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Loads of little fragments today that don't really make sense:

1) Lying in a field, it's warm and mossy.

2) I walked into a room a cat jumped out of the window. I called the cat back and it came to me, it was a grey cat (I keep dreaming about a grey cat).

3) I was walking across a road and went into a building. It was something to do with school. There were lots of parents sat around and I couldn't see any children, everyone looked really quiet and gloomy. I think it was the start of a school disco or something and parents had to come along.

4) I remember watching a film explaining how Stowmarket was the nearest town to a large glacier, the film showed computer generated images of the glacire with Stowmarket perched at one edge of it. Someone was explaing how they used to arrive at the town by train and it was so romantic but now it was routine.

5) Walking into a hospital with someone else who was in a black hoodie he seemed quite serious, the hospital was being rebuilt. The person I was with wanted to find the plastic surgery room, we walked past a door and I knew that was it but he ignored me and walked on and spoke to a builder who showed him a tap labelled 'delivery suite tap', it was tiny and red.

Oi, oi, I'm back from the shadows of a five day slump of upset emotions and sadness. Things have cooled down now though, and I've brought two dreams with me for this entry!
This first one was from the morning before this morning.
I was in a school (who would've thunk it), or more specifically, a choir class. We were all singing some song, and for some reason, all the kids around me were 5th graders, while I was the only young adult in the room, aside from the teachers standing around watching our performance. Suddenly, alarms blared! Doctors came in from every which way! What was going on?
The answer to that question appeared in the form of the head of the doctors, a nurse with a demanding presence but kind demeanor. She strolled her way in, feet clacking on the floor as we all stared in a mixture of confusion and horror. She stopped walking, waited a moment, and explained to us that a virus was going through the school. Not just any virus though; it was a lethal, fast-spreading virus, and all of the kids had to be quarantined immediately. With a snap of her fingers, the doctors began rounding up the kids and escorting them out of the choir room. For some reason, nobody came up to me, making me the last one in the room, along with the teachers and the head nurse. There was some more to this dream involving me questioning the nurse about the outbreak, but I don't remember it.
Next is my fragment from this morning. And it's real sparse one at that; only specific scenes and characters remembered.
A school was involved. (this may as well be a dream sign at this point along with K and my ex). My ex was there. For some reason I was viewing the dream as an observer, but another me was in the dream, or rather, my middle-school-aged self, as one of the participating DCs. My dad was in the dream too, and he was running for president, campaigning through the school.
Lately I've noticed a trend that whenever my emotions get upset or sad, it tends to dip my recall the following mornings, whereas if I'm feeling happier and more clear-headed, I tend to have more consistent recall. Don't really know if there's anything to that, but it's been an observable enough pattern that there may be something to it, at least for me.

Non-lucid only & it was just frags. Runny nose & fever. Mike thinks I may actually be sick cuz he got sick which is like never. He still went to work but took a day to rest. I did find a cool Sirius music station on my Dish Network Guide so I've been listening to a lot of old music which is really therapeutic. It plays songs like Jim Croce, James Taylor, Eagles & songs of that nature. I'm using it as a sort of meditation while I do some puzzles to put in frames for my grandkids. Cheap extra Christmas gifts for their room in my house. I finished my first one today & put it in the frame. $2 gift made w/ lots of love. I'm thrifty like that. I get them a major gift & build from there. Sorry to be a bore today. Just not feeling great.

Busy day, no time to write on here this morning, trying to remember dreasm from scribbled notes:

1) In London. a job interview on a bed.

2) Back to being a junior doctor, I'm on call, but in my own house. I'm stood at the top of the stairs talking to a senior doctor and worried about what we are going to eat later. I'm saying I'm starving even though I'm not really hungry. Then I remember going outside and hanging a red coat up, it's raining.

First dream

I was on a street with my father and sister. We wanted to cross the road, there were some students from younger classes wearing military uniform. On our eyes one of them - a fat and dark haired, punched an old lady in stomach and gave her purse to another old lady, laughing mockingly. I came closer to him and bravely shouted "I'm a higher officer, do you think that it was funny?!" He replied "Yeah, and he's a colonel!" pointing at another dude - tall with brown hair. I pointed at my father and said "He's a general!" My younger sister made a funny face, which father made too. It was so funny that I couldn't stop laughing.

Second dream

With mother and older sister we were driving through some canyons where stonework was placed. We had problem with driving out of there, as there was a chasm on the road. We drove on a rock ramp and drove through the small chasm, but there was another one - much bigger. Workers from stonework ran to help us and built a bridge. With sister we left the car to help them. Somehow we ended up in a nearby forest, where ground was made of soft and bouncy material. We jumped on it as on a trampoline, flying high above ground. Then we went back to car.

Fight Moms: My mother is murderously angry with her sister. We speed to her house in the car. Instead of pulling in the driveway she drives down through the ditch and across the lawn. She storms inside. My cousins are on the porch and ask me about school. We chat peacefully while our parents war very loudly in the house.

Honey Hut: I wander a network of very narrow paved forest paths and come to an old white house with a roof covered in honey bees. Is the interior of the house a giant honey comb? I want see if it is but the bees won’t let me near. One lands on my head and scampers in clockwise circles. I don’t kill the bee because it is only doing its insectly duty. Also I know that if I kill the bee its death pheromones will signal the hive to attack me.

Rory Wedding: Rory organizes a banquet hall for a wedding. He keeps re-situating the tables into different formations. We get frustrated with his constant changes because we're doing all the work while he stands on the stage pointing and ordering us about like servants.

6.5 hours sleep
Feels like there should be more dreams than this

My first dream was about building a bike and making sure it was balanced I was so curious in my dream why I was dreaming it and if there could be a message to such a silly dream. I would never be building a bike. I woke up and it made me feel there was more to the dream so went back to sleep to try to get the message. I was watching two people walking down a city street one woman in braids all attached to her head, I was trying to hear them speak and thought they might know the message I was seeking when a big white screen popped up in my dream that said Enter Password - OK button like on a computer. Only it made a noise when it popped up. It was over the women walking down the street. I could still see them moving behind the white screen as if watching a movie. The woman stood out to me, she was wearing a long dress from the late 1800's I would guess. I know she was with someone but I can't describe who? Only she stood out light brown hair about 35 years old. I had a feeling I was seeking something that I wasn't ready for yet. I didn't know how to push the ok button, nothing I did worked. When I woke up I felt ok with the fact that I just wasn't ready yet but one day I will be.

Man it's been a while since I've put something in here. I have to find some balance with when I wake up for work and when I can stick stuff in here. Overall, though, recently there hasn't been a whole lot to write about. I started taking Choline again, though, and it seems like my dream factory has been ramping up production. A couple of weeks ago I had some great vivid dreams, though of course, since I didn't write them down, I don't remember them.

Last night I remember there being a scene where I feel like I was either watching a tv show or having a premonition... and there was a girl tied to a bed and she seemed scared, so it's safe to assume this isn't some kinky foreplay about to happen. Then this thing appears out of nowhere. It is like... a clown, alien thing. It has sharp teeth and claw-like fingernails. It's lying next to the girl now, and it starts caressing her face. That's all I can remember about that.

Then, another scene, I feel like I'm on Gossip Girl, or with Caleb Haas from Quantico. It seems like someone has been abducted, and there's a guy walking around on a cell phone talking to someone. The place where we are is like... Greek/Roman style architecture outside. The floor is all beautiful mosaic tile, however, stand on it, and you're in about six inches of water. The guy on the phone is flipping out about finding his girlfriend, but I'm just wondering what's the deal with the water on the tile.

Then the most bizarre thing of the night. I'm watching a movie with my mom, don't know where I am because all I see is this scene in front of me, but I know it's a movie and that I'm with my mom. It's Kevin Spacey. He looks around to see if anyone is watching him... then he unzips his pants, not undoing the top button, mind you, and he's near like a dining room table. On the table is a magazine which he picks up and strategically places in front of his crotch. It's very apparent that he's jerking off behind the magazine. Then after a little bit, he puts the magazine down and proceeds to try to suck his own dick. Just bends his head down. And just when his lips are about to make contact with the tip of his dick... either I shut my eyes because I really didn't want to see this happen, or my mom changed the channel or turned off the tv. The fucked up thing is the look on Kevin Spacey's face. It's like it was a porno and he was so excited to be in it. He had this evil grin on his face the whole time.

I was talking to the "voice" and telling it that I had to go because I want to go for a bike ride today and want to get up at 7:00. I said goodbye and see you tonight. I wake up to see my digital clock turn to 7:00.
The strange thing about this is I usually wake up at 5 but took the day off today, so I am not used to waking up at 7 and that is late for me. Second dream within a week where I did this with the time.

+(f) road car race, I'm driving in a car and racing with other cars along a winding hilly road

+ FPS game: I've ordered and set up a huge (1.5 meters on a side) square highres computer monitor on my bed against the wall. I'm standing at the end of the bed appreciating its huge and awesome picture. I'm anticipating playing the game, people will come and watch me here and be amazed. I will set up a stand for the controls. I think this is the reason I've ordered and installed this monitor. I have a brief thought of using it to view some salacious material but don't think of this long.

I sign in to the game and begin playing, then my view is in the game itself, not watching it on a screen. It's a CTF game. There are incoming enemy light armor guys going for my flag, I'm shooting them with a shotgun. Then I decide to go on the offensive. I slide down the very edge of the map on the right hand side. It is dark and hazy and there are large hills all around. I'm on a recon mission, scouting enemy base and territory. The closer I get to the enemy base the more "red triangle" (enemy team) characters I see. I'm sure I will be seen soon.

I'm "flying" along the top of a fence and approaching an intersection where tons of enemy combatants are walking around. Visuals become live action, not game-y or computer-y any more. Some leader walking on the ground sees me and calls me to come down. I get into a discussion with him, his name is (Dave?). I'm half walking/flying and talking with him, putting a hand on his shoulder blade and leading him along the street, telling him, "Dave, you know how this works, there is military intelligence and there is military action, " I think I say this a few times and the dream ends.

Hi everyone!

I remembered the dream I had last night..!

It was set in my school, though the people in it were people who I'd worked with..! So it was very different to my usual school dreams ~
I also had some kind of a power, I can't remember what it was exactly. However there were demons in the school.. And one time I was using the bathroom, and I noticed first one of them put a crutch under the toilet cubicle I was using. When I said there was someone in there, they pulled the crutch out. Then another of the demon's looked over the top of it, down on me with a wicked smile.

When I realised what they were I tried to escape them, but they wrapped themselves around me and restrained me. I remember pleading to speak to someone in the school before I was taken away, and they somehow agreed..! On the journey another person with powers interfered with the demon's plans, and took them down. That's where it ended, being saved by a mysterious stranger!

Non-lucid, yet extremely vivid in detail as if it was actually happening. Another dream about being on vacation w/ my parents. My dad paid for it & we were staying a hotel. We had left one place & were almost to another but I had forgotten my ID all the way back at home. They were talking about getting on a plane or boat & my parents were pissed off at me & we were arguing about whether it was possible for us to go back & get it or if we just were out of time. It reminded me of this futuristic airport dream I had one time. I woke up after what seemed like a really long ass dream.

I guess I'm having them because they are traveling around in there RV & I thought they might stop by & see me but I was in sick w/ a fever this week. I've also been thinking about how they would talk about me if they knew I was meditating & become more spiritual. I can see it now. "OMG, my daughter still believes there is an invisible man in the sky! It's so embarrassing. She's never been quite right." (I can see my mom cringing as she would say this) And my belief in God is not like that at all but they are atheists & would most definitely say this. My belief has to do w/ God being in everything because it is energy. Energy is what we are & what our soul is when it leaves our human body to continue on it's personal journey. It's actually a very logical process if they were to think about it. And even scientist's can't figure out all of what the human mind is capable of. We only use a small portion of our brain's functions. At least that they can detect as of now. But in the end the one certainty is energy. Energy never truly dies. It just gets transferred. Which I personally think, is rather remarkable.

I woke up & was greeted w/ that personal good morning from my husband. Yeah me! On another side note I had a remarkably good day of listening to music while doing a puzzle for many hours. It was a form of meditation w/ candles (for the scent). Very calming.

To start off, I put these two together because... Well... They both were dodrant-lucid dreams (as in they were a little more than semi-lucid, but not quite fully lucid)

I woke up in a farm. I looked around, questioned my surroundings, thinking to myself "Ak I dreaming?" I just kinda shrugged it off a little and went into a random door that led to my bathroom(...?) And to which I noticed a slippery black sack was in my hand for some reason which to I reacted confused and *poof* I was in the farm again. At that point I was ALMOST sure I was lucid.

I tried to shapeshift into a peice of bacon (don't ask why) and ended up just kinda ejecting from my "body". I went back in and tried to shapeshift into a dragon this time and ended up just waking up right before I was done morphing to which my school alarm (6:00a.m.) went off and I literally felt like smashing my alarm at that point and cursing it out for kicking me out of such an intuitive dream.

Next day (night) I had dreamt I was in the Green Hill Zone from Sonic and I eventually ended up travelling to a giant bedroom... Only to realize that the bedroom wasn't big at all... I was actually a plush bear. I then saw a giant man about to chainsaw all the toys to which we declared war... Many lives were lost and I knew I had to go in (unfortunately I got cut a little bit but I managed to escape.) I ended up running to a salmon-colored room to which my dad came in and said "alright, son, we're leaving" To which my plush-bear self replied "okay" to which my dad walked out like it was nothing.

I then shapeshifted into myself and began to wonder if I was lucid. I then realised "how would I have just done all that unless" and I tested flying. Seeing as I was in mid-air, I knew exactly what was happening- I was dreaming, wasn't I? So I decided I wanted to head out and explore. I tried to phase through the wall and... Well... Guess I didn't beleive hard enough and I ended up just kinda pushing into it until... Well... The dream kinda pitied me and just let down the wall for me. So I headed out into the stormy weather and felt my senses fading- I was waking up. I tried my hardest to avoid dark colors as that seemed to make my dream fade. I ran up to a random house to which a woman's face- maybe 21 or 22 greeted me.

I hustled into the house to hold up a conversation about how their experience in dream world (my characters don't seem to mind me saying their in a dream as I seem to know they know they're in a dream) to which my dream faded in the first four words. I was very frustrated waking up as the dream had to stop at the worst time possible.

(This probably won't make sence as it's linked to other dreams that's gone on for lifetime/years/months/weeks/days.... but Hey! I got to start somewhere.
(With regard to lucidity... blugh, I'm not sure any more the places I go are so familiar to me I understand the people and symbols, I'm certainly semi-lucid, but don't try to control much. - This is another dream that could have been outside or inside (I sometimes go inside my body into my DNA) )

Very very long!!


My night started with slightly remembered images (before the awesome adventure)

A cave. Then cutting and pasting time lines.. this was visual, it was like errrr spiralising a pineapple into a spiral of rings and removing a ring or 2. Then I was dreaming for someone else of a blue tit, I painted it. Some jumbled stuff about Hillary, Bonds and Kate Middleton.. future. A beautiful woman with blue feathers.


Then memory in walnuts and information like onions.

The nuts/pineapple and onion were to do with storage of information in space/time... onion was layers of reality.

I woke really confused as I wasn't sure how this integrated with my current view of this then I remembered my rainbow fractal bubble of experience that makes flower of life thing and realised the onion was like that...but it was being spiralised and stretched out threw space... thus making the information tunnels that I am more familiar with.


It made the pattern like our solar system makes as it travels threw space, I had a realisation that the planets have memory awareness and are leaving trails of information too. They have archetypal memory/awareness they leave a trail behind in time/space (this is how astrology works)


At this point I also had a feeling that J (middle child) was outside reality and needed dreaming back in again.... I was feeling quite disorientated as reconsidered sleep again.



--- Then the dream,


I went straight into dream from the HH stage.. I was watching a hole in my dream/dust and just lept in.

It was like I made a whole threw my reality into space, I was falling threw space it was nice, I was also 'dual' - (I was me and my brother but both me)


I reached out a line to a passing star and hooked it to spin up from, I traversed 'space' like this (felt a bit like spiderman)


I see a track, it's glowing and fizzing like purple/pink electricity. (It's a memory/time/information line) We go to it, this time I'm both within it and without, I'm inside but watching myself out of it and then I become 3. (I melted my train down-this is an alchemy reference to something I did the night before )

I'm a triad or trinity and my awareness is now 3fold. I'm an over-soul I'm female me and male me. (This was the tangled bikes dream from this week)

We travel this tunnel into America - There are some native American elders we need to meet.

As we land I'm me and my brother who then turns into my 'boyfriend' of 5 or 6 years old. He's also me though as I'm still seeing everything from 3 places of awareness... we are lovers/siblings/whole we are one, we are magic... the sense of completeness was and is amazing.


We meet the Native Indians, they are angry call 'us' plastic shaman that male me just wants to f*ck people, my male side mishears and thinks they say 'feed' so he manifests a bag of cookies.

They walk away in disgust, we need to reach them.

Female me falls to the floor convulsing and enters a trance where over-soul me can speak threw her.
Male me runs to bring back the natives, they are reluctant but are nice people and don't want to leave female me fitting on the floor.

As they get closer Over-soul calls threw time to them, I tells them 'I CAN SHOW YOU' They recognise the voice over soul. (They are me too, this is ancestral healing stuff)

They need to meditate with us - they still don't believe us but the over-soul was familiar enough for them to agree... they are still cross at female me as I puked on them while I was fitting.

They agree to meditate, 'we' explain they need to forgive us, we are them too... they need to let go now.
I take them back in time with 'us' and we alter slightly some time lines(they are there timelines too)
We all come back together, they are less angry with us now and trust us, we say good bye.

'We' open a reality gap and go back into space... using our over-soul as an anchor we can teleport/shape/shift and dimension jump.. we're exploring.

I get a 'letter' from the Native Americans, 'We' need to go back.
When we go back there is a box of 'gifts' left for us... they are all blue and white thing, box's inside box's there is also amongst it a handwritten letter, it's from one of my mums sisters to another sister - it mentions her medication. ( Ancestors timeline dream ) We accept the gifts and take the hand written letter. They can't 'recognise' us as people don't remember now as the timeline is different ......but the people we took back 'know' that there are people alive now that wouldn't have been, we can't meet them again but the gifts are their acknowledgement.

Male & Female me are dryads now and made of flexible wood, we travel again as a unit of 'lovers archetype' and over-soul. Falling threw space and time, meeting aliens to talk too.
We come back to earth, one alien with bright orange eyes follows us watching.

He wares a dark hooded cloak and is channelling stuff too, 'We' find it odd that they are interested.

'We' rapidly lose him by anchoring up to Over soul again and teleport to a huge beautiful grassy plain we are riding in the air in an old style bus seat... it's like a roller-coaster with no rails we control it by thinking of a point to move too (this is really good fun, and we spend a long time just teleporting threw the ground and back up into the air )

After messing around we start to port into hospitals, 'we' are still dryads but invisible made of energy... we are working beside Dr's we are de-ageing cells around incisions and wounds so that they will heal faster.

I woke up as I was arranging 'meetings' with people....

Soooooo last night was just amazing Was obviously way to excited to go back to sleep!

((The back story in this dream's been going back for years.... in fact to the recurrent nightmares I had as a child. ))

#496 and #497

I've had two really short LDs the past week. One was this morning. Both of them were "IN-DREAM-WILD" (IDWILD or just DILD?) with really loud screeching sucking sounds and feeling like my body wanted to suck me back in. In both dreams I stopped and relaxed and performed the WILD standing up. In both dreams I wander around the house I am in for a few seconds before waking up or having a false awakening. It's nothing really to write in much detail but I suppose I'll count them. I am not sure why I just seem to randomly do this. Maybe I need to focus more on doing actual WILD. Regardless, I really love those crazy and bizarre lucid dream entries. WILD man totally WILD!