lucid

I was up late last night after working second shift, then had to get up early for a contractor stopping by in the morning. So I didn't get a whole lot of sleep. When I started feeling drowsy after the contractor left, I figured a nap wouldn't hurt.

I'm looking at my smartphone and for some reason, I'm trying to search for information on Jimmy Kimmel. I'm having trouble spelling his name, with my attempt to spell "Jimmy" coming out as something else. I look at my hands and realize this must be a dream. I look up from the phone and find myself at work, except I seem to be on skates while the main aisle is made of ice. I start skating down the aisle until I get to the toy department. When I head down a smaller aisle, I see a magic lamp hanging on a display. I rub the lamp, which looks like plastic but feels cold like metal. I wait for the genii to appear, except nothing happens. I take a few steps and try again, and this time the genii comes out of the lamp.

I wish for a magic carpet. The genii points to an endcap where there are plush purple toilet lid covers on display. He takes one and tosses it in the air. It seems to get larger and thinner as it spins until landing on the floor, now large enough to hold a person. I make sure to hang onto the lamp as I get on the rug. The rug flies through the air, heading for the front of the store where I magically pass through the plate-glass window. Outside, it is cool and cloudy. I do a few loops on the magic carpet before returning to the ground.

At this point, I know I want a second wish but I'm a little stumped for what to wish for. I look at the clouds and wish that I was someplace warm. Almost immediately, I find myself wearing a rain coat and sitting at a small table under a large umbrella. I can see palm trees in the distance, and when I stick my hand out, I can feel the rain. I focus on the sounds of a tropical rain storm…

And then I find myself in my garage at home. I open the garage door, reminding myself that I wished I was someplace warm. And instead of my driveway, I see a tropical forest with a dirt path winding through the trees. I follow the path, feeling squishy texture of the dirt under my feet. Eventually, I come to a large building. I realize that it's the home of my grandparents in India. I remember where to find the back door that leads to a kitchen. From there, I move to the large reception room on the main floor. I remember that it was my favorite room as a kid because it had a swing. Sure enough, I see a wicker egg-shaped chair that is suspended from the ceiling. I sit in the chair and let it swing back and forth. A drink appears in my hand, and I wonder what it is before deciding that it should be Bombay Sapphire gin, of course. I sip it and debate what to do for my third wish. For a moment, I wonder if I should ask for the perfect kiss and an image of Benedict Cumberbatch comes to mind. But I decide that I can't have him show up in every single lucid dream!

Instead, I wish that I could speak to my grandmother. I see my Nana, my mom's mother, appear on my left hand side. She reminds me that this used to be her sewing room. I look on my right and see my dad's mother, who passed away before I was born. I really want to hear what she has to say, but she remains silent at first. I realize that I have no idea what she even sounds like because I have no memories to build on. Trying to draw her out, I ask, "What should I do with my life? I could really use some guidance." She remains silent, but this time she leans forward and kisses me on the forehead, then she gives me a hug. Then she tells me, "I want you to live. I have two beautiful granddaughters that I am so proud of and I want you to live your lives."

Dream
Lucidity
Notes

I was at Megan's house along with her mom and a few other people. I had my Remington 870 along with the 5 slugs my roomate gave me in the waking world. I was talking to Megan about what she's been doing and she tells me how she hates who she's with. There is a car next to us and from the reflection in its' mirror, I notice it's Megan's boyfriend. He gets out and walks to a shed while holding a shotgun. I get angry because it looked like he was threatening or bulldogging me so I get my shotgun and I shoot at him in the shed. He starts shooting back but he doesn't know how to use his gun. I run out of ammo and tackle him and choke him out with my shotgun. I get up and everyone tells me I'm going to jail. I see a sheriff but then notice it's a Correction's Officer holding a brand new AR15, so I give him the shotgun. I ask Megan a few more questions and ask "Be honest; did you ever cheat on me?" She stays quiet and the totem I had turned yellow and said that she felt bad for answering. I get told that the cops are coming and I do a 'dream rewind' as I call it. I'm back right before the firefight but instead of shooting him, I run and choke him out right away. I see something and suddenly realize I'm dreaming.

I look at my hands telling myself "stabilize the dream! "I go bast the barn and I'm on NM47. I remember what I read about activating my senses so I kneel down and touch the pavement with my finger. The pavement then has a hole with eggs in it and I grab and eat one. No taste but it was runny. The egg was uncooked. My shemagh was in my eye, causing it to hurt so I adjusted it. I pinched my arm and felt like it was getting pinched. I hit my thigh with something but it didn't hurt. I saw a car about to pass so I said "It's time" and ran along with it. I acted as if I was doing parkour on the street but there were no obstacles so I was just imitating the moves. A white and black sports car came to my left and I raised my right hand, summoned a flame, and launched a fireball at the car, causing it to explode. I saw a truck in the distance and sped up to catch it. I looked at my hands to stabilize the dream again. I was then in a village on some plains. There were hills to the right and blue mountains to the left. I was on the roofs running from one and jumping to the other. There were two kids playing and saying they were Lucid Dreaming. I jumped between them and said happily, "No, I'm lucid dreaming!" I grabbed one of the kids and told him "I haven't seen water in one of my dreams for a while so let there be water!" I pointed to the hills but then changed my mind. I spun him around and pointed to the mountains. After a few seconds, a huge wave of blue water came over the top of the mountains. I ran away and the village was engulfed by water. Rain started pouring down.
I found an even smaller village with brown roads and grass. The colors were vibrant and it looked familiar. It almost looked like the texture of it was from minecraft. I remembered what I wanted to do in my first lucid dream: Hug my mom goodbye. I looked for a specific structure and entered it, taking an elevator to the basement. I noticed the marble floors and the weird design they had. I stood in a small room and my mom appeared. She looked like a zombie and she was very weak. I went to hug her but it was hard to do so. My dream was fading and I sensed that I was going to wake up soon. An orb appeared at the bottom of my vision and it would block my view as it raised. I figured I'd have to return another time because when the orb consumed my vision, I peacefully woke up.

The dream was hard to control and I know I didn't have a high level of lucidity but I was still lucid. Next time, I'll strive for a higher lucidity level. Upon further reasearch, I believe I lost lucidity when I looked at my hands when I reached the truck. Maybe even before that. I know I was lucid after blowing up the car, though.

A couple friends and I are working on a shared dreaming project. One which involves a still standing Castle in Europe and using it as a home base.

1. Visiting a place near a body of water. Looked like our Home Castle, yet different in certain ways. I never went inside, but there was water surrounding the property, clear water, fresh (didn't look like the pictures we viewed.) On the edges of the water had a lot of plants and vegetation, it actually could have passed for a luxury hotel. I'm with others. We board a medium sized water vessel with a group of people and visited a nearby island. Sen (?) and I went swimming underwater, think Wg was nearby too. I watched as someone transformed themselves into a barracuda type fish. Other fish swam away, haha. Then I changed too. Shortly after the island adventure I'm standing in front of a woman with another man. She tells him that it's too bad he's not taller with blonde hair. Odd.

2. When we were done we went back to the Castle. I was running around searching for something. Forgot what. Eventually I find a puppy and recall floods in. I realize I was at the Castle earlier in dreaming and now I'm trying to figure out a way to keep the recall (lol), thinking that none of this will be remembered (LOL). I'm also either trying to get a message from the puppy or I'm trying to give it a message for Wg and Sen. It was small, mostly white with brown spots.

3. Some point along the night I was in Egypt. There was a ceremony but also a disruption. I vaguely recall racing through corridors trying to escape something (come to think of it, that may have been the caves.)

4. Then at another point I'm driving and manage to crash about three vehicles, moving from one to the next. When I crashed the third I realized perhaps driving isn't the best thing for me to be doing. I seem to be having a bad string of luck with cars/motorcycles. The final vehicle I crash I'm able to move with my mind to get it out of the way of other traffic (I was in a one-lane area of a very busy highway.)

5. I'm on a stretch of road and climb into the back of a parked truck. There's something inside I'm going after. I find it, it's a clear large vial/jar. I read the label on it, it's a lethal virus (can't recall the name.) I'm careful as I open it, vapor streams from the opening. I hold my breath, thinking that might help. I remove the lid completely, invert it, insert a long tube then replace the lid. Hop out and run back to a waiting car (think Sen was driving).

6. I make my way inside a nearby university/Castle? I talk to a few people, then a male professor, then I find an Indian woman sitting in a large open room on the steps. I sit down near her and we speak respectfully. (Felt like the Priestess). She's heavy-set, older, tan skin (first time I've seen her in human form, usually it's whispy ethereal forms.) She shows me something, she takes a piece of what looks like coal and ingests it. It enters her body and I can see the reaction in her, smoke begins pouring from skin, it's eating her flesh from the looks of it. I'm concerned at this point, standing up about to try and assist, when she stands up and then shits out the piece of coal. Her body returns to the prior healthy appearance and she smiles at me. Again, I think this was another lesson for me but again, the lesson is difficult to grasp. A woman of very few, if any, words.

Damn. Best lucid dream by far.

I don't really remember the beginning of the dream. I was in the old house I used to live years ago. I knew that I was dreaming so after doing a RC I wanted not to waste the precious time. At this point my awareness would be like 60%. I looked outside the window and saw the moon, but it was not the moon we all are used to see at night, but a big pale white moon. My awareness was higher than my other lucids so I took my time to make sure that it was stable and to appreciate the new world. I said: 'Okay, let's flight to the moon', so I started to run and then jumped with the intention of flying like a plane towards the moon, but I doubt just for one second and it make me fail my attempt.

Okay, let's try something else while it keeps stable, I said to myself. I looked again through the window and the landscape has changed; my old town was not there anymore. Now I was in what I would say a 8th flat. At this point my awareness increased to a 96% so what I was feeling was something totally new to me. I looked at the things in the room; the table, the chairs, the TV... I wanted to touch everything, and the more time I was feeling that reality the more amazed I felt. Went outside to see what was going on in the new city and what I saw was totally unexpected. A lot of buildings, skyscrappers and lights made me close my eyes to adapt to the new scene. I saw no one in the city and only could heard the light sound of the wind. The city was decorated like we were on Christmas, but with ice statues and figures. I took one of the decoration figure and left it thaw on my hand, as the slightly temperature made me shiver.

'Wait, I haven't looked at the sky'. Holy shit. The sky almost made me cry because of its beauty. I almost couldn't see a piece of dark in the sky because of the amount of planets floating up there. The white pale moon was still there, but a little bit bigger and surrounded by even bigger planets. One of them made me make a weird sound. A big, big, big planet was standing there, while it seemed to release a purple gleam. It was like it was alive. I took a sit and looked 'till the end of the dream. 'There are other realities, now I'm completely sure of it'.


When I woke up tears started flowing down my cheeks. I was not because of sadness, but of happiness. I suddenly got a feeling of insecurity because of how small we are compared to everything. I felt so vulnerable. But it was not a bad feeling at all.

I walk through a door and come out in my IRL yard, thinking about how to get out of this situation (what that situation was, I no longer remember), when I remember this is a dream. I start flying, which I think of as a useful way of escaping that situation - my first instinct is to continue the dream storyline. Then I realize that since this is a dream, there's no reason for me to continue to deal with that situation at all. I'm looking up at a gibbous moon (it's in a different phase IRL. Also it was night in the dream; and there was no snow on the ground, though the trees were bare; and there was a bush that IRL was cut down years ago). Looking at that moon, I immediately (and accurately) remember two lucid goals that have to do with the moon, and I decide to fly up there. However, I get distracted thinking about those two different goals - the second one doesn't necessarily have to be done on the moon, and I wonder if trying to focus on both at once could throw me off.

Slight memory gap. While flying, I've somehow wound up getting entangled with some Christmas lights my IRL neighbor put up near the power lines - red, white and blue ones - and I've managed to damage the string of white lights. Although I'm still aware I'm dreaming and still intend to fly to the moon, I've lost some lucidity - I think I have to fix these lights first.

But after accomplishing that, I find something else that distracts me - a Bowie album called 'evil on sale' - and lose lucidity entirely.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

There's a child who's the young, orphaned, lord of an estate. He's been asleep or unconscious for some days after some incident that put him in danger, and now that he's woken up he's found that his servants - one in particular, who's also a magician or something similar - have changed things about the house while he was unconscious. This house used to be full of secret, magical things - taking care of them was part of the duty of the lord of this particular estate - and now they've all been removed, for his own protection. The lord doesn't like this at all. He's run down to the cellars, where a locked door used to open onto a place where they kept a pair of unicorns, which are no longer there - that magician servant is here in the hall outside that locked door, up on a step ladder, dusting a lamp. The lord's talking to a young, blonde servant girl who'd been the one to inform him about the changes in the first place, he's desperately hoping that she'll tell him the unicorns are just outside in the fields, but he knows that won't be the case - they're gone.

Dream 1
not lucid

I was watching the scene first like I was watching a movie as the camera rolled along the side of a river. There was a splashing in the water as somebody I know was swimming in the water. I saw them pop up for a breath of air but soon after re submerged under the water. I began to panic and fear for him as I saw an alligator in the water above him and it too went under water. He popped back up a little further downstream as I still as well kept moving with him keeping him in the middle of my view. He went under again but this time the 2 alligators went down. I shouted out to watch out for the alligators. He turned and came to shore and was instantly dry. We walked to a barn nearby and went inside. There was an older man in his mid 50’s probably and was holding a small black suitcase. I knew there was money inside of it but I also knew there was a bomb inside and it was triggered to blow if it had any sudden movements/impact. We talked to the man and it seemed he was trying to blackmail us about something but I don’t know what. One of the people that were with us snuck up behind him and tried to stab him in the neck with a needle that would knock him out but he reached back and grabbed the needle. I reached out grabbed the suitcase in 1 hand and pushed the back of the needle with the other. The liquid shot out and landed into his mouth he just swallowed it and spit some of it out as well. We waited but it didn’t affect him at all as it wasn’t going into his blood stream. The group of us wrestled him down and I managed to get the suitcase from him and me and another person left.

Dream 2
not lucid

I was in some kind of apartment or hotel the walls and everything had a grayish tint and was very blah. The room we were in was very modern looking and the furniture looked very nice. I was talking with a man that reminded me of Liam Neeson and told him that there was a person coming up the stairs to get us. He was like okay I got this. He hid behind the door as the person walked in. He did some baddass moves and knocked the person out and the person just kind of vanished. As a little time went by There was another person that was coming up that I could sense and I opened up the door and saw them trying to hide in a closet across the hall. I was like Yo Liam come check out this loser….he is in the closet across from us trying to hide. So liam went over and kicked his ass as well. As I went back inside liam got jumped and the person had a chain around liams neck and was chocking him out against our hotel room wall. I opened up a drawer and pulled out parts of a pistol and started piecing it together. Liam was like help me…..I’m like I am….just give me a minute ive almost got it put together…. As I was finishing putting it together I woke up.

Dream 3
Lucid(but went with dream)

I was on the road and heading into this strange forest place when I arrived and got out of my vehicle and went inside of a cabin. I walked around with my fiancé setting stuff up and getting ready and we decided it was late and we would just go to bed. We got into bed and started to go to sleep I closed my eyes for a second and was thinking to myself. I should just try a reality check to keep myself use to doing them as I go to sleep and wake up. I reach up and plug my nose and attempt to breathe in. *wooosh* a rush of air comes rushing into my nose. Wait what????? I plug my nose again this time a little harder and attempt to breathe yet again. *woosh* another rush of air goes in as I breath in just fine. Wait a minute…. I’m dreaming? IM dreaming! I closed my eyes and thought to myself I wonder if I can levitate myself? I could feel my body leave the bed but for only a moment and I fell back down as I said no no no I can’t do that who am I kidding. I sat up and looked around like thinking am I really dreaming? I look down and rub my hands together the sensation is just as amazing as I remembered doing it the night before. I got up and walked around but the dream faded to darkness and I woke up in bed. Crap… I totally could have had that for longer if I would of tried to I said to myself as I opened my eyes. Well since I’m awake I might as well attempted to do a RC . I poked my finger against the palm of my hand and felt the hard surface of my hand but seconds after my finger pushed through my hand like it was going through silly puddy or jello. I looked down at my hand Wait what??? I’m dreaming again? I look around and I’m inside the cabin still somehow I came back into the same dream! I Sat up and looked around again and thought well this is weird.. As I stood up everything went black again. I thought to myself gawd that sucked I just missed out on two different chances to be in control of my dreams but I didn’t do anything about it. What the hell one more RC doesn’t hurt right? Got to get in the habit… it seems to be working so far. I poke my finger into my palm again the firm feeling of my palm hits my finger as I feel the resistance. But then this Sucking / liquidy sound come fills the air as I see my finger start oozing pushing through my palm yet again. Holy crap I’m dreaming still? I lay there and think to myself. Well my last attempts didn’t really work to fight the dream so let’s just let this play out… I laid down for a few minutes just staring at the ceiling. The sun rose up into he sky outside and my fiancé got up and we walked outside to our Jeep. I climbed around on the outside of the jeep trying not to touch the ground acting like it was lava. I finally asked are you ready to get going to my fiancé. She nodded and I got into the driver’s seat and gunned it. We went flying over a hill and we floated across a huge cavern. It felt like several minutes went by as we just hung out in mid air flying across this cavern until we landed on the other side. We hit hard and started to roll backwards I tried to pump the brakes but nothing was working. I turned us around and the momentum from going back words made us go up the hill in reverse. We made it to the outside of the tunnel we landed in and I turned our jeep around and we both got out. Another driver pulled up and asked if we needed any help I said yeah for some reason our vehicle broke down and I couldn’t break. He got out and walked over. My jeep was now a motorcycle and the wheels were not really wheels but rather a bundled up roll of what looked like carpet/ foam. The man removed the front tire and took out a disk that looked like a saw. He then pulled out a piece of plastic like a zip tie and said there’s your problem. You hook here is broken it probably broke from landing a hard jump or something. I looked at him yeah we hit a really big bump. He smiled and said well it’s an easy fix all you need is something to hook this back together like a fishing lure or something will work. I thanked the man and he went on his way. Shortly after I woke up for real 

I didn't have the issue of constantly waking up in the night although I still had a number of dreams last night, some very bizarre ones, but at least one of them I think was lucid. I don't recall doing the movements or any tingling, however this is how it went.

Dream 1

I was lying in bed with my eyes closed in the position I was in when I went to sleep. Everything was now all quiet and I had the sense that this was not real. I began to think to myself "I did it, I think I made it. Wait, can I still breathe through my nose?" I pinched my nose and I was still breathing. "Yep, I can breathe. Let's check that again..." I pinched my nose again, definitely breathing. I opened my eyes and I could see the bedroom which was like daylight despite it being in the middle of the night. "ok, now how do I do this?" I began to wonder. I pushed myself out of bed but there was a fair amount of resistance. It was like peeling myself off a leather sofa. I looked down to where I was lying to see if I could see myself there but I wasn't, just the imprint of where I had been lying. I walked around the bed to the door. "I wonder if I can just walk through doors" I questioned. I walked towards the door but I bumped into it. "ok guess not, I'll just have to open it" I said to myself. I turned the knob and opened the door onto the landing. I got to the top of the stairs and looked down. "I wonder if I can fly" I asked myself. I jumped in the air and there I was floating horizontally. "Oh my god, I can fly, I can fly!" I shouted excitedly. I was no longer in the house but on a small hill coated in daisies, the sky looked like a drawing rather than something real, and I was flying just a couple of feet above the hill. I could see other bodies floating in the air too laughing like children. They had a bright glow to them that was either pink or blue and were leaving trails as they flew over the hill. Their bodies were glowing so brightly that I could only make out facial and upper body features, and despite they were laughing their faces were motionless. I was too was laughing excitedly, but then the dream came to an end. This image closely resembles what I dreamed.



The rest of the dreams didn't appear to be lucid, some were so short and blurry that I couldn't remember them, but these are the ones I could fully recall.

Dream 2

Since I had been watching Black Adder Goes Forth just before going to bed it was no surprise that my next dream was about Black Adder. Edmund decided that he did love the nurse he condemned to death after all and ran into a room where she was being held in order to free her before she got executed. She was on a hospital bed wearing a straight jacket. He burst into the room and looked at her with both love and apology in his eyes, upset at what he had done to her. "Oh Edmund, you do love me!" she shouted happily. "Yes I do" he said running over to her. She was able to pull her arms apart enough for him to slip under her arms and kiss her. "Even if I was an axe murderess you would still love me?" "Until the very end" he replied. Then George burst into the room and rolled his eyes. "Good god, are you making love to her?" he laughed. He pulled Edmund away and pushed him aside. "Come along madam, time for the execution!" he said, grabbing hold of her. Edmund rushed over to her and pushed George off. "You're not going to execute her!" he shouted. "Oh yes we are!" said George, shoving Edmund off him. "No, she isn't the spy!" Edmund shouted, protecting the nurse. "But you said she was" said George. Whilst they were arguing some other soldiers came into the room and took the nurse away without Edmund noticing. "Here's what I'm going to do" said George. "I'm going to tell you something that's going to make you feel jealous and forget all about her." "No no, I don't want to hear it!" shouted Edmund, covering his ears. "Fine, then I'll draw it then" said George. He began drawing naughty images on a white board, one of them looked like he was about to draw a male genitalia but instead it was of a dolphin but the implication was still there as he drew arrows on where it was jumping to. Edmund looked angrily at the board which had now changed into a glass board, his moustache began to twitch, and then he remembered that the nurse was going to be executed any second. He bolted outside quickly to go save her.

Dream 3

I had just done some shopping and one of the items was of a fruit pie. Tony went up to bed and I was feeling hungry, so I opened the fruit pie and started to eat it with my bare hands, scraping at it and scoffing it like a pig. I sensed someone across the road was watching me from their window so I ducked down below the window frame so they couldn't see me eating. I could barely finish it but I could hear Tony coming back downstairs so I folded the box in on itself and crumpled it down and hid it under a chair. Tony came into the room feeling a bit peckish and wanting something to eat. He went for the bag that the fruit pie was in and asked where it was. I told him we didn't have one and that maybe we left it at the shop. He looked disappointed and confused as he was looking forward to having some of it.

Grey Eyes
Gonna be a very memorable fragment. I just remember looking into a pair of big grey eyes that were looking back. As I looked at them, I noticed one eye started turning more orange and the other eye started turning more blue.

Weirdest House Ever
I was with a large group of people at some Caribbean restaurant. Though this feels more like one of those far east places with the big grill table where they cook the food in front of you. I guess a combination of those two places. We were deciding what to order. I kept trying to order fish, but the host/hostess (can't remember if it was a boy or a girl now.) was saying that they were out of fish and could not serve me any because their whole supply of fish had been served two days ago and they had to order more. I just decided to order some french fries instead.
After the host/hostess left, I put my head down and fell asleep. (So there's such a thing as a false awakening, but is there such a thing as false-falling asleep?)
The next thing I know, somebody tells me to look at the moons in the sky. I look up and see four small moons in a row.
Wait a second? Moons? As in plural? That's a dream sign! [Does nose pinch reality check]. Heck yeah a lucid!
Side note interjection: I have been on a really frustrating dry spell for the past two weeks. It seems like no amount of reality checks or MILD mantras can break it. Last night, I just gave up, I was like" f**k it, I haven't LD'ed in two weeks" I can't break this dry spell, I'll just wait for it to end. So I actually had some conflicting feelings about getting lucid. Okay, great, I'm lucid, but also really? I'm lucid after I just gave up.
"Wait... does this mean that I'm asleep in that restaurant? *shugs* may as well enjoy it while it lasts."
Anyways, I'm in a subdivision again. I didn't stabilize, but dang this dream is vivid. I can feel the warm rays of the sun coming down on me. I can feel the ground with each footstep, and the visuals were the equivalent of watching a HD Widescreen TV. I look around and notice there are some cars sitting around. Maybe I could try and drive one while lucid. Nah, some other time.
I start walking down the middle of the street. As I do, it becomes more and more apparent that I am in my own subdivision, rather than just a random one.
I can even hear stuff. I look behind me because I hear a car coming. I see a red minivan driving down the road. The character driving pulls to the left and drives across some laws before pulling into what I assume was his driveway.
Yeah, real considerate of your neighbors, random dream character.
And because I had given up on lucid dreaming out of frustration, I had no intentions or dream goals. And my lucidity wasn't crystal clear, so I guess I just defaulted to "talk to my dream guide". Maybe she will be in one of these houses. I pick a random house, a rather strange looking one for my sub that has pale green bricks and a large glass window on the front. This looks like the sort of place I could find her.
I walk up to the front lawn. As I get closer some kind of security system becomes visible. Not because I was too far from the house. It was because it was camouflaged somehow. There is a small glass box on the front lawn, and a high glass fence. The fence has some kind of blue energy conduit running along the top.
I walk into the glass box. There is a little doorbell button. I press it.
"Hey! Hey! Buzz Me In!"
The door opens and I walk into the lawn. By the front door of the house are four security guards holding assault rifles. I get to the door, that appears to be made of solid metal. (What kind of place is this?!) This door opens for me too and I go inside.
I climb the stairs and get to the second floor. The whole second floor of this house has been converted into this bar/nightclub setup.
The last thing that I recall is that a girl walks past me carrying an Ipod and her earbud cable gets caught around my arm. I help the little girl get it untangled and remind her to wrap up her cable as to not let it get caught on things.

#286 - MILD - 2:53AM


I wake for my WBTB and recall a non lucid dream about having breakfast with morbidly obese people. One asked me if I wanted "cool" (cool whip) or peanut-butter on my pancakes. I shout that I want both. The guy asking looks really pleased with my answer.

Later, I fall asleep a little too fast and forget I wanted to WILD. I find myself at some strange version of my workplace. It's break-time and I see something like cherry cheese cake on a table for everyone to eat. I take an extra large piece with my hands and wolf it down. I see another plain cheese cake and do the same. I begin to feel guilty and like total shit as I realize that I am blowing my calorie restricted diet so blatantly. I've only just started.

As I walk deeper into the break room, I think some coffee would be nice to go with the sweets and pour a cup from a weird coffee pot. I find it strange that the coffee looks like it has creamer in it already, but I just shrug it off. As I start to turn around, I see a plate of really large lemon muffins. I figure since I am blowing my diet I may as well do it right and take a muffin. I quickly shove it into my face as I pick a seat.

I start to sit with Ronnie, but I see Glenn and decide to sit with him. I've been wondering why he's been gone from work (sick) and want to ask him about it. He seems to be engaged in deep conversation with Richard so I politely sit with them waiting to speak. As I sit, I slip and land hard, embarrassing myself. Richard seems to be annoyed and purposefully not making eye contact with me. I decide to sip my coffee and notice that it just tastes like creamer and is not very warm. I get up to check the coffee pot and see it's just now making coffee. I assume someone preloaded the pot with creamer prior to starting the coffee. I go ahead and pour a little more in my cup hoping the first of the brew will be strong enough to counter all the creamer.

When I sit back down, I begin to feel extremely tired and put my head down on the table for a second. I think I am about to dose off, but I suddenly fall out of my seat. I look around, but no one seems to notice. I notice Ronnie's table. He's talking to that one guy whose name I don't know. I suddenly wake and roll over.

I feel annoyed that I feel asleep so fast and decide its time to get focused about WILD. But first, I want to recall the dream I just had. As I am going over it I feel a little shocked at my binge eating. It try to recall the little details but end up having a MILD and slipping right back into the action.

I'm sitting in another spot but still in the same scene and moment. I see the nameless guy sitting alone now. He's talking about fitness and health to someone and mentions something about how the skin of fruits and vegetables have a lot of nutrients. I say, "Yeah. Pretty soon, instead of throwing away the peel, people will eat just the skin and throw away the rest to save calories." I am completely ignored.

I notice a guy I went to high school with get up from another table and tell Nameless that he's been reading a book about core fitness. High School tells Nameless that his "core" is all wrong and needs to work on it. Nameless seems confused and I know why as if I am reading his mind. High School cannot possible know anything about Nameless or his "core" because Nameless hasn't even talked about it.This triggers lucidity.

I realize that I have been eating some type of fruit, or rather, I am holding it in my hand. I look at it, and it looks to be something like a really large plum. There is a bite missing and the interior flesh looks just as deep purple as the skin. I take another bit lucidly noticing the taste. It is deliciously sweet and plum-like but way better than any type of fruit I have ever had. There is no core or seed and the texture is like solid, seedless tomato or maybe a persimmon. My vision starts to fade, but I don't care. I just continue eating the dream fruit enjoying every second. I decide to really focus on the taste and feel of it in my mouth. The taste intensifies to near euphoric levels. I say, "Goddammit, that's so good." I continue like this until I slowly wake up with watering mouth and smacking lips. I look at my empty hand disappointed.

I guess you can see what's been going on in my life.

I toss over in my bed thinking to myself, why the hell do i set these alarms for 5:45 in the morning.....Its way to early for this crap....It doesnt even usually work.... But heck ill give another try....I close my eyes and think to myself in my next dream i will be aware. I will be aware I'm dreaming. I keep thinking that and presto i fall asleep

Dream 1
Lucid

I find myself in a black abyss, there is nothing there but darkness, I look around and see nothing and I begin to think to myself. This is so weird it makes no sense... wait a minute... im dreaming....wait.... IM DREAMING! I feel the rush through my body and know i need to act fast as I'm about to wake myself from getting to excited. I look down and see my hand I begin to feel my hand. The sensation of my skin touch skin was amazing the most awesome feeling ive ever felt in a dream. (I never feel things in dreams) I think to myself i need to find something to look at, but there is nothing but darkness. I begin to rub my hands the sensation growing stronger. i can feel myself slipping mroe though as I now feel myself rubbing my hands together in waking life. I try and make it more clear so i can find an object to touch so i say Clarity now! Clarity now!! the darkness begins to go away as a light fills the air I see the outline of a tree but as I do the dream ends.

Dream 2 Not lucid

I'm driving a car in a city. I see several dream signs but don't think anything of it at the time as I'm trying to pay attention to the road as there are so many one way streets.

Dream 3
Not lucid

Im in a bar/auditorum setting. Im going upfront of this group of people and about to sing joyfull joyfull with another friend who is goign to play the bass at the same time.

Dream 4.
Not lucid

I found myself at a campground at a beach with my bestfriend. I went around the park and saw different campers and buildings recogining some and saying Oh thats where so and so is at. I finnaly got back to our camper and went into the bathroom and the toilet for some reason was also part of like a bath/shower unit. I went down into the thing and took my pants off andp ut them out side the door. I then was about to take a shower or use the toilet when my friend and his wife started asking me questions. I panicked and looked everywhere for my pants but i couldnt find them i was pulling my shirt down and went walking about the camper lookign for my pants and finnaly i was like wait they are outide the bathroom.... and sure enough there they were. I put them on and walked out and asked my friend and his wife what they wanted. She said they needed some kind of creame that is like suntan lotion but for sunburn. im like you mean aloe vera? she was like no no no its more like sunscreen but its for after your burnt. im ike ummm do you mean toe cream? she is like ohh i didnt think of that and left.

Dream 5
Not lucid

I was inside an old western relm / medivel relm there was zombies but i never really saw them I just could hear hem behind boarded up windows. I saw a person i knew and went to go help them as they were with a bad person. they went into a bar and so did I but when i was in there it turned into a field. As i got closer to this group of people i saw them have 3 weapons. The first one had a yellow handled hatchets, the second guy had a giant battle axe that was brown wood handle and dark grey blade, the last guy had throwing axe that looked like stainless steel or just polished steel. As we got closer the guy with the hatchet threw it at us, but to mysupprise he threw another and another and another after abotu 6 tosses he finnaly ran out of axes I then saw the guy with the throwing axe was getting ready to toss his axe he tossed it and it came circling around towards me i quickly grabbed an axe from the ground and knocked the axe otu of the air. I picked it up and looked it over, it was beautiful there was a design in it how it was cut and it looked badass. The threee guys retreated behind a bar and the field vanished and turned back into a bar scene. I looked down at the axe in my hand and flung my wrist to see how he tossed the axe to get it to be like a boomarang. After messing with it i finnaly realized how he did it. I walked towards the bar the three men staring at me I tossed the axe and it went flying. It went rotating through the air and sliced through the first person neck it kept going and sliced the next guys next as well severing both heads from the body it sliced the troat of the 3rd guy as it began to circle back around towards me. I looked at the three men thinking how are they not dead? they are still standing....but as i thougth this they all fell down the first 2's head rolling off and the third one bleeding out form his throat. I walked over towards the bar but as I did a cop came in through the door. He walked over towards the bar and i tossed my axe behind the bar. I went to the front of the bar and then realized there was a severed finger under the bar and the cop was going to realize I did it. I got down on my knees and reached for the finger i could feel it but i couldnt get it nor did I want to as the cop was right there i pulled my hand out and saw the blood from the finger on my own hand. the cop looked at me and i tried to change the topic i said thats a nice gun you have. I have one to! I moved my hand to my hip and showed him my gun. He pulled his gun out and said dont you dare think about pulling out your gun. Im like sorry I thought you wanted to just see it. I stood up and a child behind me goes look theres a finger under the bar! the cop crouched down and began to look. I thought crap he is going to know... I have to take him out! I tackled him and pulled a knife to his heart. Holding it ready to stab. I had a flahs back and realizd though that I once tried to kill this man but I let him go. He was trying to better his life as he use to be a serial killer but clearly he was on the right track as he was now a cop. I pulled the knife away and said I cant kill you I didnt do it before and i wont do it now... He stood up and said oh your that man...you saved my life and put me on the right path. thank you. I will forget this ever happened as well. he walked away and i went behind the bar and looked for that throwing axe. I picked it up and went and sat at table with a lady and a guy. As I sat there i saw a table next to us with 4 men. They were scum bags and were some kind of boss's of gangs or something. I pulled my throwing axe up but thought wait.. How am i going to kill all 4 of them and nobody notice? The girl walked away and I thought to myself no... I will try and get them another day. I left the bar and ended up inside something that reminded me of my grandmothers house. There was several people there with (3 other guys) and they were talking about doing a big job. I was messing around with some sticker thing in the trash that was some kind of map. I peeled some of it off and put it in my pocket so that they wouldnt have the full map anymore. i sat down at the table and the guy to my right stood up to go use the bathroom. The guy across from me stood up and pulled out a pistol and aimed it off into the direction the other guy left. I thought Oh crap... they are going to murder him....i need to save him. I stood up and pulled out my axe and as i threw it his gun went off shooting the other person. My axe flew and hit him square in the chest. I looked to my left and the other man stood up pulling out his gun at me. I grabbed his wrist and pushed the gun to the side hitting it from his hands. I pulled out throwing knife and stabbed him in the heart. But i looked and saw i had hit myself and my blood was goign onto his body. I reached down and grabbed my knife and looked out the window. i saw 2 cop cars coming up. I thought to myself. how did they get here so fast? They are going to find out i did this... I grabed the axe from the other body and ran and turned off all the lights. A few of them wouldnt turn off so i left them on. I ran into the other room turned off the TV and other items I looked out the other window and saw 2 more cop cars coming in from the other side of the driveway. I went down into the basement thinking to myself. how did they know??? It just happened it was an accident i was simply trying to save that person life.... Wait they cant come in unless they have a warrent and why would they have a warrent?? i did nothing wrong prior. I went into the basement and went to the left side and found a secret door and opened and went in closing it behind me. there was an old cement staircase that went up a little ways and then turned into an old storage room. I t was a tight fit but i knew i could bunker down in there for as long as i needed. I sat there for a while not moving or making a noise. the room began to transform and it got bigger. Two people came in which i blieved to be my parents at the time. I told them I didnt mean to do what I did and that it was an accident. They understood and said everything was going to be fine. The scene changed and I was now outside with the man that was shot. He was saying how he felt guilty for what happend and he was turning himself in. he pointed to the right and said see thats my train. That car right there is going to be taking me away and will keep me locked up forever. I said to him but you didnt do anything. I did it I did it all you did nothing. If you turn yourself in Then I am turning myself in as well...

End of dream

Dream 6
Not lucid

I foundmyself walking to a school bus. As we got closer the bus driver asked us if we could walk the younger kids to class and we said sure and had them follow us. I got close to the street and I turned around and said now what do we do when we get to a street? The kids yell run acrross! i said no.... you look both ways.... we looked both ways and crossed and went towards a house. The kids went in besides 2 that were on bikes. I told them to turn around and they did but the red bike fell over and the kid fell off hitting his head. I went over to try and help pick him up but he was moving all around and i coudlnt get a grip. i saw blood on the ground coming out of his head I thougth on no this cant be good. I picked him up finnaly and looked at his head and he had a very very small cut but no blood was coming out of it. I thought thats odd....But oh well at least he is doing better. I walked him over to the babysitter and he turned into a very small frog. I said well here is the last kid...he jumped onto a sign that said frogs and the baby sitter looked at him and said okay thanks. and started to walk away I said wait a minute he is a kid you have to look after... Here... i picked him up fro mthe sign and put him on the other side of the saftey child proof gate and put him down. There you go......She smiled and said thanks and picked him up.

end of dream.

Inbetween the last 2 dreams i had a false awakening seeing and turning off an alarm at 7 am but i had no alarm set for that time.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #190: Menthol and Marriage, Part Three

I have another false awakening in bed, but I quickly realize that it's a dream. I hop up immediately and phase out through the wall onto our street. The scene is dark, and after I’ve taken a few steps along the street, it collapses into the void.

I rub my hands together and keep walking forward. No scene takes shape, so I start thinking of directing where I want to go. For some reason I remember my personal goal of traveling to the Taj Mahal. I imagine that it’s in front of me, but can’t quite seem to get anything to take shape.

Suddenly, there’s a hard transition and a feeling of backward acceleration like I’ve been yanked back hard by a long cord. I think “Hell yeah” and get excited about where this will take me. But I’m super disappointed to find myself back in bed in a false awakening.

The room looks just like waking life, so I assume that the dream blew up on me. It feels very “obvious” that this is a real waking, but I try a nose pinch reality check “just in case”. I’m shocked and pleased when I inhale a rush of air past my pinched nostrils.

Immediately I start floating upward toward the ceiling, OBE-style. The room seems brightly lit now. I marvel at how convincing this feels, and as I roll over in the air, I see Wife laying in bed right where she’d normally be. She looks really hot to me so I float down to the bed beside her, feeling very amorous. I say something super cheese like “Hey girl, you know what I want.” Even in-dream it dawns on me that I sound like a doofus and I chuckle a little bit.

Fortunately she’s not repelled by all of this and we get to enjoy a little bit of sexytime before the dream ends.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #189: Nice Throw

I have a false awakening in bed, but there’s something very static about the background and my hands look hyper-realistic. I know that it’s a dream. As I think this, a small statuette appears floating in front of me. I turn it with my hands and it floats serenely in space, unaffected by gravity.

I get out of bed and the scene starts to get dark. There’s a window on the wall to my right that’s usually not there and I decide this’ll be my way out of the house. I pick up a padded foot stool (that looks just like one from my parents’ house) and chuck it at the window. My throw is utterly puny, though, and the stool falls to the floor. The lame attempt kind of embarrasses me.

Instead of fooling with this any further, I phase out of the window into the side yard between our house and the neighbor’s. Everything looks realistic but way too dark. I run out into the street and decide to fly.

I remember the pointing technique I had used in the previous lucid and I employ it again here, pointing into the air and expecting to fly that way. Again it works great and I take to the air. I enjoy some flight for a while but it begins to feel like the dream is fading even more. I rub my hands and things snap back into focus.

I look out to my left and see a fairly vivid industrial cityscape. Bright fire is pouring out of the top of one of the buildings, which looks like some kind of processing facility. I fly toward it to investigate but the dream ends before I make it there.

Very close call on Task of the Year! I'll definitely have to go for this one again.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #188: CL and the Beanstalk

I WILD into a scene filled with fleeting hypnagogic imagery which quickly fades into the void. I start waving my dream-hands in a repetitive motion, waiting for a scene to form. Nothing happens right away, though, so I start licking my fingers for a while to see if that works.

Nothing’s shaping up yet, though, so I try seeing how far I can stick my tongue out. I can feel it extending outward from my mouth seemingly on and on, and after a few moments I can vaguely see it extending away from my face into the distance. Curious how large I can make it, I will the tongue to expand and it balloons out in a huge, rectangular shape as large as a room. After a couple of seconds, I can see that yes, it actually is a room…

Now I’m standing high up in an office building, looking out over a city skyline through enormous windows. It’s late afternoon. I enjoy the sight of the skyline for a moment, rubbing my hands together.

As I’m doing this, a helicopter rises into view from below my line of sight, turns itself directly toward me, and opens fire with dual-mounted miniguns.



The office windows shatter and I feel myself being pelted with glass and bullets. There’s no pain, but each impact feels like a definitive hit. I know that it’s a dream but I can’t stop myself from shying from the window, crouching down, and nearly cowering. I hold my hand out toward the helicopter then swipe it quickly to the right, flinging it away from the building and out of sight.

The wrecked office is filled with random debris now, and I make my way past it to stand at the edge of the now-empty window. I recall Task of the Year (find and plant some magic beans, climb the beanstalk, and defeat the giant at the top.) My immediate goal is to get back to ground level, so I instinctively point to a lower rooftop perhaps 7 or 8 stories down and will myself to float to it. It works and I’m pulled smoothly down.

Now I’m really enthused about this pointing thing, so I point at the street below, once again pulling myself down. I’m filled with confidence after this, so I just start knocking out Task of the Year steps as quickly as I can.

I need bare earth, so I scoop the roadway aside, leaving a bowl-shaped hollow for my seed. I close and then open my hand, expecting the seed to be there. It is! (Looks like a pine nut.) I stuff the seed in the hole, cover it over with dirt and pat it down. A stalk immediately starts growing out of the ground and I jump onto it as it goes by. The stalk’s growing fast and since I hitched a ride so early, the plant’s doing the climbing for me.

I streak past the nearby buildings and head into the clouds. Immediately a shirtless, ape-like giant with a long beard comes loping toward me, about 100 feet away. I’m preparing to do something violent and decisive to make absolutely certain that I nail Task of the Year, but excitement gets the best of me. The scene collapses into a false awakening back in my bedroom.

I need to use the bathroom, so I get out of bed, head in there, and start peeing. My aim is terrible and I keep hitting the seat, the floor, the tank, everything but what I’m aiming at. This really frustrates me and I assume that I must be super tired.

Just then I notice a strange, robotic laundry machine sloshing water onto the floor. Its label indicates that it’s some kind of diaper-washing contraption. Our kids barely use any diapers these days so I wonder why we have it and why it’s here flooding our bathroom.

My 2-year-old son R walks into the room, followed soon after by a sleepy-looking Wife. Her hair is standing up in all kinds of crazy directions, including one nearly two-foot spike that’s going straight up. “Your hair is pretty awesome right now,” I tell her. She giggles and checks herself out in the mirror. We have a good laugh about this until the dream ends.

LUCID
*The dream started with me just lounging in my girlfriend's sisters kitchen. My teacher Lama Dorjee approached me pointing out a book that was on the table, saying what's wrong with this book. I looked at this familiar book of one that I own and noticed that the cover picture was different. I must be dreaming, I am dreaming! I became lucid in the dream state and it was because of my meditation teacher, awesome!!!

Then I ended inside of a car in a parking lot of an apartment complex. I got out of the car and immediately thought of the TOTM. There some random dude standing the parking lot, so I walked up to him and said can you show me my soul mate. He said yes I can, and started walking as if he was leading me the way. I asked what's your name man. He said essay, like how a Mexican would say it. I said isn't that a little stereotypical, as if I was talking directly to my subconscious. He looked at me and laughing he said yea it is. Then we arrived at an apartment door which seemed a little scary to enter, but I made a conscious thought not to tell my fear limit me in way in the dreams cape.

I entered the apartment and essay kind of disappeared. Then I noticed my meditation cushion in the hall of this apartment. Wow this kind of looks like my apartment I thought. As I thought this the place pretty much transformed into a strange version of my apartment. Then I walked into my room to pay a visit to my shrine. When I first arrived there was no shrine at all just a empty shelf were my shrine actually is. So I bowed one time and the offerings appeared. I bowed again then all this pictures of the lineage teachers that seemed very alive appeared. I looked at each one very closely. It was so amazing and I felt like a had actual contact with all of them.

There was one picture that really stood out, it was my resident teacher Lama Dorjee who caused lucidity at the beginning of the dream, he appeared to be Chenrezik. I didn't meet my soulmate but I did have an awesome dream! Next time I will try to call out to my subconscious for my soulmate.

This is another one of my "ewww OMG" lucids, so proceed with caution.

Spoiler for NSFW:

I drifted off into mindless sleep after a bunch of WBTBs, after we lost power early this morning irl. I suddenly was aware at the start of a dream. It all happened kinda fast, and I thought at first I had just woken up because I was just lying on my stomach in my bed in the dark. But not 1 second later I heard a voice telling me to "go ahead and have sex with her." Sure enough I could feel the form of a naked woman beneath me, and her arms were above her head, tied to idk what (since my bed doesn't have bed posts). I remember that most of these next few moments were pretty much all feeling, an no seeing, since it was almost completely dark. You know how your mind forms a picture of something that you feel when your eyes are closed or when it's really dark? That's what it was like. Really cool, because I feel like I wasn't so distracted visually, which tends to happen a lot in my sex LDs. Anyway, I was fully male at this point, and decided to go ahead and treat myself haha. The woman seemed to not want me to, and protested at first. Sorry babe, this is my dream. I had a little trouble at first getting it in. That happens to me sometimes, where it kinda goes limp in places, then gets a little bendy while trying to go all the way in lol. I need to remember to try lucid Viagra one time and see what happens. I didn't give up, and finally started banging her. She stopped protesting at this point, and this is my favorite part: Since I wasn't encumbered by the scene visually, all my lucid energy and focus went to just feeling. And hell, the scene was already set up for me at the start anyway, so I just got to go with the flow. So I started kissing her skin: her neck, shoulders, arms. I massaged her boobs and they felt freaking real. Her skin was ridiculously soft, and I've said this before in my DJ: no wonder you guys go bonkers for chicks. I kissed her chest, all the while still having sex with her, and stopped at her right breast. I sucked on the part where her nipple should have been, but there wasn't one. Then suddenly a pencil-eraser-sized nipple just kind popped into place, which drove me almost to the edge, but then I woke up.

I woke up feeling pretty good after that one!