lucid

WILD
So, I awoke at 4:00 AM, I didn't move for a bit and found SP kicking in quickly, I entered the dream and found myself at my home lying in my bed, I opened my door and expected there to be a desert, I stepped into the desert and felt the sand between my toes and the heat from the sun. I quickly remembered that I wanted to try out this persona thing I've been thinking about, I wanted to take on the from of Vulture, the 17 year old bountyhunter girl. I morphed and felt my body change, my legs becoming more slender and the hair on them dissapearing, my hips becoming wider and my 'man thing' changing into a 'woman thing' (felt wierd actually) my stomach changing and my waist becoming a bit more slender. my breasts forming and my shoulders becoming more womanlike. I liked this body, it felt very graceful, now my face began to change, becoming more womanly and my hair growing and turning to black. I also already had my 'goku clothes' on. I became accustomed to my new look and tried to control the sand, I lifted my hand and the sand moved, I played around with that power a bit, then I thought about how I actually look, you know, to other DCs, I began to spin and teleported to a very crowded street, I went into the nearest starbucks and ordered my favourite vanilla latte. I sat down and looked around, I saw a woman and I wanted to talk with her, I got up, went to the woman and she said "hey", I smiled and answered "Hey, so this may be a wierd question, but how do I look?" (my voice sounded very womanly, something I hadn't thought of.) She just responded "You look like a cute girl, however I would not wear that outfit, every man is going to stare at you" I laughed and said "thanks, however I'm not into me, ok, I'll go now, bye" I went outside and thought about turning super saiyan, I ran to the middle of the street and began to shout like Goku does in the anime DBZ, I suddenly felt a surge of energy as I got a golden, blazing aura, my hair, though still long, it turned gold and became spiky, i just played around a bit and then I woke up.


I didn't want to do a DEILD, as I had to wake up early anyway.

Date: 03 July

Pre bed: 300 mg valerian

Wbtb: 1/2 latte (other, around 40 mg caffeine)

In this ld series, counted at least 3 DEILDs, memory not at best, many locations

I get lots of HI, some are very clear and I am able to hold a few for a while but not enter them, also some fake hand movements etc.

Mini dream: On a balcony, they are constructing a bridge over it, I have some awareness that this is a dream but soon wake up.

Mini-ld: We are in the middle of having a dinner and I find myself chewing on tasty lettuce. Bf tells me about people having these phantom limb sensations, I reply that this is because they were dreaming, it's the dream body moving. I move my dream hands to check if they fit comparing them to previous HI attempts. All in.

I'm sitting next to bf and see this glow around his head. Could this be real bf? No, I don't think it's him. I say something to him I can't recall and watch for the reaction. The scene devolves into a mildly creepy one where my voice turns into a dry ghostly whispering independent of my command. I also feel some part of my real body (like back or hands supposedly) as I'm about to consciously exist any moment. There are other disturbing noises and I'm so not in the mood to deal with this and wake up.

I take a mini toilet break then back to bed.

LD pack: My recall is bad on this one, I think I deilded at the end. Once again I find myself with bf in a dark room and this time it develops into a full blown Xanous like scenario, bf is quick to disappear and this eerie invisible entity comes instead.

This whole thing is probably just my imagination but I feel I can't control the entity. What it does is lift me upside down at the level of the ceiling and keeps me spinning and spinning in the air. Continuous spacial rotation is not pleasant and you get dizzy just like irl (without expecting it). I'm hoping that this would stop but it doesn't so I decide to attack the thing. I do my best trying to take it apart, it looks like some movie type of dark creature. Since nothing helps, I let go and leave it spin me around to see what happens.

Memory gap so not sure what happened next.

I appear in a dark modern apartment. Do I know this place, have I been here before? The arrangement is somewhat similar to a few old non-lds but not exactly. I'm a bit suspicious that the dark entity drove me here and the confrontation will continue. Just remain calm and continue exploring around, and there is indeed nothing out of the ordinary. I remember the basic task of the month. In what looks like the kitchen are two DCs male and female involved in some sort of activity/experiment and photographing barbie legs or whatever.

I tell them to help me undress and they do. I think they managed to get all clothes but there was a reappearing underwear top thing that I had to take off. Memory gap.

Most likely this is where I went for another deild.

Fragment. I can't recall in which room I appeared but now am at our old place, pass through my room, talk to mom, tell her to open the door to the balcony. She tells me the door is open, I think just like in the dreams of (Sensei?) the doors are always open. I go on the balcony.

The scene is extremely beautiful and vivid though a bit unstable. It's a magical late afternoon and and there are hues of orange in the sky and some buildings etc. I make a mental note about that and cautiously proceed to examine it in a bit more detail before rushing off for totm. I take the time to examine the colorful flowers on the balcony and the surroundings, can feel the wind gently blowing. Ok, enough as I start worrying that I don't have that much time in the dream after all.

The idea is to get down and continue with the naked task with some random DC audience on the street. Time to make that jump again. I feel a bit bolder this time, go to the side where I often decent in my non-lds and take a look at the street, yard etc. The amount of detail is simply amazing - it's as if every piece of the memory falls into place. How am I able to reproduce all that, I have absolutely no idea. The thing that strikes me the most is the grass. There are a few longer types of grass next to the fence with long grass florets that casually and continuously sway with the wind. The scene is perfect.

I am preparing to jump down or get down using any means. I think at this point I might have lost the dream though. There were some DCs on the street I wanted to interact with. Memory gap.

The next scene I recall is a place similar to my school and I head for the window again. Think there was more between those scenes. Feeling bold again at this point, I don't care if I will be able to open the window or get through - the frames change so it is hard to get out but I am determined to get out. In the end it changes so I am able to open it and look down. It's high again. This is so tiresome. I worry that if I jump and fall too drastically this may destabilize the dream and make it go away altogether. What to do?

I decide to slide down the building or do the usual non-ld climbing down so scan the building for any frames, rails and similar items to hold on to. There aren't many of these on this building though, but I give it a try nevertheless. I start to slide down and immediately use the sticky fingers technique where my hands adhere to the surface. To my surpise it works really well and immediately slows down the sliding to almost a halt. This is great, so I will use this now to slowly slide down, but before I move too much, the building gets much shorter and it's as if I just teleported to the ground. Unfortunately, at this point the dream thins out and I'm back in bed

I hold still for a deild again while a bit worried about recall and whether I will be able to go back to the same scene.

DEILD:Back in the same scene! Ok, I decide to help stability a bit, there is a jar full of colorful sand and stones on a table near the building so I take it and pour some of the stones on my feet. They are gentle enough not to hurt but provide nice tactile sensations to hold on to. I also recall that other ld where I drank a glass of cold water and felt so much better. There is a glass and a bottle/bottles of cold water and I pour some on my head and (did I drink any?) and body and on my head again. The water is cold and absolutely refreshing. I think I will recommend this technique on DV.

I continue down the street and spot three possible locations to go to. It's nice and sunny with a feel for some exotic dream city. I stare at the three spots trying to feel which one is most inviting. In one of the places is an Asian guy dressed with cool clothes and a motor helmet. Looks like they are having fun there and I head in that direction but the guy is no longer there. Nearby is a huge head statue made of sandstone, it looks ancient and a booth where this lady is handing out free tickets for some event. I briefly wonder about this place. Then recall the basic totm, queue for a short while, grab the entry tickets undress fully and follow the crowd to whatever place they are going. People stare at me as I explain this is for the totm.

The place turns into some sort of a train/disco. I go further down the carriages of this crowded place. My best friend from school is now tagging along and I become really happy because she is the best companion to have in dreams. I feel a bit conscientious about my previous behavior and once again repeat that this was for the totm. "We just did the totm", I say. Let me see if this is correct. I try to remember what the tasks were, reaching for my memory while being cautious not to concentrate too much like that one time. Yes, that was one of the tasks. I also recall I wanted to look for Sensei. My idea was to teleport to him, but don't want to push my luck too far with that.

There are lots of DCs walking around and I scan them trying to see if Sensei might be among them. Nope. Ok, any of you guys good with teleportation? No reply. Ok, I guess I'll summon him then. *Thinking* There is a tall DC just round the corner. There!

A tall guy walks from round the corner and I begin to question him "Are you BrandonBoss?" He: "Huh? Brandonboss - you?" Points at me. Then points at himself. Me? No. He's got blue eyes and dark blonde hair. I decide to probe him again. He denies being BB and says something else I can't recall. Oh well. I leave him and continue down the carriages which is now more like I'm exiting a disco or bar.

There's a stand where they sell cigars and some of them are actually candy. I spot a really nice package of dream lollipops (under transformation) and feeling mischievous grab them. Yes, it's a dream so I can take this. Oh, wait, the other totm! I wonder if this counts, the lollipops turn into other appealing types of candy and chocolate before I start stuffing them in my mouth. They taste really good like a really pleasant chocolate and other fantastic sweets. I can't believe it but this time I chew all of them.

I'm wondering what else to do here when the dream comes to an end.

Non-lucid, semi lucid, lucid, false awakening

.../It's night and I'm standing on the roof of a building, seeing the ruins of another one in front of me, it's around 10 floors higher than this, or perhaps it's on the top of a hill. I'm not sure about it. It looks very familiar to me, although I cannot define where have it seen it before. I turn on the bed while I'm still staring at this building, there's something I cannot remember about all of this, I feel it's getting late and I must fall asleep first, perhaps have I seen it in a dream? I lay on the bed while thinking about it. After a while and a couple of turns on the bed, I'm standing again on the roof of this building, I think perhaps I might be already dreaming, so I decide to test it trying to fly to the ruins in front of me. I have no problems in flying there, I turn and see the roof of the building where I was previously standing on. Now I remember! It's a recurrent place from previous dreams. Once again I have a flash of some other dreams that took place on the ruins. I see a door on the roof of the first building and I go flying there. When I'm standing in front of it, I remember some creepy scenes from previous dreams, including some sort of crypt where a funeral took place in the basement of this building. I don't mind about it because of my sex drive is starting to take over and all I want to do now is finding her having sex with somebody else. I get inside the building and go downstairs. I find a room where one of my kids sleeps. Nothing of my interest. I leave it being careful to not wake her up. Then I go to another room. I feel she's there, and I could catch her once more. The door is slightly open, and I can see part of her body. It looks like Yes! She's having fun with somebody else, I see some movements but cannot distinguish if there's another person besides her. I get pretty excited about it. I have to push the door and it takes some time until it's wide open, I feel I'm making to much noise with it. When I get into the room, I see she's just changing her clothes, apparently to wear her sleep clothing. She's alone, I'm little bit disappointed although I'm still on, so I take her and start having some fun/...

* Wake up because of the excitement, I make some mental notes before going back to sleep, I don't want to forget about it

.../A fly is disturbing the peace of the room. I catch it and remember there's a spider web under the bed. I go there and throw the bug into the web. It gets trapped although moves too fast and is about to fly again. I try to push it against the web when I see a medium spider coming out. Then a second one although bigger which walks on my hand to take the fly. It's disgusting but I don't want to get bitten so I don't move and wait until it takes the fly and runs back to its place. I see some fights take place with the little one/...

Non-Lucid Lucid

I heard about a zombie infectin, I instantly done a RC and it worked, I've been working on them alot yesterday, and I really wanted to have one, anyways, I became lucid and the lights were out, I looked at the lights and said "Lights on!" and they didn't work at first but I kept looking around and they were just on,I went to my kitchen and tested some jumps and I jumped high, I tried flying but still didn't work, I was thinking to do it outside to fly but I hate zombie, I looked outside my liivngroom window and saw these zombies chasing a guy, making scary noises, it was dark out there, I woke my mom up in the dream and she went to the kitchen, I said "mom, you're dreaming, do a RC" and she done it, and she was like "woah how did you do this?" (was watching inception the night before haha,) and i said "It's called sharhed dreaming, you are in my sub-conscience now, and I said, "look how I project kailyn's (my sisters) room, we walked in the hallway, and while I was going to show her, I tried to spawn a door, (didn't work) I showed her and it was different, while we were looking out, I was just happy that I was lucid for a long time, and I was just looking around happy, it started fading away but I saw my sister and her friends coming to the house and running, but there were no zombies, supposedly it was 12AM but I made it light out haha, I was scared I was gonna be a zombie and end the lucid dream, only because I got sprayed by bugspray, anyways, she came and I was just chilling in my sisterss room looking (IT LOOKED SO REAL), my mom went somewhere else, I went back into the kitchen to jump high, cuz that's the only power or something I can do haha, rather than change lights, I did another RC to actually confirm I was dreaming, and I felt more lucid then before, suddenly i was with darius (my friend) we all went outside for some reason and there was a couple zombies, I spawned a pistol in my hands and tried to shoot them, bullets didn't work, we opened the door again and then there were no zombies around except one laying down with his body chopped off in my yard, my cousin raigan had this big gun, so I spawned one, the sights didn't work so I just left it there, and in my neighbors driveway, there was this military truck and we were going to it, darius was trying to kill the zombie, so i helped, i stomped his head, grabbed a chain and whipped his head and he died, that's where it ended, it was one of my longest lucid dreams and I'm so happy that I was actually conscious in that

7/3/14

Last night bed 1:30am, same as night before. Got up at 6:40am.

WBTB 6:40 - 8am. Got up from WILD nap at 10am.

I knew nap is going to be a good one. Got relaxed in matter of minutes. Cats were asleep and I was at the gates of a LD. Then my cat jumped on me and layed on me for a few minutes. I didn't let that bother me one bit. I was incredibly excited and played out scenarios I would like to dream about. So many cool ones.

Not sure how I got lucid, if WILD or DILD.

LD:
I'm in a place with some people. I look down and I'm in underwear and a bra. I quickly pull off the undies, while saying sorry to those around and telling them that I'm on a mission.

Next I'm in a long hallway. It's rather narrow, like maybe on a ship. But we are not on a ship. Doors made out of shiny lighter colored wood are lining the hall on both sides.

I decide to go door by door and find someone, so I can undress. First door has a female in. I realize this is doctors offices and doors have patients behind them waiting for the doctor. I quickly close the door.

Next door has 2 skinny people with body piercings. I can't tell if male or female. I'm hoping at least one is male. Not sure why I'm thinking I should undress only in front of males.

Another door has a person with blond hair, sitting in a chair facing away from me. I say hi in hope it will turn around and I can see if male or female.

Next door has a freaky huge machine in it, which I recognize as Iron lungs. I quickly close the door.

Next is an x-ray room, or some lab, with lots of females in white coat. I don't find this room suitable either.

Finally, there is a lonely male leaning against a door. I ask him to help me take my bra off. He is doing it with one hand and I praise him for being a pro. Dream cutts off here.

Dream ended and restarted many times. I remember lots of transitions.
1. Just a regular restart
2. I'm rolling out, fall on my knees and I'm thinking I'm actually awake. But have 8 fingers on one hand.
3. Pushing head backwards to get the falling feeling
When I stop pushing, I come back to the bed, so I make it a swinging sensation. Push down, come back up and higher. Untill I was standing on the bed and just stepped off. This one I did at least 2-3 times.


Next dream - I don't think I'm lucid here, because the whole time I'm desperately trying to WILD.

I'm in a large, L-shaped room. She is in the other part of the room in a bed with white sheets. I think a medic is treating her, because at one point she says with pain in her voice "damn, that stings". But that's the only complaint I hear from her.

When that person leaves, I come closer and ask if I can help. Make some food or anything else. But she declines every offer I make. Nothing new, I expected that. Makes me feel sad though, that she won't accept help even from me.

So I sit on a chair next to the bed and trying to figure out how to at least hold her hand without her rejecting it or making it look like some mushy move. All I really want is to transfer some healing energy to her and make her more comfortable.

She says something about her kidneys giving her hell.

She gets up and tries to do some chores. I trail her while desperately trying to WILD so I can treat her aura in a lucid. I'm pushing my head back while walking. I feel like I'm WILDing a few times, but those are all fake, not real lucids.

Now I see through the window that we are in LA. For a second I'm happy that she lives here but then i remember that she is only visiting. I have a few suveniers from my visits in LA and I'm rummiging through them picking out the one I want to give her. But I know she wont like them, so I stop doing that.

I've finally made a success to my 3-year lucid dreaming drought. All I merely did was reality check a dozen times yesterday, drink almond milk, and eat a banana, and bam, lucid dream. Although they're not as vivid as my dreams were back then, this'll suffice.*

I was walking out of a bathroom stall (one that resembled a theatres) when something appeared odd, and I noticed an old friend, Courtney. I become lucid at this point, remembering to remain calm & not go overboard. Looking in the large mirror, try to observe my reflection and surroundings. I see myself, and it looks like me. I end up grabbing my friends face at some point (her cheeks) to get a full observation of what's going on. I eventually tried to open the bathroom door to see what was outside, but I neither remember waking up nor falling out of the dream.*

At some point in one of my dreams, a bunch of friends and I end up taking a plane out of my driveway. We can't go, since Shawntel is blocking it, but she moves out of the way. When I turn around, apparently it's only my sister and mom/dad in the tiny aircraft, and it's like we rented a private jet to visit dad in Africa. We're figuring out who's going to drive it, and I'm looking at the vacant cockpit were the pilot should be. It was too crammed to be a transportation plane.

Around this time I wake up, disappointed of my lucid dream. I try to sleep into another one, quickly seeing the Hugh Jackman Wolverine sitting in a cell with his claws out. I'm guessing it didn't work, since everything went black and I felt tingly. Soon, I AM the Wolverine, acting as an astral projection for Bruce Wayne as he sneaks through a factory. His sneaking methods awfully resemble Jensen from Deux Ex (since I've been playing it nonstop), and he appears to be hiding his identity. He sees me as his guide, trying to catch up to me as I end up changing my forms many times. After many metal ladders, we eventually fall into the factories' production: a huge river of marshmallow fluff. My form now being Morgan Freeman, I tell him: "Try it, Bruce! It's marshmallow." We continue our ride down this river, and eventually now I'm in the perspective of Bruce, as next to me is the female protagonist of the first Christian Bale Batman film (I don't remember the actress's name). She doesn't recognize me, but I eventually kiss her, where she says, "you kiss just like Bruce." We climb our way out of the river, completely clean and happy, and I make a call to Alfred to pick us up. I think she was fishing for something? She had a pet rat, or ferret that ended up using something to dig around with a tail-thing, and the pet ended up eating a beetle at the end of their rod.*

Sportscars and Lady's
Lucid #3

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I lam in a car with two very good looking ladys. It is a black, very expensive sportscar as I notice soon. I am in the front seat and one of the girls is sitting in the backseat. I ask them if I can drive and they let me. I have some doubts because at that point I didnt have my license yet, but I do it anyways. We drive arround a littlebit until I see a military barrack infront of me.
They seem to be training and I fear they might see me and take me to jail.
I am in my school, in class and try to sneak out. I check out at the front office and go outside, just to see my teacher waiting for me. The next thing I know is that I am on the roof of a driving van singing some song. I become lucid and try to jump but I wake up soon..

Bike-Tour
Lucid #2

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am partying with a bunch of my friends. Suddenly I am on a basketball court and play basketball. A friend comes by. Next to us we see a group of kids. I cant dunk the ball when they look at me. Now it looks like I am in my school. I go watch a movie with my brother. We decide to watch Wolverine. Suddenly I am back at the party and worry about him being alone in the movie-theatre. I take a bike and start driving there to get him. I do a nose-RC and become lucid. I see a lake and everything is really bright. I feel the air on my face, but wake up..

Highway to Lucidity
Lucid #1

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am on a highway. I realize I am on the wrong side and I see cars coming my way. I notice I am dreaming and lift up the cars. I telepport in the nearest car, an orange sports-car. I wake up..

I entered a lucid dream using the WBTB method. I left my body after the sleep paralysis, and gazed outside my bedroom window. I could see red roses jutting out from my neighbours house and wild yellow flowers. They were very vibrant and sort of swishy looking like someone had painted them. I heard a voice tell me "this is all yours. This is your painting." Which exhilarated me way too much, and the dream started to fade. I started to spin. As my vision faded to white I imagined a grey fountain and let my dreaming mind fill in the rest. I was planted in a hell-ish looking place. The ground was red and looked like lava, the fountain completely empty and covered in ancient scribblings of some forgotten language. It was in the middle of the lava room. An old man walked towards me dressed in tattered brown clothes with a hood on. I told him, "Take me to meet your friends!" He took my hand. As we started to fly together, the dream scene melted into a deep forest. We flew past blurry trees (due to the insanely fast flying this guy was doing) and we ened up standing in front of a ginormous tree in a small clearing. There was a very long ladder leading up to a door (the entrance of the tree) The forest was illuminated by glowing blue light coming from absolutely no where, and it was absolutely breath taking! The tree was so saturated! A dark oreo brown with rich florescent blue leaves sprouting from the top, enough so that there was no sky to be seen. We entered the tree. The room was small width wise, but went on for ages horizontally. One wall was covered completely in doors, all set in top of each other going up the wall. Like you had to fly up to each door. There were roughly 6 people in there, a lot for a room so small, but it felt very cozy and warm. The inside bark walls were very smooth and almost shiny, and much lighter than the outside bark. It was a glowing golden color with lines of light brown streaking it. There were bunk beds on the floor and some jutting out from the walls, and book cases sunken into the walls. I told the man who brought me there "thank you for showing me this place" he said nothing back and disappeared through one of the doors. I sat down on one of the bunk beds with a kid in glasses, a button up white shirt and black dress pants. I asked him "do you know you are in my dream?" He gave me a weird look and replied, "of course" I then asked him "are you okay with it?" He looked confused. He said "I need to get back" and then the dream suddenly faded, I tried to spin but I ened up waking up! Wrote down every detail I could remeber in my dream journal, and kept the images alive throughout my day. I wonder if the guy with the glasses in my dream was me, saying I needed to wake up "get back". I definitely overslept! Got 10 hours last night, top notch.

*I forgot to call someone's name in my dream for the share dreaming thing. But I'll try it tonight

In my first dream I was with a few people and I kept disturbing a boy from meditating for some reason. He eventually got mad and we ended up fighting.But I used the power of sound to defeat him than woke up.

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[The second dream]
I was in a room I didnt know but Dawn was there and he made me feel happy. He even sang a song for me which was kind of funny cause his voice was deep but still sweet. I went out a window though cause there was a guy who was creepy there. He asked Dawn if he was singing for him but he said no it was for me. I was outside in a field looking at garbage I think when I called Dawn and we went back into the house but it looked like my real house now. I was downstairs and looking at some dolls that were broken. I saw a Elmo and Kermit doll too and some small talking dolls. Seeing them gave me the feeling Christmas was over honestly. I went upstairs carrying a clear garbage bag and saw my dad was eating at the table. I told him I was going outside. Honestly, I remember grabbing the doll for protection in the dream.I think it was cause i was talking to mini doll people and they told me I should take it earlier in the dream..Anyways I found 2 extras bags in the bag, removed them, than had a false awakening. And let me tell you....IT FELT SO REAL!! I thought I was awake but than I heard footsteps walking up to my bed. I tried to move but I couldn't and even tried waking up but nothing. That's when a huge guy who looked like a human/Alien with his alien dog taped my mouth and proceeded to tie me in my bed I think.In my mind I was thinking this was going to be a night terror thing. The alien dog thing started sniffing me but I managed to break free. I asked the guy why he was here and he said he was going to destroy a monster. I asked if I could help and he said ok. I think we faught something after that or the guy was looking for something in the closet.That's when I heard a guy say how beautiful a girl looked in the living room so i went to look at myself in the mirror. My hair was really really short and puffy in the front. I tried to use the straightening iron but out of no where it caught on fire. I shouted to my dad there was a fire and my brother used the extinguisher to put out the fire. After a few problems and getting on fire a bit the fire was gone. My dad said it was funny how there was a fire before the wedding. I was confused and the alien guy came back and asked how everything went than I woke up.

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In the third dream I was in a place where I was playing with a guy but than his mother got mad and asked where her son was. We went to look for him and when we found him I started playing with his acoustic guitar. In the fourth dream i was in a contest where i had to race other girls to collect flowers for dawn. I won and ended up in a girl's room where a guy offered us aloe vera icream.Than i woke up.

So I could remember 95% of my goals but I could accomplish none of them because I had the shittiest control ever...
I'm guessing the reason why I had such a little amount of control is that I was constantly worrying about waking up (I probably wasn't in REM anymore, it was incredibly unstable).

There are some positive points though: I was able to close my eyes and have some sexy time even though it was generally very unstable. I think I am getting better at stabilization, and I'm getting rid of popular beliefs like "if you close your eyes in a dream you wake up" (If you have read my LDs from a while back, you probably noticed that I "feared" lucid dreaming at night (ironic?))

Also I was feeling a lot like I was just discovering lucid dreaming, which really made me want to explore the dreamworld more - you know, see what I can learn about myself, try to dig deep into my subconscious... I also want to experiment with muscle memory a little more.

Lucidity: 9/10
Control: 3/10
Vivacity: 6/10

I'm lucid in my grandfather's bedroom. I checked reality plugging my nose. His map of the world is clipped on the wall at my right, just like in real life. I instantly feel the dream fading, so I hurry up and rub my hands together. I was expecting an instant boost in vivacity, but I have to spend a lot of time stabilizing in order to actually feel my whole body.
There's a brunette girl laying down on the couch.
... Alright, alright. I've had a lot of clean LDs, I can afford it.
I walk up to her, and ask innocently "You would give me a bj, right ?".
"What's that ?"
"Well it's... forget it, I'll talk you through it. Come here."
She gets up aaaand I'll skip the details
I had to rub my hands together the whole time

After some pretty awesome time, I walk out of the room and into the living room, still rubbing my hands. I think about my Dream Guide quest. I try to summon her (I think she's a her) but nothing happens.
I try again and get upset, until I realize that now might not be an appropriate time.
After all, I haven't been a very inspiring lucid dreamer earlier.

I notice that my family is gathered around the sofa, all watching TV. I remember another goal of mine: do a simple magic trick to a dream character. So, inspiring myself from a post that I read a few weeks ago, I take a crumbled sheet of paper and I close my hands around it. I visualize a dove emerging out of my hands.
I open my hands and... absolutely nothing happened.
Damn that shitty control.
I try again but still, nothing happens.
Ok, fine. But I'm not giving up.
I sit down on the floor and close my eyes, meditating. Then for a few seconds, I think "sage mode, sage mode..." for about 4 seconds. I stand up, and try the dove thingy again.
I fail.
... I guess this dream is simply bound to be control-less.
With that in mind I walk to a window, rubbing my hands, and jump out of it. I land on the grass, and I start walking down the street. I get to a road; it looks a lot like the one in my neighborhood, but larger.
I set out for a sex dream. I try to spawn a girl but nothing happens.
A car parks near me, and the girl comes out of it.
Oh, passive control, what would I do without you ?

*Skipping details *

When I'm done with my stuff, I walk to a bike which was abandoned there in the middle of the road.
I try to do telekinesis on it and to my surprise, I actually can get it to move a little before I wake up.

I start DEILDing but I renounce: I feel that the dream is going to be a pain in the ass to stabilize. Plus, I currently have a pretty bad recall; wouldn't want to loose my LD.

Much better recall and clarity last night. I've been reading and meditating before bed instead of mindlessly scrolling through the internet, so that seems to be helping. Also, I fell asleep listening to some binaural beats that claim to "Access powerful super consciousness connection."

07.02.2014

Office Space (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am at work talking to my fellow student worker, only she's not the same girl who works with me irl. I don't remember what we're talking about. Suddenly, the girl grins mischievously and starts kissing me, backing me up to sit on the counter and grinding against me. It feels great, but this is not the best place for such activity. Especially if Brandon catches us--- I'd never hear the end of it from that perv.

"Not at work," I say, pushing her off of me. It seems that we're actually dating, so we have plenty of other opportunities for making out in places that won't get us fired. Still, she takes my rejection the wrong way.

"What, are you ashamed of me!?" she snarls. I'm kind of surprised by her anger.

"No, no! It's just not professional to do that here..."

At this point, a customer walks in. Normally our front desk person would take care of walk-ins, but she's out for the moment. My angry girlfriend goes to the front to see what the woman needs. She seems to be retired professor who needs access to her old email account. My girlfriend YELLS at her that she has to create a ticket and to stop bothering us with her stupidity. I rush to the front as the old woman is about to burst into tears. "It's okay, I can help you, Ma'am." My girlfriend stomps back to the work room to sulk. "I am SO sorry about my coworker. She's.... having a bad day and taking it out on the wrong people."

07.02.2014

Facing Team Rocket (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I'm wondering around campus in the dark, enjoying the solitude. Near the back of the psychology building, I gleefully roll down the hill like a little kid at a playground. Soon, though, I hear the sounds of another person nearby. I cannot see them in the darkness, but I know I am no longer alone. I have the feeling that I'm about to be attacked. Though not afraid, I decide to avoid the trouble. I run back tothe main part of campus. Running feels so great, I never want to stop!

*memory lapse*

At some point, I "wake up" with my aunt talking loudly over me with her oldest daughter. She's saying that she's going to start making me do a bunch of chores in order to provoke "a conection with Jesus Christ" within me. She also says some really mean things, some of which are potentially true, such as that I take myself too seriously.

By now, I'm hurt and angry. Doesn't she realize I can her her? I think to myself furiously. Still, I pretend to sleep so that I don't have to talk to her.

Later, a couple who look just like Jessie and James from Pokemon are after my brother. If I understand their yammering correctly, they wish to hand him over to Lord Voldemort. They're in our old house, holding us at gunpoint. I suddenly become lucid.

I grab my brother's hand and pull him through the (closed) window behind us. He seems way too reluctant to run. "Come on, you idiot!" I yell, practically dragging him behind me. "This way!"

I intend to run down the gravel road behind our house to hide in the field of tall grass. When I get there, however, I'm dismayed to find that the field has been mowed. While we still have a head start, I do my best to make more grass appear. Every time I succeed, though, we lose our head start and Team Rocket spots us, making my newly formed hiding place utterly useless.

Abandoning the grass idea, we bolt off into the woods instead. I pull my brother into a giant hollowed out log. Team Rocket seems to know exactly where we're hidden. They drag us out from the log and point the gun at us once again.

This time, I have a gun of my own. I fire at them--- and miss! When I pull the trigger again, all I hear is the empty clicking noise.

But suddenly, there are two more shots. I think they've shot my brother until they both drop to the ground, dead.

I look up to see a man that I'd met in an earlier part of the dream that I can no longer remember. He smiles, winks at me, and turns around to walk off. I think he's going to leave, but he suddenly turns back and starts purposefully towards me.

"What are you doing?" I ask him.

"What do you think?" He pulls me into his arms and kisses me passionately. This is some kind of dramatic continuation from our earlier conversation, so for the sake of the plot I kiss him back. It sparks absolutely nothing within me. I think to myself, If I actually still liked guys, this would be an epic ending to the dream.

So yeah, remember I said that my record of most dreams in one night was 6? Well, from now on that number will be 8! And to make it all even better, we had another LD, an FA but I was smart enough to notice it.
One thing I must say is that the evening before, I decided to make and drink 0,5l of orange juice and this morning I also tried SSILD which probably caused the LD.

1. The prison

I'm in an armored buss being transported to a jail somewhere in the countryside, we stop and leave the buss however there isn't much security and suddenly I'm holding a bike next to me. It doesn't feel like I'm going to jail, more like going to school, a friend of me is further up ahead on his bike. I shout him to turn around cause that's the female-prison, in the distance I saw a camp with some women walking around in white clothing. Just next to that camp was the male-prison, I saw some men walking around in the same white clothing and walked to the back. I stopped next to a building to put my bike somewhere, infront of the door I planned first but then I thought it could close at night and I wouldn't be able to reach my bike. (The building had some weird overhanging with a fence that could be lowered or something.) Inside that building I knew would be the introduction to the prison and administration.

2. The escape plan

I'm entering a garage/barn type of building, in it there are several cars parked in the middle of the room and one car in the upper right corner. It does feel like a prison still, I think we're doing some trip for the day. It's either early in the morning or evening cause it's quiet dark and I feel quiet tired. The plan was that some inmates (including me) that wanted to escape would get in the car in the upper right corner and at that moment the roof would somehow collaps on the other cars, killing the guards and giving us a chance to escape. However nothing happened and we drove away in a convoy.

3. Bio-beer

I'm at some expo where they are presenting a fully self-sustaining machine that makes beer, starting from growing the plants and then distilling it... The room was very large, I think they used an old warehouse although the lamps were quiet modern. Between the large machine (Almost the size of the room itself) ran small hallways, visitors walked around looking at the contraption. Then there was a part where you could recieve a cup of beer and taste it, I took one but didn't seem to have a sense of taste, then I saw my sister walking to me.

4. The session

I'm watching some film through the eyes of a prisoner, he's sitting in the cantine/session room or something and infront of him sits a guard in riot gear. There are more prisoners in the room with each a riot guard infront of them. The exercise is that the prisoners have to gently beat the riot guards but control themself to not keep punching when they're told to stop or something. The prisoner first tries to just talk with the guard but he responds with gestures that the prisoner must beat him on his chest. Then the prisoner starts beating him, way too hard and way too long. After some time blood starts coming from the guard and another guard has to stop the prisoner. In the end I think the guard survived it though.

5. Boat fail

I'm with my sister somewhere near a lake, we both wear winter-jackets and it's really cold. There isn't any snow but it's a tundra climat with vast planes and mountains in the distance, the lake is about a kilometer wide I guess. We have a rubber boat and decide to try and cross the lake, she sits up front and I in the back. After 5 meters the boat sinks and we quickly swim back. We were quiet amused by our fail and were able to laugh about it.

Now I wake up, note down the dreams I already had and do SSILD for the next 15 minutes after which I fall asleep in about 20 minutes I think.

6. I-don't-know-what-is-happening-dream

I wake up in my bed and there's a small tail (the size of a hair) on my desk in a certain position, then someone I know from school walks in a we talk about the tail and some other stuff. Then I exit my room and suddenly fly around some weird city, then I see an old house in the city that suddenly gets split in half, a deep hole appears in the middle, I see two people in the right half of the house on the upper floor. Then I enter the toilet of my house which has some one-way window in the door, I can look outside but people from outside can't look inside. Then I see my cat somewhere and his tail is in the same position as the tail I saw on my desk.

7. The friendly werewolf* (SSILD)

I wake up in my bed and hear my mother swearing cause the cat has peed next to the litter box or something, it's all really blurry and I'm disoriented. I say to myself "You know, this is all really weird, why not do an RC?", as I do the nose-plug I notice I can breath normally. I don't panic but instead relax and lay back in bed, I nearly decided to just go back to sleep cause I still felt tired but then something in my head told me "Dude! This is a dream, you've waited for this, DON'T WASTE IT NOW!". I sat up again and noticed that the dream was still unstable, I catched glimpses of me looking around in my IRL bed and knew that I could wake up any moment. I felt the texture of the bed and concentrated on the dream till it was stable enough to support itself. When I got out of the bed I didn't feel the need to go too extreme, instead I thought about what I could actually do now. I decided to try out a transformation cause I've never done that before, and being as original as I am I choose to become a werewolf! It was morning in the dream and the sun was shining through my bedroom windows but I didn't care! I focused on my right hand, I couldn't see it but I did feel it, I expected it to turn into a claw of a wolf. After some seconds I felt the bones in the hands rapidly growing as if it grew the nails, almost wolverine-style. After some time the transformation stopped and I was able to examine my hand/paw. It looked quiet good for a first try, it had white fur with a bit of yellow which I didn't expect, oh well. Although transforming my hand was cool it wasn't a full transformation, so I thought about my arms transforming now. I felt the fur Climbing up my arms and when it reached my chest I sort of levitated of the ground, shortly after the dream ends.

8. Sniper in training

I talk with G-man or someone and I'm a sniper in training, I get a rifle with a scope on it that looks very box-shaped. My first task is to shoot green pacman-ghosts on a pacman game, I look straight down on the game like you do in a normal pacman game. I have no problems aiming the square scope on the green ghosts and I shoot all of them. Then my next task was to shoot decomposing whales that stranded on the beach, they were still alive and panicking and I saw their skin bubbling from all the gas in their body. I walk along a road next to the beach and look for them, some whales aren't decomposing and thus don't have to be shot. I quickly spot a target, a man which I think is a researcher or something stands next to it and I think he has difficulties with the smell of the rotting whale. I shoot the whale and I think my desire for it not to explode because a man stood next to it caused it to remain intact. I walked back and I saw that the road suddenly passed through a tunnel of some sort of green algae, I saw how the waves of the sea breaking on the shore left behind a large amount of green algea and as a wave ran over the road the whole path was covered in it and even elevated by the sheer amount. It looked very dry brittle in a hexagonal-shape and at first I didn't want to step on it cause it looked dirty. However it was strong enough to support my weight and I quickly passed through. Then after that task my next and last task was to find and kill G-man himself. I looked down on some board again like in pacman and saw a military-base/city like map, there were some tanks driving around on it and jeeps. First I had to locate him but I just started shooting all the tanks from above until most of them were destroyed, my bullets seemed to pass armor quiet easy. After most of the tanks and jeeps were down I still hadn't killed G-man, then I could look through the roof of a hangar, in it were 2 more tanks stationed and a large tin can in which I think would be sardines with oil. I destroyed the two tanks but one accidently collided with the tin can and suddenly in the bottom left of my vision I saw a video of G-man in a small can with oil and I saw a hole was pierced in his shell. Then I knew G-man was in the tin can! I kept shooting it and saw in the video how the shell got more and more damaged, G-man looked quiet annoyed/angry and I saw his face being covered in the oil until the got completly crushed by the force of my bullets and the video stopped.

Well, it looks like I'll drink another 0,5l of orange juice this evening...

Train Station (SSILD)
Lucid #16

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I am a t train station with a friend. We follow the platform, which is made out of wood planks. As we go we see people jumping from different spots. I realize everything arround the station is a big playground. We get to the end. In front of me I see some bars. I squeeze myself through them and climb down in something what looks like a pit. Its dark and I´m a littlebit scared. I don´t know the location but I realize the train station is build on poles, like a pier.
I climb back up to see an old man and some old ladys waiting for me. Apparently I colored the wood-planks while climbing down the bars. I look and my tshirt is indeed stained with white paint. The old ladys seem to be on my side, the old man on the other hands threatens me with calling the police. He seems like loosing interest in the situation and I climb back down. Now I really don´t like the location and climb back up. My friend grabs a crossbow and shoots an empty bootle standing somewhere at the playground. Knowing there will be glass where the kids play I panic and start running away.
I find myself chewing on something, I spit something out and see a tooth in my hand. I get lucid, look at the tooth in my hand and try stabilizing but I wake up..