lucid

Nov 08, 2010 8:04 am

I had this dream: I was outside on a flowerbed up around the corner of the street and I was crying. A boy I know came by and asked me what was wrong. I told him about how my life was harsh. Than suddenly I saw me beeing in several scenes @ once from WICKED. One scene was singing "What is this feeling?" Another scene was "Defying Gravity", another scene had me singing "No Good Deed" .

Last Night
I had this dream: I somehow ended up in Oz--No no twister or anything. And I meet Glinda. I told her about the musical that is "POPULAR" in my world. But first before I did anything I moved my hands and we were suddenly transported to a (empty) theatre. Than I started telling what happened at the beginning of the play.

Than just as the music is starting up for "Dear Old Shiz" I move my hands again and then there's an ensmble on stage and scenery and Glinda (in the audience--who looks like the GAlinda who will appear shortly) looked at me strangley and I looked down at my hand and it's green. Than the musical happens. Than my dream ended just before we got to the "Popular song".

Didn't write any notes but have some recall from memory. Before bed, a hot bath and 3mg melatonin.

Pizza Craving Fragment
I am in the Daisetta house. It's very early morning and everyone is still asleep. I am craving pizza. I get up and find 3 odd pieces of pizza, all different kinds and brands. I stick all three in the microwave, being careful not to make any noise.

College Library, Lame Pick-Up
Method DILD (spontaneous)
Lucidity D
Vividness C
Control C
I'm in a nice building with marble walls and floors. I want to find the bathroom. I'm in a lobby, waiting for the elevator to take me to the ground floor where I believe there is a bathroom. There's a security guard here in the lobby. A man in a wheelchair comes out of a room and moves toward the elevator. The security guard says something really rude to this man about not taking the stairs because he is in a wheelchair.

I get on the elevator and there are a few other DCs in there. I ride it up and down a few floors. It never stops at the floor I want it too. Then some young DC hits the sideways button and the elevator goes sideways. Frustrated, I get off. I seem to have forgotten about the bathroom. Now the building I am in seems more like an old college library. The walls are wood-paneled and the lights are dim. There are many DCs here who look about the age of college students. There's a line of people at a customer service desk. At the desk is an old librarian lady who points me out and says "Excuse me, have you been helped?" I don't want to talk to her so I just walk away toward a wide stairway. I overhear a conversation between two girls. They are trying to decide on a book that interests them to read.

I walk up the stairs and into a big room full of bookcases. The walls are all full-length windows so the whole room is lit by the afternoon sunlight. It's a pretty cool looking room. There are a few DCs sitting quietly at tables around the room. In one corner is a bed. So I lay down to sleep. Maybe I have a false awakening. The next thing I know, a doctor and a nurse are standing over me. The doctor is a middle-aged balding man with a while lab coat. He asks "Have you been treated? What is the problem?" I say there's nothing wrong and I just wanted to sleep. Then then start tucking in my blankets. I close my eyes again and maybe have another false awakening.

When I open my eyes, I'm in the same library but the doctor is gone. Very close to my bed is a table with some DCs, studying I suppose. Then there is a commotion as people rush to one of the windows. I get up and look too. Out the window, I see that I'm on about the third floor, looking down over the center square of a college campus. There's a grassy lawn and some walkways and more brick buildings. There are lots of DCs walking every which way. The people who rushed to the window are pointing out "The Fat Man" who is a really fat guy known throughout campus. I see him and he's quite obese but not as fat as I expected.

Unimpressed, I step back from the window and think for a moment, starting to become pre-lucid. I have this little dialog with myself: Hmm, what should I do now? I feel like having sex. If I were dreaming, I could have sex with anyone with no consequences. So I have to find out if I am dreaming. I nose-plug RC and confirm I am dreaming. So now I'm lucid but don't stop to stabilize or remember my goals.

I run down the stairway and out the building into the square. I approach the first girl I see. She is bonde and about 18 years old. She's not super attractive but I'm not choosy at this point. I grab her hand and start leading her off to the left. "Do you like to party?" I ask (what a stupid line...). She says something to the effect "Umm, yeah I guess." I'm leading toward another building. I say "We're going to this party and all my friends are there and you'll have so much fun and meet some cool people." Just before we reach the building, she stops and pulls her hand back. She says she changed her mind and doesn't want to go with me. I am disappointed. Dream ends.

Black=Awake
Non-Lucid
Lucid



I started off at a random house. Small bunches of gray clouds filled the darkish blue sky. I surrounded by my friends and classmates(DS). The house was pretty big, with no furniture.*

Suddenly, two alien ships appeared. I can't really describe them, but they looked like small versions of the ships from "Independence Day."*

The ships began to fire at us. The house began to get torn up. More and more orange blasts hit the house. People were getting injured now.*

Luckily, we had machineguns. We ran to get them. We got the machineguns. I think they were M-16's.*

We came outside and opened fire. I was
now watching my fellow classmates(DS) go down by tens. We had begun to make a dent. One down, one to go. I decide to grow a pair and join.*

Soon, I manage to successfully lead us to victory. I signal victory, as the ship comes crashing down.

We proceed back to the house, now
mostly destroyed. We decide to move to the garage, which is also large.*

Only about thirty of us remained. We had started with about one-hundred people. Soon, two of the aliens came.*

They were a super dark green. It was almost like black. They were ginormous! They were at least fifty feet tall. They had heads simular to the bird-like creatures
from "Avatar."*

They had come to take a sacrifice. I'm guessing it's for the loss of their two ships.*

One girl offered. Now that's what I call bravery. She said her good-byes and went with them. Hell knows what they'll do to her. It won't be good(obviously). Then, they warn us that five elite ships will arrive tomorrow.*

Now, we are waiting back in the house's attic. It was dark, and gloomy.*

Suddenly, I became lucid without my dream signs! Well, that was good timing. Well, I had some business to attend to. I had to get married, and do a Kamehameha.*

Welp, time to go. Well, I decide I don't wanna leave them all here to die.*

"Everyone hold hands!" I announce. Everyone was holding hands now. I decide to use an old method I hadn't used in a LONG time. Generally because I think it sucks. And it never works for me. But I was determined. I used the spinning method, and since we all held hands, everyone was teleported with me.*

We ended up in another random house. At least we were safe. Well, I had to do some things. First line of business, elect my wife. Well, there were plenty hot girls. But I took the likings to a girl who said her name was Lauren.*

I gave her a ring, and she accepted. First order of business: Successful.*

Second order of business: Do a Kamehameha in Saiyan armor. Might be a challenge though, because I couldn't do it last time. The house was a bit dimmed and was filled with shelves and dressers. So, I go and find a nice area.*

There was a long red carpet and no one on it. My friends Josh and Isaiah came to watch.*

Try one:
"Ka..me......ha...me......HA!"
Fail. Try two:
"Kame...hame...HA!"
Fail. I took a deep breath and relaxed. Try three: I close my eyes and open them.
"KA...ME......HA...ME......HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! !!"

At that moment, a large blue beam shot out of my hands. The large blue beam launched at the wall, and there was a large, firey explosion. I did it!

My preparation was done. Well, since I obliterated the wall, I found another area. I went and found another area. It looked similar to my upstairs hallway. I put myself into Saiyan armor.*

Time to do it. An all-out Kamehameha.
"Ka...me......ha...me......HA!"
Fail. Oops. Forgot to relax.
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes for a quick moment and reopened them.

"KA...ME......HA...ME......HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! !!"

I did it! I proved my friend wrong! Then, I guess I exausted myself too much. So, the dream began fade. I let it fade, cause I did my tasks. Then, I awake.

You heard me. It took 70 DJ entries and 15 lucid entries, but my goal of levitation aka flying was finally done this morning

As I am walking down the street of Brossard, an asian guy walks past me. He goes to meet his friends. When I get close to them, one of them asks me what is my "clan". I say I have no clan since im not out very often. They tell me if I dont join their clan I could get attacked. I question if they do like criminal stuff. Mostly they play hockey but also do some small crimes along with stupidities. The leader, a 10 yr old boy, explains all the details to me. Back at my house, a quick search on the internet tells me they are called the BlueBloods and are competing with various gangs from the region. Next, out of nowhere, I am in the middle of a hockey game with them. I even score

Then I become lucid, once again without reality check. I just am. In a big house, I simply decide to fly. I scream Levitate! and I do. It felt incredibly real, just as real as real life.

08.11.2010

I want to help the knight! (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Two dreams.

Second:

I was in a hotel similar to my previous dream. I had to do some errands before leaving the hotel. For some reason I looked at my hand and turned lucid.

I had five fingers, however, I realized I also had a thumb totaling 6 fingers. I ran to the window of my room. The room had a king bed and a couple of portraits. I looked outside the window and I saw a never ending sea. It was very sunny and I felt the wind coming from the window. My dream was not stable so I decided to start to fly to make it stable. I was flying easily and planned what to do. I recalled I want to Astral Project from any single lucid I have, I was about to land to close my eyes and project, but my dream was still fuzzy and I knew I was going to wake up if I attempted.

The imagery changed. I saw a lake and a forest surrounding the lake. I was planning to dive inside the lake and see what was on the bottom. I remember from a previous lucid I saw a ton of ear plugs sunken on the bottom of a swimming pool. However, I did not feel I was ready to do that yet. I know very well my dreams and I knew I was not ready yet.

I kept flyign for a while and I landed in a small street. I saw a military base and there were soldiers and a general. They were saying, "We serve our manager! We serve our General! We are proud to serve our Country!"







I found it funny I was dreaming with the military and wondering why. I kept waking and saw another group of soldiers. There was a sign that said, "Masturbation is also a good exercise." I laughed when I saw that.

I took flight again and went to a country. I was now located in the mid age era. I told myself I could find some gladiators as I was in the proper era, however, I saw a small soldier base and I was wondering what my mind was doing. There were a few soldiers with armors. I also saw a knight that was next to the horse. A young female DC approached and she was told, "You will proudly slay it!"







She put an armor on and climbed on the horse. Several pikermen approached as well and told they were going to be an escort for war.

A general called my name and said, "Even you can help. I know you are in a dream form, but you can still help." I was given a small spear and a shield. I threw the shield away as I knew I was not going to get harmed. I said, "I am going to poke our enemy knight's horse feet! The horse will go nuts and throw the knight away. I was told that I could not help in that battle.

I did not find amusing what I was doing and my dream was getting fuzzy. I started to fly again to make it stable. I saw a few trees and some weapons (swords, scythes and more old school steel weapons) I felt the dream was not stable and it ended.

I had a FA in my bed. I could not see but I had my computer in front of me. I was able to download a video from my dream and I though it was going to be a great tool to recall dreams. I tried to download the video, but the PC worked bad. I realized it had no sense and I turned lucid again. I still had no vision and I could not move. I knew I needed to fly so I made the computer vanish and tried to move. Suddenly, a voice said, "That is enough lucid dreaming for the night, wake up!" I woke up and it was actually time to wake up.

Missed dream signs:
- None.

Realized dream signs:
- Realizing I was not in the physical plane.
- Downloading a dream from my PC to who knows where.

Reality check performed:
- Hand check. Failed and turned lucid.
- Just turned lucid.

I WAS FLYING ACROSS THE SKY AT NIGHT LOOKING UP THE STARS, AWESOME DREAM .

07.11.2010

Enter Jim (DILD)

★★★☆☆

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I can do this. Running toward the red metal banister lining the platform between step, I make to jump over it, but screech to a halt in hesitation, fear. I can fly to the top. I know I can. Peering over the edge I see there are several flights of stairs above me and a seemingly endless drop below.

This is a dream, right. . ?

Right.

I leap off the edge, soaring out in a wide arc before falling, down, to a certain death. A burst of denial keeps me airborne, and I shoot up to the very top of this brightly lit, overly windowed building. A school, I think. There's a railed ledge at the top, spanning out over everything below, casting a thin shadow as it greedily eats up the hot light from the sun above. People—friends—look at me strangely, but I could care less. I'm gonna have some fun with this one.

Up and out, I climb, bursting through the glass ceiling only to find the building is alone, on a grey, mossy rock, in a void of white of nothing. Within moments of my discovery, scenery starts to form around the building. High snow-covered cliffs, white fluffy clouds, rushing rapids pouring over rough rocks, and a huge cerulean lake surrounding the school, snap into existence right before my eyes. Screw goals, screw DGs, screw deeper meaning, I'm free as a bird and I feel like spreading my wings.

Soaring across the landscape, I twist and dive about, skirting the top of the rapids, picking up speed. The exhilarating freedom of flight overwhelms my senses, and on a whim I decide I want to try and see Raven. Flying headfirst across the ground, I put my arms out in front of me and tear at the fabric of space and time, sending my world into blackness. . . .

A figure forms in my vision, blurry, indistinct. I wonder who, or what, it could be as I fly through the nether. Within seconds, new landscape begins coming into focus, slowly and in bursts, like the initial load of a large video game map. The figure becomes more defined; it's a boy, a young man around my age with deep brown hair and piercing eyes. I follow him as he jumps into a small clear-water pond. Treading in the water as I float above, he mouths something, but I can't hear him; all I get is a ethereal sense he's trying to communicate. Flustered, he tries again, and this time an echoing, almost synthesized, phrase escapes his lips: “Are you alive?”

Now it's my turn to be flustered: “Of course I am.” He grins at me before taking off, running further up into this new, colorful, mountainous, landscape. I keep up as best I can, until we come to the opening *large pipe built into the rocks. A waterslide.

“Prove it!” The boy leaps into the pipe and is swallowed by the dark. Dropping to the ground, I approach the pipe, and with only minor hesitation leap into it. Gravity takes over as my body falls through the twists and turns of the slide and its cold rushing water.. I let out a yell, to show my liveliness to this boy, but I feel silly. Suddenly, I stop, dead in my tracks.

Odd.

The plastic tube stuck firm against my exposed back, I try to restart my descent. With some luck, it works and the ride continues, but it doesn't last long. I'm trapped again, and this time I'm not getting out by traditional means. I spend the next few minutes traversing the piping, climbing strange obstacles, with no end in sight. At the rate I'm going, I'll never see the daylight again. But with some effort on my part, the next bend takes me into the light, onto a grassy ledge, where a figure stands, overlooking a vast rocky expanse. It's the boy from before, but he's not a boy anymore, he's an adult, and there he stands with the poise you'd expect of a politician or military leader.

I approach him, and our conversation begins. His name is Jim, and he's here to teach me. He says he'll be stalking me ferociously over the next few nights, tracking me, watching me. Furthermore, he wants to know what kind of car I typically drive.

“What kind of car I drive?”

“Yes, it's important we supply you with cars you're familiar with.”

“Erm, I typically don't do much driving in dreams.” I can't help thinking this conversation is getting weird. What do cars have to do with anything. . . ?

To be continued. . . . Maybe. . . .

Non-lucid Lucid

I am in a dark building with long hallways, brick walls, many doors and many stories. I am pretty sure that it is an apartment complex. I am with some friends and we keep on running into zombies behind every door and around every corner. These zombies have bulging eyes, bald heads, and no skin so that their raw flesh and veins are showing. Whenever I anticipate that a zombie to be in a certain place, a zombie is always there. We are trying to run through the hallways, ascend the stories and reach the top floor of the building where we'll be safe. I open the door to the stairwell and see a zombie standing still in the darkness. I yell at my friends to run for it and this makes the zombie spring into action and it starts to chase us down the hall. As I am running, I suddenly remember that zombies are one of my dreamsigns. I do the nose-plugging test and I can still breath so I become lucid.

To escape from this zombie, I simply float up and pass through the ceilings of three or so stories as if I were a phantom. I enter the "safe" top floor of the building, which is a completely empty room coated with dust. I want to bust through the ceiling of this floor and fly off. I try to do so and am unable to because this ceiling is made of titanium. I simply bonk my head against the ceiling. Fortunately, there is one window in this room. I walk over to it and I see some city streets below me. All the buildings and houses are kind of old and run-down. I break the glass with my mind, climb through the window, and safely drift down to the sidewalk. I get a strong desire to find my dream guide, so I attempt to yell, "Dream guide, where are you?". When I try to shout it only comes out as my voice at normal volume. THings start to get hazy, so I re-stabilize the environment and make it as vivid as real-life. I walk down the sidewalk and see a group of five or six people waiting to cross the street at an intersection. I think that they would be able to help me find my dream guide so I walk over to them and say, "Do any of you know where my dream guide is?". Most of them have no idea what I am talking about, but one lady tells me, "I'll lead you to him". She is a plump lady in her mid-fifties and has yellow, curly hair. She looks at me condescendingly for some reason. We cross the street and I get a little to excited to find my dream guide so my dream fades very quickly and I wake up.

Was lost in some town. Tried to find my way to the theater. The guy gave me some random directions. I walked off to where I wanted to...ended up going to some old antique shop...wondering why they were selling random stuff that shouldn't have had any value (like pictures of family members). Expected porn to be in the back as a RC, and it was, became lucid, but didn't get to do anything.


Had another frag about talking to MSN with Limitless...but I don't know where the hell I was. I was on this long awful looking dark green couch and the computer was on the coffee table I think, or maybe I had a laptop.

I woke up in my room but everything looked strange, the desk was different, and things were kind of wavy.
I thought maybe I was having a false awakening. I thought about it, and realized it even felt unstable and felt like
I was dreaming or thinking really hard rather than having just woke up. I looked down at my hands, and they were really blurry and weird looking.
Practiced moving objects 'with my mind' once I realized I was dreaming, lifed my entire to a sitting position using just my mind, but mainly because I was
afraid to try to move my 'dream limbs' and wake up. Anyways I ended up waking up after a short while I lost concentration.

answered my phone that was buzzing, fixed this thing on my wall, went back to sleep...

first thing I remember I was biking downtown on a bmx. random.

went to a party - climbing through ropes and stuff to get downstairs because, according to the DCs, there were loose bricks above the arch way and they didn't want them to fall? - really random..

-fragment-

I was in my res room - using my laptop and checking my email - I got an odd virus that would only let me use IE, which I hate. Dream sign - things not working properly - ended up waking up (after this fragment) and being like thank god fuck ie, etc. Kept getting weird text messages (phone not working right) in this fragment.. I remember I had actual mail on my bed (weird) and after opening it there was two leather passport-shaped leather things. One of them was addressed to me, one to s___ bow__. The passport like things had our marks for our courses on them- i remember mine was a 90 xD - and had some kind of military markings on it - sergeant I remember but with weird markings - i came to the conclusion that it said master sergeant. I realized there was a problem with them and they must've been addressed to the wrong person - after all s___ bow___'s was there which was really random. I remember wondering how the hell I was going to get them back to the mysterious sender. Later on, a____ came in, looking kinda like a player or something with his collar popped and a cigar in his mouth. he also had some kind of glasses on that made him look like eminem or something. xD He asked me if I got my marks and I said yeah (the pasport things?), he said yeah man its sick or something and lit his cigar. I told him not to smoke because the wind was blowing inside the direction of my room and I didn't want the fire alarm to go off. I looked at the wall as I pointed to the fire alarm and it was kind of like a leftover fragment of the backing of the alarm- like someone had torn it off the wall.
-fragment-

next thing i remember i was talking to a guy about the party, how the chicks there were all filthies - i showed him a text from my friend that said a couple of the chicks were squirting.. xD the text in the message kind of kept changing when i was trying to figure out who sent it to me, but i didn't really notice it consciously.
semi-lucid here - i was at what looked like res but i knew it was different - i got lost walking around after argument with two people being in my room when i didn't want them in there
weird-cartoon-looking cop showed up and asked if we needed help. i told him i was alright and kept going, should have known i was dreaming - he looked fucked and i was pretty much far away from my room at this point so I don't know how he knew about the argument.
I ended up walking out of res (getting lost) and ended up in something similar to Walmart somehow.
on my way back ran into s____ and she said she would help me find my room cause i was lost but then ditched when she ran into her friends.
I think maybe after she ditched me I ran into my friend that I talked to about the party, but that doesn't make sense because I know I got lost in res/had the argument with those people that were in my room after talking to him.. But I remember finding him as the first person when I got lost and finally found my room so I don't know..

-fragment/dream memory-
I remember that the strange version of the school is a fragment of another dream where I was riding a BMX through the different levels of res during the summer,
but the building was all torn down and destroyed and in this dream the res looked similar colours to my res rather than the abandoned building.
so the res was basically made up of the abandoned building from a different dream but painted, and with a walmart. xD
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-fragment-

I remember at one point h___ kissing me then pulling away and shaking nervously, folding into a ball on the bed saying, "its the drugs im so sorry its the drugs" etc. while i tried to comfort her.
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-fragment-
i was at the end of a hallway type thing and there was glass, on the other side of the glass was a bank.
I remember looking and seeing there was a red switch type button at the bottom, and an emergency exit button at the top..
a cop saw me looking at the glass and she pulled out her firearm and shot at me by accident because i was standing by this glass? soon as she fired she put her hands up as if to say - oh shit no
all the sudden i was at a bus stop, and she had shot me through the side of it. no more hallway or bank.. :S
she ran over to see if i was okay.. i remember after she shot at me asking myself - am i shot? and coming up with the answer, no i feel no pain - but I lay down anyways because i had a plan - i told her when she made it over to me that if she didn't want to get sued she had better get me a prescription to some pharms.
then she told the paramedics i was fine, and to leave - and then she tazed me. (maybe this was my phone vibrating?)
pretty much woke up from there - no more dreams after that - my phone's alarm went off

This LD was pretty short, but worthy of mentioning nonetheless.

The first thing I remember is standing in an elevator. I started to feel a weird presence, followed by a floating sensation. As I looked around, I noticed that I was floating up and down in the elevator. At this point I realised that I must be dreaming. I took a moment to take in the vividness of the dream. It's the first time I have actually realised how real LDs can feel.

Pumped to get out into the dream world and explore, I exited the elevator.. but all I saw was blackness. Amongst this nothingness - in front of me, however, was an old market stand occupied by an elderly African-American woman. Strangely, I asked her where the beach was (why didn't I ask about the moon instead?!). She said nothing; just simply pointed back towards the elevator I had just exited.

A little confused, I decided to follow her directions and headed back to the elevator. It went up a few levels, and as the sliding doors opened, I saw a park right next to a beach. Excited, I ran onto the sand like a lunatic, randomly talking to groups of people on the beach. Unfortunately, I don't remember any details after this, as I must have lost lucidity.

I've been having difficulties in finding the time to post my dreams, so I have a bunch of them waiting in line. I will post recent and old ones, interspersed, or I'll never catch up with the date.


01:30 GMT

Volunteering late night
I'm in what seems to be a mall, doing some voluntary work for some people. But they are quite snobish. I even spend a lot of money in a coat because of them and in the end they just couldn't care less about my efforts or my dedication. It's late night and my boyfriend drives us home through some roads we don't know and he feels lost, but I follow my intuition and we're on the right track.
[in RL we'd just been doing that: on a mall, getting food for the homeless people and then got back through a new road but our intuition guided us right home. No snobs involved, though.]

05:05 GMT

Guru on a librabry on a mall
Again in a mall. Shop visiting. Remember picking up some bras, but didn't buy them. There was some guy's presence - guy who had a crush on me or vice-versa, but can't recall what happened. Then I am at cash register and there's beautiful fairy dolls on the counter for only 1 EUR. I want to take one for my mother, but as I try to choose which one is cuter, the dolls inside don't match the picture outside. On one of the boxes, there's a cute fairy in red on the box's outside but inside it's military toys. I give up on that.
Then I move on to a library and remember looking at the books, but soon I spotted a staircase leading to a second floor and because I see many familiar faces, I decide to climb upstairs. On the second floor I find many buddhist practicioners sitting on cushions and some monks and lamas. They are waiting for the beginning of some teachings but I see the teacher and I don't recognize him. It is a young boy, with an indian look, more hindu-like than buddhist, but I'm curious to hear what he has to teach, so I also look for a place to sit. There are seats right in front of his trone,but they are reserved and I am sent to another room where people have to follow the teachings through a TV screen. I loose a bit of interest and I am trying to decide to stay or not, when..

Plane crash
I am instantly transported to inside an airplane. It's a big one and it's making a long trip. It's coming from Sweden, or going to Sweden or of a swedish company or at least I think so. I'm sitting on one of the seats and the airplane suddendly plunges almost vertically. I feel that rollercoaster stomach feeling very clearly as if it was real, but I think "It will be just fine." And the plane recovers for a while. Then I have a vision of a road full of ups and downs and bathed by the moonlight when the plane starts to sink again. I turn back on my seat and put my knees on the seat and grab the back of the chair with both arms. It helps reducing the feeling on the stomach, but now I'm concerned that I'm going to die, so that sensation is the least of my problems. Then I have another vision, I'm hovering above the plane and I see it crashing against some huge glass wall. Then I am floating above the earth and see the beautiful oceans, green land and fluffy clouds. Then I feel I am transported back again to inside the airplane and I can sense that the crashing on the ground is about to happen, but then I have another vision of kids playing on the street, laughing and chatting and then... I go into nothingness and in slow motion I start to wake up. I feel like I really died and this is my after-life dream.

Meditating
After a while I fell asleep again and I went back to a dream I immediately knew I had already dreamed before the plane crash, but hadn't been able to recall. So now I have an opportunity to remember it again, although it's not so interesting.
I was in my old office in Brussels and in front of me is my ex-boss who had a big crush on me and vice-versa. I look at him, knowing that I am dreaming, and trying to figure out if he is just a DC or if this is a shared dream. He looks quite real to me, but we never know for sure. I am pushed by my office colleagues to the elevator and we all descend to the -2 level. We're preparing to go somewhere but we wait for a second group (that didn't fit on the elevator with us) and which includes my boss. I wat to see him again, because a shared dream with him would be worthwile exploring. But then someone comes and says he got out on -1 level with the others and I decide it's not worth my time to go look for him.
I decide to check this floor and to think about next lucid step. I remember that my guru told me to just sit and meditate but once again the usula problem: too many people around who will distract me. Then I see a door that leads to a huge warehouse-type of place and there's people there too, but I spot a kind of pedestal and I fly to sit on top of it. I'm sure nobody will disturb me up there. I cross my legs, I can distinctively see the floor and my legs and the veins in my legs. I feel confortable and because I totally focus my eyes on the floor, all the rest of the dream scenario fades around me. I forgot the vizualisations I was supposed to do, but I just breathe in and out without loosing focus and feel happy that it is working. Then I experience total loss of weight, I feel floating myself in space and then I get a sensation that I am plunging backwards with my head into a black-hole. I don't allow it to scare me. It actually feels very blissful. I let myself go with this falling sensation and then I feel sort of vibrations in my temples, then forehead and then eyes. In the end it feels more like someone is tapping on my head, but I stay relaxed. Then I feel I am close to wake, because I can hear the street noise, the kids going to school, car engines strating, etc. But I hold on and then I wake up to realise I'm still in a dream. I'm back in the warehouse but now there's a mirror in front of me. I look at it and I don't know now what to do. Should have went back to meditation but instead I plunged in the mirror and went to the black void again. More vibrations, more falling sensation. Almost waking up, hearing the street noises again and then waking up again in a dream. This happened maybe 3 or 4 times through different ways and led me to think I was again in a loop not managing to wake up - but this time I didn't really want to anyway.
Last time I wake up in front of the mirror, I am dressed in a green barely covering the skin, outfit, with a kind of corselet with ties across my chest and stomach with lots of skin showing and hot pants. I felt hot. I wanted to see my boobies. I opened the corselet but was disappointed to see that my boobies were actually smaller than in RL. Oh well... I could try to make them bigger, but what was the point. I am still admiring my dream body so I get all naked. Then some guy comes and says they need to close the warehouse so I need to go away - nevermind he has a hot naked girl in front of him. So I flew away to the exit and now my lucidity was dropping fast. Just remember entering a bar where lots of guys were having a drink but none of them seemed to care about the hot naked lady who just came in. I didn't know anymore what was the point of this dream, so I gave up and woke up.

08:00 GMT

I am in MoSh's inner world, in the place I usually appear when I have planned to meet up with him in a dream. I look around to see that everything is as it should be before I head over to the house and knock on the door. The door opens, and I see Asuka there smiling at me. Asuka asks me if I have come back to do another spontaneous healing, I tell her that's not why I'm there… but if she feels she needs healing I will be more than glad to help. She says no, she feels fine, but she felt fine the last time I busted in here to use a healing spell on both her and MoSh. I don't remember past dreams too clearly at this point, so I don't respond. It's better to remain silent and have people think you're a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt. So I follow Asuka into the living room where MoSh is, it looks like he has been waiting for me. MoSh says if I am ok with it, he still wants to go and try to view when he got the psychic reading from Bonnie, so he can determine if the person he's supposed to be with could actually be Kaomea or if there is someone else. I say that is why I am here, so we can go ahead and do that.

I sit down next to MoSh on the couch and we open up a laptop, looking to view through time as we do when looking to view a past dream. This doesn't seem to be working, however, as when I go to find the entry, there is no such entry. I wonder if that is because it wasn't a dream, it was a waking life event that MoSh experienced. I figure this would be more like astral projection or remote viewing than dream viewing, so maybe I would have to use a portal to get us to where we can view this. I tell MoSh that, and after I do one more search on the computer that doesn't find anything, I turn the computer off and get up. This is going to be more difficult than I had first thought, since my first thought was that the only problem would be seeing Bonnie's vision. I focus on opening a portal to view the event MoSh wants to see, but the portal isn't opening. I focus harder, I know this is possible, I have heard of a lot of other people doing it successfully… I keep focusing to the point where I am developing a minor headache, that certainly won't be beneficial, but finally a portal flickers into existence. I stop focusing on it because it is open now, and all my portals stay open by themselves for at least a while once I get them open, but the portal closes instantly. I have to open it again, then I usher MoSh through the portal and then follow him without losing my focus… not the easiest task…

MoSh and I emerge from the portal into a strange place, I don't recognize it at all. I look around and try to get a description of the place, but all I can see is that the place is constantly shifting… wtf? Nothing is staying the same long enough for me to get a fix on it, and the entire thing is starting to make me nauseous. MoSh doesn't seem to be having any problems with this, he goes over to a woman who isn't shifting with the rest of the scene, and there is also another MoSh there talking to the woman. Their voices are echoing throughout the strange shifting place, making it hard to understand what they are saying, but I catch enough of it to get the basic idea. MoSh wants to know about his future lover. The woman, who I am finally able to focus on enough to see she has long dark hair and appears to be somewhere in her 30's, says MoSh is looking for a woman, when he finds her she will complete him, and he will complete her. She seems to be focusing on something, I wonder if I will be able to see a picture or image of the person. I focus on the woman, wanting to see what she is seeing… but I don't get things very clear. What I do see is a Japanese woman, very pretty, she has her hair tied back in a pony tail, she looks to be somewhere in her 20's. She has a very nice smile, and she is smiling at me, or at least it looks like she is smiling at me. I need to allow MoSh to see this image now… how can I do that?

Before I can figure out how to get the image to MoSh, everything freezes around us. The room is no longer constantly shifting, though somehow that doesn't make it any easier to see the room clearly. It seems that the walls and everything in the room have stopped in mid flux as if they are part one thing and part another, it looks really strange, but at least it is less nauseating than when things were moving. The MoSh that the woman was talking to is also frozen, the only things moving in the room are the woman, the present day MoSh, and myself. The woman is looking right at MoSh and me, I wonder if she can actually see us… maybe she can… she is a psychic, after all.

The woman stands up and comes over right in front of MoSh, she turns to give me a dirty look, then returns her attention to MoSh. Her voice is still echoing around the room making it hard to understand her, but I am once again able to get the basic idea. She repeats herself several times, just using different words each time, that MoSh being around me is a sure sign of doom. She says if he ever hopes to have the things he wants in life he had better break all contact with me immediately. She says that if MoSh stays with me, I will lead him only to his own doom. She says he should break off all contact with me immediately and… well, I never get to hear and what, because MoSh interrupts her. He is clearly not pleased with the woman at all, he tells her that he will decide for himself who he spends time with, and if he wants to spend time with me, then he will do so. The woman tries to say more, saying I am not MoSh's friend, I am… MoSh interrupts again, saying he knows who his friends are, and I am his friend, and now he has clearly heard enough of what the woman has to say. He tells her, in no uncertain terms, that he wants her to shut the fuck up. The woman looks at MoSh and says if he won't listen then he has already chosen his doom. This is where I wake up.

07.11.2010

Accounting on a treadmill (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Two dreams.

I was in Spain with my brother who was really grown up. I was in a park with my dad and my mom. I went to a room and I saw my dad walking on a weird treadmill which had also a computer. My dad was paying himself. He is the President of a gym, self employed obviously. He was doing accounting (on the screen of the treadmill) I realized it made no sense so I turned lucid. I asked my dad to reveal me something. My dad entered a number that started by $4 and had four digits plus two digits for the cents. I was surprised that my dad made so much money, then, I realized that in Spain you get paid monthly. My dad kept entering numbers until the amount turned into something a little more than $2000. I can only remember the number $2.

I lost lucidity at some point. I started to play mind games with my brother. There was a scenery change. And some stuff I cannot remember.
The dream was longer but I cannot recall, something about dogs. However, at some point I did a Reality Check and turned lucid. I started to fly as usual to make my dream stable. It was day and I was flying over a forest. I start to feel double consciousness. I found a dog I was dreaming before while not lucid. I asked the dog to lick my hand to stay anchored to the dream. The dog started to lick my hand and the dream was more clear, however, it ended abruptly and I woke up. My cats were nuts around my bed making a lot of noise. They woke me up.

Missed dream signs:
- I was in Spain.

Spotted dream signs:
- My dad was doing accounting on a treadmill.

I had my second DILD ever, first since joining DV. It was only a few seconds long and pretty hazy, but it was still a step. I was standing next to a parked blue sedan. I guess I RC'd into lucidity, but I don't remember. I notice things are hazy, so I try to use Mzzkc's Archetype control to get more clarity and control. I try and pull out a board with knobs labled 'Lucidity', 'Clarity', and 'Dream timer'. I decided that this board would be my archetype for master controls for LDing. I figured before hand that whenever I needed to, I'd pull out the board, and crank up the knobs to increase control, lucidity, and hopefully, dream time. Anyway, I tried to pull it out, only it didn't quite work. It was sort of like the board was ghostlike. I tried to turn the knobs anyway, but it didn't work. I ran to the corner of the parked car, and then lost the dream. It was really short, maybe 15 seconds, but it's a step anyway. I hope to get the archetype board working, so I have more control in LDs