lucid

I woke up and checked my phone to see if I had more time to fall back asleep. Only to be shocked that it stated 1:51 pm. "This can't be" I said before checking to see why my alarm didn't go off. I began to panic, realizing that I am late for work and there was no way I'd make it to work early enough where no one would notice. "Something is wrong, this isn't making any sense to me" I continue to stare at the phone and decided to start looking around.

"This has to be a dream, it has to be. I don't care how real this feels, I know I must be dreaming" But still nothing would confirm or reveal itself to be an illusion. So I decided that I'm done with this and found any way possible to wake myself up so that I can check to see if I truly overslept or not. I closed my eyes and tried my best to wake up. It took awhile before anything felt like it was happening. I eventually woke up.

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Notable substances: ALCAR/Phosphatidyl Choline in the AM, two alcoholic drinks ~7PM, Galantamine after WBTB 3:30am


My recall finally felt decent tonight!

Dream 1

I’m watching Summit1G parachuting into a match of H1Z1. He’s falling in over a wilderness landscape, heading towards a massive bonfire with another ring of fire around it. As he descends a tracking rocket approaches him and he tries to dodge it as it circles back around over and over again trying to land a strike on him.


Now the view is of him on his PC in his room and he spawns pixelated grass around himself in the room. Someone outside the door says something.



Dream 2

I’m traveling on a very narrow dirt road going uphill (I think it’s on the same H1Z1 map, but this is a reality setting). It’s a single lane path and there are many people in front and behind me. The road curves around a large white object that resembles an airplane’s fuselage.

When I’m at the halfway point of driving around this object the corner of my bumper collides with it and I’m comically launched into the air ~100ft. I end up landing way up ahead on the road in the way I was traveling. I reach the end point of this road which is some sort of base camp or small town. There’s another single lane dirt road that goes back the way I came from.


There’s a chain link fence separating the roads from the town with a bunch of protesters on the side of the town facing the two roads. The protestors are demanding the option to be able to use either single lane road to travel back on, that it’s their right to have the option to choose whichever road they want to use for travel. There were some officials trying to work this out with them.


I walk past this and enter a building. There is a long hall in front of me and the ground is tiled like a bathroom, it feels like a liminal space (backrooms). I’m wearing a backpack.


My right boot feels like it was struck, when I turn around I don’t see anyone or anything that could have struck me.

I enter a doorway on the right and enter a bathroom, the same tiled floor continues. The first thing I see is a wall with a large mirror and three sinks in front of it. Beneath each sink is a waste bin which I interpret as makeshift urinals here. People are coming and going into the room as I observe this.

I decide not to use the waste bins so I go deeper into the bathroom, it opens up into a large room. It sort of resembles an office, except the ‘cubicles’ are about half a ft tall and the tiling covers them as well. And where desks would be in these cubicles are toilets.

I go up to one of these toilets to use and it looks ancient, almost steampunk-esque. I’m suddenly discombobulated and feel drunk. I stumble and my foot ends up in this toilet, which of course is full of crap.

I take my boot out right away and it’s filthy. As I slowly put my foot back on the ground I notice there’s a lady right beside me kneeling, almost like a nun. She’s ready with a rag for this exact scenario and begins cleaning my boot but I instinctively yank my foot away from her because of how nasty the whole scenario is and how degrading her position feels to me.

I say to her “Thanks but..” I look to my left and there’s this large, equally ancient looking rusty washing machine and continue “..I’ll just use this washing machine instead!”

I put my boot inside the washing machine and press down the safety button so the machine thinks the door is closed and turn it on. Water pours over my boot and cleans it.



Dream 3

I’m in a bathroom that is the size of an average living room. On the far end there’s a shower, sink and toilet. The tiling on this end extends out to the size of a normal bathroom and then terminates where a wall normally would be.

Tami’s taking a shower, I notice on the other far end of this room there is a showerhead near the wall, and some tiling around it. But between these two sides is grass. I pop into Tami’s shower and say “I’m gonna make a path so you can go to the other shower!”.

I take a bunch of towels and make a path from her shower, across the grass and to the other shower. She runs across it and I turn on the shower head that she reached, it must have not been in use for a long time as nasty rusty water came sputtering out. She ran back to the other shower.



Dream 4

I’m playing on the original GameBoy. There’s some sort of save option that would normally be reserved for emulators, like a save state. I have to do some complicated menu options to pull this off.



Dream 5

I have a new apartment and I’m planning for something. James is jealous for some reason of whatever these plans are. He has the leg of a stool which is chrome metal. It has a piston-like function similar to how office chairs can be adjusted to be lower or higher and he’s making it go up and down.



WBTB - 3:30am

I wrote down these previous dreams and then took a Galantamine. It started working too quickly and I couldn’t get back to sleep so I tried to WILD.

I had one hour of conscious sleep with no events. Then I began hearing sounds, I assumed Tami was waking up but I heard some doors opening and people talking and coming into the house. I took this as what was really happening but this was actually a dream forming.

I tried to get up to see what was going on but instead was trapped in sleep paralysis. As I strained to get up my hands and feet began tingling really strangely. It took a lot of effort but I eventually pulled myself upright, when it dawned on me that Tami was still asleep and it was all just a dream that was beginning to form.

Thought I was going to a McDonald's that was in some old trailor house. Floor was really bouncy in spots. One spot is so bouncy I did a flip and crash on the floor. Some rough looking redneck possibly a homeless meth-head started making fun of me. I tried to explain about the floor but he doesn'tseem to get it. I look around at who else saw me and realize there is no McDonald's and that I never go to McDonald's anyway. I realize I just walked into some party and they didnt they are so wasted the dont know that I dont belong there and mostly ignore me. I feel the urgent need to leave. The ground is bouncy outside too and this triggers lucidity. I immediately forget about whatever I was going to do next and stop to just randomly explore the area. I see a fridge and I decide to open it. Looks like cans of some wierd brand of stuff. I cant read it but for some reason I think its exactly the same stuff as my fridge in waking life (its not). I laugh about this. I wonder around some more very aimlessly for a good while. My memory is foggy here. I realize there is a very attractive young woman following me around. Still fits the redneck or country look but very pretty. She has a shirt tied up to show her belly. Short cut offs and boots. I pause. Shes says, "Well what else can we do?" I try to think but have nothing to say. She rewords her question, "I dont want leave. You wanna to DO something else?" She gesture towards her body. I say, Oh yeah, I want to do something." I grab her and kiss her. She very seductively whispers what I said in my ear. While making out the dream fades to black. I have a false awakening and instantly feel like I failed some sort of test. I admonish myself for giving in to lust in a dream. I feel ashamed. I tell myself next time I will just ingore this type of dream character. My mouth feels dry and full of sand. Somehow I think I bit into something like a graphite mold in the dream and it transferred into waking life. I find it only slightly odd and very annoyingly possible. I think I should rinse my mouth out but first I try to record the dream on my phone. This doesn't go well and I wake up. I haven't been sleeping well at all and I am too tired to record this until I wake up later.

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How 'bout those Chiefs?:
I'm in a hotel room, hiding off to the side by the entrance.
Taylor Swift and Travis Kelce are in bed together 'celebrating' the Superbowl win.
I'm stressed out that I'm going to get caught.
I decide to come out from behind the wall and admit that I don't know how I got here.
There is a tall, regal looking red alien in front of me. There is another off to my left. That one seems to be observing Taylor and Travis.
The aliens are wearing robes, and have mostly human features, minus their elongated heads and red skin color.
They would have fit in with Marvel's depictions of green and blue aliens from Guardians of the Galaxy.
The alien near me says in a deep feminine voice "When you became lucid in your world, you came to our world."
This triggers me to do a nose reality check.
I become lucid...but the dream fades.
...
I false awake and tell my girlfriend about the red aliens.
I've lost lucidity.


The Red Alien.

Nostalgia Band:
I'm in a highschool gym at indoor band practice. I'm a senior who will be graduating soon, so feeling nostalgic.
I walk over to our saxophone cases and join the group. I feel the familiar rush of uncertainty.
Where are we going? What are we doing? Gotta do it fast!
...
I'm with the same group, this time outside. We have our instruments and backpacks.
It's a grassy mountain hike, spiraly.
I see PK, a senior from my 2nd year. He is talking about burying time-capsules for future years.
There are already a lot of time capsules buried in the ground waiting to be opened.
...
We're in a large, cylindrical, dimly lit room now. There are pictures of previous band members along the wall.
My brother's picture gets pointed out. It is his picture from 1st or 2nd grade.

Sunny Day Lucid:
I'm in my childhood neighborhood on a sunny day.
I'm running through the backyards, with the grass being typical vivid dream green.
I have a sense of urgency to get somewhere soon.
There are some horses up ahead, stabled at somebody's house.
I'm on a garden path moving toward them. I try to leave the path to avoid alerting the horses, but I can't.
I eventually pass by them without a problem.
I stop and stand still, realizing that my childhood neighborhood and sunny days are some of my top dreamsigns.
I perform a nose reality check and I can breathe.
I check my hands and I have 4 fingers and a thumb. That's strange, shouldn't they be off in a dream?
I keep checking my finger and nose, and eventually conclude that I must be dreaming.
I try to summon somebody, but it doesn't work.
I feel the dream start to fade.

I was at some sort of event, I was at a counter where blocky things that vaguely resembled SNES's were being sold. They had purple, black, and blue. I was disappointed there was no orange, so I grabbed a blue and started walking away.

I was in my father's truck, he had told me to pick up some burgers or something. I had to pull up the seat and adjust the height because he's the size of a gorilla, anyways I back up, and speed around a small gas station like building with a burger king sign. I park outside and enter, there's some chairs and a table. I end up in a grocery store like section. There's some lettuce and a couple tomato slices just sitting on the shelf. I think it's convenient and take a couple bites, its messy as hell and I am somehow covered head to toe in juice. I toss my clothes on the floor and walk into the clothing section, I'm hoping the employees don't catch me naked, so I steal a pair of camouflage pajama pants and struggle to put them on.

Me and some other guy are eaten by some giant monster, there is a room inside it, I catch one of the several strings attached to the ceiling and watch his shoe disappear into the darkness below. I see 3 doors, one has a green sign above it which says exit. Another has a red exit sign, and the last one has a blue sign above it which says not exit. I swing across the strings like a monkey until I reach the red door. I open in, and I get a view of a parking lot and some bushes. I'm about 10 feet off the ground, but I think the bushes will help break my fall a bit. I jump into them and miss a little bit, my butt slams into the asphalt, and my shoulders land in the bushes. I get up and start walking around [COLOR="#0088000"]I think the fall should have hurt a bit more, I remember that I wanted to steal a car. I see a maroon one with the door wide open, I'm about to hop in, but I think that they left their door open for me, so it doesn't count as stealing. I find a nice white one and try to phase through the door. I fail, so I just open it. I tell myself that it doesn't need keys to work so I don't have to look for them. I examine it a bit, where the radio should be, there's a blue button with a G on it. In the back seat there's a small instrument which looks like a ukulele, but the body's square, and it lacks a sound hole. I pull it out, and pluck a string as I run my finger up the fretboard. It has 7 frets and a higher sound than a uke. I toss it back, and push the brake and G. The car starts, I slam the gas to the floor and swerve right. There's a small group of people and one of them is in my way, unfortunately he dodges just in time. I remember that I was supposed to get something from the gas station, I leave the lot, and go down an empty highway with several curves and a bunch of tan walls around me. I end up is some other building, there's a small crowd, and in the center there's an old lady making her crusty white dog stand on an upside down metal bucket while she showers him with a hose. Some other lady is squatting a foot away acting like it's the cutest thing she's ever seen while the water runs off the bucket and soaks the carpet under her shoes. I go have a closer look, and I sit on the carpet, the old lady asks me how I feel about her dog. I'm trying to think of a response, when my father comes out of nowhere and asks me to give my mother's shorts back. [/COLOR]

I was listening to some youtube video where a guy tells someone else's scary experience at a convention.

I was going down a lazy river with my mother. I felt the floor scrape my butt so we got out and walked along it. It got a bit deeper later, but we kept walking. We then get to a ramp, she points out some frog coins and I grab them. [COLOR="#008000"]I feel the dream fade, I try telling her to come get me when my WILDs succeed, it completely faded before I got her response.[/COLOR]

Sci-Fi Rejection:
I'm in a futuristic house with two levels.
I've completed a nose reality check, and become lucid.
I'm trying to start spicy content with a girl nearby, but she isn't interested.
I lose lucidity.

Flight Over The Forest Chasm:
I'm in a forest with giant trees, standing on a leaf.
The leaf is strong enough to support my weight.
The setting reminds me a bit of my childhood front yard, but sized up (or with me sized down).
Out of habit, I perform a nose reality check and become lucid.
In front of me, I see a large chasm. I decide to fly over it.
I make it to another leaf across the chasm without issue.
I start to think about whether I should stabilize.
But I lose lucidity shortly after.


Overlooking the Chasm.

An interesting lucid dream from last night:

Lenny and I

“What would you do if you were invisible?” I ask Lenny. We seem to be involved in some plan to get the secret to invisibility. We talk about this, and I try to think of something that invisibility would actually be useful for that wasn’t immoral. Finally, I think that maybe I would offer my services to the military.

Lenny and I are supposed to be working, I think. We have paused to talk about this. It seems that there is something about golf balls as well – some sort of object with golf balls on it. Our boss (Captain Janeway?) comes along and finds us not working. I think she gently prods us about this.

Looking through a bag of tea and hot chocolate, I realize I’m dreaming. “Lenny,” I say, “I think I might have to leave. This seems to be a dream.” I feel a little uncertain about whether or not I should leave him. I do, however, and try to hold on to the dream. I seem to feel a little guilty for leaving in the middle of our conversation and acting like my friend doesn’t really matter now. However, he seems to be more loyal than me. “D’ye need some help staying in the dream?” Lenny asks. “Yes,” I say, possibly explaining to him that the dream seems to be going. He reaches out and takes my hand, and I try to hold on. I think, however, that I wake up, and attempt to DEILD.

It's interesting, because Lenny seemed like a real friend during the dream, and it was an odd feeling when I realized that I was dreaming. I mean, what do you do? Just suddenly treat your friend like he isn't real? Things didn't seem any different, other than I knew I was dreaming. And then he was such a great guy, trying to help me stay in the dream. I kind of hope I see him again. I feel as though I ought to apologize.

Notable day substances: No caffeine, Decaf, phosphatidyl choline, 5mg Benedryl 7:30pm
WBTB substances: 6mg Galantamine ~4:00AM

I wanted to have my first lucid this time around since my last break to be without Galantamine, but I'm impatient so I threw it into the mix tonight.



WBTB with Galantamine and WILD

I woke up at 3:45 am after 4 and a half hours of sleep. I read some Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming until I felt like my mind was awake, which took 10 minutes. Then I took 6mg of Galantamine and went back to bed.

I normally try to fall asleep as fast as possible after taking Galantamine because it works pretty fast and it’s difficult to sleep after it starts working. After about half an hour with no luck of going back to sleep on my right side, and attempts of laying very still for WILD - I turn over to my left side to try to WILD there.

Over 10 mins I made less and less movements until I was very comfortable and still. After a while I couldn’t really feel my body and that’s when the transition from waking into sleeping consciously began.

I had no visuals but I felt like I was sitting on a rollercoaster. I could feel when I was traveling up the tracks and the momentum and speed when I was going downward, I could feel myself lifting out of my seat. This went on for a while and was really fun, it felt very realistic. I also started to get some slight visuals of the track which was going around a ski-lift over and over again.


Then the visuals started. A colorful background appeared and there was some nonsense text in the middle that looked AI generated. The text made no sense but when I pretended to ‘read it’ it would transform into a new gibberish text. The text was only ever between 1 to 4 words long. Each time I ‘read’ one of these it felt like I was doing something right and getting deeper into something and the visuals got brighter.*

Now a ‘loading screen’ appeared, it was 16-bit SNES graphics scrolling from right to left of a brick wall. It was very stable and I would pick a piece of grouting and watch it go from one side of my vision to the other - the clarity and detail in lucid dreams always amazes me.

After maybe 10 seconds of this the loading is finished and I’m playing a SNES-style beat em’ up genre game**. It looked like Super Double-Dragon - the very basic track ‘Train Ride’ from this game was playing as well, which I haven’t heard in probably over 10 years.


So now I’m playing this game, the graphics are very bright and vivid - enemies are coming at my character which I’m controlling. But I don’t have a real body, it’s like I’m looking at a screen with blackness all around it and that’s it.

I told myself before going to bed that if I had a lucid I was going to go with whatever the dream was, for stability and practice sake. But I didn’t want the dream to be about playing some SNES game, I at least wanted it to be based in a reality-like setting.

So I test out transforming one of the enemies I’m looking at, which begins to work but the contrast and brightness of the dream begins to dim. I figure I’ve only been in here for less than a minute so I should slow down, so I stop doing that and the contrast and brightness return.

I still don’t want to be having this experience so I close my eyes and now I feel my body in bed. I decide to do a reality check and reach over and plug my nose - I can still breathe just fine! Also I’m seemingly on my back, but I know I’m on my left side in reality. So I decide to try to get out of bed to get out of this gaming situation.

But as I start to move I feel like my left arm is still not totally asleep and that if I move it I will wake up, it feels really heavy compared to the rest of my body. So I close my eyes and enter the video game again, just to see a enemy hit my character and die. The game over screen says ‘YOU FAILED!’ with a big fat purple weasel laughing with a high pitched voice as the dream collapses and I return to feeling my actual body in bed laying on my left side, awake. (5:08am)

I think I just tried too much too fast and needed to let the dream develop more and become more involved. I’ve had plenty of close call WILD’s but normally I get to a point where my body feels like it’s humming with electricity as the visuals begin and the dreams collapse very early. I’ll count this as my first successful WILD! Even though I used Galantamine and ruined it pretty fast.



Dream 2

I’m on the phone with JohnF, a guy I only met very briefly maybe 10 years ago. He’s severely depressed and I’m trying to make him feel better but it wasn’t working. I suddenly had the random thought that he hired a hitman to kill someone. I asked him if he had done something irreversible. He said ‘yeah…’

I don’t know what he actually did but I said he should try to forgive himself and maybe do something that feels like he’s giving back to the world in some way.

I heard super Mario RPG music coming through the phone and asked him if he was playing it. He lit up a bit and said he was, the remastered version. And that he had plans to swap if for another game when he was done.

Then an unknown friend of mine comes by the room I'm in (PA house, bedroom at the end of the hall on the left). He says he got a purple coat and a mustache and he's really excited about it. He doesn't want to show me though because he doesn't know the guy I'm talking to, who is now in the room with me.

JohnF and I both say we wanna see it so he shows us. 'It's not purple at all!' I say upon seeing it, it’s a deep mustard yellow. He says 'oh yeah? Well look at THIS!' He opens it up to reveal a mustache on the hanging loop/tag on the jacket. He takes it off and clips it to his nose, it's a really convincing mustache. We both applaud him.


This dream started out serious and dark and ended feeling funny and relaxed.



Dream 3

I’m deep underground in some sort of mine. To demonstrate how extremely deep a hole is, a man/woman pair toss a raccoon down into it. Immediately it sounds like it hit pipes or something and there are lots of scrambling sounds. The man then throws a basketball down which hits something, and then it's silent.

The woman explains that the raccoon was so relaxed when it fell with its limbs stretched out, that when it made contact with the only pipe exposed it quickly grabbed on. Then the basketball was thrown to hit the raccoon and send it all the way down..

We spoke about something but I forget what. I vomited up a strange pufferfish looking like creature into a nearby basin with water in it, which freaked the lady out and she ran off.

This dream just had all around gross vibes.



Dream 4

A gust of wind blows the front door open slightly, Mogmi makes a run for it! He gets outside and I chase after him. He goes right across the street into the backyard of the neighbors (which is unlike IWL).

A man with a large beard is smoking a cigarette on his phone and there is another guy standing there with him.

Mogmi is hopping up like a dog trying to smell the cigarette. I grab him and apologize, then take him back to the house.



*I suspect this was REM starting, reading these short sentences were making my eyes dart back and forth a lot.

**At this point I became aware of NPT (nocturnal erection), which happens during REM.

I had a lucid dream!! Didn't last long though.

I'm in my house's small bathroom, taking a shower. The water doesn't feel very warm and the room is dark, no lights are on. I can see dimly around me - the grey tile walls, the silver shower tray (do those actually have a name??), the small window and white Venetian blind. A thin shaft of white light comes through the blind. I fall down on the floor and wonder why I can't wash my hair. Then I realise, maybe it's because I'm dreaming.

I try testing gravity by jiggling my leg and it moves in slow motion. Then I know. I feel a rush of excitement. But I know I have to stabilise the dream. I hold up my hands to examine them, but I can't see any details of them in the dark. I held them outward under the only glow of light in the room to see a bit better. The light is golden now and in a sort of dim hovering ball. I still can't see much, so I try willing the room to light up, knowing the light switches are outside.

I woke up then. Was it a false awakening, though? I immediately tested gravity again by moving my leg, and it seemed to move very slowly. But I felt so tired that I didn't really register this, just rolled over and went to sleep. I'm wondering if I actually missed a false awakening since I don't usually wake up in the middle of the night. And if I do, I'm rarely so tired that I just go back to sleep.

Still, my first DILD! Better go update my profile's LD count!

I had a short random lucid dream like 20-40min after falling asleep at the beginning of the night. I havent been practicing and I suspect I have a lot of these types or randoms but my recall is terrible lately. I really need to start trying again.

I was at the table with Alysha and she was mocking me telling me "to suck it up" and "be a man". I dont even know what it was about but I got so pissed she wouldn't stop. So I said, "Im about to knock you out" ( I only say that to the dog jokingly in waking life lol). Some old black woman materializes vetween us and starts calming me down and saying calming things and holding my hands over the trash can for some reason. I look over her at my wife to mean mug her but her appearance keeps shifting slightly and I recognize it as a dream. My anger leaves and I zoom over to her and tell her that I am so sorry and I forgive her. She says the same thing back. I say "I know you are just an aspect of myself but Im not going to say how I know that". Then we go to leave and she wants to make out but I want to go do things outside. I kiss her a little and then push away. I wake up.

I was in some busy street, there was some asain restaurant. I entered, there were several people with sushi on their plates. I checked my wallet to be sure it was there, it wasn't, so I left the store. I walked down the street a bit and then forgot what I left the store for. I reentered and remembered that I left cause I forgot my wallet. I was really embarrassed so I grabbed a straw and a pack of chopsticks off the front desk and left.

[COLOR="#008000"]I got out of bed, I felt weightless, but I was really short for some reason. I walked outside and noticed that I returned to normal size. I started digging in one place to get under the house but I wasn't making much progress. I went to a part with a different dirt type and started digging. I accidentally broke off a piece of the wall. It had soggy plywood boards and fiberglass. I stopped cause it felt gross, I then remembered that I wanted to go down the street to see if it would be like the last time. I walked down my driveway. I looked to the east, the sky brain was gone. I looked forward and in the distance there were several tall buildings that resembled the Washington monument. I went down the street, I passed some houses, there was a metal gate in my way so I just walked through it. There were some cars, and I could see some buildings, to the south was a brown square building with red cloth draped on the exterior. To the north was a big hotel and a smaller hotel. I walked to the large hotel and entered. I slipped into the elevator and accidentally pushed all the buttons, so I pushed a button that deselected them. There was a man in there with me. He asked for a name, I was stunned because I had a sense that I was trespassing."E?" he asked, 'Ethan.' I then smacked my face because I definitely do not look like an Ethan. He that said the name of my favorite cousin, and the elevator moved up. I walked into the hallway, there was a room across from the elevator with the door open. I entered and I recognized some of my cousin's friends. She sat at a table, I greeted her with a hug and she said something and I said something about it being a dream, and she tells me "It's a world now because you've been here so long." we move to a couch, she closes her eyes and slows her breathing. I hear three pings like the ones from assassins creed, she gives a date "(i forgot)/24/24, I will die a horrible death from a firebomb." I copy her movements, I don't hear the pings, but I feel them in my mind, I have a hard time making it out but I think I see the words '11 MST burger' I then open my eyes. My parents have joined me and we start a conversation about something, I notice my 3ds is flashing red so I get up to grab a charger my mother screams something about me being addicted to games and grabs at me. Everyone is now pissed off so I sit in a chair, stare at the wall, and remind myself not to let a dream character make me too mad. I am staring into the wall when something catches my attention. An army or something is blowing up the stairs. I run past the stairwell, there's an explosion, I go into a room and hide under the stove. I notice that there's no wall behind it. I crawl under it, and I walk under all the shelves into a secret room. A man dressed as Luigi jumps into a pipe, I try to jump in after him, but I land wrong. I get up and some guy shows up, and a bunch of zelda dialogue bubbles pop up with too many words to read as the dream fades. [/COLOR]