lucid

3/19/13

1. The dream takes place the night before. I feel terrible because of fatigue and another feeling I cannot explain. I am in a fight with my mom in the kitchen. I get a knife and threaten her. She presses her head against the sink counter and says that I wouldn't. She looks at me pleadingly. I stab her, and as I do, I the scene flashes into a cartoon. It quickly reverts. This has happened once before in 'News From Zombie Island', but I did not think anything of it. I drag her body downstairs and lay her on her carpet. I wake up, expecting to have killed my mom. It takes me a while to realize it was all a dream.

2. DCs are arguing on a property. I go inside and see many white hallways. They are flawlessly snow-colored, so much that I lose my orientation a few times. I become lucid, and stabilize the dream, and I see a DC with me. The character is in my peripheral vision, therefore I could not see his face.

Wow what a night. I woke up at 5am and didn't go back to sleep until after 8am. This may very well be my longest WBTB that led to a successful DILD, not counting the times that I actually GOT UP early, then took a nap later in the day.

Anyway, the first thing I remember is being in a nonlucid where Danny was taking me to work in the morning. We were running just barely ontime, so I was a bit frantic. When I got out of the car, I thought Danny was helping me get some of my stuff out of the trunk, but he just vanished. I was like ffuu thanks alot. So I grabbed everything myself (including my shoes which I hadn't put on yet in the rush). I got to this ramp(?) that led to the bakery. I just dropped everything to the floor, trying to get my bakery garb on. (Oh yeah, and before that, I thought I saw Danny at customer service, but it wasn't him). Anyway, at that moment I realized that I had the wrong shoes. They were my privos instead of my nonslip work shoes. FFuu again. So I got my cell out and was going to call Danny and ask him to go home and get them for me. Then 2 of my bosses came down the ramp and looked at me like "Wft loser" and i just said" OK I'm hurrying, I just gotta find Danny!" They just walked off looking disappointed. I got my cell, and was looking through the contacts. All I remember at this point is massive device failure. I couldn't find Danny in the contacts. Then when I found his name, I couldn't find the call icon. I was suffering over this shit for a few moments, when I thought to myself that this HAS to be a dream. Too much stress and nonsense! The weird thing at this point, was that I didn't "feel" lucid, but I thought I'd try to kick my feel up and do a little low hovering flight, just to test things. And sure enough, it worked! I was weightless. Oh Lord JESUS thank god I'm lucid haha!

I took to flight with all my stuff gathered up in my arms, and was going to fly out the front door and go find Danny at the car maybe. Then I remembered I still hadn't done the food TOTM yet! I looked at the stuff in my arms and realized that there were some groceries there, including a bunch of green onions. I just bit of a huge hunk of the green parts, and they tasted crisp and spicy, just like they should. At this point I thought since I'm at work anyway, and right at the produce section of Whole freaking Foods, I should have a feast! I walked by the fruit stands, and noticed a displaced cookie case that should have been in the bakery. A giant, soft-baked chocolate chip cookie with marshmallow chunks stood right in front. SO I grabbed it.. god, it was still warm. I shoved about half of it into my mouth, and it was heaven. Chocolatey, melty-marshmallowey, ewey gooey warm sweet deliciousness. I started just going glutton all over this cookie, when I noticed it was making the dream unstabilize. I thought of Alyzarin in her recent food lucid (if you're reading this ALy, I owe you one), so I thought to calm down, and shift my focus. This seemed to chill things out. This next part is VERY sexually graphic. You've been warned.

Spoiler for EXTREMELY Mature Content.:

I felt so triumphant, which usually leads to a wave of randiness I reached down and my boy parts grew on command. I hadn't done this in a lucid in a while, so I just belted out "Oh YEAAAAH baby, here I come!" Why am I such a dickhead in lucids when I'm a dude? Anyway, there were a ton of people passing by in the produce section, but no one looked good. I remember specifically a tall, gray-haired old man. Nooo thanks. Then I noticed a young woman with soft curly brown hair in a flower-print dress with a matching purse, sitting on a stack of crates by the apples. She looked pious and virginal. I said something really crude, I can't remember what it was. I'm sure it was something along the lines of "Hey baby wanna f---" Anyway the crate she was sitting on put her hips at about hip level with me. She agreed to have sex with me, so I started unbuttoning my jeans. All the while she was talking to me, saying things like she didn't really know how to do anything, I just ignored her. What happened next was the most vivid lucid sex I have ever had. By vivid, I don't mean really all that pleasurable or satisfying, rather the details and the length and the regular 5 senses were really increased from what I'm used to. I was just going at it, and she would moan when I did extra things, like bite her neck, or when I put her boob in my mouth. I remember feeling like this wasn't really doing much for me, but I just kept going, since the dream and my lucidity was hanging on so well. I would push her upper body back and go faster, then I would pull her back up into an upright sitting position on the crates and go slower, kissing, sucking, giving HER all sorts of pleasure, but my dick just kinda felt numb. I finally felt the dream begin to fade, so I just let it. I basically got what I wanted from the dream, if I wanted to get off I could do that manually irl when I wake up lol.

Prebed: 1 1/2 glass of soy milk

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Recall method: none, woke up briefly after each dream but was so sleepy, I didn't bother to write anything. Did not attempt WBTB either. Everything is so fragmented now, good thing I still remember although with much less detail the short DILD I had.

Dream1: We are back to high school and as usual we have to do an extra year. Everybody should be in class soon, I wonder again how are we going to do that. I am waiting for a friend of mine to show up as usual, I don't think he did.

Fragment2: One of my classmates, her features are a bit strange and now she also has a sister that looks very similar to her. (She actually has a brother)

Fragment3: On the beach, I am watching the waves. I think somebody, it kind of looked like a documentary and I was part of it, said that here the waves are just the right size to swim and maybe surf?

Dream4 mini-DILD: The background is grey and a number of DCs that look like zombies are walking towards me. I become lucid. I remember my recent resolution to freestyle during the next lucids and see what I can make out of the situation. I decide that I will use this one to train my reactions. Ok, so they are walking towards me, I don't care at all. I am just consciousness, no material substance, they can't hurt me. They are still advancing, and one comes so close that it actually touches my hand. I feel and see my hand and this destroys my concept of non-materiality. I brace myself for the impact. The dream slowly fades and I wake up.

Note to self: Maybe I should spend less time thinking and more time acting in LDs?

Fragment5: I go to the kitchen to look for the bottle of water I bought for myself irl and find that one of our guests has opened it and now holds it in her hand. It is too late to say anything, I just wish this hasn't happened.

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April Review

Number of ld nights: 9 (3 with double lds)

Number of lds: 12 (2 WILD, 2 DEILD, 8 DILD)

Quality: Good, with few exceptions, a few fade away issues and changing the scene is still a challenge

Recall: I am getting used to having a roller-coaster type of recall. I am not sure if I should place additional demands on that at the moment.

Things to work on:

- I think I might go for some flexibility on task completion and work more on stability. (But who knows in what kind of mood I will be?)

- I also want to go back to a more decent WBTB schedule after meeting all kinds of relatives and friends is over.

- There are other issues (like changing the scene) to work on but will see how it all goes and deal with them accordingly.

I got more than I expected in April, so I won't be expecting more than I can get in May. Just keep dreaming...

#173 - 4:21am - MILD


I don't know when I become lucid exactly as the first part of this dream is hazy. I think I must have been at least semi-lucid for a bit until I fully realized it was a dream.

I am in some office building. There are chairs and a couch to wait and a long rounded counter with three young women working behind it. The look of it reminds me of something like the county tax assessors office at the courthouse in Carthage, MO. The look and feel is the same and the building looks just as old.

I think there was something about... I was trying to get someone to help me but for some reason they chose to ignore me. I get annoyed and sit back down.

Then an elderly black man in an old school suit and fedora comes in and starts talking to the women at the counter. He looks a lot like Morgan Freeman but says he is Jesus. This gets my attention.



I am fully lucid now and standing next to him. I ask him shocked, "Did you just say you were Jesus?"
He's several inches taller than me and has to look down to answer, "That's right."
I remember I am standing there in just my boxer-briefs and make a weak attempt to cover myself. "Oh well I guess I should be more dressed but I think it's OK since I am really in my bed. This is a dream."
Jesus gives me a half smile and a knowing look and gets back to talking to the women. "Now, what I was sayin' was, Everyone's clicking along like an old dog...tryin' to find their way... But they all got something missing. You ain't gonna get nowhere without Jesus."
I interrupt him now though he looks finished, "OK wait. Let me make sure I'm going to remember this." I recite the words back to him, "Everyone's clicking along like an old dog...tryin' to find their way... But they all got something missing. Uhhh... what was the last part."
Now, Jesus looks like he can't remember what he just said and I find this to be a flaw. I suppose he really is just a dream character after all. He scrunches his face and hisses through his teeth like he is trying so hard to remember. "Oh Jesus help me", he says.
"Oh wait" I blurt out the rest of the words, "You ain't gonna get nowhere without Jesus. I got it."
Jesus smiles, gives me another knowing look and looks satisfied. Was he just toying with me there? He turns to the women behind the counter. "Now. Get this man an account." He puts his fedora on and turns to leave.
"Hey wait.", I say. Jesus pauses. "Ummm. Well... Why do you look..."
Jesus' head snaps around and he gives me a half-joking scolding look.
I figure he knows anyway I might as well just ask. "I'm just going to say it. Why are you a black man?"
Jesus shrugs and leaves me to figure it out waiting patiently.
I say, "Oh because you're Jesus and you can take any form you want!"
Jesus tips his hat and smiles and walks away.

I turn to the women behind the counter buy they are hurriedly getting things together to leave for the day. I guess I don't really need an account? Not wanting the dream to end and forgetting all my goals now, I say, "Hey! What do you want to do now?
The one that I just seem to know as Megan says, "Play paintball!"
"Oh well I..." I stop myself thinking of Jesus' visit.
"What?"
"Oh I was going to say something inappropriate but I don't think Jesus would appreciate that."
Megan laughs, "Oh well you better keep it to yourself."

The dream seems to be starting to fade now but I suddenly remember part of my task. It was something to do with intelligent DCs. I decide to just test one of the ladies. I see and plain yet attractive brunette sitting on the couch waiting for the other girls. There is a tall window behind her letting in sunlight. The room looks slightly smoky. I walk to her. "Hey, what's your name?"
Megan sarcastically yells from the back room, "Uh MEGAN."
"Not you. Her."
The brunette answers, "Kaysha"
"What?"
"Kaysha."
I find the name odd and it feel a little like I forced her to say a random name. "Ok Kaysha. Who are you?"
Kaysha immediately responds, "The administrator."
"The administrator... Yeah that's not what I meant. Who are you personally?" As soon as I asks that Kaysha, along with the other two, including Megan, shut down and becomes silent and lifeless. I pat her leg with mock sympathy but mostly for stability as now the dream is getting really dark. I continue now with a mocking tone. "See? That's what I'm talking about. It's OK Kaysha. It's OK.

The dream fades and I allow myself to wake up to recall the dream.

3/16/13

1. I am lucid. I am in a factory setting. I try to explain to a crowd of characters about what happened in my previous dream. There is a man giving a tour in the scene of my dream. The people appear frustrated. I decide that it is my dream, the world is mine, and I jump on the tour-holder, liberating myself from the restraints. A group of DCs follow me happily.

A business man, outside in the open, steps out of a black car and says: "Let's go. It's time to wake up," but I just flip him off. I make the mistake of thinking it is a shared dream, and I run with five other people. I tell them to focus on their senses to make the dream real, but I did not realize that they weren't. We race through a desert and forest. I have begun to label all forested areas (those that aren't plains or urban) as part of the Marsh, because it has expanded recently and has been appearing a lot in my dreams lately. We see a house. Grimilia steps out of a corner. I have not seen her in years; why has she returned? She must be sentient for her to appear like this. She must be a part of me that has become self-aware, dissociated from my psyche because of her significance or other reasons. Maybe she resembles something or somebody. Could she be a representation of a problem? Some things happen, and everything explodes into a blinding white. I tell the characters to run, but when I look back I only see two of them.

It was a little after 8 o'clock this morning. I was laying in bed not wanting to get up. The sun was pouring through the window, illuminating the room, making it vary difficult to sleep. I was rolling restlessly in bed, pulling my blanket over myself to block the sun, and then throwing them off when I got hot. I settled, laying on my right side, arm under my pillow, starring at my bedroom door. My mind started to wander. I must have fallen asleep at this moment, although I can't remember when.

I was laying in the same position as when I was awake, and the environment was the same. It was as if I hadn't even fallen asleep. I was doing the same thing as when I was awake, just thinking. I don't know how long I thought, or for that matter what of. But then I realized something, I was thinking about a person who I'd never met.

Then something striking came to thought, 'Am I dreaming?' I reached up and plugged my nose, and to my surprise, the air rushed right on through. I opened my eyes and sat up in my bed. My room looked just as I had left it, and it all look real. My heart was beating hard and I had a knot in my stomach, I was really excited. It couldn't have been more then a few seconds before a rush of weariness came over me. I slowly fell back on to my pillow and my eye lids felt like they were being pulled down. I fought the pull and tried to force my eyes back open.

It worked. With a gasp my eyes opened wide and I shot back up in my bed. Just this time it was for real.

12-2/?/12-13

1. I come to school and go inside. I go to the library in the morning, but it looks very different. Upon pulling a book from the shelf, I become transported to some sort of place. It is like I am floating in the sky. Text appears in the sunrise. It is like I am taking a test, and the clouds are my paper. I am asked a series of questions by a voice in the heavens. I look down, but I cannot see anything. Then, he speaks another time, and the text jumbles together and rewrites itself, spelling out: "YOU ARE DREAMING." Everything becomes shockingly vivid. Then, I proceed to the next question. The voice asks me something, and music begins to play. A little black button appears with an electronic base, floating in front of me, with the words "DEMISE" scribbled onto it. I press it.
2. I am in the living room late at night with my headphones on. I assume I fell asleep with it on. Then, I realize that the voice on the podcast is the same as the one from the dream. I become lucid. Then, a familiar woman enters my house. She tells me to go to sleep, but I know that I already am. "You aren't real! I'm dreaming," I say, but she just looks at me. Everything feels so real that I begin to believe that I've actually woken up. It is time to settle this. I do a reality check, but I get a false negative. My eyes are blurry- I try to pull my eyelids apart to clarify, but I cannot. This is a common dreamsign among my false awakenings. I close my eyes, and force them open, waking myself, even if just to prove it was just a dream.

Originally Posted by Lmrhone

LOL! In the dream, it was normal for people to put babies in the oven if they were too pale. But for the whole dream I was wondering how I would put the baby in the oven without cooking it.

Windy! I had a Z-Apocalypse dream last night too. But that was a minor part and it seemed far away from my part of the dream, like someone else was the main character but the dreams spilled over into each other. Was your dream anywhere near a forest, or a primary school?

In this one dream one of my cousins was flirting with a girl from my church. But when they were done with that we walked out into the street (well beside the street) and I saw two deer climbing a tree (in the dream I was like "Since when do deer climb trees?!") Well the deer climbed the tree and when they were at the top they jumped. The tree was like 20 feet tall, roughly 6 meters for those outside of the U.S. and the way they landed was to tuck in there front legs and land sideways while kind of rolling. The first one landed safely and began walking away. But the second one jumped to far and when it tucked in it's legs it hit the road. Really hard, so it died. At least that's what I thought. Then my little brother ran over to it screaming and poked it, then it got up, it was all messed up and ran away.

In my earlier dream I was standing on a dirt pile, like huge, kind of like a really small mountain. And I jumped, but I jumped REALLY far and landed on another dirt mound.

Now here's the dream with the zombies. Well I was in the car with my mom and some of her friends. Then I had to get out. It was me and my brother. Then I went into the forest and I saw a rainbow. Then through most of my forest time I was killing Greek gods who told me things like "You would betray your friends for the prize too." Actually, the guy who said that was on a team with me and my brother. Well he ended up tricking my brother into running back into the forest after we walked out and this is what happened. He began to run after my brother to kill him. So I started chasing him. He picked up a big pipe so he could throw it at my brother, so I picked up a large branch to throw at him before he could hit my brother with the pipe. As he stopped to talk to my brother before he threw the pipe, I threw the branch at him. He fell to the ground and yelled. I ran up to him and apparently something else had fell on him too, a LOT bigger than my branch. So I picked up the branch, and began to twist it into his back (like a screw) until the hole was completely through his back, it took three times to do that before he died. Then me and my brother walked out of the forest confidently, knowing this was only the beginning. And as we crossed the street and were walking in someone else's front yard a blue SUV came rushing down the street, then as they rode by us they stomped on the brakes and the tires screeched as they sped back down the road and pulled up beside us. Since me and my brother went through a lot we were wary of getting in, even though the people in the truck were all very close family. I assumed that they were gods who changed form. But something made that change. Then a zombie came up from down the street and from that one zombie I felt that everything down the street was plagued by zombies. (This is only a fraction of the whole dream.)

Did I have a synch with you? This isn't from this morning, it was from an earlier night. I'll highlight in blue where I think we synched.

4/28/13

1. Someone jumps off of a cliff. They witness a sailing accident. It was for sport, and they survived because of their intent. I used to do something similar in previous dreams; I should have become lucid. A team is dispatched to get the jumper. Everyone still agrees that it wasn't for suicide, but I am uncertain. We fly in a helecopter over hills and mountains and bays and trees. The scenery was also another oblivious dreamsign. We land on a mountain. A boy (I think so, I am still uncertain of the gender of the characters) suddenly sprints off the cliff. An odd aura comes over me, and I feel as if the dream is taking place in the air and the land at the same time. In the air, I fall off the helicopter in a sudden jolt, but I am still clung to my reality watching this man jump to what should have been his death. I cannot explain it with words. I feel as if I fell of the helicopter for the intention of retrieving the (alive) boy. He was intending to rescue the other character, who I think has melted into a woman. I get both of them in the water. I am under pressure, and my head rings. I begin to get claustrophobic at the waves crashing and pulling the water and me. I get him, but we have to walk back to the rest of the group. The character that jumped spontaneously has disappeared from the dream. The woman who jumped and witnessed the accident has been kidnapped, although I was not aware of it. I am in a warehouse, and I remember the image of guns and the woman. I cannot remember what culminated following this. I remember walking out of the area, and becoming lucid on the street. I tell myself to stop denying it. I said that the entire scenario gave off the unrecognizable scent of dream. I remember my intent to find Tibb, the dream guide, but I fall backwards and characters spin around the dream, and I fade.

2. I am in a resort. There is a lake's beach. There are many platforms from which to fall. Many people jump (with harnesses). I get some food, and the fog comes in. It is not sunny and sweaty but cool with much plant life all around. The beach slowly changes into a cliff, and the platforms disappear. My school seems to merge with the scenery, and my classmates begin to spawn. People still jump with harnesses, except they jump diagonally in order to traverse the landscape via sky. You can fall for miles horizontally and stop suddenly and fall vertically. I cannot explain it, but the dream populous seems to be stricter about falling than the previous dream. Before, people were jumping everywhere off of hills with no fear of death. I attempt to jump with my friends, but the guard holds me back. He says that I need to have gloves or mittens because the forest is "very cold while in the sky." In order to jump, I need to have mittens to prevent frostbite, but I cannot find any. I begin to ask people for a pair. I get a jacket, but "that is not a mitten." I eventually start to loot people's backpacks. I still cannot find mittens. Now, the dream scenery is both indoors and outdoors because of the school. I am not allowed to jump, and my friends leave without me. I am very disappointed. I think that I have one more period after this (hence the invasion of the school-motif), meaning I can try again. By now, the dreamscape has completely changed from the beach to the cliff, hills, and forest to finally my schoolyard. I begin to ask for mittens again. I am met with glaring looks, but I go to a pile of socks. An idea strikes my mind, and I attempt to use the socks as gloves for next time.

I woke up in the middle of the night then went back to sleep [maybe false awakening.] So i'm going along in a lucid dream and what not. Then out of nowhere the dream stops. I'm back in my bed right were i was when i went to sleep. Exactly the same. Except everything was black and white. I was still conscious at the time, it felt like i was awake but i could tell i was asleep because i could not talk or move, like i could see through my eyelids. I think i might've been in sleep paralysis. There was this big black monster standing over me not moving at all just staring. It resembled the stature of a human only croched over. I tried to tell it to get away from me using my mind. I woke myself up before it could respond.

The dream started out by someone attacking me and I thought as I started to fly this is a dream! I flew over large beautiful landscapes until I ended at a beach and its the middle of the night. I captured the person chasing me and put them in the alien ball thing to send them off out into space. I sent the person off and watch the white alien like ball dissapear in the night sky. A random DC pointed to the sky and said look how beautiful it is!

I looked up and there were fireworks this made me thinks of an old basic task of the month. This reminded me of the current TOTM! I looked around for a piece of coal and found one as soon as a thought about it. I picked up the piece of coal crushed it and picked out the diamond. I thought about how ophelia put her diamon in the light and decided to do the same.

When I put the diamond in the light the tips of fingers also started to turn into diamond. I thought this is pretty cool and decided to keep the diamond with me in my pocket since it was so awesome.(I know being attached to a dream diamond is kinda lame.) In this dream I decided to befriend as many DCs as possible because usually I don't trust me. I feel they could turn on me at any moment just because I have that thought. So I shoke the DCs hand and asked what is your name sir? He said bill. Nice to meet you bill I said. I started to walk and ran into my friend roberto.

He soon left to go fight someone. I really didn't do much at this point just walk around different dream scences until I woke up. I believe I went to a mall and a hotel.

PRIMUL VIS(LUCID):Am facut metoda FILD si am reusit iar cand m-am trezit din pat am facut un RC (cel cu nasul) Iar am reusit sa respir.(Cand am facut RCUL era foarte vivid visul) Apoi am zis:Hey,timpul sa fac chestiile pentru vis.Apoi mi-am frecat mainile si m-am invartit .Apoi am incercat sa fac ziua afara dar nu am putut,asa ca am incercat sa fac sa apara ciocolata (a aparut o ciocolata MILKA de caramel(sau portocale).Apoi am tot mancat si m-am saturat sa mananc ciocolata mi-am zis ca vreau ceva mai sarat asa ca am incercat sa fac sa apara o punga de chipsuri(lays cu sare) am incercat de mai multe ori pana am reusit .Dupa aceea am visat ca am stat cu mami in pat si am vorbit cu ea despre Astral Projection si FILD si lucid dreaming si de toate.
Al doilea vis:Am visat ca m-am dus in baie si faceam video chat cu o fata de pe facebook: (CARLA DIANA BODEA,sau ceva de genul) iar eu mi-am spalat bretonul(era pe marginea cadei un sampon foarte mare cu un ambalaj colorat si aveam ca si la sapunul lichid capacul.Iar eu am incercat sa il iau dar il gandul meu era: Hey,oare ce o sa zica fata cand o sa imi spal bretonu cu un sampon asa ieftin? iar ei i-am zis ca ma spal cu acel sampon pentru ca nu vreau sa il consum pe al meu)Iar dupaia nu stiu ce i-am spus ca vreau sa fac sh nu am mai facut video chat.Apoi m-am dus pe hol(creca mi-am uscat bretonul nu stiu sigur) si am vrut sa ma dau cu placa,placa mea de obicei are 185 de grade dar de data asta nu se putea da mai tare de 60 de grade(ma gandeam : Ce naiba,placa mea are mai multe grade) iar atunci am primit un super self-awareness in vis dar pana la urma nu stiu ce am facut si mi-am zis OO daa asta era problema.
Al treilea vis:am visat ca am fost pe banca in fata blocului si erau niste baieti(erau cu bicicletele.) iar nu stiu ce tot facea CARLA DIANA BODEA(pe banca din dreapta)(bancile erau foarte apropiate)(era imbracata in niste pantaloni negri spre gri si un tricoul alb) iar langa mine era un baiat cu un tricou negru si cu niste pantaloni gri(creca baiatul era inalt) si nu stiu ce tot ii spunea lui CARLA si apoi mi-a spus el:Ce fraiera.(apoi m-a apucat un sentiment :El o uraste pe ea.Creca ma place)
Al patrulea vis:Treceam cu mami pe langa perete(acolo langa banca de pe motorului(margelanului) (simteam ca mergeam la ora de ed fizica) iar eu glumeam si radeam cu mami iar cand am trecut de aia nu stiu cum am aparut sub podul de pe strada(cel de acolo de langa saormarie unde a lucrat gabi serban)(inainte sa ajungem acolo m-am uitat pe mana daca am elastic sa imi prind parul si nu aveam iar apoi am gasit unul rupt pe jos si nu l-am luat iar mami a gasit altul bun si l-a luat de sus(pe langa ala bun mai erau si altele de culoare galben(nu toate))iar ea mi la dat si eram ceva de genu:Serios de pe jos?Si eu radeam si ea nu zicea nimica era poker face.(in timpul ala seba si cu bunica lui treceau (seba avea in cap palaria lui verde si el se tot uita la mine si eu am observat asta doar ca m-am uitat la mami si radeam ceva mai ciudat(dar frumos) . Iar apoi M-am trezit. (Inainte sa ma culc i-am spus la mami sa ma trezeasca la sase iar creca am visat ca m-a trezit mami la 6 pentru ca mi s-a intamplat de 2 ori)

Dream recall from today's naps.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was visiting dreamviews and then was trying to WILD.

Nap #2(fragment):

I am walking around the home, and while walking around one of rooms i did spontaneously realized that i am dreaming. I could not move, but after a second i could. I went through the door and to the left it was dark and i tried to manipulate shadows into summoning something. I saw very shadowy and small pterodactyl looking creature, but then dream faded out.
I woke up but i kept eyes closed, i saw the room with closed eyes but i thought it was HH, there was an board with an word 'SPECIAL' on ti. I tried to DEILD but then i got interrupted by someone entering the room, i opened the eyes and it was someone from family, then shortly i woke up properly.

So last night I was trying WBTB WILD again, I imagined my dream scene like I always do:
The very cliche, tall pale grass, horizon-less meadow with a single tree to one side. Instead, I wake up in my room -___-. But oh well! I was LUCID, and was so happy I forgot to stabilize, which I think has something to do with why it ended kinda fast. I tried teleporting, like people I've seen have talked about before but when I opened my eyes trying to get to my cliche dream-scene I was in the middle of the desert, so I flew around for maybe 5 minutes, or what felt like that anyway which was beast. Then I was really eager to try this shape-shifting technique that I've seen talked about on the forums a lot, I began to sprint along the ground, and was so excited(The feeling of just sprinting along freely with 0 stamina in the dream-world just feels immense) and then I began running on all fours thinking about becoming a Lion/black panther but then the dream just faded and I woke up. Tonight(If I become lucid again, hopefully will! ) I'm going to follow some steps in the Dream stabilization thread I've read on here.

Either way, I'm glad after a few nights failed experiments it worked haha.

Key: Notes/Comments Nonlucid Dream
Lucid Dream
I was going to try a WILD, but it was way too loud, so I instead did a MILD with a mantra of "I will realize I am dreaming." I had some REM rebound from lack of sleep from the night before.

Dream 1, Nonlucid Dream

I was in a city like San Francisco, except it was cleaner. This asian guy had this big staff with colorful bubbles in it. I acquired the staff somehow. I realized that the staff had magical powers. I pointed it toward a car and a white light flew from the end of the staff to the car: the car grew in size. Eventually some guys came up to me, they were like "Give me that staff of yours" and so I shrunk them. Later this girl came up to me and said, "The staff of gods! You can grow things, resurrect people, and kill people!" I walked around 'San Francisco' and I dropped my staff at one point. It rolled under a car. I went under the car and noticed that the colorful bubbles, which looked like bubbles, had spilled out. I used the staff to suck them up somehow. Someone called my name, though, and I forgot the staff. The dream sort of 'skipped' at this point and I was in a car driving with my mom. I think she was driving to work. I realized that I had left my staff at the city, under the car. I said,
"Oh no! I left my staff under the car! It has magical powers." My mom gave me an annoyed look.
"Staffs in real life don't have magical powers," she said.
"It must have been a dream then," I said.

Dream 2, Lucid Dream

I was at my school. Two boys were following me around. They said, "I can't believe she doesn't realize that this is a dream."Then, of course, I became lucid. I'm dreaming!I thought, shouting it in my mind. I forgot to stabilize, but I DID remember the TotM. I took off running, and found the nearest person I saw. His name is Nate Yu. I barely know him in waking life, but he goes to my school. I ran up to him. I was confident he would give me a lump of coal when I asked.
"Hey, I need you to give me that lump of coal you're carrying around." I got this idea from CanisLucidis' dream journal post. He nods, and pulls out of his pocket what my dream thinks to be a lump of coal. It's got some black, like coal, but it's connected to some sparkly, rough, silver rock that's more pliable, like clay. "Thanks," I say. I squeeze the rock in my hands, but instead of getting a diamond, I got a boring rock. I ran off, still squeezing the rock, but eventually I gave up and threw the rock on the ground. I thought of making coal materialize at this point, but I decided I'd try asking a few more people first. I went to where there was most people: the lockerrooms. I ran over screaming, "HEY, IF ANYONE HAS A LUMP OF COAL CAN THEY GIVE IT TO ME PLEASE?" Everyone just looked at me oddly and continued what they were doing in the lockerroom. I noticed that the boys were also entering the girls' lockerroom along with the other girls. Eventually I gave up and ran off to these 3 boys. I was also thinking of some of my dream goals I also had. I asked them, "Hey, can I have that coal you're carrying around? I can turn it into a diamond." They looked at eachother, considering it, and the middle boy nodded and handed me a lump of the silvery rock instead of coal. For some reason it seemed like the 'coal' was used like a drug in this dream. I squeezed it into a diamond shape, but no actual diamond. They started to look angry. "It's okay, it's okay. I can make it into a diamond like they have in minecraft." I tried again. No diamond. The boys looked even more angry, but instead of beating me up, like I thought they would, they ran off. I turned around. I could hear my 5-year-old stepbrother Gabriel screaming in waking life. He's going to wake me up!I thought. I could hear my brother trying to quiet him down. The dream was blurry and extremely unstable now. I ran my hand across the nearest wall, and it felt real as one would in real life. Then, thinking of a post on dreamviews about 'making out' with the dream, I dropped to my knees. I felt super disconnected from the dream by now when I said, "The ground is going to taste like strawberries instead of the ground." I licked the ground. It felt rough, like the ground would normally, and it tasted like a juicy strawberry. Then his screaming started again. I decided that he would inevitably wake me up anyway, so I decided that I'd try my first DEILD. I exited the dream, and then I kept my eyes closed when I woke up. Almost immediately I heard the 'vibrations' (which, to me, sounded alot more like blood rushing through my ears.) I freaked out because this is my first time hearing them and started flailing my leg around in an effort to wake myself up. I kicked myself in the morning for not tolerating the vibrations

Total sleep time: 7 hrs, still tired

Dinner: 2 Eggs plus other stuff
Prebed: 1 1/2 Glass of soy milk

Fragment1: I am some kind of adventurer, like Indiana Jones, a man as well. I am about to enter a bunker, when the doors begin to close. I don't want to be stuck inside so I roll on the floor and escape through the exit door just before it closes sliding from above.

Dream2 short DILD: I am in a familiar yard and there are loads of mattresses all stacked together, a pile as high as the third floor perhaps. I am initially sitting on top and trying to balance. I then get down and on the ground there is some red liquid which is toxic and contagious? A Rottweiler is under the influence of this red liquid, he is ranging mad behind a glass window, people are watching him, he is deadly dangerous. I try to quickly move away, pass by it, and find myself on the street. I go in the wrong direction, the street looks slightly familiar in the dream, I have no idea where I am, but confidently go in the direction which I assume is the right one. I begin to speed move on the street and become lucid. I continue speed moving, trying not to hit some people and two German shepherds in front of me. Memory gap...perhaps I woke up?

Dream3: In a store and have the feeling I have been here before. I want to pick up something I have ordered, but it looks like they couldn't deliver because they don't have my address. The old lady behind the counter takes out a piece of paper and shows me that the address is missing. As I am trying to fill out the address, it begins to change, but I am filling out a non-existent address anyways and that does not seem odd at all. I then see that they are selling a special tea to make you lucid. I am so happy they are finally selling those things and want to buy a pack. I also want to get a fancy facial lotion but become distracted, so I forget about it.

Fragment4: Another store, this time I am looking at coffee mugs, wondering whether to buy one. There is also a beautiful teapot and a guy is trying to pour water in the tea cup, but it doesn't quite work. One of us is actually biting the teapot, can't remember who it was.

Dream5: In something like a museum, similar to a place I have been before in another dream. It also resembles a bookstore and they are selling drawing materials, I wanted to buy these so that I can begin painting with color. Further ahead there are two guys wrestling. They are playing a strange game, as if they are anime characters, and one pretends to hurt the other and the other pretends he gets kicked in the butt. I think of how good they are at doing this whole thing, this requires a lot of skill.

A semi-familiar girl comes to me and wants me to be her partner in this strange game, but I can't do it, so I turn her down. She then takes out a napkin with something written on it. I just see the first few lines: DEILD and SxxEILD. So she is into lucid dreaming? I ask her what her nickname is, I am assuming she has a DV profile. She looks kind of offended and as if I have crossed some privacy line. She takes back the napkin and walks away.

Dream6 DILD, TOTM: I am with my friends and boyfriend and it looks like we are doing some laundry. We are inside some place maybe public laundry, maybe store, it is rather empty, just us there. We go out on the street and hail starts to fall. I also see some lightning. I then look at the sky and see some indescribable lights there. They take the form of many invisible airplanes. There is also some thunder-like sound. I tell my friends, " And you didn't believe about the end of the world, well here it is!". I look in the sky again, something like a small sun, looking menacing to me.

Strange things in the sky, I may be dreaming. I become aware. I still feel threatened, what if this is real? No, it's a dream! I tell myself. Ok, it's a dream, but this thing is in the sky, let me get out of there. I turn around the corner, and continue on my way but the dream begins to fade. I continue walking and start rubbing my hands, but I don't feel them so much and that worries me. They actually feel kind of numb (but not paralyzed). I see a DC woman and desperately try to cling with my mind to her, I ask her to help me, I try to engage her, but whatever she answers I can barely hear.

I think I may have quickly DEILDed at some point, but it was more like a mild dream fade and then back to the dream, no time in the void. I turn back and see that the thing in the sky is taking a lot of space now and it reminds me of the war of worlds machine. I turn my back and think that if I go far away from it, it may not notice me or just disappear. I continue on my way, it is of course a dead end street. I even stumble on some steps of this dead end street, shortly wondering how did I manage to do that? I begin climbing a fence and cross to where there are some houses. I enter one and find myself in the kitchen. I notice something interesting there, can't remember what. I go in the other room, and concentrate on a DC that is watching TV. " Tell me about the situation, what is going on with this thing outside?" I then remember that I don't need to stay here and want to change the scene.

There are now three DCs in the room. " I need to change the scene, will you help me?", I ask them. A very helpful and enthusiastic DC takes the initiative " Sure, I will help you, guide you, where do you want to be?" happily replies the man. I initially think "Angel Falls" but then I remember I wanted to finish TOTM first. So I glance at the floor and start looking for coal. I see a large black object and take a piece of it, but it turns into a backpack and the piece in my hand is useless. I turn to the DC woman on my left. " Quickly, give me a piece of coal" , she hands me a brown black pointy piece of a coal. I place it between my fingers and it feels like rubber. I begin pressing it and try to shape it into a diamond. I shortly close my eyes and the dream begins to fade. I am annoyed. " Turn to diamond, turn to diamond", I have to have positive expectations, I remind myself. I look into my hands and finally a diamond shaped crystal is there. The way it is faceted reminds me of a crystal glass my grandma had. Still holding the diamond in my hands I start thinking that I have everything I need to do the four-in-one task in this room with the DCs. Then the dream fades and so does my overall ability to concentrate.I wake up and head for the journal.



Comments: Wow! Finally got that diamond, not quite as I expected or planned the whole thing, but still... and with April almost over, I think it's time for me to relax and call it a month!

Edit: Wrote down this entry, everybody left and I decided to go back to bed because I felt tired. As usual I was taking my time relaxing in bed when bf decided to give me a call. I told him that I am tired of being woken up, and decided to get up since our guests will soon be back from their walk.

Lol! This whole situation is getting ridiculous, but then I have to ask myself "Perhaps this lack of sleep and constant disruption is keeping me on the edge while at the same allowing for some REM rebound to occur?" The truth is I have had 7 LDs since our guests arrived, so I probably should turn my coal complaining into a diamond gratefulness? Whatever the reason, thanks for the great month!