lucid

2008 Dream Archive

I was looking for a new lucid dream task. I decided to visit a dragon kingdom! Lots of dreamers have done it. It looks fun. My plan was simple, I summon the dragon king, ride on his back, and I'll have an adventure in dragon kingdom la-la land.

I was just looking forward to a fanciful lucid dream.

What I got was something really unexpected.



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For most of the dream, I wasn't lucid. I was hiding and running away from typical dream bad guys. I tried to escape them by running out the back door.

When I came to the back porch it was such a beautiful sunny scene. It 'snapped' me right out of my zombie-ness, and I realized I was dreaming.

Thrilled, I shout out into the blue sky "Can I see the dragon king please!"

I look up anxiously at the sky, hoping my dream meets my demands. At first nothing happens. Then I see it! A small purple eastern dragon descends from the sky. He wasn't very ornate. Very simple, very plain looking. Just a purple serpentine dragon.

He lands on the grass about 30 ft away from me. The sun shines on him like a spotlight. He looks my way and waits for me. Excited, I fly over to him. For a brief moment an image of a purplish female flashes before my eyes. She had strong Indian features. This didn't make any sense to me. The image super-imposes over the purple dragon, and slowly dissolves so that only the purple dragon remained. I do remember that the purple female said something to me, but it didn't make sense to me. My mind sorta blurted it out.

What comes next is probably the weirdest dream experience for me. Now that I was at the presence of the dragon, I was compelled to love him, respect him and honor him. I kneeled before him on the soft plush grass. I looked up at him expectantly like a small child.

Now I've had dream characters tell me they were angels. I've had dream characters tell me they were God!! But I greeted them with doubt, fear, or just curiosity. I never felt compelled love or bow before any of them. So my purple dragon was a first (and an only for that matter)

Face to face with the purple dragon, I felt safe and warm. His wrinkled dragon face was kind, loving, understanding. He felt wise. For a moment I just admire his face in awe. There was nothing abstract or surreal about this scene. His face was perfectly three dimensional and real.

He speaks to me, and his voice rings in my head. "The Fire is in your eyes!!". But his poetic and triumphant words were totally lost on me. Sure, I've breathed fire as a dragon in previous dreams before. But what kind of fire is in your eyes? I repeat it in my head trying to get it..the fire ..is in..my eyes? What? Understanding that I didn't get it, the dragon explains

"You only need to imagine and it will happen!"

It was like being slapped with lucidity a thousand fold. If I thought I was lucid before, hah, that was just day-dreaming! This was lucidity. This is what lucidity is all about! I really finally understood that I am creating this dream. That every ounce, ever grain of sand, every moment was created in my minds eye. I am the God of this dream.

That's when I remembered how shitty my dream world has been. With murderes killing beloved and terrorizing my entire dream world. The dragon says no more. I thank him respectfully, and fly off to shape my dream world to my liking.


..............sigh.........

only problem was, the moment I left the dragons side my god-like lucidity dropped instantly. I was back to normal lucidity. And with every step further and further away from the dragon - I was less and less lucid. And in a few moments, I was back to hiding from the dream bad guys.

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I woke up feeling I really let the dragon down. But at the same time in awe that a 'dream character' could have that kind of effect on my awareness.

Why didn't the dream follow expectation? Why didn't I get a KING who took me to his kingdom? Why did I get a lesson on awareness? And who was that purple female that flashed before my eyes?

I had to know So I thought....why don't I try again right?



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I got my opportunity two weeks later. Again I wasn't lucid at first. The dream was long and vivid and super fun. With zombies fighting a war with rebel mutants. I'm looking for a way out of this zombie hell house. And I'm facing this long hallway. It's white, and sunshine is flooding it from the bedrooms.

This stopped me in my tracks and made me realize I was dreaming. Maybe it was the sunshine? The zombie fested dream world had no sun. It was always night.

I fly out the window and the first thing I do is fix my dream. In an instant the zombies were gone. The rebel mutants danced and celebrated in the streets, now bright and sunny!

Remembering my dream task I call out in my dream "Can I see the Dragon King again...........please?"

The sky instantly EXPLODES with the crackling of thunder!! Two meteorites crash land on both sides of me. They're crackling, smoking, smoltering, and still actively exploding with what looked like fireworks. The suddeness of the meteorites really caught me off guard, I was on the ground like a scared cat.

Something begins to levitate me towards the sky. I'm facing the bright sun, and it feels like a WILD. Or if you believe in astral projection, I was caught in this projection. My heartbeat raises, I'm really anxious. My thoughts race. What's going to happen? Where am I being taken? Not that I felt something bad was going to happen. On the contrary, it felt like something amazing would have happened had the projection completed!!! Too amazing maybe!! Apparently I was too scared.

The projection stops, and I'm gently put back on the ground. Damn! I'm instantly disappointed in my self for being so nervous. I thought that would be the end of my 'summoning'.

But then a soft voice speaks to me..."Go on..he's waiting!"

The meteor marked my way. It landed at the base of a building. I look up the building. And staring down at me was a sphynx statue. It was a deep blue color. Is this who I am supposed to see? A statue? Where is my purple dragon?

I fly up to the top of the roof. As if I had taken soo long to get my ass up there, the statue hand changed forms. It was now in a laying position, like that of the sleeping buddha......Except.....reversed? Rather than resting on his right arm, he was resting on his left. *I've been told the reversed position is for females!*

The sculpture smiles and comes to life when I finally land on the roof. And transforms into the same purple woman I had seen before!! I recognized that this women is my 'purple dragon'!

There's this sort of fuzzy feeling all around me, I dunno, what do I call it? Cloud 9?

I willing kneel by her feet. My legs are firmly tucked beneath me. I look up expectedly again like a child. Waiting for my teacher to teach me. Feed me or give me a cup to drink from. My lesson seems to pick up right where I had left off. Lucid dream lessons.

"First, start off the objects nearest you until they come into full clarity"

Since I am kneeling, I start with some strange objects by the beings feet. Everything was very surreal at first and hard to focus on. But then slowly the ground came into pristine clarity. Solid and life like. But although the ground had come into full clarity, I was still really puzzled by what I saw. There's something big and metal between me and the purple being. Are those...chains?

I pick up the ugly thing "it's rusty!"

She laughs as if a child had said something obvious and silly. I felt really foolish, especially since I am sitting down here while the being gets to stand tall. I didn't want to be the 'child'. I wanted to be the adult like her.

She didn't give me any more instructions, but I took some initiative. Now I wanted to see her in full clarity. The dragon was easy for mind to digest. But there is something about this purple woman, I couldn't put my finger on. It's like I can never stare at her directly.

I start slowly. First with her feet. I slowly lift my gaze, bringing everything into full clarity. Her body becomes solid. Her clothes dazzling and ornate. The environment also becomes completely solid. Slowly, still lifting my gaze I bring the entire scene into full clarity.

All that's left.......is her face.

It's the one thing I wanted to see! The dragons face brought me such peace. But the moment I tried to bring her face into full clarity, it ripples like water. For a brief moment the entire dream around me was in full clarity, except for this face. It made me uneasy!!

My mind starts screaming "what's going on! why can't I see your face!"

The more I tried, the more it rippled like water. Like a vortex. Eventually the entire dream was swallowed by the rippling water, now glowing white. I tried to hold on, and just before my dream dissolves completely in this void of white watery light......I understood.

I couldn't see her, because what stood before me was just an illusion of what really is. A mask. That the purple woman, isn't a 'purple woman'! But I was still really unsure about what I just saw.
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Waking up, I'm left with more questions than answers. When I could see the 'illusion' of the purple woman, I noted something very weird about her. She had no breasts!! There was something masculine and feminine about her all at once. After all, who did I summon? A KING right? Not a queen?

I then began to consider...what if it wasn't a purple woman? What if it was a man? That's when I realized who 'she' looked like.

Krishna!


Why would summoning a 'male' dragon deliver me, a purplish androngynous being? And why was this feminine being so concerned about increasing my awareness? What's the connection between a dragon, the feminine, and higher awareness?

And what kind of experience did I miss out on with a failed projection?

I had some help from the Astral Dynamics website. The answer given to me I think is the best. That my dream might have been a kundalini experience. Even if its just a little one. Being completely IGNORANT about the kundalini, I had to do some research.

It turns out the dragon is a very symbolic image, which does in fact represent the Kundalini. The Kundalini as most of you know, has been considered apart of the Divine Feminine aspect in us all. The coiled sleeping serpent. And also

"The dragon is often synonymous with the dual aspect of the serpent, which as the caduceus represents, is both conscious/unconscious."

"The dragon is the "mercurial serpent" and is also synonymous with the divine water and egg, and it's symbolism goes back as far as Lilith, or Melusina, who lives in the philosophical tree. Later, Christ appears as the archetype of consciousness and Mercurius as the archetype of unconsciousness. Thereby, the dragon is related closely to the creative godhead in symbolism, and also represents the union of opposites."

After considering that my experinece was more than just a mere dream character, I was honestly too afraid to ever repeat it again! I dunno, I felt like I was only summoning the 'Dragon King' out of naivity. After all, the second time around, I saw no dragon. And 'Dragon King' no longer seems like an accurate name to give to whoever, whatever it was I met.

Just goes to show, dreams can defy expectation!

Well, yeah. One of two lucids last night. Second trial, second episode.
I probably did not succeed but still, it's an attempt.


Lucidity : 9/10
Vivacity : 8/10
Control : 8.5/10


I'm in my History class. A random guy (whom I have nothing against in real life) is, well, just insulting me, and for some reasons I get really mad and I just walk up to him and rip his eyes off and pop them in my hands
The teacher just stays there, and when I ask the kid to apologize he says "C'mon kid, apologize".
Anyways, I get out and get lucid. I decide to enter someone's dream, and I do (or at least try) that same technique as before, except I don't remember whose dream I tried to enter.
I stand back up and notice that I am in my old primary school' s court. There are building like you find in Paris in the middle of it and where the cafeteria should be.
I do some telekinesis on random people and then decide I' m gonna make that dream EPIC.
The school's buildings are surrounding me, I get near to one and try to destroy it with telekinesis. I spread my arms wide, my hands too, and then PUSH like I was trying to break something with my palms. It' s not powerful enough, I see the building moving a bit, shaking, some rock falling off of it, but it's not destroyed; I want to pulverize it.
I begin screaming on purpose, but still, it' s not enough.
I give up on that. Instead, I grow a huge hand( around 2m wide) and swing it down. It act like an imaginary, huge blade.
The building gets cut in half. I try again on another one and it does it again. I play with that a while out of the school until I decide to come back and try telekinesis again. I get in front of a building (it' s not here IRL) and I concentrate. I concentrate so much that I scream naturally. I had my eyes closed but I opened them now. I see a really thick layer of glass get "out" of the frontage of the building; my eyesight gets ridiculously precise and I can now observe the actual stripes that get on the glass.
At one point the glass falls and I stop doing telekinesis because it is flying at me. It lands on the ground, part of it breaks.
I choose a piece of it, and I concentrate on it. I thought it would be harder, but I easily get it to float between my hands. It feels like I just released a weight. Like I dropped the glass instead of levitating it. After a while I let go off it and I talk to a girl (guy?) who tells me they got into my dream, and that it’ s awesome how I can do all I want or something like that.
Then I wake up.

LUCID

*I became lucid in my apartment. I performed a RC and thought wow I am lucid right now, but all this seems so real. I performed the reality check like three times before going outside cause I was wearing only underwear. I got down to the bottom of the stairs and it was raining. So my first thought was to stop the rain by yelling rain stop!!
This did nothing, so I thought I should create a gun that stops the rain. I willed one into existence by simply knowing the gun was going to be there. Creating objects in dreams is very easy for me. The looked like a toy gun of some sort.

I picked the gun up and shot it in the air at the raining clouds. The gun shot these orange boxes in the sky and soon the rain cleared. When sun started to shine I felt very powerful and in control of the dream. After doing this a got another idea to try to create another vortex gun and change my dream scence by stepping in a vortex. I created another gun this time it was smaller. When I shot the gun a mist like water came out creating a foggy cloud. I thought this vortex sucks but decided to put my in the cloud to feel the effects. It felt my hand was disappearing when I did this.

I gave up on this task and started on another journey. This girl started following me wanting to have sex. Sounds like a good idea but I want this dream to last. Usually sex dreams end right after the sex and I want to stay lucid. I ended in a parking garage and got another bright idea. I will create a time machine or a travel device. I didn't think of how it would look or anything but let my subconscious do the creating.
To my surprise I created a gold egyptian eagle with Hieroglyphics on the wings. I was amazed! There was a loop on the bottom of the bird to put your finger in because it was a dream flying device to get places very quickly.



I put my finger in the loop and took off shoring in a very guided manner the eagle actually did the flying for me. I ended by this jogging race with an idea to practice vajrasattva. As soon as I thought of vajrasattva I felt negitive energy be expelled through my feet. I started to chant om vajrasattva hum and the sky became very vast with deep blue. Of a sudden this guy came out of where and attacked me saying this is want you wanted! I took of flying scared thinking this guy isn't real so why am I running. I woke up.

Last night was a potpourri of lots and lots of unstable little WILDs and DEILDs. Very very confusing night, but I was glad that I managed to tough it out and keep spooling up more dreams.

Color legend: Non-dream Dream Lucid

Lucid #92: DEILDs and Demigods

The WILD sticks me into a hazy, insubstantial scene. I have a dream body, but I can't tell where I am. I try to Hulk jump to someplace new and upon landing, I wake up...

I hold still for DEILD, repeating "here and now" and "I'm dreaming". Everything's still dark, but at some point, I feel like I'm dreaming. I mentally move my right hand to my face, pinch my nose shut, and try to breathe, blowing right through. I get out of bed, fall through the floor, and have a false awakening back in bed.

I'm still suspicious, so I hit the nose pinch again and confirm that I'm still dreaming. This instability has rattled me a bit, so I wait for a dream scene to form, temporarily forgetting how to handle myself in the void. Rather than take me anyplace, the dream fades out and I wake up for real.

Come on. Stay in there. I try not to worry too much about this, but I'm a little rattled. I stay still, working for DEILD, and finally a scene starts forming that looks like the inside of a cave. I try rubbing my hands on the floor of the cavern and it feels real -- I'm in.

I'm crouched on a long downward slope in a cavern of red rock. The tunnel is large and well-lit and a number of DCs in street clothes are watching me, seemingly anticipating that I'll do something. I decide to put on a little show, hopping into the air, floating gently along the slope for about 25 feet. There are gasps of astonishment and a crowd starts to gather.

"I'm dreaming all of this," I explain to the crowd.

Murmurs of disagreement from the crowd. One man walks up and says, "No. I've done lucid dreaming myself, and this is totally different." The people in the crowd start trying to convince me that I'm a demigod demonstrating my powers. I half-heartedly object, but they are unanimous, convincing, and very persistent. Eventually I'm persuaded and lose lucidity. I perform various dream control stunts like telekenesis and producing lightning. The whole time I think that they're god powers, even gratefully noting that lucid dreaming was great practice for becoming a "demigod". I do this for a while, shamelessly enjoying the adoration.

I wake up, slightly annoyed at my own stupidity. Quick bathroom trip, back to bed for a second WILD. I emerge on a street scene with several eye-catching female DCs walking by in different directions. I realize that I'm totally staring, think briefly about menthol, and then wake up.

I DEILD back into the void. I imagine that I'm swinging a gladius for a bit and eventually I find myself in a kitchen that looks a bit like my own. I'm muttering something about "sulbutiamine" (a drug I'd read a mention of recently.) An Asian woman in a business suit gives me an unfriendly look. "I've taken sulbutiamine," she says. Her demeanor darkens and her eyes turn completely black. "And I've taken drugs that made it so I never rotted in my coffin." Her face has grown pallid and vaguely zombie-like, and she advances slowly toward me.

I'm very creeped out by her but mostly I'm annoyed that she's trying to inject this nightmare nonsense into what was planned to be my cool lucid dream. I turn away and decide to just think about something else so she'll fade out. I walk over to the window and look out into the night. The dream fades and I wake up.

I go for DEILD once more... I'm on a street scene, standing next to a cute, tall-ish redhead. She's smiling warmly, and she has her arms open like she wants to hug. I feel exhausted and grateful, and I gladly hug her. She nibbles my ear and I respond by kissing her neck, coming close to losing lucidity. I shake it off, though, thinking that I need to ask her to help me back on the right track with this crazy sequence of dreams. I'm struggling to find the words, but she seems to understand, pulling away and somehow drawing up even taller. Now she's truly a giant, about nine feet tall. She reaches down, places a hand on the back of my head, and guides me toward a huge television.

My wife and kids are here playing some kind of video game and they happily invite me to join them. The interface is like a super-slick version of Steam. Soon there's a controller in my hands and we're playing a combination music and puzzle game. As I'm trying to learn how it works, I lose lucidity again, but still have a good time playing for a while. I keep thinking of great enhancements for the game and for this "Steam" interface and the ideas keep winding up in the game itself. I'm amazed by this. I feel impressed but sad that the developers "already thought of all my great ideas." We all play together for some time, and after that the dream fades to oblivion.

Too Much Energy [DILD]

This lucid is from last night, I waited a little too long to record it so some of the details from the non-lucid part of the dream that I wrote down I can't really remember anymore. I've got the lucid part down though.

I was walking past this girl S when I realized I was dreaming, and I followed this path out of a parking garage and it took me to this big open area between really big buildings with a pond in between and an awesome sky view. I was really sped up and started to think that I should calm myself and just try to meditate or something, so I sat down in the grass at the end of one side of the pond. I was just planning on staring at the water but I felt way too stimulated, and the second I tried to keep myself still the dream started reacting. The water started undulating intensely and creating big waves and everything else started to get hazy.

I looked away and got up and just tried to go into one of the buildings instead, but it was too late to save it and I woke up.

05/09/13

Healing
I am lying on a blanket in the middle of a field of green grass. I lie there for a few minutes, looking up at the blue sky as clouds drift by. It is very relaxing. I am lying there relaxing when I feel something wrapping around my right wrist, it feels like a snake. I hesitate just a little too much before sitting up. A snake thing wraps around my other wrist. I look around and see I am not alone there, I am surrounded by Templars. The places where the snakes… more like tendrils… are holding my wrists are burning. There's some kind of dark energy pulsing through the tendrils. The tendrils are extending from two of the Templars, right out of their right hands. One Templar says there's nothing I can do to stop it now, they own me. I form hidden blades on each arm and twist around to cut the tendrils. There are many more tendrils heading my direction from all the other Templars. I form Witchblade into a sword instead of hidden blades and cut through the tendrils as they try to grab hold of me. There are just too many of them, they're all coming too fast. I won't be able to hold them off for long. I get another idea. I put the sword away and let the tendrils wrap around my body. I focus on the song spell Whiplash by Metallica, sending the energy back along the tendrils to their source. The backlash of energy knocks each of the Templars back on their asses. They are recovering quickly and sending the tendrils out again. I start to set off an Immortal Fire spell, but I don't get all the way through setting it up before I am grabbed by the tendrils again. I use Phantom Lord by Metallica to create a wall of fire around myself, the tendrils burn off.

During the time the wall of fire is protecting me I am able to complete the Immortal Fire spell. A blast of energy extends out from me, destroying my own wall of fire and all the Templars standing around the outside of it. When the energy clears I am alone in the field. My first goal is the usual healing. Since I wasn't able to find Nomad and Winter on the moon earlier I decide to try the healing glen first. I open a portal and go through to find out my choice was correct. Nomad and the crystal golem are standing near a levitating Winter. I go over to them and focus on the healing spell Voices, directing healing energy through Winter. Golden energy is permeating the entire area, flowing through everyone there. It feels very relaxing. I hadn't realized it but I had been quite angry at the Templars for intruding on my earlier peaceful dream. I realize how angry I had been as I am calming down now. I am so relaxed I feel I might fall asleep. As the spells are coming to a close I really do fall asleep and wake up in bed.  

Dark Tower: Ambush!
I am in a comfortable looking house with three other people. I don't remember the name of the one, but the other two are Roland and Eddie. The third man is staring at me with his jaw open. He says he never actually saw a walk-in walk in before, now he's seen everything. I tell him there's one more to join us. I think about getting MoSh into the dream. I have had an idea for improving the chances of shared dreaming so I decide to test it out with someone I know I can make a connection with. I focus on the song Dream On by Aerosmith, but I change the lyrics from "Sing with me, sing for the years. Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears. Sing with me, just for today. Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away," to "Dream with me, dream of the years. Dream of the laughter, dream of the tears. Dream with me, just for today. Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away." I focus on the alternate lyrics while keeping in mind who I want to make contact with. After a brief pause MoSh appears in front of me, looking a bit disoriented. Roland says we really need to get moving now, before Balazaar's goons come after us. Eddie seems to want to talk to the other man some more. Roland tells him to talk as we go. He asks who can drive. Eddie, then me, then the other man, and finally MoSh all say we can drive. It appears Roland is the odd one out there. So we go outside to where there is a car and a truck parked. I am hoping I didn't lie, I am not familiar with driving a stick shift… I need not have worried, it is an automatic. MoSh, Eddie, and the other guy all get in the truck, which I find a bit odd… there is more room in the car… I decide not to worry about seating arrangements. I drive the car, following after the truck, Roland is in the seat beside me. Roland is silent for a while, then he finally asks where exactly it is that MoSh and I come from… is it from Eddie's world? I don't have to figure out an answer for that, however, as the truck in front of us blows a tire and skids off into the ditch. I slam on the brakes just in time to keep from hitting the row of spikes on the road. We are under attack! I wonder how they had time to set up an ambush. Roland is out of the car in an instant with his gun drawn, he takes out two of the goons before they can react and take cover behind a couple vehicles hidden alongside the road. I get out of the vehicle quickly, but not fast enough. We are in a shootout. But do I have a gun? I don't see a gun anywhere, I am dressed in my Assassin robes, I have two hidden blades… didn't anyone tell me not to bring a hidden blade to a gun fight? Shooting is going on around me while I look for my gun. I want to help out somehow… so I sneak off to the side and into the trees. Maybe if I can just get behind them… Someone shoots at me, but he misses and leaves himself open to be shot, I think he gets shot by MoSh. So MoSh got a gun and all I got was hidden blades? I focus on summoning a gun but nothing happens. Shit. The shooting continues. I circle through the trees, and I spot a pair of goons approaching with the same idea I had. I climb up into a tree before they see me. Then as they are passing below me I jump out of the tree and do a double assassinate on the two goons before they can circle around behind Roland and the others.

I think that might be why I couldn't summon a gun… if I had, I wouldn't have been sneaking around and found these two! I go to continue circling around behind the other goons when there is an explosion. Someone must have ignited a gas tank. I see smoke rising from the trees ahead, but then the dream fades out and I wake partially… I doze back into the dream, not lucid now, and time has passed. I am with Eddie, Roland, and MoSh and we are in a nice looking house talking to Stephen King, which I think is pretty awesome. I wish I had one of his books to get signed. MoSh is looking around the room. Roland is saying something about Stephen King creating us. I tell Roland that I don't think Stephen King created anyone, but he can see into other worlds that most people deny the existence of. Influence events? That seems likely, let it be written, let it be done. But create real living people? Only a god can do that. But I really want to know how he can see the other worlds, because I want so badly to see the other worlds while I am awake, to have final proof that they exist… Then I ask Stephen King if he could write me a door… a door from my own house into my inner world, or a door to any world where magic works, really. Because if I just had my powers I could go anywhere. A short story would surely do. Make the door appear in June 2013, please. In the home of Raven Knight. And not locked, or write in a key with it. Stephen King looks at me strangely, and then I wake up.
 
Dream With Me
I am in my own room lying in bed. I sit up and stroke a furry animal by my side. The animal pikas at me. Pikas? I feel another animal beside me, and this one vees when I pet it. "Pika!" "Vee!" A pikachu and an eevee. I get out of bed and do a reality check, which is something I am trying to get in the habit of doing every time I wake up in bed. I pinch my nose and find I can still breathe. I'm dreaming! My first thought is to just go outside and fly somewhere, I always like flying dreams. I think for a few minutes, then I remember I had a goal of trying to share a dream with a couple people. I decide to try my new song spell to reach someone I haven't dreamed with before, or at least not much. My first goal will be to share a dream with FH. I remember he wanted to get to the moon so I will do it from there. I open a portal. Nothing happens. I wonder why it's not working. I look at my closet door for a bit and then open it. My closet door leads to the moon. I go through the door to a place at the base of the tower. The door vanishes behind me. I focus on the song Dream On by Aerosmith, but I change the lyrics from "Sing with me, sing for the years. Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears. Sing with me, just for today. Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away," to "Dream with me, dream of the years. Dream of the laughter, dream of the tears. Dream with me, just for today. Maybe tomorrow, the good lord will take you away." Now I just have to focus on who I want to make contact with. I realize I have absolutely no idea what image to focus on. I focus on the idea of bringing FH to the moon as I focus on the altered lyrics. At first nothing seems to be happening. Then someone starts to take shape. It's like a malfunctioning transporter on Star Trek.

The image forms a bit, then disappears a bit, then forms again. I try to get a good look at the image but I am failing. A man, I'm bad with ages but my guess is in his 30's, dark hair, his hair is short, might be slightly receding… he is average build and height… the image is so non-descript, this could describe countless men out there. I wonder if that's what FH really looks like or if that's just how I picture him… I think the image is going to come into focus but instead it disappears. I drop an Italian curse word… Cazzo. I was also going to try to share an Assassin's Creed dream with SJ. Key note being Assassin's Creed. I focus on the alternate lyrics again, and this time I have a clear image to focus on. Pretty, long dark hair… Maybe I can pull SJ into a dream and shift this dream to an Assassin's Creed setting at the same time. So now I focus on the song, and on both of us being in an Assassin's Creed world. The scene around me does shift. I do teleport. I find myself in a place that looks like one of the cities from Assassin's Creed, the original game. I think it is Jerusalem. I am standing between two buildings, out of sight of the main walkways and streets. Perfect, I think SJ would like to meet Altaïr. As I am focused on the image of SJ someone starts to form in front of me. Then I start questioning myself… what if we get attacked by a hoard of Templars? If we get surrounded and attacked, would that make it a nightmare for her? No… I don't think so. Give her a sword and she could play virtual reality Assassin's Creed like I have done in previous dreams where I wasn't lucid. So I keep focusing on SJ. She is materializing, it is working! Someone rudely shoves me out of the way, I lose focus, and SJ disappears. I look and see Altaïr has pushed me out of the way. I step back out in front of some guards that are chasing Altaïr, and they run right into me, we all fall down in a pile. The guards quickly get up, several of them are cursing at me, and they continue in the direction Altaïr went… but I figure he is probably long gone. I am thinking about trying Dream On one more time when I wake.

Ok so to start this off I'm going to post a LD induced by WILD, from a kind-of WBTB experience.

9th May 2013.

Went to bed after about 5.5 hours of sleep. Laid down on my side because I figured it would be the best position for WILDing. Closed my eyes, started repeating the mantra "relax". After some small feelings of numbness I started to get deconcentrated from repeating my mantra and slowly losing awareness and falling to some external dialogue. I cut it short by opening my eyes, since I'd figured I'd just fall asleep if I continued. Saw that the whole attempt took 15 minutes. After that I rolled over pretty frustrated that I can't mantain awareness. Kept on trying, until one moment a feeling of frustration crept over me. At the same time a surge of "energy" went through my body and I was suddenly pushed "into" my bed. I saw two people for a moment that seemed to push me into my bed. After that several more surges of energy went through, and I soon found myself in a kind of empty space. I was aware during the entire process and I knew I was entering a dream.

I tried to open my dream eyes but I felt my real eyes starting to open at the same time so I opted to keep them closed. Soon enough I managed to open my dream eyes and I saw a FA style dream "waking up" in my bedroom. I was lucid though, so I looked around and saw that the room was changed up a bit, didn't have any furniture present. I looked to the window and saw it was almost dark. I looked into my hands and they looked normal, although what I
saw was blurry. I remembered to use the spinning technique to stabilize the dream. The funny thing is while all this was happening I could hear my brother who was in the room while I was sleeping while being in the dream. I looked through the window and now it was nighttime. The scene changed and I don't remember what it looked like. I started talking to a dream character, a prostitute. I used her .. uhm.. services and convinced her to do it with no charge. After that the dream had faded black. I woke up in what is most likely a false awakening, being proud of myself for having a WILD. Met some friends, talked to them, and I don't remember anything else. Then I woke up for real, did a reality check, and checked the clock for time, because I always want to know when I woke up, which wasn't the case with that FA.

Expect an update in about 9 hours I'll attempt a WBTB WILD, it might be successful. Cheers!

05/08/13

Crystal Healing
I am lying on a blanket in a green field of grass. I sit up and look around me. I am alone on the field. I remember a goal of helping to heal Nomad's friend Winter, who has been having some problems with fibromyalgia. I focus on a portal to go to the moon and it opens. I go through into the area near the balancing pools. The healing springs. I look around to see if Nomad and Winter are there yet. I don't see them. I wonder if there might be something wrong. I focus on opening a portal to find them. A portal opens and I go through, not sure what I might find. I find myself in the healing glen, the home of the crystal golem. I figure Nomad must have brought Winter here for healing since the healing in the springs on the moon doesn't seen to be doing the trick. The crystal golem is there, he is standing right next to a floating Winter. Winter is levitating about three feet off the ground, surrounded by a glowing golden aura. Nomad is watching this. Nomad says we were trying to get anyone who would help to heal Winter here. I focus on a portal to find Basara, I figure he would help. A portal opens and I see him playing his guitar. He comes right through. So the three of us all use healing spells on Winter at the same time, while the crystal golem continues his healing. A swirling orb of golden energy surrounds Winter, flowing around and through her. The entire glen fills with the healing energy, it is flowing around and through all of us. I see gross worm like things coming out of Winter... I thought those were all gone! After the healing spell is done the golden energy continues to permeate the clearing. The crystal golem says those Templar attacks have done a lot of damage, Winter needs to have dreams within dreams where she can focus entirely on healing. Nomad looks pissed when he mentions Templars. The crystal golem says anger will solve nothing, and he seems to make an attempt to calm down. I wonder if all of the parasites are really gone this time. I remember that Nomad wanted to travel through time to make himself lucid. I wonder how we can do that since I haven't been dreaming that long and I already know I'm dreaming. I am still pondering that when Nomad kisses Winter and says this will have to pass. I am pondering opening a portal through time when everything around me fades to black and I wake up.

In my dream I seen this pretty woman. I decided to make her my girlfriend, so I went up to her and asked her out. She was willing to be my girlfriend and seemed pleased that I asked her. It didn't take long before we were holding hands and I would put my arm around her. I realized I had fallen in love with her, it was great. She was much shorter than me, only coming up to my shoulder height and me being 6 foot 2 inch tall. Her hair color was a dirty blond, and shoulder length. The place we met was this large house, or probably a mansion. I don't know who owned it, but by the rooms we were in it looked expensive. We were with a group of people who were traveling by bus, this just happened to be a stop we made. We had to get ready to travel on the bus again, so we couldn't stay together. I tried to keep an eye out for her at as much as possible so I wouldn't loose sight of her. I think I kind of knew in the back of my mind that she could just dissapear out of my dream for no apparent reason, and I didn't want that to happen.

Even though she went into the next room with some of her friends for a bit, she did come back. I was so glad to see her again, and I could tell by her expression that she was pleased to see me too. It is a little hazy of all the dream events that were going on. I think there was a table of food and I was trying to eat something before we left. There wasn't much left, but I noticed some cheesy bread which looked like it had fallen off the table and somehow gotten under it. I picked it up and ate about half of it, it was just as good as it looked, even though I suspected it might be a little dirty from laying on the floor. I didn't care, I knew it wouldn't hurt me. I think I was eating while she was off with her friends. When she was back with me, we were able to pack more stuff up and be on our way.

The dream scene changed as I was now on the bus in one of the front seats on the left side of the bus. I was saving the spot to my right for my girlfriend. About five or more people got on and went past me down the isle before I seen her coming. I smiled at her approach and she beamed back at me. I picked up the item I had laying there to save her spot and she sat down next to me. I put my right arm around her and drew her close. We got to talking again, though I don't remember exactly what we both said. Then I remember showing her a map I think, probably where we were going next. She must have thought I was hungry still, because she made me a hamburger for me to eat while we were sitting there on the bus. She must have had all the items in her pack with her. I appreciated it very much. It seemed to me I was with her for a long time on the bus ride.

The dream scene changed again, now I think I'm all by myself in what looks like farm country. I am on higher ground around some farm equipment. I have a good view of the surrounding area for miles around, pehaps as far as five mile distant. As I look around I know I'm waiting for some people to show up, and I'm hoping my girlfriend is with them. I'm standing by this red grain bin when a long van pulls up on the other side and stops. Some kids get out first, I know they don't see me. When they come around the corner I manage to give 2 of them a scare. Before the other people get out of the van I wake up.

Now that I'm awake it really feels like I had been in love. I realized I had fallen in love with some random dream character and now the relationship is over. I know it isn't rational but the heartache still feels real, knowing that the relationship I had with her can never be reality.

Wednesday, 5/8/13

Last night bed 12am - 7:30am

DR: With my best friend M on a train. Arriving to the bus depo and going from there. Bying some newspaper and checking out books. (I do love newspaper and books in WL.)

Something about being with a group in mountains.

Didn't want to take a nap today. Last few days couldn't pull of a WILD, perhaps because I'm so used to morning naps, it's just like another normal sleep time.

So I read some OBE articles and got so excited, that I decided to take a nap afterall. I go on sofa at 12pm. Got some weightless sensations very soon. Did some rhyming mantra and breathing. Started to feel as if rotating on axes, but couldn't make it stronger. So I tried to get the falling feeling, in which a succeeded little later on.

WILD
Got some gorgious HH images. A huge, colorful wasp on light burgundy background and two other images of two more insects. But I had my heart set on OBE.

I got some vibrations and tried to open my real eyes to see if I can see any hallucinations in my room. I managed to open left eye and I saw myself laying on sofa, same position as I knew I was. I had same pants on I did in WL. I noted my hand was in strange position, but I knew that's how I had it IWL. I couldn't move my head, so I had limited view to my right, where the window is. Room was fully lit, as I knew it was. Tried to pry open my right eye and succeeded for a moment, but almost immediatelly lost sight in both eyes. (So, it wasn't my WL eyes, but my dream eyes I had opened.)

Before I lost sight, I tried to get up and I felt myself getting up and it was the strangest feeling, because at the same time I saw my body not moving. It was almost as if I was saying to my body "I'm going, are you staying?" I got up and ended up in my aunties bathroom. I was still trying to have OBE, so this experience ended, because I was not trying to keep it alive.

I'm back on sofa, saying "up, up". But I realized I'm getting too needy and I shouldn't. Can't help it, I really want it. I have to prepare myself better next time.

Super low quality dream. Either I was in non REM or things were super unstable because I haven't had a WILD in a while.....>> Anyways, I'm in some white building, and there are a lot of people from school there. I'm not doing much except walking around and freestyling. My intentions were to check on Kaomea, but um....I guess I forgot about all of that when I made it in. Soon the dream started clearing up, and I decided it was time for Plan B. Unluckily, the dream started fading out before I had the chance to do anything

Date: 7 May

During day: Re-energized by consuming lots of fruits

Pre bed: 3mg melatonin

WBTB duration: 16 mins, woke myself too much, hard time falling back asleep

WBTB: 2x peppermint oil tablets (200mg each)

Recall method: Woke pen-noted an almost illegible description during WBTB for Dream2, briefly reviewed in mind when back to bed

Fragment1: A large spider and then other insects, one was like a bee, I am trying to kill them, smashed them successfully

Dream2 DILD: My father has given me the task of preparing some kind of report for him. I am browsing in a chemistry textbook with different substances and after each substance there is a lengthy regression. My father wants a list of the substances only, which I don't think is right. He is annoyed that I am so slow and still not ready. I move on and jump over some furniture and see my grandma. I begin to explain that the regressions are the most important part in this report.

I continue on my way, and now am in something similar to a trailer with a friend of mine. Obviously she is keeping some items of mine there, one carton box with my stuff, that I want to take on my way. We talk about something. I notice that there is a wounded cheetah on the table. Actually there is no sign of wound but I know it is tired. I play with its tail, and caress it. It purrs and gently rubs its soft head and body on my hand. It is very enjoyable for both of us. I discuss the cheetah with someone, pointing out that it is the fastest creature on earth.



I then move on, I find myself in another place and someone tells me that my friends, and lists a number of people I supposedly know, are dead in another part of the city. Obviously machines have taken over the city and are destroying it. I look outside the window and see construction machines falling into an abyss. I have a bit of a paranoia from the machines because I know that they will soon come to destroy this part of town. I become desperate and say something like " I am so tired of such situations when I think that I am dreaming, but I am not, later it is a dream, then it is not!". I decide it is time to leave the place, and walk out a door. I notice a coca cola label sticker, but there is a poem on it. Perhaps I should leave something behind, I wonder, but there really is no point.

I am going to fly scout the area, to see if the machines are still in that part of town. I stretch my hands horizontally, like a cross, and then lift off in this position. I have good control of my movement this time, but still flying too high is a bit of challenge, it has to do with the vision of the ground below me.

It is hard to look down and perceive the flight distance and control the flight at the same time, but I fly in the direction that I desire. I am also lucid at this point. At above skyscraper height, I fly now forward, over an area with some water, HK in my mind, and look for a place to land. I have completely forgotten about the machines. Then the word "tasks" emerges in my mind and I remember I have work to do. For a second the thought crosses my mind that I may not have the time to do any tasks, but then answer myself that DV people won't mind that because I still had a good time flying.

As I land, I feel some kind of a string release me, I am then on the ground. I look at the DC in front of me. He is rather unpleasant but I accept this, his faces changes and he is now more beautiful and smiling. There is a DC woman to my left, but I pay little attention to her. I think at that point I may have had the gut feeling that this dream is coming to an end, and decide to stabilize before starting on any tasks. I remember to shout something and it feels a bit more stable. Then I throw myself on the ground, feel it as much as possible with my hands, little stones, etc. and as if that isn't enough, I decide to lick the ground. I also lick some kind of trash a blue thread, it tastes like rubber. I find this last part disgusting and decide to spit out. Saliva comes out of my mouth and at that moment I feel my physical lips moving. Before I have any time to react I find myself in my bed, still with my eyes closed, but very aware of my physical body. I feel there is no point to DEILD so I head for the journal.

Note: This wake was a few minutes before the WBTB alarm. I decide to use this wake as WBTB, take notes, visit restroom, wonder whether I should try the menthol tablets, have two tablets. The whole thing takes about 16 mins but I am too awake as I go back to bed. I wonder what to do from here...I decide I might cycle a bit to help me sleep but as I start with sight my mind shuts down and I begin drifting off, while still having awareness of my body. I cannot do even one cycle. It may sound like a good state to do WILD, but it isn't that good. I spent one hour in a semi-conscious borderline state where I occasionally saw and withdrew from dreamlets, yet wasn't dreaming, but rather laying there half-aware of my body and fully aware that I can't fall asleep. The tablets or the earlier wake gave me mild heartburn as well. I finally managed to fall asleep but then it was time to get up...

Dream3 mini-lucid: Together with some guys, this time we are on a flying machine, initially like a retro airplane, I am trying to control its movements, but it is hard. We are going to a conference related to technology, and approaching a block where this is taking place. I see a parking place for flying machines and land this now spacesuit? there. I hope nobody steals it while we are away. I look for number ten part of the building, we must be really close. There is also a McD in the building, which explains why there are so many people around. To my left is Justin Bieber, I am moderately happy. I am lucid for a very short while thinking about the peppermint oil tablets I took and whether they affect my experience. The alarm wakes me up.

Note: Happy about the first lucid, despite the fact that couldn't do any tasks. I feel this was at the end of the early more memorable REM cycles. The second lucid was very short so I am not including it in my count.

right guys here is my first DJ entry, sorry its short. btw i was lucid for a couple of secs in this

Ill start with the lucid bit. Im not sure whether this did happen first but the memories of last nights dreaming aren't too good

anyway, for the few seconds i was lucid, all i remember was doing a RC (stuck my fingers through my hand) and then tried to walk, them fly through a wall

as for the rest of the dream, i was in some restaurant type thing and it was apparently someone's birthday

that is all i can remember, im a bit annoyed my first entry in this is so short but its all i can think of

btw, this is my 2nd post of this, sorry

Kick the Dog [DILD]

I was hanging out on the street in front of my old elementary school with J who also went there and O who didn't, though he might have been D for some of this dream.... Anyway, the whole building had apparently been reconstructed and now looked much fancier than it ever has or probably ever will, so we were just checking it out and talking about it for a bit. At one point we decided to go back to my house though, and even though it's literally like right on the other side of the alleyway behind the street we were on, we were suddenly in my car driving there. We come up to the garage and I park in there, even though I don't use the garage in waking life, and my dad's car is in there too but the actual structure of the garage is totally different from normal. This doesn't throw me off though, I just get out of the car and see that my two companions have now become JB, this guy who I used to hang out with all the time when I first started smoking, and DW, this girl I saw a lot in middle school drama classes. I didn't pay much attention to this and just walked into the house.

As I walked in, I noticed that the whole inside looked wrong too, and there were four little kids sitting on the couch. JB has a little brother and I guess because I just saw him I immediately assumed that we must have accidentally come to his house instead, even though it looked nothing like that either. Also, three of the kids were black like JB but one of them was white, but I still assumed that all four of them were his brothers. His little brother in waking life would recognize me so I guess I also assumed that they all would in this dream, so I just started apologizing and asked if it was their house, and they said yes. I asked them about my dad's car in the garage and the white brother says that it's his car. I just kind of chuckle and smirk and say um, you're like 12, which he actually looked much younger than. He starts to get a little mad, but around that time I had started becoming lucid.

When I had walked in the four brothers had been sitting on a couch in front of windows facing the street outside of the house, but while I wasn't looking the outside scenery had changed. We were now very high up in some apartment building in the middle of a big city, which seems to be a pretty common environment for me in dreams for some reason even though I'm literally almost never anywhere like that in waking life. I notice that there's some random dog running around in the room now, and I decided to see if I could make something else phase through a wall just like I can, so I kicked it toward the window and it passed right through it with no trouble and fell off the side of the building. Next my friend N's dog showed up too and I kicked her out the window as well, but as I could feel her presence falling down the side of the building I reached out with my hands and remotely grabbed ahold of it. I started raising it back up and soon I saw her come back up just hanging in the air outside the window. This was my smoothest telekinesis that I could really remember, so I just directed her around to fly through the air and then made her blast off into the distance, and she looked pretty stiff the whole time, like moving a 3D model that was just in its awkward default stance before being able to run its walking or idling animation.

After that I wasn't quite sure what to do, but a strange thing happened. This black line appeared down the center of my vision, and I reached my arms out to the side only to see copies of my arms, facing me, so when I moved my right arm the one I saw on the left moved, and vice-versa, and there was nothing in between them other than the line so it looked very odd, no body or anything. I started waving them around trying to leave patterns and parts of my arms would smear out or random things would happen like my fingers would start multiplying, and it looked pretty neat on this downtown sunset sky backdrop, but then the dream faded away.

#177 - 5AM - DILD - 2 of 2

I don't quite remember the dream before but it was a sex dream with my wife that turned into a FA where I realize that I am just humping the bed. I don't care it feels good but my face is buried deep in the pillows and I wonder why I can breath. I think that I should be having trouble. I roll over. Check for signs of a wet dream. Clear. I do a nose plug but it fails or I think it fails. I become lucid anyway because I recognize how dream like this all is. I get up and walk into the kitchen. The light is on.

I see someone that looks like my mom in the sun room. She spots me and hides in a dark corner. I think of the task again. I say "Hey. Hey you." She wont come out. I spot a pitcher of water by the sink and I take it up and slash her. Her only reaction is now she has the mop bucket and shes coming around into the kitchen to splash me back.
I laugh at her and say, "You're not real."
She comes into the light and looks like a very creepy version of my mom. She forgets the bucket and answers, "That's insubstantial and inconsequential." She rattles off a bunch of other big words that my dreaming mind didn't catch (I have trouble just trying to remember the first part of that) then says, "My Aunt warned me about you. You're a maniacal energy draining vampire." The dream starts to fade and I need to stabilize. So I follow her suggestions and throw myself on her to suck, not her blood, but her energy. As I do so the dream fades. For a Breif moment is see blue energy entering my mouth as I suck in. Then I bite but not hard enough to draw blood. Then nothing.

I have another false awakening but this time I put more thought into the nose plug. I cleanly blow out and laugh a little to myself. I'm very pleased that I didn't fall for the FA.

This time I walk into the bathroom and through to the other bedroom. I am still having doubts that this is a dream and I pause at the mirror. My face looks blurred and distorted. Ya ok I really am dreaming. I laugh and continue. The door makes a realistic sound and I slowly tiptoe past my sons crib into the living room. That that point I hear him cry out both next to me and in the other room. I for a moment the dream fades and I can feel myself in bed. I focus and wait a second. I feel my feet plant back on the floor and I continue out the front door.

I notice the porch light is on and its dark outside. I run into the street and see a car parked with tail lights lit up. (I forget the other task of finding Falkor and am still hung up on DC's) I shout, "Hey wait!" and run up to the driver side of the car. The dream starts to fade again but I focus on feeling the car and it slowly comes back as I continue with the dream. The window is down and it looks like someone is in the passenger seat but looks really comatose. I feel the driver seat and realize it is empty. Now the dream comes fully back. I can hear music on the radio. The seat is gray fabric and the engine is running. I decide this car is waiting for me and suddenly want to "drive" to China for the TOTY. I excitedly jump in the driver seat and floor it.

I drive around some slightly familiar roads and then the dream starts getting too dark. I try flipping on the brights but it didn't help. I say to the dream. "Clarity please." Nothing. I say with more certainty, "It's daytime."

Suddenly the scene switches to a view of some kids in a back seat riding along in the daytime. I focus and the view come around back to my POV and the road vividly visible in daylight. I don't worry about who's in the back seat. I figure its just more extras. Looking around I notice the terrain had changes significantly. I ask, "Is this China?" At that moment I see some palm trees. Then, I come over a hill and see a surreal scene with mountains coming right up to a beach and a blue ocean. I looks crazy but beautiful. I think, It's the beach maybe I'll do the Australia task. The road ends now and I drive over small hills and through ditches. When I some to sand and water I flip a toggle switch in the car and say, "Boat mode." Now the dream fades buy I can still hear the music on the radio. It's like some electric guitar instrumental but it sounds familiar like a theme song to some old sitcom. I hold on a bit longer and visualize being out on the open sea. It comes into vivid view just for a second and then I am hopelessly wide awake.