lucid

Lucidity: 7/10
Vividness: 6/10
Length: 20 Min.

I woke up and was looking at my bedroom door. I was completely lucid. And it was completely dark. Almost pitch black. Then someone came out of the shadows. It was a tall green cape with arms, legs, feet, etc. But NO head. That made me so scared. So while saying "no, no, no" a million times because I couldn't believe that I could have such a horrible nightmare.( I also tried to scream but nothing came out.) Got up. When I did I thought about it and he wasn't very scary. I imagined a piece of cloth on his head. And there was. Also that he had no means to hurt me. We shook hands and greeted each other. Then I was in a court yard and I was talking to some black guy. I can't remember what he said, but then someone else came in. Then we fought for some reason. While I was fighting I thought "wow, it's really dark here" and it was. It was creepy. For some reason I had a book or something and didn't want anyone to touch it. And of course he tried to touch it. Everyone did. By now I wanted to wake up, but decided I might be able to make it a better dream. So every once and a while someone would try to touch the book and I tried to stop them. Then someone did. I thought that the book would warp people to a different dimension. And it did. Then I went into that dimension. When I did I immediately looked around. I was on a long road. With weird things on the ceilings. And I was in a desert. Then someone said "look we already changed the store" or something like that, showing the store. Then it went back to my perspective. When it did I said "wow, this dream sucks" and stuff. Then I was on a field fighting over that damn book again. Sahara Winder fell over and looked hot. She was wearing sweat pants. So I went down to her and stuck my tongue up her ass. It didn't taste like anything and I didn't think about what was on it because I was dreaming. It felt exactly like one. The End.

non-dream - non-lucid - lucid

19-10-10 I am lying in my bed, I have been tossing and turning for a good hour and a bit. I get a couple of hits of deep relaxing sensations in my body. The last thing I do (at least that is what I believe) is to slip out of my bed and lie down on the floor (FA). It seems like my normal floor, even has the exact amount of clothes that needs washing there. I take a quick one-eyed peak, why is my sub woofer over there? (I don't have a sub woofer). Ok I am close to something I try and look some more, but it seems to destabilise the environment. I lie still a bit more. I risk it all open both my eyes and stand up, somehow there is not enough stuff in the room, but it really does look like my room. Right even the curtains have been left in the exact position I left them in. I RC by seeing if I can withdraw them with my mind. They flicker and I doubt no more. I need light to stabilise this. I pull the curtains all the way to the sides, I touch and couple of edges on tables and rub my hands.

Although a bit firmer it still could do with a bit of solidness, the dream does grow a bit brighter and I fly through the glass without breaking it. Cool at least some of my control is coming back. I find a flat to peak into, there is a picture on the window frame of Buddha (sort of a pagan version, with red war paint across his eyes) The flat looks funky lot of nifty little stuff, good amount of light and a DC sitting by the sofa table. I assure him that I just need a bit of time to stabilise my dream and I consider telling him it is all just a dream, but decide against it. After a while I spot a flat with a lot of red/blue light coming out of the window, but as this fades away I just fly through the wall to the flat I was just at. It works, so more control coming back. I really pay attention to how it feels going through and although there is a distinct sensation of going through there is no resistance. Cool.

I fly through another set of walls and find myself in some sort of tunnels, these somehow transform into a real-time-strategy sort of landscape and I think to myself how come I can't produce a real mountain landscape. I try to visualise this, but nothing happens. The RTS landscape turn into a tunnel style scene again and I can see some light up ahead. I fly toward it and find a hole in the wall too small for me to pass through, but I am confident enough to just pop through the wall again. I exit a little while later on a scene hat could have been Berlin in the wake of being carpet bombed during WW2. All the building have no glass, are missing some of the corners and it looks amazingly real compared to the RTS landscape I just bitched about, nice, maybe I need to just not try as hard. I fly up and around, and seem to be going really slowly with a bit of a height limitation, so I decided to try and fly backwards and it works amazingly well increasing the detail of the scene around me. I get entangled in some electrical wiring hanging overhead, which I laugh about and quickly get out of. I wake up soon after.

Notes: It takes too much time to enter the dream (1 hour plus here). However I am unsure as to why my WILDs are so short. Do I disturb the sleep cycle by spending so much time awake and aware prior slipping into a dream again or is it a stabilisation issue? However I am pleased that my control seem to be coming back.

Oh and pardon the wall of text, but I am trying as much as possible to note every detail as my recall is a bit shaky atm

October 18, 2010

Synopsis: Abstract dream. Were escaped test subjects running from an evil doctor. Brief lucidity. Flying. Next dream, I try to rebel the system from within it.

Note: I was very sleepy after I woke up from my dream. Well, I didn't really wake up. More like, I was only half awake. I stayed drifting in HI for a few minutes before I remembered that I even had a dream. But by that time, what felt like a vivid dream was hard to recall.

Abstract Adventures
Me and a friend want to leave. We walk straight out of the house and into the parking lot. Waiting for us is a small helicopter. My friend makes me drive it! I'm terrified! I don't know how to fly this clunky machine. Once inside, my whole world turns upside down. Uh, literally. We crashed.

But were fine, and I think nothing of it.

It turns out we were so desperate to leave because were running away from this evil doctor! We were his unwilling test subjects for some sort of experiment. We run through suburbia, which was just abstract and weird. We reach a tower, and climb up its various levels. I don't remember much of the tower anymore, but I do remember on the top most floor was a witch conjuring up a spell. I didn't figure out who's side she was on.

Were on top of the tower now. The doctor has us cornered! But that's when I suddenly realize I'm dreaming. Lucid, I tell the doctor "were not going to run from you anymore!". Then I grab my friends hand and fly instead. I try to grow bird wings, but I don't know if it worked or not. My friend disappears. Common. Lots of DCs just up and puff away when I become lucid.

I continue flying and exploring my strange abstract dream, like giant cardboard boxes strewn together. I woke up after wards and fell into random HI for several minutes.

Thoughts: the tower was a spiral, a repeating pattern in my dreams for 2010. Probably not a coincidence that reaching the top made me lucid, since the spiral itself can represent consciousness.

Rebel from Within
Some evil corporation has everyone I know slaving away from them, in an all-generic-building. Oh, and these weren't regular people. They were scheming rats, like the rats from Nyhm. I had two choices. Slave away, or rebel. I saw what happens to people who rebel outwardly. They got locked away in some room, never to return.

I thought I could out smart the rats though. I'd work hard, earn their trust, learn more about their system. And eventually, I'd learn about their weak points and take them out when they least expect me to! Well, it sounded like a plan. Except that it's really SLOW.

Anyways, I never actually got a chance to rebel! Unless you count spying. I was spying on the big boss while mopping the floors. He had an assistant named Amadeus. Amadeus seemed like an honestly good rat, and it annoyed me the way the boss would say his name and call him for any little thing.

Thoughts: it could have something to do with me trying to overcome old habits. The process is slow, and you have to observe yourself.

Unusual circumstances on this night. Took B-Complex in the evening, about 5 hours before sleep. Didn't get to sleep until I was really tired. Woke up after just 3 hours of sleep to drive roommate to the airport. Was out of bed for about an hour total. Returned to sleep and had the lucid, technically in my third sleep cycle. The rest of the dreams were all very random, but more exciting then my usual boring dreams.

Rooms, Sprinklers, Flying
Lucidity C
Vividness B
Control D
0730: The beginning is jumpy and difficult to recall. I don't seem to have a dreambody, I'm just watching like a movie. It's in a house at a fancy dinner party. A few old people are talking about arranging to meet at a restaurant or country club. Then it's like a commercial. A young woman in a formal dress and hair styling peeks into the room and recommends watching a TV show. Someone asks, which TV show... Buffy? Then I recognize the girl as Alyson Hannigan from that show.

At some point, I sense that I have a dreambody and I am in the house alone. But maybe it has changed into my work office? I step into a room with tall windows all along the far wall. Sunlight is shining brightly through. The floor is grass instead of carpet! The grass is overgrown and spotted with weeds. I think to myself that someone in the office should maintain the grass. I think the new employee should have to do it as an initiation.

I walk out the side door of this room. It leads outdoors and now I am in the side yard of my old house on Daisetta. It's a narrow concrete strip that leads to the backyard. I walk to the backyard and it's fairly familiar. Except there are a row of short fake palm trees lining the lawn. They have big plastic bananas hanging from them and I think it looks really tacky. The sprinklers are on and they are really strong. The water shoots about 6 feet high and is soaking the whole yard, not just the grass. I start to think this is weird. But I don't want to get wet so I turn and run back into the door I came out of. In the Daisetta house, this should be the garage but it's still the room with grass. I notice the size of the room is about right for the garage though. Now sprinklers are on in here too! Ok, I really must be dreaming and I tell myself to do a reality check. I run through one more door to be out of the water.

I plug my nose and confirm I'm dreaming. Yay! I remember that it's been a long time since being lucid. I had a scene in mind but I'm not sure how to get there from here, so I go outside and just start flying toward the horizon. But my flying sucks! I can only hover a few feet off the ground and move very slow. Then I remember one of my cues to invoke the Superman schema: Lois Lane is in trouble and I have to save her! My flying gets a bit better. I'm flying faster and higher but still not great. I try to focus on where I am going. On the horizon, I see an ominous factory on top of a mountain. Lois must be trapped inside! Smoke is billowing out. Then I see an explosion. I sense the urgency and danger and try to fly faster. But it seems so far away. Discouraged, the dream fades.

Family and Old Acquaintances
0849: C. Very jumpy and random. At Daisetta house with the whole family. Mother hands me a book about politeness and etiquette. She says my father read it but doesn't follow it. I'm supposed to go to work but I'm staying home late. I'm dressed in a blue stripped shirt with matching shorts, which I think is weird. I remind myself to change into pants before leaving for work. Then talking to my sister and one of her friends. Then I get a message on my Xbox from someone with initials C.C. I struggle to think who that is. At first I think of Sean, but that's way off with S.F. The closest I can think is E.B., Erinne from high school. I turn and see her in the room at an impressive desk. She's dressed nicely and looks like a lawyer or executive. I ask if she knows who C.C. could be. She asks me what her own phone number is. I'm confused. Do you mean your non-cell phone number? I pull out my phone to look. See calls her own house and talks to her housekeeper. Then my mother brings a big slice of ice cream cake. My sister and I eat it with our hands.

Saving Private Ryan
1012: C. In a war setting. In a small troop, looking for someone like the movie Saving Private Ryan. We find him and he's really shaken up. He's the only survivor of a big battle. I let him use my phone to make a few calls, but no one answers. Then my phone rings with an incoming call, but it's a wrong number.

Speed Racer, Secret Mission, Rugby
1123: C. I start as a racecar driver. Feels a bit cartoonish like Speed Racer. But it's just my cover for a secret spy mission. I'm in a team of spies with me, Hugh, Leonardo DiCaprio, and maybe a couple other people. We are in some third-world country. I am reminded of the movie Spy Game (but DiCaprio wasn't in that one). Leo comes up to a fruit stand to make the secret exchange, pretending to buy a basket of fruit. But something goes wrong and we have to abort the mission and run away.

Then it seems to be years later. Hugh and I have returned to the same place. This time, his two younger brothers are with us. Maybe we have come to avenge Leo? We go to the same fruit stand. Some of our faces and Leo's are on "wanted" posters. So we send in the brothers because they are new. The vendor at the stand starts arguing with them. Things seem to go bad again.

Now I'm in the middle of a game that's a bit like rugby, but not quite. I sense that I am not good at this game. I'm on the team to fill a spot and I shouldn't interfere with my better teammates. But the ball comes to me and a run and kick a field goal. We win and I climb up on the uprights, which look like the big arch in Chinatown.

I am restarting my dream journal (for the umpteenth time!).

Fragments:

I am kissing a friend's girlfriend (LY) on a bed in a bedroom. It becomes very passionate, and we're just about to have sex when I stop and explain that I can't cheat on my current girlfriend. At that moment, MP walks in and shoots me a very surprised look. He leaves the bedroom as quickly as he entered and I feel embarrassed.

The above dream was really unsettling considering I've been in a relationship for 3 months. If anyone has any advice/opinion on this dream, or if this has happened to you as well, let me know.

Later, I am on a very busy street with lots of people. I recognize I'm dreaming (more like semi-lucid). I see a bridge, and I begin to pick people up and toss them over the side. I begin to flick my hands and people and things go flying in whichever way I point. One of the DC's exclaims, "you can do that?!". I see an analog clock and try to make the hands circle rapidly by closing my eyes and concentrating, but it doesn't work.

Awake, Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary made while writing journal entry]

[Fragment] I'm at junior high school, going to class and learning what my class schedule will be.

The next dream starts out like a documentary about Canada. In the dream, I remember that I visited a city in Canada once, and my strongest impression upon arriving there was, “Wow, I'm in a foreign country!” [I've never actually been to Canada. These are most likely straight-up false memories, but I also got the feeling when taking notes during my WBTB that they might possibly have been memories of a previous dream that I'd otherwise forgotten about. Weird.] According to the documentary, Canada has a “Mexico City,” a concentrated population center of Mexican immigrants.

The dream then shifts from a documentary to an episode of “The Red Panda Adventures” that involves all of Canada being hypnotized/brainwashed into hating a man with the last name of Campbell. I remember a long text document [don't ask me why a dream about an episode of an audio series generates a dream image of a text document] that goes on and on about what a despicable person Campbell is. At one point in the text document, there is a warped and twisted version of the Canadian equivalent of the Pledge of Allegiance that also mentions his name and says something bad about him. [I was curious, so I looked it up, and it turns out that there is no Canadian equivalent of the Pledge of Allegiance. My mind just made one up. Cool.]

Woke up at 4:00 A.M. at the end of a sleep cycle and needed the restroom, so I used it, then took a few notes on my dreams so far, then went back to sleep.

I'm in a really big library with white walls and lots of light wood. The word “dream” crosses my mind somehow. [I don't remember whether someone said it, or I saw it on a sign, or I was just thinking about it; I think it was probably the latter.] However it happens, it makes me realize, “Hey, I'm dreaming! I did it!”

I decide to try doing a scene transition. [I don't remember how I did it, but] I find myself sitting in front of a computer monitor, which is displaying a command prompt against a black screen. The program that's running is a text adventure based on the novel Watership Down. I can't do anything right in it – I try entering a couple of commands, but none of them make any progress. Even the inventory command yields a response that goes something like, “You can't have an inventory with only one!” It means that you have to have more than one rabbit in your party before you can check your inventory. I quickly discover that the program is tied to the computer's clock, and that if a certain number of seconds pass without the player making any progress, the program just gives you a Game Over saying something about how you just got eaten (you, the rabbit, in the game, that is). After I get this Game Over, I think: “I don't have to sit here and play this text adventure just because I ended up here. If I want to, I can get up from this computer and go explore the building.” So I do.

I'm still in the library, because that's where that computer is. It's near a second-story interior passageway that's open and more like a balcony, overlooking the ground floor of the library. I follow the passageway over to where it ends in a flight of stairs going down, then descend the stairs, holding on to the handrails the entire way to keep myself focused on and grounded in the dream, and to make sure it remains stable. It works. The whole time, I'm marveling at how the sensations of walking, descending stairs, and holding the handrails are exactly like they would be in reality. The stairs have handrails running up the middle of the steps, but they aren't parallel to the ones running up the sides of the stairs; they're at an angle, so I have to go through a narrow space between two handrails on the last few steps of the staircase. I say, “Why did I have to design these stairs this way?”

I exit the building, and am outside on a dream version of my college campus. It's sunny and beautiful, and all the buildings are big and white and slightly old-fashioned [in real life, most of them are various shades of brown, tan, or orange, and none of them date back further than the 1940s]. Also, the St. Louis Arch and another, light-brown arch with some words on it in black, marking the entrance to some area, are there. [I can't remember what the words said now, but there were two of them, they were the name of the area, and they both started with S.] I go, “Ahhh, it's so good to be here.”

I notice that the beach, with its light-colored, soft sand, is down at the bottom of the cliff. I decide to try something. I think to myself, “When I close my eyes and turn around, I'm going to be standing on that beach down there.” I close my eyes, turn around in a circle (not too fast), and then open them again. I'm now on the beach, not quite at the exact spot I had been shooting for, but pretty close. “It worked!” I say aloud.

I stand on the beach for a moment, but the waves suddenly start coming up really close to the cliff, so there's not enough dry sand left to stand on. I decide to spin around again to go somewhere else, but this time, I'm thinking, “Just take me wherever.”

[In retrospect, that wasn't a very good idea.] I end up on the porch of an old, slightly spooky-looking house made of wooden boards, that seems to be floating on the ocean. It's not abandoned, though – there is a couple living in it. Also, I now have a friend with me – no one I know in real life, just a random, unnamed female dream character.

I look out from the porch to the east at the surrounding landscape and see a world that is ending. The sky is filled with thick, solid black clouds, with streaks of bright red and orange here and there because the sun is rising behind them. The entire landscape is flooded, and a jumble of disconnected buildings stick out of the water here and there. Some of them are on fire, some are falling apart, and one is being ruled over by some sort of dictator, whose enormous figure I can see looming over the building and gesturing with his arms in a way that means “work, you miserable peons!”

The couple who live in the house we're at start talking to me and my friend. They say that we have to get back to safety by sailing back the way we came. I think, “But we didn't sail here! We teleported!” I don't say so, though. [I don't know why not. Either I didn't get a chance to say anything, or I didn't want her to know about my newfound teleportation abilities, I'm not sure.]

[From this point forward, my recall is a little less clear in that I remember all the scenes, but none of the transitions or connections between them.]

The next thing I remember is facing away from the house toward the west, where there is a sort of path leading away from the house, but it's made up of a bunch of vines (or tree roots?). I try to get to the other end of the path by spinning around and closing my eyes again, but this time it doesn't work at all. I say, “Okay, if we can't do that, we'll just get there the hard way,” and start climbing over the vines.

Somehow, I end up on the deck of a ship, and there are waves coming up onto the deck I'm on, over and through the metal railing to my left. One of them doesn't look very big (it's about the same height as the railing), but it breaks right on the deck I'm on, tilting the ship over but not capsizing it.

The next thing I know, my friend and I are being escorted through the flooded landscape in a boat. There is a tank-like, armored boat with lots of guns in front of our boat, and another one behind ours. I take it they're there for our protection, but I quickly figure out that they're mostly just there for intimidation, and they're not even doing a very good job of that. There are lots of dangerous things trying to attack us, including exploding police cars, but we and our boat are passing through all of them as if they were air. What's really protecting us is a magic spell, one which, I know in the dream, comes from the Incarnations of Immortality universe.

I'm on foot, indoors, running away from something. I run into what appears to be a bathroom. I wonder if the protection spell is still holding now that I'm off the boat.

[I'm not entirely sure whether these last two scenes were in this order, or the reverse order:]

I'm a student sitting in a classroom, on the first day of school. All the other student seats are full of preteen or teenage Japanese girls, but the teacher is white. She explains that all we'll do in her class is make these little hat/hair accessory things out of tissue paper, which must be very trendy, because many of the girls are wearing them in their hair.

I'm standing on some rocks in the ocean, near the beach. I'm still lucid, so I think, “Okay! Text-messaging! Task of the month!” I go to take my phone out of my pocket, but then think, “No, better not do that here – I don't want to get my phone wet.”

Woke up and was delighted to have had another lucid dream. While thinking back over it, I laughed out loud at that last part – I was concerned about my phone getting wet? It wasn't even my real phone! :-D Then again, I realized that that makes sense: my dream cell phone would have been just as damaged by dream water as my real one would be by real water. After all, that's what I expect will happen when cell phones get wet.

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Commentary:

Last night, I listened to about half of my binaural beats file at the beginning of the night, did a five-minute WBTB, did a lot of MILD affirmation and visualization both when I first went to bed and when I was going back to sleep after the WBTB, and had a new cardboard-square bracelet, one made with a smaller square of thicker cardboard than my first one, on my wrist the entire time. Something helped me have a really good, long lucid dream. I don't know what. How very unscientific of me, I know. I'm sorry, everybody.

On a more positive note, I'm getting a little better at this! I had more lucidity than ever before this time, and I thought about and actively tried out some dream control techniques while in the dream. I've moved out of the “what is this new world?!” phase now, and into a phase that can be characterized by these thoughts: “Okay, I get the idea of what lucid dreams are, but how do I shot web?” That is, I'm just starting to learn to use those dream control abilities. It was one thing to read about the spinning scene-change/teleportation ability, but as with most skills, now that I've done it for myself, I truly understand what it's like. Note to self, though: I should never spin around to transition to a new scene without first deciding what the new scene should be, because if I let it be random, I may not like what I get.

Boy howdy, I sure am adept at doing WILD techniques... But only when I'm already asleep! >:/ I'm wondering if there's a specific term for doing a WILD in a dream, or if it's considered a straight up DILD. Either way, this makes my second dreaming WILD.

Barring the details of my non-lucid (Fairly uninteresting, snowy street, jammed VCR I unjam, a movie with Leonardo DiCaprio.) I basically fall asleep in my dream and WILD. Though not as cleverly disguised as my first dream WILD, I still think how I can check that off on my October goal... At least for a moment, I realize fairly quickly after becoming lucid that I just dream WILDed. Anyway, I go through the motions of a WILD. Vague images, sudden feeling of acceleration, for a moment, I see a faint image of my kitchen and think that's where I'll be going in my dream.

Instead, I find myself just falling through a dark cloudy sky completely lucid. I wasn't scared at all (In fact, I can count on one hand how many times, total, I've been scared since keeping a dream journal, and all 3 are jump scares.). First thing I do is try to spin and change scenery, of course repeating I'm lucid, I'm dreaming, etc. Doesn't work, I notice my glasses are about to falloff from the wind of falling, I grab them and realize "I'm dreaming! I don't even need them!" my vision blurs every slightly but becomes clear again shortly after letting them go.

I try spinning again, maneuvering my hands in a way that would make me spin as I fell (I always fell feet first, and never looked up or down.). It works and i laugh joyfully as it does, i then think of stopping my decent by hovering, and slowly I do. I talk myself into it "Just slow things down...", honestly, it was very calming. Eventually I stop, and notice the sky has a very bright crescent moon, and it looks like it's on a giant dark blue wall in the distance.

I say to myself "Alright Zed, get ready for some dreaming.".

I then wake up. >;( I try to DEILD back into the dream like last time, but it doesn't work. (I suspect I was only in the void last time when I DEILDed back into my dreams.) Again, noticing the absolute dryness of my mouth. In total, I think I was lucid... Maybe a couple minutes? Certainly longer than my first dreaming WILD, but still not what I'd consider a 'Lucid dream'.

Still, it was interesting feeling the sensation of falling like that.

Hello
I'm really back on track with the whole lucid thing Only problem which stays is that I wake up after realizing I'm dreaming.

Vividness: 4/5
Recall:4/5
Hours of sleep: 7.6h

I'm in an hotel. I'm on a some kind of holiday. It's already evening and I'm exhausted. I go to bed and try too sleep. But I can't. It's to hot insides I'm sweating. I finally get out of my bed and I decide to leave the hotel. I open the door and I'm outsides. It's sunrise. There is a bus and my car. I meet someone and he says to me, that I have to pick someone up in the city, where my university is and drive him somewhere to France.
I don't pay really attention. I'm in a bad mood. I just go in my car and drive away. While driving I'm wondering how I have to drive to get at the right place. I realize that it's impossible to go at this place so I drive to somewhere else.
In front of me are a few skyscrapers. They look really weird: They have terraces on the top and the buildings form a gigantic pyramid. Each roof-top is connected to another one and at the top of the highest building, there is a huge statue.
Suddenly I'm flying, but outside my car. I sit on a pillow. It flies higher and higher gets nearly to the highest building. I want to catch one of the hundreds stairs on a roof-top, but my pillow flies away without me.
I start to fall. I get a strange feeling. I feel that I'm lying on something, although there isn't anything. I realize that it's impossible for me to fly in real life and that it's unrealistic that I'm falling from the sky. I'm glad that I realize it, because I had begun to panic a bit because I'm falling from so high.
BUT everything gets directly dark and I awake
I have my eyes closed. I start to imagine to fly in a rocket and I'm saying in my head: "You gonna re-enter your dream and you will manage to stay lucid". I repeated it several times.
BUT something strange happens: I suddenly hear my brother's voice in my head. It says: "That isn't going to work!". I began arguing with this voice who came from my subconscious. I thought : Shut the f*ck up !"
I' m in a completely other place. I'm in a late night show. I don't realize that I'm dreaming and simply listen to the speaker. He's explaining how it's possible that people think that Michael Jackson is still alive.

The End.
Don't forget to KEEP IT UP!

October 15, 2010

Just pay your optometrist in meth (DILD)
The furthest back that I can recall, I was making a whack of purchases that I knew I shouldn't be making because I'm tight on hours this month. But regardless, I was buying, and I was paying outright - not using the good old credit card (it was conveniently missing from my wallet when I checked for it).

I decided to go glasses frame shopping (something I need to do IWL, soon), because now seemed like a great time to be making expensive purchases

I went around to a few different stores, trying on frames. I wanted something specific. Thick frames with a red tint to them. I wasn't finding anything, and they all looked rather horrible on me.

I went to this one last place, where its so expensive that the staff actually makes an effort to remember your name. And they knew me, so I guess I've been there, before. I told them I'm just frames-shopping, because my prescription is out of date. They set up an optometrist appointment for me.

Then, I was sitting in a room with a DC-friend, admiring his dark green, shoulder-length hair. He had some plastic bags and a bottle of pills and told me I could just pay my optometrist in meth. I thought he was joking, and asked, "Hah, but you're not serious, right? That's not really meth!"

"No, it is," he assured me, oblivious to the ludicrousness of the idea. He probably does some himself.

"We can't give my optometrist meth!!" I exclaimed.

So we gave it to someone else. Some rich adversary living in the imposing mansion on the top of the hill (kinda like Mr. Burns' accommodations in the Simpsons). The dream switched to the adversary's point of view, and he's holding the bag, talking to his accomplice. He knows what it is, and devices a plot to use it back on us. Invite us over for dinner and ground it up into our food.

Back to me, and I was aware of his plan. But I was also alone now, riding a bike down a forest path, away from the mansion. It also occurred to me that Mamoru (I randomly decided to call the DC that, I guess) was still back at the mansion. "He's probably been taken prisoner, I need to go back and save him!" I stopped at the bottom of the path and looked up towards the mansion, and the arduous up-hill path to get back up there. "Good thing this is just a dream, so I can just fly back up there." (Got to love those "I only became lucid so I wouldn't have to walk back up a hill" realizations!)

I transformed, and pushed off the ground. I was in the Eternal Sailor Moon form, which has wings, so flying wasn't an issue at all. I saw guards patrolling the grounds. This one chick, all in blue (a sorcerer of some sort) saw me, and flew up to me. She tried to bind me, using my own sailor uniform : I un-transformed, so she lost her advantage, re-transformed quickly, and blasted her with one of my weapons (the eternal tier, but I didn't use a power-name. Just as well, the power names got long and ridiculous sounding in Sailor Stars). I located the room Mamo-chan should be in, and went through the window... woke up.

4/12/10

Last night I went to bed around 3:30 am and woke up around 6:00 am for school. I have a type of insomnia where I just have no drive to sleep and can't get my self to lie in my bed regardless how tired I am. So today in goverment class I decided to take a nap because I already knew what we were talking about. I lie down and slowly drift off to sleep over the sounds of my teacher talking. All of a sudden i'm in my old neighborhood in wisconsin. I'm with my friend Joel and his brother Micheal. Were sitting around his driveway drawing with chalk. The pictures are removable and were eating them and throwing them at each other. I have no idea what they tasted like but for some reason I think they would have tasted like chocolate cake with chocolate icecream on top. I look at Micheal... to me none of this makes sense. But then I almost let the dream retake over and just keep going with the flow. I think to my self what harm will it be just looking at my hands once. So I look down fully expecting them to be completly normal but their not! My fingers were allll messed up and had multiple spots with random fingers popping out. Also some of them were connected. I felt this huge surge of energy flow through me! Like i've accomplished my wildest dreams. It was an amazing rush and got me wayyy to excited. In the middle of the dream picture a white dimond appeared. It was as if some one was cutting a snowflake into my dream picture. I could hear my teacher talking again but i was still half asleep. I knew I lost lucidity and failed to DEILD even though i did everything right. My teachers voice was distracting me but im still very happy about it!


-Zerk

I was in a house that clearly isn't my waking life house, and in the dream I knew perfectly well it wasn't my house, but I didn't realize I was dreaming. I thought I was over to visit some friends for the day, and that would explain that there I was somewhere I have never seen before IWL. I was sitting in the living room on a comfortable couch, looking around the room, waiting for someone. My mind wasn't completely clear, so I just stayed silent and I was hoping I would remember what I was waiting for before I ended up making a total ass out of myself. There was a bowl of cheese dip and a bowl of chips on the coffee table, I decided to try some, so I dipped a chip in the cheese dip and ate it. The cheese dip was on a warmer, so it was warm, and it was very good. I was sure my friends wouldn't mind if I helped myself to a bit, so I ate a few more chips… then I found myself wishing for something to drink… which I also found in a cooler beside the table, so I popped a coke and drank some. I was beginning to wonder if I might have been forgotten, but finally someone came down into the room and greeted me.

I looked over towards the stairs as I heard people coming down, and then they came into view. Serena, followed by Vegeta, then the twins, Gene and Amanda. Serena led the kids over to me, they both looked like they were about 12 years old… was that right? I couldn't think if that was right or not… Both the girls were in bathing suits and had towels, it looked like they were all ready to go to a beach or a pool, and they seemed excited to get there. Serena pointed at the one girl in the blue suit and said that one was Amanda, and the one in the red suit is Gene, don't get them confused, they don't like that. I made a point to remember Amanda was in blue and Gene was in red, though I couldn't think why I would need to know that since I'm not usually around them that much. Serena was thanking me for agreeing to take the twins on an outing today, maybe she could steal some alone time with Vegeta for a change. Wait… take the twins on an outing? When had that happened? Where was I supposed to take them? I'm no good with kids… Serena saw the puzzled look on my face and said I was dreaming, and I had agreed to take Gene and Amanda to the water park along with MoSh, Asuka, and their kids. I did a nose pinch RC, and I realized I was dreaming.

I still didn't remember actually agreeing to taking the kids to the water park, I just remember Q suggesting I might want to do that so all of the kids could get together again and have some fun. He had said I could take advantage of the situation and also have some fun. I figured Q had probably agreed to this for me, but I wasn't going to argue about it, I didn't want Amanda and Gene to think I was trying to worm my way out of spending time with them… even if maybe I would have been…

So the twins and I went outside to where Q was waiting, he said he had found a very nice place for MoSh, Asuka, Kaomea, and their kids… the youngest named Michele, Shel for short, a girl named Chantaral and her brother Alenard, and Shawna, of course, to enjoy themselves without being bothered by anyone. He said he would personally make sure we didn't have any unwelcome guests, but since there were several of us there, he didn't think that would be a problem. Q opened a portal and waited for the twins and me to go through it, then he followed us through and closed the portal behind us. He pointed over to a really nice area with a crystal clear pool of water, I couldn't see it very clearly yet, but I could hear splashing from over there. Q said to go and enjoy ourselves, he said everyone deserves some R & R sometimes. With that, he disappeared.

I went over towards the pool of water, the twins went running ahead of me, yelling something about the last one in the water was a Britron turd… whatever a Britron was… they tossed their towels aside and jumped right into the water. I went over to a small beach area and found the only people there were MoSh, Asuka, and Kaomea, and they were all sitting together and chatting while watching the kids in the water. Asuka had a small child with her who was no doubt Shel. They seemed a bit surprised at having someone else arrive, but then they turned and saw me there, and smiled. I was wondering if I might have a strange reaction to Kaomea's energy again… but I wanted to test that, so I went right over to Kaomea and the other two. While I was talking, saying I had brought Vegeta's twins Gene and Amanda with me so they could all play together, I was feeling around to sense what might be unique about Kaomea's energy. I was feeling a bit disoriented already, so I felt around a bit more carefully, and I could clearly see an irregular frequency there. My Penticon computer implant checked it and said this frequency wouldn't cause any problems for either dark energy users or light energy users, just someone who uses both. The computer said it had run simulations (that was fast) and found this frequency passes harmlessly by someone using either dark or light energy, but with someone who uses both, it causes the two energies to mix in such a way that they cancel each other out… thus leaving little or no energy behind. The computer reported that could easily account for my inability to use spells when I had been fighting demons with Kaomea. And it would also account for the difficulty Walms had been having with his powers lately since he had gotten this frequency through Asuka, who had gotten it from merging with Kaomea. The computer said that all that is needed is a technique to channel this frequency through without mixing the dark and light energies, the technique is simple, and after using it for a short time should become automatic whenever it is needed.

My lucidity was still a bit too lacking to quite understand all of that, but after I waited for a couple minutes while hearing what I should focus on… a narrow channel through myself to keep the strange energy from mixing… any disorientation left me and I felt fine. I turned towards Kaomea, "HA!" I said, startling her, MoSh, and Asuka into silence, "Your energy trick won't work on me anymore! I am now immune to your energy nullification effect," then I did a very bad imitation of an evil laugh, which made everyone laugh. I faked looking hurt, saying people aren't supposed to laugh at my evilness… but then I started laughing, too. Kaomea asked if I meant I had found a solution to the way her energy affected mine, and I said yes, I had, so there was no longer anything to worry about… or at least there shouldn't be. I told her she would still want to keep her distance from Walms until he either learns this technique or comes up with one of his own, though, as well as anyone else we meet who uses both dark and light energies that is an ally. Kaomea said Vegeta seems to use every kind of energy she has ever heard of, and a bunch she has never heard of, and a few she didn't think could possibly exist… Serena said Vegeta is unique.

So now we all spent some time having fun at the hidden springs. There was a large waterfall that concealed a hidden cavern, and in the cavern there were several piles of sparkling crystals. It didn't look like they could have ended up there on their own, so I wondered if someone else had collected them there. There were also several streams flowing into the pool from a hill on the far side of the pool. The streams flowed over some rocky ground, but the water was moving at a quick rate, and it was perfect for riding tubes down into the pool as if they were waterslides. The longest one was quite a ride from the top until it got to the bottom… I saw Gene and Amanda using pieces of wood as surf boards, and riding those down the water slides… it looked like they were having fun, and soon the others were doing that as well. I spent some time playing with the kids, lying out relaxing, and exploring the place before I finally woke. This turned out to be a very relaxing dream.

Type: DILD.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

Notes:
Another awesome, higher-level lucid, but again I managed to completely forget about my dream goals. Although I did have fun with a fire/steel ball.

I was in an airplane. However, this airplane was very spacious; the ceiling was at least twice as high as that of a normal airplane, and it was at least three times as wide. The flooring was hardwood and the seats were against the left and right side of the plane, facing towards the middle, which left a lot of space in the center for people to get up and walk around (the individual seats themselves were identical to those in a real airplane). The inside walls were the same, too: slightly beveled and off-white, with tiny rounded windows.

The airplane was about forty feet long. One end of it just became a wall, but the other end was rather bizarre: it turned into a balcony that overlooked the inside of a house, more specifically the first floor. The square tiling of the lower level's floor was shiny, golden-colored. There was a set of stairs just wide enough for two people to walk down simultaneously, and it went straight down into a large room with the same gold tile flooring. I walked around for a bit and looked down the stairs. [B]I turned around again and suddenly became lucid. I walked towards the left side of the plane, to where a bunch of chairs were lined up against the wall, and looked out one of the small windows between the spaces of the chairs.

Outside there were clouds and sky. The scenery had changed from the plane being a part of a house to it actually being in the air. I turned around and the plane was sealed up, no more house or stairs. I saw a curtain closed on that end, pale, darker maroon like some airplanes have up near the front to divide the passengers off from the captain's quarters. Then I looked back towards the chairs and backed up a bit, against the wall. I held my hand out, cupping it slightly, and expected a ball of fire to appear.

I didn't get a ball of fire. Instead, I got an intricate ball made of flat steel triangle links. All the links were curling around each other and interlocking to form a steel ball. It looked like one of those three-dimensional puzzles that challenged the person to try taking it apart and putting it back together. At first it was tiny, but as it grew to the size of an apple within seconds, I could see the shape of the links better. I then envisioned fire appearing around it, and it did. It was a sort of fiery film that looked realistic, but trapped within an invisible sphere surrounding the links. The fire wouldn't come outwards. I pulled my hand back and shot the ball at the wall of the airplane, but as it flew straight through the air (not arcing like a ball), it grew smaller and smaller until it disappeared entirely. "Crap," I said, because I hoped it would have blasted a part of the plane. I didn't "expect" it to destroy part of the plane or visualize it, though, so that was probably why it didn't work.

Then the dream faded away. I ended up having a false awakening where I attempted a DEILD, and I became stuck in what I believed was intense sleep paralysis. My eyes were closed, but I could somehow still see, and I felt like someone was typing with their fingers on my right arm, which was dropped over the edge of the bed. I changed my breathing pattern, hoping to escape the "sleep paralysis", and then I woke up for real in a completely different position, which confirmed I had really just been dreaming.

Note: I've been back to having some good luck with my lucid dreams lately, so I have been going ahead and making more plans for the night. Tonight I had planned to meet Tigress in a dream related to Fallout 3, and maybe meet up with MoSh in a dream to do something fun instead of having to fight something all the time. I also have been keeping in mind that I brought a kid back from another dimension, her name is Dela, and she's about 10 years old and is currently unable to control her dark energy. I wasn't sure if I would be getting everything I had planned actually done, but I would definitely give it a shot. I used my light / sound machine to initiate a WILD…

I was in the biodome, near the koi pond, sitting on the bench and staring out at the pond and watching the colorful fish. Since this was a WILD, I was already lucid, so it took me by surprise that I was far from alone there. There were people everywhere, though I didn't recognize any of them… I wondered if those were people looking for me to confirm I had seen them at the koi pond, but I figured that would unfortunately be impossible since there were so many of them there. I will take a shot at a couple brief descriptions, but I am not 100% sure of these memories… A woman, about 25 years old maybe, she had long blonde hair that was pulled back in a braid, she was wearing a long white top, jeans, and had a gold colored belt on… she also had some very interesting bracelets, gold bracelets with some very interesting patterns in them, one on each wrist, each one was about an inch wide. A man who looked about 19, maybe, he had short dark hair and was wearing a hat, a baseball hat that was blue, he had a black shirt on and some rather baggy jeans… Then there was one more person there that was cloaked in dark brown robes, looking like either a jedi or an Assassin, but due to the robes I couldn't see any other features. There were many other people, I remember no more details, though.

So I got up and searched around for a bit until I found Tigress, who was sitting a bit farther off down a path and playing with a small fireball, she looked bored. She asked me what had taken me so long, she had been ready to go for the past ten minutes. I confirmed that we were going to a Fallout 3 world, and then opened a portal while focusing on that goal, I focused on finding a Fallout 3 world where there was something interesting we could do. A portal opened, then both Tigress and I went through it.

We exited the portal into a desolate landscape that looked consistent with a post apocalyptic world, most of what I could see consisted of dead things and abandoned ruins. There was a structure not far off that looked like it was in use, I could even see figures moving around over there, so I figured that was where we needed to go. Tigress was clearly thinking the same thing, as she started off in that direction. I followed after her, getting a better view of the structure as we approached it. There were towers on either side of the main structure, and it appeared to be surrounded by tall fences or walls of some kind, the typical makeshift walls that are seen in Fallout 3. Tigress said to wait, she could take out those lookouts from there. She pulled a sniper rifle out of… um her ass? As I watched her pull the sniper rifle out I would have sworn she had pulled the gun right out of her ass. She took aim through the telescopic sight, and fired off four shots… I could barely see four figures falling, two from each of the towers… I wondered if they would be able to tell where the attack had come from.

We approached the structure, due to the lookouts being dead, they weren't getting the advance warning they would have normally gotten. We paused again a bit closer to the compound, where Tigress sniped a few more enemies off of the main building between the towers. We approached the compound where there were two guards outside the main gate, and for the first time I got a good enough look to see they were super mutants, I got that look just as they were dying from a sniper bullet between the eyes, along with one that was just inside the gate, and by that time I was beginning to wonder if there was really any point in my being there at all. I might just have to go find some more enemies so I would have something to kill…

Inside the gate, there were two ways to go, left and right, and both directions looked about the same. There was a guard visible in each direction, Tigress shot both of them with an assault rifle she had pulled out of her ass… then she said we should go right. I said she could go right, I would go left, or I might not get to kill anything on this trip. She looked at me strangely, then headed off to the right while I went left. There wasn't a shortage of enemies to that side of the structure, I was attacked as soon as I reached the corner where the first mutant had been, the mutant that ambushed me from around the corner got immediately sliced in half by my Witchblade sword. At least I was going to get to kill something now.

There was another enemy at the next turn in this path, he was firing a combat shotgun at me, or that's what I thought it was. I somehow instinctively knew where to move my Witchblade sword to intercept each of the bullets, which was proving very frustrating to the mutant since I was able to just walk right over to him and remove his head. I was being fired at from above, and I was able to block his bullets with my sword as well, I focused on it and adjusted the angle of my sword… and somehow managed to send a bullet back at him, which I knew wouldn't have been possible anywhere but in a dream… but for here it worked. There were four more enemies in the path I had taken, all of them got cut open and killed, then I finally met Tigress around the back side of the building.

We both went into the building, here it wasn't so easy for Tigress to snipe everything in sight before I could kill anything, so she was using a combat shotgun, I decided to follow suit since that is one of my preferred weapons in the game. We made our way down the main hall, taking out enemies that seemed to come from nowhere, they were coming from side passages which we were ignoring. There was a stairway at the end of the hall that descended down into the ground, where we took out the last couple of mutant guards and found there were a large number of prisoners. The prisoners were a mixed bunch, there were quite a few humans, some ghouls, and some that looked like the mutants but they weren't hostile, they seemed quite friendly. So we opened the prison cells and started letting the prisoners out, some of them seemed too surprised to move, others came out and were thanking us, still others were checking to see if the mutant guards were really dead. I guess the fact the heads had been exploded by combat shotgun blasts wasn't convincing enough.

I was thinking it might be time to get out of the place when I looked around and realized that the people checking on the mutants had not been at all concerned that their enemies might get up and start killing again, they had been claiming weapons from the dead mutants, and now they were aiming at the rest of us, one of them said something about getting a nice reward for this shipment of slaves… Those double crossing assholes, that immediately pissed me off, which was very clear when I shot a tendril of Witchblade out to pierce the throat of each of the assholes before they even realized what was happening. There were five bandit slavers, five tendrils from Witchblade, five surprised assholes grasping at gaping holes in their necks as they quickly bled out. This is the last scene I remember before I woke.

I believe that the dream I had last night was lucid. From what I can remember, I was in my friend's bedroom, in his apartment where I was spending the night. It appeared to be daytime, so the room was very well-lit. His roommate was sitting on the couch, which now had all of its cushions in-place, whereas in real life I had removed all the cushions to create a makeshift bed on the floor. But that isn't what tipped me off to the fact that I was dreaming. For some reason, what tipped me off was seeing my friend on the other side of the room getting clothes out of a laundry basket. There was no reason why that should have alerted me to anything, but I guess I remembered him having done that earlier and having no reason to do it again. I said out loud, "wait a minute, I'm dreaming, aren't I?" At this point, I decided to get as much done as possible before I woke up. The first thing I said was, "Okay, here's what we're going to do, we're going to ride dinosaurs." But as I was unable to get dinosaurs to appear, I changed my mind and said we were going to ride dragons. But then, deciding that that may be equally difficult, I turned to the couch, where my friend sat on the right and his roommate was still on the left. I told them to make out, and they did so. I was rather excited by how well this was working, but what made me feel uneasy was their total lack of expression or emotion. They had may as well have just been robots or something. I started to feel like I was making them do something against their will, and started to feel bad about it. Losing interest in this activity, I turned to the window. My friend was now sitting in the desk chair to the left of the window. His roommate was still on the couch. I said that one of them should open the window. Neither of them acted. I decided to be specific. I pointed to my friend's roommate, telling him to pull up the blinds on the window, and that I would think of something to do as I went along. He pulled up the blinds, and from outside it looked as though the room was several stories higher than it should have been in real life. I could see the top of a reddish colored tree near the parking lot. Everything else was a white light. Before I could think of something else to do, my friend began talking about something technical, something that I didn't understand and found very boring. I suppose I got distracted at this point and woke up.

Comment - Non Lucid - Lucid

My previous dream, which was a short lucid, faded to black and I find myself back in bed...

Clarity: 10/10 (surreal)
Importance: 8/10

Damnit, another short one. I want to turn around to grab my notepad but notice I forgot to RC. I perform the nose pinch RC and it works again.
Awesome, an FA, I can have another dream!
I get up and touch the wall. I want to see if I can move my hand through. I can easily get my fingers in, but for my hand I’d need a lot of force.
I’m in my old house, looking at a wall. (I didn’t notice the sudden scene change from one place to another)
That's right, I told myself to try flying in my last dream. I haven’t flown in a lucid ever since I was a child; it’s about time to do that again.
I search for a window to jump out of, but realize that it’s faster to just charge through the wall.
As I run through the wall, which only provided little resistance, I find myself floating in front of the house.
Awesome! This feels really nice. I look at the huge apple tree in front of me; it had been there since way before I was born. (It isn’t there anymore)

I notice that my perception is somehow different. I can see the detail of the leafs even though I’m still a good 30m away from the tree,
my eyes don’t have this much resolution. I’m amazed by this surreal vision and investigate further. It becomes better every second.
I cannot only see clearly in the centre of my field of vision, but everywhere else as well.
I realize that everything I see is not information provided by my eyes, but information generated by my mind;
obviously it does not need to follow the limitations of my eyes. I try to see past the spectrum of visible colors,
because I’ve always been amazed that some animals have can see a larger spectrum and can thus see much more vivid or even different colors.
It works very well, the contrast of my vision greatly improves and changes into what I can only describe as similar to hdr photography or hdr in 3d games,
except it’s not really down sampled to visible colors, I can actually see the much higher range of colors.
All of the leaves of the tree are so bright, they have a neon glow surrounding them, but the brightness is not blinding me.
The contrast between dark and bright is so high it's indescribable.

Suddenly I perceive a completely new color. The leaves are now a color... maybe between blue and green, but it's not cyan.
It’s the first time I’ve seen that color. I’m amazed how my mind is able to come up with a color I have never seen, this is so awesome!
After focusing on the new color, I try to figure out a way to describe it in my DJ, but I realize I can’t, there are no words for new colors.
It feels like this is the “real” color of these leafs though, seen without the limitations of the human eye.
Maybe I'm able to see into the UV spectrum, able to see 4 colors instead of 3, and the leaves are now a combination of green blue and ultraviolet?
I hover past the tree and look around, where should I go? I want to go to a place far away, and I want to fly faster.
A voice whispers “This should be pretty far” as I look into the sun. Yes, flying to the sun does indeed sound like a good idea, I wonder if I can go faster then the speed of light.
Thanks to my surreal vision, looking directly into the sun doesn’t hurt me. I can actually see the solar flares quite clearly.
As I want to start approaching the sun, suddenly, I nearly get hit by a huge object flying by… It’s a whole city; it looks a bit like Atlantis from Stargate except it has a square foundation.
What the… ? The dream suddenly ends.