how I am.

I woke up 05.19 and wrote down the past dreams then. I tried to WILD and have my breath as focusing point but fell asleep.

I'm driving our car up to our street from Albin's house. There is a stranger next to me in the car. He says that I am driving wrong but I think I'm doing it right. He keeps on telling me that I do wrong. I succeed in parking by our house.

I'm in some kind of game where we jump on big rocks and Bowser is there. My brother is also there. I realize it's a dream and fly away. I fly to my house and there are my cousins. I have almost perfect lucidity and it feels as though I have all my IRL memories. I remember that I want to eat something good. I go to the kitchen and find Peter there. I ask him if there is anything I can eat. He takes the frying pan and show me some kind of bean mess that looks disgusting. Peter takes his hand in the food and shoves it around which makes it look even less appetizing. I don't want to eat it anymore and fly outside. Morgan and mom are there. I fly up to the tree which doesn't have any leaves in the dream. I fly around it and I feel such blissfulness. I fly in many different positions that makes me really happy. I fly on my back, stomach, I stand on my feet and fly upwards with my feet pointing up to the sky. That was really trippy. This dream has such good stabiliy and everything feels really real I think to myself. I try to fly as high as I can and above the atmosphere. Unfortunately I can't go higher than about 15 meters above the ground. There is like a soft ceiling that I can't break through. I ask the people on the ground if they want to join me. Some people start to fly modestly and carefully. I fly to the city where the dream starts to fade away.

Notes: The flying was so easy and it made me feel amazing.

I am in city with my friends from school. There is a big glass cage where some people stand. I become more and more lucid. I start to fly in the glass cage and look at the people. I grab two of my friends' hands and try to fly away with them. It is difficult to fly with the extra weight but I manage okey. We walk to Saltö and Gabriel talks about some kind of karate. I look at Signe and she looks different from IRL.

Edit:

Remembered some more dreams during my morning routines.

I'm sitting on a bench in school with the school's guitar. Eni comes through the entrance with his own guitar equipment and someone behind him also has some music instruments. I tell Eni that he finally brought his own things to school. He laughs and says something about how it was time. I'm happy when I think about what we are going to play.

Notes: I thought about how me and Eni probably isn't going to play with each other anymore some days ago.

I'm looking at my face in some mirror and see that my right eyebrow is cut in half and that the right side of the right eyebrow is just a circle with hair on it.

I'm in city and talk with dad about a two-wheeled vehicle that he holds. I take the vehicle and drive out of city. The vehicle I drive has two pedals like a bike. I look at the fuel gauge and find that it is being refueled when I use the pedals to bike. When the gauge is full I use the fuel to go really fast. I look on the speed metre and find that I am driving in 74 km/h (46 miles per hour). I think about the dangers of riding this fast, unprotected in a small vehicle. I see a new road to the left that is going into the woods that I ride into. There is a car that almost crashes in to me when I turn in there. There is an old man that I talk with about something. I ride out to the big road again and use up all my fuel when a curve comes. I go so fast that the friction is not enough to hold me in the curve. I manage to still be on the vehicle but it's going into a big wheat field and the vehicle is gliding on the side. It stops just before a big tree and I am safe. I walk with the bike to the road again and try to drive. All the fuel is out so I try to bike it in order to refill the fuel. It's almost impossible to ride the bike and the gauge is not going up. I'm feeling hopeless.

Notes: I though about biking in order to get some daily exercise yesterday. Dad and I was in a shop where they sold different kinds of two-wheeled vehicles a week ago. The road that I was riding when the speed metre was showing 74 km/h has a speed limit of 60 km/h IRL. In physics we talk about friction and centripetal force. There was a question about what speed you could have in a curve without falling of like I did in the dream. The wheat field represents hard work as I finished reading "The Richest Man In Babylon" yesterday. I though about how a man can make money by buying and selling things but that only real value can be created by manpower. If I work and create value I can feel confident and proud over myself.

I'm by Sturkö. My brother and my cousin Sebastian M are also there. We go onto a wooden fleet and we want to make a boat out of it. We get a mini motor that is really fast. We put it one the end of the fleet and we are able to go pretty fast. We have another motor that we use to change the direction.

Notes: I sometimes have dreams about going out into the waters with some people. I dreamt about Tobbe yesterday wich made me dream about Sebbe today.

I'm in Sturkö and flying around. I try to reach the atmosphere as I have done once before. I'm not fully lucid because I haven't thought about what my dream goals are. I fly by the water and I see the water under me split a little when I fly over it. I am amazed by the quality of the dream, the beauty of the water and want it to last forever. I feel the wind over my skin as I increase my speed. I live in the moment and fly in all different positions. On my back, on my stomach with my hands in front of me, on my stomach with my hands along my body, on my stomach and doing swimming motions with my hands. I see my family by a table in front of The Green House and go to them. I know that we are going to eat food but I don't see any. I sit on the wooden bench. The dream disappears and I wake up.

Notes: These are the dreams I yearn for. The feeling of being free and so flexible in your flying. You can go anywhere. Now when I think about it it may have been a FA.

I drank some water before I went to bed in order to wake up earlier.

I woke up 05.56 and went to bed again 06.05. I had an interesting experience just right before I woke up. I have a little bit of consciousness and see something in front of me. When I lay more weight on that I am councious I immediately wake up. I try to WILD but fall asleep.

I'm in a room with the Håkanssons. We play a game were you create characters. There is someone that makes a character that has babies as hands which was very creepy. Therese asks me what number there is on the TV. I ask her what number it is supposed to be. She says that it is supposed to be the number one. I look at the number on the screen and it changes between about 0.1 to 0.8. After some seconds it stays on the number 1.0. But then the number skyrockets up to more than a thousand. We walk outside and we are now by Sturkö in The Red House. We are supposed to do parachute jumping from the upper level. Some people jump out with backpacks om them. Peter takes a backpack and jumps out on the bush without unleashing the parachute and says "Ouch!". He says that it was a long time since he did this in military training. William says he has to practise for his military training. I also jump after a while. When I land I realize it's a dream. I notice that my hands are very cold. I remember my goal about eating something good tasting in a dream. I walk into the house and find Monica. I ask her where all the cakes are. She points on a fridge next to her. I open it up and see all these ice creams on the upper shelves. All the ice creams are the same taste, the big Daim Ice Cream that has a soft crust. I look for a cake and find a princess cake at the bottom. I grab an ice cream and take a bite. It's not the texture of a real ice cream. It is more watery and you almost don't have to chew anything. Then the taste hits me and I become really happy. It tastes so sweet! I keep on eating but it doesn't taste sweet after about three bites. It doesn't taste much at all. I take a bite of the ice cream cone and excpect the flavour to be good again. I tastes much better again and I'm filled with another happy feeling. The dream fades and I wake up.

I wake up 07.14 just after the ice cream dream. I go to bed again.

Notes: William went to military training a week ago. We were by The Red House last week.

I am in the cellar of The Red House and I am trapped. My mind is teleported to a body on the upper floor and I am dedicated that I am going to the cellar in order to save myself. I fly out of the window and into the basement.

I wake up of my alarm 08.00

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm by the courtyard and there is a big metal box and two people by it. One of them has the spirit of Alex but I never saw his face. There are two mini tanks that are about to fight. One of them is like a normal tank and the other one is just the wheels of a tank. They drive past each other instead and start to target each others' base. The tank I watch has a big canon that is pointed backwards and a small canon that it's using to shoot the base down. Alex makes a joke about communism and that he is Putin. The objective has changed and now the goal is to shoot the bullets until they deform and get the shape of a cube. There is a fire heating the bullets up so they will change shape more easily. One of the bullets hits the big trash can outside my door and it catches fire. The tire is melting down and I try to blow it out. It works after a while. Someone gets burned on a bullet and I am responsible for it, but I don't know why. I move up the little stair in the courtyard and they are having a fire there. The fire is made out of coal and paper that never burns up. Simon is cutting out big pieces of paper with a ruler but he is having a hard time so I help him. I put the pieces from the paper on the fire and they don't burn up.

I'm in a field and being hunted by a dinosaur. I go to a friendly dinosaur and a big monkey that is hiding me behind a big rock. The monkey has the spirit of Daniel from Kristianstad. I go to the other side of the rock because the evil dinosaur is changing position. I get eaten pretty many times in the dream and I don't remember how I transitioned back each time I got eaten.

Notes: One of my worst nightmares when I was smaller was about being eaten by dinosaurs. I talked with Daniel yesterday.

I'm in a hotel with Casper, Diego and Håkanssons. There is a show on TV that everyone is wathing but I'm not interested and goes to sleep on a big pillow instead.

My dad saw into the future and got a hint how he was to become successful and now he just sits by a chair in the courtyard with two people on each side of him. They talk and exchange idéas on how they will be successful.

Notes: My dad is studying to be more successful.

I'm outside the gate and know it's a dream. I fly away but notice that the dream is not stable. I land and touch my face. As I touch my face the whole world turns a little bit browner and my vision gets weird. There are patterns of waves that interupts my sight. I don't feel my face at first but more of my senses is activated. The dream is stable and I start to fly again. I fly to Hemköp and there are all different kinds of people I fly over. The color has changed to gray and there are only men walking.

Notes: Many of my dreams was near my house today.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm talking with Fadi and Johannes. There is an amusement park and a boat were two people can go in a water current. There is a girl that reminds me of Kristina. I really want to ride the boat with her but someone else does it instead. I am separated from my group. There are a lot of disabled persons in a room and some people are being grouped up with the disabled persons to help them through the amusement park. I am paired up with Nora from Rosenfeldt.

Notes: I talked with Johannes and Fadi yesterday.

There are people shooting at each other in an apartment building. I am hiding in a room next to a door. I think how bad I am at shooting games and that I probably will die. There is a man that enters the door and I raise my gun... I thought it was a gun but actually it's just a phone. I still point it at his head and take all these photos at him. He is shocked and back away each time I take a photo at him. My phone is out of pictures and I have to find another way to finish him of. We moved to a spiral staircase as I fired pictures at him. I grab him and throw him over the stair rail so he falls down. I am suddenly on a big pedestal and people are using fake guns to fire at each other. They do firing sounds with their mouths. There is a man that is occasionally showing himself from his cover about 20 meters from me and is shooting at me. There is also a man that is doing the same but from a position right beneath the pedestal. After a time I pretend that I am being shot at and lie down. When I lie down there is a man that screams that he exploited the new patch in order to defeat me.

Notes: Apartment buildings are often in my dreams. I remember another dream where it was almost the same as this one. I fake die in some of my dreams. I read about a new patch in a game and told my brother that his most hated enemy got debuffed in the new patch.

I'm in a typical classroom in the left bottom corner of the room. Everyone is watching their grades of different tests and I realize there is a test I have failed several times. It is some kind of civics test. Alexandra thinks it's weird how I can fail a test when all my other grades are good. I tell her something about how civics is not for me.

Notes: I had a homework in history and thought I wasn't that good at it. That is why I dreamt about this.

Albin shows me a picture of when we were children and I have long hair. He makes a joke about the long hair I had.

Notes: I watched the picture IRL he was showing me in the dream today.

I'm with my old school bully Kevin and we are fighting. I have a firm grip around him and we are both on the ground. When I think about it I don't think the position we were in works IRL. I am winning.

Notes: One of the only fights in my life was with Alexander, Kevin's bully friend.

I'm flying with a hoodie. There is a car that is following me. When I think about what I want to do in the dream it becomes instable.

Notes: I must learn to start stabilizing my dreams.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I just want to start with this. I had many dreams and all were long but I don't remember that much.

I'm at home and become semi lucid. I fly out the window and see two big airplanes about to crash into one another. They are about 20 meters long, one is red and the other one is blue. My pants are constantly being loose and it's hard to keep them on. I struggle with my pants for some moments but decide that it doesn't matter if I don't have any pants, it's a dream. I throw them away and isn't bothered by it for the rest of the dream. I use my telekinesis to make the airplanes change the course. I think it would be fun to see a big explosion so I fly with the big airplanes to the city and I'm looking for big buildings. The two airplanes I controlled have now turned into two big houses instead. I think it will still be a big explosion. I see four big houses and decide that I will target the two biggest of them. There is a church and another house. I lift the two houses I control up high and smash them into the two buildings on the ground. The church is not scratched at all and there is no explosion. The other house I crashed broke but there was not an explosion. I think to myself that the church was holy and therefore I could not destroy it. I fly to the ground and I want to pet a dog. I do the pet motion I would do if a dog were there. From thin air a dog is slowly coming alive. After a while I have a dog with me. I pet it for the rest of the dream.

Notes: I usually don't have this much control over big objects or being able to teleporting dogs to me. Cool dream.

I'm by church with Gustav and Klaus. I am semi lucid. I want to prove to Gustav that it's a dream so I tell him that I will take a picture of the moon on the moon. I fly to the sky, first pretty slowly but faster and faster I go. Suddenly I come to the sky and it appears the whole sky is just a hologram. The moon included. I take a picture of it and return down. When I show Gustav the picture it's not a picture of what I took. It's an orange picture of wheat or something like it. I couldn't prove it was a dream.

Notes: I wonder if the first dream with the church triggered this dream to be at our church. I have only tried to prove it's a dream to Gustav in my dreams. It has happened two or three times now.

I'm in a car with dad and he's driving. There are three turns and he fails at all of them. Accidents that could have gotten us killed. I am angry with dad because of this and he says I'm not wrong that we could have died. We arrive at some kind of tivoli/supermarket. Kalle J and Håkanssons are also there. I get some money by dad and I enter the glass house. The house has machines in it where you are supposed to put your money. I put two coins in one of the machines but don't bother to see if I got anything. I look to the left and see Kalle. I don't want to interact but he sees me and says hello. Håkanssons also come in and we greet.

Notes: I have had many dreams were people drive bad and almost crashes the car recently.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I left my window only half open and only letting the cuartain let in a little bit of light when the morning comes. It was thanks to this that I had my lucid.

I'm in some kind of stone building with some people. I know Oskar, William and Daniel was there. We have some kind of artifact that reveals what kind of power you have. (It's inspired by the series hunter x hunter)When it is oskar's turn his mother is worried because he cut himself on a piece of glass by the stone table where the artifact were.

I wake up 06.20 and realize that this is the perfect time for a lucid. I sleep pretty fast. I don't know when I became lucid.

I fly outside my house and I'm fully aware that it's a dream. There is a man talking with me from the window and asking me if it's hard to fly with the new body (I'm not in my ordinary body, I'm some kind of slim woman I think). I say that it's okey but it's actually hard to navigate in the air with this body and the flying doesn't feel realistic. I fly up in the sky with incredible speed and I'm suddenly over the atmosphere. I still see the last scene in the left side of my vision and I decide to fly back. I walk the street and suddenly I get an impulse that I want to do a circus trick where two people stand at someone's shoulder and lean to the sides while the two people on top hold each other's hands. I see someone walking the street to the left of my house and scream at him to join me. He follows. We try to find someone who's shoulders we can stand on. He wants us to climb on Julias' (my boss) shoulders. I don't see her but when I look I find her. I don't know where we are any more. It is some kind of a park. We try several times to climb her shoulders but we don't have the balance to sustain the position in more than some seconds. Me and Julia interact. I meet some children and I try to make my finger really tall but fail.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm in Sturkö and flying by the road by the White Cottage. My goal is to take a woman's hand and fly away with her. I grab her hand but can't lift her up, she's too heavy. I think about how my speed is making a difference. I think that if I fly fast it may be easier to carry her. I think in some way that felt smart in the dream (but when I woke up I realized it was just rubbish dream talk that didn't make any sense at all).

I have had a dream like this before but I was lucid that time. I have been depressed this week and my body isn't working properly. I try to figure how much it affects my sleeping/dreaming. I tried to sleep with the window open because it is hot in my room. I woke up because it sounded too much. I remembered a dream when I woke up but didn't feel like writing it down. It was a very normal borinig dream.

I am flying, rising up through the air. There are two others with me (I’m not sure if they’re unfamiliar or if I can’t remember what they are), the three of us in a triangular formation. I notice that we are very close to a huge, impossibly tall pine tree. I also hear the lyrics to ‘Low Spark of High-Heeled Boys’ playing in the background: “If you had just a minute to breathe and they granted you one final wish, would you ask for something like another chance?” This really gets to me; I think about it and listen to my heart, saying ‘yes’. The others do not, and I veer away from them, up and to the right. With some effort and vigor, I rise higher. I notice the ground far below, a patchwork of green and brown. I am falling back down now and land way less forcefully than I expected.

Thursday, 8/6/20, Core2


False awakening. I heard my alarm going off but something made me suspect I was dreaming and that the alarm was just part of the dream so I didn't hurry to turn it off. I was laying in bed and not moving easily. A finger count reality check confirmed I had too many fingers but for some reason I still wasn't 100% certain I was really dreaming. I thought about rolling "out of my body" and flying but I was reluctant to fling myself out of bed if I turned out to be awake (it's not close to the floor). What can I do that would be easier? I wondered. I tried to affect my environment. The sound of the alarm faded in and out with my focused thought, then I made it go silent. The entire visual of my room faded as well. Oops. I rolled out of bed and floated to the floor, having now convinced myself I was in a dream and that I needed to stabilize it.

A lapse in consciousness as everything faded to black briefly. I found myself standing in the upstairs bathroom. Wait a minute, I thought after a few seconds, How did I get here? Am I still dreaming? I counted my fingers; seven, eight. It was very strange because my hands looked so normal even when I stared directly at them. I checked a couple more times just to convince myself once again. I was looking around me in amazement because everything was so realistic, an exact replica of my waking life bathroom. Clearer, even. I stared at and felt the bumps on the wall, saw how light reflected off the semi gloss, mint green paint. I decided to go downstairs to look around some more. I hope I'm not just awake and really sleep deprived. I thought idly, Otherwise people are going to think I've really lost it, staring at the walls and talking about how amazing they are.

As I walked down the stairs, I pulled at my hand, trying to see if I could morph it. I did, slightly. The weighting of gravity felt so realistic as well that I wondered if I would be able to fly in this dream since it felt like it would be difficult. I tested it by jumping off a few stairs and confirmed I could float. It felt stranger than usual in this environment. I reached the kitchen where my mom was doing dishes. "Hey Mom," I said, "This is a dream."

"Oh, yeah?" she said.

"Yeah." I thought of what I wanted to do with my lucidity. "Do you want me to show you how to fly?" I asked her.

"No that's okay, I already know how to do that. I've done enough of that lately." She went back to doing dishes. I was somewhat mystified by this decision.

"Oh, okay." I wanted to go out back so I started looking around for the nearest exit. I went and opened the front door. "Well, see you later." I added. Wait, why am I looking for a door to go all the way around? I could just take a straight shot through the kitchen wall. I changed course and flew at the wall. I can't believe some people get stuck in walls, it's never happened to me. All you have to do is not think about it. So then, of course, it happened to me. I got stuck in the wall halfway through. It felt like I was moving through molasses and everything went dark for a couple seconds. Then I could see an extremely vague back yard scene. I focused on a point relatively far away - since the closer focal points weren't yielding results - and I set a strong intention to go there directly. I essentially teleported to the intended spot and the scene became vivid and clear once again.

I flew above my yard, which was roughly accurate to waking life but much bigger. I spotted my late cat Pascal, a fluffy, 24-pound Maine Coon, laying in the yard just past the redwood tree. He was staring up at me. I flew lower and slowed, with a bit of difficulty controlling my height and speed initially. "I don't regret any of it!" I announced to him out of nowhere once I landed in front of him. "Well, except I wish we'd realized how sick you were sooner so you didn't have to go like that. We wanted to be there." I knelt down next to my cat and pet him, talking to him about our time together when he was alive, telling him how much I loved him, and pulling twigs and leaves out of his fur. He just continued staring at me with big eyes and purring, though I got the sense he was listening. The dream lapsed into a non-lucid.

Spoiler for Additional Notes:

Definitely one of my clearest LDs, and a really euphoric feeling to see Pascal again. I loved that cat so much. When he was old and sick, he started having trouble breathing and we rushed him to the vet and said yes when they asked if we wanted them to do a procedure to try to save him. He died on the operating table and I really regretted not being with him at the end. In hindsight we didn't recognize how close he was to going so we weren't prepared to let him go and also didn't have time to think it through fully during the emergency. I was determined not to repeat that mistake, and I didn't the next time one of our elderly cats, Talis, no longer had quality of life. It was very tough to make that decision and to find the right balance, but I know that in that case Talis' needs came first. Anyway, it was still good to finally get to tell Pascal how I felt and how much I loved him, even if it was just in a dream.

9th June 2020

Catching up on DJ again.

Dream:

(last part, my original notes sort of start at the end but cycle back to this point in some way)

Was in a WoW-like game or reality. There was this nest on a cliff I had to reach from this insanely long ladder along another cliff face. I wasn't sure how high I had to climb before I'd be able to make the jump towards the nest.

At some point I jumped and I remember sort of gliding a bit, eventually reaching the nest. I remember noticing a book covered in twigs and small bones. I looked this up on a popular WoW database to read comments on either the book or this location. Then I wiped it clean (from what? dust?) but don't recall what happened after that.

Some guy riding a bear mount? Not sure. Then I remember myself, taking off the ground on a nether drake. I flew up a bit but not that much. There were Shattrath guards following after me through a forest that was not like Terokkar next to the city. The guards were throwing hammers of wrath at me as they pursued, most hitting me but doing little damage although this was whittling my health points away.

I knew we were still in the Outlands because there was a cliff's edge, and nothing but void beyond and below; I remember the characteristic Nagrand-like sky. I rode my drake over this threshold of sorts and from past the edge, looped under the floating land mass, hiding there with my drake in some sort of underground cave area...

I saw blood elves fly over and away on their bloodhawks toward the endless horizon and void. The distraction worked and I lost them. Then I left the bottomless "cave" underground and went much higher than before. Something was happening and a massive black dragon was appearing and the sky also dramatically changed to darkness and red tones. There was some NPC shouting something, but I don't remember what. I remember having passing thoughts about Deathwing and Alextstraza and how they looked feral with their "old/out of date" models.

Then I remember flying toward the dragon and at some point jumping off the back of my drake and landing on a platform (on the dragon?). There, I found blocks like in Boundless. Interesting patterned blocks, like mosaic and celtic twist patterns on stone and they had red and black colour schemes. I began to "vein mine" the blocks the vein mining technique eventually stopped working and so I gave up on harvesting these interesting blocks.

The next part I remember, I had ended up on a red dragon's back. We fly over mountains and cliffs and from here I spot the nest and jump off, gliding through the air somehow and trying to land on the nest. Instead, the winds lead me to the ladder.

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Notes:
- I think it was in this dream; the area in which I found the bear mount rider was something like the WoW zone Grizzly Hills, with tall pine-like trees.
- The way my original notes were made have altered my memory of how the dream's chronology worked out but at the same time it has created a nearly perfect cyclical flow of the dream which did lead me to remembering details I otherwise may not have recalled that morning.
- The black dragon may have appeared before I thought of Deathwing, but I believe the two would have come in tandem regardless of which appeared first.
- This dream involved a lot of flying or gliding and basically high altitude locations with little solid ground to speak of. In the dream and game worlds I don't typically ever have a fear of heights, despite the fact that in reality they make me feel uncomfortable as I become highly aware that a mistake could cost me, fatally so even.
- Over the last few months I have had passing thoughts of the Burning Crusade and about nether drakes, so this dream probably came about as a materialisation of that or as a self-feeding experience.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I slept in our summer place this night

I'm outside our summer place and are about to walk up the stairs. I know it's a dream but I know that I'm trapped in the dream narrative. I have to do something to become full lucid. I think to myself that it's only a dream and that I can control it. I'm now full lucid. I walk up the stairs into the room I fell asleep before I slept this night (The Blue Room). No one is there and I open the window in order to fly away. I Fly but the sensations I get is not satifying. It's like I'm in a shell that is moving. I force the dream to make it more real. I start to exhort the dream to make me feel the wind in my face. I feel the wind but it's obviously fake. My vision is getting smaller as the dream fades.

I'm in the blue room where I fell asleep this night. I look to my side and see two small sparrows. I look away for a second and look back but now there are four rats instead. I go away from the bed and wonder how my vision could make me think that the rats were actually sparrows. There are a cat under the bed and I try to pet it. It's playful and it goes on it's back so I can pet it's stomach. I walk down the stairs and realize it's a dream. I look down on my hands and the left hand is normal but my right hand has turned into grass just like the background where I look on the right hand. I look to the sea but it's just black. I try to see something and there comes a really big boat by the waters. I fly to it but suddenly see a flying boat. I go to it and there are Pia, Sebastian and Felicia. In the dream I didn't think that it was weird that the boat was flying.

I had a non lucid dream about telekinesis tonight. I remember it being interesting and I'm sad that I don't remember that much about it.

Saturday Night, 7/18/20

I had an FA. I noticed that the perspective was wrong for waking up; I was looking down on my bed. I floated around the room a bit, confirming I was dreaming. I noticed the room was vague and the dream did not feel very stable. I aimed for the floor of my room and landed, bounced up and down a little trying to feel the carpet on the soles of my feet. I could hear a soft crunching sound, like the sound of velvet being gently crushed. The dream faded anyway, my vision going black. However, I still felt more connected to the dream than to my waking life body so I tried to imagine "throwing" myself back into the dream. I opened my eyes, a bit uncertain whether it would work, but it did. I was back in my room standing on the ground. I floated again to confirm. Up near the ceiling I grabbed onto the top of the cube structure where there was a wooden platform (it's sort of like the top of a bookcase). I alternated between staring at the wood grain and rubbing my hand across the wood. Sure enough the grains of the wood became incredibly detailed and lifelike. Looking around I could now see the lines on the palms of my hands, the bumps on the blue walls, the sharp outlines of various pieces of furniture.

Satisfied that the dream was fully stabilized, I phased through the window of my room and glided over the land below. It was quite beautiful out, sunrise coloring the clouds. Although my backyard was much bigger than in waking life it was otherwise consistent with its current configuration. At least up until the stand of bamboo at the far end. Behind there and off to the right, instead of a fence, I found an open plot of dirt with a partially built lighthouse. At last! I thought, Although, I was kind of hoping to have it by an ocean... I considered that on the one hand it was convenient to have it close to my house but on the other hand I would have to use some trick of the mind in order to make use of it as I'd originally planned, as a lighthouse by the sea.

Off to my left a woman and two young children were wandering from the bamboo forest into my backyard. I waved at the family. The youngest child, the boy, seemed to be the only one who saw me. He tried to get his mother and sister to look over. The mother squinted in my general direction and shrugged before continuing on her way. The little boy looked confused. I told him not to worry about it. It wasn't clear if he could hear me. I returned my attention to the lighthouse and saw that the first floor was thoroughly encased in rock and therefore inaccessible. I had planned to have steps carved into rock leading up to the base of the building and I mused that the dream must have constructed it this way like a bug in a video game when it was placed somewhere different from the intended landscape. The next two floors were far smaller than I'd planned. Beyond that it was completely unfinished. I began planning how I would fix it and build it out as if I were using Minecraft blocks. I wondered if I should leave it with its current black and white colors or change them to match the colors I'd planned for it when I designed it in waking life. I had only just begun modifying the structure when I heard a loud sound. Annoyed, I looked up to see that some random guy on a motorcycle had ridden up and parked behind the lighthouse, apparently oblivious to my presence. When I saw that he wasn't going to interfere further I tried to return my concentration to the task at hand but the dream faded into a different scene and I lapsed into non-lucidity.

Spoiler for Additional Notes:

Made progress on two of my LD goals: creating a lighthouse and experimenting with dream cartography. The lighthouse is a place I designed in waking life that I had never encountered in a dream before. Basically I was trying to incubate it by creating drawings, written pieces, and even a design in Minecraft creative mode (which is no doubt why I ended up modifying it with Minecraft blocks in this dream). This was my first success in finding/creating the lighthouse in an LD, although I'd come across a version of it briefly in a non lucid once. I'd originally planned to build it from scratch near a particular recurring beach location. Instead I found it partially constructed... in my backyard. I didn't actively work to recall my waking life goal during the LD as I usually would, instead I just explored and found what I needed quickly. That makes this my first successful LD incubation attempt, as well.

Additionally, I've been wanting to not only map out my recurring dream locations but to experiment with creating new ones and testing their level of permanence and the permanence of the connections between dream locations. Behind the bamboo in my backyard happens to be one spot I'd considered using for experimentation as I'd rarely gone into the bamboo area in dreams and never off to the right. Apparently my subconscious decided to combine two ideas and gave me a partial lighthouse in that spot. I think I'll just find some way to work with this development. Maybe I'll use the lighthouse like a TARDIS lol.

Another side note: When I was very young my dad started building a wooden playhouse in the backyard and never finished it (eventually we took it down). This seems to be a symbolic reference to that, although I'm not sure why.