lucid

Hello
I'm really back on track with the whole lucid thing Only problem which stays is that I wake up after realizing I'm dreaming.

Vividness: 4/5
Recall:4/5
Hours of sleep: 7.6h

I'm in an hotel. I'm on a some kind of holiday. It's already evening and I'm exhausted. I go to bed and try too sleep. But I can't. It's to hot insides I'm sweating. I finally get out of my bed and I decide to leave the hotel. I open the door and I'm outsides. It's sunrise. There is a bus and my car. I meet someone and he says to me, that I have to pick someone up in the city, where my university is and drive him somewhere to France.
I don't pay really attention. I'm in a bad mood. I just go in my car and drive away. While driving I'm wondering how I have to drive to get at the right place. I realize that it's impossible to go at this place so I drive to somewhere else.
In front of me are a few skyscrapers. They look really weird: They have terraces on the top and the buildings form a gigantic pyramid. Each roof-top is connected to another one and at the top of the highest building, there is a huge statue.
Suddenly I'm flying, but outside my car. I sit on a pillow. It flies higher and higher gets nearly to the highest building. I want to catch one of the hundreds stairs on a roof-top, but my pillow flies away without me.
I start to fall. I get a strange feeling. I feel that I'm lying on something, although there isn't anything. I realize that it's impossible for me to fly in real life and that it's unrealistic that I'm falling from the sky. I'm glad that I realize it, because I had begun to panic a bit because I'm falling from so high.
BUT everything gets directly dark and I awake
I have my eyes closed. I start to imagine to fly in a rocket and I'm saying in my head: "You gonna re-enter your dream and you will manage to stay lucid". I repeated it several times.
BUT something strange happens: I suddenly hear my brother's voice in my head. It says: "That isn't going to work!". I began arguing with this voice who came from my subconscious. I thought : Shut the f*ck up !"
I' m in a completely other place. I'm in a late night show. I don't realize that I'm dreaming and simply listen to the speaker. He's explaining how it's possible that people think that Michael Jackson is still alive.

The End.
Don't forget to KEEP IT UP!

October 15, 2010

Just pay your optometrist in meth (DILD)
The furthest back that I can recall, I was making a whack of purchases that I knew I shouldn't be making because I'm tight on hours this month. But regardless, I was buying, and I was paying outright - not using the good old credit card (it was conveniently missing from my wallet when I checked for it).

I decided to go glasses frame shopping (something I need to do IWL, soon), because now seemed like a great time to be making expensive purchases

I went around to a few different stores, trying on frames. I wanted something specific. Thick frames with a red tint to them. I wasn't finding anything, and they all looked rather horrible on me.

I went to this one last place, where its so expensive that the staff actually makes an effort to remember your name. And they knew me, so I guess I've been there, before. I told them I'm just frames-shopping, because my prescription is out of date. They set up an optometrist appointment for me.

Then, I was sitting in a room with a DC-friend, admiring his dark green, shoulder-length hair. He had some plastic bags and a bottle of pills and told me I could just pay my optometrist in meth. I thought he was joking, and asked, "Hah, but you're not serious, right? That's not really meth!"

"No, it is," he assured me, oblivious to the ludicrousness of the idea. He probably does some himself.

"We can't give my optometrist meth!!" I exclaimed.

So we gave it to someone else. Some rich adversary living in the imposing mansion on the top of the hill (kinda like Mr. Burns' accommodations in the Simpsons). The dream switched to the adversary's point of view, and he's holding the bag, talking to his accomplice. He knows what it is, and devices a plot to use it back on us. Invite us over for dinner and ground it up into our food.

Back to me, and I was aware of his plan. But I was also alone now, riding a bike down a forest path, away from the mansion. It also occurred to me that Mamoru (I randomly decided to call the DC that, I guess) was still back at the mansion. "He's probably been taken prisoner, I need to go back and save him!" I stopped at the bottom of the path and looked up towards the mansion, and the arduous up-hill path to get back up there. "Good thing this is just a dream, so I can just fly back up there." (Got to love those "I only became lucid so I wouldn't have to walk back up a hill" realizations!)

I transformed, and pushed off the ground. I was in the Eternal Sailor Moon form, which has wings, so flying wasn't an issue at all. I saw guards patrolling the grounds. This one chick, all in blue (a sorcerer of some sort) saw me, and flew up to me. She tried to bind me, using my own sailor uniform : I un-transformed, so she lost her advantage, re-transformed quickly, and blasted her with one of my weapons (the eternal tier, but I didn't use a power-name. Just as well, the power names got long and ridiculous sounding in Sailor Stars). I located the room Mamo-chan should be in, and went through the window... woke up.

4/12/10

Last night I went to bed around 3:30 am and woke up around 6:00 am for school. I have a type of insomnia where I just have no drive to sleep and can't get my self to lie in my bed regardless how tired I am. So today in goverment class I decided to take a nap because I already knew what we were talking about. I lie down and slowly drift off to sleep over the sounds of my teacher talking. All of a sudden i'm in my old neighborhood in wisconsin. I'm with my friend Joel and his brother Micheal. Were sitting around his driveway drawing with chalk. The pictures are removable and were eating them and throwing them at each other. I have no idea what they tasted like but for some reason I think they would have tasted like chocolate cake with chocolate icecream on top. I look at Micheal... to me none of this makes sense. But then I almost let the dream retake over and just keep going with the flow. I think to my self what harm will it be just looking at my hands once. So I look down fully expecting them to be completly normal but their not! My fingers were allll messed up and had multiple spots with random fingers popping out. Also some of them were connected. I felt this huge surge of energy flow through me! Like i've accomplished my wildest dreams. It was an amazing rush and got me wayyy to excited. In the middle of the dream picture a white dimond appeared. It was as if some one was cutting a snowflake into my dream picture. I could hear my teacher talking again but i was still half asleep. I knew I lost lucidity and failed to DEILD even though i did everything right. My teachers voice was distracting me but im still very happy about it!


-Zerk

I was in a house that clearly isn't my waking life house, and in the dream I knew perfectly well it wasn't my house, but I didn't realize I was dreaming. I thought I was over to visit some friends for the day, and that would explain that there I was somewhere I have never seen before IWL. I was sitting in the living room on a comfortable couch, looking around the room, waiting for someone. My mind wasn't completely clear, so I just stayed silent and I was hoping I would remember what I was waiting for before I ended up making a total ass out of myself. There was a bowl of cheese dip and a bowl of chips on the coffee table, I decided to try some, so I dipped a chip in the cheese dip and ate it. The cheese dip was on a warmer, so it was warm, and it was very good. I was sure my friends wouldn't mind if I helped myself to a bit, so I ate a few more chips… then I found myself wishing for something to drink… which I also found in a cooler beside the table, so I popped a coke and drank some. I was beginning to wonder if I might have been forgotten, but finally someone came down into the room and greeted me.

I looked over towards the stairs as I heard people coming down, and then they came into view. Serena, followed by Vegeta, then the twins, Gene and Amanda. Serena led the kids over to me, they both looked like they were about 12 years old… was that right? I couldn't think if that was right or not… Both the girls were in bathing suits and had towels, it looked like they were all ready to go to a beach or a pool, and they seemed excited to get there. Serena pointed at the one girl in the blue suit and said that one was Amanda, and the one in the red suit is Gene, don't get them confused, they don't like that. I made a point to remember Amanda was in blue and Gene was in red, though I couldn't think why I would need to know that since I'm not usually around them that much. Serena was thanking me for agreeing to take the twins on an outing today, maybe she could steal some alone time with Vegeta for a change. Wait… take the twins on an outing? When had that happened? Where was I supposed to take them? I'm no good with kids… Serena saw the puzzled look on my face and said I was dreaming, and I had agreed to take Gene and Amanda to the water park along with MoSh, Asuka, and their kids. I did a nose pinch RC, and I realized I was dreaming.

I still didn't remember actually agreeing to taking the kids to the water park, I just remember Q suggesting I might want to do that so all of the kids could get together again and have some fun. He had said I could take advantage of the situation and also have some fun. I figured Q had probably agreed to this for me, but I wasn't going to argue about it, I didn't want Amanda and Gene to think I was trying to worm my way out of spending time with them… even if maybe I would have been…

So the twins and I went outside to where Q was waiting, he said he had found a very nice place for MoSh, Asuka, Kaomea, and their kids… the youngest named Michele, Shel for short, a girl named Chantaral and her brother Alenard, and Shawna, of course, to enjoy themselves without being bothered by anyone. He said he would personally make sure we didn't have any unwelcome guests, but since there were several of us there, he didn't think that would be a problem. Q opened a portal and waited for the twins and me to go through it, then he followed us through and closed the portal behind us. He pointed over to a really nice area with a crystal clear pool of water, I couldn't see it very clearly yet, but I could hear splashing from over there. Q said to go and enjoy ourselves, he said everyone deserves some R & R sometimes. With that, he disappeared.

I went over towards the pool of water, the twins went running ahead of me, yelling something about the last one in the water was a Britron turd… whatever a Britron was… they tossed their towels aside and jumped right into the water. I went over to a small beach area and found the only people there were MoSh, Asuka, and Kaomea, and they were all sitting together and chatting while watching the kids in the water. Asuka had a small child with her who was no doubt Shel. They seemed a bit surprised at having someone else arrive, but then they turned and saw me there, and smiled. I was wondering if I might have a strange reaction to Kaomea's energy again… but I wanted to test that, so I went right over to Kaomea and the other two. While I was talking, saying I had brought Vegeta's twins Gene and Amanda with me so they could all play together, I was feeling around to sense what might be unique about Kaomea's energy. I was feeling a bit disoriented already, so I felt around a bit more carefully, and I could clearly see an irregular frequency there. My Penticon computer implant checked it and said this frequency wouldn't cause any problems for either dark energy users or light energy users, just someone who uses both. The computer said it had run simulations (that was fast) and found this frequency passes harmlessly by someone using either dark or light energy, but with someone who uses both, it causes the two energies to mix in such a way that they cancel each other out… thus leaving little or no energy behind. The computer reported that could easily account for my inability to use spells when I had been fighting demons with Kaomea. And it would also account for the difficulty Walms had been having with his powers lately since he had gotten this frequency through Asuka, who had gotten it from merging with Kaomea. The computer said that all that is needed is a technique to channel this frequency through without mixing the dark and light energies, the technique is simple, and after using it for a short time should become automatic whenever it is needed.

My lucidity was still a bit too lacking to quite understand all of that, but after I waited for a couple minutes while hearing what I should focus on… a narrow channel through myself to keep the strange energy from mixing… any disorientation left me and I felt fine. I turned towards Kaomea, "HA!" I said, startling her, MoSh, and Asuka into silence, "Your energy trick won't work on me anymore! I am now immune to your energy nullification effect," then I did a very bad imitation of an evil laugh, which made everyone laugh. I faked looking hurt, saying people aren't supposed to laugh at my evilness… but then I started laughing, too. Kaomea asked if I meant I had found a solution to the way her energy affected mine, and I said yes, I had, so there was no longer anything to worry about… or at least there shouldn't be. I told her she would still want to keep her distance from Walms until he either learns this technique or comes up with one of his own, though, as well as anyone else we meet who uses both dark and light energies that is an ally. Kaomea said Vegeta seems to use every kind of energy she has ever heard of, and a bunch she has never heard of, and a few she didn't think could possibly exist… Serena said Vegeta is unique.

So now we all spent some time having fun at the hidden springs. There was a large waterfall that concealed a hidden cavern, and in the cavern there were several piles of sparkling crystals. It didn't look like they could have ended up there on their own, so I wondered if someone else had collected them there. There were also several streams flowing into the pool from a hill on the far side of the pool. The streams flowed over some rocky ground, but the water was moving at a quick rate, and it was perfect for riding tubes down into the pool as if they were waterslides. The longest one was quite a ride from the top until it got to the bottom… I saw Gene and Amanda using pieces of wood as surf boards, and riding those down the water slides… it looked like they were having fun, and soon the others were doing that as well. I spent some time playing with the kids, lying out relaxing, and exploring the place before I finally woke. This turned out to be a very relaxing dream.

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
Another awesome, higher-level lucid, but again I managed to completely forget about my dream goals. Although I did have fun with a fire/steel ball.

I was in an airplane. However, this airplane was very spacious; the ceiling was at least twice as high as that of a normal airplane, and it was at least three times as wide. The flooring was hardwood and the seats were against the left and right side of the plane, facing towards the middle, which left a lot of space in the center for people to get up and walk around (the individual seats themselves were identical to those in a real airplane). The inside walls were the same, too: slightly beveled and off-white, with tiny rounded windows.

The airplane was about forty feet long. One end of it just became a wall, but the other end was rather bizarre: it turned into a balcony that overlooked the inside of a house, more specifically the first floor. The square tiling of the lower level's floor was shiny, golden-colored. There was a set of stairs just wide enough for two people to walk down simultaneously, and it went straight down into a large room with the same gold tile flooring. I walked around for a bit and looked down the stairs. [B]I turned around again and suddenly became lucid. I walked towards the left side of the plane, to where a bunch of chairs were lined up against the wall, and looked out one of the small windows between the spaces of the chairs.

Outside there were clouds and sky. The scenery had changed from the plane being a part of a house to it actually being in the air. I turned around and the plane was sealed up, no more house or stairs. I saw a curtain closed on that end, pale, darker maroon like some airplanes have up near the front to divide the passengers off from the captain's quarters. Then I looked back towards the chairs and backed up a bit, against the wall. I held my hand out, cupping it slightly, and expected a ball of fire to appear.

I didn't get a ball of fire. Instead, I got an intricate ball made of flat steel triangle links. All the links were curling around each other and interlocking to form a steel ball. It looked like one of those three-dimensional puzzles that challenged the person to try taking it apart and putting it back together. At first it was tiny, but as it grew to the size of an apple within seconds, I could see the shape of the links better. I then envisioned fire appearing around it, and it did. It was a sort of fiery film that looked realistic, but trapped within an invisible sphere surrounding the links. The fire wouldn't come outwards. I pulled my hand back and shot the ball at the wall of the airplane, but as it flew straight through the air (not arcing like a ball), it grew smaller and smaller until it disappeared entirely. "Crap," I said, because I hoped it would have blasted a part of the plane. I didn't "expect" it to destroy part of the plane or visualize it, though, so that was probably why it didn't work.

Then the dream faded away. I ended up having a false awakening where I attempted a DEILD, and I became stuck in what I believed was intense sleep paralysis. My eyes were closed, but I could somehow still see, and I felt like someone was typing with their fingers on my right arm, which was dropped over the edge of the bed. I changed my breathing pattern, hoping to escape the "sleep paralysis", and then I woke up for real in a completely different position, which confirmed I had really just been dreaming.

Note: I've been back to having some good luck with my lucid dreams lately, so I have been going ahead and making more plans for the night. Tonight I had planned to meet Tigress in a dream related to Fallout 3, and maybe meet up with MoSh in a dream to do something fun instead of having to fight something all the time. I also have been keeping in mind that I brought a kid back from another dimension, her name is Dela, and she's about 10 years old and is currently unable to control her dark energy. I wasn't sure if I would be getting everything I had planned actually done, but I would definitely give it a shot. I used my light / sound machine to initiate a WILD…

I was in the biodome, near the koi pond, sitting on the bench and staring out at the pond and watching the colorful fish. Since this was a WILD, I was already lucid, so it took me by surprise that I was far from alone there. There were people everywhere, though I didn't recognize any of them… I wondered if those were people looking for me to confirm I had seen them at the koi pond, but I figured that would unfortunately be impossible since there were so many of them there. I will take a shot at a couple brief descriptions, but I am not 100% sure of these memories… A woman, about 25 years old maybe, she had long blonde hair that was pulled back in a braid, she was wearing a long white top, jeans, and had a gold colored belt on… she also had some very interesting bracelets, gold bracelets with some very interesting patterns in them, one on each wrist, each one was about an inch wide. A man who looked about 19, maybe, he had short dark hair and was wearing a hat, a baseball hat that was blue, he had a black shirt on and some rather baggy jeans… Then there was one more person there that was cloaked in dark brown robes, looking like either a jedi or an Assassin, but due to the robes I couldn't see any other features. There were many other people, I remember no more details, though.

So I got up and searched around for a bit until I found Tigress, who was sitting a bit farther off down a path and playing with a small fireball, she looked bored. She asked me what had taken me so long, she had been ready to go for the past ten minutes. I confirmed that we were going to a Fallout 3 world, and then opened a portal while focusing on that goal, I focused on finding a Fallout 3 world where there was something interesting we could do. A portal opened, then both Tigress and I went through it.

We exited the portal into a desolate landscape that looked consistent with a post apocalyptic world, most of what I could see consisted of dead things and abandoned ruins. There was a structure not far off that looked like it was in use, I could even see figures moving around over there, so I figured that was where we needed to go. Tigress was clearly thinking the same thing, as she started off in that direction. I followed after her, getting a better view of the structure as we approached it. There were towers on either side of the main structure, and it appeared to be surrounded by tall fences or walls of some kind, the typical makeshift walls that are seen in Fallout 3. Tigress said to wait, she could take out those lookouts from there. She pulled a sniper rifle out of… um her ass? As I watched her pull the sniper rifle out I would have sworn she had pulled the gun right out of her ass. She took aim through the telescopic sight, and fired off four shots… I could barely see four figures falling, two from each of the towers… I wondered if they would be able to tell where the attack had come from.

We approached the structure, due to the lookouts being dead, they weren't getting the advance warning they would have normally gotten. We paused again a bit closer to the compound, where Tigress sniped a few more enemies off of the main building between the towers. We approached the compound where there were two guards outside the main gate, and for the first time I got a good enough look to see they were super mutants, I got that look just as they were dying from a sniper bullet between the eyes, along with one that was just inside the gate, and by that time I was beginning to wonder if there was really any point in my being there at all. I might just have to go find some more enemies so I would have something to kill…

Inside the gate, there were two ways to go, left and right, and both directions looked about the same. There was a guard visible in each direction, Tigress shot both of them with an assault rifle she had pulled out of her ass… then she said we should go right. I said she could go right, I would go left, or I might not get to kill anything on this trip. She looked at me strangely, then headed off to the right while I went left. There wasn't a shortage of enemies to that side of the structure, I was attacked as soon as I reached the corner where the first mutant had been, the mutant that ambushed me from around the corner got immediately sliced in half by my Witchblade sword. At least I was going to get to kill something now.

There was another enemy at the next turn in this path, he was firing a combat shotgun at me, or that's what I thought it was. I somehow instinctively knew where to move my Witchblade sword to intercept each of the bullets, which was proving very frustrating to the mutant since I was able to just walk right over to him and remove his head. I was being fired at from above, and I was able to block his bullets with my sword as well, I focused on it and adjusted the angle of my sword… and somehow managed to send a bullet back at him, which I knew wouldn't have been possible anywhere but in a dream… but for here it worked. There were four more enemies in the path I had taken, all of them got cut open and killed, then I finally met Tigress around the back side of the building.

We both went into the building, here it wasn't so easy for Tigress to snipe everything in sight before I could kill anything, so she was using a combat shotgun, I decided to follow suit since that is one of my preferred weapons in the game. We made our way down the main hall, taking out enemies that seemed to come from nowhere, they were coming from side passages which we were ignoring. There was a stairway at the end of the hall that descended down into the ground, where we took out the last couple of mutant guards and found there were a large number of prisoners. The prisoners were a mixed bunch, there were quite a few humans, some ghouls, and some that looked like the mutants but they weren't hostile, they seemed quite friendly. So we opened the prison cells and started letting the prisoners out, some of them seemed too surprised to move, others came out and were thanking us, still others were checking to see if the mutant guards were really dead. I guess the fact the heads had been exploded by combat shotgun blasts wasn't convincing enough.

I was thinking it might be time to get out of the place when I looked around and realized that the people checking on the mutants had not been at all concerned that their enemies might get up and start killing again, they had been claiming weapons from the dead mutants, and now they were aiming at the rest of us, one of them said something about getting a nice reward for this shipment of slaves… Those double crossing assholes, that immediately pissed me off, which was very clear when I shot a tendril of Witchblade out to pierce the throat of each of the assholes before they even realized what was happening. There were five bandit slavers, five tendrils from Witchblade, five surprised assholes grasping at gaping holes in their necks as they quickly bled out. This is the last scene I remember before I woke.

I believe that the dream I had last night was lucid. From what I can remember, I was in my friend's bedroom, in his apartment where I was spending the night. It appeared to be daytime, so the room was very well-lit. His roommate was sitting on the couch, which now had all of its cushions in-place, whereas in real life I had removed all the cushions to create a makeshift bed on the floor. But that isn't what tipped me off to the fact that I was dreaming. For some reason, what tipped me off was seeing my friend on the other side of the room getting clothes out of a laundry basket. There was no reason why that should have alerted me to anything, but I guess I remembered him having done that earlier and having no reason to do it again. I said out loud, "wait a minute, I'm dreaming, aren't I?" At this point, I decided to get as much done as possible before I woke up. The first thing I said was, "Okay, here's what we're going to do, we're going to ride dinosaurs." But as I was unable to get dinosaurs to appear, I changed my mind and said we were going to ride dragons. But then, deciding that that may be equally difficult, I turned to the couch, where my friend sat on the right and his roommate was still on the left. I told them to make out, and they did so. I was rather excited by how well this was working, but what made me feel uneasy was their total lack of expression or emotion. They had may as well have just been robots or something. I started to feel like I was making them do something against their will, and started to feel bad about it. Losing interest in this activity, I turned to the window. My friend was now sitting in the desk chair to the left of the window. His roommate was still on the couch. I said that one of them should open the window. Neither of them acted. I decided to be specific. I pointed to my friend's roommate, telling him to pull up the blinds on the window, and that I would think of something to do as I went along. He pulled up the blinds, and from outside it looked as though the room was several stories higher than it should have been in real life. I could see the top of a reddish colored tree near the parking lot. Everything else was a white light. Before I could think of something else to do, my friend began talking about something technical, something that I didn't understand and found very boring. I suppose I got distracted at this point and woke up.

Comment - Non Lucid - Lucid

My previous dream, which was a short lucid, faded to black and I find myself back in bed...

Clarity: 10/10 (surreal)
Importance: 8/10

Damnit, another short one. I want to turn around to grab my notepad but notice I forgot to RC. I perform the nose pinch RC and it works again.
Awesome, an FA, I can have another dream!
I get up and touch the wall. I want to see if I can move my hand through. I can easily get my fingers in, but for my hand I’d need a lot of force.
I’m in my old house, looking at a wall. (I didn’t notice the sudden scene change from one place to another)
That's right, I told myself to try flying in my last dream. I haven’t flown in a lucid ever since I was a child; it’s about time to do that again.
I search for a window to jump out of, but realize that it’s faster to just charge through the wall.
As I run through the wall, which only provided little resistance, I find myself floating in front of the house.
Awesome! This feels really nice. I look at the huge apple tree in front of me; it had been there since way before I was born. (It isn’t there anymore)

I notice that my perception is somehow different. I can see the detail of the leafs even though I’m still a good 30m away from the tree,
my eyes don’t have this much resolution. I’m amazed by this surreal vision and investigate further. It becomes better every second.
I cannot only see clearly in the centre of my field of vision, but everywhere else as well.
I realize that everything I see is not information provided by my eyes, but information generated by my mind;
obviously it does not need to follow the limitations of my eyes. I try to see past the spectrum of visible colors,
because I’ve always been amazed that some animals have can see a larger spectrum and can thus see much more vivid or even different colors.
It works very well, the contrast of my vision greatly improves and changes into what I can only describe as similar to hdr photography or hdr in 3d games,
except it’s not really down sampled to visible colors, I can actually see the much higher range of colors.
All of the leaves of the tree are so bright, they have a neon glow surrounding them, but the brightness is not blinding me.
The contrast between dark and bright is so high it's indescribable.

Suddenly I perceive a completely new color. The leaves are now a color... maybe between blue and green, but it's not cyan.
It’s the first time I’ve seen that color. I’m amazed how my mind is able to come up with a color I have never seen, this is so awesome!
After focusing on the new color, I try to figure out a way to describe it in my DJ, but I realize I can’t, there are no words for new colors.
It feels like this is the “real” color of these leafs though, seen without the limitations of the human eye.
Maybe I'm able to see into the UV spectrum, able to see 4 colors instead of 3, and the leaves are now a combination of green blue and ultraviolet?
I hover past the tree and look around, where should I go? I want to go to a place far away, and I want to fly faster.
A voice whispers “This should be pretty far” as I look into the sun. Yes, flying to the sun does indeed sound like a good idea, I wonder if I can go faster then the speed of light.
Thanks to my surreal vision, looking directly into the sun doesn’t hurt me. I can actually see the solar flares quite clearly.
As I want to start approaching the sun, suddenly, I nearly get hit by a huge object flying by… It’s a whole city; it looks a bit like Atlantis from Stargate except it has a square foundation.
What the… ? The dream suddenly ends.

Note: I remembered a bit more of this when I first woke up this morning, but I wasn't able to take notes right away, so I have lost a lot of the details. What I am left with is these fragments, which sucks, but I should know better than to let the notes go…

Gotta Get 'Em Separated
I was with MoSh and some other people on the top of a hill at night, I looked around and saw there was a gentle slope downward all around us, and I could see houses a bit farther off. I looked closer and I could see that I was there with MoSh, Nomad, and Asuka, though Asuka looked a bit odd. I thought for a bit and I remembered the goal for this night, it was to get Asuka separated from some nagual woman who had merged with her… I couldn't remember why this woman had merged with Asuka, but I did know Asuka hadn't agreed to it, so the idea was to get them apart so Asuka would be free of this. I was all ready to do my song spell, it uses the song Come Out and Play by the Offspring, which works perfectly for the line, "Gotta Keep 'Em Separated," but it turned out I didn't even need to do that. MoSh told the nagual woman to release Asuka immediately or we would force her out, and after a brief hesitation, she de-merged from Asuka with no resistance. I guessed I wouldn't need the spell after all. After she was separated, another man appeared, though I didn't recognize him. He shot dirty looks around at everyone, then created a wind storm which I wanted to fly on, it just seemed like the thing to do. I was floating on the wind, but the man and the nagual woman both disappeared, along with the wind, causing me to face plant on the ground… ow…

Angry Again
When I fell asleep this night I wasn't really in any better shape than a couple nights ago when I had been so upset, and I was, once again quite unstable. Somehow that had not interfered with the previous dream, for which I was glad, but I still had to get rid of it. So this dream turned out to be much the same as the dream from the night of the 13th, which I titled "Beware the Rage," in which I decimated an entire Templar base. The main difference for this dream was that I managed to enter the base more stealthily, and was able to make my way through the base much farther before getting caught. I managed to get into some highly classified areas by consuming and taking the place of select Templars, which I found to be quite interesting, I liked the fact I was somewhere they definitely didn't want me to be and they didn't have a clue about it. So I set off another Immortal Fire after they became aware of my presence. There were two key differences after the blast cleared, one was when I checked my energy I was not surprised to see a trace of Walms' energy still hanging around, and the other was that there was no one watching me this time. Maybe it was just a coincidence that someone had noticed the explosion and had come to check it out…

Cats, Cats, Cats
I was driving on a road I recognized, I was on my way home from school, but it wasn't the route I take IWL. It felt like the normal route in the dream, though. I saw a car pull over to the side of the road briefly, just long enough to toss a bag out and then they drove off. I was going to ignore that, but the bag was wiggling… which caught my attention. I pulled over and carefully approached the bag, I had no idea what might be in it, but then I heard it meow… I quickly went over to the bag, and I opened it, it was a plastic trash bag and I was worried that the cat in there would suffocate. I was wishing I had gotten the license plate number of the assholes who had tossed this poor kitty… I got the bag open, and a kitty came out… but not just one, there were so many kitties… more kitties than should have fit in the bag, and the cats just kept coming. My first thought was I couldn't leave any of the cats out there, but how would I fit them all in my car to take them home?!

Do I Look Like a Mom to You?
In this piece I was back in the area of my inner world with the girl I had brought back, I was thinking I really need a name for her rather than calling her 'the girl' all the time, so I finally found out her name… Her name is Dela. I was still in no shape to show her how to control dark energy, for some reason I keep ending up being in no condition to do that. She said I wasn't being a very good mother, I told her I am definitely not mother material. She said sure I am, all I have to do is try for a bit. But whether I like it or not, I was now her mother… how had I gotten myself into this mess? She still seemed to be intent on manipulating me, even though I had told her it wouldn't work, even though everything she had tried so far had all been epic fails, but we ended up doing a couple things that were fun, we went to a theme park and had quite a bit of fun there. Even though she has a bunch of unstable dark energy in her, it seems she is still a child in that she likes to have fun.

Note: The rest of this night was extremely fragmented, I'm afraid this was the best I could get from it.

Golden Healing
I was in the healing area of the biodome, or it could have been the healing glen, but if it was the healing glen I didn't see the Crystal Golem anywhere around. I was feeling a bit drained after my recent expenditure of dark energy, so I was a bit disoriented, but I was mostly lucid. I recognized the people there with me, I saw Basara closest to me, I also saw MoSh was there, but I couldn't think why they would be there… I had won against the Templars with no difficulty, had something happened that I needed healing? Well, even though I couldn't think clearly enough to remember why I needed healing, we all did healing spells… I was lucid enough to focus on my own healing spell… and the area filled up with a very relaxing golden energy, which caused me to fall asleep in the dream.

I Have a Kid Now?
In this one I was in the area of my inner world where the little girl I brought back has been staying, it is the little girl that everyone had accused of being a demon, but in fact she just was a hybrid energy user, meaning she has access to both dark and light energies, but she doesn't know how to control the dark energy… to keep it stable. That was resulting in anyone who threatened the girl or upset her in any way meeting with some rather gruesome ends, but the main reason for that was the girl didn't know control. So I was in the area with her, she was in a nice house and met me at the door. The first thing she did was to start complaining about how it is not right for me to have left her alone for so long, and these mindless drones don't count as companionship… apparently she had easily identified the DC's for what they are. So she was trying to use various things to manipulate me, to get me to do what she wanted me to do, but that wasn't going to work since I already know what is going on with her. What I needed to do was try to show her some stable dark energy, but I was feeling too drained of dark energy to do that right now, so instead I spent the time trying to get to know more about her and she spent the time trying to find ways to manipulate me, both of us met up with epic fail.

Flying Lessons
I was in my house with my mother, and we went out onto the back porch to enjoy the weather, which was very pleasant this time of year in the desert. There was a wind blowing, and it seemed to be getting stronger, but that didn't bother me at all. Somehow I was spontaneously lucid in this one, so I already knew I could fly, though the idea seemed to upset my mother quite a bit. I told her it was a dream, she could fly too if she would just try, but she seemed hesitant to try it. I finally took her hand and pulled her up into the air as if she was weightless, which she is definitely not, but now we were both flying over the desert, over cactus, over homes… it was a really good view from up there. My mother seemed to want to go in a specific direction, but it turned out she was just trying to get to the local gym, apparently she wanted me to get exercise. I told her there was no need for that in a dream, but we went inside the gym anyway. There were many exercise stations, but the machines were missing from most of them, so there wasn't really much exercise to be done there. That didn't bother me at all, I just wanted to fly some more.

#967:
Date: (Approx.) October 10th, 2010
Length: 5 minutes

It's another zombie apocalypse. I begin the dream in a large, fortified bus with a bunch of people from my family. We drive down a bunch of roads until we finally reach a coastline. We roll down the beach until we reach a sort of military encampment which is apparently one of the few human settlements remaining. There are many white tents, and as we drive into the camp, people are impressed that we've survived on our own for this long.

We don't stay for more than a few moments though, I think because we realize that whoever is running this camp has some kind of sinister motives. In particular, we notice a sort of symbol on the side of buildings and vehicles that looks like "^^^^", and it makes us very suspicious. We end up in a sort of city, and we stop at what used to be a restaurant, looking for food to scavenge. My recall is a bit blurry at this point. I think we find some guns inside the restaurant, and then someone appears at the door. At first we think it's a zombie, and immediately take aim with our rifles. It turns it's a human though, and we all end up sitting at a table and talking.

Big jump here, I somehow end up in a kind of massive factory, and I am being taken to an audience with the factory's owners (I think the guy from the restaurant told me to go here). After taking an elevator, I enter a large, Japanese-style room, and stand in the middle of the large carpet that spans the room. After a few moments, I am surrounded with a bunch of vaguely human-like cats, who are apparently incredibly wise and think I'm some sort of chosen one. I try to talk with them and explain that I'm nothing special, but they speak a language I don't understand.

For a while I'm really confused, as the cats are all saying many things and I have no idea what is really going on. Eventually, I try to just relax, and I think I slowly start to understand what they are saying, despite not knowing their language. They begin some sort of chanting, and I start floating in the air. I just try to roll with it and wait. Unfortunately, I don't remember much of what happened after that.


#968:
Date: (Approx.) October 8th, 2010
Length: 3 minutes

It's night-time, in some sort of suburban neighborhood. Apparently, I'm "in" a sort of horror movie, and I sort of know it, so while everything feels real, I also have some notion that it isn't, if that makes any sense. Anyways, I'm outside with a group of 4 people, one of whom is Mel Gibson. Armed with a few guns, we're on the hunt for some kind of mysterious animal who has been wreaking havoc (maybe killing people?) in the neighborhood.

After walking around for a while, we spot a dark figure, which we assume is the animal. I think it runs away before we can kill it, and I think to myself that it doesn't look that dangerous. We decide to split up. I end up exploring some sort of log cabin with another person, and it's suddenly morning. The guy with me uses his walkie talkie to contact the others, but eerily, there's no response at all. Everything is suddenly very quiet and tense. There is a knock at the door right in front of us. I feel like something horrific is about to happen, so I get behind the door and try to block my vision, as if trying to ignore the movie I'm in. The guy opens the door, and there is nothing there but books on the floor. If I recall correctly, the books belonged to a little girl who had been killed by the animal, and for some reason it was quite scary that they were suddenly here (who brought them there?).


#968:
Date: (Approx.) October 15th, 2010
Length: 2 minutes

I'm walking around on campus, and I see a girl I haven't seen in years. I follow her, and see her go into a sort of deli I have never been to before. After a few moments I decide to go inside, but go in through the wrong door and end up in a kind of bathroom. There's a bucket with some food in there, so for a moment I wonder if this is the actual deli, but eventually conclude that it isn't. I go in through another door and find myself in a kitchen area, where an employee tells me this isn't the right place to get food. I go back outside and in through another door, which is the right one this time. I ended up admiring some of the delicious things for sale.


A fragment from last night: I was in an elevator with some guy, and suddenly it started shaking fairly violently. It barely reached the floor we were going to, and when it did, the doors opened but the elevator started moving again. We scrambled to get out of the elevator, and did, just in time, before it dropped free-fall to the bottom of the shaft.


Finally, a kind of funny and technically lucid dream from the other day. I woke up in the morning, having overslept already, but fell asleep again. When I did though, I ended up in a dream of getting out of bed, only to see my roommate hiding in a corner getting ready to jump out to scare me or something. I knew my roommate wasn't here IRL though, so I yelled out "NO!!', mad at myself for falling asleep again. I woke myself up and get out of bed, for real this time.

★★★☆☆

Work's still trying to kill me, but I think it's time to start posting in my DJ again. I've been writing in my paper DJ every day, but it's just not the same.

So here's the only lucid I've had in the last couple weeks.

10/06/10



I'm looking down at the ledge of a window, standing on top of a platform. I stick my head through the window and look down at the ground. I want to keep moving, running, going somewhere, I don't know. I should really stop and stabilize. The scene is staticky, overlaid with a red filter.

I breathe, take a moment to watch the world around me. The moment ends, and I jump -

We're running. Non-human figures, all of us, made of light, each an almost pure, bright colour. One is bright red, an orange glow streaking out from the center, like fire. Another is white with gold rays, woven through with colourless threads. Another gives me the impression of a stormy sky and the smell of ozone. I have no sense of myself, but I don't have a body. I just am, and I'm interacting with the others - we take the shape of wolves and run across the sky of the prairie below.

Mzzkc and I communicate.

We're dream-sharing, says one of us. Do you want to try a password, see if both of us remember it?

Q and K, says the other. That's the password.

Hard to remember, says the first. How about 'quark'?

I try to wake myself up so I'll remember it, but I go spinning into a dream I won't remember.

Scare Factor: 2/10

Note: When I fell asleep tonight, I was feeling like shit… that tends to happen when I keep having it shoved into my face that people I thought were friends really place absolutely no value on me at all… so I was pissed off and depressed at the same time, which was making my dark energy go quite unstable, and I had to get rid of that issue… so my WILD was used on getting rid of that unstable dark energy on the most readily available target, the Templars.

I was in a long hallway, and I was lucid, and I also had a good idea of where I was. I was right where I had intended to be, which was in one of the many hidden templar bases on the astral and dream planes. I wasn't feeling any better now than I had been when I had fallen asleep, my energy was no more stable than then… and yet I didn't really feel like I was in danger of losing control. I knew where I was, I knew who I wanted to direct my unstable energy at, and I had no urge to direct it anywhere else or at anyone else. I wasn't even feeling like I would rather be directing it at the people who had caused me to go unstable in the first place. While it seemed to me that the instability of my dark energy was a bad sign, it also seemed to me that the fact I felt in control of how I released it was a good thing, a sign of progress…

So now I walked down the hallway, I was still feeling angry and unstable and a bunch of other things, but it wouldn't be long before I found a target… and there was a target on their way to meet me now! I saw a Templar walking down the hallway towards me, he didn't look like one of the soldiers, he was dressed in white clothing with the red Templar symbol on it. He looked up and saw me there in the hall, and he looked quite surprised to see me. He walked quickly up to me and asked me who I was, he demanded to know what I was doing there. I decided I would act even crazier than I felt, I thought his reaction might be amusing, so I grabbed the surprised Templar by the collar and demanded to know why he was wanting to write me off like some piece of shit… he looked at me with a very confused look, said he had absolutely no idea what I was talking about, so I got mad at him for pretending he didn't even know who I was. I said he knew exactly who I am, and he had better show some respect, because I am worth over twenty of him, the worthless sack of pathetic shit that he is… He told me he didn't care who I was, and I had better get out of the restricted area before I found myself confined to a nightmare where a vulture was perpetually pecking… I said I didn't need a nightmare, looking at his face was a nightmare, of course that must make it a horrible nightmare to have to look at that face every time he passes a mirror. He was mad now, and upset, and a few other things that made him look very comical, he went to the wall and pulled a lever that activated an alarm. I had seen him going for it, and allowed it, because I wanted a bunch of Templars to kill.

I didn't have long to wait, I could hear the approaching Templars, I decided to go with my Alex Mercer archetype, sometimes that can be very amusing, so before they could arrive I grabbed the Templar who had pulled the alarm and consumed him, taking his energy and his form. Shortly after a group of Templars came from both directions, surrounding me in the hall, but of course they didn't recognize that I wasn't one of them. They all began looking around in a confused manner, asking me where the intruder had gone, what was with the alarm, and a bunch of other questions they weren't giving me a chance to answer. I decided to continue picking off Templars for as long as I could get away with it, by getting behind them and using the stealth consume that I have seen Alex Mercer doing on the game. I managed to consume five Templars before I got sloppy and let one of them see me. Oh, well, I was getting tired of the covert thing anyway, so now I formed my right arm into Alex Mercer's arm sword, and started cutting through Templars with it. My Witchblade armor blocked their attacks from getting through. Of course everything that was going on got the attention of still more Templars, who were coming and attacking from both directions in the hall.

As I was slicing through Templars, I was making my way slowly through the base until I found myself in a large intersection that looked like one of the central parts of the base, or at least that's how it felt. I thought this was a good place to make the final release of all the unstable energy I had left inside me. I decided to ditch the Alex Mercer archetype, so I focused every bit of unstable dark energy I had right now into one spell, and released an Immortal Fire of epic proportions, and there was a blast of dark flames extending outward from me in all directions, a huge explosion. After the blast was finally over, and the dust finally settled, there was no sign of the base any longer, in fact I was standing in a large crater where the Templar base had been just a short time ago… And I felt drained, like so much of my energy had just up and left me, but at the same time I felt a lot more stable. I did a scan on myself, examining the dark energy inside me to see what was there, it was all stable, and it was all of my own frequency… excellent… except for a tiny part… wtf? I examined the part that was not my own frequency… had someone infected me with something? Is that why I had gone unstable? I examined it closer, I was focused on that, and I finally recognized the frequency… it was Walms' What was that doing there?! Well, it didn't seem to be harming anything… I saw movement out of the corner of my eye, I looked over there to see who was watching, but in that instant whoever it was disappeared. I didn't get a chance to see. Who the fuck was that?! I was trying to figure that out when I woke…

Created a base with my gloves, they have the power to edit the environment.

put up a single snowball turret

Defended base from some kind of pig-things that walked on two legs, Dream characters. I opened the radial menu of my gloves, and select delete after I realize it will take forever to kill them normally, and they just disappeared.

Created several rooms inside the base, the one that I remember best is the game room.

woke up, still tired, fell asleep

fragmented memory of exploring a black and white chess floor hallway thing, I made a mental note of some sort of cave thing that went downward, and passed it. Found some stairs and some old guys voice is taunting me or something as I go up them. I either woke up, or the recall is gone.

Then later, possible dream re-entry point

I am in my base, My gloves, when I hold them up to the screen, show a yellow image of my hand, I held them both up, and it triggered a surreal experience, I was sucked into the monitor, everything turned black and white. I was told, Do not go to the ceiling, or you will be lost to the chaos. I looked up and there was just static for ceiling. I noticed that If I raise up my hands, I float upward. I turn a corner, and the wall in front of me is a giant mouth, It is telling me something, I can't remember now, something about the plane I have accessed, I think it might be a portal, so I try walking into it while it's still talking, everything distorts, the mouth is as solid as a wall, so I turn around, and start walking away. I accidentally raise my hands up for some reason, and float to the top. everything goes black and chaos-like, and I hear something along the lines of "I told you" or "You have been assimilated. then I woke up.

after I woke up, thought about my base, and thought about how awesome it would be to bring my friend to it, I fell back asleep, I think I Wild'ed, because I was lucid after this.

My base is in the middle of a giant complex, possibly a Labyrinth. I am in the game room of my base. I look around, one wall has 8 plasma screen televisions in a 2x4 grid, with a larger one on top of the grid in case looking at the television grid is too much for someone. I contact my friend, He said something about me having to go get him. I figured it wouldn't be such a big deal. (I did this next part automatically, so I'm just trying to make sense of the experience) I lifted my consciousness above the maze and looked for him, I noticed the underground caves that I saw in the previous dream and made a mental note of them. I saw my friend, and dropped my dream body in the same area as him. I asked if he wanted to see my base, and if he knew he was dreaming. he did, and he was, so I used the same process to set us both down in the game room. He said, "I've got to say, This is a really nice base!" he flopped on the couch and started playing the PS3. He said something about me not having a Wii, I replied that I have one in Waking life, so why would I need one in dreams? I asked him if he wanted to explore the caverns that I had spotted earlier, "Ehh..." he replied as he held up the ps3 controller. I figured playing was better than watching in a dream, so I picked up a controller and started playing with him.

We where playing some sort of 2D car game, pressing the left directional button would make your car inch forward, the faster you pressed it, the faster your car would inch forward. there was lots of really neat artwork in the game that made up for the lack of gameplay, I played for what seemed like 15-30 minutes before we got to a shop, I looked at the inventory, there where several items, but something told me to buy Phoenix feathers, but I woke up right as I tried to click "Buy."

Sigh... I'm not posting enough to make the lucids happen, but I still get a couple. Oddly, I got two in one night, so I figured I should reinforce that.

1. I'm just sort of walking through my house when I realize I'm dreaming. There was either no reality check or I've forgotten it. I enter my kitchen and try to do a couple of turn-summons for different things, but nothing seems to be working. In frustration I go and eat a banana; the authentic taste and feel at least affirms my lucidity. I remember flying through walls in my last lucid and try to do that, but I thud inelegantly against my front door when I try a running start. I just open the door instead and finally do get to fly. I notice two girls on my front lawn, but on closer inspection they seem to be versions of the same, Suzie N. I knew from high school. One is dressed in black, the other in white, and I figure "What the hell" as I swoop in for an aerial makeout. It lasts a few seconds before I fade out.

2. Recall is horrible, but I distinctly remember being lucid, once more in my own kitchen.