lucid

10/19/10

I had a dream that I was back in my old high school.. I was getting lunch and it was odd how I was standing there looking at the food being served and my surroundings. I guess I had lots of odd experiences in that particular high school and I haven't had any high school dreams in a long long time ( from what I can recall..)..
There was this old woman behind the food bar and she was pointing otu the different foods and I was so determined to just grab a salad but couldn't find any.
I walk out of the school and see all the students lined up outside I figured they too were either trying to get back in or were waiting for lunch.
I look across the street and see where I use to live as a child and this strange feeling overwhelms me.. I felt so vulnerable and just didn't want to be there.
Instead of me walking home I walk to the corner of the block and head up to see if I would see the store I use to go to called the "milky way" ..all of a sudden it starts to get dark and next to the store was an Italian restaurant.. what is odd is from my real memories there never was an Italian restaurant by the store " milky way"..
So I walk in and there is this tall Italian man smiling holding the door open for me and I look down and see this dog at the end of the leash.. small white dog and he tells me " Here you go bring her back tomorrow.." I replied "okay I will".. I feel good walking with this dog and it is night out..
I start walking to the direction of home where I use to live as a child.. but this dog makes me feel relaxed and so much better.. weird but I didn't feel alone.
I get home and the dog is stays with me.. my dad and mom are there I still feel weird because my parents are currently divorced and have been for a long time.. there is much bad blood between them in real life.. so in my dream seeing them two together was weird.. but than again it was a dream lol.
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Suddenly my dream switches and I am back at the restaurant to get the dog again to go home.. this time the Italian man had a different dog.. looked like a small lassie type dog and it's tail was between it's legs. The guy told me the other dog ( that I had took home ) was in his house and he had that one and wondered if I could take him.. I feel this lump in my throat.. feels like I am going to cry. I told him I would love to but the dog is too small and younger dogs tend to be more active and my neighbors would not be happy about it.. There is another woman standing holding a pile of folders in her arms and she is smiling down at this little dog.
I am standing there with a book bag and the Italian man starts checking the dog's lower body.. he says " He doesn't seem good at all something is wrong.. " I told him " looks like he ate something he shouldn't have.. young dogs tend to eat whatever is in their path.." The man nodded and told me he will take him back home.. I apologized greatly and start to head up the block back home.. feeling sad wishing the other dog was there with me..

Weird dream

September 19th 2010

Switch - Good and Evil

Awake Non-Lucid Semi-Lucid

I realise, there's a switch on my right hand. It isn't actually there, but I can feel it with my fingers. It slides, obviously analogue. I wonder what it does?

There are trees around me, along with what looks like shops. I slide the switch over to the left. Everything brightens, lines are smoother, people smile at me. I slide it to the right. My vision smudges, lines darken, the smiles drop off of their faces as quickly as they came. I set it back to normal.

I realise I have a job to do, but I can't remember what. There's a wall to my right, too high to climb. I run up it instead, and peer over. The drop below is much further than what I ran. If I fall, I die. But there are ledges, suspended over the space. Large, muscular men guard them. How can I get past?

I slowly turn the switch to the right, but not all the way. Everything darkens again. As soon as I jump down to the first ledge, one of the men grabs me, snarling, and throws me off. I don't die, I don't even hit the ground. In fact, I'm exactly where I was before, crouching over the edge of the wall. I flick the switch to the left. The men let me jump from ledge to ledge, although some look like they're thinking off throwing me off. I feel like i'm in a videogame.

When I get to the floor, I don't take very much in. There's a sofa that I walk to, and see my friend sitting there. I become slightly lucid, and flick the switch all the way to the left. My friend grabs a sheet of paper and draw a light sketch of wings on it. What does she mean? I fly onto the wall again, and face the forest. I flick the switch all the way to the right.

Instantly, I wish I hadn't. Every outline is dark and smudged, the world turns grey, there are shadows everywhere. It's as if I've entered a nightmare. The beautiful forest goes up in flames. People are marching out of it, screaming at me, holding weapons. I forget the switch and run.

Stalker

For some reason there's a shop under my school. I walk down the dark, damp passageway leading up to it, I really hope it isn't some scary cellar. But luckily, when I get there, it's not. There are clothes everywhere. I remember I needed to buy boots for the winter, and head to the shoe section. After getting rather bored, and getting sick of looking at leather, I quickly go into a changing room to change.

When I get out, I'm wearing a silky pink, strapless dress that goes down to above the knee. I wear dark pink heels to match. For some reason, I can't walk very well in them (which is odd because I can walk fine in heels. Practice makes perfect, right!?) . I budge past the people blocking my way and head out a door opposite the one I came through. I'm in a theatre!

The seats are slanted as they go up so everyone can see. But at a very steep angle. I'm so high up that if I get out of my seat wrong, imma die. I literally need to curve my legs under me to hop onto the floor from my seat. Somehow, whiles i'm puzzling over this, the show ends.

[Dream skip - A few minutes] I'm back in my normal clothes (jeans and t-shirt) and i'm walking home. Ethan calls me from behind. Shit. This guy pretty much stalks me (I'm being serious guys, LOL ) . I don't say anything. Goddammit, why am I still wearing these heels? I can't get away from him fast enough. He gets pissed off pretty fast and pulls out a bow and a sheath of arrows. Because he's so hardcore...

I notice he's got a "friend" up ahead who's done the same thing. Now they're trying to shoot me. I kick off the stupid heels and run for it. Somehow I'm faster than usual, but there's still a chance I get hit. Luckily, I don't.

Transformation

Note: This one really creeped me out. I woke up with a really awful feeling because it was a late REM stage so it was vivid too. Basically, I watched a really sweet girl turn into this evil blood-thirsty monster. Like nothing you've ever seen before. Go watch the recent Starwars Sith thingy and you'll understand.

For some reason, I think my room is a pirate ship. And it's the room in my old house, which I haven't been in for three years. I'm in my "ship" when a innocent looking, blonde girl comes in. She's smaller than me, with deep blue eyes and shoulder length hair, with a full fringe. She looks unhappy for some reason. She tells me that she needs to save her mother. That her mum's been taken and she needs to get her back. Her name is Kate. I tell Kate to come back tomorrow, and we'll go get her mother.

[Dream skip - The next day] I'm in the ship, when Kate swings in (literally, on a piece of rope hanging from the hall outside. Don't ask me why ). She's got black eyeliner on, and has gelled her fringe back. She's enthusiastic, which is good. We get going.

To move the "ship" we sway from side to side. I watch the ship from third person but can still feel my body. We go down my street and onto the road. Kate shouts at me a couple of times because apparently I'm steering wrong.

[Dream skip - Unknown] We're close to where Kate's mother is. She's slowly changing. Her hair is now long, and dark auburn in colour. Her eyes are turning a brownish shade. Shadows are lining her eyes. We don't speak. I don't trust her.

We're walking along a meadow, in the middle of a forest. Suddenly, Kate turns to me. She screams that I've led her to the wrong place. That I'm trying to kill her. Her body keels over, and she starts retching. I think she's going to be sick. Her chest puffs up, and suddenly, hair is coming out her throat. It's still attatched to something inside her. She grabs a knife from her belt and hacks at it furiously. When she's finished, she grins at me, evily. I have the feeling she might try to kill me in the most brutal way possible. Her hair is now shorter, and spikey. Her eyes are red.

Something rustles in the bushes. She does a backflip and stabs something. She drags him out of the bushes and laughs as she stabs him again and again. I stare in horror. What has happened to her? She's out of control.

[Dream skip - Unknown] I'm sitting, alone, in my ship/room. I can't get over what a monster Kate is. I still see her red eyes and sharpened teeth. Blood splashed over her, with a mad glint in her eye. I seek knowledge to how this happened. Instantly, a voice in my head tells me to look to the Corners, the Shadows. I do. I look at the shadow and corners of my ship, and hear a voice.

The voice tells me she is a lost soul. That she always has been, I just didn't see it at first. In my mind, he replays our first meeting. I stand, watching myself and Kate talk. Now I notice the way she stands. Close, uptight, analyzing everything I say. Calculating. But from my first glance, she was just someone who needed help.

Then as she swings into the ship. I thought she was enthusiastic, now I know all she wanted was blood. She was after everything and anything out there. She probably lied about her mother. She was always the murdering psychopath, I just hadn't seen it. It was all a disguise. I watch as she slowly reveals her true form. I watch her eyes slightly darken everyday, the shadows around them grow more prominant, her teeth sharpen to points.

Finally, the Shadow leaves me to dwell on these thoughts.

I look up, and her eyes are set on my. Blood is dripping from her finger tips. I know her secrets, now I have to die.

Method: DILD
Recall: below average
Lucid Ability:not tested
Vividness: Average
Dream Length:Average

I'm on IRC and I have a couple of tabs of porn on, and I keep tabbing back and fourth. I sense to people behind me, and I'm right. Don't remember who they were, but I felt weird about it. They didn't notice, so I guess I was quick enough. I right clicked them and closed them down while IRC was still up. I remember talking to Lostsoul, but I don't remember was it was about.

(scene change)

I'm driving my car down a familiar road near my house, and there are three girls in the car. All of them are yapping about something, and I don't remember how I got here. Now here's the tricky part. Maintaining the wheel, RCing and staying totally clam as I realize that i'm dreaming.

Nose pinch was successful, and I decided to drive right off the road. We went through some tree and other impossible stuff, and stopped a an area that had all this sand and small lakes around it (because the controls of the car started getting stupid). I immediately headed to the back seat. There was a black girl, a blonde, and a brunette, and I decided to ask them some questions. I don't remember most of the questions I asked them, but I do recall asking the blonde girl her favorite band. "Fink 182", she replied. "Thats not even their name, and they suck, get out of the car" I told her. She got out, but she headed to the front seat.

The brunette girl immediately unzipped my pants and started stroking me. The black girl turned around and watched us. She was practically drooling. I asked her, "what's up"? She said she was getting off to watching her play with me. I told her I told her I was getting off to her watching us while the other girl played with my cock. I pulled her in and started kissing while rubbing on the other girls tits. The brunette had already taken everything off by the time I turned back around. She told me she wanted me inside her.

I rotated around, and pulled her waist towards the edge of the seat and parted her lips and slid in. I got about half way in, and it was a dead end. I slid out and back in, and the same thing happened. "I guess I wont get to show her my long stroke" I thought to myself. I continued fucking her until everything faded.

Sorry but I cant delete this.. LOL.

Dream Lucid

I went out to eat with my family at some restaurant. On the way there I was extremely thirsty and 3 cups of water did not full fill me. After we ate, we got back in the car to drive home. I was still drinking water. My mom was driving and made a turn opposite of our house. Then I woke up into my dream bed. I saw two of the same posters on the ceiling and remembered a post on here about putting a picture on the ceiling telling you do either do a RC or that you are dreaming. There's a triangle with a face drawn on it, just lines to make a smile and eyes. I thought that was kind of weird, so I looked away but still saw it in my peripheral and when I looked back it was moving, so I pinched my nose and could still breathe. I got out of my bed and looked at my hands. They were morphing, the palms would get bigger and my finger turned into tiny little stubs and back. Flipping them over and moving them would morph them back to normal. I tried to give out a few commands but my throat was still dry. I drank some water and gave out the commands. I wanted to go outside so I decided to walk through my wall, I've only walked through something once and it was slow, so was this time. Halfway through I decided to just open the window and jump through it (I still thought I shouldn't make noise and wake somebody hahaha). The sky was gloomy and I tried to bring down lightening with my hands. I couldn't do it, but then I noticed that fireballs, or meteors were in the sky. I tried controlling those, and wherever I swung my arm, they would come. I tried to do a Kamehameha, I saw the energy ball, but not at my hands and decided to hold that off until I had better control. I then looked my hands for more stability and wanted to summon a DC. I thought that she would appear at my front door, and I could see her shadow from outside. I used the hopping technique to get to the door and opened it, there she was! along with a tan SUV in front. She immediately ran in and started to grab at my parts. I dream hopped with her to my room and got too excited and woke up.

I was then with some friends at a flat concrete place which had stairs leading down to sea level with more stairs going up which led to a school in the dream. I showed another friend a video of one of my friends skating. Then some kids from the school came up to me and asked how I think I did on the science test in some teacher's class. I told them I don't go to their school. He continued to talk to me and said he hoped he did good. Going down, I see lots of other people riding their bikes. One of them waves goodbye to me as he leaves, and I see another friend and we chat for a bit. Then there's a large group of people sitting on the ground and I join them. My bottom retainer felt like it broke so I picked out the pieces, but I could still feel a retainer in my mouth. I then realized I was dreaming, and did a nose pinch to check. I looked up at the sky and flew off, only to wake up.

I was in a hotel room with some family members younger than me. My aunt who lives across the states was here to visit and we had to go down to help her with the bags. Two of us go down one flight of stairs and I hit the elevator button. It opens and I see my younger cousin in there, it closes and she goes up. When the elevator goes up, the DC that was with me jump down the elevator shaft. I thought he was a goner. When the elevator came back down to me, he appeared from the stairs which we just came down. We get in and I tried the trick to just get it to go without any other stops. It works and we are in the lobby. I go outside to see all the other members of my family. My mom was telling about the psychologist referral I had just recently got. (I just wanna chat with a psychologist, while my mom thinks I have some mental problems) She goes on to tell the family that I have some mental problems and asks me to tell them about my problems. My uncle looks at me and just says Hi to, I respond back and he says I'm fine. My mom and I get into a little argument and I get frustrated and say that I'm just not going to talk to anybody. My brother then comes over and sits down with me and says, "Well you're not going to talk to anybody? Well this is a dream." Still being frustrated I go to prove him wrong and pinch my nose. Realizing I was dreaming, I tried to fly away from the scene but he was holding onto my, so I dream spun and he said I was good, but he still had a hold of me. I then hopped to the nearby wall and he went with me, so I just tried to fly away.[color="blue"= I then woke up in my dream bed and pinched my nose, I was able to breathe, but I didn't believe it, so I used two hands to block it completely and then I could still breathe. For some reason I still didn't believe it, so I went to write down my dreams and I saw I had text messages, I read them and they were a bit off, I looked at the time and it was off by about 5 hours, I just thought my phone was being weird, I even looked at the time twice, and thought nothing of it, then I finally woke up.

I normally don't post my dreams, but I feel like this one is worth it so enjoy.

19.10.2010

Trapped in a Dream (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm driving down Gay toward Shane's house and I suddenly realize I'm going the wrong way, so I pull into a driveway to turn around. When I pull into the driveway I get out of the car and start walking for some reason. I'm walking up Gay and its nighttime so I'm trying to steer clear of the road. Suddenly I have a brief moment of lucidity and I think "Why am I walking? Am I looking for my car?" So I start running up Gay scanning the edge of the road for anywhere I could've left my car when I'm again hit with a flash of lucidity "This is ridiculous, how could I end up in a situation like this," I think, "I must be dreaming." It's the only conclusion I can come up with although I still think its very unlikely. So I slap myself in the face a couple of times and "wake up" lying on my bed in my dorm room. I feel extremely tired and I can't open my eyes or move much at all. I think "I'm going to be late for Tech and Civ if I can't get up soon," but I still can't budge and am too tired to really care. Someone comes into the dorm and they come up to my door and open it. I hear a man's voice and two girls but I still can't open my eyes. They see me sleeping and a girl says "Oh, I'm sorry." and a man (apparently one of roomates) says "Sorry bro." I think I manage to mutter "it's fine" as they close the door. I can hear the TV on in the background and I think to myself "Ok, its really time to get up now." So I visualize myself getting out of bed and putting on my clothes but I still can't move. I start to panic a little bit and think that I'm deffinately going to be late for Tech and Civ. I'm still too tired to really care though and thought of just skipping it was crossing my mind. Suddenly I'm jolted awake for real and I'm laying on the bed in my dorm. I test my limbs and they move just fine. I look at the clock and see that only about ten minutes have passed since I fell asleep "that can't be right" I think. And it hits me that I must still be dreaming. I crawl out of bed and I'm not nearly as tired as I was in the dream and its a great relief. I check the door and see that it is still locked so no one must've come in. I flick the lights on and off to see if they work and they do so I realize I actually am awake. I start writing it all down then I check the clock and realize that I'm late for Tech and Civ.

10/19: I'm not sure why I'm thinking about something I dreamed about in 2001 and 2007, but like dreams I've had of James Lafferty before in 2007, it's left me cautious or unable to get a grasp on life the next day.

The last thing I remember before getting this dream the first time around in fall 2000 or spring 2001 was hearing this song being sung in a Jamaican accent at the end of a Steven Seagal film from 1990, Marked for Death. Then in this dream I see this country road with this fake board game on the floor that's based on the film Scream. I suddenly hear a young man screaming and wonder if it's someone in the van or is it the electronic game board. I wake up the next day (a Sunday), wondering who that was making that screaming sound.

The same dream happened around six years later after having an epic fail of a day in college (someone crying because someone wanted to do something and she wanted to do something else the day before, getting handed a loss in a game in class and the other team went nuts because my team lost, getting an unexpected friend request and group invitation on Facebook all in that order), my mind when I went to bed on February 15, 2007 wanted to make my bad day even worse. This time the screaming sound was different and sounded like the loudest scream heard in the Cruis'n games (the '90s arcade game series - USA, World and Exotica) from a male/female driver in traffic or a stalled computer-controlled opponent when you crash into them that sounds like a child (and the car you hit suddenly flips over or goes flying halfway across the screen if you went too fast). The dream made no sense a few scenes later and acted like the dream as explained above, except this time everything quieted down and I was in the passenger seat of what looked like a GMT800 (GMC Yukon), going for a ride down the country road again, and this time the driver resembled a young man in his 20s. I wake up at 5:30 am the next day, and all I could think of was someone I knew in high school and unable to get a leg up on life, and the next day in the computer lab, I go to Wikipedia and manage to put a name on the dream character, resembling Devon Sawa from films such as Casper and Final Destination (the first one). Maybe it was trying to tell me to get away from stressful situations?

I should post here more, but I don't. Eh.

Two nights ago I was in an instance in World of Warcraft. I *was* my character, which was pretty cool. There was some incessant doom about to take place; I think it was the seventh book of Harry Potter, because teachers were running around all over the place. In my dream, the seventh book hadn't come out yet, so I was excited to be part of it.

As we're running away from the doom, there's this long bridge with holes and cracks in it. I'm freaking out, but Bryon keeps pulling me along. When we get to the end, Bryon pulls us off (either that or he jumps and I follow him). I was freaking out, cause I knew we were gonna die - but we didn't. I looked around, and we were back on top of the bridge. Bryon said, "Because it's a DREAM!" We started walking back across the bridge, calmly this time. I started to realize it WAS a dream, and I tried to take in all I could. The colors were stony and looked like Northrend in WoW, but they were so vibrant and lifelike. I decided I didn't want the bridge to shake anymore and I didn't even realize it fixed itself.

When we got to the gates of the instance we had just left, I tried to read the words on the doors. I couldn't, of course, but I tried to "put the letters in order," and my brain told me they said, "Mana Tombs." I was like, that's not right, but whatever. So we went into the instance. It looked a lot like a dream I had recently where I saw an ex at the RenFest. McGonagall was standing on a step preaching about something; she had our quest. We got our quest, which was to retrieve something from a boss. I thought I knew the best way to do it. I play a rogue, and I was sneaking around trying to get by mobs, but Bryon plays a pally and wasn't so lucky. We had to fight some people until we came upon some old ladies to challenged us to an orgasm contest! XDD; We decided to do it, but in the middle of that, I woke up.

Lucidity: 7/10
Vividness: 6/10
Length: 20 Min.

I woke up and was looking at my bedroom door. I was completely lucid. And it was completely dark. Almost pitch black. Then someone came out of the shadows. It was a tall green cape with arms, legs, feet, etc. But NO head. That made me so scared. So while saying "no, no, no" a million times because I couldn't believe that I could have such a horrible nightmare.( I also tried to scream but nothing came out.) Got up. When I did I thought about it and he wasn't very scary. I imagined a piece of cloth on his head. And there was. Also that he had no means to hurt me. We shook hands and greeted each other. Then I was in a court yard and I was talking to some black guy. I can't remember what he said, but then someone else came in. Then we fought for some reason. While I was fighting I thought "wow, it's really dark here" and it was. It was creepy. For some reason I had a book or something and didn't want anyone to touch it. And of course he tried to touch it. Everyone did. By now I wanted to wake up, but decided I might be able to make it a better dream. So every once and a while someone would try to touch the book and I tried to stop them. Then someone did. I thought that the book would warp people to a different dimension. And it did. Then I went into that dimension. When I did I immediately looked around. I was on a long road. With weird things on the ceilings. And I was in a desert. Then someone said "look we already changed the store" or something like that, showing the store. Then it went back to my perspective. When it did I said "wow, this dream sucks" and stuff. Then I was on a field fighting over that damn book again. Sahara Winder fell over and looked hot. She was wearing sweat pants. So I went down to her and stuck my tongue up her ass. It didn't taste like anything and I didn't think about what was on it because I was dreaming. It felt exactly like one. The End.

non-dream - non-lucid - lucid

19-10-10 I am lying in my bed, I have been tossing and turning for a good hour and a bit. I get a couple of hits of deep relaxing sensations in my body. The last thing I do (at least that is what I believe) is to slip out of my bed and lie down on the floor (FA). It seems like my normal floor, even has the exact amount of clothes that needs washing there. I take a quick one-eyed peak, why is my sub woofer over there? (I don't have a sub woofer). Ok I am close to something I try and look some more, but it seems to destabilise the environment. I lie still a bit more. I risk it all open both my eyes and stand up, somehow there is not enough stuff in the room, but it really does look like my room. Right even the curtains have been left in the exact position I left them in. I RC by seeing if I can withdraw them with my mind. They flicker and I doubt no more. I need light to stabilise this. I pull the curtains all the way to the sides, I touch and couple of edges on tables and rub my hands.

Although a bit firmer it still could do with a bit of solidness, the dream does grow a bit brighter and I fly through the glass without breaking it. Cool at least some of my control is coming back. I find a flat to peak into, there is a picture on the window frame of Buddha (sort of a pagan version, with red war paint across his eyes) The flat looks funky lot of nifty little stuff, good amount of light and a DC sitting by the sofa table. I assure him that I just need a bit of time to stabilise my dream and I consider telling him it is all just a dream, but decide against it. After a while I spot a flat with a lot of red/blue light coming out of the window, but as this fades away I just fly through the wall to the flat I was just at. It works, so more control coming back. I really pay attention to how it feels going through and although there is a distinct sensation of going through there is no resistance. Cool.

I fly through another set of walls and find myself in some sort of tunnels, these somehow transform into a real-time-strategy sort of landscape and I think to myself how come I can't produce a real mountain landscape. I try to visualise this, but nothing happens. The RTS landscape turn into a tunnel style scene again and I can see some light up ahead. I fly toward it and find a hole in the wall too small for me to pass through, but I am confident enough to just pop through the wall again. I exit a little while later on a scene hat could have been Berlin in the wake of being carpet bombed during WW2. All the building have no glass, are missing some of the corners and it looks amazingly real compared to the RTS landscape I just bitched about, nice, maybe I need to just not try as hard. I fly up and around, and seem to be going really slowly with a bit of a height limitation, so I decided to try and fly backwards and it works amazingly well increasing the detail of the scene around me. I get entangled in some electrical wiring hanging overhead, which I laugh about and quickly get out of. I wake up soon after.

Notes: It takes too much time to enter the dream (1 hour plus here). However I am unsure as to why my WILDs are so short. Do I disturb the sleep cycle by spending so much time awake and aware prior slipping into a dream again or is it a stabilisation issue? However I am pleased that my control seem to be coming back.

Oh and pardon the wall of text, but I am trying as much as possible to note every detail as my recall is a bit shaky atm

October 18, 2010

Synopsis: Abstract dream. Were escaped test subjects running from an evil doctor. Brief lucidity. Flying. Next dream, I try to rebel the system from within it.

Note: I was very sleepy after I woke up from my dream. Well, I didn't really wake up. More like, I was only half awake. I stayed drifting in HI for a few minutes before I remembered that I even had a dream. But by that time, what felt like a vivid dream was hard to recall.

Abstract Adventures
Me and a friend want to leave. We walk straight out of the house and into the parking lot. Waiting for us is a small helicopter. My friend makes me drive it! I'm terrified! I don't know how to fly this clunky machine. Once inside, my whole world turns upside down. Uh, literally. We crashed.

But were fine, and I think nothing of it.

It turns out we were so desperate to leave because were running away from this evil doctor! We were his unwilling test subjects for some sort of experiment. We run through suburbia, which was just abstract and weird. We reach a tower, and climb up its various levels. I don't remember much of the tower anymore, but I do remember on the top most floor was a witch conjuring up a spell. I didn't figure out who's side she was on.

Were on top of the tower now. The doctor has us cornered! But that's when I suddenly realize I'm dreaming. Lucid, I tell the doctor "were not going to run from you anymore!". Then I grab my friends hand and fly instead. I try to grow bird wings, but I don't know if it worked or not. My friend disappears. Common. Lots of DCs just up and puff away when I become lucid.

I continue flying and exploring my strange abstract dream, like giant cardboard boxes strewn together. I woke up after wards and fell into random HI for several minutes.

Thoughts: the tower was a spiral, a repeating pattern in my dreams for 2010. Probably not a coincidence that reaching the top made me lucid, since the spiral itself can represent consciousness.

Rebel from Within
Some evil corporation has everyone I know slaving away from them, in an all-generic-building. Oh, and these weren't regular people. They were scheming rats, like the rats from Nyhm. I had two choices. Slave away, or rebel. I saw what happens to people who rebel outwardly. They got locked away in some room, never to return.

I thought I could out smart the rats though. I'd work hard, earn their trust, learn more about their system. And eventually, I'd learn about their weak points and take them out when they least expect me to! Well, it sounded like a plan. Except that it's really SLOW.

Anyways, I never actually got a chance to rebel! Unless you count spying. I was spying on the big boss while mopping the floors. He had an assistant named Amadeus. Amadeus seemed like an honestly good rat, and it annoyed me the way the boss would say his name and call him for any little thing.

Thoughts: it could have something to do with me trying to overcome old habits. The process is slow, and you have to observe yourself.

Unusual circumstances on this night. Took B-Complex in the evening, about 5 hours before sleep. Didn't get to sleep until I was really tired. Woke up after just 3 hours of sleep to drive roommate to the airport. Was out of bed for about an hour total. Returned to sleep and had the lucid, technically in my third sleep cycle. The rest of the dreams were all very random, but more exciting then my usual boring dreams.

Rooms, Sprinklers, Flying
Lucidity C
Vividness B
Control D
0730: The beginning is jumpy and difficult to recall. I don't seem to have a dreambody, I'm just watching like a movie. It's in a house at a fancy dinner party. A few old people are talking about arranging to meet at a restaurant or country club. Then it's like a commercial. A young woman in a formal dress and hair styling peeks into the room and recommends watching a TV show. Someone asks, which TV show... Buffy? Then I recognize the girl as Alyson Hannigan from that show.

At some point, I sense that I have a dreambody and I am in the house alone. But maybe it has changed into my work office? I step into a room with tall windows all along the far wall. Sunlight is shining brightly through. The floor is grass instead of carpet! The grass is overgrown and spotted with weeds. I think to myself that someone in the office should maintain the grass. I think the new employee should have to do it as an initiation.

I walk out the side door of this room. It leads outdoors and now I am in the side yard of my old house on Daisetta. It's a narrow concrete strip that leads to the backyard. I walk to the backyard and it's fairly familiar. Except there are a row of short fake palm trees lining the lawn. They have big plastic bananas hanging from them and I think it looks really tacky. The sprinklers are on and they are really strong. The water shoots about 6 feet high and is soaking the whole yard, not just the grass. I start to think this is weird. But I don't want to get wet so I turn and run back into the door I came out of. In the Daisetta house, this should be the garage but it's still the room with grass. I notice the size of the room is about right for the garage though. Now sprinklers are on in here too! Ok, I really must be dreaming and I tell myself to do a reality check. I run through one more door to be out of the water.

I plug my nose and confirm I'm dreaming. Yay! I remember that it's been a long time since being lucid. I had a scene in mind but I'm not sure how to get there from here, so I go outside and just start flying toward the horizon. But my flying sucks! I can only hover a few feet off the ground and move very slow. Then I remember one of my cues to invoke the Superman schema: Lois Lane is in trouble and I have to save her! My flying gets a bit better. I'm flying faster and higher but still not great. I try to focus on where I am going. On the horizon, I see an ominous factory on top of a mountain. Lois must be trapped inside! Smoke is billowing out. Then I see an explosion. I sense the urgency and danger and try to fly faster. But it seems so far away. Discouraged, the dream fades.

Family and Old Acquaintances
0849: C. Very jumpy and random. At Daisetta house with the whole family. Mother hands me a book about politeness and etiquette. She says my father read it but doesn't follow it. I'm supposed to go to work but I'm staying home late. I'm dressed in a blue stripped shirt with matching shorts, which I think is weird. I remind myself to change into pants before leaving for work. Then talking to my sister and one of her friends. Then I get a message on my Xbox from someone with initials C.C. I struggle to think who that is. At first I think of Sean, but that's way off with S.F. The closest I can think is E.B., Erinne from high school. I turn and see her in the room at an impressive desk. She's dressed nicely and looks like a lawyer or executive. I ask if she knows who C.C. could be. She asks me what her own phone number is. I'm confused. Do you mean your non-cell phone number? I pull out my phone to look. See calls her own house and talks to her housekeeper. Then my mother brings a big slice of ice cream cake. My sister and I eat it with our hands.

Saving Private Ryan
1012: C. In a war setting. In a small troop, looking for someone like the movie Saving Private Ryan. We find him and he's really shaken up. He's the only survivor of a big battle. I let him use my phone to make a few calls, but no one answers. Then my phone rings with an incoming call, but it's a wrong number.

Speed Racer, Secret Mission, Rugby
1123: C. I start as a racecar driver. Feels a bit cartoonish like Speed Racer. But it's just my cover for a secret spy mission. I'm in a team of spies with me, Hugh, Leonardo DiCaprio, and maybe a couple other people. We are in some third-world country. I am reminded of the movie Spy Game (but DiCaprio wasn't in that one). Leo comes up to a fruit stand to make the secret exchange, pretending to buy a basket of fruit. But something goes wrong and we have to abort the mission and run away.

Then it seems to be years later. Hugh and I have returned to the same place. This time, his two younger brothers are with us. Maybe we have come to avenge Leo? We go to the same fruit stand. Some of our faces and Leo's are on "wanted" posters. So we send in the brothers because they are new. The vendor at the stand starts arguing with them. Things seem to go bad again.

Now I'm in the middle of a game that's a bit like rugby, but not quite. I sense that I am not good at this game. I'm on the team to fill a spot and I shouldn't interfere with my better teammates. But the ball comes to me and a run and kick a field goal. We win and I climb up on the uprights, which look like the big arch in Chinatown.

I am restarting my dream journal (for the umpteenth time!).

Fragments:

I am kissing a friend's girlfriend (LY) on a bed in a bedroom. It becomes very passionate, and we're just about to have sex when I stop and explain that I can't cheat on my current girlfriend. At that moment, MP walks in and shoots me a very surprised look. He leaves the bedroom as quickly as he entered and I feel embarrassed.

The above dream was really unsettling considering I've been in a relationship for 3 months. If anyone has any advice/opinion on this dream, or if this has happened to you as well, let me know.

Later, I am on a very busy street with lots of people. I recognize I'm dreaming (more like semi-lucid). I see a bridge, and I begin to pick people up and toss them over the side. I begin to flick my hands and people and things go flying in whichever way I point. One of the DC's exclaims, "you can do that?!". I see an analog clock and try to make the hands circle rapidly by closing my eyes and concentrating, but it doesn't work.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while writing journal entry]

[Fragment] I'm at junior high school, going to class and learning what my class schedule will be.

The next dream starts out like a documentary about Canada. In the dream, I remember that I visited a city in Canada once, and my strongest impression upon arriving there was, “Wow, I'm in a foreign country!” [I've never actually been to Canada. These are most likely straight-up false memories, but I also got the feeling when taking notes during my WBTB that they might possibly have been memories of a previous dream that I'd otherwise forgotten about. Weird.] According to the documentary, Canada has a “Mexico City,” a concentrated population center of Mexican immigrants.

The dream then shifts from a documentary to an episode of “The Red Panda Adventures” that involves all of Canada being hypnotized/brainwashed into hating a man with the last name of Campbell. I remember a long text document [don't ask me why a dream about an episode of an audio series generates a dream image of a text document] that goes on and on about what a despicable person Campbell is. At one point in the text document, there is a warped and twisted version of the Canadian equivalent of the Pledge of Allegiance that also mentions his name and says something bad about him. [I was curious, so I looked it up, and it turns out that there is no Canadian equivalent of the Pledge of Allegiance. My mind just made one up. Cool.]

Woke up at 4:00 A.M. at the end of a sleep cycle and needed the restroom, so I used it, then took a few notes on my dreams so far, then went back to sleep.

I'm in a really big library with white walls and lots of light wood. The word “dream” crosses my mind somehow. [I don't remember whether someone said it, or I saw it on a sign, or I was just thinking about it; I think it was probably the latter.] However it happens, it makes me realize, “Hey, I'm dreaming! I did it!”

I decide to try doing a scene transition. [I don't remember how I did it, but] I find myself sitting in front of a computer monitor, which is displaying a command prompt against a black screen. The program that's running is a text adventure based on the novel Watership Down. I can't do anything right in it – I try entering a couple of commands, but none of them make any progress. Even the inventory command yields a response that goes something like, “You can't have an inventory with only one!” It means that you have to have more than one rabbit in your party before you can check your inventory. I quickly discover that the program is tied to the computer's clock, and that if a certain number of seconds pass without the player making any progress, the program just gives you a Game Over saying something about how you just got eaten (you, the rabbit, in the game, that is). After I get this Game Over, I think: “I don't have to sit here and play this text adventure just because I ended up here. If I want to, I can get up from this computer and go explore the building.” So I do.

I'm still in the library, because that's where that computer is. It's near a second-story interior passageway that's open and more like a balcony, overlooking the ground floor of the library. I follow the passageway over to where it ends in a flight of stairs going down, then descend the stairs, holding on to the handrails the entire way to keep myself focused on and grounded in the dream, and to make sure it remains stable. It works. The whole time, I'm marveling at how the sensations of walking, descending stairs, and holding the handrails are exactly like they would be in reality. The stairs have handrails running up the middle of the steps, but they aren't parallel to the ones running up the sides of the stairs; they're at an angle, so I have to go through a narrow space between two handrails on the last few steps of the staircase. I say, “Why did I have to design these stairs this way?”

I exit the building, and am outside on a dream version of my college campus. It's sunny and beautiful, and all the buildings are big and white and slightly old-fashioned [in real life, most of them are various shades of brown, tan, or orange, and none of them date back further than the 1940s]. Also, the St. Louis Arch and another, light-brown arch with some words on it in black, marking the entrance to some area, are there. [I can't remember what the words said now, but there were two of them, they were the name of the area, and they both started with S.] I go, “Ahhh, it's so good to be here.”

I notice that the beach, with its light-colored, soft sand, is down at the bottom of the cliff. I decide to try something. I think to myself, “When I close my eyes and turn around, I'm going to be standing on that beach down there.” I close my eyes, turn around in a circle (not too fast), and then open them again. I'm now on the beach, not quite at the exact spot I had been shooting for, but pretty close. “It worked!” I say aloud.

I stand on the beach for a moment, but the waves suddenly start coming up really close to the cliff, so there's not enough dry sand left to stand on. I decide to spin around again to go somewhere else, but this time, I'm thinking, “Just take me wherever.”

[In retrospect, that wasn't a very good idea.] I end up on the porch of an old, slightly spooky-looking house made of wooden boards, that seems to be floating on the ocean. It's not abandoned, though – there is a couple living in it. Also, I now have a friend with me – no one I know in real life, just a random, unnamed female dream character.

I look out from the porch to the east at the surrounding landscape and see a world that is ending. The sky is filled with thick, solid black clouds, with streaks of bright red and orange here and there because the sun is rising behind them. The entire landscape is flooded, and a jumble of disconnected buildings stick out of the water here and there. Some of them are on fire, some are falling apart, and one is being ruled over by some sort of dictator, whose enormous figure I can see looming over the building and gesturing with his arms in a way that means “work, you miserable peons!”

The couple who live in the house we're at start talking to me and my friend. They say that we have to get back to safety by sailing back the way we came. I think, “But we didn't sail here! We teleported!” I don't say so, though. [I don't know why not. Either I didn't get a chance to say anything, or I didn't want her to know about my newfound teleportation abilities, I'm not sure.]

[From this point forward, my recall is a little less clear in that I remember all the scenes, but none of the transitions or connections between them.]

The next thing I remember is facing away from the house toward the west, where there is a sort of path leading away from the house, but it's made up of a bunch of vines (or tree roots?). I try to get to the other end of the path by spinning around and closing my eyes again, but this time it doesn't work at all. I say, “Okay, if we can't do that, we'll just get there the hard way,” and start climbing over the vines.

Somehow, I end up on the deck of a ship, and there are waves coming up onto the deck I'm on, over and through the metal railing to my left. One of them doesn't look very big (it's about the same height as the railing), but it breaks right on the deck I'm on, tilting the ship over but not capsizing it.

The next thing I know, my friend and I are being escorted through the flooded landscape in a boat. There is a tank-like, armored boat with lots of guns in front of our boat, and another one behind ours. I take it they're there for our protection, but I quickly figure out that they're mostly just there for intimidation, and they're not even doing a very good job of that. There are lots of dangerous things trying to attack us, including exploding police cars, but we and our boat are passing through all of them as if they were air. What's really protecting us is a magic spell, one which, I know in the dream, comes from the Incarnations of Immortality universe.

I'm on foot, indoors, running away from something. I run into what appears to be a bathroom. I wonder if the protection spell is still holding now that I'm off the boat.

[I'm not entirely sure whether these last two scenes were in this order, or the reverse order:]

I'm a student sitting in a classroom, on the first day of school. All the other student seats are full of preteen or teenage Japanese girls, but the teacher is white. She explains that all we'll do in her class is make these little hat/hair accessory things out of tissue paper, which must be very trendy, because many of the girls are wearing them in their hair.

I'm standing on some rocks in the ocean, near the beach. I'm still lucid, so I think, “Okay! Text-messaging! Task of the month!” I go to take my phone out of my pocket, but then think, “No, better not do that here – I don't want to get my phone wet.”

Woke up and was delighted to have had another lucid dream. While thinking back over it, I laughed out loud at that last part – I was concerned about my phone getting wet? It wasn't even my real phone! :-D Then again, I realized that that makes sense: my dream cell phone would have been just as damaged by dream water as my real one would be by real water. After all, that's what I expect will happen when cell phones get wet.

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Commentary:

Last night, I listened to about half of my binaural beats file at the beginning of the night, did a five-minute WBTB, did a lot of MILD affirmation and visualization both when I first went to bed and when I was going back to sleep after the WBTB, and had a new cardboard-square bracelet, one made with a smaller square of thicker cardboard than my first one, on my wrist the entire time. Something helped me have a really good, long lucid dream. I don't know what. How very unscientific of me, I know. I'm sorry, everybody.

On a more positive note, I'm getting a little better at this! I had more lucidity than ever before this time, and I thought about and actively tried out some dream control techniques while in the dream. I've moved out of the “what is this new world?!” phase now, and into a phase that can be characterized by these thoughts: “Okay, I get the idea of what lucid dreams are, but how do I shot web?” That is, I'm just starting to learn to use those dream control abilities. It was one thing to read about the spinning scene-change/teleportation ability, but as with most skills, now that I've done it for myself, I truly understand what it's like. Note to self, though: I should never spin around to transition to a new scene without first deciding what the new scene should be, because if I let it be random, I may not like what I get.

Boy howdy, I sure am adept at doing WILD techniques... But only when I'm already asleep! >:/ I'm wondering if there's a specific term for doing a WILD in a dream, or if it's considered a straight up DILD. Either way, this makes my second dreaming WILD.

Barring the details of my non-lucid (Fairly uninteresting, snowy street, jammed VCR I unjam, a movie with Leonardo DiCaprio.) I basically fall asleep in my dream and WILD. Though not as cleverly disguised as my first dream WILD, I still think how I can check that off on my October goal... At least for a moment, I realize fairly quickly after becoming lucid that I just dream WILDed. Anyway, I go through the motions of a WILD. Vague images, sudden feeling of acceleration, for a moment, I see a faint image of my kitchen and think that's where I'll be going in my dream.

Instead, I find myself just falling through a dark cloudy sky completely lucid. I wasn't scared at all (In fact, I can count on one hand how many times, total, I've been scared since keeping a dream journal, and all 3 are jump scares.). First thing I do is try to spin and change scenery, of course repeating I'm lucid, I'm dreaming, etc. Doesn't work, I notice my glasses are about to falloff from the wind of falling, I grab them and realize "I'm dreaming! I don't even need them!" my vision blurs every slightly but becomes clear again shortly after letting them go.

I try spinning again, maneuvering my hands in a way that would make me spin as I fell (I always fell feet first, and never looked up or down.). It works and i laugh joyfully as it does, i then think of stopping my decent by hovering, and slowly I do. I talk myself into it "Just slow things down...", honestly, it was very calming. Eventually I stop, and notice the sky has a very bright crescent moon, and it looks like it's on a giant dark blue wall in the distance.

I say to myself "Alright Zed, get ready for some dreaming.".

I then wake up. >;( I try to DEILD back into the dream like last time, but it doesn't work. (I suspect I was only in the void last time when I DEILDed back into my dreams.) Again, noticing the absolute dryness of my mouth. In total, I think I was lucid... Maybe a couple minutes? Certainly longer than my first dreaming WILD, but still not what I'd consider a 'Lucid dream'.

Still, it was interesting feeling the sensation of falling like that.