dream fragment

Dreamt that I talked to an old friend, like if we were friends again. I was suprised that they messaged me on discord all of a sudden, but we had a good time on catching up on eachother...we dug the battle axe. And everything was alright.

Not much to report this week.

Recall has barely improved.

Do remember 2 Jamie dreams. They were so fleeting it's hard to tell if they were good or bad. Regardless, it's nice to have any Jamie dreams. I'm still surprised to this day that she shows up almost weekly in my dreams for over 2 years now. I've never in my life had a consistent dream sign like this before.

Hello there, here's a few of the things I remember from my dreams last night, taken straight out of my physical dream journal. Still learning how to make things look nice, but here it is

• I'm in a home that seems to be made up of two houses. All of my family and many of my friends are here. It's a pretty good time. Then I learn that a friend from college is getting married and I feel some type of way about it for a bit before getting back to the gathering. Later, we have to looking for the fiance, since he isn't at the party anymore for some reason.
  
  That plotline takes a backseat once I see my cat jump from the second floor of one of the buildings into my arms. After I scold her a bit, I put her down and start talking to my cousin about some pretty good cake. It looks pretty moist and while it does taste good, I'm not really feeling like eating it now, so it turns into a sort of game of hot potato between my uncle, my cousin and myself.
  
• I take more allergy pills than I need and I gotta figure out what I'm gonna do with the allergy pill that's currently in my mouth while hiding all this from my mom as I am talking to her
  
• I'm trying to put in eye drops. for some reason, they've taken on this almost gelatinous look to them and the only way to get them is to unsqueeze the bottle.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I had some sort of allergic reaction right before I went to bed and my throat started to become sore and I got all these itchy rashes. I think that made me sleep longer because I was so tired even tough my alarm woke me up after 9 hours of sleep. I slept one hour more and bounced out and in of many dreams. Including one of those experiences when you just feel like you fall when you wake up.

I'm in some kind of big shower with many more people. I usually bother being naked in front of other people but I wasn't thinking about it in this dream. I'm not even sure I was naked now when I think about it. Suddenly there are two sea slugs on the floor. They are brownish and they made themselves ball like. I decide to wipe them into one place and after I have done so I notice that there are many other kinds of sea slugs too. They are in different colors, shapes and sizes. I have wiped them into a pile. I suddenly notice I have a small sea slug in my mouth and I spit it out into the pile. The people next to me have some kind of reaction.

My dad has some kind of syringe and is about to teach us how anesthetic agents work in our kitchen. The syringe is not actually a syringe. It's a long very small, pointy tube inserted in a big glass tank. He inserts the syringe in his arm and some of the liquid from the tank goes into his arm. There is an instrument that shows you when you have gotten the right amount of liquid. He then moves on to the second phase and changes syringe. He then does the same process as before. It is our turn now and I decide to do the first step. I already have a tube inserted into my arm. It's difficult because the liquid from the tank is hard to adjust and I'm not sure if I'm taking blood from my arm or if I'm inserting the anesthetic into my arm. It hurts and after I'm done I decide not to do the second phase. Mostly because I am afraid of stinging myself with the syringe.

I'm in a big arena and it's someones birthday. I have a friend next to me and much is happening. This was the dream with most action but I don't remember it.

These are some of the dreams I bounced in and out from the last hour of sleep. I also had a lot of dream fragments I don't remember anymore. Mostly walking in my room.

I'm outside and playing some activities outside with some people. There are two teams and I'm with the team that has ribbons. The activity leader tells the ribbon team to go to the other side and the other team to stay where we were. I am standing next to a tree pole.

I'm climbing down my bed and I get incredible speed as I fall.

Possible recurring elements: Showers, home, syringe, arenas.

Notes: I dreamt about the slug because I saw the Harry Potter scene when Ron pukes big snails three days ago. I have no idéa why I dreamt about the syringe. Maybe because I had a reaction before I went to bed. I sometimes have dreams about arenas. It's one of my dream signs.

1. Took a car to a modify shop and had a long talk about what should we do to the car

2. Mom told me she wanted to go and see her childhood house. We went there and it was cosy

3. I was a soldier and a guy who is older and probably outranking me told some refugees are almost drowning and we have to save them. The reason for them to be drowning could be an invisible enemy boat he said. We went into the water and we swam aimlessly

4. Cool sex dream turned into a multiplayer game and i almost got lucid but i could feel my real body and slowly waking up. I fell into the dream once more and she was airing the room. My stupid ass decided oh i missed it, i can wake up now!

I'm in an apartment in Queens with most of my family. They're watching a movie on TV, and I'm generally just chillin' and playing some kind of Soulsbourne game.

Eventually, it's time to get going, and my cousin makes fun of the way I run, so I get a running start in order to send a flying kick at his head. I'm not sure that the blow lands, but it at least got so close.

Bed time routine: screens off at 10, in bed by 10:30. Drank honey and MCT oil mixture with tea brewed from Calea Z, mugwort, damiana, bobinsana, blue lotus. No galantamine or DreamLeaf supplements this time (wanted to see how the herbs alone afffected me). Mindfulness meditation just before sleep.

I'm in a house with some strangers in an unfamiliar city. Someone was coming for us,but right as they arrived I slipped out, walking right by them and acting natural. They come for me, and I cannot escape. They threaten me, I don't know why. I wake up, 1:55 AM
I am with my sisters, Lisa and Tina. They are taking me somewhere, even though I am tired. I sleep in the backseat of the car. We arrive at a swimming pool, they jump in without me. I jump in next, but I jump too far and am above the concrete on the other side; I float back to the center, and am not falling into the water, so I push from the ceiling into the pool. When I climb out, there are other people in the pool, and I'm self concious of the way they look at my scars. I remember I had my tattoos in this dream.
I tell Tina that the gravity above the pool wasn't working right, and that I had to check to make sure this was in fact real. I look at my hands. OH! LOOK HOW MANY FINGERS! This is in fact, a dream! Tina doesn't seem excited by this revelation. I tell Lisa, she thinks I'm being weird. "Thats why the gravity didn't work! And thats why YOU (Lisa) aren't pregnant right now! None of this is real! My right eye closes, and the dream starts going dim. I ask Tina to lead me back to the car because I can't see. On the way to the car, my vision is replaced with a 3DS screen map, showing my location and movement. I try to explain this to my uninterested sister as we step into the car. Except now its a train car, its WWII era, many men and women sit in the car with us. Everything is so vivid. To my right, a very young and handsome Steve Rogers orders some food from the lady with the trolly. He turns to me and smiles. I know dream are all about expectations, so I try very hard to believe that he will kiss me. The dream fades and I wake up. 5:54 am.
Back in the dream, I immediately look at my hands. Too many fingers. I'm at the pool again, but as I leave it is now a restaraunt.I am old, and make a scene so that we will get kicked out. I lose lucidity as I follow the dream plot. We leave and are now shopping for shirts. I have to pick something for my husband, he is helpless. Also younger. I am now myself, in line to buy a shirt. A young boy is in line ahead of me, trying to use a credit card. The cashier asks for ID, and he shows her a picture of an ID on a tablet. She asks again if this is really his card. He admits its a joke, but she pushes a button and an alarm goes off. We are now waiting for the police. The people behind me are crowding, and I ask them to back off. An attractive girl with turquise braces and several tattoos apologizes. I compliment her tats, we have a conversation about them. I tell her I love the little peace sign she has, that I want something similar, that I want it to be a reminder for me to Smile and Breathe. I wake up (6:55), and draw the peace sign on my hand. I've been trying to figure out what symbol to use for this reminder, and the dream has just given me the perfect idea.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

I'm about to fall asleep and I see a very detailed picture for just a fragment of time. It was an open risifrutti with a spoon in it. I couldn't have made that picture up myself I think. I think that I might succed in seeing some more pictures or HI since I haven't had any memorable experiences yet. There are waves of white coming sideway over my closed eyes after some time and my left arm is getting some big sensations, alsmost like itches all over my arm but more dull, but nothing spectacular.

I'm with my little cousin David. We are hanging out and watching a serie. I'm not sure but I think I was in the action of an episode we were watching for some time. I know that it was a really long dream and I'm frustrated I can't remember more.

Possible recurring elements: My cousins, TV

Notes: I only slept three hours three nights ago so I had to stabilize my sleep scheme and havn't written since. I'm starting small with this little dream but tomorrow I will have much more to write! I also read Sageous WILD Session 1: Mental Prep Part A and did some reverse RC yesterday. I noticed that I always moved my tounge when I repeated my mantra a week ago and thought that it might disturb my WILD because you are supposed to relax your whole body. I have trained to think without moving my tounge since and I'm really getting better. I tried seing the text instead of moving my tounge but it's really hard. Is it just me having troubles with my tounge?

Normal | Dream | Lucid Dream

Same routine, screens off at 10, mindful bed time routine including taking melotonin, raw honey and MCT oil drink, and mindfulness meditation on Headspace (Free year for the unemployed!). I made a dream plan, slept on my right side (which actually helps!) and by 11 I was already asleep.

I'm with Ivy, hanging out. We settle in to watch a movie and I lay my head on her lap, she strokes my hair. I kiss her softly, her lips grazing mine felt very real. Dream fades.
I'm in my apartment, doing something in my bedroom. My waterbottle was scewered by something and is leaking water. I take it to the kitchen to pour the water in the sink. The sink is full of dirty water. I drink from my bottle, the water is dirty. I think thats not right, so I do a RC. This is a dream! I announce CLARITY a few times until I'm satisfied with the sharpness of the dream. I walk around my apartment, knowing I had a plan to fly tonight. I see my cat Elton trying to get my attention and following me; this is the first time I've ever seen him in a dream but I ignore him, worried he might do something freaky if I pay too much attention to him.
I visualized a beautiful dreamscape that night before going to sleep, so I try to close and open my bedroom door to lead me there. I try a few times but the door keeps opening to my room instead. The dream starts to fade but I stop what I'm doing, and restabilize by rubbing my hands together and looking around me. I try the door a few more times and still nothing.
I wake up in bed, Elton wakes up next to me. He's very energetic and excited considering its 3:30, and cuddles me and starts purring, and I wonder if he was really there in the dream with me. I take my usual supplements (galantamine, red DreamLeaf pill). I decided to try Niacin as I saw it listen on DV and had some on hand. WHAT A MISTAKE. Before I'm able to fall asleep, I'm already burning and itching all over. My remaining sleep is troubled.
I'm in my apartment, I get up, go to the freezer for icepacks. I lay back in bed with icepacks all over my body to relieve the INTENSE BURNING AND ITCHING I feel all over.
Another dream, I check on Google how long a Niacin flush lasts.
Last dream, three teenagers are sitting along a fence in the sun. They took Niacin, like they were doing drugs together. The girl in the middle is freaking out because of how hot and itchy she is. Me too, girl. Me too.
I wake up at 6am, can't sleep any longer. Niacin was a terrible idea. Since my only LD came before I took my supplements, I'll try only honey and MCT oil tonight and see what my results are like.
Also, what do you call it when you LD but you're in your apartment and it feels like real life? OBE? Astral Projection? False Awakening? This has happened before, and leads to some very boring LDs.

Fell asleep at: 10:00 PM

Woke up at: 3:00 AM


Dream 115: Fragment

I remember having some semblance of a dream. Hushed voices, blurry pictures, that's all I can remember. My dogs woke me up when they saw a police car with floodlights in my neighborhood. That same car enforces the 10:00 PM to 6:00 Am curfew in my town.

I was across the street from my apartment at a bike shop, was going in and out of the store.

Woke up extremely tired, laid flat on my back and could feel myself going back into a dream state. My body got very stiff and it felt like I was high all over my body, the lower left part of my back started to cramp up a little bit. My body was floating upwards, it was very difficult to breath but I was breathing out of my mouth. I kept thinking I was going to be dreaming and I flew into a dream. The dream scene was over a lake with trees lining both sides and a city in the distance, the main colors were purple and orange, it felt like it was dusk. Everything was very vivid as I was flying over the lake but my vision started spinning, it would spin quickly to one side and then shift directions to the next. I tried to get a hold of the dream by clasping my hands together and rubbing them but the dream collapsed. It reopened into a zany cartoon view, the colors were mainly bright yellow and red, there was a cartoon character walking exaggerated across my view.

Jamie dreams

First one is I get a long email or message from jamie.

Second dream is we are together overlooking a city on a porch. She is dressed fancy. I am holding her from behind. the feelings seem good.

Mall

Dream of going to a mall or something with my family. We go to a strange food court. One of the restaurants is vegetarian but you get fed based on your astrological sign. Doesn't interest me so i wind up in a chocolate shop or something. I'm craving hamburgers and stuff like that so I leave. I find no other restaurant. I walk with my family down an escalator and I wake up then.
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dead pet[/B

I had a very strange dog like pet... but it was small. It was trying to sleep on my bed. but I didn't want it there. So it tried to sleep on my electric piano. The one end of the piano fell off the stand. and the pet fell down and hit something on it's snout. it was bleeding. I didn't know what to do.

Created Monday 11 May 2020

Finally got around to doing a proper WBTB. And some results to show for it. Too bad there's a bunch of non-LD content missing...

Scrap Group 1
Repeated dreams with similar themes. Each time, I wanted some specific thing, then didn't moments later.

Dream 1 - Deadbrush Forage

Various forgotten events before this point. The visuals were slightly blurred. I was in field of very tall grass and wild overgrowth, a cloudy brown twilight sky above. Although abundant, the plantlife was terribly dehydrated, and in many cases, long dead.

After a minute of looking around, I (somehow) got aware. I tried summoning and eating a Marloss Berry, either by imagining it, or by reaching behind me, both to no effect. So, I moved on to a TOTM, the foraging one coming to mind. I sorted through the grass, but I hardly found anything, just chaff. Next, I picked some flowers, daisies, I think. Wasn't sure whether their heads and stems were edible. So, I pulled the roots in hopes of finding a starchy vegetable. A few did indeed seem to have some growths on them. Eventually, I dug out what seemed a lumpy, violet potato. It was quite large, just a few inches bigger than my outstretched hand. Well, that works for me.

I then looked towards thickets, when I noticed a large, bright purple, radish-shaped fruit growing on a branch. It looked shriveled, but probably still edible. I picked that as well.

Seemed like a good enough forage for the moment. On to sampling. But before that, there was the matter of cleaning; both products were plainly dirty. I didn't have any water in hand, let alone finding clean water in dried brushland. Nothing a Prestidigitation spell couldn't fix. With a gesture, the food was instantly rid of dirt.

Finally, chow time. I bit into the wrinkled fruit. It tasted much more bitter than expected. It retained a hint of flowery fragrance, but that really didn't improve the flavor. I was about to take another bite, but noticing a bug crawling out of a small hole made me think otherwise.

I was gonna eat the potato, but the dream collapsed too soon for me to do such.

Scrap Group 2
Unconscious transition during a Dreamwalking WILD attempt. I was in an unlit apartment building. Ruined constructions and furnishings made it apparent this place was abandoned. To the left was a stairway made from tiles. I starting climbing up, during which I noticed it had a very familiar arrangement. It then occurred to me this followed the same exact path I take during Dreamwalking, triggering awareness. But soon, something distracted me, something I thought dangerous. I ran back downstairs, only to forget why I got there, and climbed back up. Repeat again of temporary awareness, climbing up, evading a hazard, running downstairs, then loop. There were other things I did during brief moments of lucidity, but I can't recall.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid
I am upstairs with my school band members. We just walk around and are having a nice time with each other. I think some of them had drinks in their hands. New dream fragment, I'm not sure if I got this picture when I tried WILD this night or if it is a part of my last dream. I am suddenly downstairs in my parents bedroom, there are two strangers in the bed, laying on each side of the bed. I only notice the person to the left. The person to the left is suddenly a new stranger Then I wake up

Possible recurring elements: My house, schoolmates

Notes: I remember the keyboard player mostly. Maybe because I have a keyboard in the room we were in. I woke up 03:30 this night to WILD, but I didn't succeed sleeping again so I have only slept 5,5 hours this night.

Lucid but too short

It seems like I am walking through a park late at night in calgary. Something like Proncess island park because I am coming from a bridge. I get a sense that I'm dreaming almost instantly. Because it is night out, a blackness fills my field of vision. I begin touching the ground where some sand is immediately to try and incorporate my senses into the dream. It stabalizes momentarily but then I remember an old DV post, from someone who once prolonged a dream by trying to eat a tree. becuase that incorporates many physical sensastions such as touch, taste, smell, texture etc. I then remember i had passed a tree by the bridge earlier. I seemilngly teleport there and try to eat it but fade out before anything happens. Damn...

Hate this dream

This dream involved Jamie but she wasn't necessarily in it.. Started I was getting a visit from my brother and we were walking around houses or open markets or something. He's visiting in real life since i can't make my trip to the USA because of travel restrictions due to the pandemic... In the dream I ask if he's watched Star Trek Picard yet? He says no. I tell him I'll get yet another month of Crave so we can watch it while he visits. He says okay but he is grossed out by something and leaves.

It appears I am surrounded by Gay people having orgies... umm okay. everything is very graphic. It's also on computer monitors throughout the street or houses I am in. It makes sense as I run into an old co worker from 2011 Gil. Who i know IS gay. We are in a room with some women in it and he says he knows Jamie and runs into her occasionally, there's a place or street he goes to and he runs into her 1 in 3 times. I find it odd that he might know her. One of the women says, "Oh no your another guy she's used." implying i'm a long list of guys she has discarded. in Her condition is makes sense. people with BPD rarely settle down with anyone for long periods of time, so many embrace a more open lifestyle, of never sticking with anyone. She DID give the impression of a serial dater when I knew her. and stopped talking to me altogether years ago... I ask the woman if we are talking about the same Jamie and give her her full name. and she says, "yes, that's the one." Gil says again, "We can still try to run into her there's a 1 in 3 chance." I stand there and try to justify myself for a second of trying to hold onto her. Fact: She can't even manage a simple "hi," after years. I am forever discarded, Even of she reads my dreams she would never ever talk to me again, I would get a fraction of a second of a look once she realizes who I am, and completely shut down towards me.

I wake up while thinking all these things. This dream really bothered me for a few days after... and it actually kind of upsets me to write it down.

Jamie

Another fraction of a second dream whew i am walking with jamie, and she seems "normal," walking arm in arm. But that's all I get for the week.

OGRE

Scary dream. i am in a house filled with monster or something. I find a kitchen where a mad scientist works. I walk past a living room where a giant guy about 8 feet tall is cutting hair off a lamb and muttering to himself, "Ah yess so smooth will be your skin, like butter it will be to eat..." I am frightened by the scene and hid above a shelf in the kitchen. The scientist is walking back into the kitchen. So I dart out past the living room again. Now a whole heard of 30 or so sheep are in the living room getting their wool cut off from the same guy. His brother enters the room who is like 16 feet and i realize the soft sheep are for his brother. I wonder if he eats them alive. I don't stick around to find out. The dream ends as soon as I leave.