lucid

Date: 1 May 2013

Pre bed: 400mg valerian

Total sleep time: 6.30 hrs, pre travel

Recall: Had vivid dreams today, but my recall is very weak. A strange combination perhaps due to the valerian. Had to rush out of bed so that may have contributed too.

Overall impressions: It feels like I had a great night, whatever I was dreaming left me with positive feelings.

Dream1: I went somewhere before that and now am on my way back. Following me are the brothers of someone who looks like my boyfriend. He is Armenian and obviously so are his brothers. Overall positive feelings towards these guys. I think about them and how their family is looking for someone like me, to get married to their son. I also think about how I have figured out they are Armenian and find myself in an Armenian church.

I am back from wherever I came and me and another DC not sure if he was Armenian, are on the street. I am looking at the sunset and commenting it. The sun looks a bit strange but since a few days ago I was looking at a very strange sun phenomenon, caused by the setting sun and some rain clouds, I thought I am seeing something similar.

Fragment 2 mini-DILD: I am on the street and suddenly a strange creature, like a game-like monster with a skirt, similar to a Cyclops maybe, appears out of nowhere. I immediately become lucid and tell myself not to be afraid and that this is a dream. He vanishes as fast as he appeared, I find this a bit strange. Memory gap. (I did not know about TOTM May at the time, this is game-related residual I guess).

I suppose that after he was gone, I lost my focus and lucidity and engaged back in the dream. I have no other recall.

LUCID

*I became lucid while driving on these random streets. I just remember flying a bunch of places, enjoying the views. The dream was long but I don't remember to much of it since it was the start of the night. I do remember meeting with a bunch of people like my self who knew there potential and power, like super heros.

*I am lucid and with this girl that works with me. We decide to see who can create the best dream scene. Then we end up on top of huge mountain covered in snow! I don't remember who actually created the scence, but of course utimately it was me.

This lucid dream was very unusual for me because it occurred less than 25 minutes after falling asleep, right at the beginning of the night.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #91: Talking to Myself

I'm seated at a restaurant, talking to a couple of friends, including "Leroy". I'm making a point about some amusing fact I'd heard when a waiter seats himself at the fourth chair at our table. I say, "There's even this study where..." and trail off when I realize that the waiter isn't going away. I turn to him and say, "Uh, how's it going?"

"It's going well," he says. "I was wondering if you needed anything." He says this last part with some concern, like I might be very unwell.

I look back at the rest of the table and see that my friends are gone. I'm confused and a little embarrassed. "Were there two other people here...?" I ask. The waiter gravely shakes his head. I start worrying about myself for a moment before realizing this is all a dream. "Don't even worry about it. This is a dream."

"Ah, very good, sir," he says, standing from the table and gesturing toward the exit.

I get up from the table and walk toward the exit. There's a glow coming pouring through the cracks at the edge of the door as if something as bright as a star was behind it. I phase through the door, winding up in a room that has plywood flooring and a ceiling that's sloped like the top of a roof. It looks like an attic. At the opposite end of the room, maybe 25 feet away, I see the source of the light: a fiery, brightly glowing furnace.

I walk toward the furnace as it spits these little gobs of liquid fire onto the floor. I'm close now, but I don't feel any heat. As I close to within just a couple of feet, the view of the furnace fades and I find myself on a set of sharply descending stairs. Each stair is only about 4 inches long but drops almost 2 feet. As I walk down them, I'm descending so fast that it's almost like slowly falling into a pit. I can't see where I'm going. I wind up stepping onto the railing and slowly making my way down that way. Somehow that seems to normalize the slope of my descent.

I get to the bottom of the stairs and I'm in what looks like a family room with hardwood flooring. There's a board game laid out on the floor. The dream starts to fade around the edges, but I manage to hold onto my view of the board game for a couple more seconds, seeing that it's composed of a game board, a stand with some cards, and some sort of gently-spinning purple sphere. I can no longer move and my field of vision shrinks rapidly until I'm awake.

I arrive in Haven with the hopes of plotting against the Templars.
Although I have no new ideas on how to approach the situation, Silver might.

He joined us just a few days ago, because I put off asking him until then.
After attempting to make Ifrit join our cause, which failed quite dramatically,
I did not have the confidence to ask Silver.

Silver had done so much already, not to mention his horrible childhood.
He deserves to rest... to enjoy life a little. I shouldn't burden him with my issues.
But I ended up visiting him anyways, because I felt lost completely.
I'm not sure what I was expecting when Yuya and I got to the place he lives at now.
Talking to him again ended up being a little awkward. I wasn't really sure what to talk about.
Right as I managed to muster enough courage to address the topic of the Templars
I saw something that completely threw me off.
A woman entered the house holding a baby. She nodded at us and continued upstairs.
I realized Silver had a family now.
I made up an excuse to leave. I could never ask him to join us,
not after knowing Silver was finally at peace with himself.
But as we left he told us to hold on.
He ran upstairs and shortly after returned with his katana strapped to his back...
It turned out that he had read in my eyes that I needed his help.
I tried to talk him out of it but I failed.

So here he is now, standing in Yuya's garden next to a table, a place where we like to sit down
and discuss tactics. He is talking to Yuya and another person I don't think I have met.
Yuya's expression worries me quite a bit.

"What's wrong?"
"... It's about Vega."

Given the way she said it, something terrible must have happened there.
Vega is a small village which we often visit to go to a Café called Serenity.

It's situated on top of some sort of structure extending over the village.
An amazing place to stargaze whilst under the influence of some kind of psychedelic drug Vega is known for.

"What happened?"
"It's gone."

It is clear to me now that the other person with us is a messenger who informed her about the terrible news.
He tells us that I need to go and see. Yuya draws a portal and we enter it together with Silver.

The remains of Vega are in flames. They are small in numbers, they must have been burning for some time.
A man points towards Café Serenity, which still sits on top of the structure which appears to have withstood the fires.
He doesn't say anything though, he just walks away. Did he live in Vega?
We rush towards the Café, finding both of its owners outside.
Although the building still stands, it is heavily damaged and no longer in a usable state.
The owners tell me not to worry. That it is not my fault.
I enter the Café. Across the walls is written in burned wood:

"For as long as the dragon remains hidden, those that help protect him shall share his fate"

Templars... they've done this. Yuya hugs me in an attempt to console me.
They have killed these people because we are hiding from them. To show that if I do not reveal myself they will kill those that I know.

"They are right you know. This is not your fault..."
"Yet I feel guilty"

I know that she's right. I couldn't know that they were going to do this. And even if I did, what was I supposed to do, sacrifice myself?
The owners of this Café were honest when they told me that they do not consider this my fault.
They know who I am and what I have done. But somehow the fact that they do not consider me guilty makes me feel even worse.

One thing is clear to me now though. The goals of the Templars have indeed changed.
Back in the old days they were attacking other worlds in order to steal something I have long forgotten.
They did not know who I was, and it was me that got in their way because I wanted to protect these worlds.
But this time they are not after the belongings of worlds. They are after me specifically.
This is very odd, considering that Templars have no concept of campanionship.
Yes, I have indeed killed one of them a long time ago, but they would not hunt me in an attempt of vengance.
They know no such thing. They see each-other as assets, not as brothers in arms.
Until now I assumed that they are attempting a pre-emptive strike. So that I can not interfere with their goals again.
But in that case I would be a secondary objective, and I am clearly not.

That is exactly what the voices said...
Recently, when I slept in Haven, I would hear voices during my dreams.
They would whisper things suggesting that "they" were after me only. That it was because of time? And that I cannot surrender.
The messages were rather cryptic, and I didn't pay much attention because until now my dreams whilst in this realm have always been
very abstract and not really meaningful. But now that I think about them I get a feeling that they might help me find a way to deal with the Templars.
...
My hopes lie with abstract and cryptic dreams I had within a dream. That is how desperate I am.
No. It's worse actually. If the Templars were here it means they are on the right track.
Surely they were able to force someone into telling them that we are hiding on Teraluna.
It won't take them long to find that place, even though Haven is heavily shielded and we are masking our auras.

"They will find Teraluna..."

Both Yuya and Silver look at me rather depressed. I am the one who always comes up with the plans. They are relying on me for a strategy to save Teraluna... to beat the Templars once and for all.
And I've got nothing.

"Silver, knowing only the name of the moon, how long would it take you to find Teraluna?"

He's unreasonably good at finding things.
He sighs.

"The location of Teraluna is a rather well kept secret. The library is of great importance, protecting it is easier if its location is not known."
"Unfortunately there are many stories about it, some of which hint at its location."
"If I would try hard enough I'd probably find it in less than a week."

Less than a week? How am I supposed to do anything within that time frame?
And it's not like evacuating Haven and going into hiding somewhere else is a solution without removing the Templar thread.
They would manage to hunt some of the inhabitants down somehow.
Not to mention the library. It is of great importance, and they would burn it to the ground.
And then there are other things... even more crucial things.
Teraluna cannot fall.

The three of us combined aren't able to deal with a single Templar, yet there are 12 of them left.
Even if I had my dragon spirit and the phoenix essence back, it would be utterly hopeless.
And besides Ifrit I don't know anyone remotely as strong as us, yet I would need an army.
Perhaps death is catching up with me.

"Don't you dare even thinking about surrender."
"... I won't."

Silver is looking at me, probably expecting me to reveal some kind of backup plan I had all along.
Something insane enough that it might just work. I've got nothing.
In my desperation I recall the voices I heard in those dreams.
For some reason I reach out with my aura, attempting to locate anything that reminds me of these voices.
As I catch myself doing this I ponder about how ridiculous this is.
That's not how scanning for auras works. You need to at least be able to guess how it would feel like to be
in proximity of a person in order to find someone through aura tracking.
But for some reason that is beyound me, at that very moment, I do find something.
It doesn't feel like a person though, and the feeling is very weak.

If I wasn't hiding from the Templars, I could probably pin the location down near instantly.
But that would involve releasing an amount of energy that cannot be hidden.
The Templars who are actively scanning for my aura would find me immediately.
That goes for all of us. The templars know all of our auras.
But there is someone else I know, who is rather talented in aura tracking.
He might be able to help me find... whatever this is.

"Okay..."
"So I might have..."

Silver and Yuya open their eyes wide in hope.
Oh boy...

"Listen. This is a longshot... no, I wouldn't even call it a longshot."
"I have a lead alright. A lead to maybe find some sort of way to..."

They are euphoric. Are they not listening to my words? I don't have shit.

...
Fuck it. This is all I've got. If it turns out to be nothing then that's it.
They are relying on me.

"I need to visit an old friend to help me track someone down."
"Until I do, I won't be sure on how to approach the situation."
"I assume there will be a grand battle though, so prepare yourselves accordingly."

They both nod.

"I'll be back within less than three days."
"In case I should fail..."
"Bullshit! When you come back you'll have a plan."
"You always have a plan."

No pressure...

"We'll evacuate Haven in case we need to make a last stand."
"Yes."
"And I'll have my mother talk to Ifrit..."

Somehow I doubt that'll help.

"Hyu?"
"Yeah?"
"... Don't you die on me, alright?"

I smile.

"Working on it!"

That extinguishes the last worries in her facial expression.
I summon my phoenix wings.
Time to go annoy the hell out of an old friend of mine. Time to meet a talking bird.
I take off into the fabric of space.

I've decided to really try to have more lucid dreams. A while back I had one where I jumped from my bedroom window and flew down my street and thought 'wow' so I googled it and found more about it, but then sort of forgot.

I watched Inception the other week and that reminded me, so I have been keeping a dream journal since then. I normally remember my dreams quite well, and can go into loads of detail about dreams that I had years ago. But I read that it can help to notice dream signs and other such things.

Anyway, the reason for me joining this site tonight is due to the (almost) lucid dream I had last night, out of nowhere. I had sort of forgotten about trying to have one until now.

What happened in the dream was that I was at some sort of prom/dance type event. Unfortunately I didn't write it down, so I don't really have all the details (I'll get back to that). In the end of the dream, I believe the host was fuming at me because I wore a purple and white dress, which I wasn't supposed to, since she was the only one allowed to wear that combination, and my dress was similar in pattern. Throughout the dream, if I ever saw myself in a reflective surface, I appeared as an old woman. I knew that no one else saw me this way (I don't know how I knew, but I did). At the end of the dream I went to a bathroom and caught sight of myself in a mirror again, looking old as ever when I thought "Hey, this isn't right. I'm not old. This must be a dream!" And then I looked at my left hand and my ring finger was missing. At this point I must have got excited, because everything started to spin and muddle up, and before my hand touched to rub them together I was lying awake in my bed. Well, I'm not actually sure I was awake. It may have been a false awakening. I checked, and all my fingers were there, but when I woke up for real it seemed a dream. Also, I thought I had written it down, but when I woke up properly, it wasn't in my notepad. Not sure what happened, but lets hope I have a real lucid dream sometime soon!

Apparently, in the dream, I was taking part of an odd parade procession. It felt like something I'd do for community service at the university, and I did recognize some classmates among the crowd of what I take were students. It was night time, and we congregated on a large enclosed field with overgrown grass, some of it reaching up to my knees. We were all carrying backpacks, and for some reason, I have a feeling that the procession had something to do with the movement of the planets. There was something that we were doing that was astronomy related, but I cannot remember what exactly. It just comes as a feeling.

So we all began to walk in a messy line and entered this large building whose inside reminded me a lot of my grandmother's house. We walked around in circles, into the house, back outside, into the house again. Occasionally, we would sit in an IMAX-kind of theater and watch a presentation or a video, and once again, I have a feeling it was astronomy related. At one point in time, we stayed outside and mingled. For whatever reason, I had apparently set my backpack down, and when it was time for us to move again, I left it there. So when we were inside the building, I realized my backpack was missing and I went back to get it. But when I went back outside, I was hit with a sort of deja vu, and realized that I was dreaming. By now, the skies had become lighter and were cloudy.

Giddy with the realization, I did what I always did in a lucid dream, which was to fly. So I spread my arms like wings, down-stroked, and took off. My first instinct was to summon a character, and decided I would try to have Sebastian (from Black Butler; I am a hopeless fan) appear. I tried to simply will him to appear, but the only thing that presented itself was a crow, which I took to be one of his forms. I began to follow the crow in the air and realized that it was flying in a weird slow-motion. I realized that the dream was decaying, so in attempt to keep it from falling apart further, I concentrated on the crow, and willed it to fly regularly. It worked for a while, but eventually, I wound up back in bed, awake.

This is the very first DILD I've had in over a month and I hope to have more.

#1 - Missed Opportunity!! [DILD]

I was in a warehouse setting where I was doing something that I feel like I would have wanted to remember, but I can't recall it very well. This is most likely because it was my first dream of the night and I fell asleep high because I had smoked to get rid of a good deal of stomach pain. I vaguely remember a couple quick, nondescript but tauntingly awesome looking flashes of it and then I went though this big opening to be standing outside of a small building waaay up high on a cliff. It basically looked, from my perspective, like it was a cliff looking down into the Grand Canyon, it was so far away. I could also see a bustling city in the center of it in the distance, and I decided that it would be really cool if I got to the city by doing a running jump and roll off over the cliff and just bounce all the way down there. I wanted to get a good shot so I climbed up to the top of the building I was next to (somehow...) so I would have more running space, but as soon as I turned back around to get the view again the whole scenery had changed to just be a city around me. Damn it!!

I was sad but then I heard a mysterious evil voice saying that they had kidnapped someone and hid them on a tall rooftop, so I scanned the area and found them. I flew over to the roof and this guy was just stuck up there and he was grateful to be saved but seemed really unstable. He was really paranoid about being touched and backed away from me when I tried to approach him, and then things got really psychedelic before my eyes. He was rapidly transforming into different humanoid shapes, the only one I can really remember being a LEGO body, but I knew that it was just because the dream was falling apart.

#2 - Star Wars Restaurant [DILD]

I was with some girl at a Star Wars themed restaurant, and there was a dream leading up to it I'm pretty certain, but I can't really remember how we got there. I became lucid as I was just looking at her, but then shortly after that I woke up.

Not the most exciting thing, but still a lucid.

#3 - One Gathering After Another [DILD]

I was hanging out in this big building in some room that was supposed to be like a chatroom except in person, and it was for DV users. Unfortunately I don't really remember anything that happened in this room , but afterwards I met up with my friend M and went with her to a party downstairs. There were lots of people I knew there, including this guy GL that I hugged, and when I was there I started becoming lucid. I noticed that there were far too many things in my pockets to be comfortable, like significantly more than they could actually hold since they're pretty small, so I decide to go find somewhere I could safely put them down. As I was leaving I saw this girl S and her girlfriend P who I had just met recently at a meeting of BDSM people around here. Somehow I decided that they must be good lucid dreamers, so I had them come with me.

We all three walked out of the room and then flew up and phased through the ceiling up to the next floor. I was taking us back to the chatroom, but we had to walk through this fancy party (almost like a ball with royal dresses) to get there and we lost S along the way. I got to the room and noticed that there were lots of people I knew from growing up there now like this girl AH I met in kindergarten instead of people from that forum. I wasn't phased and just started emptying my pockets there, but in the meantime my lips began to swell and were feeling very bizarre. I tried to distract myself from the sensation but it was very solid. I turned around and P told me that we needed to grab S before we went back to the party, but we would have to find her first because she had shapeshifted into a girl in a fancy dress in that room. I see this short girl in black and suddenly know that it's her, so I just walk up to her and grab her around the waist and say come on and she gives in.

I think this dream could have gone on longer, but the lips thing was becoming worse and worse and I started trying to move my tongue around to see if I could get my real body to do it and see if I was lying on my face in an uncomfortable way or something, but I couldn't tell so I just said to hell with it, time to wake up. I opened my eyes seconds later and, of course, there was nothing wrong.

#4 - Time Flowing Backwards [Non-Lucid]

I got up in the morning and I was using my cannabidiol oil, and the first thing I noticed was the clock in my room. The second hand was moving backwards, and I became slightly concerned about it. Not enough to really spring into action, though. I went into the bathroom to start putting the drops on my tongue, and saw that the clock in there was still moving normally. I was suspicious of it though, and didn't think of it as enough evidence to convince me that time wasn't flowing backwards.

#5 - Depth? Who Needs It? [DILD]

I was in a class in what appeared to be something like high school, but I was communicating with someone I only met this semester in college, this girl in my humanities class named C who sits two seats to the right of me. She wasn't actually in the class though, while this guy SJ from high school was, I was just talking to her remotely. Depending on when it was in the dream I was either typing an email or instant message to her or something or I was writing on a piece of paper that magically functioned like that and filled in messages whenever we wrote them. She was talking about mushrooms and I told her they were really cool. She said she secretly wanted to try them but she was afraid of getting into it all, and she used this metaphor where she said for example that a reason that she wouldn't want to use amphetamine is because it speeds you up and she wants to experience her thoughts at the natural pace, she doesn't want any of her life to race by and when it came to mushrooms she felt the same way about her creativity.

Around this time Rob Huebel and Rob Riggle walked into the room and I perceived them as cops based on their comedy routine that they showed in Super High Me. At that time I suddenly noticed that I had a bong in my hands and was hiding it under the table, and they never saw it though it should have been really obvious. I became a bit nervous and sort of forgot about my communication with C, but then I started to become lucid. I got up and hurled the bong at the wall and watched it shatter, and in the process I accidentally knocked my cellphone forward off of the table. I stretched out over it and tried to reach down and back to reach it but it was too far away, but then I got an idea. I did that trick like where a cartoon character will act like the moon actually is really tiny and right there in the sky and they'll just put their fingers right around it in their point of view and grab it, and it worked perfectly. My phone was a little bit smaller than normal but I still had it in my hand, so I put it in my pocket and started walking off.

I could tell that the dream was starting to fade away, and I saw this large girl in blue scrubs around my age who reminds me of someone I've seen before at school leaving the classroom. I jumped up on to her and just hugged and squeezed her, but as she started taking us out of the room things were getting very dark and all I could really still do was hear people talking in the halls. I started making out with her and could feel it a bit and I had hoped that this might revive the dream, but no luck.

When I woke up I really wanted to go back to bed and try to keep this crazy ride going, but I had a friend who crashed here overnight and I didn't want to be rude by just staying passed out all morning, so maybe next time!

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

At some point in dream i was in my room and i was standing and staring at the wall. I spontaneously realize that i am dreaming, some weird voice keeps repeating word "Nila", and i can't move for some reason. Shortly dream fades to black before i can do anything. Voice still repeating that word and i try to visualize some other place but shortly i feel somebody's hands on my shoulders. Some other voice starts saying something along the lines "You will wake up, you will wake up right now"( ), i say "No" while still trying to change location and move, but shortly i indeed wake up.

Nap #2(fragments):

I was at home and there was something weird happening. I was busy in the bathroom, but some family member was interrupting and annoying me. Then everyone left and i was looking in the window. At the street, somebody was driving huge truck like crazy, ramming everything and causing total destruction. I decided to go outside and check it out. He did managed to crash the truck to the point of it not working, but even after that he was never giving up and was still trying to destroy everything by throwing some heavy objects. There were also alot of construction workers around trying to repair everything. Then building and nearby trees were set on fire and burned out.

05/03/13

Disturbed
I am at school. I look around and see it is my old high school, though I haven't been there for years. I walk down the halls looking for some sign of where I am supposed to be going. I spot someone I don't want to see. Someone I knew during high school who pretended to be my friend when she really had no interest in being my friend at all. Her name was Jamilia. I see her a bit farther down the hall but she has not yet seen me so I duck around a corner into a restroom to keep her from seeing me. I really don't want to see her. I look around and see there are a couple people I don't know in the bathroom doing their business. The stall walls and doors are only about waist high. That is high enough to conceal what everyone is doing but not high enough to conceal who is in each of the stalls. That seems like a dreadful lack of privacy. I don't want to go back out the way I came in because Jamilia might still be there so I look around and see the bathroom has two exits. I go out the other exit and find I am in the assembly room. I walk into the large room and I hear music playing loudly. I see there is a band there setting up for a concert. The song they are playing is "I'm Alive" by Disturbed. Awesome! Disturbed is going to be playing at the school! I can't wait to hear them. The song doesn't sound quite right and I notice their lead singer isn't there. David Draiman is missing and one of the others is singing instead. It doesn't sound bad, just different. Then I spot movement off to the side and David Draiman arrives, jumping from the upper level of the auditorium on a cheap looking bicycle and landing only a couple feet from me.

I am surprised the bike holds up to the jump, as it looks like it is made of plastic. The bike crumbles as soon as David Draiman gets off of it. He joins the other members of Disturbed and they continue playing "I'm Alive" as if nothing strange had just happened. I stay there and listen to the music since no one has told me I have to leave. I am hoping I can get autographs… I look around for something they might be willing to sign. All I can find is an old notebook, but it seems better than nothing. Maybe I can start an autograph book. I am waiting to see if there is a break during which I could approach one of them when the dream ends.
 
The Memory Remains
I am in a space ship or space station of some kind, I can't tell which or even that it is in space. All I can tell is I am in some kind of control room with computers and monitors all over the place. I have the feeling I am in space, though I am not sure where that feeling comes from. I am the only person in the control room, so I look around a bit. I see some of the monitors are active. One of the monitors is showing what looks like vital signs and a display that indicates the cloning process is complete. Another monitor reports that pertinent memories have been restored, other printing indicates these pertinent memories have to do with skills and fighting technique. It reports all other memories have been successfully blocked. The third screen shows a woman on the screen being equipped with robes and armor and weapons, I recognize her from a video I have seen, she is the Assassin known as Shao Jun. She has a blank look on her face and I wonder if those non-pertinent memories are of who she is. The people equipping Shao Jun with her weapons and armor are Templars. I put together that they have intended to clone an Assassin with all of her skills and use her… but what if she remembers who she is supposed to be? And that the Templars are the enemy? It seems likely that she will recover the blocked memories on her own in time, but why not speed the process on a bit? I see this control room is an observation deck and I am looking down on the room where all of this is taking place. I see Shao Jun in the room below, now standing there by herself, fully equipped for battle.

The door to the control room opens and a Templar scientist enters the room before realizing there is someone in here. He asks who I am and what I am doing there, but there doesn't seem to be much doubt about the answers to those questions since I am in my usual Assassin robes. He is going for an alarm on the wall when I grab hold of him, he immediately goes into wimp mode and starts begging for his life. I need to make sure he doesn't set off an alarm, maybe lock him in a closet? I let go of him just for an instant and he tries to stab me in the back with a mini lightsaber he had tucked into his belt. The blade singes the hair on my neck as I barely avoid it, killing him with my hidden blade before he can try again to kill me. I break the glass of the observation deck and jump down in front of Shao Jun, who seems unsure of whether to attack me or not. She seems a bit disoriented. A Templar comes back into the room and yells at her to kill me. I focus on the song spell "The Memory Remains" by Metallica. As the song plays, Shao Jun does attack… the Templar. Cuts him practically in two with her katana. More Templars come into the room. They may have energy blades, but they aren't getting anywhere near hitting Shao Jun with them. I watch as Shao Jun kicks the asses of every Templar that tries to come through the door. She turns to me and says she can see I'm an Assassin, so let's get out of here… and take out any Templars in the way. I climb back to the observation deck / control room. I set a couple controls and then a mechanical voice announces that the self destruct process has been activated. Time to get out. I teleport both Shao Jun and myself out into space where my Fire Valkyrie is waiting, we appear safely inside.

Shao Jun seems only slightly surprised by the teleportation. I fly away from the space station that is shaped like a giant Templar symbol… and we get out of range just as it explodes. I am thinking I need to take Shao Jun to some place where there will be other Assassins, but I don't get to figure out where to take her before I wake up. Hetfield tells me there is now a Shao Jun in my inner world…

LUCID

*I became lucid and decided to talk down my stairs in a calm fashion. I didn't have anything planned in mind as soon as I got to ground level the dream ended.

*I became lucid again standing in my kitchen. I thought I should try to lay and egg! As I did this it felt like I was going to shit on my self so I stopped, because I am pretty sure I would shit in physical haha!(Next time I'll try a different way haha)

*I became lucid standing in a parking lot next to a drive through. I had an idea of creating a vortex gun and use this to change my dream scene. I created by expecting the gun to be laying on the ground behind me. It was there! I have for sure mastered manifesting objects. I picked the gun and started to use the gun to create this vortex of energy to step into. When the vortex was complete I stepped into wanting to travel to japan, nothing happened the dream ended.

*I became lucid in my room the menla buddha appeared on my wall where my shrine use to be at.

*I became lucid walking outside some where. I decide to use my self phone to watch dream videos on youtube.(always interesting) The sun actually blurred the vision of my phones screen. I lost lucidity.

I dreamed I was at a pizza place... sort of. There were children who spoke Old English learning modern English with some sort of weird alphabet system, and machines that made snowballs, and everybody was having snowball fights. Then I went into the school, which became a pizza place. Then I was at a coffee/tea shop that only served tea that was friendly to your kidneys and had a lot of info on kidney health and which teas were good or bad for you. I had a string hanging from my mouth that was attached to my gums somehow, or part of them. I wanted to pull it off but was afraid I'd hurt myself and it would hurt.

The pizza/tea place had tables with umbrellas, even if it was inside, so I stole one and dragged it outside. I was in kind of a strip mall place. I went out to the bus stop but it was pouring, so I dragged my table/umbrella with me. The bus was already passing as I was getting to the stop, so I waved my arms and yelled so the bus driver would see me.

As I stepped onto the bus, I became lucid.

I didn't do much in this lucid except practice maintaining lucidity. I sat down and looked around and reminded myself to remain aware. The dream was going in and out of focus - sometimes it would be clear, sometimes it would be blurry with little detail. I practiced bringing the DCs around me into focus and was able to give some of them faces. There was a youngish asian kid and a grandmother with a young boy. I practiced changing my own clothes (I changed into a red polka dotted bikini). I tried to summon Robert Downey, Jr. but was unable. Mostly, I just rode the bus around and worked on staying aware. When I felt things fading, I would periodically remind myself to stay aware. I think this whole thing lasted 15-20 minutes of me just riding the bus around. I made it day and watched light shine through the windows and cast shapes on the floor... then I made it night again, then I made it rain.

I woke up in a puddle of drool. I guess I was concentrating a bit too hard... haha

#175 - 4:41AM - DILD/DEILD?

I found myself practicing dream control by focusing and relaxing my awareness. It seems like I was at work and shrink heat shrink tubing with my mind. Finally, I focus awareness so totally that I realize I am actually lying in bed.

I say something to myself like, "Now that I got my awareness I'll just focus on my body untill..." My body suddenly fold in half and part of it feels like it is shooting straight up in the air. I feel happy now that it's go time and I transition. I have the strange eye thing at first and the bedroom is dark. When I step out I can see the rest of the house is brightly lit.

I wonder into the kitchen and stop myself. I started thinking about tasks. For some reason I thought about how I already did the one where you tell a DC they aren't real. I was really happy how long I've been lucid and glad I got to pull off another one. (Did I forget the previous dream or was this a false memory?) I decide that I want to summon CanisLucidus but I don't about think why. I try his reaching a hand out trick but it doesn't work for me. I feel really stupid standing in the kitchen reaching my hand behind me. I realize I'm sort of half squatting making a strained face. Well I wouldn't show up either. I decide I was trying too hard and use expectation instead.

I suddenly have an odd feeling like someone is with me or I am being watched. As I walk into the living room I tell myself he is on the couch and try to really believe it. When I get there I see a long white couch that we don't have and someone stretched out on it. They are covered head to toe in some off white electric blanket. I pull the blanket down and peer at the face of the person sleeping on my couch. I am disappointed when I see it is a woman. She looks a bit like the woman that showed up the last time I tried to summon CL but her face seems blurry. I said, "Can you transform into CL?" She makes some face that seems to convey, "I'm trying to sleep. Go away." Then she rolls over and puts her face to the floor. All the while I am visualizing CL and her hair changes to what I would think CL's is from the back. I abruptly wake up with no void or no easy DEILDing.

I have some mild wakefulness but luckily I've learned to get over this quickly. I forget to try another induction technique and have a couple vivid long NLDs with a lucid fragment

Just a quick summary:

In one I was sneaking around some building with my wife. I had parked the car someplace near and we took off on bicycles. We met some other ppl on bikes and was going to ride together. Then it starts to rain and I wonder how I am going to get back to the car without getting caught.

The second one I am watering the garden when I notice there are now 4 dogs in my back yard. I spray water at the two newcomers but begin to feel bad about that. They seems lost and I decide to find the owners. I pick one up and it is fat and cute but also looks a lot like some dog/pig hybrid. I marvel at this for a moment. Then I get it and yell at someone to come look at this before it's over (the dream). Again I abruptly wake up.

all DILD
1) started out at lawton, walked around to ease anxiety about being a 20 y/o at an elementary school. escaped something a window of an empty classroom and ended up on a street i recognized as "Wall Street" with a "historic" building in the center of the block. i went in since in was the direction back toward the school, where i wanted to return.

whatever the building had been previously the rooms had been turned into offices. however, the offices had an undeniable residential quality. the decor was old but clean and deliberate, as if halted in time decades ago. the rooms were themed and each had a name like old manor homes. the names could be found on wall plaques if i cared to find them. i took one tour around the first floor. the rooms ran into each other without hallways. i spontaneously became lucid when i got back to the foyer. i became excited about finding myself in an environment actually interesting, but also became afraid that the building would evolve into something else before i could satisfactorily explore it. this anxiety was present the duration of the dream, and caused me to take measures against it whenever i felt on the brink of instability, i.e., whenever i wasn't in motion. see carpet, must feel carpet. see silver spoon, must pick it up; when examining it, keep it turning. see nesting doll, not interested enough, then move on, and hurry. for this reason i made few general observations. it's not lack of recall; i never processed them in the first place. (should note that broad observation/exploration is the very thing i was excited about doing in this environment, and this is probably why i was incapable of it.)

potential instability refers not only to the dream but to my emotions' effect on my imagination. the building supposedly in disuse or at least empty seemed as i said to have been regularly maintained. i wondered whom i was disturbing. soon character appeared to come out of an adjacent room. the first was a hollow man, as if CGI but incompletely rendered. he refracted purple and had no face, just facets. i seduced him before my imagination could turn him into something sinister. vaginal penetration was unsatisfactory, so i switched to anal which was great but unlike reality. i stayed on top for both. i didn't see orgasm happening, so i got up and left. i think i lost almost all lucidity soon after this, but who knows, it's been almost two weeks.

the other three characters i encountered (unless there was a fifth, which would've been a bear and with whom i wouldn't have interacted at all anyway) i don't remember the order. one was a suited gentleman whom i suspected was a vampire. he could've been called Vlad, to give you an idea of what he looked like, but probably wasn't since that'd be lame. we talked briefly, him asking polite questions and me defending myself being there. the other two characters was a former coworker P and her roommate. i encountered P first. she was excited to find me there. she asked if i wanted to see her room and i asked about the decor. she said with regret that it was [something lame] and indeed it was dorm room retro. the room was a tiny sleeping quarter with a 2x2 entry space, a platform that ran around that on which her roommate slept along the wall with the window, which let white sunlight in at the time, and an even higher platform recessed into the wall where P slept. we were going to have sex, a matter of course at this point, and i was already straddling her when i decided i just wasn't into it/females. as i exited i saw her annoyed roommate glance at me under her duvet; this probably happened a lot. i don't remember how the dream ended.

2) i was in a little cottage that was nominally the second home Josiah and i had rented, June 2011, Liz's place, but more resembled the layout of the house my family rented when we lived in the Philippines... or maybe not. like Liz's however, it was a unique, quaint space with questionable security, plenty of potential, barely-livable disrepair. you entered through the living room, which had a floor of hard white linoleum. facing in from the door the living room extended further to your left, there may have been a fireplace we hadn't bothered to use since it seemed not to have been used for a long long time. to your right the dining area began, the wall extending further out, a single window. the dining area was separated from the kitchen by one of those overhead cabinet + counter combos. the counter wrapped around the kitchen to form a U. there was a wall on the other side, which opened up to both a larger dining room (like the house in the philippines) and a hallway down which there were bedrooms and a bathroom. i went down that hall.

tbc

I'm only going to write from the point of lucidity on. I don't really remember before that too well.

I look down at my hands and oh look, I have six fingers. What I want to know is how and why that seems to work every time. It just seems weird. Anyways, I become fixated on my hands. It would seem like my mind just does not want to achieve my main goals. As I am trying to get my sixth finger to feel sensation as this can sometimes lead to adding bigger and better limbs. I look up for a split second and when I look back down my hands are covered in those was-off pokemon tattoos. Maybe those darn sisters of mine snuck in when I wasn't looking. And some of my fingers are stuck together. This actually probably comes from a conversation my mom was having with my sister. Anyways I thought the fingers were cool but after awhile I decided that I would just tear the skin and separate them.No problem there. Then I decided I would take it a step further. This time I decided to remove an entire finger. First I have to break the bone, apparently my master separator does not go through bone. Luckily the bone broke cleanly and I tore off the skin. Turns out my hands don't have blood, but more like the guts from the little aliens in MIB. I woke up immediately afterwards.
Apparently my brain thought I was taking a nap. Stupid brain. Oh well, I'll take what I can get.

first i shall set the scene: I was walking down a curvy road, trees stood tall on either side and the air was full of mystery, small specs of blue light muffled my vision, a mist like glow, surrounded me and the trees, I continued walking trying not to get to excited i could make out my shadow on the floor, and the fine glowing mist began to sparkle more vividly and the dream state became clearer and clearer......

i came to a curve in the road where and arch way of trees stood, and at the end of this arch was dark figure, i continued walking until this figure became luminated by the missed, the girl of my dreams (literally.) a beautiful face a beautiful smile and a petite body structure, everything about her was perfect, i can still remember her face, it was cross combination of two people i know, my subconscious had created something beautiful for me.......

upon getting closer this girl whos name remains a mystery said with cheer in her voice that she had been waiting for me, i can only remember smalls snippets of conversation through out the dream as recall faded through out the day and i was unable to write it down in the morning, we had this long beautiful hug and fell in love, holding hands we walked through this arch way of trees to the end of which was a cabin with a balcony which we walked past, she took me to this spot with an astonishing view of two mountains surrounded by pine trees as far as the eye could see,where the luminescent glow began to take form, wolves, bears, dragons , we lay down together and she explained to me how it was my power animals which i was unconscious of at the time, upon realization the animals ran towards me and blasted into the sky and formed as the aura borealis and ran through the starry night sky as me and this mysterious girl lay there in awe, where we had another discussion and she showed me her dark side and then her light and said to find a balance between mine........... the dream went on like this for what gladly seemed like hours, i have to say i have had allot of cool dreams but this is one i will always remember and treasure in my heart, i woke up smiling to a beautiful sunny day with birds singing and wow i had a good day that day.