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Time to catch my DV up. I gotta be more consistent

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2nd
Morning - Nothing to see here
Afternoon Nap - I was well hidden at the edge of a wheat field. This edge must have been at the top of an incline because I was able to peer out over top of the next area of crops. I felt as if I were waiting for someone/something to show. I definitely felt as though this was special ops stealth mission. (really seeing how the halo novels are seeping into my dreams).

3rd
Morning - Nothing to report

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4th
Morning - Another mission it seems. I had to diffuse a bomb. But in-order to do so I had to seek something out. My mode of transportation had been by helicopter. I can't remember much else.

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In my first dream I was a test subject for GladOs in an Aperture Science lab. I was going through all kinds of trials and tests. Suddenly I see Desirae and I know I'm getting rescued. Glados gets disabled and we think we won. Suddenly, she starts getting her control over the facility back. I started telling Desirae to hurry up and to help me pack. We went to the elevator where we would escape but rooms started changing and the room that we came from became some stairs. I ran into the elevator and Desirae was still packing stuff I told her it's now or never and she was still closing the last briefcase so I grabbed her hair and pulled her in right before the elevator doors closed and we started descending.
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I was in Belen running back home. I was running pretty fast. I was roomates with Katey. She went off to work and I was with a few animals and had found my laptop. I went to sleep and had a dream that I was lucid dreaming. In the dream, I was in an arid desert as a young deer or elk. I started hearing more elks appearing and I suddenly know I'm in the death realm.I hear someone say Cesar is coming and I think it's my uncle. I see another elk and ask why he's here and he doesn't wanna answer. I ask again and he gets mad. I say sorry it's my first time doing this and they tell me I can't be looking so young and so they transform me into a bigger elk. I ask something else and wake up to my dream. I rush to my laptop to write my dream down but there's animals all over my backpack where my laptop is so I yell at them and they move. There's someone at the door and I answer. Suddenly Lieutenants and Captains are doing inspections of the house. It's pretty dirty. The Captain then turns into an elk and starts mowing the front lawn with his antlers. All I care about is remembering the dream so I could write it down.
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I was in my house and talking to Desirae. I ask her if she wants to have sex but she says no that she's gonna go have sex with someone else. I get mad and ask her what she means. She says that she doesn't want to have sex with me but instead wants to go to someone else's house and have sex with them. I get even more upset and tell her to leave and I'll have sex with someone else too. I leave and go to a lake on some plains. I see on the news that there's going to be a meteor falling and a news agency from Venezuela is going to record it. I go along with the news agency and we hop on a homemade boat. We go into a place where there's a lot of shanty homes and downed planes that say something about Atlantis on them. We see a plane take off from under water. We sail around waiting and looking for when the meteor is going to fall. I was with a fat lady and the news reporter. I remember the water splashing on us and it tasted gross. Suddenly, we see the meteor coming in. We record it and it lands and we see it glow as it enters the water. I say it's probably about 20 feet or around 35/40 meters. We go towards where it landed and then the fat lady jumps in and grabs the meteor. It turns out it's bones of a small animal. The bones run away and jump into the water so I grab them again. We decide to head back so we park the boat near one of the planes and start climbing up the shanty houses. The bones suddenly turn into a white rat and Shaniqua. I put shaniqua into a container so I can throw the white rat to the house I need to jump to, where a few people are waiting. When I get back to Shaniqua, I find out I microwaved her for a few seconds. She seems confused and stupid.

Journal Entry Lucid #19 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I slept early, grandma woke me up later around 9. I then gave her medicine and went to bed.

Dream fragment 2 time 9:20pm-unkown"":
I was using a Ipad app that can let you zoom on the earth. I zoomed in and I see the city then the road then I zoomed in and i see a network of more cities and more roads. I zoomed in infinite times and I kept getting more and more. I was no longer using and I pad but my hands. I thought this is strange and I realize it was a dream.

I realized it was a dream. I ended up in one of the cities that I zoomed in at. I started rubbing my hands. I see this military general. He pointed at me. I started pointing somewhere else to distract him. It worked he looked away and started walking away. I thought haha it worked now I could go do what I want. He turned and said, "wait a minute, get him!" He commanded his tanks to point at me. I knew they were no match for me and I didn't want to start a dream war. As a tank started driving towards me. I flicked my hands aggressively and it exploded. I started flying and I saw a lake. I just wanted to compete task so I started flying away. They have already declared war, but I didn't want to fight. I see a higher ranked general show up and he hand shook the other one. I flew down and tried to shake his hand. He looked at me and I woke up The dream was in more details but I got up recalled my dream and went back to sleep without writing it out.

Journal Entry Lucid #18 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: So this is a second LD on the same night. I did a wake back to bed. I think I went to sleep around 3 o clock and woke up around 4 close to five. Well I ate some food, banana PB sandwich. I then meditated for ten min before going to bed. I had some weird dream where I tickled a lizard and it transformed into a monkey. I awoken briefly and went back to sleep.

Dream fragment 2 from time: unknown"":
I was in the UK or I thought I was. I sat next to a car to listen to a monk teach, I don't remember any of this part though. I hear someone talking. I thought I need money to get back home. I looked for an ATM. I found one but I realized I need a card to do a transaction. I see a lot of people from my Calc III class walking around. The ATM machines turned into a test taking desks. I see people on the computer. I went back to hear the monk's lectures and he was no longer there. I see people taking test in the dark. I looked for head of administrator of the test so I could take test. She told me to wait and told her students to turn off their computers for us so they won't distract us. They turned it off. The flat screen tv, the computers. She, I will call her head women, took a selfie with her students. I over hear these guys talking about a movie they finished. One guy said, "wow could you believe the ending?", the other responded, "yeah what a twist in the plot". "she got killed in her dreams and she died in real life". This man popped out of nowhere and gave head women an apple, black ugly apple. She ate it. The movie people said that is exactly what happened in the movie. She realized that she was dreaming and she was about to die. I thought that is strange it would most likely be my dream not hers. I started backing up. She looked at me and said it is your FAULT. I kept backing up and I see a group of girls that opposed her, they claimed to be on my side.

I now completely recognized that it was my dream. I started rubbing my hands to stabilize my dream as the girls fought each other. I didn't like all the negativity, and I wanted to use my new superpower telekinesis. I tried to levitate a girl, nothing. I tried again but this time I didn't doubt myself and she started floating. I was in a t-shaped hallway. I took off my shoe so that I could have a stabilization point. I felt the cold floor and it helped stabilize the dream. I then turned around and saw all theses people fighting, all girls btw. With a gesture of my hand flick, one at a time they levitated, about 15 people. I kept flicking my hands and they all levitated, even head women. One girl defined me and floated back down, I said uhh uhh uhh and I levitated her back up. I was happy that more than one person/object can be lifted and can be individually manipulated. I then wanted them out of the hallway. Very gently i opened the door with my mind and took them out.

I see these guys at the end of a hallway and one guy threaten me. I said let's make a lesson out of him. I see a bunch of male rushing out of the room scared. I was in the middle. I stopped everybody at once and levitated them. I saw that I was doing harm when I saw two guys in crunches struggling. I gently lowered them. I couldn't find the guy that threaten me, so I took everybody out of the building gently again. I then went inside and saw a scared man, big bearded man. I thought I could kill him, but then I changed my mind because it is a dream so why should I kill him. I then started flying I doubted myself for a split second and fell, slid across some Japanese building then I gained my flight again. I then remembered what I wanted to do and there was a park right next to me as well. As I was flying I hear a beautiful song being sang. I felt my eyes tearing up as I thought about death as such a beautiful thing as this. I started singing along and I went to the park. Since I didn't stabilize again I woke up.

Journal Entry Lucid #17 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:10pm-12:53am"":
I was being transported by a sponge bob mobile. At first an actual mobile than I was just flying. It felt weird and euphoric. I see houses, I see mist everywhere. A little sprinkle of water was falling from the sky. And somehow it clicked.

I realized it was a dream. I awoken in my house, grandma's room. It was still night time. I started rubbing my hands to stabilize the dream. I hear a voice say, "One thing is real to you". I thought real? what like the spinning top from inception? I felt like it was talking about my RC and stabilization technique. I walked to the living room, I see my dream grandmother praying. I wanted to feel loved, so I went and hugged her. She tells me you didn't sleep at all, you should get some sleep. I kinda laughed at that in my head, I thought if only she knew what I am now capable of(since it was a dream). I then went to the garage. I see a huge fridge in the middle of the garage. I thought I could turn that into a portal. I wanted to go see Morpheus in the white room to practice telekinesis. I opened it and I see this hot model chick in Alaska or somewhere cold with a beer can the size of her body, like the advertisements. I closed it right away as to not get seduced.

I then remembered all those failed attempts at telekinesis because I want Morpheus to teach me. I then thought I could practice here. I turned and I see my friend TO. He was just observing me. I extended my arm and pointed at an object. I cringed and flexed my muscle to make it levitate. Nothing. I quickly got the doubt, by telling my self to imagine it as if it was easy. I then extended my arm and pointed at the backpack. It just floated towards me. The feeling was strange, it felt like the object was an extension of my arm. I felt the object; back and forth, up and down were just like moving an arm. I then turned and saw a luggage and I wanted to pick up two objects. I felt doubt that I could do it, but I said I could do it and it floated with the flick of my finger. I had two objects floating independently. I started moving one forwards faster than the other. I noticed my friend looking at me. I thought for some reason he is noticing that I am losing lucidity. I started rubbing my hands, of course objects fell. A female came inside the garage and she needed help putting on a glove. My friend looked at me as if I should help her. I thought I get a lot of help from DC, so why not. I go up to her and I started putting on the glove for her. It was a very strange glove. Green highlights, futuristic looking. While doing this I thought this happens a lot before I wake up, distractions. I woke up.

I fell back asleep around 8:30 am. And I had a dream that I was seemingly no longer an alcoholic but able to have fun and party if I wanted too. Then the dream spun into a divergence of reality and obvious non reality- my hallway filled up with water and the bottom dropped out to make it a short pool. I stood looking at the water, feeling a negative presence. I looked up and saw a demon that had black eyes and tried to say something to me but in anger that I was being deceived I yelled at it to go away. "You are a deceiver!, You have no control over me! Get OUT GET OUT GET OUT!" "YOU are Simply a thing of my mind- NOW DISAPPEAR!" And I blew it into dust with my mouth. I then wanting to prove to my self the utter silliness of the situation belly flopped into the pool, and the water felt like condensed air but not wet like water and I levitated myself a few inches from it. I realized the significance of the dream- that I could speak out, when before my voice would become muted and I couldn't hear my self shout. I gained some sort of power this way, mental or spiritual in some way. Between this and the next dream sequence I tried to wake my self up but I couldn't pull myself through to consciences and saw my physical body trying to separate from my spiritual body. It was not going to happen so I let myself slip back into dreaming. Next I remember realizing that I had been on some sort of wild drug and alcohol binge that I could not remember. I had sewed the sides of my arms like I had been sutured for a wound. I realized that this was bad, that I had been completely gone mentally when this happened. I went to my husband and said I know something happened but I cannot remember using or what I did what did I do? He explained to me that at first I was happy and energetic, almost crazy- thinking I could fly and making sounds like a jet engine, then it turned dark. I closed my eyes and I could see flashes of memory almost like circus posters first of the fun and manic episode and then the darkness that took over. He shivered and said that it was something special I could do that. He then said he would remove the stitches from my arm- my father called and I woke up.

I was tossed head long back into the insanity of a nonsensical dream seemingly out of nowhere.

I had two dreams last night. In the first I was Joseph Stalin, talking to Khrushchev about how he will have to be more communist after he succeeds me. I was in my (not Stalin's) house, and Khrushchev was in the hallway next to the computer room. I went to go grab a red star-shaped pin with a sickle and hammer from a box in the living room. Most of the pins in the box were a gold colored castle or something similar, but I found three of the star ones. I gave one to Khrushchev and I gave him a red short-sleeved shirt with a white sickle and hammer on the left breast. I had found three of these shirts, and two of them had something on the back directly across from the sickle and hammer. One had an emblem that said "Christians concerned about communism" or something like that. It had a cross in the middle of a lot of lines outlining a circle with a thin crescent near the bottom.

In the second dream I was in surgery. I was in a small room with about three doctors there. They wore blue clothes and masks like usual. I was wearing a paper gown. My dad was in a corner reading a magazine. They gave me some anesthesia, and dad asked if I could hear him. The anesthesia started to work, but then it subsided. It was an uncomfortable feeling, like something is gently pulling you up while you are going numb, but you don't want to go up. Because it wore off, they had to give me a stronger type before they started surgery. I had the same feeling, except that it didn't subside. As it got stronger I woke up.

4.4.14 Friday

Last night, bed 10:30 - 7:10

Miserable last 2 days IWL. It showed in my dreams on those days. Proly worst dreams ever.

1. My dad is trying to rape me. He gives me a big wet kiss and he holds it forever. I finally break free. My mom is asking what's the matter. I'm so mad, I can't even talk. I finaly whisper it to her.

2. I'm back at home. My mom has a stroke. I wanna call 911, but I know their emergency numbers a fucked up over there and i never know which one to call. Mom hands me a piece of paper with a phone number. She wants me to call an old coleague, who still works at the hospital. I call and get through and I'm telling this man to send an ambulance, mom had a stroke.

3. I'm visiting at home. I came for only a few days, which I only now realized. My best friend is visiting. We spend whole days together. But there is a drama at home. No clue what about. But it made me forget that I have to go back. I'm looking at the plane ticket and I think the flight was today. Turns out it's tomorrow, but I'm not sure, because can't find out what the date is. I feel like shit because I don't want to leave my friend again.


Last night:

DR
I'm on a bus flying very high up in the air. We watch some birds flying around. One looks like like a large black crow. The other one is very similar. Bit larger, skinier, and feathers in wings have wider gaps. I think it's maybe a Thunderbird.

Somehow I have him on a leash, or he gets snagged on some rope and I end up with the other end in my hand. I pulling him gently closer to the open doors of the bus, so we all can get a better look. I don't feel right about doing it.

As he gets closer to the door, he pulls stronger. He gets close the white curtain that's in the door. I want to let him go and I hope he will not get tangled in the curtain. As I let go, the curtain wraps around and the bird is falling. I can hear his screach all the way down. I hope he will not hit the ground.

Little while later, I see something in white wedding dress, that looks like the curtain. It's the bird getting merried. They wave to us and we wave back.

DR
I'm in a camp. Lots of kids. I'm one of the adult councelors. We are deciding what to do for the evening. I suggest hod dogs, beer and a movie. The like the idea.

I have been drinking Kava at night for about 3 months. It blocks alcohol cravings which is wonderful. It also blocks lucidity it seems. Last night I had a dream about my ex Mother -in-Law who takes care of my son most of the time (ugly ex story when I was too young to figure out how to advocate for my rights as a mother) It was most definitely a stress dream, not a lucid. I found out she decided not to bring him for his yearly month long visit and was beyond angry. Where I told her that she had made the wrong choice and I was going to talk to my lawyer and have him reinstated to me. She then disappeared and I couldn't find him and she was no longer a person but some sort of a shriveled up, sick spirit hiding from me. I never got the issue resolved in my dream.

I had my first lucid dream last night! Woo hoo! I was sitting in this cafe when it dawned on me that it wss a dream. I then made the dream more clear by stomping my foot on the ground, and used all the methods I know to stabilize a dream. Then, I went outside, where I spent a few minutes trying to fly. I finally started to levitate, and then I flew out over a city. After flying for a few minutes, I woke up. It was really fun though! I'm so glad I was able to do it.

I'm in a train station. I need to reach an unknown town.
I'm supposed to reach my mum who travels with my little nephew.
I have two possibilities. I could take a direct train, but it is always so crowded (and I hate crowded places), or a little train who brings to an intermediate station where I need to take another train.
Of course I take the little train. It follows a weird way, kind of avenue along the sea. Really stunning panorama.
Someone is trying to steal my purse, but I make him noticed that his attempt was not professional. And I teach him how to steal an iphone without being caught! He is happy and goes away trying to steal around. He didn't know I stole his iphone!!
The train reaches the new train station and I get off and start to walk towards the next train. There are not sidewalks, just flowers and blue butterflies.
The new train is not nice like the one before. I'm aware there are thieves, but they are real criminals, killers, so I need to be careful.
Finally we get the main station where I'm supposed to meet my mum and nephew.
I look at the board and then go to the right platform. I suddenly see my mum, but something is wrong, as I notice the absence of my nephew.
My mum says she forgot the little kid on the train. I'm desperate and I go up in the train. Everyone is still getting off, so it's so hard to progress. At once I kneel and after a while I identify a little girl, looking for someone.
When I almost reach her, a bearded man takes in arm my nephew. I inmediately recognise Red John (the torturer serial killer in the police television series The Mentalist).
He informs everyone the kid is his daughter.
My nephew starts to cry and I call her. She looks at me, and she smiles between the tears and pulls her arms towards me. But the criminal holds on her and he says that I AM the criminal, torturing and killing a lot of PAPER as I write with a QUIL. ''Who can be so bad to write with a quil??? Just a criminal like me!'' he tells everyone!
Everyone looks bad at me and I know I have a single shot to win the war with him.
So I assert that he is DEAD, as the Mentalist killed him in the last episode. BUT he cannot know it, as the episode broadcasts just in United States!!!! So smart of ME!!!
He is confused and I know I won and I slowly get close and take the girl and I start to sing a lullaby to calm her down.
My nephew touches my face and I wake up.

My bf woke me up touching my face as I was babbling... .
To notice: 1) the train stations are always the same ones since a lifetime, but I think they exist only in my dreams. I never was there! 2) I never saw one whole episode of The Mentalist, but I read the plot and I saw the web video where the hero killed Red John. 3) I really can't remember the Red John face, and I dunno why I dream about a bearded man! 4) I don't write with a quil!! .

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

I fell asleep slowly, keeping my awareness, and the plunge was so subtle, that I wasn't sure when I was already asleep or not and both worlds overlapped for a while. I was clearly already visioning a dream world, but every time I moved my hands to do a RC, I was still moving my "real" hands and not the dream hands. It took me a while to finalize the transition. And when I did, I still wasn't sure in what level of reality I was, because I got up from my dream bed and went to a balcony and clearly the world outside was a very large city and not my hometown, but it was so realistic in all its details and sensations, that I chickened at the thought of flying away from the balcony. I decided to do one more RC just to be on the safe side and not kill myself.
When I was absolutely sure, then I flew away over a 10-lane highway and for fun, landed on top of a big truck and surfed it.
I had no clear goal with the dream, so I let the story unfold.
My stunts attract some attention and I gather a group of misfits and adventurers who follow me as their leader. We become a rebel group on this futuristic mad max style world. Some day I meet a guy I don't fully trust, but he is a bad-ass with some skills and I spend some time with him, to see if he fits in our group. We hijack trucks with materials we can use, but we never hurt anybody. But he attacks a truck with a family and kills the parents of a kid and almost shoots the kid. Needless to say, I kick his ass and make sure he never hurts anyone again. Then I adopt the scared kid and take him to our base. We live in a semi-underground tunnel complex on the outskirts of the suburbs. I love this kid very much and make sure he grows up nicely and in a peaceful environment.
I guess he brings me into maternal mode, because I do much less adventures outside and have become more home-based. I even have a date with a guy and a friend helps me pick up a dress to go out that evening. I leave the kid with a lady who is not human. Her head is hairless and instead is covered in a thick brownish skin with round protuberances of different sizes. But she is the most trustworthy person around, very calm and serene.
This guy I'm going out with, he's like the Hulk, big and green. The babysitter suggest I should wear a green outfit to match, but I disagree, he might think I'm mocking him.

Date: 4/4/14 (Thu)
Total sleep: 6.5 Hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Aimless wandering
Dream 1: I am walking up a low grassy hill with my wife. We are walking to the mall together. I am wearing a long black trench coat. **Jump** I am at the mall and I am in the kitchen area of a restaurant. Lisa from work is there. She asks me if I need help with anything and I say no. There are stainless steel cabinets and counters all around me. They are covered of boxes, cans, bottles and kitchen utensils. There is a large gray plastic trash bin, with wheels, right in front of me. I look in. There are a few boxes, and beneath them are a bunch of cookies. I see some cookie that are cupped, and in the depression is yellow filling. I know they are lemon and really want to eat some. I reach in to take some, but realize they are in the trash and that would be disgusting. I walk out thought a set of swinging doors and find myself in a local mall. I walk to my left, not paying too much attention to anything. There are people all around. I notice a pretty woman pushing a baby carriage and stop to look at the baby. She gives me a dirty look. I feel embarrassed. I quickly turn away and walk into the store to my right. Then I realize this isn’t a store but a daycare center. I know I shouldn’t be in there because you have to sign in before entering for security reasons. I quickly leave. **Jump** I am sitting in the sand of a beach, but I can’t see, hear or smell the ocean. It feels like I’m on a movie set. But, the sand feels nice. It is warm and very dry. Then I notice a bundle of sticks sticking out of the sand to my right. They are sticks which would be used for beef and chicken skewers at a Chinese restaurant. Then I see pieces of meat clinging to the sticks. I am disgusted. I look around and there are many more around me, sticking out of the sand. I realize I am sitting in the middle of a garbage dump. I jump to my feet and begin to walk away. The dream fades and I awake.
Dream 2 Title: Sleeping in a warehouse (**Lucid**)
Dream 2: I am in some kind of small warehouse. The floors and walls are cement. There are tables and chairs set up. There is a small stage. There are miscellaneous items (boxes, bins, boards, etc) that you may find in a warehouse pushed up against the walls. My wife and daughter are there. We find seats at a large round table (seats about 8 people) as more people start to come into the room. Everyone starts to take their seats. A woman comes in and goes up to the mic on the small stage. I realize she is a comedian. She walks out into the audience and is talking but I can’t make out what she is saying. She walks to our table and put’s her hand on my daughter’s shoulder. She gets up from her seat and walks with the woman. I assume she is going to go up on stage as part of the act, but instead the woman escorts her to another table. I’m confused by this. I realize I am sitting on a couch and I lay down on my side because I’m feeling tired. I see my wife get up, walk over to the table where my daughter is now sitting and sit next to her. Things start to fade out as I feel I am falling asleep. I open my eyes and the show is over. I am still lying down with a coat covering me. I look over my right shoulder and see Maggie (a woman I used to work with over 10 yrs ago). I say hi to her. She says Hi back but is looking at me funny because I am sleeping during a show. I sit up and look for my wife and daughter, but I realize I am now shirtless and only wearing athletic shorts. I see my wife and daughter about 20 feet away, they have their backs to me. I notice my daughter has much more hair than in RL, it is up in a ponytail and hangs to the back of her legs. Someone behind me playfully wraps his or her arms around my neck. I don’t know who it is. I move toward my wife and daughter and the person continues to hang on. My wife turns and smiles. The person lets go and I turn around. It is a young man who I don’t recognize (in the dream or RL). He is about my daughter’s age, with short red curly hair and lots of freckles on his face. Behind him a see a large metal sliding door which I know leads out of the building. Something is feeling strange about this situation. I walk to the door. Suddenly I have a shirt on. I know I was shirtless seconds ago, and I know something isn’t right. Then I remember I was awake in my bed just a little while ago, and having a lot of trouble falling back to sleep. I am lucid without doing a reality check. Everything around me, colors and details, become more vivid. I am surprisingly calm. (I completely forgot to stabilize) I grab the handle of the door and slid it open. There is an alley before me with a one story brick building to the left and a wooden stockade fence to the right. I walk out into the ally. About 20 feet down the alley is a maroon dumpster and standing hear it is a woman. She is taller than me (probably 6 ‘6”) with dark black wavy hair that falls below her shoulders. She is wearing a puffy white long sleeve shirt, a long black skirt, and tall black boots. She reminds me of a gypsy. I walk towards her. She turns and smiles at me. I smile back. I say, “I’m dreaming!” She continues to look at me but her face morphs. Her cheek bones and jaw become more pronounce and the shadow of beard stubble appears. She is now a man dressed like a woman. I ignore this change knowing this is just a dream. I decide to jump over the six foot fence to my right. As I jump I remember my goal, and drop back to the ground. I know I want to fly into space and view the earth from orbit. I look up at the sky, which is brilliantly blue with no clouds. I turn back to the man/woman and say “Do you want to see something amazing?” He/she nods. I look back to the sky and it has changed. It is a swirling mass of deep purple and blue with millions of stars and galaxies. I pause for a moment to stare at this amazing sight. Then I squat down a bit and give a tremendous leap…but my real life legs respond and jerk which immediately wakes me up.
Awake:: 4:00 am then dozed back off around 5 am and awoke at 5:15 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 6; D2 = before lucid 8, after lucid 13
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 before lucid 8 then Lucid
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 20 min; D2 10 min
Emotions: Disappointment, Fear, Embarrassment; Disgust; Happiness
Dream Signs: In strange places (restaurant kitchen, day care center, warehouse, beach, etc), person from my past, daughter with long hair, some kid I don’t know hugging me from behind)
Notes: I woke up after Dream 1 just before 4 am. I have pain in my neck. I lay there recalling my dream for a few minutes. I make mental tags. But then I realize I’m probably not going to be able to fall back to sleep. I then jot my tags down on my notebook and lay there thinking about my dream and trying to remember previous dreams from earlier that night. I glance at the clock at 4:32 am. I start meditating (breathing, clearing my mind) in the hope of falling back to sleep. I glace at the clock at 4:53 am. Then I ended up in Dream 2, but it was a very light sleep right on the verge of waking up. In the dream I completely forgot to stabilize. I’m sure that would have helped.

Night of April 4, 2014. Friday.



This is one of the only times in recent years I have deliberately tried to focus on a person I did not know at all (other than as an assumed bizarre and relentlessly narcissistic persona), though I have (not by intent) dreamt of the YouTube hillbilly conspiracy theorist a few times (one dream being precognitive of his finding a much younger wife).

In my dream, there is only one main scene of a man riding backwards on a horse. He goes about in circles seeming very delighted and pleased. There seems no threat of injury. This is close to being a “glowing dream” but does not reach that visual quality (that is, a dream where everything seems to glow from within, sort of like a photographic negative but with correct color). He leans forward over the back of the horse, his upper body eventually being nearly horizontal to the horse. His head, with the side of it touching the horse’s back (as if seemingly attempting to hear something - but probably only incidental in appearance as such) is mostly over the croup and his hands open and about the horse’s hips for the most part. He continues to seem delighted as the horse gallops about but he never sees me at any point. He seems very proud and fulfilled over how “well” he is doing in a sort of absentminded, yet totally certain way.

He is dressed informally and has flushed cheeks with a reddish nose and even a reddish chin, with a sort of odd pale complexion as if out of the sun for a long time or appearing to have a continuous “alcohol complexion”. He grins in euphoria. It is almost as if he views the horse as his own body. Even though he is riding backwards, it seems to be how things have “always been” for him, almost as if he is not aware that a horse has a head.

Eventually, he has a very large bed-sheet (or possibly a picnic blanket), wearing it over himself sort of like an implied cape, leaning down closer to the back even more as if the horse were like a bed, with the tail being the head of the bed. Eventually, he covers himself completely (somehow able to hold onto part of it) as the sheet moves up and about almost like distorted wings of an airplane. I stand puzzled and wondering if he will see me, but no. At one point, the sheet waves like a flag. I continue to watch, feeling a sense of hilarity as well as a sincere pity.

This dream opened into a very nice room, that resembled a very nice suite in a hotel room. The decorations and the scenery outside the window made it seem as if I was in India, and I was with a very attractive girl who was my girlfriend. We were fooling around in the room and something bad happened, resulting in the death of the girl. Apparently I accidentally did something to cause her death, and I pled guilty. However, instead of facing the law, I was taken in by an old man who ran a monastery/convent/church place. He showed me around quickly and we bonded rather well as he showed me where I would live, what my duties would be, etc. I met another girl in the monastery and we flirted a bit, the old man chastising me and saying "Isn't this what got you into trouble in the first place?" We stayed friends but didn't really do much else. The old man and I eventually ended up in his office and he began coughing. I was concerned for his health, but he told me that it wasn't important and that this would probably be the last time I saw him. Suddenly, there was a time skip and I heard my own voice narrating what had happened in that time. I said that "I only saw him one more time before his death 17 years later."

Suddenly, I was in what seemed to be a high school gym with a violin in my hands, apparently leading a rehearsal for some show featuring music from Homestuck played by our orchestra while actors on a stage danced while playing. I can't play violin in real life, but I know enough to know how the instrument works, so I was still consciously playing it even though I didn't really know what I was doing. At some point during this practice, I became at least partially lucid rather accidentally. I remember getting up and starting to walk away, but nothing particularly fun came to mind, so I just sat back down and picked up the violin, since it seemed cool anyway. I think it was only partial lucidity because surely if I had been fully lucid I would've come up with SOMETHING else to do, and I do remember a certain vagueness that still pervaded the dream. When I sat back down, I was worried at first that I wouldn't be able to play the violin, but then I remember it was a dream and I could basically just play random notes and it would sound however I wanted it to sound, so I did, and it was a pretty sweet arrangement. I eventually picked up a trumpet someone had left laying around and was about to try playing it when someone distracted me and asked for help cleaning the gym. I lost the brief lucidity at some point and helped to vacuum a small carpeted lounge area in one corner of the gym. When the janitors I was helping finished the room, I got a text from my friend David. I don't actually remember getting the text or what it said, but it was written in my notes.

Now when I left, I found myself in an urban area and met my mom. She told me I was going to be sent to jail for 6 months anyway. I was rather solemn and accepting of it, and I remember getting ready and preparing myself for the days to come. I knew it was a pretty nice jail with many luxuries, but I would still be confined to one room nearly the entire time. I recall thinking that it wasn't really going to be that bad since the cell was basically the same size as my college dorm room and I was just going to be chilling in there for 6 months. I found a refrigerator outside which apparently had some food leftover from an event my mom held. It had a couple popsicles and some cheese-filled sausages that looked pretty good. I grabbed them and went into my house, which had appeared in front of me somehow, even though the fridge should've been nowhere near there. I found hot dog buns next to the microwave and put a few of the sausages in there, then prepared a plate. However, my mom asked me to help her find her new job at some Subway store. She would be driving and I would be the navigator. It wasn't supposed to take that long, and I was really only using a MapQuest app. I was having some technical issues, which also seems to happen in my dreams relatively often. We somehow drove across the Atlantic Ocean and all of Africa and Asia, ending up in southeast China in a few minutes. I then realized that I told MapQuest to take us to the wrong Subway, and the one my mom was supposed to work at was in Brazil. I struggled to plot a new course that wouldn't take more than 19 hours to drive there (which seemed to be about the minimum time I could find in the suggested routes). I was also worried about missing my court date or whatever, which would have resulted in more jail time. We discussed the possibility of just staying on the run in other countries, when eventually, the dream started to fade and I woke up.